#it took me ALL MORNING to remember that

[thefoldedbird]

The childhood magical race of people with wings I made up after the first time I watched Osmosis Jones were called Margins (exactly like the margins of a book) and it took me way too long to remember that but I didn’t feel particularly sad because I self-imposed a rule basically from the start that said you can’t be one after you turn 18 (because you’re not a kid anymore) so I’ve basically already mourned the death of the concept.

They were just a magical race of mostly girls who would go into worlds (books and shows) and fix the bad things that happened to people or just be friends with them without telling them they were Margins. It’s no surprise that I write fanfiction now. Honestly, I should have seen that coming.

The planet you had to portal to was called Domino and only one city was in the bubble of habitability because some Margin (maybe me? I don’t think I ever decided.) destroyed the place in a big damn magic burst and now nothing grows there. I think maybe sometimes we had to fight off black vines or something but I can’t be sure.

There was also a preliminary period before you became a Margin where you were just a fairy/pixie and had to use a wand. But I got really bored with that quickly cause it was just magic school for rules I was making up so I just made it part of my character lore that I had been too strong for wands and they exploded whenever I tried to use them.

Also my mentor figure was the statue of Zeus from Disney’s Hercules and Domino was somewhere near Mars because I decided Martians were cool and wanted to be their friend thanks to that one Tom and Jerry movie.

#my stuff #it took me ALL MORNING to remember that #and I need it wrote down somewhere #I was trying to remember it while I was literally still waking up #and when it got time to think of the word I froze and realized I didn’t remember it anymore #I sat there frozen #and sad tbh #like I’ve been plagued with thoughts of the MLP infection AU for two days #cause I don’t handle horror well at all #and this knocked me straight out of that #caught I mentally picture someone destroying bad thoughts with lasers sometimes #and it helps #I was brushing my teeth when it finally came back to me #I could almost feel my brain digging around in the storage in the back #like you want WHAT thought? #shit you haven’t asked for that in ages #go find it #wait right here I’ll #it felt like he was yelling words at me from the back of storage #cause I’d get flashes of the word

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Randomly thinking about “tolerate it” (narrator voice: it was not random) and how under the cloak of fiction it is ostensibly inspired by works like “Rebecca” (which Taylor said she read during the 2020 lockdowns I believe?), with the line of “you’re so much older and wiser” indicating that the speaker is significantly younger and inexperienced compared to the person she’s speaking to and a pretty direct reference to the plot of the book.

But I saw something somewhere once that stuck with me about how it might not be referring to relative age between the characters but chronological age as in the passage of time in a relationship. And that made me think about how in a contemporary context, it might not necessarily be referencing an actual age gap between the two characters, but rather a sarcastic or cynical response to the man’s claims that he has matured (“you’re so much older and wiser [than you were before/than you were when we met/etc.]”), which then made me think about that line in relation to the woman. And that it could be taken like, “you act like you’ve matured so much in our time together and like you know everything, while I’m supposedly still stuck as the girl I was when we first met.”

Which then made me think of the “right where you left me” of it all and did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen time went on for everyone else she won’t know it and the bit in Miss Americana where she talks about how celebrities get frozen at the age at which they got famous, and how she’s had to play catch up in a lot of ways not just in her emotional growth but kind of in general. (Which also made me wonder if she’s ever been called out for immaturity/lack of curiosity/lack of education about things in her life…)

Which then made me think about the rest of the song, and @taylortruther’s posts yesterday about “seven” and “Daylight” and the way Taylor idealizes her youth yet contrasts it with an almost sinister reality in its wake, and the line, “I sit by the door like I’m just a kid,” because the discussion raised that her relationship let her recapture some of the childlike joy and wonder she’d lost. So this line is a double-edged sword: the speaker sits by the door with childlike hope that the person will come home and cherish her, but on the darker side, feels like the child dealing with the monsters she doesn’t have names for yet and the feelings of isolation she felt as she aged.

I’m not saying the song is necessarily autobiographical; like most of the songs on folkmore, it’s clearly a fictionalized story based on media she’d consumed and created, but we know a lot of the fictional songs were infused with her own feelings and experiences and… This idea swirling in my head picked up steam and now I kind of can’t stop thinking about it. Sorry but I’m a little obsessed now.

