#it is not a RISK really to have a crush

[dreamerwriternstargazer]

Not me jumping about and pacing and squealing and parsing a text for details and subtext (crush behaviour I know)

I got invited to a sisters’ lunch by a co-worker 🥰

#see here’s the thing #this makes me more nervous than a boy #it is not a RISK really to have a crush #it is somewhat #but chances are you’re already friends so if someone doesn’t just #vibe with you romantically #yeah you’re sad #miffed #but it’s okay #I am GOING CRAZY #I WILL go crazy #trying to figure out if we’re friends #friendships!! are the real risk! #because if no friend then… that cuts a little more #that they don’t really like you enough for that #anyway #my mum got invited too #but the potential friend in question sent us all individual invites #sooooo #maybe? maybe ^_^ #I don’t mind too much #gosh I remember the last time I was nervous over whether someone was my friend #and now they’re my bestie ^_^ *hugs prae* #I can do romance I like you marry me #friendship? please like me I think we’re kindred spirits #star speaks

[glitterdisposition]

how DARE projectmakeover pander to my girlsgogames heart…. i have played ur silly makeover game it’s a cheap knockoff of candy crush. there is no PLOT there is barely any options and perhaps worst of all THERES NO ACTUAL BAD MAKEOVER LOOKS?? but goddamnit those ads do something to me. i am struck by an intrinsic need to help that poor stinky lady keep her fucking boyfriend. flash games did it first and did it better.

#i hate how in the ads there’s like risk and consequence and limitations #and then in the actual game no matter what u click the client is like ‘perfect! i love it!’ #and most of the app is the side games u have to play to unlock the next makeover #i really don’t care about candy crush plus i am bad at it #i just want to try on different pretty dresses :-(

[star-mum]

Okay OP nation I have some (maybe controversial) statements about the Straw Hats and I need y’all to listEN FIRST OKAY- HEAR ME OUT

Boyfriend: Zoro and Franky

Husband: Usopp and Sanji

Girlfriend: Nami

Wife: Robin

Luffy: Aroace king

#DO YOU SEE THE VISION ???? #like I am a Certified Zoro Girlie but thats not a husband... he has Boyfriend written all over him #I cant call him husband in my head - ‘oh that’s my Husband Zoro’ - ew no - 'thats my BOYFRIEND Zoro' - yes ! #Franky is just cool and sensitive like that -> the boyfren to defeat all boyfrends -> i'd fall hard and fast -> like embarrassingly so #SANJI OH MY GOD !!! THE FIRST MAN WHO DARED TO MALEWIFE #and of course anime he has a couple red flags but I always put those on ‘annoying anime trope’ rather than accepting thats a part of him (C #(OPLA IS HERE TO PROVE THAT) shit like in canon they kinda set him up as this totally uncool Wannabe Casanova (which he is !!) #but he’s also just effortlessly charming ???? me at 7 y/o watching his intro for the very first time ??? a goner !!! -> me at 20 yo watchin #GOD !! USOPP !! THE MAN ! THE KING ! THE LEGEND -> I have ALWAYS been an Usopp girlie -> cause im always right and i love to win #y’all gonna give a pathetic cowardly little man with huge dreams and an even bigger heart who ALWAYS stands up for whats right #DESPITE BEING SCARED ???? I’m in the chapel baby lets do this 👰🏻 -> also his tiddies are always out ??? DUNGAREES WITH NO SHIRT !! WHATS NO #risking his life fighting an incredibly powerful and scary pirate for an entire village who didn’t treat him fairly and DIDNT BELIEVE HIM #him going to a place he was Not Welcomed and constantly mistreated at only to tell a DYING girl incredibly fun stories and keep her company #cause he saw his mom go through the same thing as a kid ? -> i love him yall 🥺 #NAMI !!! thats Girlfriend with a capital G -> shes pretty greedy and a little bit (very) mean -> i love her sm i want her to rule my life #RO !! BIN !! the crush I have on that woman is honestly embarrassing -> she is THE wife -> do not be mistaken #i dont really see Luffy wanting a romantic relationship but that’s not gonna stop me from reading fanfic about him ; p #i had to edit this and glue some tags together so they'd all fit -> thats why theres so many arrows -> I have Thoughts okay -> let me live #one piece #opla #one piece live action #straw hats

