#kieran.txt

[weenie-wizard]

Are you an Oklahoma resident? Do you also want to try and remove Ryan Walters to counteract even more harm being done to our trans, nonbinary, and 2S kids?

Sign this petition to show your support of harm reduction for our schools

Share this link with others! Idc how you do it, just share it!

#oklahoma #nex benedict #transgender #nonbinary #2 spirit #two spirit #lgbt #lgbtq #please boost #kieran.txt

[ninjablorbos]

I'm not a Funko Pop person at all, but my coworker got these for my birthday, so I condone these two little guys.

#he knows me too well 😔 #shout out nick thank u for humoring my cringe ass naruto takes on the clock #i need to buy that man a wedding gift asap.. #kieran.txt #kakagai #mine

[kierans-crow]

Just personally:

I’ve been doing my best to edit the word ‘deserve’ out of my vocabulary. At least for the big things. Because sometimes, truly, I do just deserve a ✨treat✨— sometimes I am allowed. Sometimes a milkshake will be the perfect cherry on top of a great day, and sometimes it will be the consolation prize for surviving a shitty week. And in those instances nothing matters but the fact that I deserve a ✨treat✨ because it will, in fact, make me feel good.

Sometimes, I just see the Golden Arches and think “I deserve milkshake?” and some automatic process in my head starts calculating how close Pay Day is and whether I have Lactaid with me because otherwise my lactose intolerant body is going to feel Bad and sometimes it is just not worth it — In that case “deserve” is appropriate. Because the sneaky thing about the word “deserve” is that it looks like it’s giving permission but it’s not.

It’s a very sneaky word. And if used improperly it gets in your head, and it turns into this terrible insidious voice. “Deserve” leaves just enough room for doubt to be dangerous. And the only combatant to that doubt is “earning.”

But do you, though? What have you done to deserve that? What have you endured to deserve that? In the case of a milkshake, this voice delays a milkshake. Usually until either a very good day or a particularly bad one.

Which is why I don’t use “deserve” for the Big Things.

I do not deserve to eat. I do not deserve to sleep. I do not deserve love, or peace, or a shelter.

Vitally: Those are needs.

If I put sleep, or dinner, or a few moments to myself behind a door of having to earn it I am a person in trouble. Because what I need to do to earn those things is arbitrary. If I am hungry and have convinced myself I need to deep clean the apartment before I allow myself food and it’s already 7pm I am going to feel very Unwell very quickly and I’m probably going to be angry on top of it. My window of tolerance shrinks and my ability to take care of myself diminishes. It’s a shitty domino effect that does not end well.

There’s a lot less room for doubt in the sentence: “I need to eat because my body and brain need fuel.“ That is a fact. And if my body and brain are fuel: I'll be able to complete whatever task I've set before myself. Food is no longer a reward it is a necessary part of completing the task.

Similarly: "I need to sleep because it is good for me."

Or: "Humans are social creatures, so I need to maintain healthy, robust connections with the people I love, and if I don’t have those connections I need to set about making them."

And this subtle distinction in how I talk to myself does genuinely change things. Language and the words we use have a very real impact on how we perceive our realities, I have a tangent about language and color that will make an already very long post even longer and muddy the thesis, so I’ll save the dissertation, but the words we use effects our realty in surprising and profound ways.

Maybe I’ll replace my other uses of “deserve” with “allow.” Ask myself “am I allowed a milkshake?” instead. Same process of checks and balances, just without the strings, and it puts me more directly in charge of myself instead of leaving it to ??? whatever my perception of "earning" and "deserving" comes from.

Anyway I’ve been thinking about this for nearly an entire year, so, thanks for coming to my tedtalk.

#kieran.txt

[defokelore-13]

Anyone else's ears ever just decide "fuck it let's start ringing for no reason" so you just have to deal with The Curse of Ringing Ears

#kieran.txt #our text posts

[rxttingawayy]

mutually broke up with the boyf 👍

#THANK GOD IT WAS MUTUALLY. ive already broken up w it like. twice already. OH WELL now we know. #kieran.txt

[affectionlessthoughtform]

To be held down and treated like I'm nothing ..

