#its really hard to follow is what im saying

[jgracie]

I CAN FIX HIM (NO REALLY I CAN)

masterlist | rules

❝ Can you please writhe a one shot with Jason and daughter of Psyche reader based on the song “I can fix him(no really i can)” by Taylor?Like imagine some time later when Jason is finally free from his demigod duties and goes to college with his friends,here he meets reader.Since she is a daughter of Psyche (the goddess of the human soul)she understands him immediately and she help him understand himself,discovering what he likes and to heal from his past and of course they fall in love. ❞ — anon

in which they shook their heads saying “god help her,” when you tell ‘em he’s your man

pairing jason grace x psyche!reader

warnings feelings of self loathing, slight bullying

on the radio . . . i can fix him (no really i can) (taylor swift)

an they r in new rome uni in this !! i feel like jason is a tad ooc but also its 11:30pm as im posting this and im tired

Everything you heard about Jason Grace screamed ‘red flag’. Son of Jupiter, ex-praetor, raised by wolves then sent to camp at the mere age of three or four - what was there not to be afraid of? To add to that, the way he carried himself exuded power in a way that would make anyone cower in fear. His face was inscrutable, crystal blue eyes unreadable in the same way the storms his father made were

However, you weren’t anyone. Your mother was Psyche, goddess of the soul. And as a daughter of Psyche, you could see right through just about everyone, including Jason Grace. Whenever you tapped into his energy, you couldn’t help but feel he was the complete opposite of what he presented himself as. While Jason seemed content with solitude to everyone around him, you knew that deep down, he was just seriously misunderstood and in desperate need for some loving

You were right. Jason’s life had been hell, especially the past couple years. His memory had been taken away from him, making him lose ties with all his friends and a potential lover, Reyna. Then, he’d gotten a new girlfriend and new friends, only for his girlfriend to dump him and his friends to all be too busy to spend a single second with him. Still, Jason had persevered. He applied and got accepted to New Rome University, he attended all his lectures, he got perfect grades, he tried his best to socialise. 

The latter never worked out though. People either saw him as Jason the traitor, the guy who’d chosen to leave with the Greeks instead of fighting for his camp (Jason would stifle a laugh at the phrase ‘his camp’ - if this were really his camp, they wouldn’t have easily found a guy who’s the epitome of everything un-Roman to replace him. They weren’t any better), or as Jason the soldier, the man who’d toppled Kronos’ throne and won in a fight against the titan Krios, absolutely untouchable and worshipped in a way that would make his father seethe with jealousy

Eventually, he gave up. If that’s how they wanted him to be, so be it. He shut himself off from the world, focusing solely on his studies and his plans for shrines for every God and Goddess. Little did he know, a certain someone was formulating the perfect plan to become his friend

Your plan backfired. You’d spent weeks keeping note of all the classes you had with Jason, even occasionally following him to see where he’d go after class (his dorm, immediately), and yet you couldn’t seem to get a single conversation out of him. The closest you’d gotten was when you sat next to him in one of your lectures and dropped your pen - he’d simply handed it to you without a word. For the split-second your fingers brushed, you took on all his pain and felt it pull you apart. How could he cope with all of this baggage? 

Luckily for you, the fates work in mysterious ways that in this case, happened to be in your favour

“Oh, I’ll leave. Sorry.” Someone mumbled from behind you. You had been having a hard time sleeping as it was exam season, meaning everyone’s late night stress as they did last minute cram sessions piled onto you, so you decided to go to the one place you knew would be quiet. It was a small garden you’d discovered as a freshman and dubbed as ‘your spot’, and you’d often come when you were feeling extra overwhelmed

Turning your head, your eyes widened as you saw none other than Jason Grace, who was about to go back to his dorm

“No, wait! You can stay, I don’t mind,” this was a first for Jason. Usually, people would go the other way at the sight of him, not offer to let him sit with them. He felt a gut-wrenching, yearning feeling in his stomach, and you felt it too. Softly, you patted the spot on the bench next to you. It was quiet between you, but with that simple gesture, you had made an everlasting mark in Jason’s mind