[every-sasuke-uchiha]

#every sasuke #everysasuke #sasuke uchiha #kakashi hatake #naruto #chapter 128 #konoha crush #// sasuke you should really listen to kakashi in this situation #by doing chidori again you're risking death #or having the curse mark take over #you're very lucky that you didn't die #or have the curse mark fully take over

[ettaevie]

I’m a Chuuya x Albatross truther btw

#Ok hear me out #They both have crushes on each other #But Chuuya is too insecure and guarded to make a move #And Albatross is too chill to push it #So nothing happens #But after months of friendship Chuuya starts to think maybe…maybe he can envision the day he’ll be able to put his heart at risk again #His main concern is that Albatross will betray/turn on him if he finds out what he *really* is #But then the anniversary party happens and Chuuya finds out Albatross knew about Arahabaki the entire time and it didn’t change anything #Which opens up a whole new world of opportunity for their relationship #But before they get the chance to actually talk about it Verlaine shows up and yeah #bsd #bsd chuuya #bsd albatross #bsd storm bringer #bungou stray dogs #the flags #what could have been #Welcome Back to me talking

[everygaara]

#naruto #vol 14 #ch 125 #gaara #temari #konoha crush #okay i know he hits her but really i think he's trying to protect her here #he knows he's at his limit and he doesn't want her to get caught in the middle of it #yes it's harsh to hit her that hard but its better than killing her #he could have just ignored temari and left her to her own devices #but that would risk unintentionally killing her while he's out of it

[afieldinengland]

there’s a lot of things i miss that i’ve never actually had

#small example so we don’t get too maudlin: sometimes i miss being romantically compared to dorian #or— well. being thin and young and beautiful enough to come anywhere near fitting that moniker too #(don’t). but did that really ever happen? in reality have i ever had the chance to do anything like that? #can’t miss what you never had. there’s a hedonist in me and he’s been starving for twenty years #i’m glad that there’s no real risk of me ever getting kissed again i’m far more trouble than it’s worth #the minute i’m taken out of myself through this wire-mother cage i’ve fashioned i’m fucked #but i never have been. not really. i have real trouble identifying the last time i genuinely had fun #i miss being kissed. i miss the bronze age. i miss the grapes i’ve never really crushed against my palate #twenty now and i know it’s absurd to feel old. i haven’t wasted my chance you could argue #but where’s lord henry coming dancing from? <- you see this is absurd. i’m a deep cynic in a coat i pose a foxier threat than dorian ever #did. he likes to think. if nobody minds the sheer inconvenience of leading me on do they mind kissing me. or hitting me hard in the head ti #i bleed. just for the record #and key point— dorian was beautiful. well dorian was a muse #what’s happening here? well i’d like to be loved. sorry. still #maybe i’ve never been a dorian. something wronger #all romance i’ve had in my real life has been terrible and i’ve been hurt. can you forgive me for that #<- this is him at his least maudlin

[journeyofstars]

May I request more Hanataro? And perhaps Ganju cuddling him? 😭🥰💖💕 Happy Hana being snuggled is my favorite image. 🥺❤️‍🔥 And being cuddled in Ganju's lap, and Ganju giving him lots of cheek, forehead, top of head, and Jose kisses. 😭💗 The way they giggle and nuzzle each other in the bount arc 😭 And Ganju picking Hana up and holding him 😭🥺🥰 I'm getting carried away, just like Ganju carrying Hana away from danger, or carrying him away for snuggle time. They have a designated time of day, every day for snuggle time. 😭🥺🥰💕💖❤️‍🔥💗

Personally I’m not a fan of GanjuHana so I’m not comfortable with drawing them in that way, but Ganju carrying Hanataro?

Absolutely!

