#ive been using cardboard for a lot of things but i dont like using it for wearable stuff bc i worry about washing things

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#delete later #did a good compromise today. my therapist will be proud. only minorly panicky now #and have been making my chainmail things and it makes me very happy #have started designing the arm bracers abd bought fabric glue for the material ill be using #probs gonna make it velcrow abd add decorative buckles so dont have to worry about flaps of material #have the shape sorted and am gonna experiment with foam and stuff #have a good idea pf how to attach thr chainmail to it. just how to make it all stiff enough that it keeps its shape #ive been using cardboard for a lot of things but i dont like using it for wearable stuff bc i worry about washing things #im a messy person i need to be able to wash things without it falling apart #i have a yoga mat that might be good. i would just need to figure oit how to set it in a certain position #i have a tube i can dry it over. it might be a douse in pva and dry over cellophaned tube sorta deal #the cape is going well. hood is finished. cloak itself needs to be sewed around tge bottom and the front edge hemmed #thrn its just attaching thrm and decorating #i have fake autumn leaves abd acorns and i want to sculpt some shelf mushrooms out of my super light clay #but idk if thats overkill. i mean its my costune so that doesbt matter i guess. im very proud of myself on this project and i love it #and i even nabaged to do sone work roday despite only being able to think about chainmail #legit spent entire morning making the main piece. needs lengthening but its looking good abd solid #OH ALSO I FUCKING CALLED THE DENTISTS. i havent been in four years bc of anxiety abd TODAY I CALLED A PLACE #REGISTERED THERE AND MADE AN APPOINTMENT FOR NEXT WEEK #i did SO WELL TODAY

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okay so. now that ive taken some time to breathe, compose myself, and gather my thoughts, lemme lay out why the teen wolf movie was a hot holy mess (besides, you know, the obvious) as a teen wolf enthusiast and expert.

a lot of the characters were really little more than set dressing. to be specific, i think liam could have been replaced by a mailbox with a hat and the movie would have been the same (and this is coming from a major liam fan). the same can be said for mason, malia, melissa, peter, and honestly even the sheriff (which i hate bc god he was such a core of the show). i think parrish was only useful in one specific instance and even that isn't enough to warrant him being in the film. the characters i loved felt like cardboard cutouts and that wasnt fair to me, to the characters, or to the actors. i would have rather they not been there at all tbh. like just leave liam out of this if youre gonna do him like that fr

a lot of the plot points felt... disjointed and weird. saraid said it felt like three different movies in one and i have to agree. derek and eli felt like its own thing, then scott and allison, and then everything else (whatever the hell parrish and malia had going on, the lydia and jackson buddy cop comedy, liam in... japan with a ramen shop i think? and some random girlfriend that happened to be a kitsune) kind of fell to the wayside in between.

this movie was truly so flat without kira. it was hard to make a nogitsune movie without stiles, but it was almost impossible to make without her. hikari unfortunately ended up just feeling like a woman they randomly shoved into all the plot points kira was supposed to be in. because she didnt have a character besides liams girlfriend (and because liam was barely a character himself), she just couldn't compare and so kiras lack of presence was really felt. she left a huge hole in the narrative. they didnt even mention her and you knew what was missing. if you had cut khylin and dylan sprayberrys checks entirely, im sure they would have had enough to pay her as much as the rest of her white coworkers :) but that's just my opinion xxx

this was supposed to be for fans of the original series, but really just felt like jeff davis's weird rare pair fanfiction. instead of focusing on the dynamics that already existed - melissa and the sheriff, malia and peter, scott and liam, derek and. anyone really - he ended up delving into all these new dynamics with only two hours to develop them. malia and parrish (which. i really had to mentally run through the show to see if those two had interacted before and i dont think they have), liam and hikari, and derek and eli. all of which had a shot at being interesting but because there were so many different plots going on, it all just felt. awkward and confusing.

that being said, im gonna move onto derek and eli generally. i like eli! i do. i thought he was funny, i thought the actor was super charming (although the timeline made no sense because if he was born fifteen years ago And allison died fifteen years ago he would be braedens and. hate to say it folks. thats not braedens baby. make him mixed jeff davis you fucking coward). really, i liked him. ... but not at the expense of dereks character. the derek i knew was an asshole. he was mean, he was sarcastic, he was a bastard (honorifically). its not to say that people cant change, but... the derek i saw in the movie was a complete 180 from the derek we last saw in the series. honestly, the derek i saw in the series probably wouldn't have made a good parent - we saw how he was with erica, isaac, and boyd. even with scott. derek was kind of a dick. i dont even think he would have wanted kids - i think he would raise them out of duty, and i think he would if a partner wanted him to. but i dont think kids were ever in his life plan. and i think that could have been super interesting to see with him and eli. i think making him a parent could have been really interesting and it just. crumbled.

i know i mentioned the timeline in that last bit but. the timeline. it hurts my head. when was eli born. what year is it. how long has it been since scott has been in beacon hills. im so confused.

lets talk about adrian harris. shall we. i have made a list of people who i think would have been a better villain reveal are you ready: allison, peter, theo, chris argent, kate argent (resurrected), matt daehler (resurrected), victoria argent (resurrected), kira herself, danny mahealani, rafe mccall, isaac's shit dad, coach, greenberg, me with a baseball bat filled with rusty nails, jeff davis in a wig. the list goes on. you could not have picked a more random and less memorable character to reveal as your villain. i almost felt like i was being mocked. "haha! you didnt expect it to be this guy? the chemistry teacher who also died fifteen years ago? who had almost nothing to do with the plot until season 3? stupid! idiot!" i have never been so mad in my life

speaking of villain. did they forget what a nogitsune is. it needs a host. its not some guy they can stab to death. its a concept, a feeling, a parasite. its a manifestation of mental illness. but no sorry excuse me i must be wrong bc now its also a werewolf??????? im sorry. am i the crazy one. give me void allison! give me allison as the host and shes being taken over and she has those bags under her eyes and that creepy void stare and grin! give me crystal reed emmy noms! while we're on the subject, heres some more questions about the nogitsune include: why was it in a jar? why was it with LIAM of all people (who didnt even know what that was)? why did its powers completely change? HOW was it a werewolf????????? i cant stop thinking about it.

i said it once and ill say it again: jackson fucking carried this movie. he was giving all season one jackson, he was bringing comic relief, he was even bringing up ethan when no one else would! king! he carried. but he shouldn't have had to. dont get me wrong, i think crystal reed ate and left no crumbs. this was allisons movie and it should have been. but when the other two standout characters imo were jackson (who arguably did nothing) and coach (who did even less)... you simply didnt use your characters well. i think i would put deaton up there and even chris, but... scott and lydia? this should have been their movie. but scott spent nearly the whole movie ignoring his friends, and lydia was reduced to 'woman whose plot was about a man,' again. it was horrible. lydia outgrew that song and dance by season two. and scott? hasnt been to beacon hills in twelve years? hasnt seen his mom or his friends? not the scott mccall i know.