After that night, instead of leaving his bag on the seat next to him, Jason would put it on the floor in hopes that you’d see the empty seat and choose to sit there. You, ever the empath, did. The more you sat with Jason, the more words were said between you. You started the conversations, of course, asking him about his day and telling him about whatever minor inconvenience you had that morning

“I ran out of toothpaste,” Jason had said to you one day as you took your laptop out of your bag. This was his first time initiating a conversation. He wasn't sure why he did it, and cringed internally the moment those words came out of his mouth - toothpaste, Jason, really? - but you’d smiled and asked if he wanted to come with you to the shops after class, since you also needed to stock up on some supplies

That was the day Jason’s walls began crumbling down. Suddenly, he seemed to loosen up. His posture slackened and he smiled more often, told more jokes and even engaged in your banter. People gave the two of you weird looks as you walked around New Rome in fits of laughter, but neither of you cared 

Well, not until one fateful day. Jason had been making his way to class with two coffees in hand, one for you and one for himself, when he’d overheard two people deep in conversation. He’d never been one to eavesdrop, but when he heard your name being mentioned, he couldn’t help himself

“That poor girl, she has absolutely no idea what she’s getting herself into,” one of them said. The other hummed in agreement, pity laced in his voice 

“She thinks she’s doing a good thing, being friends with him and all, but he’s just going to break her heart like he did Reyna’s. Jason Grace is no good.”

He nearly dropped his coffees. Suddenly, all the confidence he’d built came crumbling down, being quickly replaced with those walls he knew all too well, the only things he could trust other than you. Since he loved you so dearly, this was for the best. You’d find some other guy to befriend eventually. If all of Camp Jupiter could replace him after years of service, who’s to say you couldn’t after a couple months of being friends?

Coincidentally, you happened to be looking for Jason when you saw him standing there, a blank look on his face - the same one people had warned you about in your first year at NRU. This time, however, they didn’t have a fighting chance in fooling you. Even without your powers from being Psyche’s daughter, you knew Jason was a sweet guy with the kindest heart

“Jason, are you alright?” You asked, reaching to place a tender hand on his shoulder. He pulled away and your face dropped as you tuned into his feelings and realised the old Jason was making a comeback. It’s not like he’d ever been gone, no one ever gets rid of lifelong trauma and horrible experiences that quickly, but Jason’s aura hadn’t felt that self-loathing in a very long time

Looking behind you, you saw a couple give you a pitying look and the pieces clicked immediately. Scowling at them, you took Jason by the arm and dragged him to that garden where you first spoke. The garden that was no longer just your spot

“Whatever they said, I don’t care,” you told him, “they’re wrong, Jason. You can’t listen to them. From the moment I met you I knew they were wrong. Don’t let them win.” His eyes stared into yours, completely emotionless. His guard was up, and you didn’t know why (slight btd ref!!). Didn’t he trust you? 

His voice monotone, Jason replied, “this isn’t just about them, Y/N. You have no idea what I’ve been through. You don’t deserve to have to deal with that, it could affect you too. You could be making so many friends right now and yet you haven’t, because you chose to stick with me.”

The tension rose between you and you knew there was only one thing you could do: succumb to the pull he had on you once and for all. Grabbing him by the collar, you pulled Jason closer to you and kissed him fiercely

When you pulled away, you took a second to take in Jason’s dishevelled look before replying, “I don’t care. I’ll choose to stick with you in every lifetime.”

#jason grace x reader #jason grace x you #jason grace x y/n #jason grace #jason grace x fem reader #pjo #pjo x reader #jason grace fanfic #jason grace drabble #percy jackson x reader #jason grace x psyche reader #daughter of psyche #psyche pjo #cynwrites

[hainfulcupid]

Obsessed with this motherfucker so im gonna drop a few random headcanons about him

ALL ARE SFW AND JUST SILLY STUFF ☝️ im not used to sharing my headcanons publicly like this hyuck hyuck

there’s very little to go off of from this media since all we really have is a pilot with bare , and i MEAN BARE lore to go off of so a lot of this is really me filling in blanks becus im Insane .

> Nordic bunny’s planet has a robotic look to it, i think that he built it himself out of complete boredom along with its inhabitants (that he probably destroys too, out of boredom….)

