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chemblrish · 8 months
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Thesis crisis part ???
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arolesbianism · 28 days
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Thinking abt the random card au again. Why must it go so crazy hard I miss it sm
#rat rambles#random card au#no matter how far I drift from my bndori and sekai peak days the random card au keeps hitting me like a truck every now and then#it just scratches an itch that I havent been able to satisfy since my cr days years and years ago#I wouldnt say the random card au has super similar worldbuilding to my old cr stuff as that was much more large scale#but it still has a similar appeal to me I think#I think its the building entirely new worldbuilding based off of designs and general vague starting concepts and bringing them all together#that gets me invested as it feels so satisfying slotting it all together and then actually getting to play out the story in this new web#I loveeeee jumbled webs of worldbuilding and characters that all tie together in a way that makes it almost impossible to completely#seperate one cast of characters from another#I love the feeling of a world with a bunch of intertwining plots like that even if it makes it near impossible to format a normal story#like my cr stuff was just so much man I still miss it sometimes even if I hate cr itself#Ive become a much better story creator too now so I know I could make what I had so much better nowadays and I already like my old stuff#it just makes me all the more sad that I went so crazy hard on worldbuilding for a franchise that sucks ass </3#it may have been two of the worst years of my life but Ill also never reach that worldbuilding high again I think#oh also it made me actually start the slow slow process of getting more ambitious with my art and doing more digital stuff#rly thats the biggest reason the random card au pains me so since I wanna post stuff for it but man do I not wanna draw anyone from it#first of all human characters so already eh but also Id have to adapt the cards theyre based on into a design I can actually draw#so as much as I wanna make a billion random card au animatics I cant even bring myself to draw them normally#you see olivia and jackie are easier to draw because I just made shit up for their designs and as such made their designs very simple#but I cant just make shit up for bndori and sekai characters they actually have designs and hair that Id have to adapt to my style it sucks#I just wanna draw doggy arisa is that so much to ask for (yes yes it is I dont wanna figure out her hood)#also rip mygo yall will probably never get in but who knows maybe one day Ill have my second bndori era and then y'all will get in#its rly just the fact that they likely wont have enough cards to properly add them for another few years#especially if that other band also gets in if that happens neither are getting enough cards until the servers shut down lol#like I Could just pick and choose but thats boring#kinda ruins the point of the au y'know?#like tbf Ive cheated in the past by reroling two and limiting my options with several sekai characters#but thats just because at the time most sekai characters had almost no usable cards for this au and the two I rerolled were also unusable#like Im sorry but I couldnt just add normal ass hagumi and masking it wasn't happening
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(Note: This has an edit at the bottom providing context and clarification, please read that as well) Because its an election year and I keep thinking about this, I would like to remind everyone,
THE PRESIDENT DOES NOT MAKE LAWS THAT WILL EFFECT YOUR LIFE SEVERELY
The president does not even MAKE LAWS. The president can VETO a law, but the real people voting for specific laws are voted in STATE ELECTIONS.
If you want change in your life by the government, you have to vote in LOCAL, AND STATE ELECTIONS
I repeat
LOCAL AND STATE ELECTIONS ARE TO PICK WHO MAKES LAWS FOR YOUR STATE AND WHO REPRESENTS IT.
I am sick and tired of seeing people complain about the amount of old people in the government. You have to VOTE. If younger people vote, younger people are more likely to get elected, and then the voting pool is larger. Old people are going to vote for other old people, and they are the only ones voting in state elections therefore, old white men are the only ones represented. You have to vote if you want an accurate representation in your government. The president doesn't do shit regarding laws (other than being able to veto laws). Thats military. Not laws. Get it together, this is an elementary level skill. Its literally taught in the 5th grade, how people don't understand that is beyond me.
VOTE IN STATE ELECTIONS FOR FUCKS SAKE THAT IS HOW YOU GET LAWS PASSED THAT YOU WANT.
The president is only important in regards to MILITARY. The president is commander in chief of MILITARY. Not laws. If you want the US to stop supporting a certain country, vote for someone that agrees or is at least the better option (Damn the two-party system). If you want a law passed to protect your rights, vote for senators and representatives that want to protect your rights. Please for the love of god, so much could be fixed by voting. The system is broken yes, but it is not the only one to blame, go vote for the love of god I swear. EDIT: I would like to clarify some things. This is meant as a GENERAL STATEMENT. The president CAN do things that affect you severely, but GENERALLY the president is not in charge of laws that severely affect people day to day as the laws that the president deals with are for the ENTIRE COUNTRY. And therefore, are usually less specific. This does not mean presidential voting is any less important, that is the opposite of what this post was saying. This post is because the presidential elections seem to be the only one people vote in. And its good that people vote in this, but the issue this is mainly from is the fact that state and local elections are overlooked constantly, and then people complain about how the government doesn't provide representation when no one is going to vote. I am not saying the president doesn't do things, the president is important, but we can't forget about the part actually responsible for making laws in states and in the federal government. I see so many posts about how laws are being made by people who no one (at least over the internet) seems to agree with, and people complaining about how horrible the government is and how many old people are in there. And I agree, there's too many old people past retirement age in the government making laws and other things, but in order to get them out of the government, people must vote for other, younger people. Its not just going to be fixed by screaming about things over the internet. This post is not going to fix anything, it was a rant because I am pissed about this.
This is likely going to be the only update I add to this, I will not be responding to anything stated about this post, or put into reblogs. I am not in the habit of discussing politics with people and I don't plan on getting a start any time soon. I hope you all have a good day and thank you for coming to my rant I felt the need to throw here
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ivanzplaid · 2 years
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Can you please do a Grabber× Reader where the Grabber somehow survives the final fight with Finney and Reader finds him and takes care of him?
first time i saw this, loved it, read it over and ill tell you it took a bit to come up with how the reader would stumble across this man while finney still made it out, butttt hopefulllyyy this lives up to what you wanted!
requests are open as always, dont hesitate to ask! they keep me writing, as well as any other interactions on this post!
The Grabber x Gn Reader!
Warnings: Obsessive behavior, Infatuation, Wound description, The Grabber, Language
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His head lay still against the concrete floor, left for dead by the little shit who escaped. His foot left twisted between the metal screen that was torn off his wall, head aching. The time he was left with was limited, the kid left him a few minutes ago, he knew he had to move, even if it killed him. Pulling himself up, a burning, scarring pain seared into his mind, but he was running on borrowed time, and he knew it.
By gods will, he managed to shimmy out, his leg severely fucked up, but using the strength left in his arms to push himself up and out of the hole, it worked. Maneuvering his one good foot and arms to guide him up the stairs, and out of his back door, the sunlight shone on his face. It was severely impressive, even he was dumb founded as he scattered through his backyard, hopping the fence into the street, just trying to cover ground as quickly as possible. Sirens grew softer and softer the more he moved, or maybe it was his conscious starting to slip, but either way, he found himself away from the scene. Sure, he would have the cops on his ass till the end of time, but he wasn't in their custody.
The pavement below him started to shake, his movements growing uneven as he continued on. He shouldn't even be moving by the damage that Finney did, that kid knows how to wield a weapon, had to give it to him. A stupid grin showed up on his face as he walked just thinking about it. Eventually, it was his time. Sitting became the only option, and he found himself on the curb. The sun was risen halfway, but the streets were empty, its action was set to a minimum, so when he heard the slightest of noise coming from behind him, even in his delirious state, he swiveled around, and his gaze landed on you.