Like maybe it might start to shed light on why she identified so strongly with the novel in the first place…

#the third eye has been opened #😵‍💫 #like tolerate it was always a difficult song #even when we learned it was based on Rebecca it obviously took on new meaning post-joever #and especially in light of ttpd #but the thought spiral i went on last night when i started thinking about all these connections #and the evermore of it all #I’m Charlie at the conspiracy board again #writing letters addressed to the fire #me thinking too hard about Taylor lyrics #evermore my beloved #tolerate it #i kinda gave myself the ick with all this 😵‍💫 #because of the ttpd of it all coming up #and i feel like i remember interviews where Taylor said joe was so well-read especially about like world events and politics and stuff #and supported her when she wanted to start speaking up (not getting into that) #but just based on ~vibes now I wonder if that was like a sore point too at some point #which again i have no proof of but just like… experience with pretentious millennial art bros lol #oh man oh man oh man #this feels like some sort of huge revelation at 1:00 am #when i started writing this lol #eta: when I queued this in the middle of the night i didn't see all the excellent discussion about the seven/folklore posts #so all of you who have been posting about them this morning consider yourselves tagged too!

[dolokhoded]

don't give it a hand / offer it a soul / honey, make this easy ...

#i spent actually 3 hours trying to choose how to caption this i wish i was exaggerating #how do we tag this #judas iscariot #bible fandom #what do yall call these gays #chriscariot #i've seen around #remember when i had an art tag #im not religious just insane.jpg #i hit my head on a shelf really hard this morning #there was blood and everything all up in my hair and i thought #this must've been how jesus felt if he ever hit his head on a shelf #oh maybe that's why it took me three hours to choose a caption #im fine btw #i still dont like the caption #i wanted mitski

[honeyvenommusic]

❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-

#glass animals #honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh???? #like….. when i say wore out #i cannot describe how much i listened to it #i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number #like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened) #i cannot recall w this #gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke #so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao #(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol) #anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night #driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in #sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who???? #had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused #it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song #then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky & #ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work #(i was right & it blew her miiind) #god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok #i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this #highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift #a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them #as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?) #a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever

[imnotverybright]

Worm band AU. What instruments do they play?

hm ok so

rachel doesn't want to be in the band, much less learn an instrument, so they stick her on drums and she just hits things. naturally, it sounds like dogshit, but she likes it

lisa has the vibes of someone who was cast as lead in her 5th grade school play and never shut up about it, so she's gonna be our lead singer

taylor's on keys. there's no real thought behind this one, it just fits her vibe

alec also didnt wanna learn an instrument, he just thought being in a band would be cool, so he's a backup singer. he sounds surprisingly good, considering he never puts any effort into learning the songs. i mean, it's not great, but it could be worse

brian seems like the type of guy to pick up guitar one day and decide to learn how to play. he's been playing his instrument the longest (except maybe for taylor? im thinking she got put in lessons as a kid and just sorta stuck with it) and is pretty damn good at it. he had a couple solo gigs before the Undersiders

lily plays the bass. this is also just based on vibes

aisha tagged along with brian to a couple band practices, but wasn't really in the band for a while. eventually, they needed someone for random one-off instruments that aren't in all of their songs, which is where aisha comes in. tambourine? cowbell? triangle? she's their gal. only diehard fans know she's in the band, most people forget about her entirely

im not entirely sure what sabah does, i've kinda run out of instruments bands use, but maybe she does stuff behind the scenes? writes most of the songs and designed the undersider's logo, that sort of thing? or maybe she's also on keys and backup vocals? idk

overall, the undersiders are a profoundly mid band, seeing as taylor can't do violence to make them more successful. they have a couple devoted followers tho, but are friends with very few other musicians

#i was gonna make taylor the bassist bc she reminds me of my friend who plays the bass but i showed restraint so be proud of me #i do think keys fit her better #i dont think she remembers any music theory from when she took lessons she just likes playing #it's this taylor's version of morning runs #coil was the band's agent but they all hated the direction he was taking the band in so taylor shot him #lily played with a couple different bands cause she bounced around and was in the bb wards band when she met sabah #sabah is a song writer who has too much stage fright to perform her own songs but wants them to be performed so badly #so the undersiders convince her to join and write for them bc none of the other bands in the area wanna perform her songs #lily and her get together slighly before this and lily tries to convince the wards to let sabah write for them but they wont so she leaves #and joins the undersiders #the triumvirate is like this world's version of the beatles or something idk #worm #parahumans #asks #this was fun :)