#fanart #bleach #ask box #anon #i'm sorry for the delay! I've been really busy with my personal life #yamada hanataro #hanataro yamada #ganju shiba #shiba ganju #yamada hanatarou #hanatarou yamada #the closest i can see is him having a brief crush on Rukia #strong enough to risk his life to save a death row inmate lol

[horrorwebs]

fucking hell fucking hell is she gonna reject me? i want to let sth out for a second and didnt want to tell my psychologist until i have answers so. tags it is

#so. i told my friend i like her. i really really do you cant imagine how much. this was while i was away on a trip last week and we were #messaging.honestly i wanted to be brave enough to tell her in person but i tried already and i was tired of waiting for 'the perfect moment #i was tired of not doing anything ever and watching my life go by. so i drann a bit and told her. not bc i was a bit drunk thats just an #excuse. i was plenty conscious and still scared as fuck (so much that after i sent the message i took a lap around the building lol) #she said i should be scared first. then that she wasnt sure what to say. in her words 'more yes than no. but i dont know what to say' #understandable. she prob wasnt expecting it and its not amazing to have a conversation like that through text (despite the fact that our #relationship has always relied heavily on texting cause weve always stayed up talking. like from day 1) #anyway. she said that before we met she had a crush on me (i already knew this) and that she sometimes felt this way too wbut was scared i #didnt feel that way as well and didnt wanna risk anything so didnt do anything (granted. but she DID say plenty of ambiguous things + #told me i could sleep w her then um. slept on top of me. hugging. you know) #my friend said this was a good sign i was nervous and told her that i thought it was weird and she said her response was p good #and later she uploaded on her cf story a video that said a ring she shares w me is her 'married ring' so i think thats good?? #but also. we havent talked yet (hard to do in 15 min at school) and i have a bad fweling #i feel shes going to say sth like she likes me but doesnt want to risk what we have esp considering her other friends sometimes treat her #badly/exclude her and that shes worried if we fight we are going to lose our friendship + shes going to lose my friends as well #which is well. stupid of course. because i always want her in my life. i think she knows this. i want her to know this. #ever since we met i want her in my life and i cant stop thinking about her and how i miss her and her eyes and how she hugs me and GOD #THE OTHER DAY WHEN WE SAW EACH OTHER AFTER I WENT ON A WEEK LONG TRIP SHE FUCKIN. LIFTED ME OFF THE GROUND AND. CARRIED ME AROUND #HONESTLY IT WAS A BIT EMBARASSING THERE WERE LOTS OF PPL SRIUND AND IM A VERY PRIVATE PERSON BUT I WAS SO HAPPY !!!! #and idk i just dont want her to reject me. shes the first person i really like and i see myself together with. we have so much in common an #we understand each other and we are GOOD for each other. shes so good for my life and i want to believe i am as awell and god how i #want to kiss her and call her my girlfriend and just. agh #its exhausting liking someone huh #loveposting #spikeposting #if anyone has read this far omg hi thank you what do you think?

[whentherewerebicycles]

ruthie slowly realizing I have the front camera turned on 😂 this dog hates being photographed!

we were up for a bit at 5 but it was too early and I was sleeepy so ended up dozing for another hour or two. rainy morning here. I’m trying to really savor the cozy snuggly days as life is about to get so hectic for me:

I’m in pittsburgh friday morning through monday night (YAYYY) attending two weekend games and hanging out with bec!!!

I have tuesday to run errands and do laundry before my mom arrives wednesday

we leave early thursday morning for 14 days in japan and korea, during which we are hitting tokyo, osaka, kyoto, nara, mt koya, hiroshima, miyajima island, fukuoka, busan, daegu, and /seoul… I’m soooo psyched but also 🫠 it’s gonna be a whirlwind and I still have to do quite a bit of prep to be ready

we get home on a wed, I have thurs to recover from jetlag slash finalize my job talk, and then friday is the all-day campus visit

THEN I leave sat morning for houston and get back late monday night

it’s gonna be a lot!!! so very okay to be slothful this weekend and for as much of next week as I can manage I think. I am building up my reserves of rest and solitude lol.