> I like to think that his guitar strings function like cat whiskers, they aid him in vision and processing the world around him. They’ve definitely busted a few times during battle, causing him to be disoriented for a bit.

> Hates things that are vaguely shaped like snakes (do NOT BRING A CUCUMBER NEAR THIS MAN)

> purrs….meows…does all those silly cat sounds but they’ve got an electric guitar sound effect

> has retractable claws, they do wonders for a man needs a quick escape route !!!!

> related to the thing above, oh he so absolutely adores scratching things up . has the biggest scratching post ever .

> He’s lonely, not like he intends to be but his personality is offputting to many, one of those people who you have a hard time reading into the things they say because every word that comes out of his mouth always sounds insulting. naturally judgmental, thinks he has a keen eye for fashion despite wearing only undies.

> what is his deal with the undies anyways ? i think he has sensory issues so he wears very minimal clothing thinking he’s serving absolute cunt but no ones ever told him how dorky he looked, and if any of his minions did well…..lets just say They’re no longer with us.

> definitely has a weird way of giving gifts…you know how cats bring you things they’ve hunted? well he’s no different, he wants THAT praise he wants you to tell him how competent he is.

> his tail is an indicator of his mood, follows the same rules of a cat .

LOOK AT HIM. TELL ME THIS ISNT TRUE.

> claims he can’t fucking stand emotional music, but listens to sad 80s rock . but no one will see that, they’ll see him as the dude who’s constantly blasting oldies metal classics .

> I AM A NORDIC BUNNY FANG HAVER TRUTHER . I JUST KNOW HED HAVE A TONGUE PIERCING TOO .

> he’s so reluctant to touch, he never knows if he fully enjoys it or not, you’ll be petting down his back and feel his back quiver almost like it’s trying to avoid your touch but he’s also - purring…he’s a confusing little guy…

> If he ever does manage to form something vaguely friendship like, he’d suck ass at managing the connection, oh you invite him to a party ? he sends you an image of himself stuck in the toilet with a text underneath saying “SOZZ . CANT GO. TOILET TROUBLEZ”

> that being said , not having a lot of experiences with relationships, he’d have an avoidant attachment style, he’d also. subconsciously be as unlikable as possible, he has no clue what defines being cool and likable he’s a little clung onto “be as cool and mysterious as possible”

> says “mrr?” instead of “hm?”

> Oh. in my mind he uses he/she pronouns . finds comfort in expressing femininity .

> I can’t see this guy having a preference for dating… he will take anyone who can break through the massive thick wall he puts up.

THATS ALL FOR NOW UHHH UHHHH

#nordicbunny #nordic bunny #shredforce #shred force #headcanons #i am cringe and i am free #GUH #beetlereetles

[barrenclan]

okay hey its me (spotfurfan on main) back again reporting live on another fucking patfw issue

OKAY SOOO YOURE CRAZY. you. YOUUUU.

i just cant believe we're finally here like... it's finally happening. crazy. ugh so crazy and im so excited and horrified. this issue was so so good obviously i dont think i even gotta say that at the point but!!!!

OBSESSED with so many things about this. again, you NAILED the feeling of dread and horror so well. like actually making me feel sick GOOD JOB!!! everyone being so horrified is WONDERFUL. its all in the small things, like mallowstar panick-ly ordering everyone around as a last attempt to save them, and daffodilpaw crying. really good and heartbreaking details. im super interested about deepdarks... situation with wildrose. that man is up to Something. really interested to see how that will play out and if it will effect much.

ALSO im very much wondering if anyone will mention.. pinepaw. like recognizing him as that little blue cat. if anyone will spill about rainhaze. ugh WHATS GONNA HAPPEN I CANNOT WAIT!!!!!!

and MALLOWSTAR. god, mallowstar. not even one of our main characters really and yet his death is so incredibly devastating. he just wanted to protect his clan. even when theres no fucking way he could have done anything. his death is quick, and i think that makes it even more upsetting somehow??? i figured he was gonna die but. man. MAN. pick on someone ur own size prowl

overall. good. very very good shit. poor corm. poor everyone. if they had just been a little bit earlier to leave.... just a little bit. fuckkk i really cannot see this ending well and i am so excited

YAY I love when people do live reactions at me! I love to hear your thoughts so so much.

