#its nice to look around my room and go

[hazbinhomo2]

Forget your friends genders, who's the emo my little pony, the clay effigy of Freddie Mercury, the fairytale wizard tower and the atomically correct model of a skeleton hand?

#its nice to look around my room and go #ah yes #my weird shit #the four genders #im definitely clay freddie #gay friend group #gay

[krikidilly]

Delicious art style. Delicious attitude. Delicious sense of freedom and expression. Delicious humor. Delicious rarepairs.

Delicious comments in my tags about childhood wonderment and emotion that I think about every day without fail and revisit frequently because they make my week better.

Delicious blog. One of my favorites. /pos /gen

GUGH,, trying so hard to formulate a coherent sentence here because my mind is complete giddy brain soup. The joys.. butAGCK!!!! Vague hand motions, I am very very happy thank you soso much! ! I've been trying be more raw with my emotions in like day to day and with my art, and being as indulgent and unfiltered as I can manage and hearing its enjoyed is! Eek! Runs away! (Positively!) Especially with my tags,, elated to know you look at them often! It means a lot to me because YOUR art means a lot to me!! Both in style and meaning and overall just. The filling and the crust does that make any sense at all! It makes me feel a lot!!! I think im rambling a little um um EEK thankYEW! I appreciate you and this sos much! All the same back to YOU❗ FOR REALLY!!!!🙇🙇🙇🙇🙇

#who the hell put a mouse in this post! whos eeking!!! #sorry this isnt eloquent at all.. being told nice things makes me so giddy my mind melts out my ears #but FOR REAL. ALL THE SAME BACK TO YOU!!! especially your own attitude and especially your tags!!! #i go a little out of my gourd! i get so happy i pace around my room! the joys!!! THE JOYS!!💥💥🎉 #sorry i sound like an incoherent dork but yesyesyes anyways i am so very grateful that anything. me. is liked at all its .. encouraging #to the absolute max #uhm but i think the words are running iut of my head i shluld wrap this post up um hi if youre looking i hope you have a great day!! #🙇💗💗💗 #asks #i know i couldve just been like oh thank you i appreciate it! but the rambling joy and whismy got me

[littlest-rhythms]

me scrolling thru any online clothes store: this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no ass. this garment is made for people with no thighs. this garment is made for people with no waist. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no calves. this garment is made for people with no waist. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is ma

#tops in my actual torso size never fit me well bc of my chest. do i really need to wear a sports bra under every single top and dress i own #just to get clothes that should fit me to actually fit me without weird tenting or lifting of fabric anywhere #ive had clothes fit me like a glove around my shoulders arms waist etc but still had to go 2 (!!) sizes up bc of abysmal room for my chest #as of right now i have a D cup. i have a VERY average build for my demographic. #and yet my measurements seem extremely outlandish for 98-99% of clothing manufacturers that dont charge 80 bucks for a tshirt #made this post bc i scrolled thru too many clothes i could very obviously see were not designed to accommodate any cup size #even scaled up in the larger sizes. which is just sad at this point. its almost 2024. cmon. #also i love me some boxy clothing but to get a nice silhouette in that you better not have any boobs. #woe. woe is me and all femme clothing enthusiasts #anyways i'm off to look for dresses without straps without necklines without cutouts without anything cool interesting happening up top #so i can wear a sports bra under it to have it fit me. and avoid popping the third button upon 5 minutes of wearing it #back on my bs #sorry for long post i'm utterly sick of everything for a bit

[carcarrot]

i did tell you people i met a they might be giant right.