"Sir? Do- Are you alright? Do you need to come inside?"
Bless your naive heart. You stood there gently, hands in your pockets, but still leaned over urgently. He analyzed you for a moment, you were ordinary in all boxes, but thats what he needed, someone ordinary in his life. He spoke briefly after, excited to take in your offer.
"Why thank you, I was in a predicament with two younger men, and I've gotten myself quite beaten up, I'll take you on your offer."
Lying was his other language, it came out easy on his lips, which made you blindly trust him, urging him inside, hand on the mans back, guiding him inside. Gentle touch was nice on him, but he still winced even at the lightest contact. Inside of your home was sweet to his eye, he picked up on your style hastily, and took a liking to it even faster. Your chairs, a creamy white, soon stained red after he sat down. Sighing out in pain, his eyes met yours, finding the humanity in yours touching. He wasn't used to such saint behavior, most people in town had stern personalities, enforcing his hatred against everybody. However, you, you were the first time he felt faith in something. He wanted to worship you, take you away like the god you were so you wouldn't be tainted from humanity. But he sat patiently, hands folded as you gathered everything from your medicine cabinet, kitchen, and bathroom to help clean the man up.
"This is all I have, I know how to treat most of your injuries, are you sure you don't want to go to the hospital?"
Your careless question made his fist tighten, the thought of the consequences going through his head caused an even bigger headache, flaring up in an instant.
"No.. no I'll be fine here. Your care is more than I could ask for."
He smiled back at you, trying to make you acquainted with his presence. The sooner he recovered, the sooner he could have you, do what is best for you. The soft demeanor you gave off not only calmed him, but riled him up. He was never a patient person for things he wanted,
and he wanted you.
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something quick for tonight, really incorporated his awful essence in this one, but i just wanted to publish smth! next fic that comes out will most likely be fulfilling a vance request i got, thank you yall!!
requests r opeeeennn and have a lovely night <3
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Could you do me a favor and tell me literally every piece of info abt dnd you can? Asking for an aster
@amethyst-aster (just so you see it)
hello!
so. this is long which is why there is a cut. i feel i ought to foreworn you that i read the entire players handbook cover to cover the summer i turned 11 because i was lonely and autistic. i memorized it (mostly. little rusty on some of the magic rules but whatever). /not sarcastic so! this is EXTREMELY LONG.
first up! your basics:
dungeons and dragons is a tabletop roleplaying game first created in 1974 by gary gygax. that's not so important. what is important is this: it is currently in its fifth edition (shorthanded as 5e). that is the one i know the most about and it is personally the one i think is the easiest to play, but thats my own preference. my biology teacher thinks 5e is bloody stupid and he plays the second edition (2e), which i find much harder and more limiting.
There are three core rulebooks, and a number of supplementary books.
The most important of those three (and the only one you need to know, really, unless you're the one running the game) is called The Player's Handbook (PHB). It contains the rules for building a character and playing them.
Because it will run you upwards of $50USD per copy, here is a pdf of it on archive dot org.
The other two is the Monster Manuel (MM) (a book of all the monsters in the game) and the Dungeon Master's Guide (DMG) (a book of how to run a game, but you don't need it as a player). They are here and here.
There are a number of d&d youtubers who have tutorial videos on this type of thing. my favorite is Ginny Di, but there are literally dozens out there.
BASIC TERMS
A Character sheet is the thing you have all the information about your character recorded on. It comes in several variations, but this is a free form fillable pdf version, and this is a free printable (both from the wizards of the coast (wotc) website, but the second is hosted on archive.org) (wotc are the company that owns the copyright to the game).
A class is the vocation of the character. its what they do with themselves, but its not necessarily a job.
A race is the character's species. this is also called their species, but in offical material you'll see it called their race.
A background is how their past shaped the character.
A backstory is that past.
Ability scores are the abilities of the character, they are determined with dice rolls. There are six of them, and many years ago someone explained them with tomatoes and that's still the easiest way to explain them in my opinion. You figure them out by rolling 4d6 and adding up the three highest numbers, for a total of 6 times.
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ID in alt text. [I cannot find the original source, I am sorry, nor the graphic's source]
There are various types of dice, conveniently labeled with this image below:
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ID in alt. [Source]
The d20 is the most important; its what you'll use to roll ability checks and saving throws and etc.
If you don't have your own physical dice (they are advalible online, at barnes & nobles, and at your local gaming store, but many people don't have a local gaming store (me)), you can roll them on many websites. My preferred one is this one, but any work. Google has its own built in, too.
MAKING A CHARACTER
So. You have your dice, now what?
Now you make a character sheet! there are many videos online explaining how to do this (there is a lovely one here and here), but i'm going to explain it here how I generally do it.
Step 0- OPTIONAL:
Take your character sheet, and come up with an idea. Who do you want to play? A gay disaster who can shapeshift? a hobbit? a chaotic ginger with too many cats and a habit of making deals with eldritch powers? You can be whatever the hell you want. alternatively, you can look at the options in the PHB first, and go from there.
Step 1- Pick a race/species.
There are well over 30 of these, and I'm not listing them all. But the ones advaliable in the player's handbook are as follows:
Dwarf. Your sterotypical mining, axe wielding, beared fantasy dwarf. ex: Gimli, in Lord of the Rings
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Elf. Traditionally depicted as tall, graceful, and living in the woods. Generally have pointed ears. ex. Legolas in Lord of the Rings.
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ID in alt text. [Source]
Halfling. Literally just renamed hobbits, so they don't get sued. Known for being short and excellent cooks. ex. Frodo, Sam, Merry, & Pippin from Lord of the Rings. (I can't seperate them, it feels wrong)
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Human. We all know what humans are. Generally viewed as very adaptable species in d&d! also in real life. ex. Bill Nye the Science Guy.
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Dragonborn. A bipedal species descended from dragons. They're cool as shit. ex. I literally cannot think of one i'm sorry.
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Gnome. Known for being very tinkery, small, and causing mischief. Also, for some reason, for being in gardens. ex. Pike Trickfoot from Critical Role.
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ID in alt text. [Source]
Half-elf. Half elf, half something else! They generally have a lot of angst, but not always. Sometimes people say they combine the best of both worlds (elf and human), and sometimes people say they have it really shitty. ex. Keyleth from critical role.
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Half-Orc. half orc, half something else! I dunno really how to describe them. ex. Fjord Lavorre from Critical Role
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Tiefling. A humanoid species with horns and a tail, and often brightly colored skin. Extremely Gender in my opinion.
Step 2- Pick a class.
There are 12 core classes, and one more added in a later book. I'll go over all 13!
ARTIFICER. A magical tinkerer. A bit like leo valdez in pjo? Their core stat is intelligence. In my opinion they're very complicated for a first character ever, but do what you want its your game i do not care.
BARBARIAN. If you want to wear no armor, have an axe (or other weapon), and charge into battle shouting, this is the class for you! its fun and decently simple for first time players, in my opinion. Core stat is Strength (and constitution).
BARD. Someoe who uses the magic of creation to do shit. Also known for seducing anything that moves, but that's optional. Core stat is charisma. Seems simple at first, but they have a lot of spells to manage at later levels, but they're not too hard. The main guy in the d&d movie is one.