Panic and action is always something that's been hard for me to get across in writing, so I'm always happy to hear that I've succeeded. I like this issue as it sets the tone for the 4 to follow and really establishes that this is not a force that BarrenClan can just fight their way out of, which was important to me.

I am personally very happy with the conclusion of this story so I am hoping everyone else likes it too... coming THIS SUMMER! And fall, and probably winter,

#ask #analysis #mallowstar #prowl #daffodilpaw #pinepaw #deepdark

[colorful-horses]

Just watch Star vs the Forces of Evil instead, High Guardian Spice is not worth your time

I don't know how to tell you this but I've already finished High Guardian Spice since making that post

#i have. a lot. of feelings on it #my hot take is that .... it wasnt TERRIBLE #like it wasnt the worst show ive ever seen in my entire life #but i WOULD say it was SUUUUUPER boring. like just such a snoozefest #especially for the first half of the show. it feels so unstructured #theyll be juggling three plots at a time in an episode. but those plots will never intersect or cross paths. so they feel so disjointed #its really hard to follow is what im saying #the voice acting is the worst part by FAR. oh my god the voice acting is so bad #dont even get me started on old magic vs new magic #i have a lot of feelings on this show and im honest to god THIS close about writibg my thoughts down and making a video essay about it #it has good parts! a lot of the character designs are pretty cute and i genuinely liked some of them (parsely my beloved) #but overall hgs was one of the strangest shows ive ever seen. its so so so odd #i have no idea how a show this unfocused managed to complete production of 12 whole episodes. and never once did anyone ask #'wait did we ever define what a 'guardian' actually is?' (they dont) #how!!! how #that being said i WILL be drawing fanart for it lol #but NOW i can move onto star vs uwu #not art

[b4kuch1n]

toy doctor redux

plushy based on this guy

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #ask to tag #a wizard leon!! I think this is still the only one that's not directly called a wizard #gods. I put so much into this one. and for what #yeah design wise this is mostly tightening up the palette compared to the prev version and dividing the theming more evenly #between the toy half and the doctor half #this kicked my ass so hard lmao. and Im not even super happy with it as it is #I feel like I couldve organized the 'pushing daisy' idea more elegantly. following the og design's cue on this mightve been a mistake #but well. the lance has been thrown it lands how it lands #having a wizard leon design that's specifically restorative so to say is really nice... the ability to fix.... #okay. holy shit I need to lay down #just figured out the coffee candy Ive been snackin on may contain caffeine #so uh. I need to let off That pedal. mm #in time. I will find another candy. so long my love... #have a good night lad! sew a little heart inside it and send it on its way now

[gardenia777]

society if i wasn’t obsessed with the idea of being in a relationship

#omg me when i vent in the tags hold on #discord oomfies : here we go again #IDKKKKKKK i’m on my period but something about being completely romantically invisible for my entire life is so. IT FEELS SO SHITTY #like i’ve never had a talkikg stage i’ve never been hit on nothing ever like that #like it is hard not to feel like a hideous beast i just don’t know what i’m doing wrong #I WISH SOMEONE WOULD TELL ME WHAT IM DOING WRONG!!!!!!!!! #bc as pathetic as this sounds i really do spend like the majority of my day wondering what the hell is so unattractive about me #bc i put all this effort in to try and be as conventionally attractive as possible. am i saying its working? no! but it’s not as bad as it #could be #and i mask SO HARD trying to be nice and normal #AND IM JUST!!! INVISIBLE !!!! #romantically that is the christian girlies who follow me around wanting to be friends don’t count. #omfg i know i’m whinging so much i’m annoying mysekf but if i don’t get this out i’ll explode #just keeping waiting for SOMETHING to happen and watching it happen to everyone i grew up with except me #IT HURTS!!!!!! #ok . going to go . idk do something . listen to rautavaara maybe

