#is she disassociating

[yogurthoopsart]

It's always been interesting to me. How did Vanny fall in love with Taffy? Is a killer capable of loving the person he tried to kill?

im SO glad you asked. It happens a little bit after the Daycare Incident - long enough for Glitchtrap to get pissed that Staff hasn't quit/Vanessa hasn't finished the job:

She immediately "leaves" and Staff has her first encounter with a Very Affectionate Vanny moments later.

#asks #yogart #fnaf #self insert #gamer girls but its murderous #five nights at freddy's #fnaf security breach #self ship #fnaf vanessa #the vibe im going with this vers of Vanessa is VERY much Reluctant Follower. She doesn't want to kill peeps. #she can mask it better as vanny bc Mask Confidence and Disassociation but as vanessa she's just jaded and hates it #the thing that makes vanessa fall is a Moment of Kindness even though Staff is obviously sus of Van #before this Vanessa was super stuck up and an asshole to Staff #why be nice to the person thats gonna be dead/gone. nothing matters. shes SO depressed #and then staff doesn't die or leave. Staff represents hope

[mokagachas]

Just experienced a fake tumblr story in real life

Watching an agency vtuber stream my game and im like aw i like her :) i will follow her on twitter. She pauses stream to check out the notif and starts freaking out and i’m like aw she’s happy the dev of the game followed her.

No. She’s happy because she recognizes me from the danganronpa fanfiction i wrote when i was 16

She then proceeded to pull up my ao3 and scroll through it in front of an audience of 800~ viewers before following me back what a world we live in

#moka rambles #insanely flattered. thought i was disassociating #vtuber is eimi from phase connect for reference she’s very fun ^_^

[dearmahiru]

i've been having brain worms about mahiru's relationship so i've been rewatching i love you to piece together day sixteen. this feels like a reach but i think a fight might've broken out between them.

first, mahiru boyfriend's house, birdcage, and carousel are all the same location─we know this because each one has the same couch, throw pillows, and table formation.

on day sixteen, mahiru excitedly prepares her boyfriend's favorite meals as a surprise for him. later, when milgram extracts mahiru's mind, we see a table with shattered silverware. then, mahiru fantasizes about her boyfriend coming back to life so they can share food together (notably, only mahiru is fed because when mahiru tries feeding her boyfriend it goes awry.)

though i don't believe her boyfriend was ever physical and broke the dishes, it's possible that he suffered from an eating disorder and responded badly to mahiru's attempts to convince him to eat. this is the reason mahiru's murder is portrayed as feeding him rats that she percieved as a gift to save him from starvation.

we also know that they've fought multiple times from mahiru's t1 song. specifically. theres this very moment in the second teaser where mahiru's screams at her boyfriend, telling him (paraphrased) "don't say you love me if you don't mean it."

which is insane because mahiru is a very forgiving person! she can turn a cheek to someone trying to kill her, laugh off those who trick her, call her stupid to her face, and says she's happy to fight with her boyfriend—lovingly referring to it as their break-up ritual—but saying you love her without any weight behind it? that's what sends mahiru right over the edge.

i think it's possible that mahiru's boyfriend reacted poorly to mahiru's "gift," and tried to console her by saying he loved her which made mahiru's upset, which then escalated into their final fight.

#i can't say this with confidence because it feels pretty “fill in the blanks” #but god im so obsessed with their relationship because mahiru is just so completely unwilling to depict it in a bad light #mahiru isn't just painting herself as a “cute girl in love!” she's also unwilling to admit her boyfriend did any wrong #she's fully willing to take the blame for his death but not that he caused her to disassociate or emotionally neglected her #and i don't even think either of them are bad people!!! they're just horrible to eachother!!! #toxic soulmates. im howling at the moon rn #♡. cinnamon prattles #milgram #mahiru shiina

