#just more traumatic stuff

[toruq]

#sso #star stable online #ssoblr #sso linda #linda chanda #linda's purple glasses #sso anne #anne von blyssen #my art #well i must be honest in that i've been spending a lot of time wishing that i would wake up in the hospital #with no responsibilities besides eat sleep and go potty #like #life is so simple in there #and i feel the same kind of tired that i do when im hooked up to morphine in an iv #but real life exists and i have to worry about relationships uni family work living in new country soon #and on top of it all #just more traumatic stuff #that #has recently been hard to process #and i have to process it for anything to get better #and for this stuff to stop happening #at least stop happening from the handful of people who cause it #but for the rest of the world #it is still fucked #its just been feeling like quite the isolating time as of late #i have me my lindas in life #but fuck i need a concorde right now. #concorde is technically self... though #i need my conscience on my side

[crybaby-bkg]

you know what’s absolutely terrifying???? having to cut a baby’s nails………

Katsuki has to cut your baby’s fingernails when he discovers a tiny little scratch by her eye one morning. it’s barely there, a small thing, but it’s there, marring her little face nonetheless. he frowns at her when he holds her the next morning, her dreamy eyes alert and blinking up at him, she smiles.

“Now I gotta cut yer claws down,” he mutters to her, voice quiet as to not wake your sleeping form in the bedroom. he pads throughout the house with her chubby face resting on his shoulder, her gums gnawing at his bare skin, but he doesn’t seem to mind it.

he finds himself in a conundrum though, once he realizes just how fucking—how sharp the damn clippers are. they’re tiny, lavender in color, but they’re meant to cut though the nail with such precision. and yes, he’s a pro hero, has had to adopt the title of EMT, firefighter, emergency surgeon a few times in his life when need be.

but…those people weren’t his baby girl. they weren’t this tiny and precious, and they never looked up at him with a face so similar to his, it makes his heart squeeze tight in his chest. he frowns at her again, even deeper, and this makes her hiccup a little giggle, gummy smile spreading wide.

“You’re only gonna wear mittens from here on out,” he grumbles after a while, finally daring to pick up a tiny hand that she instantly curls around his thick finger. it’s the cutest image, he thinks to himself, but he catches sight of the jagged nail, the culprit. his heart squeezes even tighter though, when he realizes that he can’t protect her from every hurt in the world, even if the hurt comes from her own hands. and the realization is an aching one, but he tells himself that he, at least, can patch her up.

you walk in minutes later, find Bakugou curled over your daughter in the rocking chair he built for her room. his tongue pokes from the corner of his mouth in concentration, his eyebrows furrowed. your daughter babbles to him the whole time, her sweet voice cooing the softest little noises that he responds back to.

“I know, I know,” he mumbles to her. “Ya don’t like baths, and don’t like your nails cut, either. What other shit do you hate, huh?” he asks, and she seemingly responds with a long, sighed out coo. it makes him smile, despite the way his hands slightly shake when he cuts the next nail. he’s terrified, of somehow hurting her even more, of cutting too close, of scratching her. but he treks on, and kisses her fat little fingers every time he clips another nail.

#I thought about this earlier and it made me WEEP #bc cutting a baby’s fingernails is a TERRIFYING and terrible experience #and if you cut too close/low and make them cry???? ohhhh just send me to hell at that point #I’ve never actually done it sjdhdjd but I’m TRAUMATIZED seeing my sister do it #and I just think he wants to be so careful and sweet with his baby but he’s terrified of hurting them even more!!! #I love him goodbye #I’m sooooo freaking sleepy tho we had such a long day doing stuff w my family and nieces #I’m BEAT!!!!! #but Christmas is in a few hours and I’m excited ^_^ #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dad bkg

[autisticaradiamegido]

thoughts on dave and aradia (<>)?