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[sheepgirlmaidtummy]

wanna talk about that last post alil more cause idk im friends with alotta talented popular people, which is a huge contrast to growing up without any friends. and its really easy to get caught up in this view of them as Better when thats just weird??? like looking back i stunted our friendships because i thought i wasnt in their league, so i could only be myself for so long before they'd move on or something, and obviously thats a self esteem thing but like. ive had ppl be like that with me and its so hard to talk to them sometimes. i cant imagine what it must've been like for my gf,, theres so much More value in a relationship of equals than surrounded by "betters"

#i cant say that like. im completely over that? its hard rewiring something that pervasive. #but ive had a much better time with ppl when i catch myself falling into that habit. its embarrassing not being ''as good'' as a peer. #but honestly? that shit is all in ur head. #my parents drilled in this idea of some people being beneath me as a kid. and that i had to find my superiors to learn from them #weird as shit! dont follow what my cult parents say! if you see yourself undervaluing yourself in a relationship with someone #just remember that its all in ur head. its really not that deep

[guideaus]

ive been trying to watch The Heike Story, and it looks and sounds nice, but following the story has me really confused. it feels like when u take a history class and u get a ton of bullet points for like 500 years or something

#persona; #idk if 500 is a long time. im trying to say a lot happens and we see like. the shortest piece of the main point and it moves on #it feels really weird bc usually i can judge if smth is shit or not but idk what to think here. its just hard to follow #i never properly learn someone. they die. not quite sure who it is. that influences someone else i dont know. they all kinda look similar #i cant even stay w the main man bc it seems like hes gonna die here on ep 4

[transbee]

having did and being online in any capacity is so fucking exhausting because you literally can't go anywhere without seeing the most heinous takes about your existence or validity it's like. can we be normal. can we please be normal and Chill for like two seconds.

#HEADS UP: this accidentally turned into a huge rant/vent feel free to get the hell out el oh el #i try reallly hard not to talk about it too much here because you can. offhandedly mention the mere concept of did or osdd or any #dissociative disorder and its like. people will not shut up about how its not real or how its people being delusional or kids being cringe #like. can we go. two seconds without treating people with mental disorders like a spectacle. please. you dont have to have a ''take'' on it #idk and i also avoid online did communities bc theyre the most exhausting spaces you can ever be in and theres constant fighting about #literally anything and everything. like. maybe i would like to find a space to meet other people with similar experiences to my own. #and we dont get that!! we literally cannot get that. and this goes for a lot of mental health related stuff but like my god #and im very lucky to have other people i know in real life who also have did so i can in some amount have that support system (hah.) #but it is EXHAUSTINGG that people cannot go literally a day without saying something stupid about systems #or i can be following someone for years and unprompted they will saysomething heinous thing about did and hide it behind something like #get a load of how weird and cringey kids are getting online these days. #and CHRISTT thats a whole OTHER issue i REALLY dont wanna talk about because it has its own whole set of nuances but like jeeeesus #is it really so hard for people to grasp that brains when exposed to traumas at a young age will be affected by it in weird ways. #idk man ive been seeing a lot of offhanded disregard for systems recently and it's so normalized and it's starting to get to me i guess #i wish people could just go well this is something i dont understand and dont need to have an opinion on and move on with their lives. #what the hell ever this is all to say having did has impacted my life in a lot of complicated and intricate and hard to explain ways and it #sometimes painful and awful but other times is an incredible experience and ALSO. most IMPORTANTLY ! #i should be able to make jokes about BEING FRIENDS with SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG!! in REAL LIFE!!! #and not have to deal with SUICIDE BAIT IN MY INBOXX BECAUSE OF IT!!! #WHATEVERRR !!! RANT OVARRR I HAVE NOODLES TO MAKE AND EAT #.... WITH my friend SHADOW!!! #.txt #and btw this isnt about anyone ik here so dont worry im not upset with any mutuals etc etc and all that. #in fact i love getting the chance to chat about it n it can be fun to teach stuff to people who know how to like...be normal about it LOL #<3

[constantvariations]

Just from a design standpoint, it's very disappointing that all the folks with bright, light color schemes (Yang, Weiss, Sun, etc) are also light skinned when it would be best to make them dark skinned - Sun and Yang especially given how little representation dark skinned Asians have