#kieran.txt

[crescendo-system]

It is wild splitting fictives of characters before they go off the rails in the source media - moreso when we're actually on top of the media and therefore can't even get spoilers giving us notice - because sometimes it turns into:

"wow, yeah, I identify with that character. I wouldn't fucking say that.

Even if I would, I Wouldn't."

Which is such a bizarre way to feel, it's both validating us as separate individuals early on in a way but also we weren't ready to disagree so strongly with canon on this

#nine.txt #also about #kieran.txt #if you know you know #ramblingonandon #sys.txt #nine.doc #kieran.doc

[team-chimera-phoenix]

i should introject vajra. i know splitting is bad or whatever but i miss my fucking boyfriend

#kieran.txt #sysblr

[silentiumlitwicks]

I’m in the house like carpet

#kieran.txt

[vhsg0d]

help an intersex non-binary lesbian of color move away from an unsafe environment

Hi, all. I’m usually not active on here but I’m posting this because my friend Haneul and her family urgently needs help to move out of their current living situation, which is affecting their physical safety. She also needs to move away in order to heal from her past trauma, which won’t be disclosed here for safety reasons. However, due to low finances and COVID-19, the family are unable to move at the moment. They are also at-risk of being evicted. That is why I have decided to create a GFM on her behalf. 

Considering the nature of this situation, it’s important that Haneul reaches her goal ASAP in order for her and her family to move somewhere safe. Even if you can’t donate, we would greatly appreciate it if you can reblog this to spread the word.

⇨ GFM Link

Thank y’all.

#kieran.txt #donations #gofundme #signal boost #mutual aid

[definitelynotkieran]

I love how just two minutes ago I was severely depressed but now I'm manic lol

#bpd meme #actually bpd #actually borderline #kieran.txt #kieran while manic

[weenie-wizard]

When asked how Oklahoma leadership would deal with 2slgbtq+ hatecrimes in schools, in the context of a literal child being murdered in Owasso this month, one of our senators stated:

"I represent a constituency that doesn't want that filth in Oklahoma [...] We are a religious state and we are going to fight it to keep that filth out of the state of Oklahoma because we are a Christian state – we are a moral state."

To be clear the "filth" he is referring to is the 2slgbtq+ student who was murdered.

Shame on Oklahoma leadership and shame on everyone who supports them.

#ok to share #im at a loss tbh i really dont know what to do #at this point besties it might be exploding car with hammers time for these people #kieran.txt #oklahoma #nex benedict #lgbtq #2slgbtqia+ #queer #transgender #nonbinary

[ninjablorbos]

Correct me if I'm wrong, but does Naruto not pass the Bechdel Test until Ino comments on Sakura's big forehead???? Like 40 episodes in??

#naruto #naruto shitposting #ino #sakura #ino yamanaka #sakura haruno #kieran.txt #mine #sakuino

[kierans-crow]

"how do i get good at art" / "be insane about something" is not a joke, btw. it is in earnest.

my favorite OC has: -kept me motivated to practice and get better at art -pushed me out of artistic comfort zones -inspired so many writing projects -is motivating me to actually learn 3d modeling - a lifelong dream that never got off the ground except i wanna see my Blorbo in Action -helped me hone RP skills in DnD - and is now inspiring me to make a new subclass. The class is not even Canon I'm just having fun.

If you need practice to get good at something make the practice fun. sometimes that means you make The OC you would have been Abnormal about at 13 years old. make it all you think about. preferably, if possible, make friends who can encourage you and whom you can encourage. be unhinged together.

#kieran.txt

[rxttingawayy]

IM GONNA BE HONEST KITTEN. DADDYS ABOUT TO KILL HIMSELF

#the caption is so ironic guys i promise #id never call myself daddy are u insane #anyway - id be cutting soooo much rn but its below freezing and IM. SO FUCKING COLD. #kieran.txt

[affectionlessthoughtform]

Chat I need to hump a pillow so fucking bad

#kieran.txt