[paragonequinox]

3/13/2016 8:57 AM

#my photography #fuck it ill post the one nothing changes if you do nothing and all that blah blah #uhhh according to the metadata on this one it was early march in the morning #i dont remember what was going on that id actually be awake earlier than 12pm but i think it had something to do with my grandparents #i liked the way this one came out so i never deleted it #kinda reminded me of some indie bands album cover if im honest haha #looking through my photos kinda makes me sad that i never took more #i doubt theyd all be “award winners” but im always afraid theyre gonna come out terrible so i just dont do that #we'll see i guess

[arthur-r]

as usual i am up late into the night planning my future when i should be: getting a good nights sleep so that i even have a future!!

#i have work in seven and a half hours. so i should really be getting to bed #BUT i officially made my final definitive degree plan!!!! i mean not the actual classes but all the requirements i have to meet and how!! #(in order to earn: history and information science double major. with certificates in material culture and classics) #and i’m genuinely excited for every single class i have to take except for human-computer interaction #just cause i know it’s gonna get overly technical in ways that won’t quite apply to my future #anyway every single other thing i’m gonna do is very cool and exciting. so everything is good really #but i should be sleeping. and i’m not. as usual 🤧 #idk wish me luck!!!! i’m so hyped about my degree plan though #i’ll go into more detail another time. i’m very excited #ANYWAY goodnight!!!! can’t be so busy planning my future in library science that i DONT GO TO MY SHELVING JOB #kind of important to actually go to work for the library that employs me…. #and then i might go see a first-printing roget’s thesaurus!!!! or i’ll sleep. we’ll see #followed by lunch with GUY WHO IS THE WORST KILL HIM WITH HAMMERS #(there is nothing really wrong with me he just keeps kind of being mean to me and also expecting me to fall in love with him. but like #extremely passively and not manipulatively it’s just like. hey buddy you’re doing this friendship wrong….) #anyway then i have a class and after that i have an hour to rest. and then a phone call and then a lot of homework #(ten page paper draft due in a week and a half!! so it’s time to start writing the actual body of it) #and then i sleep for a LONG time and then work again on saturday. and then sleepover with somebody i have a crush on?? #and then be normal all day on sunday and do a little more paper writing. and programming homework. and whatever else #and then keep up with the slog for three weeks!!!! and all of a sudden it’s summer!!!! #projects left this year: material culture paper (entirely unstarted. but may research the thesaurus and just win!!!!) #history project (draft due the monday after next and real paper due a week after classes end) #one more programming assignment where i adapt my recipe doubler project (probably. it’s getting stupid at this point but it’s what i got!!) #and a programming test in two weeks and then the final a week after that. then no more programming #and then i just have my weekly latin tests and a latin final on may 5th. and then EVERYTHING IS DONE #ok i got this. sorry for walking through my schedule in the tags it’s how i remember what’s real #can’t believe my fucking partner just kind of walked out on me there hello???? like. we should be powering through finals together #but i’m genuinely better off without him so i guess it’s just whatever. trash took itself out or something?? #anyway. i’m so regular. and i have work in the morning. and i’m going to sleep #thank you world. goodnight

[lucishell]

get demon slayered idiot

#i dont know how to explain the motivation between this #i dont remember if i posted about scarakaza here #but me and my friend are delulu #so um ! #also yes this was drawn over a giyuu #i know nothing ab demon slayers artstyle #tried my best #and spent an embarassingly long amount on it #scaramouche #wanderer #genshin impact #IT TOOK ME ALL MORNING OK

[asexualjedi]

Just spiraling being like 🤪🤪🤪 what am I doing with my life I miss art I miss making videos I miss making coming and animation do I really want to do law. And logically I don’t really think I would want to move away from everyone I know to move to where I would need to be to do film or tv and animation. So like. 🔫🔫 accept it. And like I think helping people is something I’m very passionate about and will make me happy and I think if I just did art and comics I would feel bad about like big things like prison abolition and how terrible people are treated in our justice system is would bother and upset me and at least I can feel productive. But idk idk what to do. I just don’t know what is my anti drepressants or what. But truly working for the knife by Mitski whenever I watch tv or see cool art I get really depressed and yearn to be doing that stuff and idk what to do??? Like did/do I define my identity to much to being an artist but idk. I want to make things I misss working with people to make things and I know as a lawyer I will collaborate a lot. A lot of what u do seems so not fun and miserable and idk idk. But I’ve spent so much money and also i going to law school allowed my friend to have housing for foreseeably 3 years. Do I just get the JD and end up completely turning around and doing fucking. Like?? Entertainment law but in my head that’s always just disneys evil lawyers idk.

