#maybe i'll revisit this later idk

[friendshipgun]

🍈 Who’s your blorbo and what are some of your favorite headcanons/ideas about them that repeatedly show up in your fics? Free pass to rant about blorbo opinions.

ooooh gosh this is like giving me a blank check lol. it's also a bit hard bc so much is gonna be spoilers so what i'm gonna do is bend the rules a bit and hit the stuff for both Karl and Ethan that's not spoilers (two blorbos for the price of one):

>> Ethan was on the swim team in school! This particular headcanon brought to you by a comment from the playthrough of RE8 i first watched about the way Ethan moves to protect his body when Heisenberg knocks him into the water. dude also (bc video game) doesn't struggle with water in general, so that translated to him being comfortable with it and even really enjoying swimming.

>> Karl learned English from watching old movies (i think this is a fairly common headcanon but i still really like it!) but i also like to think about him being, after a certain period in time, unwilling to actually ask for anything directly so is limited to using his powers to basically spy on whatever Moreau is watching. which means being limited to Moreau's taste in film. and i like to think about Moreau getting really into Meg Ryan/Tom Hanks romcoms and then trying to watch Forrest Gump but getting too sad and never finishing it so Karl's just forever like "how tf does it end." ongoing joke with my beta that it comes on TV at a few of the motels him and Ethan end up at but he still manages to always miss the end and he's just like extremely >:( about this one movie in particular.

>> [minor spoiler for most recent chapter of 'sunshine', so feel free to skip this one] Ethan restored the car he drove in RE7 himself. i like thinking about him having worked so hard on this damn car, being super proud of it...which makes it worse that it explodes in Jack's garage rip.

>> due to the cadou/mutation Karl has heightened senses. the one i write about the most is his sight; just like the idea of him wearing the sunglasses bc he has light sensitivity (He Wears His Sunglasses At Night, etc.) so incredibly good night vision but struggles during the day/in brightly lit rooms. also just as a slight addendum: Karl runs hot for the same reason, cadou/mutation.

>> no one on this earth is better at compartmentalizing than Ethan Winters

>> was trying to figure out what Karl would have been eating for all the years he lived in the village bc there's no way in hell he was tending a garden or cooking for himself and i determined that it had to be largely expired MREs he found at the factory (i've been going with the idea of the factory being used to make military equipment, thus the tank and the blank dogtag Karl wears) but i also joke with @underlockv about him just eating rats. this is what i was thinking about when he says he's "eaten far worse things" in ch8 of 'sunshine' lmfao.

#there's a bonus moreau headcanon in there too lol #anyway there's other things i'd really like to go into in more detail but i also don't want to spoil anything #maybe i'll revisit this later idk #but thank you so much for the ask and the chance to ramble like this! c: #i've actually been meaning to do a whole post about ethan compartmentalizing but i keep forgetting/getting distracted but MAYBE ONE DAY #ask tag the tag for asks #spirit hat

[brother-emperors]

BROTHERS

The river Weser ran between the Roman and Cheruscan forces. Arminius came to the bank and halted with his fellow chieftains:— "Had the Caesar come?" he inquired.​ On receiving the reply that he was in presence, he asked to be allowed to speak with his brother. That brother, Flavus by name, was serving in the army, a conspicuous figure both from his loyalty and from the loss of an eye through a wound received some few years before during Tiberius' term of command. Leave was granted, and Stertinius took him down to the river. Walking forward, he was greeted by Arminius; who, dismissing his own escort, demanded that the archers posted along our side of the stream should be also withdrawn. When these had retired, he asked his brother, whence the disfigurement of his face? On being told the place and battle, he inquired what reward he had received. Flavus mentioned his increased pay, the chain, the crown, and other military decorations; Arminius scoffed at the cheap rewards of servitude.

They now began to argue from their opposite points of view. Flavus insisted on "Roman greatness, the power of the Caesar; the heavy penalties for the vanquished; the mercy always waiting for him who submitted himself. Even Arminius' wife and child were not treated as enemies." His brother urged "the sacred call of their country; their ancestral liberty; the gods of their German hearths; and their mother, who prayed, with himself, that he would not choose the title of renegade and traitor to his kindred, to the kindred of his wife, to the whole of his race in fact, before that of their liberator." From this point they drifted, little by little, into recriminations; and not even the intervening river would have prevented a duel, had not Stertinius run up and laid a restraining hand on Flavus, who in the fullness of his anger was calling for his weapons and his horse. On the other side Arminius was visible, shouting threats and challenging to battle: for he kept interjecting much in Latin, as he had seen service in the Roman camp as a captain of native auxiliaries.

