#it was a weird set of feelings haha

[gummi-ships]

Kingdom Hearts Dream Drop Distance - Traverse Town

#kingdom hearts dream drop distance #khddd #traverse town #scenery #my gif #trying my hand at giffing the worlds of this game despite the lack of a first person view (something i'm very upset about) #so i have to obtain and edit these shots in a very awkward manner #all while constantly being shoved around by my dream eaters #i'm so serious when i say making this set was really really frustrating lol #i can't find a free roaming camera mod or anything else that would be helpful for me #but i'll keep at it because i love looking at still shots of video game environments #and being able to share it with other people who enjoy it too #ANYWAYS traverse town is so beautiful in this game they added so many gorgeous areas with pretty glowing lights #i like the wacky whimsical mail room too and how there's this entire secret workshop hidden beneath that weird mailbox haha #the world really does feel magical and dreamy especially with its updated music #just realized the stars in the first gif are moving which is strange

[sysig]

for requestober !! can i ask for a crossover of vargas and tsp ? something like , stanley being edgar and scriabin being the narrator:3

Day 1 - Destruction

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Scriabin #Edgar #The Stanley Parable #Watch out - I'm doing cool stuff with transparency again #And this time it actually presents cleanly on the dash hells yeah >:3c #Quick first thing that stands out to you about style stuff! #I've been feeling gums lately teeth and gums but especially gums #They are good for big expression work and they are also weird :) #I'm not used to it yet! But I think I like it! In like a mixed way lol #Very good for expression work I just fjdksalfjd they are very strange #Anyhow! #Been a while since I dipped into the Vargas/TSP well :3c #I decided to go with one of the tag-dialogue I had set aside for myself in the original doodle post haha #It's a good bit of dialogue ♪ Definitely one of my favourites it rides around in my head rent free #Just leaving it as their void untouched with such an emphasis on how wrecked the place is tho #That wouldn't do would it ♪ #What did you do Edgar? #Went and found a beasty who tore the walls apart haha #Either that or Scriabin did it and he's blaming Edgar - standard fare #It feels so odd! So strange to be drawing them digitally again! #I mean I've been drawing them traditionally all this time so that's not strange #And really it hasn't been That long since I drew them digitally it just feels like it #I'll just have to get back into the swing of it haha #A good start to the season :) Thank you! :D

[daily-ethoslab]

sorry if this is random but I just saw your most recent daily etho (594 I think?) and I wanted to say that I’m blown away by your commitment. your art style has always been lovely and distinctive but the visible evolution in how you render since the beginning of this blog is astonishing. beautiful job, thanks for making me smile whenever I see your posts ❤️

!!!!!Thank you!!!! I'm so glad you like my art. Ive been trying super hard to make my art style recognizable. As for rendering??? I have no clue????? haha. It's been a while sence I've looked back on how I've improved as an artist so maybe it's a little harder for me to see it. It means a lot to know that I my silly drawings can make someone smile :] so thank u so much :D

#as for the dedication I've been considering it #and this is still not set in stone #but once I hit two years I think I'm gonna get a seccond mod #not cause I'm losing interest (far from it) #But because I wanted to finally start working on my comic #and I feel like having another person would help haha #idk tho #i feel like it's going to be such a process to find someone #cause like of course I would want a friend to do it but I don't think my friends are as deranged about etho as I am #and I feel weird making it a public thing cause like this account means a lot to me and I don't want to let just anybody do it #and I'm really bad at letting people down which is why I've been procrastinating on recruiting someone

[j-esbian]

why are people so weird about silence

#like 5 times in the past week it has come up #every time someone walks into the room where i’m working they’re like ‘haha you should turn the radio on’ i don’t want to #i’m the only one in here #was helping another guy set up a machine and he was like ‘you can put your headphones in. i’ve got mine that’s why i’m not talking’ like #cool bro. i didn’t even know it would have been an issue if you hadn’t said something. i think that’s just on you #and at dnd another person was talking about how weird and quiet their tattoo artist is bc she doesn’t talk and i was like #god that sounds IDEAL #why do people assume silence is inherently awkward and uncomfortable. why can’t we just sit and enjoy it #or at least. if you feel those things why do you need to project it onto others #this is why i hate that ppl online will talk about ‘neurodivergent swag’ to mean like. ‘never shuts up’ #if someone wants to talk i’m not going to actively stop them but like. your experiences are not universal

[ceoandslutler]

pinterest kuro fans are some of the strangest people i've ever seen in my life, they're literally having full dadbastian and ciel roleplays under an image of stolen fanart, it's wild out there