#I DONT THINK I DIDDDDDD like an insane person i left out one of the most bonkers moments of my california vacation #saying it now makes it seem like im making this up and the following story will seem made up but dude just trust me. #im fucking. ok sunday morning the morning of Thee Concert and i (used to waking up at 4-5 am) have been awake on and off since like 6 am #my friend? asleep. #now i enjoy waking up and falling back asleep for a couple of hours however by like 9:30 im starving i need BREAKFAST #like the very nice friend that i am i dont wake my friend up i let him sleep and leave him a message on my open laptop screen #because the fucking hotel room doesnt have a pad of paper?? so i leave my modern post it note of a message #saying that im going out for croissants and coffee #because im an idiot i severely misjudge how hot it's already gotten in los angeles in july #ive chosen to wear jeans (bad idea) and a long sleeve flowy black shirt (worse idea) #i also dont look my Greatest because my friend had been telling me dont wash ur hair before we curl it for the concert!!! #so this is my hair after flying in and everything the day before (It Needs To Be Washed) #im following google maps to the coffee place as i brave the streets of los angeles on a sunday morning #hollywood boulevard around the chinese theatre is insane btw. insane. but being from new york i am unfazed (well. a little fazed) #i am Sweating. its already gotta be 80 degrees. im also reaching critical hunger levels. but i continue on my journey #google maps leads me down a sidestreet and tells me to turn down some alley and im like well thats not right. #so i turn to go back the way i was headed and find another way to get to the coffee place #as i turn and head back up theres a guy going down this same block heading in my direction #i look at him and im like hey that guy kinda looks like oh my god it actually is him. mr john l of tmbg fame #and so i have a split second decision of like do i sayyyyyy something do i just ignore him while geeking out #somehow i decide to be bold and im just like gdjgmm hi excuse me i recognize you uh do you mind if i could get a photo #he was very nice and suggested we move into the shade and i took the photo trying to turn off google maps before i did #and i was like aa im seeing you in concert 2nite love your music thank u! and we went on our way. #i think i kinda like. stopped for a moment before i went on to the cafe and was like. that just happened??????? insane. but it gets better #i do finally get the coffees n croissants btw and get back to the hotel after melting in the heat #and my friend who likes tmbg better was losing his mind once i finally told him #so the following morning after our spars concert insanity we have breakfast at a diner and then head back to our hotel #and he's wearing a tmbg shirt he got and im in a spars shirt and as we're walking back a car horn honks near us #AND ITS BOTH THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS IN A CAR and they say hi and are like we like your shirts! #and my friend and i are like losing it but trying to be cool and like oh thabk you we loved your show hi! so theres my insane story

[flippedorbit]

guy who feels annoying All Of The Time for rambling gets told it’s fine to do so unapologetically…… sobs :’] <3 /pos

i shall dm you i guess????? i think that’s most comfy for Me lol??? <- is so bad at social interaction omg save me

(responding to tags again: you fucking GET IT!!!!! shakes you so much omfg dude RAHHHH!!!!!! /affectionate

your cat is so cute…… she is goals (i’m catkin lmao) she looks so cozy and warm and soft and yeah she’s just great. giving her a little kiss because what cat doesn’t deserve lil kissies?)

-gregarious anon

:D yeah i ramble constantly about whatever’s on my mind and am constantly worried about being annoying so when someone else feels that way about rambling to me i just go with it, no being annoying here, just fun and chatting about whatever comes to mind :3

and o7 looking forward to it, gregarious anon

#asks #Apollo answers #gregarious anon #do not be fooled by how cozy she looks. she can be a huge asshole when she wants to be #mostly she’s rather sweet but she has her moments. to be fair she was an outside cat for most of her life before we got her (she was my #aunt’s cat (mother’s full blood younger sister) before she moved and decided to give her to us instead of taking her on a long drive across #numerous state lines (about a 24 hour drive from here where she used to live to the state she lives in now) and Pickles already hated the #drive from my aunts old house to here. but she’s really adjusted well to now being an inside cat. we’ve had her since may i think? maybe #april at the earliest. i know we got her on my senior prom day (literally just an hour before. i was super worried about being late) so its #been about seven or eight months. she was at least relatively socialized with people before we got her thankfully so that wasn’t much of a #problem or thing to worry about. however the only like slight problem we have is that she wasn’t really raised around kittens and we #recently got two (Scamper and Eclipse) so we’re trying to train the kittens to not tear up stuff in the house and train Pickles to be nice #and be gentle with them and share toys and stuff. currently the kittens go up at night into an enclosed mesh playpen and Pickles sleeps in #my room with me like before the kittens came along. we supervise them playing most of the time. i think she’s getting a bit better at being #gentle and playing nice with them. its a slow process but we’re getting somewhere at the very least) #wow that was a lot more than i meant to type. anyway. free Pickles’ lore

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

creative mode subnautica i am invincible and my base is so pretty and there is nothing wrong with my brain

