#just. EVERYONE is in such a PLACE rn

[executiveibex]

aaaaaaaaaaand that’s a wrap on another season of Friends at the Table, a podcast about killing gods and losing hands!

#mine #f@tt liveblogging #friends at the table #winter in hieron #i've said it before in these tags and i'll say it again!! #I AM THE MOST NORMAL ABOUT TIME BEING A FLAT CIRCLE IN HIERON #LOVE that both marielda and winter in hieron ended with the murder of (a) samothes. SO much fun for me personally #although MAN......... rip maelgwyn #when austin described that dying transformation i was. VERY glad i was pulling books in the stacks #so NO ONE could see how wide my eyes were over my mask #and f in the chat for ephrim as well bc he is going Through It!! #also alyosha. also arell. #(although both of those are just as much ''heyy buddy what the fuck??'' as much as they are ''oh NO'') #just. EVERYONE is in such a PLACE rn #both literally and figuratively lmaooo #excited to listen to the postmortem but i think i'm going to wait to start spring until next week #i need time to PROCESS #............ also i need to buy the winter in hieron soundtrack. but that's a given

[spirallingstarcases]

“The two people connected by the red thread are destined lovers, regardless of place, time, or circumstances. This magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break.” - Chinese Mythology

#it was just a lighting practice at first but i like the concept #we as a fandom are lacking in red string of fate aus #everyone needs to draw red string of fate aus rn or i blow this place up #spispeaks #spi.arts #peterick #rpf #pete wentz #fall out boy #fob #patrick stump #fob arts #fanart

[internetdruid]

Evening, ladies

#🪴 #im remaking this blog. if you havent noticed #i felt awkward making a big text post about it so im just keeping it condensed in the tags #but anyway all the tofupupper posts are over on @tofupupper as an archive #for anyone that wants it #im probably gonna be posting about animals and botany here.. bc its what i enjoy right now #i used to really enjoy tofupuppers content but things got rough during the pandemic #and i was in a bad place. and i was just constantly getting anons from people venting to me #or talking about their mental health and im just so bad at comforting and constantly seeing #people tell me they want to die and such on my fan blog for a shiba inu was just so stressful #even though i havent posted tofu content since 2021 i still got messages like that now and then. 700 messages in my askbox rn #but anyway #im better now and i hope everyone is too #and i will still be rbing donation posts at peoples request here #i just felt awkward rbing them to a blog i didnt use otherwise #so. yeah!. wildlife biology and plants now. maybe other stuff #you dont have to stick around if thats not your thing #goodbye for now

[forlix]

i don’t know what the fuck to think or feel. heart feeling so heavy

#think i was clinging to the idea that the boys didn’t know or care about him personally and i still don’t want to think that’s the case but #if we’re being realistic they know. they have to know #and everyone in the comments preaching about how bin doesn’t know anything about p*th outside of music has to be new levels of delusional #they’re idols yeah. they’re also humans with access to the internet and we know damn well they read everything we say to them #chris is on fucking skz tiktok like. wake up #it’s like 50% the fact that it was posted in the first place that’s getting to me and 50% the ignorance and babying in the comments #i just feel like fucking shit. my anxiety hasn’t felt this bad in so long #*musings #don’t even think i’m capable of being impartial or coherent rn i just needed to get this off my chest somewhere #like it’s one thing to collab with him on a professional basis and another to post a selfie like you’re friends #wish this song didn’t exist to be so real

[hajihiko]

So who's gonna tell him

#Hc that Kaz is the kind of person who gets a crush on everyone #Fall in love just a little love little bit Every day with someone new #He is paying for his Creepy Sins by being stuck on a humid hot island with his unexpectedly super hot friends who are all off limits #Bc no one is rly in a place to be dating rn itd be a bad idea. They just spend all their time together is all #And share clothes...and sometimes have slumber parties.... and splash around and have deep heartfelt convos..... #He gets more bearable with his crush(es) post game bc he gets hyper exposed to everything and just learns to fucking deal lol #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa 2 #danganronpa 2 goodbye despair #Kazuichi Souda #Sonia nevermind #Akane owari #Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #kuzusouda #'Those eyes...those lips....that GIANT HAND....' iykyk

[sunsetsandsunshine]

An issue I need to address:

TW: Drama, cussing…yk all that jazz. I apologize that this post is what you all are receiving from me today. But I need to talk about this before it get’s worse.

Okay, I just want to clarify that there should be no hate being sent towards @osctwordfan for this. Hate and hurtful comments will not and cannot fix what has been done. But that does not I am not angry about it. I am mad. I am livid. Only two people on this site has been able to make me this genuinely upset and it’s frustrating that making a PUBLIC POST is the only way to get this person’s attention. 