CLERIC. They're healers and warriors. Generally have got some sort of divine magic, but don't necessarily have to. Semi-difficult? I haven't ever played one, so I don't know how easy it would be for a first character ever. Main stat is wisdom.
DRUID. Person who turns into animals and respects the enviroment. Basically, the lorax, but less orange and with more turning into animals (druid lovers out there i am sorry for saying y'all are the lorax please don't come after me with pitchforks). they're okay for a first character but they can be a little confusing. Main stats are wisdom (and constitution).
FIGHTER. Someone who fights things. The most basic of the d&d classes, and one of the simplest for first time players, probably, but I haven't ever played one so who knows. Main stats are strength or dexterity.
MONK. Person who punches people a lot. Like Aang from avatar: the last airbender. Main stats are dexterity and wisdom. They seem simple, but one of the mechanics is slightly confusing, but they're still really simple.
PALADIN. Your tradition knight. A guy (gender neutral) in plate armor with a horse and loyalty issues. I love playing paladins so much, they're great. Personally I think they're a little confusing. Main stats are Strength & Charisma.
RANGER. Someone who wanders through the forest and fights things, like strider (but not like aragorn) from lotr. Core stats are wisdom and strength. My first ever character was an elf ranger named Thia Nailo. She was awesome. Rangers can also have pet panthers and shit, and sometimes small dragons (not tiny dragons, though. Like horse sized dragons).
ROGUE. A thief. My second ever character, and the first one who I played for any significant length of time (thia's campaign died out) was a half-elf rogue named Enna Helder-Kromlin. Rogues are a really good class for first time players, I feel like. Core stat is dexterity.
SORCERER. Someone born with magic. Main stat is charisma. They can be a little complicated.
WARLOCK. Someone who made a deal with some sort of higher power (eldritch being, god(s), etc) for magic. they make bad decisions for a living and its awesome. my favorite ever character was an elf warlock named Mara. Her patron lived in a shield and she had a wisdom of 5 but a charisma of 20. Core stat is charisma.
WIZARD. Gandalf. Someone who studied magic and learned it that way. Main stat is intelligence. They can get really complicated, really fast, but they're still a viable option for your first time.
Step 3- Backstory
There are other things to do, but its late and i'm tired. What you need to do from here is figure out what your character's life was like before now. Or, if you dont want to, then get a vibe for their personality or something.
NOW WHAT?
When you have a character, your DM (Dungeon master, the person running the game, the ''narrator'') will give you scenario, and you roleplay your way through it.
Literally anything can happen. It's d&d. the rules are suggestions, not actual rules. Make it what you want it to be!!!!
If you have other questions please contact me I love them even if it takes me forever to answer them sometimes.
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whumpshaped · 9 months
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Hello! I just wanted to let you know that I really enjoyed glitching. It’s a bit embarrassing to say, but I barely interacted with it in any way that you could see because the format made me feel guilty about reading whump in a way that I hadn’t felt in a long time. That’s a compliment to your writing! Glitching was about being an accomplice and moral choices and I got caught up in it that I stopped participating in the polls after a few posts. I really liked it though.
Since you couldn’t see the likes that I very much wanted to give the series, I’m sending my thanks directly. You are really good at writing, and your specific style is one of my favorites on this site. Your writing is just brutal in a way that a lot of whump writing isn’t, and your characters are extremely compelling/whumpable. I can’t describe exactly what I love about it, but I do love it. You also made glitching really quickly, which is impressive. I’m still in awe of how you made all the different endings for the finale. That must have taken forever.
Was Glitching always going to end the way it did? If the audience had voted to kill Seth at the earliest opportunity, would that have happened? Are there any other pathways that you had planned out that we didn’t get to see? Basically, I loved Glitching and I want to hear all the behind the scenes details that you are willing to share.
Thanks again!
aaaaaaaaaa thank u SO much for this. long ass response under the cut !
this is honestly.... mostly all i wanted to achieve w glitching. (my first objective was to create a whump cyoa story where the options were all bad, bc in all the other ones ppl kept picking the good ones and i was like :| but my whump..? no whump..?) several times i felt like maybe the second person pov is too much and its too real and itll turn everyone off... but then i thought. thats. kind of what i want. i want it to feel a little gross even if its fiction. i wanted to make ppl feel conflicted.
so please dont feel bad about not interacting! i understand how it could feel rly bad and guilt-inducing. im glad u made the decision to stop interacting when u did, its NOT embarrassing in the slightest. this message means a whole lot either way.
hehehehehe im GLAD theyre brutal! thats very much the style i wanna be known for lol and the style i enjoy! i want stuff to be gruesome and disgusting! i want it to be brutal and unforgiving! i want violence! i want gore! and also thank u, im glad my characters r whumpable. especially w glitching, i saw that when other ppl put their cute ocs in situations no one wanted to hurt them, so i was like ok whos my most vile most hated most disgusting oc whom everyone would Love to see be punched in the face- in general i love making my ocs whumpable and pitiful. i love a pitiful little guy
i stopped writing glitching when my exams started at college, and iced it after maybe chapter 8 or 9. then i picked it back up again after i got a 20th message in my inbox abt how ppl miss it, and it successfully forced my hand to finally sit down and just Write. (i do have to be forced to write a lot of the times. it doesnt work for everyone, but it does for me. obviously i can never get in the zone if i dont even open the document yknow. thats why i write a lot of shitty drabbles! it keeps up momentum!) and then i just kept writing. and writing. and writing. trying to get a chapter out every day because i knew what i wanted to do and i wanted to finish it. when it comes to the finale, iiiii decided i wanted to do that whole thing literally 2 days beforehand. my friend told me "wow these options r all good" and i said "i know i kinda wanna see all of them too". and the idea was born. the seed was planted. the bug was in my fucken ear.
so the next morning i checked the poll on chapter 13, and saw that of course the option to keep seth alive was winning by far. so i wrote that in advance. then i started writing out the endings for the finale. i managed to get maybe 3 of them done. then the next day i finished the other 6, tweaked the earlier ones, all that. i uploaded them all, posted everything privately, fiddled forever w the links (which i knew were likely gonna break anyway-) and THEN WHEN THE TIME CAME I WANTED TO MAKE ONE LAST EDIT AND ACCIDENTALLY POSTED IT. so i had to unprivate everything in a fucking frenzy like OH MY GOD PPL WONT UNDERSTAND I RUINED IT I RUINED EVERYTHING. but anyway yes it took me like 2 days of writing and editing but the response was soooooo worth it. ppl were so so so kind to me. it was honestly amazing.
one thing abt me, i started planning my stories At All in the last few months. before that, Nothing. and especially w smth like glitching, where the audience's decision influences the next chapter and i cant plan ahead, i didnt even bother. whatever the audience chose was always gonna happen. if they chose to exit the stream on the very first poll, i wouldve ended it. im serious. i thought abt pulling "you try to exit but it doesnt work" but then i was like. no. ppl can have one (1) chance to turn their heads away if they want, as a treat. i wouldve written a chapter about the debilitating guilt and lifelong "what if" feeling, and that wouldve been it. as for the earlier murder options, yes! i wouldve gone thru w it at any time. starting from maybe the 6th chapter (or whenever i brought in the murder option) the audience held the power to end the stream and seth's suffering. they chose not to. but they couldve.
