#let me sleep i beg of you

[iguessitsjustme]

I haven't slept in 3 days. Perhaps the second giant coffee at lunch was a bad idea. Looks like I'm heading into day 4! Someone yell at me to go to bed if you see me still lurking in an hour.

#rae irl #i am so so tired and yet the sleep #it eludes me #i can taste colors right now by the way #i can hear god and she's begging me to sleep #i look upon her face and tell her to make me #it sounds like a threat but actually i'm begging #dear god please make me sleep #let me sleep i beg of you

[carefulfears]

one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.

#it reminds me of 'sixth extinction' / 'amor fati' #when he quite literally was tied down and couldn't speak #and the way we hear him try to SCREAM when his mother just leaves him there #but his mind is Silent from the moment he hears scully in the hall begging to see him #and he couldn't crack a joke or run out the door #he literally just had to lie there and feel it #feel it on his Skin #her hand holding onto him #her tears falling onto his face #listening to the overwhelming depth of her fear that she is failing him and her devotion and her dedication to finding a way to help him #her Pleas for him to just 'hold on' #'i think that...if you know...if you could just find a way to hold on...i need you to hold on...please...' #everybody go listen to the civil wars' cover of 'talking in your sleep' #i don't think it can be overestimated how much of an impact that had on them and the lightness and healing in s7. that he Had to hear it #and then with the baby thing it's like...he CAN'T deny her that. he HAS to say 'yes' #there's no part of him that's capable of denying her something that she desires this badly. enough to ask for outright #and so he HAS to let himself be wanted and be invited into this unimaginably important and personal thing #let himself be a part of something bigger. be SEEN as someone who is valuable in a way that's bigger #and again he can't run from it and he can't deflect it and he can't hide from it. he has to just accept it #txf.txt #per manum

[shesalewa]

"Oh, to be doomed by the narrative, with the one you love most. The one you reach for, the one who slips through your fingers"

"the one you could've called yours"

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#gungoo angst #gungoo #more gungoo #lookism #lookism manhwa #lookism spoilers #lookism webtoon #gun park #googun #goo kim #lookism gun #gun angst #goo angst #“Oh to be doomed by the narrative with you. with you. the man i beg to hold into my arms #let me reach the stars' again. #but this time. Return me #while i sing a lulby and hush you to sleep.“

[fiendishartist2]

KEEP GAME CONSOLE RUNNING

#my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #petscop #paul leskowitz #petscop paul #explodes and cries and vomits and rips up the carpet and starts eating drywall #the closer we get to halloween the worse my petscop illness gets #PAAAUUUULLLLLLLL AAUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHH #paul cant leave his room and hes ROTTING. trapped in the family's house with no escape from the game. day in day out just playing petscop #bc hes obsessed. he needs to solve the mystery no matter how sick and distressing it becomes. bc hes obsessed #fuck. this part of petscop always fucks me up bc imagine how torturous it is #trapped in a house with ppl you dont like. that holds such horrible memories #you cant sleep bc the game is haunting you. both literally and figuratively #no matter how much it begs you cant turn it off and you cant stop thinking about it and when you sleep- #you see the red buzz of the screen behind your eyelids and the wailing alarm its letting out is unbearable #eventually you just give up and go back to playing the game bc you cannot escape it as long as you keep yourself in this fucking house #um anyways #i feel like when i make these posts i accidentally channel paul for a minute #tw eyestrain

[everysongineverykey]

[image description: the "what do you mean you don't like x" meme edited to say "what do you mean you don't like toriel dreemurr". numerous sprites of toriel from undertale and deltarune are scattered about the image, as well as her official undertale tarot card. end id]

of course this is lighthearted and i can absolutely understand not liking her as she has many faults of her own that make her a compelling character far past the basic "mom" image the fandom has reduced her to. so. What Do You Mean You Hate Toriel