this is not about shipping discourse this post will never be about shipping discourse so i say this as a completely objective party. that being said. st/dia was so strangely shoved in there at the end. how did harris even know about lydia leaving stiles. how did he know about her dream. how did it add to the plot. like yes the nogitsune feeds of chaos and strife but i think lydia was getting enough of that watching her friends get murdered. it felt like a weird way to explain why dob wasnt there and it simply didnt work. i would have rather they not said anything about stiles at all.

anyway, this is skipping over a lot of other little things that i thought were really bad (sexualizing malia who literally had the mentality of an eight year old for most of her life AGAIN, why was mason a fucking cop, peters lack of interaction with the hale family which is what made him interesting in the first place, the absolute insanity of allison coming back to life and just being absolutely okay even though shes been dead for fifteen years, died at the hands of her friend, and almost everyone she knew including stiles, isaac, and kira are all just gone now), but boy oh boy. for a while it was funny bad. like "oh this is bad but i can still enjoy this for what it is" bad. but those last ten minutes. what is actually absolutely wrong with jeff davis. there are very few times ive felt this betrayed by tv shows i held this close to my heart, but im there. im heartbroken. i wont go on about it here, bc honestly, it would need its own post considering how much i have to say. but if the rest of the movie was bad? that was shit was traumatizing.

anyway. so sorry this post is this long, and so sorry i couldnt come back with a positive review. this show died long ago; i think we should have just let it rest - nobody asked for a reunion, and now i can see that was with good reason. so the next time jeff davis opens up an email with a header titled 'sequel idea' and he ccs tyler posey, i think we should all just agree to ler arden cho beat him to death in a dennys parking lot instead.

#long post #teen wolf #teen wolf movie #twm #personal #shut your pie hole katie

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ahoy!! one more recipe and its the end of the summer season, it feels like it all went so fast- 1/4 of the way through this Redwall Cookbook project thing we've been doin. working on a small narrative game that also revolves around cooking! Who knows, maybe that'll be out before the halfway mark?  but- today- it is Guosim Shrew Shortbread!

(you can find the original recipe at the bottom if you’d like to follow along!)-

MY NAMES CROSS NOW LETS COOK LIKE ANIMALS

SO, “what goes in to a Guosim Shrew Shortbread?” YOU MIGHT ASK

All-purpose flour

Salt

Unsalted butter

Superfine sugar

I think this would be a fun recipe for a baking competition between friends. Shortbread is notoriously fickle and it would be a great canvas for throwing bullshit into and seeing who vomits first. Blood sports but green. Call that grorts. 

Also dont eat raw flour.

AND, “what does Guosim Shrew Shortbread taste like?” YOU MIGHT ASK

It tastes like. It doesn’t really taste like anything????? Its got da texture of sand

Lightly sweet, i guess breadish flavor?

Sandy. Hurt if you have burnt top mouth (like me at the time)

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its shortbread you could pair it with anything as long as theres some sort of moistness

SO, funny story, youre gonna love it, i was feeling unsure of my results and i asked my beautiful partner because ive never had shortbread before- um. I think i messed it up apparently its not supposed to taste like nothing and have the consistency of sand? i dont have enough butter to redo this at the moment. oppsie fucksie.

. used salted butter

. accidentally used one 9-inch pan instead of two 8-inch pans

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So like. Like what *is* shortbread?

I believe shortbread is a small loaf-like cake with minimal flavoring, and apparently is supposed to be buttery/fluffy/flakey. dont eat raw flour. It does indeed sound very good and because of how late into the process i realized this mistake, everyone who reads this is personally invited to try this and report on how it goes or goesn't. 

It was probably the pan thing but theres also a chance, as there was a lot of chilled butter, that the butter melted too much during mixing.  Burnt butter cardboard mmmmmmmm.

It is Unjust to judge it when i have set it up unknowingly for failure. Like letting your child get a bike and sticking tacks in the wheels. I let you down, lil dude. It gets a ???/10 (with 1 being food that makes one physically sick and 10 being food that gives one a lust for life again.)

🐁 ORIGINAL RESIPPY TEXT BELOW 🐁

Ingredients:

2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour

Pinch salt

1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter, chilled and cubed

1/2 cup sugar, preferably superfine, plus additional for sprinkling

Method:

Preheat the oven to 325° F. Grease two 8-inch round cake pans and line the bottoms with parchment or waxed paper.

In a mixing bowl, stir together the flour and salt. Add the butter and rub it into the flour with your fingers (alternately, pulse the dry ingredients and butter in a food processor) until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Add the sugar and knead lightly to mix.

Press half the dough evenly into each pan. Bake until firm and golden, about 45 minutes.

Sprinkle sugar over the warm shortbreads and cut each round into eight wedges. Let cool in the pans.

#cross cooks redwall #cooking #digital art #dont eat raw flour

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okay everyone say hi to patti 2

my hypothesis was RIGHT they are using a material thats more like the beanie buddys than the beanie babies, im not sure if its the Same bc my patti beanie buddy is a bit older so the softness feels different just bc ive had her for a couple years and her life in a cardboard box atm but visually they look identical to me (beanie buddy pattis beak is def a different material tho or its just dirty lol i need to give her a bath)

THEY ARE USING plastic beads and not pvc or pe beads however which im not surprised about. the tag just says her name and shows the ty logo and nawt even beanie baby collection. come now is she not part of our family?

BUT AS OF CHANGES IN THE DESIGN this is what im more excited about. check this shit out

my girl patti 2 is shorter and is a lot more rounded out/less of a distinct shape like ms patti. its ep noticable in the head shape and the butt where 2 has more of a rounded hill while 1 is more two hills. i think theyre just going more towards the plush designs a lot of more modern plushes go for these days design and material wise, but keeping the general idea of a beanie baby in mind. id also compare them more to the beanie buddys in the design but it still feels different bc beanie buddys have a different purpose in the world than the anniversary patti. 1 and 2s eyes are different too with 1s eyes being closer together and being more prominent while 2s are farther

the tag designs on the outside r p similiar besides the text calling it a beanie official baby but that always fluctuates, its the thin tezt design theyve been doing for awhile. the poem is the same as pattis 1s so nothing to add there, i vastly prefer 1sts pattys tag design bc it feels very 'theres no design that weve worked to death on over the years' so they could do whatever. but i womt take a pic bc its similiar to any new ty tag. her birthday is july 6th though :)

i think its really cool the way the company isnt just making the exact same thing but mixing whats popular now with what weve had before. it does make me a little sad just bc i do prefer the older designs bc they feel a lot sillier and i like that they arent perfectly round yknow. pattis 1 beak jolts out of her head in a funny but distinct way and 2s is just there. not to say i dont like 2 i think shes adorable but its just different. overall im really happy with her and im glad theyre doing this for the 30th anniversary :') i think pattis happy with it too