#there were literal children on there!!! #giving out PHONE NUMBERS! #like ciel x alois shippers that were sharing numbers w each other PUBLICLY ON PINTEREST #and they have the nerve to complain about sebaciel #kids you are literally setting yourselves up for being groomed #i want to say something to them and tell them not to do this but it would just be SO WEIRD #i feel so bad #sorry to vent instead of posting some haha heehee funny posts #sybitches

[aashiyancha]

This can probably pinned on the tail end of Reinhardt's first event

#rune factory 5 #rune factory #rf5 reinhard #rf5 ares #rf5 beatrice #also im pretty certain there's nothing fundamentally wrong with rei's taste sense #he even mentions in game that ppl just think his sense of taste is off #and then he mentions it being cuz he grew up poor #and like everywhere u go ppl insult the food of ppl in lower socioeconomic status #i kinda took a bit of personal offense to rei being the end of constant food jokes cuz #like ppl used to make fun of me and my friends for this same reason cuz we grew up on immigrant versions of local food #or just like #even our own cultures food #you can have a sense of taste that is dif from the norm and it not be wrong #and there are so many types of food that the game's recipe sets don't cover #it just feels weird to see all that possible other be summed up as failed dish in rei's case #wow i sorta wrote a bit of an essay here haha #basically #i know rei's case is just a silly joke in game #but having taste that deviates from conventional norm isn't a bad thing! #so yeah #if u read all of this #thx for coming to my ted talk #or whatever haha #aashi doodles

[password-door-lock]

#I'm so curious about this #Because I keep seeing screenshots where people just use their actual name or their OC's name #And I've seen screenshots with just MC #But when I started playing I put in a funny silly name #Because the friend who recommended the game to me was like “haha you are gonna develop an attachment to one of these men” #And I did not like being known #So I set my name as “Bad Boy Dan” because I figured well I couldn't fall in love with some guy who's calling me “Bad Boy Dan” to my face #And that was true until Saeran said “Bad Boy Dan my angel” and suddenly it didn't matter that he was calling me a funny silly name #And now it's like I am no longer afraid of... having feelings and this game is such an important part of my life #However it would feel so weird to change my name because now I have thousands of screenshots of the love of my life calling me “Bad Boy Dan #It's such a weird name though and I feel like nobody else has funny silly names #dan goes on and on #mystic messenger

[marrras]

PREY & OBEY

experimental impulse pmv (done fully unsketched & on a laptop trackpad, some frames left-handed, didn’t let myself re-do frames)

disjointed hound lamenting aka “every animal and person in this video is endre except for the flowers and the other boxer”

#art #animation #original characters #paranemisia #2022 #endre #vita #posting. a kind of lore dump after this because this is extra incoherent & i dont want to cram it all in the tags HAHA #(vita is a placeholder name & has a wip design but hes someone endre had a brief fling with pre-bane and before he met damir. he boxed in #the same circles.also hes the guy endre bit because i think thatd be funny) #(he was nice endre just got too invested emotionally so he nipped it in the bud) #i started this just to blow off steam after not managing to finish a video for 6 months and god im. glad i did i really like this #feels weird to finally like what youre making #+ this made me discover some really useful workarounds for my workflow so. already planning more videos like this #specifically for characters i havent gotten to flesh out as much storywise yet #by 'planning' i mean 'in the few hours between initially setting this post up and now i started a damir one #anyway yeah! its been rough but arts fun again #/ #content warnings in video! #injuries #smoking #eye horror #scopophobia #trackpad

[thedreadvampy]

sometimes I am like 'boy I am So Normal' and other times I am like 'wow my grandmother sure did give me a lot of undergrad level art criticism to chew on when I was like 13'

#red said #both the good thing and the bad thing about my grandma was that she didn't talk down to kids #and she had taught undergrad art school #and I'm not sure i was always 100% on board on account of being A Child #but she had me reading Klee's pedagogy of drawing when i was like 8 #and oh god what was it. herbert read's 1930s analysis of modern art? when i was like 14 #i know this bc my year 9 portfolio is full of anime art and a big typographic quote about interpreting art from read #now when i go to art galleries with my friends i vacillate wildly between 'haha look at how weird this guy's hair is' #and 'the impasto creates a kind of paradoxical verisimilitude!' #bless them but i was walking around a gallery with my partner enthusiastically going on about trompe d'oeil and marxist analysis of realism #and i said '... does that make sense' and they said 'nothing you've said for the last 20 minutes made sense but it sounds cool' #and people think I'm like this because i went to art school #NO THE ROT SET IN WELL BEFORE THAT and also like i did a year less study than my classmates at undergrad #and i still found most of them hadn't heard of most of the terminologies i was throwing around #it wasn't until my masters i started meeting other people who were hype about critical theory #and then i felt stupid bc tbh i haven't like. STUDIED it formally. i just pick bits up. #so when i was talking to someone with a really thorough grounding in semiotics i was just Saying Words #understood what she was saying but couldn't back up my own points enough to feel like we were on an even keel

