#in my own very humble

[izayoichan]

Hello there.

#ffxiv #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv oc #ffxiv wol #final fantasy xiv #male elezen #ffxiv elezen #what can I say #he is a handsome elezen #in my own very humble #and completely unbiased #oppinion

[perplexingly]

My account is truly ancient, and I've drawn for so many fandoms and some of the over decade old drawings are still in circulation, and just by experiencing how fandoms interact with them I have gained knowledge I don't know what to do about,,,

#eg Lorax fandom still exists #Berserk fandom keeps old pieces in circulation for literal decades #Or like #Every now and then I'll see tags like: 'I can't believe I found it again!! I first saw it when I was a teen and it changed me as a person' #And then I look and it's the most random drawing with 1000 notes #These are very humbling btw it's interesting what sticks with people and how different it is from my own feelings #Also #It's interesting that it's the less popular pieces from niche fandoms that get circulated far longer #While the ones that got many notes from bigger fandoms lose relevance immediately #(with some exceptions)

[quatregats]

Something I've been thinking about is how Patrick O'Brian manages so skillfully to write characters whose actions contradict their beliefs, which I think is honestly a big part of why his characters feel so real. Mostly with Stephen and Jack—e.g., and perhaps most notably, Stephen has notably leftist sympathies (honestly I have no idea how to characterize his politics in period terms) who nonetheless becomes very comfortable with his rise to the landed gentry, while Jack is a card-carrying Tory who much of the time sympathizes far more with working class sailors and farmers than with the upper classes—but I'm sure he does it to a lesser degree with some of his minor characters (James Dillon, while perhaps not precisely minor, comes to mind), and I love that he's able to do that, especially the way in which he embeds it in the narrative. We see how they're all unreliable narrators of themselves; we understand how they want to be seen and how that does and doesn't coincide with the reality, but most importantly, this isn't presented as something reprehensible, just as a part of their own humanity. They are not their expectations for themselves, but they don't need to be those expectations to be beloved.

#stephen is especially guilty of this and i think it's very interesting how he thinks of himself versus how he acts #which is probably an essay on its own #but i do think that this is another point he and jack make a fun foil on #(for jack this manifests much less explicitly but i think it's definitely still there) #i can't think of other characters atm besides james dillon #(who okay. his actions don't contradict his beliefs exactly but there is a weird and complex relationship between them) #though i do suspect that there are probably more #idk i've been thinking about this a lot because o'brianizing hornblower has brought to the forefront #how different those two authors treat internal/external narratives #patrick o'brian is kind of like yeah they don't really line up but that's okay that's just what it's like to be a person #while for hornblower and cs forester it's like the internal narrative is so unbelievably unreliable and negative #but the external narrative also seems to be resoundingly positive #(which is probably why. in my humble opinion having watched two episodes of it. the tv show is much more Fun) #writing hornblower in o'brian format is just like wow there is no weirdness going on did i write him wrong #but no it's hornblower he just sounds so much more normal without the 24/7 mental gymnastics #perce rambles #aubreyad

[captainkirkk]

I adore every moment that Maia thinks about what his father would have done and actively chooses to do the opposite, to choose compassion even when it's hard and goes against his instincts

His internal pov is very self-deprecating and draws attention to his own perceived weaknesses as a baby emperor, but it must take so much bravery and strength to continue to try to be compassionate, to not choose cruelty, especially towards people that disdain him or want to use him for their own gain

#im proud of all his little moments of strength #though im very worried about this kid #tge #the goblin emperor #liveblogging #my posts #another way tge is different to HOTE: we get maia's humble and self depreciating pov #and his own embarrassed inner monologue #instead of cliopher mdang's love sick and deeply admiring pov on his beloved emperor #would be VERY interested to read the pov of the other characters in tge