#im so excited my brother found her but he said he found it in a gas station which i didnt expect but tbh makes sense #maybe theyre sending different batches to different stores tho bc ik shes alteady discontinued #probably extra stock that hasnt sold yet bc i doubt anyone cares abt this Majorly #but this means YOU VIEWER if u havent found the ones u want u dont have to search ebay yet. theyre OUT THERE #AND ONLY 8 BONES

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new opddmh updates..... like. three of them. crazy. haven't been keeping up as well as usual (acting stuff and work tag teaming my free time and absolutely destroying it) but i have finally started to binge and i truly truly love what u r doing w makoto and miu. so different but still connecting on an in-depth level and balancing eachother out ....... sometimes a relationship is an ex-reality show killing game figurehead and the world's worst teenager fresh out of the hospital against the world. do u have any insights on the way u write relationships and connections or just them in specific that come to mind bc oh my god. please do tell

HELLO AGAIN :]!!! AND HAHAHAH THATS ALL GOOD ive been so busy also FINGERS CROSSED IM ABLE TO GET MY UPDATE SCHEDULE ON TRACK LOL

TALKING ABOUT THIS FIC!!! :] big ole ramble down below lol

(i use the word "partner" a lot here but just know i am not referring to strictly romantic relationships lol)

OHHH GOD. relationship writing advice HMM HMMMMM. it really is very complex bc there are SO many different types of relationships that can be written about ghfdgjh so advice definitely varies!!! i think something helpful that i've learned is that unless you are purposefully examining power dynamics it always helps to view both sides as fully realised characters. very very rarely do you want to have a character who is solely there to agree with their second half and have no personality or history outside of this. i see this happen a LOT with romantic pairings but it's also an important note for platonic pairings as well!! ESPECIALLY if the main focus of the story is on this specific pairing-- it shouldnt feel like one person is a human being while the other is a cardboard cutout whose only purpose is to be there for their partner. again there ARE a few exceptions to this and how it is portrayed but its the main rule i like to stick to!! :]

if i feel like ive written a character who is solely there for their partner something immediate i go to is giving both characters something that separates them!! most of the time this includes fleshing out a backstory thats different from their partner, that might influence the way they see things within the narrative. give them a different hobby, maybe a different friend group! give them a different perspective on the events that are unfolding, a different way of coping that might not be beneficial to their partner!! and remember that it is OKAY for them to not agree on everything!!!! do not be frightened into thinking you need every single relationship in your story to be perfect and unproblematic and completely agreeable, especially for longer narratives that call for conflict

OH AND IN REGARDS TO FANFICTION... piece of advice i try to follow is donttttt try to mold characters into entirely different people just so they can stay happy and agreeable with their partner lol. if theres tension theres tension!! if theyre petty then theyre petty!!!!! even if there isnt conflict and youre writing fluff, you dont have to erase their personalities just to fit them together as a happy couple! sometimes the challenge in writing comes from finding what happiness means for that specific character/pairing, and that may be very different from the typical idea of romance/happiness!!

AND NOW ON TO MAKOTO AND MIU first of all. i am so sorry for making you read paragraphs upon paragraphs of me just rambling nonsense at you GHFDKGSH BUT I APPRECIATE IT!!! and second of all this technicallllyyyy is advice i guess but its WAY more specific now!!! lol

anyways when it comes to writing their relationship most of their dynamic is based off of their differences! opddmh miu is brash and loud, and even though she is trying more and more to filter what she says she still speaks before she thinks and grows restless very easily. opddmh makoto on the other hand cant afford to be brash and loud and thinks quite a lot before he says anything, and is lot visibly calmer. so its fun examining how their differences are able to influence the other throughout the fic!!!! miu NEEDED that calming influence considering the state she was in when makoto found her, i quite frankly have no idea where the hell she would be now if makoto hadnt been so patient and understanding ghfdksghkf. makoto on the other hand is a man chained down by responsibility, so much so that his life has become extremely dull in his eyes just because of how repetitive it has started to become. miu is a serious change to this and offers him some kind of purpose while also reminding him of not only how SCARED he was as a teenager first exiting the simulator but also how unrestrained he had been before the years went by. theres a balance there!!!

but at the same time, there ARE some similarities. theyre both a bit paranoid, and even if miu is more willing to be vocal about her distaste theyre both scared of danganronpa as a company. they also both strive for some kind of peace, even if they have different versions of it-- makoto wishes to be unburdened by the weight of responsibility and his Ultimate Hope persona while miu wishes for stability in her relationships with others, even if she just isnt the best at it. its why i like writing small moments such as the two of them just sitting in the car and chatting or the most recent moment where theyre not talking at all but are still comfortable in each others company-- they dont explicitly tell the other that theyre super happy and at peace but they both subconsciously understand :)

OKAY CUTTING MYSELF OFF!!!! GFHDGFDJ THANK YOU SO SO MUCH <33

#ask lee #kozuelovemail #opddmh

[hoodie-prince-kid]

Huey (rant invitation)

When Port Prisma got the paint stars stolen from the fountain, Huey was what emerged from the fountain's emergency system. He introduced himself by saying "let's get burgers, your treat" before letting Mario drain his color in order to fight off a stray shy guy in the town. At the ends of the game, after everything theyve been thru, Huey thanks Mario just before the final battle, and then in the battle turns himself into a card to become a solid object again, which made it go full circle. As the guardian of the paint fountain in Port Prisma, he realized his job wasnt to get the paint stars, but to get rid of the black paint that Bowser inadvertantly created. He told the others he would be right behind them as they escaped the castle, which was a lie, and proceeded to squeeze the paint out of the *entire castle*.

He's never seen the ocean before, but he loves it.

He's never been to a circus but he was so excited to go.

He's bad in front of crowds. (He tried a tin can impression and no one liked it [i liked it], said it would kill back at the recycling plant which?? Are there other living inanimate objects like Huey??? Hello?????)

He "speaks Draggadon" but he hasnt used it since college and his Draggadon speak is just SIMPLE SENTENCES IN ALL CAPS. (He also told the Draggadon "WE LOVE YOU.")

He's been to college, apparently.

He loves paint and values friendship.

He called shenanigans when the giant coin in the Mondo Woods was only worth one coin upon being picked up.

He was excited to see the fossil at the excavation site and told Mario to go ahead, he'd catch up.

He started a "if anything happens i will protect you" speech just before a chain chomp rolled in out of nowhere and interrupted him (i guess that was foreshadowing, looking back).