one option that i wanted that never got chosen was the baseball bat. im obsessed w beating someone to the point of broken bones w a baseball bat. so when the ending was getting nearer and nearer, i thought about simply disregarding the last poll and writing a single chapter where the host goes "i respected the choices u made up until now, but this time, im making the decision". but i was like. no fuck that. this is an interactive story all about being able to choose ur own decisions. i just asked the audience to supply me w puppy seth commands, citing how it was interactive. i couldnt just go and ignore that two chapters later, yknow? plus as u said it kind of all hinged on the feeling of "i did this. im responsible". so if i took that responsibility away in the last second IN THE MOST IMPORTANT DECISION OF ALL it wouldnt have been good enough
most of the time i just kept giving the options i really wanted to write, and eventually, ppl picked them. it was a good story in the sense that the order didnt matter too much. i could give the same options, and the host was still able to carry them all out.
some more behind the scenes- i thought about revealing the host's identity multiple times. i thought about making them someone the audience already knew (like ren, my friend's oc who greatly inspired the character from the very first chapter), or someone who couldve been vaguely familiar but unknown (a former friend of pumpkin?), but in the end i just settled on the mystery. especially since i decided to give it a paranormal twist. i couldve NEVER made a better reveal than the mystery itself. never ever. some things dont have to be revealed.
but yeah! thats that. i rly enjoyed glitching, i loved the response i got (it was by far the most popular story ive ever posted on here w the most tags and comments and asks), and i loved how i managed to do the finale. it was concise, i can say i finished another story, and its just all around a great time. thank u so much for ur message !!!
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Hello! How are you??
Can I tell you how much I absolutely LOVE daydreaming?!! I love Bradley and Tess' dynamic and the fluff but also the ANGST in part 2. Tess just wants Bradley to love her but Bradley is just scared and I feel so bad for both of them.
If you are still keen on writing them, could I pretty please request to read more about them before the time that daydreaming took place?
I am obsessed with their first kiss (even though it was only a small part of the series) and their dynamic growing up and how they came to be "together but not officially but we will still be constantly touching, kiss in front of people and struggle to fall asleep without each other."
No stress if you can't but I love them and would love to read and learn more about them.
Enjoy the rest of your week and thank you for writing them :)
Hi babe! First of all, so sorry for how long this took me to get out - you asked this right after I finished Daydreaming and all ideas were just gone from my brain but inspiration finally struck - thank you Adderall.
Anywho, I hope this lives up to your expectations and fits into the DCU (daydreaming cinematic universe) nicely.
that first kiss
is this accurate to the navy? no clue, my husbands a marine so thats all i know
bradley bradshaw is a himbo i will not be taking any further questions
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High school sucks. Like, seriously, whoever came up with such archaic bullshit as sitting around for eight hours every day while either someone on the precipice of death or someone young enough to pass as the same age as most of the seniors in the building drones on and on and on about nothing deserves a Nobel Prize for torture methods.
And Prom, what a stupid fucking way to end the year. As if Homecoming and Spring Fling and Senior Night and all the other stupid dances and school functions they've had all year weren't enough, sure let us throw in one more.
Tess kicked small pebbles across the sidewalk while she sulked home and contemplated all the ways that she could drop out early or injure herself severely enough that would excuse her from stepping foot in that hell hole for the next two months, but not severely enough that it would hinder her summer.
Her options were severely limited.
That, and she was way too chicken to purposefully injure herself.
Coming closer to her house, Tess completed her two rituals: checking the mail, and checking the living room window of the Bradshaw house. Both of those things left her with a dark, never-ending pit in her stomach but after nearly 18 years it was hard to break habits. Even if they were completely soul crushing.
The mailbox was full of its usual trashy magazines, bills that Tess had no interest in, coupons for the local grocery store, a letter addressed to her mom from some distant relative, and... absolutely nothing for Tess.
She tried not to let the disappointment consume her but it always did. It was like being swallowed by a tidal wave you could see miles off the coast, knowing full well it was going to pick you up and slam you against the rocky bottom, but Tess sat there anyway, watching the beautiful blue crest into white before her eyes.
Sadly, she was used to the wave, used to it rattling her brain and bones, blurring her vision for a few seconds until the facts of her life took over. She was used to this, used to not hearing from the two people she loved most in this world despite the fact that they left her high and dry more times than any person could count.
Her second disappointment came when her green eyes moved over to the left of her house, expecting to see the bay window open, yellow and white curtains billowing in the slight breeze and a blonde head of sunshine calling over to Tess, inviting her over for a glass of sweet tea and some new cookie she thought up over the weekend that Tess absolutely needed to try.
There was none of that, of course, hadn't been for some years now and the depressing, dark blue drawn curtains of Tess's new neighbors were a constant reminder of that.
She tore her eyes away from that window.
Her feet dragged all the way to her room, hands dropped the mail on the kitchen table for her mom to find when she got home and traced a pattern on the wallpaper up the stairs and to her door.
Tess's room was bright and airy and reminded her of the beach, which was exactly what Carole was going for four summers ago when she came over and declared that she needed a 'bedroom makeover'. Tess tried to tell her she had been watching too much HGTV as they combed the aisles of Home Depot for the perfect shade of blue - something bright but not neon, subdued but not dull, something that reminded you of the sky. But not sky blue. Carole insisted that she had not been watching too much TV but that she enjoyed the North Carolina shores so much she felt they needed to be indoors as well, and Tess's room was the perfect place to experiment.
The memories of Carole were hard to push away. She was her second mother for as long as she could remember. Her and Bradley were always over, the mothers were always together so they were together. She loved him like a brother - or so she thought.
When he left for the Navy, a piece of her heart left with him, a bigger piece than she anticipated. She knew it would be hard with him gone, with Carole gone alone with him, but didn't expect it to hurt the way it did and after many nights of soul searching on her roof the truth hit her so hard she almost rolled off.
She loved him - as more than a brother, as more than a friend, as more than her childhood neighbor.
She was in love with him.
And the realization left her reeling.
But now, she lay on her seafoam sheets, staring at her ceiling fan blow around and around and he was out on a ship somewhere, not thinking about her probably.
"Tess!"
Her mothers voice startled her from her thoughts and she wondered how long she had been laying in her misery.
"You have a letter!"
Nothing else would have gotten her out of bed so fast. She raced down the stairs, a smile involuntarily taking over her face, heart racing at who could've been the one to finally break the silence and respond.
"Who's it from?" She asked, out of breath, snatching the letter from her mother's perfectly manicured hands as she threw herself around the dining room table.
"Hello to you too," she simply said, raising her eyebrows at her daughter. Her daughter who was supposed to be excited and getting ready for prom, but was instead moping about the two men in her life who would never live up to her expectations. She wished she could change them, change everything about their situation, but they were too far out of her grasp of control.
"Mom," she groaned in her teenage defiance. Her mother simply smiled, roughed up her daughters hair, and made for the kitchen to decide what was for dinner tonight.
Tess looked down at the simple white envelope in her hands. She noted the lack of a return address - a good sign if there ever was one and traced her fingers over her handwritten name on the front.
Bradley.
It was his handwriting, undoubtably. The little chicken scratch that was notes passed through class, hidden messages found throughout her room and late nights helping with homework.