4 days ago, May 16th, @osctwordfan started following me. Which, I greatley appreciated because HELLO??? Who wouldn’t, right? A new follower is just an awesome feeling to have. So, I checked their blog to see what they liked and we shared SO many similar interests it was almost scary. And I followed back. 

If you know me for a while, you know my whole “Hi new mutual 💝” message I send to my new mutuals. Because 1: I love talking to people and 2: I just want others to feel like they’re welcome. (If you haven’t received one yet it’s either bc you’re a little older than me or idk how to send the message. BUT YOU WILL GET ONE TRUST 💞💓💘💖💝)

And you all know how you can SEE when someone is online? Well, they were online when I texted this. And I got no response. I just assumed it was nervousness or shyness so I didn’t really question it. Until a few minuetes later they reblogged my “You can always ask” fic. 

Which, woo-hoo I guess. But my message was still not answered. But I didn’t think it was THAT deep. 

The next day, May 17th, I noticed they were online. I sent a quick “Hi” again, awaiting a response. About 5 minutes later I was met with one, except it wasn’t the one I was expecting or hoping for. 

It was a request. For a fanfiction. Okay okay cool. Coolio. You…ignore my two messages of me just simply saying a quick “hello” and you don’t answer…instead you ask for a tickle fanfiction of some turtles? 

I get people are shy. I get that. I do. But me and one of my best friends were talking about it on Insta and it made no damn sense. Following, reblogging and requesting things from an individual that’s been trying to speak with you for the past few days and you not responding and then ASKING something of them is just…weird. 

Me and one of my best friend’s convo:

So, on May 18th I saw they were online again, and so I texted the following: 

Which I felt was fine. It was straight to the point. But where my anger really emegred was when I got notifications of my fics being reblogged by the same person. AGAIN. NOT EVEN 3 MINUTES LATER.

And then May 19th they liked another post of mine. Although it was a post that you would have to DIG DEEP FOR. Because I made it a year ago and only 4 people liked it (INCLUDING ME.). So you would have to LOOK LOOK to find it. 

Then yesterday, May 20th, was just my breaking point. I was chilling, having a nice evening, talking with my fellow mutuals, writing a fic (AND FINISHING WOO-HOO) until I get a notification. And guess what? It’s just another reblog by the same person. 

Did I get any responses of my pervious texts? Nope. Not at ALL. 

I am sick and hurt of being treated as if I’m just a computer that makes fanfictions.

I am a PERSON. A human being that for the past week has been trying to talk with you. And you at fucking 16 should understand that. 

You are one whole year older than me and you think you have the right to treat me this way. Who the absolute hell do you think you are? 

Because let me get this through your head: I live in an African and Jamaican  household, and one thing that we let each other know day in and day out is to never ever let someone make you feel like you’re less. 

So when you see this @osctwordfan I am hoping you have a good explanation regarding to last week. 

@ ing mutual’s in this because this is INSANE and I am LIVID rn: 

@itzsana-kiddingmenow @veryblushyswitch

@skyloladoodles @saturnzskyzz @backy-san

@creativecutie @savemeafruitjuice

@mythica0 @leosmasktails @someone1348 @vxlepop

@anxious-lee @charismakat

@sunny-117 @odder-outlet @jamiesgotchu @ziipzeepzop-eez

@danineedshelp @pocky-dragon

@my-l0v3r-v3rse @rice-cake-teen10

#Didn’t add everyone bc that would be SM people #Mostly everyone though #Look #At the end of the day I’m sorry it came down to me making a post about you #But you seriously left me no choice #LIKE ACTUALLY #But srsly idfk what could be the explanation towards all of this #You sent me an ask and you would be able to see the notifications of me messaging you #If you had messages off I wouldn’t be able to in the first place/Tumblr would tell me #Also mutual’s you don’t have to respond if you don’t want to 💞💞💞 #I’m just trying to figure out if I have a right to be upset abt this… #Sfw tickle community #Sfw tickle blog #Blog drama #Follower drama #Dude I don’t even want an apology I just want you to EXPLAIN #I hate drama #But I needed to post this #I’m not trying to be mean rn #I’m just trying to understand

[guinevereslancelot]

a koi pond for your dash:

❀ 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 ༄ ❀ 𓆝 𓆟 ༄ ❀ 𓆞 𓆝 ❀ ༄ ﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌

#our pond thawed so i sat beside the water today and watched the fish #i wish everyone as beautiful and peaceful a moment as that today ♡ #i dont have a koi pond btw judt a farm pond that a neighbor put goldish in like twenty years ago #they thrived tho and they're pretty like koi fish #im planning to add water lilies to it this year and maybe some other pretty ornamental plants around it idk #also a bench hopefully bc rn you have to sit in an uncomfy rock lol #anyway #still a nice place to hang out im just planning to make it nicer when i have the money for landscaping #im considering adding some actual koi to it bc i read they can coexist w goldfish really well bc they're both carp #but idk i assume they eat more so maybe they would outcompete the goldslfish #also they eat the baby goldfish so maybe not :( #they should crossbreed tho #i think #so maybe i'll just grt one or two koi and see what happens #anywayyy #they're so pretty and peaceful to watch 😌 #my only complaint is its a bit of a hike to the pond #either like five minutes down a suuuuper steep hill or twice as long walking around the hill and back up by the road which is less steep #also you cant really see the pond from the house bc its far away and surrounded by dense brush #alas #these are good problems to have tho #and for safety reasons its good actually that the pond is far from the house and a bit annoying to get to #bc little kids could def have a terrible accident if it was just in the yard or something #bc its really deep #im not the best w these emojis but i wanted to make something cute

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 golden #persona 4 #yosuke hanamura #hanamura yosuke #and now you're in couple clothing #funny how that works #not to mention how to definitely do more than just talk (like hugging obv ahem) #but on a serious note “someone to talk to” is so URGHHH because it's so flippant but also #yosukes unwittingly admitting to how lonely he felt before in front if everyone (also bold move with chie and yukiko being right there) #i just think yosuke's feeling at the start of the game were so complicated and yet so much is revealed here #yosukes belief that he couldnt form any connections here. his reluctance in letting them reach out to him even when they wanted to. #his embarrassment over living in the “country” and partaking in their “country ways” #(if you are reading this rn this is your sign to pls read the magiciam manga) #but also here. in this moment. the hopes that he had placed on yu when yu arrived in Inaba #how those hopes were dashed in part but also lived up to in a way beyond yosukes wildest dreams. #GAHHHH #he's good with his queue

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i turn 27 tomorrow and i feel like my life is collapsing in around me #i officially made the decision to take the summer off. which i hate. which means i have to get a summer job #when ive only ever had jobs in academia so my resume looks insane if im applying to work in a bakery or whatever #im just so tired. everything makes me so tired and sad. i still dont kno what im gonna do #im glad my dad is here bc he gets it more than most ppl bc hes also dyslexic and like everyone assumes im fine bc ive got this far #but like at what cost? im doing a job where im set up to suffer. and for what? im doing something so niche and weird #all i can do is more academia. but what if i cant cut it? what if i would b better off getting a epa job or something where i can do my job #and then go home and stop thinking abt it. how do i apply the stupid bullshit i decided to study? i should have done Ecosystem restoration #or something. its just that my dream was to study weird things in weird places and now it feels like that dream is collapsing #which is devastating. im gonna try to come back in the fall and give it a go but like i dunno it feels so hopeless rn #im just so tired. i have no joy. i just want to lay on the floor #unrelated

[raiiny-bay]

new character page wip

#i edited the shit out of this code ngl #idk what i'm gonna put under the music section yet #the picture is just a place holder #i definitely like this layout better. not looking forward to having to do new pictures of everyone. again. #i'm also rewriting everyone's bios. again. bc i want them to reflect their current selves more #rn they're like a weird mix of their canon & post-canon selves & they just don't feel very. cohesive. ig #like. most of my edits take place in post-canon so i think their pages should match that? #they're not accurate to the versions of them that i share on here. that's what i mean #mm i just confused myself trying to think about it #ok. i'm gonna go have lunch & then i guess i'll write or something #i had something else i was gonna say but i forgot lol #rainyrambles

[crismakesstuff]

thinking of a role swap au between debbie and nolan inspired by this amazing fic by @marzipanilla on ao3

viltrumite debbie and human nolan,, oughhhhh

#everyone go read marzi’s stuff they are single-handedly carrying the invincible ao3 tag #i just reread it and I’m all over the place RAAAAGH #i think debbie should be allowed to be buff and kill people #and have nolan be a househusband #mark will never escape the trauma #now he gets mommy issues instead of daddy issues #god imagine the fucking aftermath of everything and how the trauma would present differently in mark #him full snapping at his dad and nolan having a rare moment where he yells back #and just freaks mark out but it’s too late #drawing debbie and nolan in this AU rn #YIPPEEEEE! #invincible #nolan grayson #debbie grayson #invincible au #invincible role swap au #human! nolan grayson #viltrumite! debbie grayson