[fauvester]

dutiful daughter of cardassia

#dee s 9 #LOOOVELOVE drawing these lizards... #garashir adoption au #the joe caster #a very respectable presentable daughter of a castellan #who can stand still for her fathers three hour speech with cameras trained on her without moving a muscle #shes mentally Detroit Become Wallpaper #quite popular among the public for being sort of pretty and appropriately somber #iskra: dont you ever get tired of being nice. dont you ever want to go ape shit #jo: from time to time. but then i put those thoughts away and disassociate like a proper cardassian woman

[littler3d]

I love the fact that Gwen was so into the OIRA that she tried to blackmail Lena and is now just……absolutely regretting her decision. Her hubris is being punished and it’s by fucking Mr. Bonzo of all creatures

#magpod #tmagp #tmagp ep 12 #gwendolyn bouchard #mr. bonzo #like last week in tmagp time she was confident and ready #and now she’s disassociated listening to mr. bonzo rip a dudes arms off #so I guess #tmagp spoilers #can’t help but love this for her #like yes bitch you will get character development #it’s just gonna fuck you up a little

[pupupuphuca]

2am at a coffee shop

#art #twilight #jasper hale #alice cullen #twilight art #jalice #illustrators on tumblr #i wish im smart enough to write a whole ass paragraph describing this #like how the chair looks big for her and small for him #shes disassociating cause of vision #and his eyes are just trained on her the whole time

[wheatcak3]

silly goofy doodles from tonight✨

#i feel like i never draw other genshin characters lmaoo #i love yao yao so much #shes baby #so is nahida #venti is still my no. 1 scrimblo dont worry #im hitting deranged hours pretty soon #xiaos disassociating just like me fr #jk hes not #or is he 👀👀👀 #genshin impact #nahida #xiao #raiden shogun #yao yao #wheat art #wheat needs to go to bed

[descendantofthesparrow]

Hades and Beast give off bitter exes energy in the third movie

#...yeah #esp with the ROR school of merlin bullshit they very well could be exes now #fuck it they're bitter exes #now Mals dad and her father in law have fucked and she learns that and screams #Ben disassociates #Belle already knew this

[koreandragon]

the opening scene is so brutal. not even a hi, immediately a terminal diagnosis damn

#the way she just disassociates like it's not even something that's happening to her #doom at your service #rewatch #pinelogs

[visibleclosedeyes]

I feel like Rhinedottir is the type of person who will not let herself heal and process trauma properly after a traumatic event happened

#genshin impact #khaenri'ah #genshin impact khaenri’ah #rhinedottir #genshin khaenri'ah #cataclysm happened and she just disassociated for quite sometime #then she said she is ‘fine now’ #but no she never been fine #Alice trying to help tho

[alpacacare-archive]

the squad grows!

and yes i know GLaD0S isnt that self aware- or at all- BUT- SHE FITS IN VIBE-WISE AND SHES GREAT AND COOL AND I LOVE HER AND

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they like art :) 

#if i had a nickel for every time i drew gaster and glad0s having tea together #and while gaster drinks his tea glad0s cant cus shes a robot #id have two nickels #which isnt a lot but its weird that it happend twi #dont mind the crossover art i love my blorbos <3 #them: *having the most passive aggressive conversation ever* #me: LOOK GUYS THEYRE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS!!!!!!!! :D!!! #the dialogue wasnt.. like this... originally #but i realized that gasters disassociation with the player and how nothing we do affects him (yet) would probbly cause a slight awkwardness #around two characters who get affected by player choice/plot. like. for at least 70% of the story #also #if the dont forget is from gasters pov theory turns out to be true #then they all share a love for singing too :') #or music #ilove them s #sm #qwq #portal #glados #deltarune #gaster #the stanley parable #tspud #the narrator #gosh i hope that its understandable when the narrator is speaking- #i had to make glad0s' text blue so its distinguishable from the narrator- it looks like wheatleys talking help me #plz ignore any grammatical mistakes im just a little guy #three old gay people who try to control the player #cannot believe i forgot to add this tag ^

[greghatecrimes]

pulled up clips from the end of Everybody Dies for fic/ITD reasons. All I can think when I see Thirteen in this episode is SOMEBODY HUG HER. She thinks her dad just died😭😭

#bee pointed out that her eyes look swollen from crying and her hair isn’t brushed and it’s true andjfjksmsmsk #in the second one she looks like she’s using every ounce of energy to hold herself together and not start crying #she looks so disassociated #in a way that she wasn’t after kutner or her brother’s deaths #and it looks like she’s holding herself together so tightly that it hurts her to do it #i am in pain but also i did this to myself #so anyways this is why i don’t watch this ep a bunch #rewatch lb #8x22 #remy thirteen hadley

[mxsinistarrrr]

Sometimes she forgets shes not under his influence anymore… Silly Jeanne!