day 356

BIG fan tbh. in this house we love and respect timerails

truly yall read this log and tell me theyre not cute

#day 356 #year 4 #dave strider #aradia megido #aradave #homestuck #she really saw this kid and was like OH YOU HAVE ISSUES WITH YOUR MORTALITY?? :D #boy do i have some relevant life experience and wisdom to impart on THAT ISSUE SPECIFICALLY #and then she just. very gently and kindly makes the subject more approachable for ghostdave #the pesterlog i linked is literally my FAVORITE aradia moment. to me it is THE character defining moment for god tier aradia #yes she is being kind of ominous and trickstery at first #but it VERY quickly becomes clear shes got genuine concern for this kid she's had very little to do with up until this point #she really wants to connect with him over their shared time aspect stuff #and she really DOES care about how he feels about everything. she wants to help and she wants to put him at ease #because she KNOWS from experience that being dead and having to cope with what that means for you is like VERY UPSETTING AND TRAUMATIC #shes not just like. 'hee hee i think death is great and awesome because im edgy' #shes like 'no dude being dead is scary if you dont have anybody to explain this shit to you. so im going to explain it-' #'-and hopefully by the end of this conversation you will have some new things to feel relief and maybe even joy and excitement about' #'not just in spite of the death thing but BECAUSE of it' #i know shes spooky and has weirdgirl swag and we all love that about her but like #at her core she is a very KIND person. she may occasionally struggle to connect to people through the Death Special Interest Haze #but she WANTS to and when she DOES she is like. a genuinely very warm and comforting presence for her friends #ANYWAY. if andrew hussie or i guess james roach now want to give me an honorary doctorate for my 12+ years of intensive aradia studies #i will be here waiting patiently

[errorwarblesrr]

I feel like moments like these are important. It solidifies that after everything he has been through in Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask, he is still a child. In OOT, he really was a child trapped in an adults body.

He doesn't consider himself a grown-up and doesn't really understand what's going on in the Anju and Kafei sidequest. He isn't motivated by the stakes or to help two lovers reunite but rather to just help for the sake of it.

In Great Bay, there are, unfortunately, a bunch of weirdos. He looks at a Zora man weird, but I think rather than just finding him gross, he doesn't get it as seen in the Fish Wish sidequest. He finds them weird, but he doesn't have a full understanding of it. This showcases his innocence in the game.

Along with that, there's also a moment where Sakon the thief tries to take advantage of Link. He talks about Link's sword and how cool it is, gives advice, and compliments the sword again, asking to just see it. It's obviously suspicious to the player, but if Link says yes, Tatl immediately gets hostile and attacks Sakon to drive him away instead of letting Link hand over his sword. If Link says no but tries to talk to him again, Tatl will immediately become hostile at Sakon anyway. I feel like this can show how niave Link can be.

There's also when Link receives a Keaton mask. He doesn't really get the meaning behind it and doesn't think accepting it if it makes sense, but he does it anyway. This doesn't really further any points other than he really is just a niave kid going through the motions.

Point is Majora's Mask highlights how he is still a child at heart. He thinks and acts like one still after Ocrina of Time. He didn't just grow up when he was asleep for 7 years. After everything he's been through, he's still him: a child.

#the legend of zelda #loz #ocarina of time #majoras mask #ik oot is viewed as a game about growing up or how Link is now a adult in a child body but mm just show that no he is still a child at heart #if anything he is a bit more experienced and probably a bit traumatized because no kid should go through that #kafei also seems like the opposite of link being the one who is an adult trapped as a child #this one is more of a vibe than fact but sometimes tatl feels like an adult scolding a child for not knowing better #like theres a part in ikana canyon with the messed up roof and she says how link always misses stuff like that #or if links sword gets stolen by a bird she says “what are you doing?!?” you know as if anyone would want that to happen #idk it just reminds me of an adult scoling a child

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

yknow something i really love about WH so far is that i really, truly, have no idea what the fuck is going on. like i can theorize and speculate on the Scrumptious little crumbs we have so far, but looking at it as a whole and the info/hints sprinkled everywhere. man i cannot guess where this is going to go lmao

#im so so so so excited #i have a feeling its all eventually gonna slot together like a tasty little trauma puzzle #but for now. wow. no clue! #every time i think i have a vague thought i remember a tidbit that blasts it into oblivion #which makes absolute sense since its barely started #but still it amuses me. trying to cobble together a coherent idea is like trying to think during a migraine aura #but fun and nonpainful! #it makes even me more interested in wh honestly #like a carrot dangled in front of a horse #is that the saying??? fuck if i know! #welcome home #also the fact that a big content warning for future wh stuff is gore... #the part of me that just wants the puppets to be safe and happy is terrified #the part of me that fuckin LOVES gore and traumatizing characters is going buck wild

[sesamenom]

