#look i’m going through it tonight

[mattodore]

very slowly getting somewhere with ria... also fangs <3

#river dipping #alessandria zeferino #lykos #ts4 #bc of this messed up body preset taking screenshots of them in cas is definitely gonna be relegated to just closeups #this was their old hair from when i first made them back in 2022... i kinda wanna bring it back i think #they had super long hair from how long they'd been shifted after they traumatically ascended to the alpha... #they probably don't get it all cut off until dionte joins the pack #and mmmmm... these are only temporary scars!! i will definitely be making my own scars for them like i'm doing with matthias #ocs gotta have this stuff customized to me #also the reflection of the moon in their eyes…. mmmyeah i had to do that. i kinda want to add it to delphi and dionte’s sims now too. #werewolf ocs…. grabs them. shakes them. #but anyway… this is where i’m leaving off on their sim tonight 👍 #i’m going to read and finally go through my activity from earlier #and maybe edit a bit on these mattodore pics from the other day #tomorrow i will be back in cas toiling away for their sim 🧎 #their jawline… i need to figure out how to get it looking like how i want #without them having a huge chin #and without the mxao making everything look weird

[kaitaiga]

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#you know what sucks? #not being happy with ur own art #like it genuinely sucks #I could pour hours into something and then absolutely fucking hate it the moment I post it #like I’ll lay in bed just staring at something I made #looking at all the flaws #something I think is great now is something I’ll probably hate in the future #I honestly just think my art is boring #that’s probably it #for months I’ve struggled to draw maybe bc of all the stress I’m going through irl #but idk #I’m not feeling too good about my art tonight sorry #with that being said though I am pretty pleased with my recent post #but everything else I’ve drawn just… idk. #kaitaiga’s thoughts

[madigoround]

So I’ve been working on my anxieties about the future a lot lately and I’ve made some really great improvements, including getting almost entirely past my stress over getting a pet because it could lead to financial turmoil (I have a million back up plans in place now to make me feel more comfortable about such things) and I had been thinking I might get a dog because not only would it be company but as a woman living alone it might provide me some level of intimidation from outsiders, and as a step in the direction of getting a pet and also just because I enjoy it I have been fostering and today I brought my foster kitten back (I already miss her but she never got less feral and her scratching and biting only hurt more as she grew, hopefully she’ll calm down as she grows up) and I was sad that I would be going home alone tonight so I took a stroll around the shelter and I was only really looking at the dogs entertaining getting one and then this meow calls me over to the kitten side and there’s this little fur ball and she comes right to me to get pet (my foster kitten hated being pet or held so this was a nice change) and I ended up sitting down with her in a one on one and she was so sweet but I had to go back to work and they’re closing early tonight so I said if she’s still there tomorrow then it was meant to be and if she’s not I hope she has a good life and now that I’m sitting at work I can think a little more clearly beyond the OH MY GOD THIS KITTEN IS SO CUTE AND SWEET but I keep looking at her photo and I think I would really love her, I kept saying I would keep my foster kitten if she was cuddly or affectionate lol but getting a kitten wasn’t the plan really so I don’t know if I should abandon the dog plan and get this kitten or not adopt the kitten and keep looking for a dog and fostering until I find the right one

#there’s only two animals that need fostering at the shelter right now and they’re both dogs with serious aggression and bite history and I #don’t know if I can do that so I can’t foster until there’s another one that needs fostering and truthfully I wasn’t planning to find a pet #today when I was walking around I was just looking at the cute animals and this little baby captured me lol #feel free to ignore this I’ve been using time at the gym to process things lately and think through it but I’m excited to hand out candy to #trick or treaters tonight so I can’t go today and just #I got a call while writing these tags so I don’t remember where I left off but it helps to just get my thoughts out of my brain and the #occasional advice is nice too

[elijah-inmymind]

OH MY GOD SHUT UP U GUYS I AM THINKING ABOUT DVDS!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD. I LOVE DVDS. DISCS. HOLY SHIT U GUYS. HHHHHHHHHH.

GONNA BUY A PORTABLE DVD PLAYER AND THEN I’M GONNA WATCH BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN!!!!!!!!! I ALREADY HAVE BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN ON DVD BUT I HAVEN’T SEEN IT YET DUE TO NO DVD PLAYER.