By doing this, Yang would finally be free of those awful brown slops of outfits while Sun and Weiss would stop disappearing into their white clothes because ☆~contrast~☆ would finally exist

#rwde #i watched the video of a darker black woman skate-dancing in a bright yellow outfit and she was so beautiful #its one of the best videos on the internet hands down #but it really would be nice for darker skinned asians to have their time to shine bc the colorism is p abhorrent #love how white supremacy taints literally every culture on the planet (: its so great (: love every second (: #either way it just makes sense yeah? if you want a hard bright color like yellow to be your main color then you gotta balance it w darkness #instead of attempting to desaturate it w the most vomit looking colors known to man #and im not saying we HAVE to do this #esp w weiss considering her story v much follows the White Mindset #and changing her race would have some v negative impacts on her arc and implications for the audience #it would feel too close to the derailing argument of 'well black people in africa had white slaves so it evens out!!1!' imo #for weiss specifically they need to bring back gradients and lining the outfits w her teammates colors so it doesnt blend w her skin #for Sun they need to bring back his FUCKING MELANIN #and also make him hairy instead of a twink but thats my personal beef. i like my men looking like a rug lmao #for yang they need to figure out her damn colors bc shes dom yellow but theres also orange brown and a spot of purple #what the hell are yall going for here?? #idk im thinking abt colors today bc im in an artsy mood lol

[cathalbravecog]

hmm, does anyone have anything that lists all the main storyline/taskline quests + their dialogue? i would love to re-read though them again for lore reasons. i know theres that one work in progress timeline document, but im looking for in-game main tasklines any player can see while they play. i can figure out the side stuff like the arg things and comics myself...

(long rambley explanation below that im putting under the cut because i know otherwise nobody will interact with this post)

(this is mostly for ocs, even if they don't follow the main storyline lore exactly - i would still like to know any and all details about the world the toons talk about so i can make things accurate and be able to talk about certain details... and get ideas from reading certain things. even though the lore in cogs only we have is... uh. lets just say this thing could never ever be canon but yknow HAHA)

and like... i do have a million damn screenshots, some of them taken purely to save certain dialogue that i look at RARELY (bc i forget i took these screenshots). and i dont wanna go through videos of people playing the game, i don't like doing that... but the wiki doesn't seem to list the dialogue anywhere, or i may just be looking in the wrong place?

because with so many main line quests you will forget a few things, and of course skip over dialogue when you're trying to do things quickly... with some things being related to the story and some being not...

so i would just really love to look over the main stuff again. ofc, side quests are apprecited too, but im looking for the main thing. gets a bit hard to figure out world stuff when you unfortunately never played tto becuse you didnt know it existed, and ttr's lore is very different from ttcc and honestly i dont even know what they got going on there anymore, i never paid attention to it even when i played ttr because honestly i cant give a fuck about disney characters outside their actual source material-

#'coz like i also saw some people mention ttc is like a vacation place for toons of the world (before the cog invasion) and im like #hmm interesting where can i read more about this to feed my hyperfixated little gay brain. the brain worms. they need information. give #them that. gimmie gimmie. grabby hands #also i have severe like. embarassement issues? idk what to call it. close to rsd. when i get lore wrong. #or when im unaware. like im supposed to be a fan of this and i DONT know this? yeah this is why i dont like saying i dont care about ttr #lore at all and that i wasnt there for tto... (but like come on i was too young and also bilingual so it was hard for me i didnt learn #proper ish english until like 2015 -2016) #so i find it really hard to admit 'yes i did not know that' and that i yes in fact do care about cog lore a bit more than the toon lore but #like its a bit easier to follow... #the issue with ttcc is that a lot of the non main taskline lore is... in journals and arg things and events that i DID NOT ATTEND #and its hard to find archive stuff of things u didnt know existed or were there... you had to see it for yourself #i love you ttcc lore no matter how ppl bash on it and how unlike original tto it is nd 'its like an fanfiction' (real take i saw) #(i mean its true but whats the problem with it lol lol) #because i am in fact a Tumblr User and I Am Into This Shit i can admit it is Catored To My Tastes and i wont let Your Opinion ruin #My Enjoyment #some stuff may be bit goofy there and a bit. hard to access. with some issues. but yk what despite that i really enjoy it!!!!!! #but RAHH please i need main taskline stuff #please gamers help #i. may ask this again where i dont ramble #because nobody wants to read through this shit and that makes them NOT want to help or answer #now a guilt trip btw i am aware it sounds like one but im just annoyed bc i often ask questions and then ramble...and never get an answer #and i just feel embarrassed. so its on me really oops