He steams and whistles like a tea kettle when he's mad.

He finds Toads adorable but also mumbled to Mario "Why can't we ever meet anyone normal?" upon meeting the lighthouse Toad.

His 3D model uses more triangles than the entirety of Super Mario 64.

He can smell paint stars (the green ones smell "minty fresh", apparently).

He wanted to fight at the coliseum but realized Mario would be the one doing the fighting and sounded it a bit disappointed. (Now thst i think abt it, they could very much have called it "The Colorseum". Missed opportunity.)

He makes bad paint puns and tries to use one to add levity to the situation after the battle with Kamek.

Mario had to whack him with a hammer several times (only once did he get truly upset abt it, in which case he was freaking out abt i mini goomba stuck on his back and Mario really had no choice ["You BETTER not have dented my can, fur face" will live rent free in my memory forever.])

His handles come apart which is something ive never seen a bucket or paint can be able to do but clearly it was solely so they could give him an equivalent to hands because he can clap and "dance".

He absorbed Bowser's black paint at Sunglow Ridge and told Mario to close his eyes and "never speak of this again" (i guess thst was foreshadowing too huh).

His little mask thing changes colors based on his emotions.

He sank into quicksand once and i panicked and when I finally got to him the game said "Huey's not breathing!" but we whacked him with the hammer and he was fine, just full of sand and stating that it's a good thing paint cans dont need to breathe.

Clearly has a sense of fairness, called out the scam at Bloo Bay Beach and got mad when the "legendary mountain sage" turned out to be a cardboard cutout.

Saved Mario from falling in lava and shouted "I got you, bud!"

If you lose a boss battle without the right Thing card he'll pop up on the game over screen and tell you.

He's so encouraging and cheerful, lots of times he cheered Mario on when he was struggling, including in the boss battle.

Apologized for forcing Mario to come with him to recover the paint stars which no, he didn't, Peach told Mario to go and Mario always listens to Peach because he loves her. Plus Mario's a hero and he'll always do what's right for the greater good but now that i think about it probably does need a break.

Thinks the Toad Rescue Squad scarves are "choice".

Wants to buy Birdo's album.

Thats all i got rn and already i know it's a lot so here ya go jdbsndbdb-

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thinking about the will wood interpretation of the wednesday netflix show i havent see the show at all but i believe him with every core of my being

like not to talk out of my ass cuz i litterly have not seen the show and only have seen pictures and fanart but i also saw NO negative posts about it till the will wood one today (not saying theyre arent i just havent seeked out stuff for this show), even my sister recommended it to me. i have a bad habit of disliking popular things that are hyped up on social media even when its a show i like just because like.... sometimes fandom brain rot irks me a little and im definitely hypocritical and cringe just like every other mf on this website.

but also ive seen the adams family movie (i dont think its the OG og but the most popular one) where the camp was to 100%, all the characters were unapologetically weird, political, and goth. not only was it extremely funny camp but had a lot to say for its time, and honestly i think movies like that are becoming rarer and rarer. its so mf boomer of me to say it but with how politics are now and we (at least speaking as an American) have succumbed to the idea that corporations hold more power than the average person in politics, we also hold companies to higher degree of pr and well..... 'wokeness' and inclusion. and like dont get me wrong its so nice to not watch movies and shows with random blatant racism / racism stereotypes for no reason and theres been great shows made in recent times.... but its also like.... companies are becoming more scared to do anything wrong or bold. to be political in any manner, to make a bold statement in any manner because they arent JUST appealing to 'left wokism' (sorry idk how to decribe it better) but to the most people in a nice friendly family friendly manner. (like.... im trying to communicate the idea of lemon demons redesign ur logo like... THAT. they are appealing to everyone)

so long story short i believe will wood's review with a burning fucking passion because thats how a lot of media is turning out, especially by repurposed IPs which is a whole nother fucking annoying thing. smaller rant that intertwines, but its just like television, merch, fandom, etc etc are scared of letting something die or letting something be, both companies who search to milk every last cent..... and fandom people looking to psycho analyize every character into cardboard cut out stereotype or their personal barbie dolls to use to draw gay art and writing long paragraphs about some new netflix merged IP is so 'saphic/gay coded' etc etc its gets so fucking annoying. can we have a normal conversation about a show please like adults.

tdlr can we not spend 20 million years destroying the meaning of somethings original message, both on the sides of repurposed ips AND fandom brain rot, to make something entirely new squeky clean and gay teen romance replaying the same scene of first love over snd over again THIS ISNT ART

#sorry im like so fucking pretencious when it comes to media i know its annoying #also i love being cringe about my favorite things so like #im not trying to attack people for liking things #BUT PPL ALSO KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT DONT MISCONSTREW MY WORDS #its like fine to like something and analize it a bit deeper #and its fun to imagine a different senario and how the themes of the show can be bended or strained #like mob psycho swap au for example #but it annoys me when its like...... it strays from the themes #themes and metaphor are the most important parts of media for me #so im kinda picky with media because action and stuff doesnt really entertain me the same #idk im so tired from today im just talking about this random rant to no one #if you read all of this i love u and u def dont agree but i also think i have a valid point #also im not trying to say all fandom people do that to characters its just uh........ #most...... expecially in POPULAR media so thats why i get scared #i guess im also just getting older now so seeing male leads doing a 'first kiss' art makes me want to kill #wheres the nuance and flavor #the transgenderness beyond owo i have top surgery scars oh no..... #but anyways #shoutout to mob psycho btw oh my god #and to my favorite artist #also when i say things like people who dont want something to die its like #different when its like star trek fans vs like 7th remake adams family #if that makes sense #and im not even saying all adams family remakes are bad either #sorry im like covering my bases #cuz internet makes me so afraid of pea brainsd idiots HAISBAJSBXJ #sorry thats mean..... 💖 but some ppl r maliciously ignorant fr

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ok so.

when i do things, i somehow feel required to do everything efficiently and perfectly.

whether its a new hobby, or simply cleaning up, i feel this need to research how to use my time the most efficient way because it would be a waste otherwise, wouldn't it?

but thats obviously bullshit.

for one, doing everything perfectly and efficiently takes a lot of mental planning and energy AND it makes things simply unfun.

which is the best way to make me not do those things.

"theres no point in doing that if im not doing it perfectly and efficiently. why waste my energy doing a suboptimal strategy of learning a new skill? why waste my energy to only take out cardboard when i could take out ALL the trash at once?" > this is capitalist brainwashing speaking. do not trust this voice.

so ive been learning japanese. and i know whats the "best" way to learn it. i know whats most "efficient". guess what? i dont wanna. i just dont. im doing this for fun. currently im basically just doing a bunch of anki decks. been doing anki for 3 months now. like, continuously. ive NEVER done everything for that long continuously before.

so doing this works for me. if i were to change what i was doing to the most "optimal" way id lose interest and would stop doing it. which is like the opposite of what i want.

so.

do whatever you want to. its okay.