[magical-xirl-4]

Haha would y’all be mad if I said I might be a trans man

#HAHA…. like nothing is set in stone or anything but god how much longer can I keep this in idk #weird shit is happening #I entertained the idea a lil and it just keeps growing more and more #I don’t try to suppress it but I think more and more about my identity and question if that’s actually it #I’m so sick of being seen as a girl/woman I wanna take t now #but I dunno if that’s just me hating being misgendered and I’m actually just nonbinary #I don’t know I don’t know #being seen as masculine and dressing masculinely makes me so happy #I feel like if I bring this up to people they will brush me off and discard it like ‘HA you could never be a man. you?? really??!’ #and I feel like those are stopping me #there’s conflict with my identity #I care too much about how others perceive me

[smalltownfae]

Now I can sort of see what that person meant by The Remains of the Day and An Artist of the Floating World being similar. So far, I am still feeling 4 stars for this book but I am only halfway through.

I did fear I wasn't going to love it as much as everyone else. Also, I can see why so many people love this book and don't like other Ishiguro's works because it does have a different feel to it. It made me laugh too which I don't think it ever happened for me with an Ishiguro work. But, Stevens and the setting are quite different from what I am used to when it comes to Ishiguro. I do hope to love this book by the end, but it is also alright if it stays a 4 stars. It is still pretty good if not a favourite.

#andy reads the remains of the day #so far I prefer klara and the sun and an artist of the floating world... #an artist is a weird one though because I liked it more months after I finished it #I still think about it and I read it last year I think... #the person said that this book perfected the themes and character work done in artist of the floating world so I guess I will see #but honestly just the art part and the artistic struggle connected to politics is enough to make me like the other book more #but also I really like how stevens worshipped his father and the value he puts on being a butler #this has a downton abbey vibe too haha #it's very english I guess #which is also something that makes it very different from all ishiguro works I read #I guess klara and the sun was the closest in setting and given the uk vs us feel #with french mentions XD

[sysig]

Looking his very best, as much as he can anyhow (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #The Captain #The theme of this set is ZEX's hair! So I guess Max's hair really lol #But double really it's ZEX's hair because Max would never let this happen to his hair lol poor abused hair haha #Cute floofy ZEX is cute and floofy <3 #He can't control the hair - no hair bones here unfortunately lol - but at least there's something around his head eh? #Max with a buzz cut! Ah!!! The problem is I love him no matter what so I think he looks cute literally anyhow haha #S'cold! As if ZEX wasn't already sensitive haha - he gets a buzz cut and is just ''?????'' the whole time #And then someone pets his hair and it upgrades to ''?!?!?!?!?!'' haha #Weird to not have anything in his peripherals too :0 Always /some/thing to the sides of his head! #I think he looks quite silly in the third one lol - I would say I drew his hair too short but it's actually more accurate isn't it #Max's hair is like chin/shoulder-length! I just can't help myself haha long flowing hair is so fun and pretty <3 #No he's beautiful however I stand by it #ZEX with slightly damp but not actually clean hair haha of course it feels strange! Not just water in there! #Actually drawing his green ends for a change haha ♪ And the grey in his hair! ;; ZEEEX weh #You can just barely see I tried to use one of my skin-tone pencils from the Crayola set but it doesn't scan the best :P #Or apply the best honestly lol they're quite hard pencils - I'm used to a softer formula like the yellow and green there! Very soft and nice #Yaaay Captain hehe <3 This is what you get for trusting someone untrustworthy ZEX lol #Okay but the way I reacted to reading there was Yarn tied in his hair I had a Normal reaction and I'm Fine about it lol #I made it red for Funsies and no other reason lol - really it's just the pen I (still) always have on hand haha #There's some in my blue as well! Just not as obviously lol - no wait that's one of his colours too just ignore that <3 #ZEX is adorable ♪ The alien not understanding human traditions and culture trope is so lovely on him #And honestly the Captain is a very good sport hehe <3 He takes a lot in stride! Good for him

[rimouskis]

UPDATE TO THE ORNAMENTS QUESTION (thank you all for your lovely input): I bought a tiny, shiny tree today. it is made of tinsel and is very retro which has soothed my soul over it being fake. also it's a bitch to store and some of my ornaments are way too big for it but it is MINE