#bayonetta #half asleep while making this but i needed to get this idea out #after being under control for so long she forgot that she has independence and just..disassociates #she also gets pretty bad brain fog at times and its very frustrating and stressful for her #AUGH I HOPE THIS MAKES A BIT OF SENSE #im not the best at vocalizing my thoughts srry

[musicalchaos07]

How many times do y'all think she yelled at the cameras in the span of the 3-4 hours they were there that he's just sitting there chillin?

#very “Nancy sweetheart loml come back to the table” #Nancy: Lemme bring my guard dog not boyfriend just in case #The guard dog not boyfriend in the background: anxiously tippy tapping his foot and wondering how many more times she's gonna do this #they really said POLAR OPPOSITE levels of patience #alternatively JB is simply disassociating #and NW is BOTHERED by his tippy tapping bc he doesn't realize he's doing it #they're soooooo #jancy #jonathan byers #nancy wheeler

[n1ghtwarden]

minths dialogue about how she had 1,000 suitors (some drawn to her status, some only wanted her body, some wanted all of her) and how she didn't give a shit about any of them and the more they pursued her the more she withdrew. oh babygirl.

#i love her so much. #i KNOW she picks her lovers very carefully. #that + she likes to do the pursuing (obviously) but the fact she makes a point to say she withdrew from this attention (even tho she #POSTURES abt that attention. oh babygirl you are so DEAR to me. ) #she fr is at the club disassociating LMAO #ooc. claireposting. #anyway i am going to attempt to jumpstart my writing LMFAO

[llumimoon]

ouggh. add another "npc relationship that would be really cool to see but that we probably wont get" to the list !!! anyways im thinking abt Hero Oak and Grant Wilson and fucking weeping

#cal rambles #dndads #their relationship is one ive BEEN thinking abt but actually this episode very much solidified it #as something really interesting i think. #BIG fan of Hero being initially raised by all the kiddads and therefore she knows them better than the other teens #i like the idea that theyre all kinda like weird uncles to her <3 yk the family friends that u call aunt and uncle #but aren't actually related to u #anyways. cries #before i was like haha it would be really cute if Hero's inital facination with video games #originated from Grant when he babysitted her as a kid #and then. this episode. OUGFFGGFGH #something something being forced to kill a living being in an intimate and grotesque way by ur father figure #and being told its for your own good. but all it did was fuck you up #one of my fav hcs of Hero is that she inherited the bulk of the oak family anger issues #that is to say. shes got a very short temper but also the tendency to repress it until it explodes #unlike Henry I think she does this partially unintentionally. she forces it down under a layer of apathy #from the moment she was born with the intention of being raised to be the chosen one #her situation has been unfair #and shes been angry at that unfairness for so goddamn long. and there wasn't much she could do about it #so her options were be continiously furious or repress it disassociate and feel nothing #if shes angry she could lash out and she's powerful. oh god she's powerful. she already has blood on her hands. she doesnt want more. #so she keeps it all in a tight little bundle and presses it down where it belongs #you see where im going with this. cries #anyways i just want to see them interact so bad ough i want to chew drywall #grants exposure to violence caused him to enter a disassociative state where only more violence could bring him out of #which caused him to seek more violence despite all the guilt and bad feelings attached #bc he wanted to FEEL something and it was the only way to do that #versus Hero. whos exposure to violence caused her to similarly numb her emotions #except i think more violence makes it worse. the state she has to put herself in to do violence is too emotionally taxing to get in & out of #so she actively avoids it avoids even thinking of it in order to feel like a real person