Reverse Gondolin AU family portrait

#silm #silmarillion #idril #tuor #earendil #reverse gondolin au #is this baby earendil's first appearance in the au? #so I decided Idril & Tuor still get married in this au #mostly bc I want Earendil to exist. #i haven't figured out what I want to do with Lomion #but maybe he can be obsessed with tyelpe instead of idril bc they're friends in this au and idril showed up a lot later? #also c&c + celebrimbor moved to gondolin instead of nargothrond since Aredhel lives there #you may notice that tuor has a diff hairstyle & outfit in the au! #this is bc fashion trends in reverse gondolin are more influenced by aredhel's choices than turgons for obvious reasons #hence the white cloaks and shorter (but equally fancy) sleeves #also idril is lord of the mole in the au #my headcanon is that 'lord' as of the lords of gondolin is just the title regardless of gender for the specific role #'lady' is a different role with much less administrative stuff and more social/public-appearance type stuff #aredhel is the white lady of gondolin bc she does Not want to be a lord #so she does the occasional royalty-waves-and-smiles-from-a-tower type event when necessary #but other than that she doesnt have political duties #idril is the administrative/political leader of the Mole in the au hence she is a lord #shes also the lady of the wing bc she married tuor and is part of the house of the wing's nobility but doesn't do their political stuff #and tuor is the lady of the mole #reverse turgon after arrival has less of a interest in politics than canon turgon (the whole eol deal was rather traumatizing and he needs #time to recover) #so he's not one of the Lords but he is colloquially ar-feinion #his official title is some sort of prince #after he reaches a more stable emotional state he helps a lot w the political stuff when aredhel is out #so maeglin doesn't have todo everything himself

[rizaposting]

been thinking a lot about my royai kid ideas lately but i don't think a lot of people will like them because i don't name the kid after maes lol

#and also I focus more on riza's traumatic upbringing rather than only addressing roy being sad about maes #also it's 03royai usually #crystal convos #i have my own personal bias against the idea of their baby being named after maes #in part because i dont think the wound will ever be healed enough for roy to be able to not associate it w the pain of losing his friend #i also cannot explain just how much the idea of naming my own child directly after my dead sister makes me want to die so. pure projection #i think my problem with a lot of royai kid stuff is that riza has an explicitly traumatic childhood in her background and no one explores i #because they're so focused on roy struggling with feeling like he can never measure up to hughes--which is fine but WHAT ABOUT RIZA #One aspect abt Riza's trauma that I explore with my royai kid stuff is the theme of alchemist fathers and their children they abuse/neglect #Riza herself; Nina Tucker; the Elrics... And now she is having an alchemist's child

[pepperpixel]

Some new art of a very very old oc of mine! From like, when I was an 8th grader in middle school to freshman in high school I think, I haven’t thought about this character or the world she’s from in like… years, but my brain suddenly remembered she existed! And so I drew some art of her!

Visually, she’s absolutely mostly the result of my child self sticking Toko Fukawa from Danganronpa and Peacock from Skullgirls in a blender and lettin it fuckin rip. Personality wise she’s a bit different tho… she’s into politics! As in,,, she’s in politics ghgh, she’s like the chief of the surveillance department for the country of (mostly) witches that the story takes place in. And one of the advisors to the head ruler witch,,, she sucks! Hardcore! she’s def a villain lol

#I made 2 videos for this story and she’s in 1 of them #the idgaf video. at the 30 second mark #but. even tho I specifically remember when I first designed her she had the eyeball braids! #or at least eyeball buns #16 year old me got rid of em!!! for no good reason! #they were fun and cool and fitting for her role and character!!! what the hell 16 year old me! #original #original art #original characters #my ocs #artists on tumblr #eyes #doodles #the other video from this story I made is the something’s not right meme lol #the difference in tone is fucking tremendous #that one tho is more… a lore tidbit… like… it’s background on a phenomena of the setting… #as a middle schooler I did not give a shit about major or minor or background characters tho. or even actually telling a cohesive story? #like. I started w a few characters. and then. went on to characters they were connected too. and then characters they were connected too #and then on an on and on it was just a web of vaguely interconnected dudes in a vaguely interconnected world #no. real narrative lol. but I had fun w it! it was cool. I wish I still had my sketchbooks w the stuff I made for it #I feel like it’d be a fun thing to look back on… sadly fire took them… damn u fire ghg #* ​shakes first at past horrible traumatic experience * #anyway yeah! enjoy art of evil eyeball lady w no name lmao #*fist not first… spellings hard #partial nudity #in the second pic. but also u can’t rlly see anything so. I think it’s fine? #I’ll still tag just in case tho

[zhongrin]

cw/tw. gif(s), child neglect, depiction of starvation & frostbite, suicidal thoughts

꧁

𝐆𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐀𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫: 𝐀𝐜𝐭 𝐈𝐈

Candour of Light and Shadows

Quest Started

I still think

Some people were born a shadow.