Tacitus Annals 2.10-11

there's a lot going on in there! Arminius switching to Latin is a detail that always makes me feel a deep kind of sadness, especially with how it's preceded by mention of their mother. I wonder what she thought of what became of her sons, on opposite sides of everything but still, inescapably, brothers. even when they want to kill each other. there sure are a lot of fucked up and unhappy brothers around. and Arminius asking about Flavus' injury............I also had a whole thing typed out about the horror of imperialism and colonization and the trauma of assimilation but I think this sets the tone better

Rome's Greatest Defeat: Massacre in the Teutoburg Forest, Adrian Murdoch

and also this, just for fun

(ibid)

this post is already a mile long, so lets add another mile to it: a little scene at the start of their conversation! tfw you go in for a hug and your younger brother who also ended up being taller starts roasting your hair style

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost ⭐ cara.app⭐ko-fi

#long post #SO LONG #roman empire tag #tbh im not jazzed about using that tag when rome is not actually the setting here but i do not have a good era tag for this yet #i'll figure it out later eurhghghesuerhgh #komiks tag #arminius & flavus #idk. maybe also #eye trauma cw #anyway it's all very 'he's my brother and i need a shovel to love him' kind of deal #this (wheezing) this is an idea i had LAST YEAR but it was a solo illustration #i had it posted for about ten minutes before i decided it sucked ass and needed to be revisited as a comic #FINALLY. the idea is complete. im free. it's been bothering me to have it unfinished while the original idea was haunting my drafts #as a reminder to get it done. and now i can delete it. au revoir illustration you will not be missed

[hatt0riart]

I WANTED TO MAKE MORE THAN JUST THIS but it took like. a week to get done and im sick these days

anyways in light of mk1's nonsense i revisited some koncepts i had for a roleswap au. i took hanzo's inspiration from a mix of mkx and mk11 outfits and kuai i kind of just winged it based off my own preferences in past appearances!!

more rambling is under the cut about the actual AU :-]

PLEASE DO NOT REPOST MY ART ON ANY OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA OR CROP THEM FOR ICONS. THANK YOU!

SO I HAVE NOT ACTUALLY DEVELOPED THIS BEYOND SOME OLD SKETCHES I HAD OF KUAI'S DESIGN but i had some general ideas of how this was supposed to work???

the shirai ryu is still alive and well! he's still a family man and very clan oriented. satoshi is still born and grows into his clan's responsibilities, however harumi dies in child birth.

the lin kuei on the other hand is Not Doing Well. they end up getting wiped out during a raid from the shirai ryu and most of kuai's immediate family (whether by choice or blood) ends up going down with them.

prior to this kuai ends up passing after a failed mission to retrieve the map of elements from the shaolin temple in an attempt to prove himself to his clan. (instead of bi-han being the one set on that path, kuai ends up taking the initiative instead WAY before he's ready without anyone's knowledge and ends up dying when met with scorpion.)

most of it is similar how it is in actual canon for how scorpion's story goes. he gets resurrected he pledges loyalty to quan chi in order to get revenge, blah blah blah. mortal kombat happens. the two meet again at some point.

kuai's still on that "you killed my family" juice but its...more so about familial ties (like bi-han and smoke) rather than it being the love(s) of his life (like hanzo's wife and son) , seeing as he died young from his own overzealous nature.

very much has anger issues. he's impatient and has alot shorter of a temper by comparison to scorpion in the original canon. hardly ever humbled until that point lol

hanzo on the other hand is surprisingly more lax. meditates often, drinks alot of tea and while he *IS* stressed he handles it alot better than kuai does. maybe has a problem of ignoring his problems though for the sake of the task at hand.

kuai ends up harassing hanzo alot in this AU even outside of the tournament. he's kind of a bitchy ghost there to remind hanzo of what happened to him and lowkey hanzo guilts over it.

kuai has alot of grim reaper motifs in his design. he carries a scythe made of ice primarily and fights at a more long distance range.

hanzo on the other hand is alot more of an up close brawler. he keeps alot of design traits from mkx with a bit of mk11 sprinkled in for inspiration of his "classic" design.