[adwox]

rainy days

#mega man x #xzero #mmx x #mmx zero #megaman #zerox #the second i came home today drenched in rain i knew i had to whip this out #theyre waterproof and the umbrella id honestly more inconvienent but zero knows X likes stuff like this #human stuff you could say. but i feel that implies X wants to be human and i dont agree with thet #more that hes just naturally curious and would want to have the experience of sharing an umbrella #i imagine zero thought of the idea to use an umbrella with him fully on his own #like he just kind of put two and two together. which is one of Xs favorite things abt him #zero is very observant and action oriented but after getting to know X he uses his perception primarily just to make X as happy as he can #zeros love language is acts of service in my HUMBLE OPINION. #i could go on. #>mine_>art

[rexcaliburechoes]

gale is ambition, so he has both crippling self doubt and debilitating pride in his work.

gale is ambition, so if a character tries to undermine him by one-upping him, he'll think he's not nothing left. more else can the orb destroy that it hasn't already?

gale is ambition, so if a character tries to undermine him by one-upping him, he'll vehemently deny that. he's the wizard of waterdeep. he was mystra's chosen. he was her lover. who could be any better than that?

gale is ambition. it's his greatest flaw and his greatest asset.

#baldur's gate 3 #gale #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #gale bg3 #bg3 gale #spoilers #bg3 spoilers #rex rambles #obvious take is obvious but i've been ruminating on his reactions to sorcerer tav/tav generally undermining his experience and expertise #it's the same principle if anyone's every played an instrument and you see a 5 year old playing music better than you #who has had 20+ years of study and practice #it's humbling; it makes you feel like shit; it incenses you to try harder to get better #that's ambition. it's both the self doubt and the pride #of course gale is going to be petty back; you've literally just stepped on both the pride and self doubt at the same time #ruminating on the bg3 cast a little too late but it's fine lmao. i think he's neat and i like him a lot #i'm very obsessed with my own drow war cleric though. oh no he's hot ig lmao #i also have some thoughts about the soundtrack which ar very interesting to me

[boinin]

he is wayyy too smug about being my new icon

#my theme is now very seasonal looking! I also made a header #i have done more to decorate tumblr than I have my own living space (but I am between homes atm) #anyway it's still boinin: humble kunigiri truther here under the frosty blue theme #kunigiri will return 🌚 someday #blue lock #blue lock manga #bllk #bllk manga #michael kaiser #bllk fanart #bllk manga colouring #bllk chp 157

[thebirdandhersong]

one of the things I shall have to think through now is how to switch to a new church, on account of things going down Real Bad at my current one, and a plethora of headache-causing reasons that I am too tired to go into, but suffice it to say........ I can't stay at this one long-term and I need to figure out how to a) say goodbye and b) find a new community

#this sounds very dramatic. it's really not though #it's just a matter of needing to not be somewhere that's constantly full of conflict drama and a lack of humble and self-giving love to the #community. there's no direction here and i didn't want to believe that but it's become more and more obvious #anyway i need to figure this one out and soon! alas #the main problem is that the anglican network in canada doesn't actually have that many churches because of the split #but that's logistics i need to figure out on my own time ......

[sggk]

This sounds so silly but i’m actually kind of glad my body physically gave up on me this week & that i’m on day 8 of stress-induced vertigo that literally stops me from functioning (w/ varying levels. i could function ystdy ok but i obviously overdid & i can’t walk again today!). bc before this not going to lie i never actually believed ppl when they said you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of others bc i’ve always just pushed myself through it (to my detriment!! but nevertheless i am always able to do it). but those were all difficult mental periods that i ignored bc my body could always still push through the motions. i’ve never had my body physically give up purely from mentally/emotionally overextending myself before & now i’m like ohhhhhhhhh. Everybody maybe had a point and i do not know everything in the world ❤️

#My mom has always told me i need to put on my own oxygen mask before i can help others w/ theirs & i was always fondly like ❤️ Well #that’s absurd bc i would simply not do that . But now my body has thrown itself outside the plane & i get it bc it’s scary to not be able #to help ppl now in a very real literal physical sense bc i’ve made it so it’s impossible! Another humbling exp for shailee in the year 2023 #Goodness . this trend is so fun & unrelenting. I’m going to emerge from this hell a new evolution or smth

[ophernelia]

one thing i ask of you guys is to never call yourself a fan of mine. you're not a fan, you just enjoy lykaia. (and i love that lol) also i am no sort of entity to be a fan of. i just write a story and share it. a creative, sure, but not a creator in that sense. and i don't want that to sound like i don't appreciate the support because i do! just understand we're on equal footing. we've got a shared interest, that's all!