#im having 7 anki decks and im actually enjoying myself #yea i should do more immersion and practice speaking and pitch accent and hello talk and--- #yea no i dont wanna im having fun now and im actually DOING it #tho i did start reading manga #but im not forcing myself #and it works #incredible #and like #im learning this for my own fun and my own enjoyment #who cares if i stop or dont become fluent within the next 10 yrs #literally doesnt matter at all #what matters is having fun #(for hobbies i mean) #and the same with my lyre harp #im not planning to be a professional musician #just having fun?

[starlightkun]

HOLY SHIT YOU HAVE ADHD AS WELL?! I JUST STARTED RITALIN THIS MONTH HOLY SHIT

Its crazy finding out so many people I admire have adhd as well. A youtuber i watch (jessica kellgren fozard) also found out she had adhd recently and i also found out that park bom has it and ive always felt really connected and sympathetic of her struggles. I guess since our brains all function similarly, we probably found the way others with adhd talk and present themselves easier to understand and more relatable even if we had such different lives and interests. It makes me feel less alone and really protected knowing that there are successful and lovely people who have succeeded without sacrificing any of the traits in myself which I used to hate and instead outwardly projecting and celebrating it as part of them.

It makes me feel really hopeful for the future since ive been surrounded by so many really driven and successful people at school and was beating myself up for things that I didnt know was adhd.

p.s. im so happy that adderall is working so well for you, im starting at low doses of ritalin at the moment and was facing quite a bit of side effects which were quite tough but you being so happy with your results makes me more optimistic and excited about continuing this process.

-✨anon

omg i love jessica kellgren-fozard! and yeah, i was technically diagnosed w adhd in 2017 but my psychiatrist never actually told me or (allegedly) my mom. and my psychologist at the time looked me in the eyes and told me i dont have it. but i've been struggling a lot recently with just doing daily functioning tasks, and i've related to ppl w diagnosed adhd for so long i've always suspected i had it?? so i recently requested my medical records from my old adolescent psychiatrist and literally first session in 2017 she diagnosed me w adhd primarily inattentive type. and just didn't fucking tell me. so i finally got a new psychiatrist and he was like "oh yeah lol let's get u on some adderall rn wtf"

yesterday was just day 1 on the lowest adult dose tho and i am having some side effects (suppressed appetite, sleep disturbances) but they're pretty manageable imo. im used to a depressed appetite from another medication so i have strategies for nutrition like this, and hopefully that and the sleep will even out after a little while (even if they dont, it's worth it imo. like i simply cannot keep living like i have been. i had a cardboard box from an online order sitting on my living room floor for 5 months bc i just. couldnt pick it up for some reason. i didnt have the pick-up-the-cardboard-box button in my brain. for 5 months. but yesterday i threw that out and cleaned my whole kitchen easy peasy.)

i really hope you get your medication sorted out! i know the struggles of adjusting meds, and side effects, and switching, and the like (i think i've tried like 10? for my chronic migraines in 2 years) and ik it can rlly suck :// but i wish you the best!!! we've got this!

#answered #✨ anon #talk #text #mine #not nct

[mattynmarns]

late night thoughts about rpf and reading/writing it in the tags lol

#when i read/write rpf its only really because im using/envisioning the people as preestablished characters #like its so much easier to write rpf becuase everyone knows what the people look like and everyone has a general outline of that person #and thats like most of the character setting for the story #and the other thing about rpf is that bc theyre real people and often times creators form the internet #there's a lot about their story or personality that are just unknown to everyone #which is perfectly heathy for a internet creator to not share every moment of their life #but just like how with documovies like bohemrasp or lincoln there's a lot of room to work with and create your own narrative #while still maintaining a very obviously three dimensional character #its like three dimensional character that you dont have to character build #unlike a book/fictional character who has a goal(s) and their whole journey is to reach that goal(s) #real people have a lot more to them #and that's always implied when writing rpf but not 'normal' fiction #but yeah when i write rpf im not imagining that it actually happened #im taking the real person as i know them and im almost uploading that data to my brain as a fictional character #they have the same face and general personality and goals #but they're completely different bc the written one is still two dimensional at the end of the day #theyre just a better cardboard cut out #anyways ive been reading heat waves from the dream smp thing and just having thoughts bc its a topic in that fandom #of course dont write fic about people that said no #but yeah this is my thought process otherwise

[retrievaldivision]

sometimes a mentally ill addict side character can be something that is so personal

🥴🥳listen here🥳🥴

some lyric annotations under the cut ☺️

last words of a shooting star - mitski

i always wanted to die clean and pretty

lonely boy goes to a rave - teen suicide

lonely boy has a plan / take some drugs to make new friends

7 mins in heaven (atavan halen) - fob

i'm sleeping my way out of this one / with anyone who will lie down / ill be stuck fixating on one star / when the world is crashing down

a tale told by an idiot - john congleton

i'm not living like i should leave no witness / i keep showing up in life leave no witness / a neverending song, i'm heading for the most predictable cadence

the bidding - tally hall

i've been sleeping in a cardboard box / spending all my money at the liquor shop / and even though i know i havent got a lot / i'll try to give you love until the day you drop / ive been training like a pavlov dog / let my independence out to take a hike

come back - alex g

yeah i didnt get it right but i was almost there / wish i could come back down / wish i could come back down / wish i could touch the ground

sarah - alex g

i can't be what you need / i am stuck in a dream i am stuck in a dream / don't you know shes been here all along? / in a dream, she belongs in a dream

alex - teen suicide

alex is the best / when she wants to die / the whole world sits and waaiiitttss / till she doesnt want to die

crooked teeth - death cab

i braved treacherous streets / and kids strung out on homemade speed / and we shared a bed in which i could not sleep at all

brand new city - mitski

i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die / honey what'd you take what'd you take / honey look at me and tell me what you took / what'd you take?

benzo - teen suicide

and i can't remember my name / when i was young i never had any fun

ray of light - madonna

faster than the speed of light shes flying / trying to remember where it all began

dont ask me to explain - of montreal

id like to marry all of my close friends / live in a big house by an angry sea / am i the devils marbles dont move on without me / who will be watching my body when i sleep? who will i believe in?

glass & patron - fka twigs

do you have a lighter? / am i dancing sexy yet? / are you watching me cuz i move alone / look a little harder / everything i own is wet / and ive never tasted glass and patron

doing all the things i used to do with people - teen suicide

i wont get clean / for the rest of my life

sportstar - alex g & porches

my dream / let me play on your team / i'm clean / let me tie your nikes

heaven is a bedroom - tv girl

i was nervous that this was as good as i could ever feel / and i was right / i confess to thinking sex was my salvation / when really they just start with the letter s / you'll forgive me for thinking heaven was her bedroom / it's as close as i would ever get

crack baby - mitski

crack baby you dont know what you want / but you know that you had it once and you know that you want it back / crack baby you dont know what you want / but you know that youre needing it and you know that you need it bad