AND THEN I’M GONNA FIND MY ROBOTS DVD AND I!!!! AM GOING!!!!!! TO WATCH!!!! ROBOTS!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S THE BEST MOVIE POSSIBLY EVER AND I REFUSE TO WATCH IT ONLINE. IT LIVES ON A DVD!!!

I CAN’T FIND MY ROBOTS DVD RN BUT OH BOY WHEN I DO!!!!! I WON’T BE ABLE TO WATCH IT BC I DON’T HAVE A DVD PLAYER YET. BUT ROBOTS!!!!! EXCITED FOR ROBOTS.

#and then i’m gonna watch my Addams Family dvd from my mum #and iRobot #and Chappie #and i’ll go on a hunt to find The Matrix so i can watch it all the time on my PORTABLE DVD PLAYER #“but u can just watch it on the internet” #okay??????????? #where’s the fucking joy in that????????????????? #no whimsy?? no nostalgia?? #no obsession with the technology of ur childhood that u never got to fully understand before it fell out of use?? #that lived such a short life in the grand scheme of the endless development of technology???? #this beautiful little blip in the history of technology and i get to use it to watch the best movie of all time. Robots (2002). #had to put this on pause for a sec to document my cat stepson giving me the most zooted look #mouth hangin open and everything #he’s a fucking weird cat #orange obviously #incredibly unhinged at all times #very very cute and sweet just the most good tempered cat you’ll ever meet #so so so fucking stupid #SO stupid #afraid of when u adjust ur legs when sitting on the couch to get more comfy #but not afraid of running into literally any and every solid surface he can #he once ran full tilt at my feet seemingly intending to phase right through them #no brace for impact no attack posture no hesitation at all it was like i wasn’t even there #and he was utterly shocked when i #a big lumbering giant #whacked him with my shin right in his skull so hard. like a soccer ball. just THUNK. #that’s a lie he was actually almost entirely unphased aside from looking at me like it was my fault #jesus christ #i’m gonna be so real with u man i forgot what i was doing #fuck me. no more yapping for tonight.

[ascendingtostardust]

Do you think that when Jake was teaching Sam bass, he purposely showed him specific songs that he liked playing on guitar so he’d have someone to play with

#I’m going through it tonight no one look at me #jake kiszka #sam kiszka

[spocksgotemotions]

speaking of Worf if anyone knows which episodes have good Worf action scenes please let me know because I am struggling a bit

#captain’s own #dumb bitch hours #star trek #Worf #I’m gonna go through some of the ds9 ones tonight but I could not for the life of me find a good action scene #tonight I’m defo going through Looking for Par’Mach and Our Man Bashir (less action scenes for Worf I think but he’s So Hot in it)

[kimtaegis]

finished about 80% of a comp of this run bts special but you know what. no lol

#I’m so full of rage tonight I could really feel it build up over the last few hours #triggered by this – forgive my language – stupid ass fandom #the love I have for those boys is really being tested over and over again #and I don’t know how much longer it’ll hold against the absolute stupidity of a (way too) big part of this fandom #the utter bullshit I have to read makes me want to constantly bang my head against a wall #maybe then I’d be able to nod along and still have a good time #cause boy that has been tough #from hating on every other group over harassing people who dare to say one critical thing about bts to wanting #to ‘boycott’ sk because of the enlistment news #are you actually hearing yourself? #like who do you think you are? #this superiority complex mixed with that utter hate and negativity many armys spread makes me SICK #do you think bts would be proud of you for looking down and hating on everybody #for only supoorting their country and its industry #not because you genuinely like/ enjoy it but because you follow them like cult members that tell you what to do? #for turning them into these untouchable beings that are only allowed to like each other and everyone else is below their standard #and shouldn't even dare come near them. what a lonely life you wish these men istg #suddenly you're all spokespersons for grown adults you don't know shit about #or you're playing polticians who know excatly what's going on behind the scenes cause you read a tweet about it #I genuinely wonder how these people go through their life? are you defending your actual loved ones like that too? #are you capable of not throwing a fit when someone else has a different opinion than you or criticises you. actually YOU. not some band? #how can one abandon every bit of critical thinking like that? I just don't get it #what's wrong with just being sad about them leaving for a while #WITHOUT being the most ignorant arrogant hateful assholes #never in my life have I encountered this much spite and toxicity #just...chill. just listen to their music make cute edits watch their videos but please for the love of god. just shut up for once #I could go on and on but. also no #could already kick myself for even being this affected that I had to write it down #contributing to this senseless discourse and putting my own negativity out there #I feel at least a little bit lighter now