#I don’t know how much of this is my depression and how much is like a real genuine I #thing bc I’ve always had problems with like since I was like 8 or even younger as long as I can remember I’ve had issues with regret being l #like after making a choice freaking out like I’ll never be able to do the other choice was this the right one like even for shit like I took #this summer camp instead of another and I’ve been able to manage as good as ai can but with this such a big decision #idk #like it was easier when I decided not to bc o to like a big art school bc that was saving money right and I could still take art classes #and major in it #here I’m loosing moneh spending so much money and i technically could do art but I don’t have time and law school mental illness I have no #inspiration motivation #and like I know I have been trouble with motivation creation like was my most depressed and mentally I’ll in high school and freshman of #college but I also created my most art then I was drawing all the time and happy and also very depressed it’s hard to explain #and now I. like. I haven’t done art in so long since last summer #and people’s housing is on me know. and ive already spent so much #money specifically im so lucky my dad is paying for my school BUT my dad is paying for my school I both want to drop out incase im #wasting his money and also I can’t waste his money I must get this degrrr #but will I be happy #idk I accidentally didn’t take my anti depressants mayeb yesterday and this morning #I took them this afternoon but I’ve also been depressed lately that’s. ahhh #I’m haha #girl help #Kelly talks

[bokatan]

had one of those really fun “where’s the rest of the dog” jumpscares at work today

how are y’all’s fridays going?

#kind of slow morning and one of the doctors has a cadaver so she was practicing some dental shit #had to go through the dental suite to grab dog food and was like. hm. don’t remember having a dental on the schedu- oh my god that’s a head #literally a severed head jumpscare #and ofc I’m helping a client so I gotta be all happy and not freaked out about the decapitated head i just walked past 20 seconds ago #vet med is fun y’all #gore cw #for the mention #(dogs usually have a warmer over them during dentals which is why it took me a second to notice- usually can’t see their bodies anyways)

[trivalentlinks]

horrified to learn this morning that the guy i took mma classes from when i lived in england is a close personal friend of andrew tate's

#i was skimming tate's wikipedia page this morning trying to figure out whether he was still in jail #and saw a familiar name and was like 'wait wasn't that the guy i first took mma from?' #the one who was the main mma instructor for the gym in england that was the only place i really felt welcome by locals? #(tho to be fair to the uni students i was with they'd all been taking classes together for years when i joined for a 1yr study abroad) #anyway followed the wikipedia link and turned out it was him #started involuntarily thinking about whether he ever came across as racist or misogynistic and came up empty #chalking this one up to maybe all ufc fighters competing out of england befriend each other #i did find everyone at the gym super friendly (and they'd mostly known each other for years before i got there too!) #i remember being really touched that one guy who was missing an arm below the elbow and did different versions of the moves (in no-gi bjj) #took the time to show me how to defend against his versions of everything so that we could still roll (bjj sparring) #instead of. you know. just not rolling with the new girl who was up front about the fact she was only gonna be there for a few months #(and who could barely understand the local accent (it was very different from the uni students accents which i *could* understand) #and constantly had to be like 'sorry dumb american here. can you say that slower?') #it was really such a kind and welcoming environment

[lilgynt]

anyway yesterday i had this huge break down like sobbing screaming throwing my self on the floor the whole 9 yards and it sounds like outtakes from the midsummer scene and any guess what started it. my dad asked me to buy rotisserie chicken