Tess's stomach dropped - there could be anything written in this thin envelope. Disappointment, rejection, let downs-
"Just open it, Fess,"
"I'm absorbing the moment," she said, shoulders shrugging quickly, eyes staying on the envelope as she flipped it over. Her mom rolled her eyes but laughed, moving about the kitchen in a practiced rhythm.
With quick, practiced fingers she opened the letter and pulled out one piece of folded up paper. She unfolded the thirds, and frowned to only see one sentence written on the whole sheet.
Come outside already, what are you waiting for?
Confusion covered her face, eyebrows scrunched together. What the hell does that mean!?
Tess looked up at her mother, who only wore a shit-eating grin.
"There's no way."
"Go outside and find out."
Tess never ran so fast. Barefoot, she trampled through the living room and through the front door. The Bronco sat outside, just beyond her perfectly average white picket fence yard and Bradley was there, standing up so his head was out of the roof, waving at her with that smirk on his face.
"What are you doing here!" She yelled, running towards the car. Never, in her eighteen years of life, had she ever been so surprised.
Tess hurled herself across the center console and into his open arms, laughing and screaming as she squeezed as tight as she could. He laughed with her, and the hole in her heart closed up.
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"So, why are you not at prom?" Bradley asked her as he shoved a handful of french fries in his mouth.
"Because prom is stupid," Tess said, feet kicked up on the dashboard, "and I didn't have a date."
"I find it hard to believe that you didn't have anyone who wanted to go with you." The two of them decided to park the car at the beach so that's where they now sat, sharing fries and nuggets while they watched the sky change colors and the waves crash on the empty shore. It was still a little too cold for the beach to be busy and probably too cold for the roof to be off the Bronco, but neither of them cared enough to say anything.
"Well believe it buddy, I am not Mr. Popular like you were in high school." She was far from it. Without Bradley by her side she was quiet and awkward, she kept to herself and her small group of friends and liked it that way.
"Your friends didn't want to go?" He asked incredulously.
"No, they went, but they all had dates so I would've been like a... ninth wheel." Truthfully there was nobody, no friend or cute guy in the universe that she would've wanted to go to prom with over Bradley. A realization that crushed her one day when she went dress shopping with her friends at the mall. She tried to match every dress to his personality, or his eyes, or his smile and every one made her feel empty and sad inside.
None of her friends understood why she couldn't go, they all thought she was crazy for choosing solitude over a party. Even the afterparty - a weekend trip to Myrtle Beach - was out of the question, she knew she would be no fun and didn't want to drag the party down with her.
Bradley didn't say anything. He knew for a fact that the guys he went to school with were practically chomping at the bit to date her, and he knew that she had a tendency to scare them off with her RBF and her ability to be completely oblivious.
"Anyway," she changed the subject, "how long are you home for?"
"Just the weekend, gotta ship back out on Monday, I just hitched a ride with some of the helicopter guys when I heard they were flying out here to pick up some things."
"Sneaky," Tess chastised.
There was a moment of silence, a comfortable silence, while they both ate and watched the waves. Tess thought about how much she missed this, missed him and tried not to think about how much it would hurt again when he was gone.
But Bradley couldn't stop thinking about prom.
"Seriously, not one person asked you?"
"Let it go, man!" Tess threw a couple fries at him that he failed to dodge.
"No! I can't! I just..." he trailed off, shaking his head at the ocean.
"You just what?" Tess looked at his profile, at the scars littering his chin, at the tiny moustache he was growing and that she teased him about for the entire drive but kept to herself that all she could see when she looked at him was that photo of him, his dad, and his mom on their fireplace mantle.
"I just can't believe it, it makes no sense."
Tess sighed, "you're the only person who thinks that." It was her turn to look at the ocean now, to accept the defeat that was her love life.
Maybe it was partly her fault. Maybe she pushed them all away. But it was hard to look at anyone that way when she was so in love with him.
"Tess," she turned and saw nothing but green eyes, "you are the most beautiful, smart, funny, caring, wonderful person I've ever met and every boy in that school is dumber than I thought."
Tess held his gaze for a few more seconds before she had to look away from the intensity. He couldn't really mean that, could he?
"I haven't even had my first kiss yet," she admitted quietly, "how pathetic is that? I'm a senior in high school, I have no date for prom, and I haven't been kissed."
They marinated in the silence for a second, Tess picked at the invisible dirt under her nails and willed the lump in her throat to go away. She heard Bradley shifting around in the drivers seat but didn't look at him until she felt his hand touch her chin, his finger gently coaxing her face towards his and he didn't give her a second to protest before he gently placed his lips on hers.
She felt the prickle of his moustache on her top lip before she even registered what was happening. His lips were so gentle on hers she almost didn't feel them at all and her eyes stayed wide open until her brain was able to catch up to her body and they fluttered close.
Bradley started to pull away, but Tess followed him, reaching out to put a hand on his shoulder to keep him in place and put more pressure on the kiss. Bradley followed quickly and neither of them pulled away until they were panting and smiling.
Tess's body exploded with butterfly's and she chased away the thoughts of what was going to happen next, what would happen when he left again because he wasn't gone yet, he was right here, and her world was complete.
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arunneronthird · 4 months
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Hello!! :3 I was scrolling through ur blog and saw a post about Tumblr extensions; is it alr if I ask which ones you have? The image you provided looks marvellous in comparison to the default Tumblr look, and I wanna make mine look like it but idk how. Ty for the help and I hope you have a wonderful day!!
hey! no problem, i have several but there are mainly three that make the dashboard look nice and tidy, lets take a look:
this is tumblr, hate it here
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the first step is getting the adds out of the way, so i recommend any add blocker, i have ublock origin which lets u pick parts of the actual website to manually hide as well
the second step is hiding the recommended blogs, posts and other stuff, for which i have tumblr savior
this extension is awesome, its a blacklist AND whitelist, it completely hides blacklisted posts and has several options for hiding other tumblr stuff, ive had it for many years and its saved me always, these are my settings btw and look at how clean it already looks:
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for final tweaks, i have xkit rewritten to make sure tumblr runs smoothly:
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finally and just cause this blue color physically pains me, i have the vampire theme on, u can find it here:
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and thats it!