STILL A PYROMANCER!! i just havent thought out how. he's just regarded with a bit more respect for having those unnatural abilities lol

but yeah this is just me spitballing in bullet points. i'm hoping to make more stuff later that is a bit more...thought out properly but it follows more of like

mk mythologies --> mk9 -> mkx

type of timeline i guess? except hanzo is in bi-han's position and kuai ends up being put in scorpion's. bi-han doesn't really have a place in the AU outside of being a background character and driving motive for kuai's vengeance later on. (though we're not gonna talk about how bi-han's mentality eventually fed into kuai's at a young age and made him come to the conclusions he did before he died.... maybe.)

smoke exists for the sake of painful flashbacks lol

satoshi's also a bg character but he does end up growing up with the shirai ryu and takes on his own share of clan responsibilities. idk whether or not he takes after hanzo's pyromancy or not in this AU but either way he grows up to be a well respected figure in the clan!

alot of stuff outside of this remains the same though, just the lin kuei and shirai ryu's dynamics get swapped.

ANYWAYS YEAH IF YOU READ THRU ALL THIS THANKS FOR READING BYEEEE (i'll be adding to this au more later on when i finish my other sketches lol)

#mortal kombat #au #mortal kombat au #mk #mk1 #mkx #mk11 #mk9 #sub zero #scorpion #kuai liang #hanzo hasashi #roleswap au #subscorp #subscorp roleswap au

[albonoooo]

thank you for the tag @borntogayz <3

star sign: pisces

favourite holiday: christmas (for the cozy vibes and food)

last meal: rice and stir-fried veggies

current favourite musician: this changes daily, but lately i've been listening to a lot of palaye royale (damn you, liquid) and nostalgic 2000s music like britney spears, beyoncé, christina aguilera and the pussycat dolls.

last music listened to: i'm listening to palaye royale as i'm typing this.

last movie watched: drei haselnüsse für aschenbrödel (which is the same answer i gave in a tag game a few weeks ago lol)

last tv show watched: it's been months since i've watched any show, but i think it's the witcher.

last book/fic finished: the last book i finished is to kill a kingdom by alexandra christo (only took me one and a half years). i'm not sure about the last fic, probably something from the kinkmeme idk.

last book/fic abandoned: the last book i abandoned (for now) is bleak house by charles dickens. i technically had to read it for a seminar, but it's just too fucking long. as for fics, i don't really "abandon" any, i just keep them in my library (marked for later section) until i get to them, whenever that may be.

currently reading: as per the previously mentioned older tag game, i'm still reading the picture of dorian gray by oscar wilde. since my last answer, i have made zero progress.

last thing researched for writing/art/hyperfixation: does frantically looking for the right pictures of alex albon in red bull gear as well as articles about him leaving/them sacking him at 3am count?

favourite online fandom memory: honestly just discovering that there was fanfiction beyond x reader stuff was eye-opening. the first few m/m k-pop fics i read had such a huge impact on me, i can still recite the plot down to the smallest details.

favourite old fandom you wish would drag you back in/have a resurgence: it's not old per se, but the pedro pascal girlies (gn) seem to be having a great time atm. i had my pedro moment in 2019/2020 when i watched triple frontier for the first six times, but maybe i should revisit that.

favourite thing you enjoy that never had an active or big fandom, but you wish it did: i've been thinking about this for ten minutes, i can't think of anything. if something comes to my mind later, i'll just add it then. EDIT: my best friend and i have an unhealthy obsession with the film napola (more specifically, max riemelt in it. the film itself is quite dark), but barely anyone even knows it. devastating.

tempting project you're trying to rein in/don't have time for: i'm currently trying to learn how to make web weaves because i have a bunch of ideas, but uni comes first unfortunately.

zero pressure tags in case you want to do this: @wanderingblindly @piastrisms @hrhgeorgerussell @bright-and-burning @liamlawsonlesbian

#tag games

[themyscirah]

Jess? Or Hal? For the ask game (And if you've done both of them, just pick your favorite super)

I haven't done either yet! I'll do Hal in this post and maybe Jess in another after this

Tw for canonical past suicide for later in the post (skip the story idea section)

First impression:

My real first encounter with him was probably as a guest appearance within Green Lanterns, but the first book I read with him was GL/GA. I don't remember too much of what I thought of him there, it was probably more of a general "oh he seems cool I guess" kind of neutral/positive attitude. By the time I read a Hal comic I'd already met Simon, Jess, and Jo so he wasn't a contender for the spot of my favorite lantern. I never fully finished GL/GA though bc I had the book on loan

Impression now:

Mixed. There are some Hal moments I genuinely do love and like, but tbh he can get on my nerves very easily. Of the Earth lanterns he's either my least or next to least favorite (which doesn't mean I don't like him!) but he's also like the "main character" of GL so I get annoyed when I feel like other GLs are being ignored in favor of Hal.