#undertale #deltarune #toriel dreemurr #she is Everything to me. just so you know #do you know that? okay good. i will keep telling you just so you don't forget #pleeeeaaase toby i'm begging you let her go to the dark world so i can have more cool sprites to put on this #although if her dark world outfit is just her undertale outfit i wouldn't complain. that'd be hilarious #guys she literally has pjs. she has pyjamas do not sleep on this (no pun intended) #actually you know what. pinning this

[aquarian-queen]

Troy Otto in 8x07

#troy otto #daniel sharman #ftwd spoilers #fear the walking dead #ftwd #He was so nonchalant here too #But the way he looks at Madison seems almost disappointed she'd even let her emotions get the best of ber #Oof let me go to sleep #I'll try to share as much as I can soon #I literally only recorded the kast 15 minutes #Troy otto goodness #Hope we'll get interviews of Daniel sharman #Cause I WILL be psycho analyzing these scenes and Troy's motives #You know other than the Ranch being destroyed and his family murdered #Gives us more pleaseeeee #Make it about his daughter and not that dang Ranch #I beg of you writers

[just-gay-thoughts]

The Wedding Reception from the Jykkl and Hyde musical starts off so sweet but quickly takes a hard left turn into crying on the floor and that is why my homework isn't done

#gay thoughts #gay asks #'dont let her see not on our wedding day' he xares so much about her #heart breaks when he begs for the one guy to shoot him #anthony warlow why do you do this to me #sir why do you have to sound so sad #also anthony warlow doing both roles during confrontation like damn sir i see you #first time i heard confrontation i swore it was two different people #alsp lisa's scream at the end #'go to sleep my tormented love' *epic music ending* #if i ever see this live it will fuck me up

[mixmangosmangoverse]

Man that post referencing the Giver just gave me intense flashbacks please let me adapt the book again please I would do a great job it would be animated and abstract and weird but also down to earth I wouldn't shoehorn in action and romance please I've loved this book since I was 11 Hollywood please please plea-

#if you've ever been with me. ever. and i got the opportunity you would know i despise the movie i cannot stand it #I'm standing outside of Hollywood studios menacingly begging to create an actually faithful adaptation of the books #ever since i first saw the movie i wanted to attempt my own because it's the only things that's so bad that i can do it myself #its the original in my long list of movies i will one day beg Hollywood to let me remake alongside Ruby Gillman and mayhaps cat in the hat #mango rambles #the giver #books #mango screams incoherently at 11 PM when they should be sleeping oopsie daisy

[baeshijima]

JINGLIU 1.4 DRIP ?!!2£2):)8:)2)&292

YES MY QUEEN 🧎‍♀️🙇‍♀️

#may the stars guide you <3 #WELL GOODMORNING TO U MAAM 😩😩 #hsr twt whos going to be the other banner….. #wait but if she came out first does that mean shes the first phase…… pls let her be second phase….. i beg……. #okay now im going back to sleep bc i suddenly woke up with the urge to check twt and now i think im a prophet or smth #its 6 am but thats too early for me #ALSO LYNEY AND LYNETTE DEMO #i havent watched it yet but i will when i wake up again 🫡

[wanderershu]

If jingyuan leaves for a vacation or something in a future update I won't mind it at all. If anything, I'll celebrate it and will be more than glad to know that he's getting a well deserved rest since this man needs it so much.

#I'll also not mind receving vacation pictures from him #I'll print them out and carry it with me literally everywhere #give jingyuan a vacation hyv I am begging you #he needs rest!! he's old let him sleep more #jingyuan #HSR #honkai starrail

[daysofnights]

james potter drools in his sleep

#corvus thoughts™ #ive started having random hcs again #just appear in my brain #this is a bad sign #uni better not make me fixate on the marauders again #let me find a new hyperfixation i beg #james potter #marauders #james potter headcanon #thinking percabeth thoughts now actually #cause solangelo is more jegulus #but the ‘you drool in your sleep’ #is just so reg to james

[vivid-vices]

love being awake all night in the hospital despite being on meds that should have me knocked tf out. at least they have good wifi i guess??