[rosieshipper]

Don’t think about a tlou wolfwalker au

Don’t think about a tlou wolfwalker au

Don’t think about a tlou wolfwalker au

Don’t think about a tlou wolfwalker au

DON’T THINK ABOUT-

*google doc opens up*

Oh no

#I watched wolfwalkers tonight and now I’m thinking about feral Ellie as a wolfwalker #Joel having to deal with the feral child after she accidentally bit him and turned him into a wolfwalker #He has to escape the Boston QZ because he knows he won’t be safe there with the bite and decides to head west to find his brother #but the night after he gets bit he suddenly wakes up as a wolf and starts panicking and running through the woods eventually finding Ellie #The two then have to travel together because Ellie is all alone and Joel just can’t leave her #So they both go west to look for Tommy #Bonding happens along the way and they become a pack #Hehehe I’m gonna have fun writing this #tlou #the last of us #tlou hbo #the last of us hbo #joel miller #ellie williams #ellie miller #pedro pascal #bella ramsey #wolfwalkers #wolfwalkers au

[seismologically-silly]

when will my advisor return from the war (holiday break)

#I’ve run out of tasks to do #got library books for the proposal #read through the code documentation to figure out what’s going on under the hood #gotta sit and wait for the code to complete which takes like a day or two per step #I’m reading a previous student’s proposal now to look at how it’s supposed to be structured #might make cookies tonight as an excuse to visit the state Geological Survey tomorrow and say hi #adventures in academia!

[safebannie]

DONT TOUCH ME IM EMOTIONAL

#PLEASE #saiki k #IM CRYING LOOK AT THAT SOFT FACE #my face is in my hands i can’t even anymore #i become deceased every time I read this #netflix stopped working so I’m reading instead #i thought to myself ‘no matter what I WILL go through time leap arc tonight’

[caterpillarinacave]

customer service is wild

#I was supposed to go on break at 7:30 and it turned 7:30 while I was halfway through one customer with on more in line with just a few thing #So I figured okay I’ll flip off my light and get through these two then go on break. Well naturally a third lady joins the line #The night is pretty dead so I just go “oh ma’am if you would mind popping down to lane three they can get you all taken care of :D” #And she with peak exasperation she goes “NO there’s a long line at three. There’s a long lane everywhere actually” #I just shrug and go about finishing the person Im ringing up intending to just dip the moment im done and let her go wait in the line #Then I notice one of the lanes down there is open and literally empty so I go “Hey ma’-am lane four is just opening up now if you want to-“ #And she interrupts me to go “Yeah I see. I think it’s been open the whole time I think” and walks off #And I…. I’m not sure what to say to that #Did she know the whole time? Did she just not bother to look and noticed while waiting? #I presume she was already frustrated and just snapped at me without really looking so go off I guess? Go off I guess lol #Tonight has been a weird night #Little children have been weird #Adults have been weird

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[neondiamond]

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#gosh i hate family dinners #this weekend is canadian thanksgiving and i usually never celebrate it #because fuck thanksgiving honestly #i usually limit my interaction with extended family to two dinners a year: easter and christmas #but i was moving over easter this year so i skipped it so i decided to go this weekend instead bc it’d been a while #fuck if i regret that decision now #especially since my brother is away this weekend ao it was just me 🙃 #dinner on my dad’s side yesterday was a hot mess #everyone is so awkward around me since my parents got a divorce #i hate it #and then tonight on my mom’s side was basically a fest of homophobic comments #but that’s the norm nowadays #and my grandma is finally starting to go through my grandpa’s things after he died almost two years ago #and she asked if i wanted one of his watches or shirt or something #and apparently my brain decided the appropriate response was to burst into tears #so that was fun #anyways i left early #i’m really looking forward to christmas dinners now 🙃🥲🙃 #anyways don’t mind me just complaining #i know lots of people have it a lot worse #i’m just fucking tired