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coyotevallie · 9 months
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im sorry im talking abotu you were an easy mark its not in an haha hes lying oakworthy wins and thats all i have 2 say way i swear but its just like we talk about how hes obviously lying but why did he pick the MOST obvious lie he could have possibly told . like yes duh he was lying he clearly has feelings for normal hermie unworthy told a lie whos shocked but like he didnt have to say normal was an easy mark is the thing that gets me . there were a thousand diff reasons he could have given as to why he was faking feelings for normal i can think of several much more believable ones . why did he pick the most blatantly fucking false option . and i thought abt it and i was like oh well i guess he could have meant that normal Seemed like an easy mark at the Beginning which would explain why he almost fucking died for an "easy mark" BUT THAT DOESNT EVEN MAKE SENSE because he didnt start blatantly flirting w normal, Really, until the papa johns arc WHERE HE GOT HALF HIS FACE BURNED?????? if anything by this rationale he started flirting w him the second he realized normal WASNT an easy mark . so if that was his logic then hes STILL stupid and STILL dumb and STILL a weirdly bad liar for a likely . AND NORMAL KNOWS THESE THINGS?????? its not even like hes Hiding the fact that normal is objectively not a fucking easy mark and was very blatantly not one by the very moment that hermie started hitting on him normal was literally there . fucking obviously . and again yes weve discussed this but he literally could have been like . "because im a likely and i scam people it was in my weird scammer instincts to scam you it had nothing to do with liking you you were just who it landed on" . or "because of my previously mentioned weird scammer instincts i felt intensely committed to the stealing teeny bit and had to keep going with it and i couldnt stop until it was as devastating as possible" . or "because i hated you since you had a perfectly normal dad and a perfectly normal mom and you were still so sad about it i wanted to destroy you emotionally" . or SOMETHING ELSE literally ANYTHING ELSE his whole nonsense about his instinctual desire 2 scam is a goldmine for reasons why he could have picked normal and thats not even all why did he pick the dumbest fucking reason none of us are discussing the fact that he didnt HAVE TO LIE BADLY there are ways he could have lied that would have been moderately believable btu he just DIDNT . and he thinks hes such a good actor . that is so funny . idk why im writing a manifesto ive taken my various cocktail of meds so that might be the deal but it just entrances me . like i get he was trying to convey like oooo you want validation and so it was EASY ..... or whatever like i know what he was trying to say with his dumb little speech but its just . the longer i think about it . the more insane i grow bc its genuinely so stupid he did not have to say that shit he could have told a good lie . but did i have to write over 500 words about how stupid he is for that? no. and i did anyway. so whos the real fool
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horizonandstar · 1 year
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i want to skip ahead sooo bad to the fun bit of code. its essential to my well being that i solve this puzzle i just gave myself
just! some thoughts under cut because i just thought of this right now
basically, how it goes is that theres this scene where sun and y/n are playing games with each other. the options are limited because you will, in fact, genuinely play the game
to make it easier for myself, suns actions is determined by a randomizer
current games so far that im thinking of adding is rock paper scissors (its more of a test run in implementation that i plan to keep in the final game), tic tac toe, battleship, and connect 4 (tic tac toe on buffs: gravity edition)
so the player can only play each game once, so i dont have to track the "time" and also so i dont have to write unique dialogue each time you pick the same game several times in a row. oh maybe i do have to track the time after all, if only to have sun react to how long he and y/n took playing games (expresses disappointment if you quit early)
so i probably will have to create a new .txt file per game. originally my plan was to have it all be in 1 file, but that gets confusing + bloated the more games i add
im planning for there to be Important Dialogue about... something, while sun and y/n play, and the order of the games you play doesnt affect the order of the Important Dialogue. ah fuck i have to make another file for the dialogue huh. god i hope like 2 gosub_scenes in a row doesnt cause issues in performance or whatever + the gosubs i will be using to check valid user inputs (wait i can just disable invalid moves) and win conditions and then goto whatever label i need
and sun will react to the state of the game. he tracks the win:lose ratio, and hopefully if coding this wont kill me, if youre close to beating him in the game while its ongoing
its mainly implementing the dialogue that i imagine will be the biggest hurdle. sure i can just do something like
{dialogue #1}
*gosub game
{dialogue #2}
*gosub game
etc etc
but thats what i call "i would not fucking do that" when i can just use a hub label and a pointer
the code of sun commenting on the state of the game would probably be another function in the game to check, instead of it being written with the dialogue branches and/or choices, now that i think about it
i wonder if theres a more efficient way of implementing this. the amount of gosubs ill be using makes me go yikes but theres no way i can think around it. also i wonder if there is a better way to go to all the dialogue labels other than using a pointer and concatenation
also. i would like some enums please. right now im just using several int variables to mimic this but theres no way to actually make variables constant which, i dont think ill accidentally change the variables meant to be constant, but i can do that and that i dont like
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enjoyslurm · 1 year
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i hope this isn't too much of an intrusive thing to ask, but what was your experience taking T like? and what was stopping it like? i've strongly considered it before (for quite a few years now, actually) but have been hesitant because i always worry about the possibility of changing my mind. so i suppose what i'm asking is which effects have been reversible and which haven't. i hope i haven't asked anything too invasive, but if i have then please just ignore me haha. & have a good day! ^^
nah its not invasive, it simply isnt an all encompassing experience that will be relatable for every person. i dont mind spilling some details though.
being on T on and off for about a year, i didnt have a streamlined or especially standard transition. some changes were really fast because my body took to the hormone very quickly and aggressively, despite my lower than average dose. a lot of changes were choppy and did not reach full potential because of the way i went about it. bottom growth and muscle gain were among the first changes, as well as body fat gain and redistribution. my facial and body hair also became thicker and coarser. my body odor changed. i got more acne and grease. my hair line began squaring out. the most prominent changes and which are irreversible are all accessible to read about online tbh.
stopping T though, that was different. my acne got really bad for a while, then leveled out. my voice stopped dropping, and after several years has come close to the upper range i was at before starting my transition, while also holding onto the lower range i was able to achieve while on hormones. unfortunately i dont think ill ever be a soprano again, though. my facial hair still grows in, but more slowly and it is softer. my period came back as horrible as ever just a couple months after stopping. my body fat moved back to its original state, though its always been pretty androgynous. the mood effects are a whole other conversation to have, too.
i would like to start HRT again eventually, but the way my life is right now, i dont really feel like i have that option. i am also apprehensive of the voice changes and hair loss, seeing how those are permanent after a certain point, as well as guaranteed changes. it would be nice to be able to pick and choose, but thats not that way it is, really! you have to do a lot of research and personal introspection to decide if transitioning is right for you. good luck!
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skyburger · 2 months
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oh my goddddd it makes me so mad that i am pretty much doomed to live in the united fucking states of america for the rest of my life because i seriously do not want to learn to drive. like it makes me so fucking anxious i get anxious on STAIRS how am i supposed to fucking drive. but because we live in the worst place on earth theres no other option. like i cannot afford ubers everywhere nor is there fucking public transportation. and like moving out of the country would be a hassle at best and undoable at worst from reasons ranging from "i use a lot of electronics / computers / video game consoles often and i do NOT want to deal with different power outlets / voltages again" (i lived overseas for 5 years and it was hell to get any consoles set up. but like im not fucking re-buying all my games and a british wii instead its a lose-lose) to "some of my medication (mostly adderall) is straight up not legal in most countries so that severely limits my options". hell on fucking earth! i do not want to live in this wretched country i genuinely do not like it here but anywhere else i would like to live usually has adderall as an illegal drug. like here are my top picks for where i would live if i could live overseas no problems (in no particular order):
japan. good public transportation, i speak some of the language and am working on learning more. however adderall is illegal there so it's out of the question
germany. good public transportation, i speak some of the language & am working on learning more, plus i have german citizenship which saves a lot of hassle. adderall is also not legal here so it's out of the question
england. have lived there before, good public transportation, have family i know and love there. adderall is legal here! however i already lived in england 5 years and i kind of dont really want to go back. like its a lovely country! id just rather live somewhere new u know
canada. adderall is legal here and i obviously speak english. however the public transportation situation i hear is pretty much the same (maybe SLIGHTLY better) so like whats the fucking point its a whole hassle for really no benefit
and like even if i DID move to england or canada. i think i'd have to get it re-prescribed and like it was enough of a hassle the first time i know theyre gonna want me to try every other adhd medication before i get adderall back like Please. i already spent years trying them all and this is the only one that works for me. so my current options (at least in my mind) are this:
live overseas and just have someone mail me my prescription. however this is very illegal and i would risk going to jail for this for up to five years in germany and up to ten in japan (and potentially being deported in the latter!), not to mention the possibility of being fined instead of or as well as that
stay in the US and continue to take my meds legally. and just Suffer. best case scenario if i can SOMEHOW afford to live somewhere walkable (a city probably) then i can do that
learn to drive. absolutely not happening! i am too much of a nervous nelly
like i seriously dont want to have to work out the best medication for me AGAIN in another country but at this point thats probably the best option. adderall i will miss you dearly. i think i was gonna say something else but i forgot what it was. idk. idk! ill figure it out eventually
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baeshijima · 11 months
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hai :>
for the ask game: 22, 40, 44 and 47!