#whats better than this. guys being dudes. making underwater luxury housing. #my favorite favorite location ever is the intersection between safe shallows and grassy plateau and kelp forests #big ol 3 room tower with ac tanks in the bottom 2 floors and my bedroom on the top #so i can look down into the tank and see my creatures swimming around.... #nice little... vending machine room.... bioreactor room with all the indoor plant pots and storage + charging stations #scanner room right across from the moonpool with a hatch outside in between..... #guys im soooo good at subnautica base building #i want to live here fr #sitting here wating for my last crabsnake egg to hatch..... #btw did u guys know they changed the reefback eggs. you cant hatch reefbacks anymore :( instead u get FUCKING SPADEFISH. this is so unfair #i want a tiny little reefback in my home aquarium soooo bad. this is bs #hi im absolutely dreading work and also therapy tomorrow. i dont want to go i dont want to talk about my issues this sucks actually!!!!!!! #i was gonna be so productive today but i had to go to the grocery store with my dad and also like 50 other errands #and also im dogsitting for a family friend Again and its gonna be like a whole 2 weeks and im soooo tired already. sigh #i dont want to BE HERE #im tjred of responsibilities i want to kms but like not in the funny quirky way ppl say that these days i mean im mentally ill forreal. #love and peace i fucking guess <3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#looking at the notes ppl in the lab let me on my birthday card. it seems ppl think i should chill the fuck out lmao #a lot were like RELAX!!! and ya kno objectively theyre right but i refuse to listen bc theres something wrong in my head #sigh. i survived the day at least. the timed measurements r done on this experiment. thank christ. and my birthday gathering as so #i dont kno. it was kinda funny and kinda sad i guess. bc i knew it was gonna happen and i didnt want it to but i was like fine. ill meet #at 4. and i expected it to b in the conference room but they set up outside the lab around the corner. so they did kinda surprise me #location wise i guess. i cant imagine what expression i was making. it felt like a pained smile but idk. i had to go back to take #measurements every 4min so i was standing there with a plate full of ice creame cake. kinda away from everyone while they talked. staring #at my phone timer as it ticked down and abruptly leaving when i had to log a measurement. i was basically a non entity while there. which #was kinda idea bc i have too much hurt inside to talk to ppl right now. as evidence by my phone call with my parents when i got home. im #just kinda a bummer to exist around rn. idk maybe i should apologize to my boss bc i kno im not an easy person to do things for #and i really do appreciate the effort. its just hard when i kno how much stress its going to cause me for someone to attempt to do #something they think will b nice. so idk i just feel bad. but its over. and idk what ill do tomorrow. i should do stuff for when i move #like my dad was like: u should prioritize ur future stuff. and hes objectively right. they think i should get a studio apartment which #would b expensive as fuck but i will destroy myself if i have roommates. idk. theres lots still to do bc i have to get a ton of data #processed by the end of the week bc i have 8 days of measurement on another project that needs to get done by may 14th when i leave for #vacation. which my mom was like did u buy ur tickets for next month and i was like. hm how do i ask where im supposed to buy tickets to #without giving away that i dont kno what ur talking abt? bc apparently im going to a wedding? wtf do i wear to a wedding? #idk. i guess im just kinda sad bc this month has been really hard. i made it hard for no reason bc theres something wrong in my head and #that hurt has nowhere to go bc i cant even give anyone an honest account of how awful it was bc its like what r they gonna do abt it? #anything i say is just worrying bc i cant seem to stop myself who whats the point in talking abt it. but idk humans r social creatures so #when im in pain at least part of me wants someone to brush my hair and acknowledge my pain and tell me itll b ok #but idk. the idea of that happening is different from the reality where i seem to opperate at a different frequency to other people. we #just dont seem to properly connect. idk. idk what ill do tomorrow. im afraid to loosen my grip on my schedule bc i might fall to piece #pieces without the pressure. well see. lets home my 26th year is better than my 25th was. bc last year sucked #hope* lets hope that was my low point. bc that was not a fun time and im worry to take account of thr damage done #unrelated

[useful-boy]

Oh yeah uh, final update on the hospital stuff for now that actually has nothing to do with my health, but instead how the nurse I had today treated me

I did fuck up here I will admit, but the whole thing would've been over a lot faster if she'd actually helped me at all.