[orcelito]

yes im going to shameless self promo i have more followers here than i have kudos on ITNL and i think that's a damn shame

ITNL is much more put together than i ever am on here lmao

#speculation nation #not to say i dont want ppl following me here. obviously i do #but i am going to do what i can to siphon my influence here to the project i ACTUALLY care about #like any self-respecting fanfic writer would #ykno i really should start doing official update posts #blehhhhhhh it's so hard tho. #im not used to getting more attention here than on ao3 :p #discacc has so many hits... 65k... and not a lick of self-promo... #but ITNL has a measly 5k hits... with plenty of self-promo... #yea yea discacc is the 2 and a half year old fanfic with nearly 500k words while ITNL has only been around for 3 months & 63k words #BUT SENTIDO HAS OVER TWICE THE KUDOS OF ITNL STILL... i want That to be fixed at the very least #come onnnn give my darling child the attention it deserves. pay no attention to its scrappy older sibling. #Sighhhhhh yes ok Sentido deserves some attention too i guess. still wish ITNL had more than it tho. minor injustices in the world... #ITNL has more comments than Sentido tho by a Long shot hehe #i do hope ITNL readers are looking forward to my comeback. im planning on it being this week. if i can. i hope. #I'm Gonna Try. i think i can. i will. im manifesting.

[perelka-l]

The Arcana is in fact a romance game and every one of the 12 possible endings leads to some sort of relationship with one of the 6 main characters (all 6 characters have both a good and a bad ending depending on the choices you make)

However. I'm not saying you'd enjoy the story (some of the bad endings are a bit fucked up but Idk if it would be your flavor of fucked up, it's still a romance-like game after all) but there's this one character called Valdemar (who's also canonically nonbinary, together with a bunch of other characters) who does look to me like the type of fucked up character you'd like

They're a non-human entity who uses a human disguise because their true form is too much for the human mind to understand (described in the game as an undulating mass, their surface boiling with clusters of eyes, teeth, rib bones emerging from within and dissolving back into it and numerous long, terrible, blade-like limbs), their patron Arcana is Death (the game revolves heavily around the various Major Arcanas from a tarot deck) and they work as a "doctor" (I doubt they have an actual license to be a doctor) because they love watching humans suffer and witness their last moments before Death claims them

They're possibly the only character in the game the MC is never able to either "change for the better" nor defeat and I actually quite like that tbh, although in two of the endings they do help the MC but it's because the "bad guy" is trying to erase death so that no one will ever lose anyone important again and they don't like that because they love it when people die

I'm personally obsessed with the game and every time Valdemar is on screen being their fucked up creepy self I can't help but think "Perelka would like them"

Here's a picture of them ⬇️

With the mask (how they look like 90% of the time) https://pm1.aminoapps.com/6942/bbedaaad076d3d77d89ed29ae10bd566b576c967r1-539-726v2_00.jpg

And without the mask (they have sharp as fuck teeth and I love it so much) https://64.media.tumblr.com/6c6738737662a37ae846f9dc7d7bc7a7/tumblr_inline_pmk3rzE20w1wyc8bu_1280.png

Also I'm sad there's no image for his fucked up non-human form, just the description I put earlier

Tbh their design isn't really something I would like ;;;;w;;;; They seem kinda... bland to me? Apologies, you seem to like them, but after a description that sounds rather fun I was expecting something different. I feel kinda bad that after you have put so much heart into description I just coldly react like that but ngl I cannot really get excited.

