#just me having fiction in my brain.

[timewarshenanigans10]

Thoughts

Bens meeting each other respective Rook impressed and awkward at the same time.

NegaRook in my AU a flirt and the rival of our goth ben. Just constantly whispers to some Bens some bed workouts he will give them as he sees fit, and just compliments all their beauty and charms.

While the other Rooks are seething in anger. He grins at them mocking at their attempts, giving Mad a peek at his lip.

#brooken #mad ben #benrook #omniboyfriends #ben 10 au #negarook #nega ben #ben prime #benzarro #ben 23 #bad ben #just me having fiction in my brain.

[egophiliac]

C'MON TO THE THEATER!

I love these guys so much. forget NRC, I want to attend their terrible disaster school for disaster children that might actually be plastered on top of the smoking remains of an actively sinking ship. I may or may not actually learn anything, but I will have the time of my life.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #stage in playful land #stage in playfulland #unique magic posters #so it was fellow after all and not gidel? whoops #i was merely overthinking it #me? overthink fictional characters? surely not #god though #i can't not love a guy who gets the cutest most adorable power #and instantly goes 'i shall use this for Crimes' #also every time he was like 逃げる! my brain auto-translated it as CHEESE IT! #accompanied by twst's running-away sound effect which is just the quintessential sound of someone cheesing it #if i could have (1) twst spinoff it would be the adventures of these two idiots trying to do an education #they would have a stodgy bureaucrat antagonist who keeps trying to catch them in their sleazy corner-cutting ways and shut them down #(OF COURSE there would be a bit where they are trying to host an unforgettable luncheon but egads! their roast is ruined!) #and all while they're trying to evade being hunted down by the playful land investors #the hijinks would be SO wacky you guys #i've made myself sad now because this will never exist #it's real in my HEART

[endivinity]

i think the most bizarre reaction to seeing fanart (other than going "i thought this was [totally unrelated thing that it doesnt even look like]') is to go 'this isn't canon'. like.... yeah it's not supposed to be?

people have headcanons! there are also different interpretations of unclear or hard-to-quantify-exact-meaning canon!

but it doesn't even have to be a headcanon. art is an exploration of thoughts and concepts. it's an expression of creativity. sometimes it's just a fun exercise. for fun. any time i see someone go 'thats not what really happened' i dont think 'aw shit i got it so wrong', i think: wheres your joie de vivre. your whimsy. embrace things that arent real

#i am in part guilty of this bc i have like a whole section of my brain chemically wired around deathclaws so i get it but also like #i only do that when conversation is brought up and actively involves me #i dont just go on someone's post and go THATS NOT REAL bc whats the point?? what are you achieving with that attitude #it's fiction! none of this is real! #destiny2 fandom is full of this in particular though and like. you can just not say anything. if you dont like the post dont engage with it

[intotheelliwoods]

the out of nowhere urge to make a very heartfelt fma comic with more effort in it than I usually put into comics

#nonsense #you never would have guessed #but its about hands- #and characters being huggytouchy- #this is just my thing guys leave me alone #I love physical touch in fiction to a horrifying degree LMAO #anyways I had this idea for it in my brain for months #oh well

[defiledtomb]

Ouroboros is updated! FORUM POST ||  PLAY DEMO HERE

In this update:

- Fuck around, find out (New intro-path)

- Fuck (A full flashback chapter with L)

- oh, fuck. (Meet Lena and hear her out)

I am sorry that my progress has been so hidden and so angsty. I promise that I am trying my best, and man, I will never get used to being so public about it. Thank you, dearly, honestly, so very much, for your support and patience. I couldn’t have done any of this without you.

I will answer asks in any spare time I have, with every ounce of energy I can muster!

#ouroboros-if #interactive fiction #choicescript #hosted games #please check the forum for more info (I have a really high fever and my energy drained while updating the demo. forgive me) #i truly hope you enjoy! i know it is not everything I promised but it just goes to show that I should not promise so much #the rest of act 1 is coming as soon as I go on vacay and rest up. I literally can't look at the story right now my brain is so fried #I just have to edit it and the next update is ready #but for now this will have to do. still over 50k of content!