#nurses do have hard jobs but please. all you had to do was say 'go right' instead of leading me to a hallway with a fourway intersection #and saying 'its down the hall' and walking away #WHICH hall? hello? #her entire vibe had been kind of off since i got admitted. and i cant point to any one thing she did because it was really just #the way she talked kind of reminded me of those popular girls in high school that come up to the weird kid in class and pretend #to want to be their friend while laughing at them behind their hand. but she hadnt actually Done anything or said anything openly rude #now i know for sure she wasnt a very nice or helpful person. all i needed was a way to go #id have gone to the room looked around checked my purse and been like 'oh oops wrong phone. well now i can go' #instead of wandering arounf lost only to find her again and get dismissed like 'i already helped her' no you didnt!!! you didnt try at all! #huff #long post #technically #i almost hit discord character limit twice while writing this #hospitals #nurses #mean girl to nurse pipeline is so real

[soggypotatoes]

falling in love w the sweet gay nurse that treated me after my relapse

#jack my beloved #ed mumbles #i just want 2 cry #also i did manage to go talk to nurses today when i was feeling like dying #n he walked around the carpark with me which was nice #also threw up halfway through my psychiatrist appointment #into my HANDS #it was embarrassing #AND after a bit he asked if he could talk to me again #and i walked into the room and there were like 5/6 people there #the head of nursing doctor therapist some other guy #n they all were asking me how they can help me w my shit and i was like I DUNNO #it was weird haha they let me leave after i sat there looking terrified for a bit #its nice tho bc on monday he told me they couldnt rly help me :(((( #cause i clearly have an eating disorder but they dont have an eating disorder unit #and also nobody knows wtf im dealing with cause its not typical at all #so they r trying #he did say i should go home for a bit and then be admitted to an eating disorder hospital tho #which.. yeah ok but also.. they r gonna assume im trying to lose weight #i dont CARE abt my weight i like my weight #i just cant eat okkkkk #i did manage to eat TWICE today tho #not much like 1/3rd of a meal each time but soooo much more than i have been eating #so thats good #disordered eating // #also not my sick brain being like 'if u sh again the nice nurse will treat u again' #IT WAS NICE OK...... #im not gonna do it...... #i cant anyway im under lock n key for the time being #the psychiatrist asked if i wanted leave again

[silverislander]

i've FINALLY found the best spot in school to chill alone/study and it's. the individual study rooms. who could have predicted this.

#but seriously tho the way theyre built makes them look like little cramped closets so id never been in them until this year #but i was in one the other day just to test it out/ensure i actually got a seat to eat my lunch at #and theyre. so nice. it is essentially a tiny closet but with a nice lamp a desk and a window with a great view over campus #but the door isnt an open glass panel like the group rooms!! its just wood w a little window!! it actually feels private #its SO nice i can just finally go in there for an hour and decompress and not feel like a zoo animal #levi.txt #even walking around campus can be a little exhausting for me sometimes bc im so conscious that people Can See Me all the time #like i have to remember not to have resting bitch face which i Do and not stim and not fix my clothes or hair and make normal eye contact #just so that people dont think badly of me for. being in public #its so fuckign tiring jesus #so like. having a little room to go in and not worry about being watched is so valuable i cant explain how great that is for me #ESPECIALLY after like. a class where i have to talk out loud or a small group where im focused on appearing normal(? idk) #i can watch youtube and use my fidget cube and relax :)

[seokwoosmole]

