#like seriously i can't handle this

[lyxchen]

David Tennant too cute to play evil characters

#like seriously i can't handle this #i just watched that criminal: uk episode with him and like #such good acting!!!! #but also i can't handle him being the bad guy #same with inside man #but sadly he's just too fucking good at playing characters like this #jessica jones is okay cause he's babygirl enough in that show so it's fine #but also i haven't finished that show yet so idk what's still gonna happen #i think i'll have to watch a fun david tennant movie now so i can chill out again #lea's random thoughts

[cyanide-sippy-cup]

Finally watched Blue Eye Samurai and damn, this show really is everything everyone's been saying. But also man, it's really making me think how much I wish non-animated shows focused on visuals. With everything being nearly-fully CGI, why do movies and shows have to look so... boring? If a friend group with a 90s camcorder can do it, why can't Disney (check out GGLS btw)? Idk, just frustrates me. Anyway, here's this show being eye candy.

#GGLS is Green Goblin's Last Stand #legit for a film made by friends with pocket change it has some seriously impressive cinematography sometimes #blue eye samurai #mizu blue eye samurai #also MAN i love how they handle disabilities in the show #i cant speak for the amputee rep but as someone with speech impediments (stammer and a lisp) i adore the way they approached it #like “mind works so fast mouth can't keep up” is literally something i use to explain my stammer #and then portraying it not only as something undeserving of hate but also as beautiful and worth love/sexual desire? #man that shit put a giddy lil smile on my face #netflix #animation #mizu #takayoshi blue eye samurai

[thefloatingstone]

This is the funniest fucking email (or it would be if there weren't other hilarious emails as well)

I want to see Shepard needing to sit down and argue with the bank over the phone for like 3 hours

#Mass Effect #Mass Effect 2 #Sorry Tim Curry #Even space is not free from capitalism #Seriously tho this is so fucking funny #I can't decide if Shepard would be freakishly good at handling phone tag with banks #or if she'd be really REALLY bad at it #because both options seem likely #spoiler #spoilers

[softpine]

she's looking especially sacrificial lamb today 🥩

#we're so back baby #i think i'm finallyyyy through the worst of this awful depression i've been in for the past like. month and a half #i mean i woke up this morning and thought ''the sun is so beautiful'' so i think i'm good for now fjksjds #which is great because there's some heavy stuff coming up that i just couldn't handle in that mental state #so i'm hoping i'll be able to move things along a little quicker #but also i might be getting a job in retail against my better judgement so who knows #i've never actually worked in retail... i've done food service and i was a cashier at a pop up shop but nothing like an actual store #but i seriously can't find a job with my degree nor can i even find a desk job. so i'm. man. it's rough out here #i might have to move. but with what money?? lmao the eternal dilemma #SORRY this is a whole diary entry #i hope you guys are well 💖

[roach-in-the-kitchen]

YOU HAVE TO HOLD IZZY LIKE A CHICKEN!!! THE WAY THAT FANG HAD WRESTLE HIM AND BASICALLY PIN HIS ARMS TO HIS SIDES. YOU HAVE TO HOLD HIM LIKE A FUCKING CHICKEN. TELL ME THAT THIS

AND THIS

AREN'T THE SAME PICTURE!!

YOU CAN'T

THEY ARE THE SAME PICTURE

(except for one is more emotionally devastating)

#our flag means death #izzy hands #ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd 2 spoilers #I'M GOING TO KMS OMG #I CAN'T HANDLE THIS #THIS MAN MAKES ME TOO MENTALLY ILL #I CANNOT CONTROL THE PERSON IM ABOUT TO BECOME FOR THE NEXT 48 HOURS #LIKE SERIOUSLY

[purplink8]

Can I be real for a second? I don't think L giving a foot massage to Light was very in-character of him. Like manga!L would've totally scoffed at how pathetic anime!L appeared when he did that.

I like the rain scene bc it's really pretty (also Light MOANS bc of L? *sighs* yeah i ship lawlight) but I'm always so ?? at anime!L's behavior? The anime made L way too melancholic and y'know self-deprecating kinda guy. In contrast, manga!L (whom I love to death) is so so confident in doing what he's doing and has the time of his life during the Kira case as he's intellectually challenged (by Light) as he figures out the case little by little.

I don't get where the anime creators got the idea that L is a very sad character who cares about justice so much so that he's actually Justice itself? Manga!L enjoys solving cases. I'm not saying that L doesn't care about justice at all- just that he cares more about winning.

So, the anime creators looked at a character who cares about winning (& his own ego) than everything else and decided to... make him give a foot massage to his nemesis (surprise surprise bible symbolism featuring L as Jesus *🤮* coming up) apparently due to accepting Light's (boy's first debut as Judas) 'betrayal' how can there be betrayal when there was no trust between them in the first place and saying "It is the least I can do to atone for my sins"...