[ineffablefool]

gahhhh the last few weeks I have been starving for fics or art where Aziraphale is clearly, legitimately fat (with adoring attention paid to his physical features which are associated with said fatness) and also clearly, legitimately loved ("desired" would be okay but oh give me cherished, give me treasured and held dear and, again, adored)

and I know that this is one of those things where I should just be the change I want to see in the world, but the last few weeks I have also been [flops face-first onto bed and doesn't move for 45 minutes], so clearly that is not happening

#ineffablefool original post #i am just a lonely lil dude who is fat and who has not had that sort of love since 2006 #and has to live vicariously through fictional characters who definitely did not sign up to be my emotional support blorbos #don't mind me #(covid needs to be over already so I can go back to having an incredibly small chance of being smooched someday rather than absolutely zero) #not good omens #i guess? related but not quite there #vent post #i also guess #with the tags and all #anyway this is where my brain has been for a while in case anyone was wondering

[queerofthedagger]

my 'hey yes we have an all-consuming brainrot going but let's try and do something actually productive this week that I'm having off of work' project is sorting through my bookshelves, rigorously throwing things out (little miss I own over a thousand books in my one-room apartment is reaching the breaking point aka I'm finally and utterly running out of space) and i think i threw out almost a hundred books today and it's still not anywhere close for sorting shelves by genre without having to stack and put things second row. how am I supposed to live like this

#*mine #mona rambles #I've already put a book buying ban on myself until i catch up with my tbr of owned books #unfortunately for me then tolkien took over my brain so while i /am/ only more or less buying my 2 allowed books per month #they're all his stuff and I'm not making a dent in said tbr at all while also having very little hope that this is going to change anytime #soon #i do have a rough sorting now by like.... #fantasy / other fiction / queer + feminist + antiracist theory / other non-fiction / poetry / classics / philosophy / language + travel /et #but it's really more of a suggestion and really testing the limits of like.... shelf space lmao #i'll have to catalogue all of it too once i'm done to see what my actual tbr is at and like. man. terrifying #but also i just think someone should pay me money in exchange for 5-50k words per month so that i can move and have a library. it's time

[fierrochase-falafel]

Reasons I love Xie Lian's character

Maybe this is more of a personal post, but I really appreciate Xie Lian's characterisation and his character arc because of his humanity. He's grown up being seen as special and different, and he really was special and different, and yet is shown at his lowest, falling all the way down from his position to rockbottom and he STILL makes it out alive. Not even alive by choice, but he makes it out nonetheless. And everyday he has to make the choice to see the good in humanity, after having been exposed to the worst human responses and knowing the extent of the damage he and others can do under certain circumstances. Even when he seemed perfect, he never was, and when he seemed despicable, he wasn't that either. He's jaded but not inconsiderate, angry but not vengeful or brash, guilty but slowly learning to love himself. He has the potential to be the most fearsome calamity or the most powerful god, but he decides to spend his time in a little shrine he built himself with his ghost king boyfriend. He can be cold, he can be cunning, he can be naive, he can be reckless, he can be clumsy and he can be stubborn. He can have so many flaws that may go under the radar, so many virtues that go unappreciated by the people around him. He can be the kindest or most scary person you would ever meet, and the only thing stopping him from being the latter is his will to choose to be kind. He is complicated, like a walking oxymoron. And he is traumatised, and he is repressed, and he is trying- he is still trying after everything. He is one of the most human characters I have read despite being an immortal, and gives you the hope that in the face of everything in all its complexity, our choices matter and we as people matter too, no matter how awful our position may be. Maybe the compassion of even 1 other person we meet could be the thing that saves us after all, and maybe no matter what, we're never too far gone.

#xie lian #tgcf #tgcf meta #if you can even call it that #just-- the crux of what I love about what Xie Lian represents as a man who's essentially a paradox yet completely makes sense #and don't even get me started on his internal sarcasm I've already got like 10 posts on that #Xie Lian's complexity feels like a genuine insight into a human being...something often hard to get from talking to people in real life #because he's fictional and all #there's something beautiful about getting to see the best and the worst of him because we accept him as having the capacity for both #hope #nighttime thoughts perhaps #in the face of nihilism I'm out here using Xie Lian as a shield- #if he can find something worth trying for at the literal end of book 4 then yk what so can I...I can try #also see: me when I rewatch the eighth sense and then reflect on what I get out tgcf and t8s #shoutout to the eighth sense and jihyun and jaewon and who they are to each other and also ofc shoutout to kiki #posts originating from my brain