mmkay. tonight I am having dinner + watching tár with mary later (and maybe seeing my sister at some point in the afternoon tbd) but the morning is my own! no pressure to get anything done in particular but here are some options:

could do more campus visit research for fun! my first gen programming book is arriving sometime today so I could read that and take notes, or I could spend some more time working through these articles I pulled up on designing programming for transfer students. I was also thinking it might be fun to create some one-page idea/vision/notes docs by hand on various topics—I feel like writing by hand will reinforce my memory of key details, and then making decisions about how I want to visually organize/arrange content will be a good exercise in synthesizing what I’ve learned. lol even as I’m typing this out I’m like ‘OOOOH that sounds like fun!!!!’ so I guess I’ll probably do that.

my former student is calling me at some point today to talk about transfer students’ experiences. he’s around my age (went back to undergrad after serving in the military for a long time) and is fun to talk to because he’s super smart and just like… more of a fully formed person and professional than the college-age kids. so that will be fun and should give me some useful threads to follow in my research. 

pick up my CVS prescription

hmm maybe I’ll put my laundry in right now? I also want to change linens/towels. I cleaned most of the house yesterday so don’t have much else to do in the way of chores… and I have a bunch of leftovers to finish before I’m allowed to make anything else so no cooking to do today either.

if it clears up I’ll go for a shorter long walk (the hourlong loop?) unless it’s really nice and I feel like doing the 90+ min trek again. not gonna let myself run today though—I can tell I pushed it a bit yesterday with the long fast walk + running two days in a row at a quicker clip than usual. just a little bit of achiness!

I finished a novel yesterday and want to start the next one today so I don’t break stride, but that can wait till before bed unless I’m moved to read earlier.

mmkay I think that’s it! take it easy and do fun relaxing stuff today.

#i also have to decide if I am going to try to do an IUI next month if this one doesn’t work #the timing is going to be so tight #and the chance of missing the window and wasting another $450 is semi-high #i think I’ve decided if my period starts on 4/6 it’s cutting it too fine and I don’t want to risk wasting the money #but I’ll take the meds with me and if it starts on 4/7 I can try it if I want #I’m just not sure how jetlag/time changes will affect things #so it might not be the worst thing to take april off and remove that stressor #then resume in may #i can’t start thinking ahead ahout this job because I’ll be too crushed if I let myself envision the future & don’t end up getting it #but getting pregnant in may/june/July wouldn’t be the worst thing as it would get me closer to a spring/almost summer maternity leave #more time in the job to get established plus I’d come back during the summer (chill relaxed time) instead of mid semester #idk we’ll see #I’m in a really good headspace re: IUI at the moment #not calendar watching except to plan future cycles not reading forums and don’t feel a lot of pressure to make This One work #i get 6 tries! #and then I was listening to a podcast the other day and feeling really moved/called again by the idea of fostering #so I think things are going to be just fine however it all shakes out #and if nothing else the IUI process has really gotten me into excellent routines around fitness and food

[hotgirlscoups]

okay

#it's literally so funny bc i haven't genuinely liked anyone since [redacted] which was YEARS ago and i think i kind of have a crush on this #girl and i know she's gay plus we flirt all the time but she's also the best friend of one of my closest friends so i literally can't risk #a relationship right now which is like. of course! #idk like it's quite surface level rn and i'm not suuuuuper into her yet but it's so frustrating bc i KNOW it could never work out bc i #would never be able to even take a chance on this bc i really should be focusing on school right now as well #god i just want to be in a stable relationship. is that too much to ask

[thehallstara]

cried a bit today about how frustrated i am w/ my body and how sick i am of being so tired and in pain all the time and how isolated i feel having a body is hard yall lmao

#s.txt #chronic illness stuff #this post brought to you by me managing to fuck my shoulder simply by turning over and the exhaustion i can feel in my bones #and also crying earlier about how isolated i feel from my drag fam and how stuck i feel about it #it's just. there's not a ton i can do about it i just don't have the energy for it i don't have the energy period #and i really really can't risk a 2nd round of covid i'm still fucked up from the first #it's just hard i'm grateful for my friends but all of this is hard #anyways i may delete this in the morning i'm just. #sometimes the weight of being disabled is crushing actually

[veshialles]

okay i will send that message tonight, she said while visibly shaking like a wet chihuahua