#idk i dont like idolization verbiage #it makes me very uncomfortable #also stuff like queen and anything along those lines #i genuinely appreciate the sentiment but idk how to tell yall im just a girl lol #one who got lucky with the algorithm and was able to connect with quite a bit of yall but thats really it #said it before and i'll say it again i'm not here to influence or anything #i have only ever wanted to just do my own thing whether other people came to witness it or not #i will happily reject every pedestal no thank you! #even the 'omg i cant believe you followed me' girl ME???????? #not even in a “omg im so humble” way its just that i literally am just a person lmaoo #text post

[rafent]

♡ for Gregory (or Griss, if you're not afraid of the therapy bills from that kid)

Dragon ♀ / Sage ♀

Pure concentrated genki. Sweet, agreeable, and friendly, but has her hot-headed moments. Likes to fight and thinks victory is thrilling. Does not like to lose

Stylish! No daughter of Rafal and Gregory is going to run around looking like a street urchin. Wears and treasures the outfits the latter makes

Strong sense of justice and doing what's right, absolutely cannot stand by when people are getting hurt, and is willing to suffer pain for that ideal. A torch bearer to both parents' sense of self-sacrifice

Grew up isolated and sheltered, but loved. Adored by her fathers who give her the love they never received from their own parents. Lived in the forest together with them where they honored 'a quiet life' for a time (i.e., Gregory's ending)

One day everything changes...the country girl must enter the big city...

Character Arc: Undertakes a coming of age, Samurai Champloo-esque journey and scours the entirety of Elyos looking for her missing parents. 'Have you seen the pale dragon that smells of sweets?' Rafal being a Fell Dragon and Gregory being a fell disciple with Griss' face means that persecution of their child is inevitable. Love is not only staying close, but staying away to keep her safe. This lonely little princess waits for the day she can give them a piece of her mind

Chronically messy hair despite her best efforts. Two clueless first time dads means she had to learn the in's-and-out's of girlhood all by herself

Army Superlative(s): Most likely to lie and be caught, brightest smile in the army, the one who talks out loud the most when thinking

#◜ ₊ — 𝓡 ˚ ₊ 𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐑 ╱ meme. #twistedisciple #the genki grafal daughter who has my whole ass heart #i considered griss because i think having a kid would be very Humbling for him and rafal collectively #i still DO think that. but griss affects this kid indirectly anyway so :')))) #tldr: i foresee this gregory/rafal kid as being both the happiest and possibly loneliest child in the world #getting all the love from grafal that they didn't get from their own parents #but also being so loved that they (and i mean rafal) will do drastic things to keep her safe

[kithj]

i love moldy women

#what moves the dead #like if you would take her hand........ #unserious bc this did not turn out how i wanted LOL #very different from the image in my mind #but it was fun. i enjoyed rendering her skin. basically just turned into practice #forcing myself to do more hands and teeth after that hana drawing #i used a stock image for her face and used. myself for her body. nothing as humbling as taking ur own reference pics in the mirror #my art

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

Then go and burn it yourself, don't wait for other people to burn the establishment down.

do you honestly think that I tumblr user polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup have swedish airplane tickets money. because I don’t.