[surreal-duck]

treasure

#regularly scheduled mdyzs as the chokehold they have on me is . yeah #duck scribbles #doodles #midoyuzu #yuzumido #enstars #ensemble stars #from another drawing session w a friend hi ducky if u see this ily <3 #yuzuru fushimi #midori takamine #damn if theres one thing keeping me going lately its fake scenarios and random thoughts abt these two #my mental health has dropped Severely as of late ! god forbid a duck be happy and content i guess #okay now it also just struck me that huh i sure draw them a lot huh #i feel kinda bad but also who cares. i like them a lot and im making that everyone elses problem #though another kinda funny thing to me is that doodling them a lot kinda did make me like my art a bit more. idk makes me happy seeing my #own dumb doodles of them or whatever and im not really in a position to be picky so #thanks for that fictional characters in my brain

[partialresonance]

I don't know how people deal with watching Fellow Travelers without writing fanfiction about it, I think it's the only thing keeping me alive

#I have two brain cells left and their names are Tim and Hawk #fellow travelers #hawk x tim #tim laughlin #hawkins fuller #i just need my boys to be happy and together #they're fictional characters they can't hurt me #yeah right

[novafire-is-thinking]

Last week, this post made it to my dash, and it reminded me of the experience I had a little over a week ago:

I woke up early in the morning with sleep paralysis, and in the middle of my twilight sleep panic, SOUNDWAVE showed up.

I’m dead serious—I remember him looking at me, and he didn’t have his visor on, so I immediately recognized him as my Soundwave.

And he proceeded to TELL me what to say to break the paralysis.

​I don’t remember exactly what he told me, and I chalk that up to my disorientation because Hello??? Soundwave is here????? Talking to me???

But I remember being desperate, and I wasn’t about to say no to Soundwave. lol

So I said the words as loudly as I could in my head, and within seconds, I was free.

It was…an experience, to say the least.

I’m still lowkey freaked out that it happened…but you know what? I’m glad The Blorbo in my head is finally paying rent. It took him long enough. zhdhfkgk

Thanks for the help, Soundwave.

#I’ve officially reached a whole new level of brainrot #I’m out here having spiritual experiences (ʘ‿ʘ) #I strongly prefer rational explanations for things but I’m also spiritually inclined and a bit superstitious #so this weird experience is throwing me for a loop #I’m aware of the brain mechanics behind sleep paralysis #but I’ve had sleep paralysis experiences before and this is the first time someone (real or fictional) SPOKE to me #I know it could just be my mind using an advanced trick to recalibrate itself to waking reality #but I can’t bring myself to rule out other meta possibilities just yet #I have. so many questions. #nf.note

[steakout-05]

autistic coded men who have orange cats my beloved

#star trek tng #star trek #star trek data #garfield #garfield jon #jon arbuckle #jetpack joyride #professor brains #jetpack joyride 2 #this is my type. weird silly or otherwise quirky guys who have orange cats #brains being autistic is more just a headcanon i have rather than deliberate coding #but he's been shown to have a few autism-like behaviours and traits across the shorts and jetpack joyride 2 #it's kinda stereotypical but he's more of a logical simple thinker and he finds strings of numbers to be easier to remember than names #which i find to be interesting! he just has different thinking patterns from what i've seen in neurotypicals. and it's like. #it's the autism radar. i can always tell when a fictional character seems to be Not Neurotypical because holy shit they act like me- #-or another autistic person i know! #also all these characters are like. different facets of autism and i think that's so interesting #on the left we have highly logical direct and ''idk what to do with my face or my hands help'' sherlock spin autism #and then there's slightly unhinged dorky possible ADHD combo and complete lack of social skills autism #and finally there's the evil autism #and i love all three of them <3 #i just realised they're also all sitting in big comfy chairs! #jon's armchair looks so comfy though. like i really wanna sit in there #it's probably slightly dirty and most definitely scratched up by garfield but my god that's what make it more homely and comfy #i wonder how many armchairs jon has gotten over the years. i should count all the instances of him having a differently coloured armchair #anyway yeah. autistic cat dads my beloved <3