Sending my biaswrecker a mental apology for momentarily forgetting meeting her😭

#kard hi touch was so startling #I thought we were just gonna pass by in a straight line from one end of the room to another but noooooo #we were all in line then we went into this room that had a divider & around the corner of the divider is where it was happening #so I didnt get any time to warm up to seeing them before getting in front of them #it was just turn the corner and BAM Matthew is right there perched on the table😭 #as a short person im always a bit intimidated or just hyperconscious of tall ppl but he's like super tall & a rlly big guy #but not in the intimidating kinda way - more like in the friendly giant kinda way #he was super hyped up during the show but at the end he looked SO tired but he still smiled super warmly & seemed rlly nice BUT EVEN THO #I WAS SO NERVOUS like this is my PRESIDENT & I was overwhelmed by his presence & could barely process that he was in front of my face #then somin was there & OMFG I ofc knew she's rlly pretty but cameras do not do her justice cuz she's like so stunningly gorgeous in person #that I was thrown off guard but she seemed so sweet making an effort to make direct eye contact while greeting each person #eye contact makes my anxiety📈📉📈📉& it was already all over the place w how fast things were happening so when I came around to jiwoo #I was still recovering then Jseph started making EYE CONTACT w me and said 'thank u for coming' & I was so caught up mentally going #'wait a min is he talking to me??' & said thank u back THEN IT WAS OVER & I was like WTF WHY CANT I REMEMBER JIWOO?!?! #I spent a good hour b4 falling asleep tryna recall my moment w her until it finally resurfaced & even now its hazy #I cant recall if she said anything but I just remember her having a rlly warm & friendly smile #ahhhh anyway it went by sooo fast but I enjoyed all 20-30 secs of it & im so proud to be a hidden kard #kard #bm #somin #jiwoo #j.seph

[pizzapizzadickz]

Mn. I really wanna leave and go somewhere. If I wasn't terrified of most bugs I probably would instantly. But where?

#gotta do everything i want before i die #diary #personal #hm. i like camping. but theres just so many bugs. hm. where to tho? i dont mind camping around here - but maybe somewhere better is nice #i guess ill look into it. and maybe a therapist to help with my insect phobia thing. #im rly only scared of bees. but bc of how my mom acts with other bugs like tics and bc ive had them in my pants before - #im just generally scared and alert around bugs. #haaaah. not much to be done. #maybe i should go somewhere farther away? #i have one place in mind. but how would i get there? #theres like this stupid family emergency going on round where i wanna go so im sorta hesitent to ask for them to drive me. #hm. well maybe ill talk to my mom and see what we can do? once im camping ill be fine anyways. #all i rly need to eat is granola bars that i like. anything else is a bonus. #and i could take a break from all this *vaguely gestures around everywhere* #i could write and draw and take plenty of pictures. i should have enough room on my camera afterall. maybe i should check tho #i think this would be the cheapest option but also one of the more fun. #i dont have a passport rn so maybe i should start the application process? hm. i think ill go to japan next maybe. #or somewhere else perhaps? theres so much i wanna do suddenly lmao. #i can tell im still quite depressed. but idk what happened - most likely its that mentality #but rly i just wanna go have fun somewhere. #idk. i love to travel and with covid and everything i havent been able to and it makes me feel trapped. #i dont wanna be here forever. i sometimes hate it here... but. i just wanna go. yknow? #haaah. i rly wanna know whats wrong with me. like. not that i feel its something inherently wrong #just... i wanna know whats going on so i can better accommodate it yknow? #either way a short vacation sounds nice. like a 5 day or so one. of course this doesnt mean that ill just jump ship lmao #but hm. where to go? i cant drive so i gotta plan around that in the end. hm hm hmm. well i guess ill browse around. #i think ill research more on my break? or whenever i have free time lmao. even tho its not much. haha.

[theskeletoninthegarden]

Opened the curtains for a bit to let them get some sun and this led to that.

#oliver the austere #luna the lovely #cats #luna is sweet but doesn't like to be handled #oliver likes to be held by One Person and was neglected and possibly otherwise abused by friends of their's #that looked after him for a while #i dont expect him to let me pet him by the end of the week or anything #but im not reaching out to him or avoiding him altogether #i give him space and let him choose to leave mine on his own #i talk to him and ask him to smell things #and I've gotten a second leg rub out of letting him sniff my toes after coming inside from the yard #i love them your honor #im going to try leaving my door open for tonight so luna can know I'm around #anyway this is a nice place but its weird being alone for multiple days in a row #and its not my place #everythings so beige and boring #the curtains are closed to block light in case of a fire on the couch #but i cant figure out the shutters in the other rooms...and the computer room is probably best kept dark i guess #i want to enjoy the sun but worry about my allergies #but the tub is deep enough to submerge myself in

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 329

Adjective: Flowy

Noun: Dress

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Flowy: (especially of long hair or clothing) hanging or draping loosely and gracefully, or flowing