#personal #obviously lots of context but super funny #especially bc when i was throwing myself around i got a HUGE fucking bruise on my thigh #anyway my weekend was not good. personally #on thursday i went to like 4 stores and was looking for coffee (dad didn’t remember the name) and rotisserie chicken for my dad and his #dog. which i know bad but you have not tried having and elderly blind somewhat lost his mind or mostly it man as ur father for most ur life #you learn to just go with it #and during all of this i’m getting nothing but assholes on the road #like in the morning when i got breakfast for dad and i some lady cussed me out when i wouldn’t reverse into a drive through #and then after the first store some guy nearly hit me backing out of a parking space bc he was going super fast and turned around JUST to #flip me off. and i’m already annoyed bc i didn’t even want to run this errand for a fucking dog but it’s my dad so i keep going #so hit 3 more stores ask my dad if he remembers the coffee name (he requested i call him at the store) he did but it’s too expensive #(i offer to get it firmly but he’s freaking out) i leave and then my mom calls me and gets annoyed at me for not buying it anyway #go to the next store. the shit my dad just told me is to expensive is like 6 bucks more here and it’s too busy to go back to the other some #and i’m so upset but it’s only sale so small win. didn’t find the chicken anywhere #dad and mom start fighting when i get back and it’s so fucking frustrating #anyway that took over 2 hours and was very upsetting then the next day my dad is like #can you go back again 🥺 and i do but not before that huge break down #which during i was like did not know it upset me that much. but anyway ends with me getting locked in my room bc my dad #is coming over to give me batteries not even checking on or hearing the yelling and im naked and im so fucking upset that i don’t even have #a door anymore and it’s middle/high school again and i’m makes and crying and i don’t have a door and everyone’s allowed to come in whenever #naked and crying #bc it doesn’t matter wrre family and im so angry and i lock myself in start slamming on the door and my dads like what can i do and he can’t #see then i just rip the broken door knob from the door in sheer anger and then i spend the next two hours sobbing while looking for chicken #for my dad. did not find it btw. like some time looking for chicken some getting gas then food #so funny i texted my mom during it and she thought i was going to our usual store and texted me things she needed #and i only realized while inside the store i was actually in and started silently sobbing and hyperventilating bc my mom wanted me to go to #another store and she just promised this wouldn’t happen again and there’s no fucking chicken here #anyway i’ve been camping my room bc i don’t want to talk to my dad im not mad at him or anything but i just can’t do the last couple days #and my mom was really nice yesterday about it after hearing me sob and didn’t even give me shit when i said im staying hometoday l8r maybe?

[loverboybrightsideghost]

3, 20, 25?

3- Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year?

it's Queen, and okay yes everyone knows queen, but i feel like this year i actually listened and particularly appreciated them more. i have the LP of a night at the opera and every single song on that album is imprinted in my soul it's sooooo good. i got another queen record recently so >:)))) i plan to one day get them all, or at least all the ones i like (which is probably gonna be all of them anyways lol)

20- what's something you learned this year?

someone told me this a few years ago, but this year especially is when it really sunk in for me: if you think you're really good at something (like in a hubris-y way specifically), you're not as good as you think you are, and if you think you're really bad at something, you're not as bad as you think you are. 

i also learned from antigone funn and bijou from wooden overcoats that "you're out there, being you, in front of other people!" "that matters to you?" that matters. your heroes may seem perfect and graceful and put together, but they're people just like you and just like you, they get nervous and have their own insecurities. you are your own worse critic, and that also applies to the "best of the best" too. and here's the thing, no matter how good or bad ANYONE thinks they are at their craft, it matters to somebody out there. maybe it's just you, and maybe it's someone in a crowd you'll never meet, or maybe it's someone long long after you're dead. but what we do matters.

25- did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? describe one.

sadly i did not :/ i can tell you a bit about my oc renata though (in the tags)

#behold an ask! #IM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME LIKE A WEEK TO ANSWER THIS #prapuna #okay so my oc renata basically spawned bc one day i was like what if immense romantic tragedy #so the general gist of their story is: once upon a time there was this mercenary (who had a lot of magical power) and they were hired to #infiltrate a kingdom and so they got hired as a guard to the princess #but whoops after a WHILE of being near the princess the two of them fell in love and it's really cute but sad #because the princess is being married off to this guy #and so the night before the wedding renata (mercenary) and zarita (the princess) are trying to figure out what to do #and they fight and they don't really come to a solution #zarita talks to the guy she's being married to and they do try to work something out #but the next morning he's found dead- murdered #renata got desperate and killed him #so now. whoops but it gets WORSE bc this guy was like a Chosen One by the gods #he was destined to do Something that changed the course of humanity but renata somehow for in the way of fate?? and fucking killed him #and the gods are PISSED #since his death is technically renata and zarita's fault the gods punish them to eternal rebirth #and renata is cursed to remember everything perfectly #EVERYTHING from that point forward EXCEPT her original life #that is normal memory which means over time it fades and changes and all the shit that happens to memories when time passes #and as they go through the years renata's power (which was already considerable) grows and grows #and eventually they really fucking lose their mind solipsism-style #and they become corrupted and do murder and shit and zarita may not remmeber but they always love renata #inexplicably. even though sometimes renata is a horrible fucking person they still see the good in them and the positive qualities #that made them fall in love in the first place #oh yeah and as soon as zarita Remembers renata and their whole history they're doomed to a tragic death #yeah. can you tell i was deep in quarantine when i came up with them. anyways #they (renata) weren't inspired by scarlet witch but their magic IS red and i always liked the concept of scarlet witch from the comics #losing her mind and her grasp on reality #but i only realized the similarities after i made them lolol