hehe
fanfic writer game !!
omg hi xin !! i hope ur doing well and taking care of urself >:]
22. describe your writing process from scratch to finish.
hooh boy.
bullet pointing key lore/character points
mapping out scenes in [ brief summary of scene(s) ] format
usually this is when i scatter around dialogue bc thats what comes to me the easiest
flesh out key descriptors or thought processes
fill in the gaps
sometimes the order changes (like 3 & 4 can interchange) but for the most part thats the overall process i do from start to end !! oh, and the title usually comes to me pretty early on in the beginning, so most of the time i already have one or at least a couple options to pick from while writing which can influence the direction of the fic at times ^^
and i dont really discard drafts and just,, work on the same one,,,
40. best piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten.
i think the only one which really stuck out to me was to map out dialogue first then build the scene around it if needed, as well as leave little notes for scenes i get stuck on. it may sound a little unconventional, but i think it was due to my style being a little clunky back then bc i always tried to fit dialogue where it couldnt go !! thats also probably why a lot of my fics are dialogue heavy aha,,,
44. any writing advice you want to share?
if the writing isnt going the way u want it to, then remember that its fine to back away from your draft and come back to it later !! im pretty guilty of being stuck on a piece for hours on end, and so to combat that without leaving (bc i still have ideas but they wont write), i just add a brief note of what the scene should be before moving to a new section of the fic !! this is also where i just jot down dialogue too, since the scenes for me flow easier when i do that ^^
oh! and if u suddenly have an idea, immediately write it down or make a note !! the number of times i told myself i would remember the idea only to not is... yeah....
47. what story are you most proud of?
how to woo the acting grand sage 101 and the newest jing yuan fic of lattes and dozing generals !! they were both the biggest single pieces ive worked on, and honestly it felt really rewarding to get through several scrapped drafts despite the constant stumps i faced when a scene wouldnt flow a certain way i envisioned it would, and i think thats what made me love the process even more :'D
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Day 77: Saturday March 18, 2023 - “Special Breakfast”
The main event of this weekend I decided was to start taking William for special breakfast.  He was agreeable to that as I worked to prep him the day before, and I prepared my self, for what I needed to bring and tried not to stress about how it might go.   I chose Snooze up on Grant, and when we parked he grabbed my hand to lead me in, for our very first special breakfast. Just me and him, out on the town.  I was nervous, but confident.
We checked in and I introduce William as a special guest, his very first time out for Saturday brekky.   The young staff all smiled, and got the game, and treated him like a VIP as they showed us to a table with a booster seat.  I strapped him and looked nervously at the couples both on Willaim’s left and right, no more than two of his arms lengths away.  I didn’t show my nerves, smiled and kept those to myself, and introduced William to his neighbors as I handed him his bluey bottle of wa-wa juice, cheerios, and the broken car wheels he happened to be stuck on this morning.  Strapped him and opened up the kids menu they’d given us, complete with crayons, and got to work in helping him having a happy fun time out.  It sure helped that everyone around us smiled and got the game too, and didn’t distract him from our work.
The first order of business - how to work with our server.   We practiced the options (Ive been working on choice these days) and when Miranda came, we posed either pancake or quesadilla.   Our native son of Tucson, confidently went with quesadilla.  When presented with juice or coffee, he said juice. as if it was a stupid question.   He signed please.  He said Thank You.   I am pretty sure thats the first time Ive heard him say that to someone (but its hard to keep track these days as phrases come so fast now - incliuding a :here you go” that I got later).  We colored and played stunt jumps with his wheels, as I drank as much coffee as I could.  They brought out his fruit cup, blackberries right on top - howd they know!! (Hes in a blackberry phase at the moment).  The server checked on us several times, I told him it was because of his charm.  He was indeed, being a very sweet goodbye.  Our neighbors smiled and smirked at me several times, as if to signal that they were pleasantly surprised at how well this was going....  and I smirked back as if to say “me too:”
But now the real test-  the food came.  And I wondered how much would get thrown or dropped on the floor. Just before the food came we had a nice connection as he took his straw wrapper and went to throw it on the floor - I gave out the instinctive “ahh” that got his attention. Then gently explained, “we don’t do that at special breakfast because Huck isnt here to help clean up.  So anything you put down there, Miss Miranda has to pick up.”  He watched me intently processing everything I said as I spoke. Like I really was coaching him up on something important - how to be a good guest at Special Breakfast.  He put the straw wrapper down up on the table away from him.  And when the food came, not one single bit wound up on the floor or anywhere actually other than his plate or his belly.  Big Win!  He ate like I hardly ever see at home.  Pineapple in the ketchup, potato by the handful, licking the raspberry jelly tin, egg quesadilla on the big boy fork.  I was dialed into him, and him being successful and he was dialed into me, and we had a great time there together.
But I still wondered, as we got to the end, would the thing I was most nervous about still get us?  I knew it wasn’t over until we were back in the car.  Stay focused - because I know from experience that a meltdown can come out of the blue, if I let my guard down!   And just as he was starting to lose interest, and as I hustled down my own plate, Miss Miranda showed up with a complimentary treat - she said everyone was so impressed with how good he had been on his first time, that they got him a special chocolate chip pancake. Complete with a scoop of butter on top that he went right for.  His eyes lit up. This really was a special breakfast- and he hadnt even yet discovered the goodness of the chocolate morsels in this treat.   I wondered if he realized maybe he’d screwed up by choose the better known quesadilla or if maybe he knew exactly what he was doing the whole time.  Either way, I thought it was pretty awesome, as it bought me that time to finish my own “special breakfast” and another cup of that much needed coffee as he explored the wonders of this surprise.   The meltdown never came.
As we boxed our leftovers for lunch, and unstrapped him from his seat, he did make one last power move, instinctual from special meals at The Finca, I know, he climbed right on the table and stood up straight, smiling at the old couple behind me.   I pulled a Dad power move of my own - “hey if he aint screaming, or falling, or breaking - just let it ride.  If it aint broke, dont break it!”  I finished what I was doing, paid the bill, as the staff smiled at him.   Got all of our stuff, picked him up and set him down on the floor, where he led us out of there, confidently and happily, all the way to the car.  I strapped him in and had him look at me.  “That was a really good job.  I’ll go to breakfast with you any time.”  Love giving him that affirmation.  And I love that we did this. I was nervous, but we worked it.  No thrown food, no mess, no meltdown.   Just a successful happy mindful outing for both of us. 