"ーHappy birthday, sweetheart!"

"Thanks, mama!"

"May Lady Tsaritsa bless my little snowflake so he grows up big and healthy... And may She protect you from all dangers and surround you with love and happiness!"

"..... Mama, what about-"

"Hold on, darling."

Every year, instead of burning candles, I burn the memories of you.

Every year, instead of huddling in front of a warm fireplace, I relive the memories of the icy grave you call home.

Every year....

I wonder.

Why didn't you just di̴̖̊ë̷̻͙́̒̿̆ that day?

Why did the gods pity you when your own blood couldn't care less?

Why you? Why me? Why us?

I dare not defy the fate bestowed upon me. This is the role we were bestowed with. The second option. The second best. The supporting role.

The shadow.

....

But maybe....

........

Just... maybe.

.............

Maybe all this time, I've been tricking myself, thinking I was undeserving. Of the spotlight. Of the warm fireplace. Of..... a home.

“....”

“Wha....?”

“Happy birthday, Cov!!”

“My my, did we catch you off-guard so much you were about to unsheathe your sword?”

“Ah... I'm..... sorry.......”

“It's fine, it's fine. More importantly, do you like chocolate cakes? I had no idea what kind of cake you'd like but since you love hot chocolate and cookies, I thought you'd like themー”

“......”

“Cov?”

“...........”

“Thank you.”

Maybe one day, I'll be able to feel truly worthy of this.

......

I guess…. Just for today, I can be the light.

𝐆𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐀𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫: 𝐀𝐜𝐭 𝐈𝐈 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞

Candour of Light and Shadows

Quest Completed

[ To be continued(?) ]

#rin's adopted children: coviello #rin's queue is serving tea #happy birthday my child my baby my traumatized pookie with trust issues #i somehow managed to finish this an hour before their birthday here #and i already said it on their last story quest but #it still baffles me that they're well liked. i love them (/p) dearly and i'm glad people find them interesting enough- #-to care about. idk. it just. i don't think i'll ever not feel awed about this #thank you always for the love and support to this character #more of them coming soon. maybe. mayhaps even more than them. maybe they'll get a brother and a sister soon #ps. i am swamped with stuff and has no energy right now. please know i'm not ignoring asks and messages but i'm just directing- #-the little energy i have to more important/urgent things. i'll be fine. will be back soon. hopefully.

[finexbright]

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#as i said i'm only now catching up on what happened at red rocks and honestly i'm just so confused as to #why people are getting hate mail for being at a show???? like unless you were right there at the show you will NOT know what's going on #you can't just ''leave'' a venue because there's security measures ensuring that people don't run and cause a stampede #i get that the team there sucked and should've been much better equipped for an outdoor venue but why the fuck are we blaming the fans???? #and then being mad at louis??? yeah i get that his tweet wasn't the best but i'd imagine that he was trying to help out as much as he could #ensuring fans were safe and taken care of. pretty sure he is the one paying all hospital bills and stuff as well #yeah i know he's an artist and he has people doing things for him but also it's louis. he might not have been at ground zero #but i bet he was doing everything he could to help get fans to safety and he had to tweet something amidst all that #just to reassure fans a bit more and he did what he could #besides. i'm sorry but instead of being all ''louis/his team should've done more'' can we all just make sure that the fans #who were actually in that hail storm and who actually got horribly injured and who actually went through such a scary situation #are feeling okay? like why are we arguing about trivial things when what matters the most out of this situation is the fans and their safety #i honestly need people who were not at the venue and people who do not understand how traumatic things can be #to just shut up and log off #anyways to everyone present at red rocks i'm sending you so much love and i'm so sorry something so traumatic happened #i hope everyone is safe and is being treated for their injuries 💌

[sparkbugs]

Just watched the Prime Defenders one shot.. having to wait until my next paycheck is brutal man.. superheros.. decided that while I have to WAIT I’m watching convergence though my attention span is all over the place cause I cannot stop thinking about Arthur Bennett from The Suckening.

Jrwi got me in a headlock rn it’s a lil crazy I didn’t expect to get this attached to the characters but man!!! I love dnd!! I love ttrpgs!! I want to play more so badly!!