But it's great that you like them, and the game! There is always something fun about characters that hide their inhumanity (I do enjoy that, just in different form, classic G-Man or the Outsider come to mind from examples I deeply appreciate). I suppose it's the medic part that turns me off, I never enjoyed much the play on doctors bringing the pain (admittedly, that kinda makes me uncomfortable orz)

Also, I am guessing it adds to the eldtrichness of their real form being impossible to perceive, it would be a bit boring if it was shown!

#answers #anon #anonymous #im really sorry but i deeply appreciate you thinking about this!!! it's very sweet!!!!! #im just having weird tastes and it's hard to hit them right;;; #if it makes you feel any better i cant even say what hits myself #i recently acquired a pencil case i was so charmed by!!! hunted for years!!! and it doesnt work!!! at all!!!!!!! #its a mystery ;;;;;;;; #bless you anon and hope youll enjoy the game and mx valdemar 'w' #maybe some of my followers will be tempted tho into this game and this lad? ;;w;;;

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sometimes i feel very normal and then i interact with ppl lol #i had an in person meeting with my boss for the 1st time in ages and i usually talk to ppl while theyre driving or were walking somewhere #so i forgot how much im like obviously not making eye contact when ppl talk to me while hunched over and fidgeting lol #and when im trying to explain ideas to ppl abt like data stuff im like: i dont understand how what im saying doesnt make sense??? #also with a healthy dose of wtf is this person trying to say to me? u r saying words and i dont kno what theyre directed at #we had a lab party and im like v awkward at those things. idk how to interact in groups #ppl r interacting and im watching like u r clearly getting something out of this that i am not #i did maybe secure a place as a patient for one of our undergrads who is in the dental school lol #she was like yea i need 8 patients and i was like lol u can look in my mouth and then proceeded to tell her all the weird teeth problems #ive had. maybe that was weird but she seemed interested so 🤷 #i hope she follows up bc i havent been to the dentist in like 3 years #and i still habe my wisdome teeth #lol me at any party: i am waiting patiently until i can leave. #like its weird bc those r the time when ppl bond and make memories and all that but everytime someone calls back to events that ive been #there fore it baffles me bc im like. yea that was a thing that happened. i dont really have any feelings abt it so idk y u r recalling it #fondly??? plus my ears r kinda fucked so it was hard to focus on individual conversations #ay im so scatterbrained. thats what happens when u get little sleep and dont allow ur self to chill. ill just crunch myself into a lil ball #at least my boss tried to reassure me that id get accepted somewhere phd wise. but i will not relax until its official so rip #i just really want 2 specific schools to work out bc one is close to home and the other i can prob get good classes and opportunities #ugh i need to sleep. but im not tired :-P #unrelated

[cinnabeat]

im seeing people say azz would get mad at iruma for hiding that hes a human (if it DOES get revealed next chapter) and like idk i dont think he will. like azz and iruma had a whole Moment where iruma saw how nervous and uncomfortable azz was with sharing his own secret and iruma told him straight up he doesnt have to say shit if he doesnt want to just bc theyre friends bc theyre all allowed to keep stuff hidden even from the people closest to them. like he literally set himself on fire bc he was feeling So Much i dont think hes gonna get upset with iruma for hiding it

#at most i think hed be confused? #rattled? bc this is A Big Deal #iruma being a human i mean #like its more about what is azz gonna say or do if he does find out rather than him reacting to there being a secret at all #and anyways i doubt azz is gonna react negatively anyways like all that development and friendhsip and azz being So about iruma #and people really think hes gonna react negatively to this info? #id HOPE not like thats just. i dont like that its a cop out for more drama and doesnt reflect azz already established character #i would love to see azz kick kirios ass before he can finish but on second thought he looks a little Too startled #so my money is on either bachiko ameri or amaryllis #i wanna say bachiko bc there was a strange panel when kirio says therell be jo place for you #it shows sullivan all calm (?) and bachiko turning around like she noticed something and azz doing his best to break thru the barrier #so im gonna say bachiko will save the day and it has the added benefit that She Knows #also find it hard to believe amaryllis doesnt know where iruma is i feel like she followed him? bc shes a woman of her word and she promised #to protect him #anyways #i have Maby Thoughts #michi tag