Dress: a one-piece garment that covers the body and extends down over the thighs or legs, worn typically by women and girls; clothing of a specified kind for men or women; denoting military uniform or other clothing used on formal or ceremonial occasions

#im a bit late once again #i decided to go to bed instead of posting this cos i stayed up rather late #i was finishing up some art pieces and i lowkey list track of time #as you do #other than working on a bunch of art (in preparation for a pop-up shop) #my girlfriend and i cooked and started the 5th and final season of orphan black #so that was fun and nice #especially since we didnt leave the apartment at all #when it comes to the prompt i know it is rather basic or simple #which was really proven to me when i looked up the definitions and the first suggestion for typing 'flowy' into google was 'flowy dress' #also a 'flowy' 'dress' was used as the example for the one definition of 'flowy' #so oops about that #however i still feel like there is still a lot of room for creativity #especially around the 'dress' itself and its significance or purpose outside of being 'flowy' #my personal thought at the moment is that the 'dress' belonged to someone significant (royalty or a magical being etc) #im excited to whittle my options down and begin writing this poem #i think itll be fun to write a poems story through an object specifically a piece of clothing #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least #*lost

[southislandwren]

okay i have ten million things to do before i leave for my event tomorrow. but for now im going to play games and chill out. i deserve it. also do you guys think i was appropriately pathetic and endearing when my repro prof was like "howd you do on the quiz" and i said 16/20 and he said "that's pretty good!" and i went "i wanted to do better" in the tiniest voice i could manage. i need him to pity me so i can pass

#i went up to him after getting my quiz back and was like dr. c? 🥺 how can a male produce spermatozoa but be considered infertile? 🥺 #we'll see how todays quiz went. im more confident on girl parts because of the whole afab situation but i skipped yesterdays class #so idk. i felt good about it but who knows. #i saw P in the small conference room and she was like hows repro? need help? #and i am SO soft that shes looking out for me i love my dairy people :((( #but idk. its only week 3. its going to get worse. #next week we're palpating cattle which i am historically bad at #(remember when i went around to three different cows and couldnt feel a single cervix. yeah) #but who knows! im smart i'll figure something out #i have like 3 different major situations going on rn. cant wait to get sloppy drunk on sunday and complain to my internship boss's mom #astro prof really likes me and i really like her and i really like astronomy #and i skipped lab and the eclipse prep got cancelled #so the next time i'll see her is tuesday and im giving my constellation presentation #(also how fucked up is it that i got assigned libra and my tablemates got fucking auriga. which has capella. which is my favorite star.) #feels kind of cheap tbh #also clarinet prof also really likes me and he wasnt mean abt the fact i only practiced twice this week #and he was saying i had nice embechure or whatever im not putting effort into spelling that correctly #and whenever other music people came into his office for whatever reason #he'd be like 'this is Hope! shes a dairy science major! this is her second clarinet lesson and she made it over the break!' #idk. its crazy to think about how bad i was doing on monday and tuesday and now im like. basically fine. #like yes im sad yes i was crying about being stupid and worthless earlier today #but im not in crisis mode anymore #idk. sorry. gonna play a game. probably mariokart or something #diary post #school post

[ff2-soda-pop]

i need to. remember to not play horror games late at night and with all the lights off-

#for some reason my brain went like 'HEY REMEMBER HOW YOU HAVE OMORI RIGHT THERE. AND ITS JUST SITTING THERE. AND YOU COULD PLAY IT?' and now #im playing it again and it was going Fine except like. #so i do the scene in the piano room with kel and hero and once they leave im like 'ok im gonna go save and wander around and then go to #sunnys room' and so i did that. made sunny go to the bathroom #forgot that when its night in-game sometimes things will pop up in the mirror. made sunny look in mirror. saw the hellmari thing and jumped #so bad i hit my fucking leg on table in the process- #WHICH IK SOUNDS LIKE KIND OF AN OVERREACTION. BUT IN MY DEFENSE I WASNT EXPECTING THAT AND ALSO FORGOT IT COULD HAPPEN #also it made all the nice calm music stop :( i liked the music it was pretty :( #that last part doesnt really matter i was just kinda disappointed because I Liked The Music (also the sudden Complete Silence did not help-