[grey-has-rusted]

what they don't tell you about life is that it's hard. woe is me

#ramblings #yes. i logged onto tumblr just to complain. #i have not been having a good time irl </3 #guys am i cooked? i wake up everyday with a heavy sorrow in my heart. #i am sad all the time even though i enjoy the wonders of life. #i laugh and smile and talk and learn. but im still sad. #it also doesn't help that i have psychotic tendencies and episodes #'go for a walk. that's a healthy coping mechanism' bro i can't even go outside bc i will get lost and walk for hours and almost- #unintentionally kill myself #it sucks. it all sucks and i say things that don't make sense either. apparently. allegedly. #i just want a functional brain. i would be so unstoppable if it weren't from my brain maybe i could actually function like a normal person #and hold down a job and be consistent with my hobbies and passions and actually maintain friendships #ong ive been so lonely too #i haven't bothered making friends anymore bc i know i won't be consistent and i dont wanna waste anyone's time #that's just really unfair #and i rely so heavily on videogames and fiction to get me through the day #bc it makes me feel less lonely. yeah i know i sound lame 💀 #anyways- see y'all in another year when i remember tumblr exists

[felidaefatigue]

im convinced many people who think they read dont actually read

like i was joking with my bf about how i dont understand when ppl say it took them months to get thru a novel cause ive always only ever been able to marathon hyperfixate read. like 3 sittings maximum no matter the length of the book. i will do nothing not even eat if need be. and he was like "itd be impossible to even comprehend all that- you dont even take notes!"

and yet anytime im in a fandom. ppl will be like "oh i missed all these things i didnt realize xyz was important" and im just like ???????????

like sure i get details confused and miss things sometimes but like. ???? not often? i struggle more with being bored waiting for the hints and implied narrative leads to wrap up. are you not consumed by the novel? how? clearly im understanding more than most people despite my unhealthy need to binge consume god damn

#forgive my huge ego when it comes to fiction but like #very rarely am i blindsided by a plot twist or even vaguely lead astray most forms of narrative hints are NOT SUBTLE #it doesnt take many clues for the logical path to become obvious???? #and then its just waiting for anything the author HASNT already put in a big box of MYSTERY FOR LATER that is necessary to the details #like harrow wasnt? confusing or gaslightey to me at all? it was just? an unreliable narrator? which clues to reality sprinkled in pretty #nicely. #like have yall never been gaslit its not nearly that easy to peel out the truth when its ur brain jumbled to soup lmao

[essektheylyss]

Me recommending nonfiction to people is so funny. I've had people reference both I Contain Multitudes and Underland when I recommended them as "scary" in the last week as if they were horror novels. These books are so drastically different and their subject matter can freak people out in very different ways but in my head they're both just like... about aspects of the world. Many of them natural! Many of them also deadly.

Which is hilarious because I'm over here like, "What's scary is NOT delving into the unknown because you're more afraid of the potential of what you'll find rather than being prepared to handle it."

#if I ever give you a book recommendation you really gotta ask me explicitly about cws cuz I am so bad at even. noticing them ngl #not with fiction! fiction I will remember! #but for whatever reason nonfiction is just 'well this is facts and opinions. i can't be afraid of facts and opinions.' #also we are NOT gonna talk about the fact that yes this is like. most of an essek quote. #it was in fact the phrasing my brain came up with and I did try to figure out if there was another way to convey it as effectively but #this is unfortunately just also how I talk. #I was going to clown on essek for having more flowery imagery in his diction but like. you've probably seen my writing style. #megs is reading

[derelictdumbass]

vibrating at supersonic speed and obliterating into tiny pieces

#i've been scrolling through rp blogs for no reason what so ever at all #nostalgia brain tells me rp was so much fun and it clings to the one long rp i did with a girl where my oc rescued her oc from some big bad #and the oc rp i was doing with remy was also rad..... basically coop writing a fic for that one lmao #for months i've been like. just make a random rp blog and see what happens but for who. what. where. when #i have a lola sideblog and i've been considering making that also a rp blog for her bc that could be fun but idk 😔 #i just wanna be unwell about fictional characters and put them in situations collaboratively #why do i gotta put em in situations all by myself all the time huh !!! just cuz i made them and they live in my brain and my brain alone !! #anyway if u need me i'll be staring at the ceiling contemplating and passing out without making a decision #nadine is typing...