#i am literally on morphine why am i still so fucking coherent #let me sleep i am begging you #medical // #ellie.txt

[resolutepath]

[ pat, for achi ] “Do you want to go back to sleep, or shall I make you a cup of tea?”

"...tea, if you don't mind. I won't sleep again."

It is still strange, occupying the same space as Patroclus, but not unwanted. Achilles had, after all, spent the time since they parted on an excursion of grief, roaming the cosmos for any sign that he might find his lover again, so to be by his side now has not yet become comfortable. He'd only been here because they had spoken for long enough for the light to wane and the night to arrive, offered space to rest rather than trekking back to the Silvermane barracks where he had been put up by the captain.

He rises from sweat ridden sheets and pushes his hair off his face, rubbing palms against eyes as if it might ease the fitful pace of his heart. It's his penance, he knows, the consequences of his own actions, but it does not make it any easier to see his face in his sleep, to be reminded of all the terrible things he had done. The desecration and destruction that he had left in his wake, wishing the world would be left in ashes so he might feel comfortable standing upon it again.

"Did I wake you?" he asks, softly, his words only emphasising how drained he felt, the tone depleted of all lustre, more so than usual. Was I screaming? Is the question he wants to ask but refrains. Sometimes it is best to not know what words fell from his lips in his sleep. He's certain that some of them might undo the tentative repairs that have been made between them otherwise.

He drops his hands then, making himself move, if only to distract himself from what he had seen, even if all he desires to do is fall back into the sheets and bury himself away. A pace he starts up, counting each step in his head, only pausing when he sees the other holding the steaming cup out as an offering.

#caemthe #muses. [ achilles. ] #source. [ f.go. ] #source. [ h.sr xover. ] #bond. [ caemthe; patroclus / i’ve been cold since you left; make me feel like i am breathing. ] #( he was in fact screaming and begging in his sleep ) #queue. [ stars hide your fires; let not light see my black and deep desires. ]

[expensivemountaintea]

When the ADHD is being an actual mental illness/disorder and actually keeps me from achieving anything in life instead of making me silly and giving me the zoomies

#Hate when that happens #Please just let me finish the laundry im begging you #And please let me sleep. I still have school tomorrow #ADHD #Sometimes during momemts like these i curse myself for choosing to be unmedicated #Now i want meds but i still havent found a psychiatrist thay has a spot for me #so he could prescribe me them

[i-hid-lucifers-ducks]

International Asexuality Day… and how I watched Wednesday instead of remembering to finish a doodle of asexual Alastor…

Hello my one follower and anyone else who sees this! I understand that, due to just posting for the first time not too long ago, I have yet to post anything else. Not for much longer! It is International Asexuality Day (IAD) today and I was going to post a silly little doodle of our little aroace icon ALASTOR!!

Unfortunately I got busy… Wellll technically I got to watching Wednesday because my friend begged me to watch it, but THAT’S NOT THE POINT. The point IS that I did not finish the doodle. I will hopefully (and most-likely) be throwing it into the terrifying abyss that is Tumblr tomorrow. Have a lovely day/night my dears! 🙂

#hazbin #hazbin hotel alastor #Wednesday #i need sleep please let me sleep #I am begging both you people and my insomniac brain #asexuality #international asexuality day #asexual pride #no I am not going to write every possible tag for this #Asexual

[wriochilde]

i would give my liver to see kizami killing kurosaki in actual detail instead of it just showing the aftermath im losing my mind

#the way kizami is speaking about it sounds so. god. let me see im fucking begging you #like you cant just talk about how much kizami enjoyed it and not show me it in full detail PLEASE #straddling his hips and gutting him GODDDDD SAVE ME #im so insane about this i actually cant sleep #finn.txt