The only way I could've made a little sense of this is if L was mocking Kira with that line but the anime just had to go above & beyond to make it (L's actions) seem too genuine for that to be true. which is. so. FRUSTRATING

Manga!L wouldn't have done anything like that. Not even ironically (he'd have thought it to be below him for pretending to be accepting his defeat mockingly to Kira). Even Manga!L's not enough of a bastard to try to compare himself with Jesus (and just after knowing (god knows how) that he's going to die)- like that's too stupid omg: even for a mockery.

Does he actually think that Light would pick up on the (him as Jesus) symbolism and be like 'oh no! L is too noble like Jesus to die by my betrayal i'm such a bad judas how come i NEVER NOTICED THIS BEFORE'... and decide to spare L's life? Or embrace his inner Judas like the bad bitch he is and finish L for that godawful mockery of Jesus?

Whenever I think about Anime!Light's in-character reaction I crack up as it would be smth like 'wow this guy who graduated summa cum laude from torture university is pretending to be Jesus? lol what a real piece of work. would've expected better from you L: so pathetic lmao i hope rem kills you soon i'm so done with you rn- rip 💀'

Manga!L (if he knew he were going to die (don't know how that's possible in the anime; still we're talking about how the anime creators seem to see L as Jesus so ~anything is possible~) that is) would never go 'guess i'll die' accept his defeat offering a foot massage to his enemy and inwardly throw a pity party being all "… It'll be lonely, won't it?" GIRL you were the one going on & about how you'd EXECUTE Kira once you catch him on live tv (also saying that you'd bring Kira's head to the task force) I REALLY doubt you'd feel lonely if either one of you were to die- that (killing each other) was the point!!

Manga!L is a selfish character: he values his victory above all else so the anime making him accept defeat that easily + gracefully doesn't sit well with me.

#death note #l lawliet #light yagami #manga vs anime #manga!L #anime!L #anime!Light #the rain scene #the foot massage scene #yes i ship lawlight; no i don't think the rain scene was very faithful to L's character in the manga; yes we exist #as you can see i rlly RLLY don't like anime's take on L: i prefer the og manga!L :) #anime!L just isn't my cup of tea #manga!L's confidence in his assholery is much rather appreciated #i keep thinking about how i don't like certain parts of dn anime: the first of which being this rain scene #the second being how the anime handles Sayu's kidnapping and Light's reaction to it #but that's a can of worms i'll open later #i can't shut up apparently so here's a teaser: Light wouldn't have MURDERED Sayu OH MY GOD READ THE GODDAMN MANGA #in which he bends over backwards to protect her! and succeeds!! (at the cost of losing the death note to Mello) would you look at that?? #yeah i'm aware anime!Light doesn't kill Sayu but the way he's shown seriously considering it #(and choosing to let her live only so as to not increase suspicion) #leaves me so ANGRY #SAYU MEANS A LOT TO LIGHT OK? #he would not fucking do that #aaaaand....end rant #p #my meta #sorta #100

[jangmi-latte]

LMAO THAT "MOST HATED TWST CHARACTER" POLL MADE ME CRACK THE SHIT UP WTF DO YOU MEAAAAAAN‼️‼️‼️ 🗣️ 🗣️ SORRY BUT THIS BLOG OWNER WANTS TWO OF THE MOST HATED TWST CHARACTERS IN HER DAMN MOUTH RIGHT NOW WHAT GAME WERE YOU PLAYIINNNNNG 😭😭😭😭😭

#twst discourse #but in all seriousness wtf do you mean toxic ex 😭😭 he's literally so honest and you'd prefer a sugarcoating friend??? uh no #aND THE THING ABOUT VIL VS EPEL AGAIN ALL THE DAMN TIME #my men never gets a break i'm sorry my loves they can't handle your gentry #ayayaaaaa i'm not even surprised likeeeee y'all are praising malleus but couldn't even handle vil let's be real #in my point i ain't forcing you to like them but come??? on???

[jicklet]

Nick & Ace in 4.06 – “The Web of Yesterdays”

#nancy drew #nancy drew cw #nancydrewedit #ned nickerson #ace [redacted] #ace hardy #nick x ace #ace x nick #cwedit #teendramaedit #v watches nancy drew #v posts things #a true bro is there to be backup for his bro even when he's pretty sure this is a bad idea #seriously though I love Nick recognizing that Ace is having a rough time and this is how he's dealing but not pushing him about it #Ace bristles at people saying he can't handle something or he doesn't know what he's doing #and the more I think about it Nick likes to be subtle with his advice #he so rarely comes right out with it unless someone's provided the space for it #and i think that works well for the two of them #i may have given myself another gifset idea oh dear

[aevari]

Spring cleaning...?