#one day i'll write my ron meta analysis on here and it will be so much #anyways Think About Him. #ronald knox #kuroshitsuji #black butler

[pilotheather]

hey i never really watched or followed the chibnall era what was wrong with his writing that made people happy he’s gone

i think this will get you different opinions based on who you ask.

a LOT of people were extremely unhappy with the s12 timeless child plot twist. which, if you don't know: basically he redestroyed gallifrey, and revealed the doctor is not a timelord at all, but was instead the progenitor OF the timelords (a child that kept regenerating, even when they died) and that she was tortured on as a child, being repeatedly killed to realise the secret behind her regenerative abilities, to create the timelord race and then had her mind wiped.

which, im not a fan of. some ppl are? but mostly it panned: lots of ppl are unhappy, bc theyre saying it's "ruining the lore"; personally i dont mind since dw is fast and loose with its canon - and im moreso unhappy about centreing the doctor as, like, the big important chosen one in the universe (like blech) bc its just such a stale narrative decision.

but even before that there was a lot of criticism of chibnalls writing. and again: ur gonna get different opinions on who you ask. there's, uh, for example... a LOT of ppl (off tumblr, mostly) who tout it as sjw bullshit (yawn) bc of jodie and the diverse tardis team. that's bs outrage over nowt, ofc. but like- other than that its just... the writing. yeah, some ppl like it but ik a lot are unahppy with it for different reasons.

and to, like, summarise my own thoughts on chibbers writing: there's LOTS of little things that sort of build up for me. but at the crux of it? personally i dont think the man can write sci-fi - like, at all. thats my own personal main gripe with him. i hear he's good at straightforward drama: whilst ive never seen broadchurch myself, a lot of ppl whose opinions i trust liked it well enough; and furthermore, when it came to torchwood, he did have one or two eps in there that i liked in premise. however, when it comes to sci-fi, i respectfully think he just flounders. like he just cant integrate those other skills he has into a scifi story. the tardis was super overcrowded in s11&s12 (and that brought its own issues) but even still it was sort of... laughable, how much development the companions got. a lot of the time they'd sit there like pints of milk and just?? not really do anything? it got a little better in s12- but its like... he doesnt know how to handle a sci-fi storyline, whilst also exploring the characters in tandem and its like theyre just theyre as objects to move things along. its really fuckin weird.

like, in the most recent episode (last years NY's special, Revolution of the Daleks) the pacing was so strange. there's this whole section in the middle of all the action, where they just STOP and talk inside of the tardis. and don't get me wrong - i dont mind a heart to heart! but a lot of the companions are, like, purely telling and not showing their personality msot of the time - and thats it! its so... stale. they just stand around, state something about themselves and then just do nothing half the time? bc he just doesn't know how to use them in the stories. unlike in rtd or moffat era, where you'd have the companions jumping in and actually interacting with stuff- you'd know its just... like theyre being swept away by the plot. and you could frankly cut them out of almost all of the episodes, replace them with a sonic screwdriver or some other technobabble and it just wouldnt make any damn difference to the vibe of the ep, which is a shame bc they had PROMISE as ideas but they just don't pull their weight.

and i think that's just... super unfortunate. bc a lot of the pull with nuwho especially IS the companions and their personalities and when theyre just flat cardboard cutouts its got no energy. not to mention, like, the companions really facilitate a lot of the plots themselves- not the other way round! having companions ask questions, explore, and make decisions and react to stuff... that's IMPORTANT to really realising a lot of it. there's been a lot of times in eps where i was watching it and i just WANTED desperately for one of them to do something, to ask the doctor about it but like... she kind of just stands around and talks to herself? then there's a canned comment abt how theyre the #fam? its like. ok.

and then its like- maybe if they were being pushed to the side, and the show was servicing plot over characters that would be ONE thing but its also like i get a LOT of insecurity in general from chris when it comes to sci-fi writing, too. which ok, dude. but its like- he'll introduce a concept, but never fully explore it; he'll just drop it, and introduce something else; and then drop that and move on. and its like... we dont get any actual playing with whats going on? its like-

its just all... ultimately very superficial. like ai generated doctor who. i dont want to say it hasnt got heart, but sometimes it really feels like it you know? and a lot of it is just.. flat. because you can bring in lots of cool stuff (visuals, bring back jack, build a found family type, give us a fun quirky doctor) but if you just don't actually put work into making it all happen then its just going to be like, pretty wrapping paper on an empty box, yeah? and so its like- its like theres PIECES in a lot of s11 and s12 that are right, and they're fine, and they could make for good stories but he just doesn't know how to use them. like, at all.

and there's honestly like. a lot of other... smaller things that i could mention. i feel like theres just like... lots of little issues wrong with it all, but theyre all so fundamental and they all just build up and its just- it just culminates in bad writing, man. not moffat type of bad. but just... nothing interesting at best; frustrating at worst.

ofc theres ppl who will disagree with me and like it and thats fine. and theres also ppl who will have other things they dont like abt it that they can bring up. i would advise lookin thru ppl talking abt it on here more, omg. get a nice lil crossection of all the little messes ppl babble on abt.

#egg yells back

[minicy]

Ive been thinking about clothes today.

I have a sweatshirt I bought from the h&m men's section when I was a freshman in high school. Wore it constantly too. I still have it, though now the wrists are a bit stretched out and theres stains on the sleeves and the inside is all chewed up like old sweatshirts always get after you wash that fleecy inside part hundreds of times. I've worn this sweatshirt to events and around the house and to visit friends I dont know anymore and to places I'll probably never go again. I met people while wearing this sweatshirt, people whose names escape me now and whose lives I'll never know. So many things in life have come and gone and this dumb sweatshirt's held out longer than all of them. I bought it out of desperation, it was so cold that day and I had nothing with me. My friend i was with had just transferred schools, she wasnt in high school yet and i had just gotten to it. Now she's a mother. This sweatshirt is not only older than my friend's child, its older than her relationship with her partner. This piece of cheap cloth made by underpaid and overworked laborers in Malaysia has been in my life longer than I've known I was gay. And I'm wearing it now, too! It's comfortable. Nice. Clean. It smells like my room here in Oregon and the cardboard box I kept it in on the drive here and the closet in Brooklyn i kept it in before that, a closet I will never see again in an apartment I'll never live in again.