[kokocharm]

oh wow @good-coffee-and-hot made a new au! I sure hope nothing bad happens😇

#lucky speaks #almonds lost time au. #fanon. #our otherworld. #death of three. #dragon prophecy. #unsolvable. #i could go on but i dont remember all of them #Also its 3am and i spamed my discord server w friends just to make tjis #it took me like 6 tries #cookie run #also pls add roguefort 2 kingdom #maybe i shojlf get my own tag #like. or some dumb shit #but almosf all of my posts r me speaking #aboit dumb shit #skuull emoji #sorry for taghing u at 3 in the morning by the wag #hope u dont mifnd💛

[that-was-anticlimactic]

happy birthday to my kidney stone i gUESS

gosh a year ago today SUCKED it did not ruin me it did not freak me out it’s not like i haven’t worn the clothes i spent the night at the hospital in since That Day hahahahhaha

actually no sarcasm it didn’t ruin me, but like it freaked me out for awhile lol that was the most pain i’ve ever been in Ever and it felt like it was ruining me in the moment haha

#i’m being such a baby about this even a year ago today but tbh i do not care <3 #it was awful #idk why i’m being so dramatic about my kidney stone y’all i’m so sorry #i just know that it was a year ago today because i remember throwing up in the hospital bed and at this point it was theo’s birthday in his #time zone and not mine and all i could think about was how i was like ‘imma text you happy birthday as soon as it’s midnight for you and i’m #going to try my best to make you feel appreciated and loved today!!!’ and then i was in the er all day and Didn’t do that didbksbsksbsjd #anyways this just goes to show that i have Very normal feelings about having a kidney stone:)))))))) #luckily my roommates were very nice and one drove me to the er and actually stayed with me for a couple hours like skipped class and #everything and like grace picked me up pretty early in the morning because that’s when they released me and i just wanted to go lay in bed 😂 #although actually the first thing i did was do homework which was prolly a bad move but wait no i emailed all my teachers because i missed #two days of school (i took the next day off to recover since i slept like crap and pain also lol) and then homework and then sleep #actually my sister came to make sure i was okay on her way to class - very nice of her #wow now i’m just reminiscing as i procrastinate sleep hm #but actually tho idk why i’m making such a big deal out of this lol idk it was just. a day haha

[seilon]

thinking about the fact that pv said the weird goo clone things he was torturing trapping ko with were, indeed, just clones of his friends and not the real deal. but then went on to say something about them being cloned to have souls and actual feelings and memories so that they essentially are actual people and he IS killing them in front of ko every time. they’re just not the original two. like am I. am I just remembering that wrong or was that like. severely fucked up

#for a KIDS SHOW VILLAIN #this show is Y7 what was THAT about #it took me so off guard because the comment about them having feelings and whatnot was pretty quickly moved past like hOLD ON WOAH WOAH WO #WHAT WAS T H A T #good lord venomous this child is like NINE good lord how do you wake up one morning and think hm. i think i will traumatize a child today #I’d say maybe that was a shadowy scheme/design to try and unleash tko but uhhhh #no pv just flat out tells him about the clones and tricks him AGAIN into thinking his friends are dead like that wasn’t shadowy at all #that was just flat out pv being. sadistic. for funsies. #ok ko #ok ko spoilers #kibumblabs #from what I can remember id rank that as by far the most fucked up thing any villain does in the show and yes I’m including #shadowy’s fuckery. at least his stuff was mostly straightforward and had one main goal to it. this scheme had no real intention other than #to trap a child in isolation for an indeterminate amount of time and scar him for life #because he can and it’ll be fun (: #anyway I say all this from the perspective of someone slightly obsessed with him so idk what’s wrong with me either i guess #sorry for being so fucking annoying hadhshshsajjdfj I just have no one to talk to about these things