Been getting tired of my old name/handle online as Zofia. I really wanted a refresh and have been enjoying going by Aev for some time now so that's what I'd prefer folks call me 💗 With this change I am also transitioning my art handle away from artofzofia to just aevari going forward as well. My art blog: @aevari my commission website: aevari.carrd.co my art twitter: @aevari_art my kofi: @aevari_art I still have a lot of updating to do on my social media/website/paypal to reflect the change in the coming weeks, especially as I prepare to launch my commissions again in early May.

I have artofzofia here on tumblr and twitter that will be redirecting to the new urls in case folks try searching me up and haven't caught up to the news yet. At least for a little while before I ditch it entirely.

Thanks for listening and really excited to just go by a new online handle and name that better reflects me 🌷

#aevari is actually one of my most beloved ocs! lol have been vibing with just aev for myself hehe it's a nice gender neutral online name. #i also wanted to kind of chill out on being so Official with my handles like 'artof'. #while i DID like that my handles across the board was all unified and I can't with this change I am not even that known for it to matter #that much lol so I don't want to take my art too seriously and just enjoy posting rather than being like Professional

[mulletmitsuya]

random tokrev rant ahead !!

when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?

#anyway #i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad #and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend #that they're right and i personally cannot handle that #i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out #so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health #i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason #why can't two opinions co-exist #let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭 #like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines #and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah” #whole time this person's an izana apologist #like😐 #i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain” #and it seems like they understand that about izana so???? #ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokrev

[thebirdandhersong]

sometimes (very often) I just sit there like ?????????

#mother has asked once again in all seriousness if i'd consider mr knight if he were to ask me out a second time................ #mother the answer is you couldn't pay me enough money to do that. i'd literally rather be single for the rest of my life #between mr knight and the engineer boy ive learned quite a lot about what i'd like/DEFINITELY would not like in a potential boyfriend #and personally. PERSONALLY. i can't do this no more <3 i CANNAE HANDLE that kind of anxiety sadness insecurity confusion! #the anniversary of the day i wrote mr knight a ten page (occasion: valentine's day) love letter for the first time #and received a random Facebook meme and two weeks of radio silence in return is coming up and i must say #that kind of experience is enough for a girl to put her foot down and declare: that's enough. i can't do this no more :-) #anyway father too was like well all things considered mr knight's not the worst option. he's okay. he could turn out okay #to which i say. father. i may seem and feel desperate at times but i'm not THAT desperate. #no offense to mr knight he simply isnt the right person for me and im simply not the right person for him #i wouldnt be offended if he said you couldnt pay me enough money to date her again either (well. maybe a little. but still)

[daz4i]

i think I'm gonna try using tumblr less if i can

I'll probably fail and you're still gonna see me online a lot but. yeah I'm gonna at least try to make my visits shorter

#seeing things abt The Situation is making my mental health really really bad #and well. ppl are posting abt it. naturally. they should tbh it's an important topic i just can't handle seeing it #that being said I'm gonna sound really dramatic but it's true: #if you see i haven't posted anything at all for like 2 weeks in a row that means i probably died or at least got seriously hurt

[lord-squiggletits]

IDW1 must take place on an alternate Earth where no one has ever heard of ACAB and everyone wears "thin blue line" merchandise because there's literally no other way that a single Autobot killing a USAmerican cop in self defense would be such worldwide news that even Mexican journalists would go "OMG???? You like, killed a cop?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?" and it wasn't even framed as like, "you killed a human," the phrasing every time any character talked about it was very specifically "he killed a cop".

The cop was also threatening to shoot a group of surrendering/not-attacking/injured Autobots btw which is just the icing on the cake honestly lmao

#yeah i still think about how that plot point's handling in phase 2 was fucking dumb #you can't convince me that if a usamerican cop got shot by an alien people wouldn't be making memes about it #ppl would be making memes like 'you know a pig is a pig because he'll even shoot alien robots when they're surrendering' #i'm also mad bc the gun that that cop had was a replica of cybertronian guns that meg spread among earth's populace #and what's worse is spike and this other guy literally HEARD M EXPLAIN HIS EVIL PLAN ABOUT THIS #but somehow in phase 2 literally no one ever brings it up ever again #like not even spike brings up the whole 'yeah M had mind controlling guns that he did specifically to destabilize the population' #he was just like 'nah that autobot shot a cop the autobots are evil now' #but like. i wanna make the earth ac/ab memes so badly lmao #you know that ppl would be making 'officer down' jokes about some cop getting killed by an alien robot #don't try to tell me that it's bc they're alien robots people would suddenly support the US #ppl literally make 9/11 jokes bc they hate the US that much don't even try to tell me earth would suddenly unite over a usamerican cop #getting shot on the job no less #and this is also a story written by barber who's literally the ac/ab writer that gave OP shit for being a cop so like #it's honestly so baffling. like was he trying to make a point about police brutality #bc jazz is black coded and he killed a cop so that's why barber wrote everyone hating jazz for it? #idek it's just another one of those stupid plot contrivances i hate and make me unable to take the rest of the story seriously

[ftdino]

i think it's a little odd that people of colour are consistently obligated to be patient and understanding when it comes to whitewashing. we are put in a position where we will be villainised if we don't react passively to this kind of harm. then, frequently, when we give people this patience and calmness while speaking to them, they don't take it seriously. they don't understand the extent to which it is harming us because we aren't allowed to show how much it affects us.