Clothes, just regular clothes, plain things, like this heather-grey cowl-neck sweatshirt, unremarkable in every way, don't usually mean a lot. Favorite clothes, though, worn things, worn in so many ways, mean something, and old favorite clothes mean so much more.

I see a shirt, a jacket, a hat, and I can't help but to think about everybody who's worn that. What has that garment seen? Was it loved? The wear and tear on a well-used pocket, the sticky zipper on a tired coat, an old flannel with new buttons. And in sharp contrast, a wrinkled tag on a shirt that smells like mothballs and dust. A never-opened bag containing a spare button, tucked into the pocket of denim begging to be made threadbare after years of waiting. A leather boot that has more creases from the fold of its packaging, that's never known a long walk through nature or through cities or through farms, that is crying out to be used, finally, by somebody who can give it those creases it was made to carry.

No object holds more meaning than that which we give it, but to me, there is something deeply personal about clothes.

#my own ramblings #sorry everybody i know its long but UGH i am just thinking A LOT about clothes #writing #but first let me take a selfie

[quanxui]

tagged by @honeymeh thank you minnie! i love ur name and url <33

tagging (pls dont feel like u have to!): @fazaleas @akaashirin @volexis @silkylious @sophie-writings @lambotski @animatedarchives @applepienation @bakuushi @heartjime

preferred name. lois! but im fine with people calling me mari from marilags, that is so darned cute.

birthday. 19th november

where do you live. im still residing in my small cardboard box.

three things you're doing rn. eating breakfast, writing an essay in my head, marvelling over brown eggs (they look so pretty!)

fandoms. pjo, haikyuu, bnha, mp100, free!. im not that active with kpop fandoms anymore but i still try to keep up with svt, exo, red velvet and day6

how has the pandemic treated you. at first i thought there would be no difference from last year cause i was quarantined last year for health purposes but now im just desperate to roll around mountains, parks, and golf parks lmao. i miss my friends too. i haven't been out the house for soooo long!

a song you can't stop listening to. stay stay stay by taylor swift

recommend a movie. i love movies so im giving three! goyo: the boy general, the illusionist and mustang (it's the turkish film)

age. 19

school, uni, occupation, other. last year of hs! (if ur wondering, i stopped school last year to recover from my physical injuries!)

do you prefer heat or cold. hot/heat!! i love the sun and i enjoy food especially when it's still warm or hot!! tbh i dont enjoy ice cream that much because well, it's cold!!

name a fact others might not know about you. umm, i enjoy being put in social situations! going to/organizing meetings, organizing programs, mingling with other people to gain more connections, helping other people, working on paperworks, stepping out of my comfort zone... i love that!!

are you shy. online, yes. and...i am really shy in person but i cover that with enthusiasm and all in an effort to improve myself so i'm not really seen as shy now

preferred pronouns. she/they

pet peeves. people not closing damned doors and people not wearing a mask and a face shield

fave "-dere" type. tsundere ??

life rn. that cartoon dog surrounded by fire as he sips from his mug meme

main blog. this one!

sideblogs. @marilags @loisfics (just an archive/reblogs blog for all my old kpop fics ive salvaged around tumblr)

what you need to know before becoming my friend. im no good with chats/texts, im really dry and my head is always up in the clouds hahaha but know that despite us not interacting a lot, we're friends and i adore you!!! ✨

#tagged!

[just-zenitsu]

Zenitsu should've had an arc where he slowly learns how to love himself with the help of his friends and realizes he's not weak and has worth and doesn't deserve pain and doesn't deserve to be treated like shit- I just want him to have some shred of confidence please please please please please ple-

ok so every time i had an ask like this ive always just said ‘but look at the bright side! what are hc and aus for! gotoge had problems,, etc etc’ and i feel like ive always just glossed u guys over and maybe even made it seem like these opinions dont matter so im gonna take the time to try and answer this a smidge seriously (under read more bc its long, also im not tagging bc tumblr might fuck up the formatting again rip) (also warning for manga spoilers)

(also disclaimer sdjfhksd i havent read the manga! so im gonna go off of other people’s claims about zenitsu having wasted potential. and to be fair ive read the few last chapters, or at least PARTS of them) 

im not new to having a favorite character whose more or less claimed to have had a lot of potential but losing it in canon bc of, for a lack of a more general term, ‘’bad writing’’. and im not saying kny has bad writing, i dont think im one to judge that JUST yet but for comparison yall should know that i have a fav character in another series that is written so badly that he has the personality of cardboard and was only given life thanks to fanon content. and i dont blame people when they say they dont like said character! its the same as zenitsu, only that this guy, this yellow idiot, actually has a much more solid grasp on how he acts/feels/does things! but more often than not, this linear perspective does damage to how deep his character actually goes, thus just making him the stereotypical ‘pervert’ in an anime. ive seen people say that he’s just the same as mineta!!! which is just. very sad for me

i understand why they’d think like that though, maybe there wouldve been a difference if kny became more popular b4 bnha, but who knows! anyways, back to zenitsu. now, i understand if people ever found his actions uncomfortable or annoying! but when people say that he’s just a crybaby and that he’s literally just dead weight that’s when i get,,, well, iffy. and this is kinda where the frustration comes, we see zenitsu overcoming these obstacles off screen, apparently it was even only just mentioned in a passing comment that zenitsu had stopped having to fall asleep to do missions and cried less when he was going on solo missions. these are the tidbits that i wish was shown more explicitly in canon, showcasing his growth and such. MAYBE it was touched upon once kaigaku came up, but thats another problem, literally kaigaku only showed up once in a flashback and then suddenly he’s a demon? sure a brief flashback that showed him being in gyomei’s orphanage wouldve been enough to put some light, but i think there was still some things that wasnt touched upon when we discuss how kaigaku was portrayed in canon. i think he’s even MORE misunderstood compared to zenitsu. they have (arguably) been in the same situation in their childhood, have drastically different personalities and dealt with it in their own way, but in the end i think he was just used so that zenitsu had a big bad he had to defeat. i think there wouldve been more impact if we were shown thunder fam interacting more, imagine how cool that wouldve been, ESPECIALLY if kaigaku just wasnt thrown into the manga and was given a chance to interact with kamaboko before hand. just, a lot to think about.