[arthur-r]

emily wilson out here translating the iliad and i am once again wishing i knew how to read and translate ancient greek

#listen where there’s a will there’s a way but i just finished my degree audit and looks like i will only be able to manage a classics minor #with latin emphasis (unless i abandon latin for greek which i’m not going to do even though it pains me) #but i really want to make my own iliad someday…. #at this rate i’ll only ever end up making a queer prose adaptation and be criticized for projecting modern notions of sexuality onto a #completely different set of values and social understandings of homosexuality…. #(which. if anything there should be more gay people in the song of achilles. don’t be mean to me i promise i understand ancients) #anyway i might just have to make a book of poetry or a novel adaptation or whatever whatever but what if i want to learn the script #and painstakingly translate every single word through years and years of dedication. while also being a librarian as my main thing #shdhdhdf i’m never gonna be classics scholar enough to professionally translate. and if i were it would be latin. but i can dream…. #anyway i’m no longer failing my french class (have a 70% that should only be going up) but i’m still failing historical linguistics #my latin grade is great i’m acing it but my library science class is a D (which should be fixed in two days though — just needs more data) #so i am giving myself permission to sleep early tonight and go into class well rested for once. i’m not feeling well but that’s a constant #anyways if anyone reads the wilson iliad let me know!! i’m a fake fan of her work and haven’t read her odyssey (something about the iliad…. #there’s a brutality and a raw humanity to it that puts the odyssey at a lower priority to me) but im so freaking excited to read her iliad #i have to prioritize schoolwork but soon. i’ll have to ask my latin teacher about it tomorrow though she’s an iliad enjoyer #anyway good news i think i’ll be able to get a history major with certificates in digital studies and classical studies (the two genders….) #and graduate comfortably in four years with honors in the major. this is ignoring how i’m failing my classes. i promise i won’t be forever #anyways the point is: wilson’s iliad — i will read it as soon as possible and i’m very excited #also i checked out a book from the library called the lexicographers dilemma: the evolution of proper english from shakespeare to south park #but i haven’t had the chance to read it and soon it will be due…. college is evil i’m too busy learning things to learn other things!!!! #anyway if i do honors in the major then i’m excited to eventually earn credit from a capstone thesis which i would do on lexicography #throughout history with an emphasis on classification systems and basically peter mark roget #ok anyway. wandering all over the place but the point is. wilson’s iliad. very exciting. can’t wait to find the time #and eventually i will write an iliad adaptation of my own i will. just not a full translation shdhdf that’s an unrealistic goal #especially when again. my capstone project is going to be about taxonomy of ideas. ancient epics are secondary…. #anyway i hope everybody is doing well!! i am going to bed soon-ish but other than that i am around so lmk if you need anything #me. my post. mine. #college talk #delete later

[bravevolunteer]

i was going to write tonight but uh. shit happened!

#what if you wanted to ​breeze through storyboard planning and have a relaxing night to yourself and the universe said #the current situation with your roommate and friend/last years roommate was going to come to a head in the WORST WAY POSSIBLE #not even a ‘why we’re not living together anymore’ issue. an issue that has developed within the past week. JFC. #we’ve long winded down from that now and. we’re watching velocipastor actually LMAO #but. hooo boy tonight was derailed #i will hopefully find some time and energy to do things here this week #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[phantasieandmirare]

235 hours later, I have 100%ed Tears of the Kingdom

#I beat it a month ago but it was so fun I just kept going #all quests all bosses all medals full battery 100% map completion #the only thing I have allowed myself to forgo is getting all the paraglider fabrics and all the Hudson signs #and beating all gloom spawn #cause I don’t have the energy to go through the map again looking for probably the 1-2 Hudson signs I’m missing #anyway I played the final mission one more time and cried and I’m emotional again and it was GREAT #legend of Zelda #tears of the kingdom #and I was gonna fight and beat all the gloom spawn but I did a couple tonight and the last one I did was a disaster #like a ‘teleport out with half health’ disaster #so my brain said ‘aaaaaaaaaaaaand you’re done’ #’go fight Ganon again and then we’re out of here #also going into the final fight with the logic of ‘you’re literally finished you don’t need to save items anymore’ #let me get to final-phase ganon in like three minutes tops #anyway I’m gonna play stray gods and book of hours now