[b4kuch1n]

blood loss edition

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #colloquially. like gesturing towards a signifier of a signifier of a story told long before. youre not getting more out of me than that #ft. tố linh (and them in yuutoverse for a hot second) #if u wonder what a dirt historian is. stay tuned <3 #that thing reki does in the first page is a real thing everyone here's convinced of btw #like. free hangin from a bar by ur arms will make u taller #also I literally did not mean to design amy and linh Like That. I did Not mean for them to be. Like That #but I am happy that I did. bc I love their design and they play well with yuuto #the last page is. some extremely disorganized Thoughts from a thing I kinda wanna write #maybe not right now. but eventually #I guess it's also mostly like. one more love letter to the siblings out there. it has to do with reki getting #underground basically illegal T shots at S lmao #shakes u by the collar we're not going anywhere! I love you!! everything will find its place!!!! #anyways. there are also a number of muppet type creatures in this one. idk whats up with that #I dont have much blood in me rn Im not lucid. have fun be urself ok? #thats also why the inks been taking a break btw. and the fact that my new pot of ink just arrived today #while Im being deprived of my appropriate volume of intravenous fluid #man. may be another day. before I can stop screaming at my wall and punching things off shelves. and draw properly #meanwhile. u know whats up #I go lay down now. have fun ok? be kind to ur tall friends knee them only gently #also just realized future!langa kinda has a bit of haruka vibes. that is literally so awesome

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i keep scribbling Laughingstock as soft and wholesome, when in my brain they're chaotic and wholesome. Howdy's got that high energy and Barns is always down to clown yk yk

#like for example i have this very vivid Scene in my mind #where the neighborhood is having a little garden party and nice music is playing #franklydear is slow dancing. everyone is dancing either sweetly or just Normally #and then in the background you have laughingstock stumbling around laughing their asses off #because they're trying to attempt Swing but howdy has too many legs and its just a complete disaster #Completely ruining the vibe though no one minds. except frank probably #theyre just. theyre so Goofy #they have a thousand inside jokes and are always up to Something #they start to approach activities normally and then they stop and go 'hey wait. wouldn't it be funny if...' #the answer is always Yes. it Would be funny. and it Will Be. #they are each others' biggest fans and enablers in my mind #laughingstock #absolutely unprompted #and i just Know barnaby would be always pushing howdy's business #he overhears someone mention possibly needing something and he sidles over like 'heyyyy howdys got a great sale goin rn 👀' #barnaby: i know my jokes are outta this world but ya know what else is? BEANS FROM HOWDYS GO BUY EM #if they were in modern day and had phones / social media #i just know the only things barnaby posts are: bts of sally's plays. wally. terrible memes. and promo for howdy's place #so much promo... #and on the flip side howdy gasses up barnaby's jokes/etc like no one else #if there a thousand people laughing at his humor one of em is howdy. if theres only one person laughing then that person is howdy #barnaby's going to do a stand up show and howdy is making so many signs to make sure No One Forgets Or Misses It #somebody walks into the bodega after barnaby just finished a joke and howdy is like OH OH TELL IT AGAIN THEY DIDNT HEAR IT #ouaghhhhh they make me <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

[essektheylyss]

Okay I did get distracted by a grade being posted and I am about to be both a nerd and a millennial but god ngl I do hate classes where you get full points on all your assignments but don't actually get any actual feedback on them. What is the point. If it's a class where everyone gets passing grades for making the effort but you get actual feedback and comments, that's great! But I would genuinely rather get points docked and get extensive comments on what I did well and what needed improvement and why than this.

#what is the POINT #like at that point it feels like busy work frankly! it doesn't feel like anyone's worrying about whether or not I learned something! #and like I can self reflect on my own learning. I'm good at that. that's fine. but a) not everyone can #and b) it REALLY does not help the perception that a degree is something you pay for but don't actually need to learn anything to get #which is a MASSIVE problem rn. there's no actual value placed on LEARNING THINGS. #like I know for a FACT that I have turned in B+ average assignments at best in this class. #just cuz I only have finite time and I gotta stay sane and it's not an area I'm going to go any further than surface level in. #the overview is good and important! but the work I'm doing is reflective of my investment and frankly it should've earned a B+ at most. #like at least if you're docking a point and telling me what for I know you READ the damn thing. christ alive. #you may ask yourself 'oh my god why are you like this' and the answer is. have you looked at my blog. #anyway. okay nOW I'm going to bed.

[minty-bunni]

AU where Danny doesn't have a pain tolerance, he just can't feel pain at all. This is much to the horror of literally everyone in Amity when he walks into school not even noticing an obviously broken limb or a huge gash.

#danny phantom #either extensive nerve damage #or congenital insensitivity to pain #either way dude will break his arm in 6 places and not even notice while everyone looks at him in horror #think of the body horror and the worrying Amity Parkers potential #somehow dragging himself into class with a busted femur #huh no wonder why my leg wasn't listening to me #everybody looking at him like how tf is this kid not curled up and/or screaming in pain rn #and Danny is just in the background staring at a rock like that is a nice rock #partially decapitated and this kid is doing his math test and not even giving 2 shits or noticing anything #since halfa biology can be pretty wild anyway