 Song: Sam Hunt - Start Nowhere
Quote: “One doesn't remember one's own life chronologically, the way it happened, what was most important, or even what seemed most important. We are not in control of our memories. One doesn't own one's memories. One is owned by them.” ― Federico Fellini
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trevanent · 1 year
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part 2!! and now for some buffs!! well rounded are weapons that i read as just passable but that feel a bit limited, i like playing a lot of these but often feel a bit cloystered by their underwhelming aspects and think theys hould be tuned upa bit to rly feel fun!
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sploosh o matic: god what the fuck is even going on with this one. its been buffed in some goofy ways as sis with insane object damage and a unique swim speed effect that reall has no justification lore wise. but yeah its still so silly and rekegated to ambush attacks. honestly i would just reduce its shot rng, i know its a spray shooter but its not rly a good painter cos of how stupidly short its range is, so making it slightly more cpaable of killing from more than point blank could make it just a bit more threatening of a supportish skirmisher!
splattershot jr. : an actually good support shooter! the ink tank buff is very fun even if the bombs piss me off.but this is sans bombs balancing (imo splat bombs and burst bombs should both be nerfed p notably but thats another subject), it actually wants to paint, so instead of rng reduction, if say just make its jump rng less severe by default by a little bit to give it a little bone :)
l-3 nozzlenose: a silly guy :) i honestly v much agree w the notion that of the semi sutomatic shooters its gooft it has jump rng unlike the rest given the rest of its drawbacks feel fair enough. give it perfect jump accuracy :) ill pick it up again then. maybe a bit worse falloff in case that makes it a little too strong tho
range blaster: rsnge blaster is my glorious lover. id say shed be perfect if the base jump rng wasnt so bad. this, on top of making intensify action slightly more effective for blasters across the board, would make them less gesr dependent and more fun to experiment with gear for, and also just less agonizing to move around with
splat roller: straight up, rollers just feel so pathetic without a good painter. just buff its damage in a similar way to dynamo roller and make its roll speed slightly booster by run speed. in general though i cam up witha concept for all rolling weappns to reach max roll speed fast and to have an option to drop their flick to immedistely start rolling. this would make them actuay feel like they have a mobility option, and their roll ink efficiency should be buffed a bit. roll sucks horridly anyways so i think this option wouldnt be too much of a buff for roller, just makes it easier to get away or move thru enemy ink in certain situations! i also laid out that rollers flick cancel shoukd have mroe end kag depending on the roller, light rollers and brushes can even do it (ink brush too even if its silly) they can all do it almost instantly since they cant immediately kill with roll anyway. i shouldve mentioned this before oh well. anywaus thats all i think splat roller would need to be more fun :)
flingza roller: flingza is only good cos of its fat paint rly, its apparently good at fighting too but sheesh i dont love its vertical flick min damage at max range. i rly dont get why its minimum damage cant be 45 :p i think thatd be all it needs cos i do get how the weapon can be kinda strong as is along with cancellable flicks and mobility implemented
octo brush: implement cancellable flicks! give it run speed boostie! and return its melee hitbox so you can kill faster at point blank its fun!
bamboozler 14 mki: boost the damage!!! to 91!!!! irs crazy how much you could boost its damage with mpu before honestly but yeah sometimes its annoying how rare those random one shot combos from teammates can feel now. i think this and increasing its shredding power would be great for varying good counters to hp specials and boost bamboos fight. also, everyone ntoe these buffs all assume better special balance soon so that you dont freak out abt nerfing splatana object damage
ballpoint splatling: bp is scary honestly, the only thing i would change is giving it better shot celocity for its ling range mode,it feels goofy bow long those shots can take to hit lol
heavy splatling: i almost consideried boosting range, cos honestly heavy sucks without the choke point hp special blitz goin on rn, and it needs a better chance fightign charger. imo it should get a buff similae to the nautilus one, after maps r fixed its charge should let it shoot 14% longer and its shot rng should be reduced a bit so it can more reliably challenge chargers in certain situations!! and then you will all see...
tri stringer: tri stringer feels rly solid after the paint buff honestly, and i like its high ibject damage as a unique strength, however, as things stand, i think given the potential i do think it has, it should be able to charge fast in midair imo thatd make its mobility feel real good
too many flaws pt 1 (i will get to the rest of the list in one final post)
.96 gal: JUST REDUCE THE FUCKING RNG ALREADY GODAMMIT! But inly slightly cos if it git too accurate itd be way too op 😭 it still has to be kinda bad, but it should be able to paint a little better to make up for it :p and make its base jump rng penalty a little lower for the sillies cos it is still oretty fkawed design wise. a little smthn smthn
aerospray: keep it a five shot but buff its damage. make it do like 24.5 for better dps and damage vs objects also boost its range a little bit and i think making it have zero penalty for jumping, since every spray shooter seems to have some kindof unique trait to itself, and i think aerospray would actually have reasons to be played in higher level matches! after all, its rng is already bad enough lmao
splattershot nova: honestly this shits so fun and i kinda am glad im the end they didnt make it the new dualie squelcher . just lower its rng a bit so it can fit a bit better cos the five shot kill is bad enough as is even if its rng doesnt worsen over time 😭 its bad enough as is. the paint buff was excellent, and buff its damage to 24.5 like aerospray for dps reasons and boom bobs yer uncle
splattershot pro: i heavily agree with chara that it should just get a damn fire rate buff, but also a bit of a damage buff by a few damage points for better object damage, and i feel its strafe speed a lil buff, yeah its a long range shooter but it feels relatively fast strafe speed is a staple for splattershots so :p
h-3 nozzlenose: LITERALLY just reduce the endlag by like. two frames and h-3 will feel usable. id even go so far as to make its range just slightly longer, give it a unique range value like squeezer, cos if squeezer gets that much range but not h-3 come on!!!
luna blaster: unironically reduce its endlag. like by literally two frames to make it feel nicer i guess, and give it a bit better object damage multipliers to set it apart a bit more from the other blasters and octobrush!!
carbon roller: give it all rhe roller cancellability and mobility buffs! and faster max speed to make it better at mobility and better roll ink efficiency. actually make tha tink efficiency fairly signifcant so it can use the hell out of its roll for mobility , and make its roll do 80 just for fun! better silly combos. give it better damage scaling to make up for mpu and give it a higher minimum damage honestly, to make up for how worthless it is for getting thru mid , and make its horizontal flick just a liiiiitle longer range cos it feels silly how pathetic that feels sometimes. also its horizontal flick should paint a bit better to give it a bit something extra. cos in mt ideal world burst bonbs should be nerfed decently and i love carbon deco but . yeah
dynamo roller: CANCELLABILITY AND ALL THE OTHER ROLLER WID EMOBILITY BUFFS!!! the damage buff was huge and honestly i think cancellable flick, although it should have the most lag on cancelling its flick, would be huge for minimizing its horrendous weakness to splatbombs. also heres a real fun idea i just had, it should be able to crusb bombs. itd be super risky and situationaly but with the roll speed changes itd be more doable in certain situations for a bit of cheese and an anti bomb option, which i think this game needs a bit more if honestly. finally, i think its min damage should be raised to 47 and its horizontal flick should paint more consistently!!! how fun how unique!! :3
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