Favorite moment:

With that said there are sooooooo many Hal moments I just love. He's very much a character made by specific moments for me (rather than a general appreciation of who he is overall). Some Swishy fave contenders include his "Avenge me" internal monologue when he fights Mongul in GL (1990) #46, and OFC the Emerald Twilight arc a few issues later. Also in the very first issue of that book, where he jumps off a cliff in front of some campers (waiting until the last moment before using his ring) was an important moment for me in reading Hal, because it was the first time I went "oh! This guy is crazy!"

Idea for a story:

An exploration of the fact that Hal literally killed himself on panel in GL (2011) #19. Because like what the hell, why did this happen and then NO ONE EVER TALKED ABOUT IT. (This is insane to me). I think I'd probably revisit it in a dream sequence, maaaybe doing a rewrite/reimagining of his Knight Terrors issue (which I have NOT read lol) to kind of address that and talk about his mental state and things that had an impact on that, stuff like his parents, the Guardians, PARALLAX. Basically it'd be Hal and the ghost of Tomar-Re just talking about how he is not okay. A pretty heavy response to a pretty heavy topic.

Unpopular opinion:

I'm going to be so real here like 95% of my Hal opinions are unpopular bc its just me talking about how I think he's overrated. Like we're bros ig but still. Overrated.

Like I LIKE him but I'm annoyed at him like 80% of the time bc DC is always putting out a mid story focusing on him while ignoring my faves WHO ARE SO COOL AND DESERVE STORIES 😤💔😭

I guess one beyond that is I'm not a fan of his friendship with Barry. Maybe this is just because I haven't read anything where they're like... interesting? But I just don't get the hype. ESPECIALLY compared to his relationship with Oliver which is absolutely insane in comparison. Like why are we talking abt Barry rn when OLLIE LITERALLY SHOT HAL AND HAL RESSURECTED OLLIE. like guys. Guys. Are you seeing this shit.

Favorite relationship:

Like ship wise? I'm not a huge Halcarol fan personally but I do think they're kind of the epitome of "you're perfect for each other. Never involve anyone else in what you have going on," kind of messy drama-filled relationship with a lot of history.

I also really like halollie and their relationship but not in like a "they should date" way or anything like that. Like they're bros to me who emotionally have a whole complicated little thing going on like idk

Within the lanterns I think the frenemy whatever thing Guy and Hal do is SO funny. I love especially the beginning of GL (1990) where Guy just in his free time shows up to ruin Hal's life while Hal is just so sick and done and mad about it. Peak comedy, Guy never change

Fave headcanon:

Do I have any headcanons about Hal? Not really. I try to think about him as little as possible (kidding). No um I'd say I don't really have any, and if I did they'd probably be really basic or smth like that he cries watching both Top Gun movies.

#blah #answered #hal jordan #thank you for the ask! i have pretty complicated feelings abt hal so this was of interesting to write

[mickmundy]

saw this on ur Twitter but PLEASE talk about all your various bushmedicines. For me but also only if you want to of course

(blease)

SKDFKSDKF OMFG my many many many bushmeds... yeas.. most of these are Mega works in progress but i think it's good to jot them down here so that i can revisit them when i work out character designs/ref sheets and whatnot! and these are just the ones off of the top of my head! @_@ i surely have more buried in my gf and i's server LOL. sooooo let's break it down really quick! HEHE:

My "Canon" medsnip: the medic and sniper in Thou Giveth Fever is just the Main/Default/Canon/Whatever medic and sniper. takes place in same universe right after the comics!

My gf and i's medsnip: arlowe and wren! a lot of their story takes place pre-teufort but they eventually become RED's medic and sniper! ^v^ "canon" red medic and sniper don't exist in this universe. they're already dating by the time they wind up at teufort together! we're still working on a lot of their backstories but i'll eventually talk more about them/write a fic for them too! ^u^

My vampire medsnip: tumblr Adores them.., yes.,., my vampire medic and hunter sniper! sniper's a vampire hunter who is hired by vampire medic to do some dirty work for him. they end up falling for each other... but not before spilling a lot of blood together!

have another version of them drafted where sniper's a herbalist and falls in love with a Big Mean Vampire who once used to love healing humans more than he loves harming them.. :'( they fall in love.,., show each other tenderness... HEHEHE..