#it's so incredibly exhausting because we're trying to spare your feelings #because you can't separate “this is harmful” from a personal attack #but then you don't take us seriously #and then you get shocked when eventually we get tired #and become less patient #and suddenly it's “how was i supposed to know it was this bad?” #and not “i didn't realise the extent of the harm that came from my actions” #and for the most part it's fully grown adults making these mistakes #and we've been having to baby you the past 279384 times you've made these mistakes #and somehow when we stop coddling you WE'RE the childish ones #and i wasn't going to talk about this situation but the response made me really disappointed #because it's so fucking invalidating and it's not even like this is an isolated event #and the same excuse of “well you should've handled my mistake better” makes me! want! to! scream! #like whitewashing is a consistent problem across kpop in general #and it's AAPI month and i feel like you owe me ten dollars #summer.txt

[dreamlogic]

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

#ctxt #i'm on medication that's reduced my post-hysterectomy pain by about 70% #i have an intake appointment with a physical therapist in march & a referral to start trigger point injections #to hopefully finally recover as completely as possible from the nightmarish neuropathy that's plagued me since uuuhhhh #going on 2 years ago. holy shit. genuinely can't believe i've been surviving & functioning as well as i have for this long #while suffering a disabling & extremely painful surgical complication. fuck my original surgeon for brushing me off during that time #but the new provider i'm working with is so responsive & thorough in her approach & seems genuinely committed #to helping me finally get relief after all this time. she listens to my feedback & is flexible in her approach #and her assistant is a great communicator who's been handling most of the logistics of care coordination for me #and what a huge fucking relief that is. to not have to drag my doctors kicking & screaming towards maybe treating me eventually #i wanna cry. i finally feel like i'm being taken seriously and cared for. and i'm not BETTER yet (might never be the same as i was pre-op) #but i actually feel optimistic for the first time in over a year that i won't just have to deal with this agonizing pain on my own forever #i might actually see enough improvement that i can start to get back to living my life instead of just surviving it #money is tighter than it's been since i got laid off during early pandemic and that's stressing me out #but i promised myself that i would put my health first in 2024 and that means only working the bare minimum needed to pay my bills for now #genuinely i so fucking needed a break. i felt like i was trying to swim through a meat grinder last year #and it wasn't until i ended up in the ER about it that i finally was able to take my own pain seriously enough #to put my foot down & make some necessary changes that are now letting me focus on Getting Well With Myself at last #in hindsight it's like. really freaking me out how thoroughly i was able to compartmentalize & dissociate from how miserable i was #bc nobody who had the ability to help me would take me seriously & my shitty boss was like. extremely textbook emotionally abusive #and on one hand that was a survival mechanism that kept me on my feet during one of the worst times of my life. so props to myself there #but it was also very maladaptive how long & unnecessarily it went on before i snapped out of it & escalated things for my own safety #it was the same helpless frustration i often felt as a kid of like 'well nobody is on my side but me so i gotta suck it up & help myself' #and i think the family trauma shit that was going on last year definitely contributed to that. idk sense of doubling across time? #and things had to get Extremely Bad before they were bad enough for me to realize that although i felt like it #i am no longer an isolated & parentified island of a child who is beholden to the whims of ignorant & indifferent adults #i actually can and should take action to advocate for myself bc i am an adult and i CAN now change my circumstances as needed #instead of just enduring them as if i'm stuck there with no agency or chance to change things #and i have a really solid support system who helped me feel like it was possible to stand up for myself to get the help i desperately need #chronic blogging

[countthelions]

Iskall creating sugar plum fairy flowers in Vault Hunters for Stress bc she was having a bad day and tried cheering her up

#that post where it's i can't help it. i love how men love #that's me turning into a puddle of somftness #godddHs #hermitcraft vault hunters #mcyt #from vodskall: cheeky scavhunters #LIKE SERIOUSLY ???? I CANNOT HANDLE THAT!!! #man makes a flower as a permanent addition to the game #a secret!!! #bc his friend wasn't having a good day and didn't believe him when he called her that as a pick me up compliment #seriously!!!!! i cannot help it ;; love how men love