#I can’t afford international travel #I can’t physically get to sweden to burn the goat like there is no money to fund this expedition #I absolutely hate to break this to you guys but I just got out of grad school a few months ago and I have the opposite of money #debt. I have debt. #just because I make the funny arson post does not mean it’s as simple as lighting a match and making it happen like the fuck am I supposed #to do. I’m 4000 miles away. #look I am but a humble fanfiction writer and all of you people who started following me because of the arson advocacy should probably #unfollow because I post specifically about my own fanfiction and very rarely about other things

[anxiously-sidequesting]

I like doomed narratives but my ultimate Wizard101 NPC ending is the Young Wizard living in a nice secluded place with all their friends (all the necromancers, Ceren, Nolan, fuck you Boris you can live outside, Dasein, the Schismist Soldier, Mellori and the Bat) like a little village but they're all roommates and they do things like farming and brewing hot tea on Sundays free from Ambrose and the rest of the damned Spiral

#ik thats a lot of people HALSJDLDHDH #but in my version of Wizard101 that's everyone's ending. they get to heal together #i know i said all of the necromancers but i think i like it better if duncan was like maybe separate #not because i hate him but because im a huge believer of not being able to heal when the person who hurt you is right there #AND EVEN THOUGH WE DIDNT HURT HIM ON PURPOSE we're still a source of his trauma and i cant see duncan living with us right away yknow #like maybe later on in life but i like him better on his own off in the spiral to see the world and humble himself #*with artur and susie because he loves them #BUT YEA my wizard lives with everyone else at the Very End. fuck you ambrose /lh but /srs #the odd ones out honestly are ceren and nolan bc iirc in canon they dont go thru any type of shit. theyre fine #the rest of the group i mentioned have FLASHBACKS. theres some Trauma Periodt. in their cereal for breakfast #but i mean ceren and nolan can come if they want its fine #i MEAN IT about boris he CANNOT COME #yeah i said the schismist soldier. thats just my personal fantasy ik he hates us #here i am saying duncan cant be around us but thr schismist soldier ABSOLUTELY cannot be around us. but in my world he can! im a hypocrite! #itd be funny if he was still like. just a liiitle bit obsessed but its not because of his inferiority and god complexes he's just gay for us #......yeah im biased okay look he's hot leave me alone /lh #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts

[dramatic-dolphin]

just saw a post about american politics and i spent 2 minutes trying to form an opinion before i realized i don't actually have to care at all. yay!

#u could say this is about the ameeican hegemony online but it's actually about my own pervasive need to have an opinion on everything #it's a curse 😔 #do you know how fucking difficult it is. to stop myself and say “actually i don't need to have an opinion on this” #very humbling

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

also fun fact. you can effectively punch holes in plastic glow in the dark stars using a push pin and a rock and just pressing it really hard into your carpet or something so it doesn’t damage anything once it penetrates the plastic. in case you ever needed to know that

#i hope all my actors come to the premiere because i do not think i will be finishing this shit by sunday when we stop filming #going to need to tell them i have surprise presents for them all and use that to make them come see my mid short film #i have to stop putting down my own film. it’s not going to be mid. it’s going to be good. perhaps not as good as some others in the class #but it will not be as bad as the annoying ‘men’s mental health story’ bs one group is doing #frankly i don’t give a shit about men’s mental health but whatever #actually it might not be bad as a film idk their skill levels. but i won’t care about it due to there being no women in there #actually another group is making a film with no women (except the firdged mom) but i think theirs will be good #they have a cast of two people it’s not insane that there’s no women so i’ll allow it #and also of course that guys script was very good and he was actually my first choice when we voted on who’s scripts to make #no i was not my first choice…. i was trying to be humble…. #also i wouldn’t have had to be director on his film. i could have been the bitchy production manager….. #i also would have had to go on multiple hikes due to the locations they needed. so perhaps it’s a good thing my script got voted in too #and i know i complain but i do actually like my group they’re great people to work with #even if the Annoying one and i clash sometimes. i like to think of our dynamic as Divorced Coparents #which sounds more sexy than it is. it’s not sexy at all. there’s no sex going on metaphorical or otherwise #i just mean. we clash sometimes but we also have good rapport. it’s like a tense middle school friendship #and the other guy. he’s great. cringe at times but we love him #i wish i’d known him before this semester so we could have had more time to become friends this timing kinda sucks #anyway. i don’t remember how this post started. #ok bye