#anyway these stupid fuzzy feelings will not leave me #so i've decided it's worth the risk but i want to say my piece in person #so uh wish me luck?? #i just have had so many really bad experiences with crushes that left me feeling humiliated #that the idea of even just platonically hanging out 1-1 with them is suddenly making me nervous........ #like what if i fuck it up and lose one of the longest standing friendships i have left? #in 23 years i have had exactly 1 crush reveal that went over well (hi kimmy hello hi hi hello 👋) #ruby rambles

[oatbugs]

@ myself in last july/august

#youre not dead . also youre better and trying to get better even more than before . you arent going to be alone forever or at least #you wont get to be alone for much longer . you make friends you love you kiss a boy when youre drunk you kind of fall in love with your #mathematician friend you meet very clever people including an economist who is very good at everything including perfumes and #the card game speed and seeing you . you link arms with people you sign a contract for renting a house you play the violin you have your #first exam in a week (almost 11 months for you) and its neuroscience and by the way youre kind of good at neuroscience and youre kind of #good at philosophy . you love your degree you have breakdowns about maths you bleach your hair you go to an alt j concert tonight you kiss #your cat you want to kiss your friends hand you refer to elsewhere as home you pull all nighters and you take #a spontaneous trip to everywhere and you get almost crushed by an avalanche and you go inside a train underwater and you might live in #venice for a bit and you get a job that has paid you 0 so far and you stroke your friends hair and barely get better at cooking but much #better at cleaning and you start taking care of your skin . you learn about manifolds and you have a failed crush who teaches you an #awful lot about pharmacy and humans and chemicals but not a lot about love . and each day you accept the risk of love and often you #experience the stab of grief (evidence that you are a feeling loving caring thing) and each day you thank yourself #for loving philosophy and maths and neuroscience and AI (except everything else is philosophy really and everythin else is maths really) #you have black swan moments and black bear moments and more than anything i dont want to tell you that it will get better because i know #you secretly wanted to give anyone who ever said that a sucker punch . i want to thank you for choosing to live despite despite despite #(you preached for the world but i know you wanted to die) (thank you for looking at that dangerous thing and finding the reflections #of light on it beautiful enough to live another day and another and another and another.)

[axvwriter]

Random Late Night Rambling

Do any of you think Neige would be the type to fall in love with someone who doesn’t go crazy over him? Like the trope of super popular person pines for the person who doesn’t know them/isn’t impressed/hates them?

I think it would be funny to have Neige develop a crush on Bobo, someone who holds a grudge against him for winning VDC but can’t bring herself to act outright nasty to him because he’s so genuinely nice.

I just have the idea of Neige running into Bobo on her birthday or well a day she’s able to celebrate her birthday in her own way on. Usually she spends her birthdays alone, but I bet her NRC friends wouldn’t allow that. So she agrees to party with them and takes the next available weekend for herself.

She does what she usually does, leave home to explore and find a safe spot to be alone. Bobo finds a secluded spot on Sage Island’s beach. She tries to settle down and get lost in her thoughts but is interrupted by Neige. Neige who’s trying to avoid fans. Why? Because even as grateful as he is for having fans, had just wanted to spend some time enjoying the island.

So he finds Bobo by herself just as he’s escaped a rowdy group of fans. Bobo recognizes him and instantly her mood sours. She wanted to be alone, but she can distantly hear people asking where Neige went. Bobo doesn’t greet him, trying to decide what to do.

Then Neige apologizes. Saying he didn’t mean to disrupt her. He even asks if he could join her, which causes Bobo to stand up. Bobo tells him he can have the spot and goes to find another secluded area. Neige tries to protest, worrying she feels forced to leave.

“You want to be alone, don’t you?” Bobo cuts him off. “I want to be alone. I have fun finding new spots anyway.” She corrects herself, leaving. She understands how overwhelming it can get to give crowds wanting your attention. Even if you’re grateful that the crowds love you.

Neige misinterprets Bobo’s selfish desire to get away and not have to interact with him in any way as Bobo being kind and understanding towards him. Thus he develops a crush.

Oh imagine Neige trying to visit NRC to see Bobo just to have Rook plastered to his side. I bet Rook could sense him approaching the campus. Though while Rook may actually observe from a distance, Bobo’s texting him to run interference.