#jrwi #just roll with it #jrwishow #jrwi show #just roll with it show #jrwi riptide #jrwi the suckening #jrwi convergence #jrwi prime force #jrwi prime defenders #idk if I’m tagging right I’m so sorry y’all #also sorry to my mutuals who have just seen me go off about jrwi lately #the hyperfixation is hyperfixating #and I cannot stop it nor do I want to #there are many traumatized characters in riptide and I’m sure there’s more in the other games #so if you love trauma skrunkles then please watch #I also need more people to talk about jrwi riptide with #or just talk dnd stuff in general

[campbyler]

this fic literally keeps the byler part of me alive

me as well anon i think about them 24/7 it's actually embarrassing

#asks #half of me and suni's message thread is just us sending tiktoks and saying THEMMMMm #fr tho it's also brought me more of an appreciation for canon byler as well bc it makes me Miss Them #even tho they're all the same it's just one set of them knows what the internet is and the other has been traumatized by interdimensional #horrors and monsters and stuff. not too much of a difference if u ask me.

[worlds-oldest-teenager]

Solangelo antis: Solangelo is a bad ship because it's ableist that Will wants to fix Nico who is heavily coded as autistic.

Solangelo antis when will is blunt and out of pocket without realizing, on edge in an unfamiliar situation, and struggling with black and white thinking about the underworld and healing: This is the worst person to ever exist.

#tsats #will solace #nico di angelo #no hate to solangelo antis though you have the right to ship or hate a ship #my main takeaway from tsats was will is traumatized and autistic #i have not so positive opinions about tsats but all the will is an asshole stuff urges me to defend my boy #tsats spoilers #also psa you can be ableist while being autistic this is just more about how people are kind of holding him to a double standard #sorry if controversial

[adhbabey]

if anyone had to experience discourse everyday about their identity, they'd be bitter and angry too. so just think about that before you try to say like "x group is so mean and passive aggressive towards us, and we're victims for having to deal with them". You are the problem. Stop harassing people for their identities.

Yes, this means people with traits you don't like. It's not their fault that you can't be civil about someone else.

Before you reblog, this includes people with personality disorders, such as narcissistic personality disorder. This includes trans people, with or without dysphoria. This includes physically disabled people. This includes mentally disabled people. This includes nonbinary people. This includes pansexual and mspec people. This includes muslims and jewish people. This includes people who like "cringey" or "problematic" media. Like, this includes anyone who gets harassed on a daily and can't exactly choose whether or not they like something or have a specific identity.

I think I'd be bitter too if I got harassed everyday about things I can't change or things that I actively have joy in. Let's be nice and civil. No one deserves to be harassed and berated for normal things.

#babey posts #like its just traumatic to subject people through stuff like this everday #have compassion for others #even if you don't understand their perspective #like obv this is not about people who are fascist or right wing but for more individual issues and identities #please log out and just block discourse tags if its too much for you to look at idiots online #give yourself a break and give others a break #im not bitter but fuck im seeing so much hurt from people who don't deserve to get hurt #its okay to call out and bring attention to issues. its not okay to mob mentality your way through life #live and let live #im so tired of discourse. lets be neutral or nice

[robotpussy]

hm I know this seems like I'm just whining to whine and I understand that living with your parents throughout your childhood is the norm but I'm actually so tired of people asking "where are your parents/do you live with your parents/did you come with your parents?" when I meet people like if we are at a event where ppls families are in attendance why can't you just ask if anybody came with me instead of asking about my parents like not everybody has parents or lives with them etc I know it's just a little thing and I'm coming across as bitter and annoyed but I genuinely am, and then it gets even more annoying because then when you tell people you didn't come with your parents they want to know why and in my case I hate having to explain that I was in foster care because explaining something like that isn't something that can be summed up in a sentence like OMFG and it's so fucking annoying to me like just ask if I came with anybody instead of just assuming I came with my parents 😭😭😭

#as i said i know asking ppl about their parents is the norm but i wish ppl would actually think about of ppl #actually have any some ppl have been disowned or have dead parents or just dont want anything to with them anymore #its so annoying i think ppl should start thinking before just assume but this is just a personal thing im not that angry at anybody lol #im more annoyed at ppl wanting to know why i was in foster care because i hate airing out all my business like that #it involves alot of abuse and very traumatic stuff and then i feel bad when i do explain it because i feel like #ive ruined that person's day by telling them about all the stuff that happened to me like omds #the most annoying instance was when i was at work and this girl kept asking me why i dont live with my parents #and she wanted me to explain why i was in foster care and i was just like. its not really any of your business 😭 #just know i dont live with my parents and i used to be in foster care in fact you don't need to know if i live with #anybody or not 😭 like why are asking if my parents are together etc LEAVE ME ALONE