and now we have what happened in the last few chapters, w tanjirou becoming a demon and after all that zenitsu just says something along the lines of ‘ill make u pay for hurting me and my future wife (nezuko)’ which sucks to a degree. but count the fact that gotoge was inching towards zennezu, as i mentioned in a previous post, he was worried about nezuko getting hurt by tanjirou. im also a bit disappointed that he didnt really do much in terms of, well, caring for tanjirou, but one GOOD thing that i really liked happening was in the previous chapters bEFORE tan got turned to a demon, the part w him assuring inosuke that he can still hear tanjirou’s heartbeat, and then consecutively screaming at tanjirou that he had to stay alive, he went as far to say that he hears nezuko’s human heartbeat and that he has a family to return to, which was, surprise surprise, apparently somewhat a LIE! i cant confirm this unfortunately since ive long since lost the explanation but someone said that zenitsu wasnt actually able to hear nezuko’s heartbeat then, meaning he lied for tanjirou’s sake bc he knew that if he’d pull through something, he’d pull through it for nezuko. (there’s also that part where zenitsu fought hard to keep this family alive since well, he doesnt have one to return to, which is just. ouch) another thing i liked about this part is that he wasnt!!! crying!!!, but both inosuke and tanjirou were and dont u just love the irony. dont u just love it when zenitsu, resident crybaby of the demon slayer corps, is the one who shouts at the both of his friends, who are usually the ones pushing him, yelling at him to stop sniveling and fight, to raise their chins up and to not give up? i think these few moments are JUST ABSOLUTELY TASTY. 

but. unfortunately, they are glossed over once we have what happened in chapter 203.

tl/dr; zenitsu’s character is something much more than a crybaby who’s a pervert and annoying. these points overshadow the fact that he’s a kind person, who was willing to protect nezuko despite knowing she was a demon just BECAUSE he trusted tanjirou that much and that he had a kind sound! he’s willingly THROWN HANDS when someone talked bad about kaigaku, a person he ADMITTED HE HATES, because he respects them as a person! zenitsu is much more than a crybaby who’s a pervert and annoying. if only canon were able to explain much more clearly than these few tidbits that we were given.

//im crying at the club im so sorry this is so long oh god oh fuck. anyways ive been disappointed time and time again and ive long since really stopped looking forward to the best to my fav characters and ive been p negative in previous fandoms so its why i avoided complaining like this in this blog but yeah kjfhkjsdf thank u for reading,,, 

[mrs-mikko-rantanen]

ocean asks all of them except for tropic. Not having that kind of negativity in this house.

Damn anon ok also thank you 💚💙💚

pearl: if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?

Honestly Canada. Specifically somewhere I can see the northern lights. Thats all ive ever wanted, ever since I was a little kid.

sails: describe your perfect partner.

Caring. Kind. Understanding. Funny. Gentle.

lighthouse: how much makeup do you wear?

On average none. But every once in a while I'll do some eyeshadow and I'm getting into eyeliner. I miss lipstick. (My mom got me a replica 1940's lipstick colorr for Christmas bc I love vintage makeup and im obsessed)

shells: would you prefer to be a vampire or a werewolf?

Werewolf.

mermaid: most embarrassing moment?

Once when I was about 12 I got my arms stuck in one of those giant cardboard tubes people use to ship/store posters like a giant Chinese finger trap. Also I accidentally threw up on a cat once.

turquoise: weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

When I was 4? I had a dream my family was being chased across the country by Gollum and I had to defend us with a mop by using it like a lance/swatting at him.

waves: favourite season and why?

Fall bc cozy and crisp and I love the colors

breakers: would you ever consider getting married?

Yes I really want to get married and sometimes I get really stressed out that im not married yet

seafoam: describe your ideal summer vacation.

Lots of hiking, camping and spending tine on a lake. Maybe a classic California road trip where I get to see the sea again.

rain: if it were possible, what exotic animal would you keep as a pet?

Dalmatians but they aren't real. I've always really liked griffins, but I think really a bear maybe? Like one that I raised from a cub and could cuddle. :)

sunlight: least favourite song?

I fckn hate that song Pontune and I cannot express why. Also Fight Song.

marine: would you ever consider plastic surgery?

No not really. Just not my speed.

sea glass: what do you consider to be your best physical feature?

I really love my eyes. 💙💙💙

storm: do you like piercings and tattoos? Why or why not?

Yes!! I have my ears pierced (just a standard lobe piercing) but I kinda want another one. I have at least....3? tattoos I want but idk if I'll ever get them bc I'm horribly afraid of needles

boardwalk: who is your favourite fictional couple?

Jace and Nyar. And Bob and Linda from Bobs burgers.

coral: if you had to describe your personality as a food, what would you be and why?

A classic backyard barbeque hamburger. No I will not elaborate 😂

nymph: old-fashioned or modern decor? 

Both? Mostly old fashioned I guess.

seawater: scariest movie you’ve ever watched?

I really hated Signs so so much as a kid so ive kinda avoided scary movies since that. Funny since I willingly go ghost hunting 😂

siren: in a fantasy setting, would you be a warrior, rogue or mage?

I think probably a warrior.

tempest: your favourite Pokemon?

I dont know any of them except Bulbasour and hes the cutest :)

aquamarine: describe your dream date.

I used to think it was walking around a carnival/amusement park and enjoying things dressed up all cute and 1940s style and then listening to Etta James' At Last on the Ferris wheel to wrap up the night; but the last time I rode a ferris wheel with my cousins I was embarrassingly stressed out so like........my ideal day-dream date has been shattered and I don't know what to do 😂

brine: gold or silver?

Hm. Silver probably.

tidal: what is a colour that best describes your personality?

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Pale blue.

azure: what is something that you do that makes you happy?

Spending time with my family.

fog: describe where you think you’ll be in five years.

Oh god i don't even know. They asked me this at my job interview and I sorta panicked because I have no idea.

coastline: what is your favourite flower?

Poppies :)

shallows: what is your typical Starbucks order?

Starbucks specifically? Usually a London fog with almond milk. Any other coffee shop is a black coffee; or a black coffee with a scoop of honey.

voyage: what are your favourite names?

Wesley, Lauralie, and any flower name.

shipwreck: do you have an OC? If so, describe them.

👀y'all.

cerulean: do you believe in true love?

Yes

shoreline: if you could become fluent in another language, which would you pick and why?

I've always really wanted to learn Chinese. I can't explain why exactly; I just really want to know how to speak it.

tsunami: describe a dream outfit of yours.

Right now anything that makes me look like a member of NCT that got lost and is trying to find his way back to the group. (Casually rocking a bit of a Ten inspired look right now and very happy about it) My like...dream outfit right now is cargo pants, oversized sweater, black bucket hat, and some of those Samsung ear buds that are wireless and metallic colored and look like the ones they wear on stage when they preform.

riptide: are you introverted or extroverted? Are you happy with this?

Introverted. Its got its ups and downs.

hurricane: describe a strange habit of yours.

Oh boy. If something makes a sound, I have to let it make that sound 3 times. (If the microwave doesnt beep 3 times then the food isn't hot)also if I think of something I want to remember while someone is talking but don't want to interrupt them I'll tap the tip of my nose. This one has bled onto my mom and sister.

#hoo boy #thanks anon #💙💚💙 #this helped the 'im famous' vibe lol 😂😂😂😂😂😂