Poor Neige wants to get to know the Ramshackle Prefect but instead keeps having to entertain Pomefiore’s Vice Housewarden. I want to think Neige would be a bit of a doormat and be unable to bring himself to ask Rook to leave.

Poor Neige who whenever he tries to see Bobo, she suddenly has plans. Whether those plans be to garden with Jade, which she refuses to let anyone else join. Or she has to go to an unbirthday party and she keeps forgetting to ask if she can bring guests. Or Bobo is meeting with the Savanaclaw Housewarden in the botonacial garden.

Then perhaps rip Bobo, Rook has betrayed his loyalty to NRC again to trick her onto a date with Neige. Instead of Rook being at there usual tea meetup spot where Bobo fills Rook’s insatiable curiosity about her and her world, Neige is there. Looking innocently confused because Rook tricked him there too.

Oh how Bobo is going to hunt Rook down after this. Oh wait she can’t leave because Rook has joined them. Rook will keep Bobo from leaving and Neige’s niceness will keep Bobo from actually being mean. Why does he have to be nice and not fake?! Bobo hates this. Neige now thinks she’s shy.

Neige asks Bobo over to RSA and now she’s torn. She likes seeing new places. Bobo doesn’t want to go alone though as she will likely be given a tour by Neige.

Oh what if I had Bobo meet all of the main villain boys’ rivals in RSA? What if twst Hercules name is Chad? How many of them are hopeless romantics and would it be funny if all of them fell for her? All she did was restrain herself from scoffing and talking trash because she’s feeling rather petty against all of RSA. Yet they all think she’s reserved and shy.

Quick roll call of main villains and heroes

Queen of Hearts - Alice

Scar - Simba

Ursula - Ariel

Jafar - Alladin

Evil Queen - Snow White

Hades - Hercules

Maleficint - Aurora

Uhmm out of those the hopeless romantics may be Ariel, Snow White, Aurora…. Would Alladdin and Hercules count? Gah I need to rewatch stuff and take notes.

Anyways imagine RSA boys thinking they’re Bobo’s friends after one meeting. NRC boys are not happy with all the RSA students coming by to try seeing the Ramshackle Prefect. Bobo can’t use studying as an excuse not to see them as they’d all offer to help.

Though how satisfied and/or surprised would the NRC boys be to witness Bobo telling all the RSA boys to their faces that she doesn’t see them as friends, has no interest in being friends, and wants them all to stop dropping by.

When push comes to shove, Bobo will stare impassively into those broken faces. They’re nice but that’s not enough to make Bobo feel strong-armed into keeping up niceties with them.

Though would RSA even have an aurora-like considering that’s basically Silver?

#twst related #twst bobo #ramble #long post #wanted to write something but i dont have the stuff for something more polished #so kinda trying random thoughts i guess #neige leblanche #i kind of want to write all the boys having crushes on bobo sort of thing #but bobo just be telling me how badly she needs friends #especially friends her age so i havent really written anything like that yet #though part of it could be how i feel like i wouldnt be able to commit to an actual relationship forming with her and someone #not just because how would i choose but because bobo would never while still believing she could get home #bobo doesnt want to risk falling strongly in love with someone just to have to leave them

[therewithinthestars]

love crying at night in bed over my dysfunctional body yaaayy

#insomnia and chronic pain #the absolute irony of my insomnia and struggling to fall asleep in every single position #EXCEPT on my back which feels relatively nice even with my sore painful body #and i can fall asleep on my back so fast and easy #BUT i will literally choke in my sleep and have sleep paralysis if i do #🤪🤪🤪 #so i can either lay on side or belly and crush some part of my body and take forever to fall asleep but not have 99% risk of sleeping paral #or i can try falling asleep on my back which really alleviates the pain and let's my fall asleep easily and feels so nice but get a SP #or ill fall asleep eventually on my side and turn to my back in my sleep and get a SP anyways #there's no fucking winning here #my whole body is on fire and i want to die 💙 #also my heart goes out to every single disabled person and people with chronic pain this shit fucking sucks so much holy fuck