#I've been feeling frenetic about life and my solution has been to get weird and wired about christmas early #I bought some presents today. and wrapped them. and put them in their addressed boxes. #I'm gonna own christmas this year #also every year I set aside monthly money for a christmas fund bc back at my old job christmas would threaten to bankrupt me in nov/dec #as i bought gifts #but now that I'm at a better paying job I haven't even touched the fund lol. and I also doubled my monthly contributions #if I have leftover funds in january I'm just gonna chuck it into my travel fund haha #also I have some late-year bday presents I need to get aaa

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#okay this is my newest strange obsession and i couldnt tell you why #but basically i want to create a podcast #i started writing a story like five or six years ago #but yknow how stories go. i wrote most of it. brainstormed a lot. daydreamed a lot #its partially written #but its been abandoned for awhile #but im obsessed with fiction podcasts. theyre one if my favorite things #anything by atypical artists. the antique shop. dreamboy (although that one was really fucking weird). im listening to mabel rn #(Mabel is taking awhile because its spooky as hell. 10/10) #and i realized. holy shit. this story would work so well as a podcast. much better than in novel format #its written as little segments from each of the characters. i realized i can frame it as audio journal entries #it could work so well. #problems im running into: it would require four other voice actors. i cant afford to pay other voice actors #i dont know how to properly record. or edit. or how to upload it anywhere. or literally anything. #but my heart is so set on making this podcast :( #i havent even fully written it and my brain is trying to create a whole fucking podcast #if anyone knows how to create a podcast and is willing to voice act for free. feel free to hmu #haha jk... unless?

[inertia-writes]

dehradun days

you meet them for the first time,

knowing it's probably the last.

might as well make the most of this time,

since life comes at you fast.

you find the strangest of signals

in the no-network zones.

cross-tent communication with folks,

just rambling about the unknown.

there's the warmth of shared laughter,

that carries you through freezing nights,

and you look up at the flickering stars,

to finally see things in a different light.

and at 11,000 ft above sea level

you finally reach the peak,

just to realise the joy was in the journey,

and the friends you made that week.

you'll visit caves & splendid cafes,

and remember the city in mere parts,

but years later, you'll still tell everyone,

how dehradun captured your heart.

#inertia-writes #poets on tumblr #desi poetry #dehradun poetry #poems on india #poems on life #desiblr #being desi #dehradun #i went on a trek w the lowest of expectations and it was one of the best experiences of my life #it's so refreshing to meet people from different cities and of different ages and backgrounds #jan and feb were pretty meh but things have been looking upwards from march (thank you god - i acknowledge your existence) #thought of writing a happy poem for a change of tone (and also maybe because i am genuinely happy :) ) #this isn't one of my best poems i feel - it's a bit unrefined - but who cares it is one of my happy ones sooooo #there are times when absolutely nothing significant happens and there are days when years happen #i didn't go in the mountains for solitude - i felt that here already haha. i went for a change. #but i gained so many memories w people and so many positive perspectives that i needed in general. also nayata premier league <3 #i think i believe in destiny now. i was destined to meet those people and have a good time and come back to reality w a spring in my step #and maybe the mountains were calling. can't stay away from snow too long - i was born during snowy days anyway #came back home and am still in some weird positive trance - good for me #also my lucky streak is still going on - kaavish released a new song #historic moment in time (thank you god 2x) #poems on friendship #found family #poems on found family #all the may '23 - feb '24 melancholy has been washed out of my system. i am now set for the next tragedy of my life lol #dekhte hai kab tak khush rehti hu mein - kuch bhayankar honewala hai aisa lag raha hai #i do not remember the last time i was happy for a month straight - am i living in a virtual simulation? #whoever is controlling my life rn - i would like to continue to stay in this simulation - thanks v much

[hatsalad]

.

#ive having a really had time rn and i think its because i dozed off and that falling thing happened #you know where youre falling asleep but your heart rate drops too quickly giving you that falling sensation #well i think that happened but then immediately after jerking awake i noticed my chest feeling weird and now im trying to calm down #from the thoughts of “im dying im dead” cause i read the post about how the feeling you get from heart attacks and anxiety are different #cause your body knows for a fact that its gonna die so it doesnt even bother making you panicked.... #so of course my panic is trying to convince me that the weird feeling is that #and it doesnt help that i have really bad anxiety around sleeping anyway cause if i feel any unusual pain or feeling #im convinced that im dying and if i fall asleep then I'll die so obviously i then don't asleep all night #even just a weird headache triggers this cause my head is just like “its an oncoming brain hemorrhage. its the tumor” #and so that falling feeling and my chest feeling weird have really set a bad one on me and now i cant even bring myself to lie down #cause im convinced the moment my head touches a pillow I'll die #haha so fun i have work jesus christ #me