My cult god medsnip: medic is a shapeshifting god/demon/spirit/whatever that thrives and grows in power from the cult that is convinced he exists and worships him. likes toying with them and giving them "signs" he exists and whatnot and loves the praise because, well, who wouldn't! :-) hoo! buuuut a Certain Denier has caught his eye...! sniper thinks that cult nonsense is a load of crap and doesn't fall for it. Naturally this makes medic Carnally Desire him and his attention... HEHE... >:)

My swamp monster medsnip: sniper is a werecroc that lives out in the comfy cozy australian bush/marshland (haven't decided yet). rough it as a human and also as a crocodile and loves being alone. until one day a very curious "Doctor" starts stomping around his secluded slice of heaven in search of/researching the plants and animals of the area (to harvest for his zany experiments of course!)... sniper hates people but this one just seems kind of... Charming... hmm.... !

My eldritch medsnip: MEGA work in progress. need to think about this more actually.,., Medic Is Not What He Says He Is and sniper has a hunch... ;-) medic has a "breath of life" ability which is ironic because the hurting is more rewarding than the healing! :'( HEHE. also have a cool idea for an eldritch sniper but idk if i'd want to fit them in Together or have separate aus!

My old retired domestic medsnip: would follow my "canon" medsnip. years and years later, some vague skip of time. the sorrow..,., the sweetness.,., in the Unlikely Event they retire... how might that go.. :) sniper's fine with aging but medic is NOT. everything can be defied! age! death! isn't that what you want sniper!! but maybe sniper wants to retire to some small house on the german coast with medic.,., medic can extend his life infinitely with his "devil deal" but what about his sniper.,., who has already died once... but could either of them Really ever retire...? HEHEH.., i've actually written a lot of this and i should probably publish it in a standalone fic. very emotional very angsty!!

My pony medsnip: EHE this is an extremely self indulgent one but i love it all the same! does what it says on the tin... what if they were ponies!! i've talked about it here and posted sniper's design here! i need to work on medic's just for the sake of having my own ref sheet to match sniper's but i talk about him in the twt thread i linked! ^u^ <3 i just love gushing about them because i love ponies!!

My demon medsnip: have a couple different versions of this General Concept buut the one i'll mention is a conspiracy theorist/total shut-in/sex-starved/supernatural sighter sniper summoning a demon medic... but instead of it being the kind of demon sniper was after (for whatever reason. havent figured it out yet), it turns out medic's a lust demon... Smirks

My merfolk medsnip: ONE I REALLY LOVE I JUST HAVENT GOTTEN AROUND TO FLESHING OUT YET GRAAHH... i love the idea of one being human and one being a merperson but i also love the idea of them both being merfolk... BUUUUUUT the idea of fisherman sniper living on the australian coast all alone his whole life and mermedic watching him From Afar and sighing lovingly... ;__; GOUGWOAUAAAA ;;; i have Some Picks for what their Fishy Parts would be too but i still need to narrow them down. BWAH!!

#asks #wyrm-wander #dutchfoolery #medsnip #HEH.. #if any of these sound appealing to anyone you should totally let me know and then i definitely won't gush about them or anything... #EHEHE #vamphunter medsnip #mermedsnip

[trashlie]

I wish tumblr would actually let me upload multiple images of my mediocre art so I can show what I've been up to?! Earlier this year I tried sharing watercolor images and it kept "running into an error" when uploading and WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS TRASH APP IF WE CAN'T UPLOAD THINGS so I guess I'll try just this one (1) image because it'd the one I'm the most delighted with, anyway.

Gouache is so much fun because of how forgiving it is compared to watercolor, and while the re-wetability of gouache is an issue to those who prefer acrylic gouache, I'm finding it to be something that really works to my current advantage. Something I've figured out about painting (and art in general) is how much of it is about insinuation. You don't have to paint every leaf! Just insinuate them, maybe paint a few to tell your brain what they are! And it makes painting so much less DAUNTING!!!!!

I think I want to revisit this later and try to build more contrast so that I can make this look like actual layers of foliage, better insinuate the lighting vs the shadows (my effort at lighting was not opaque + contrasting enough I can see!) but honestly? This went MUCH better than I could have expected it would!!!!

I'm really looking forward to taking my birthday money later this year to buy more gouache lmao. Right now I'm using the cheap miya him gouache and it's helping me figure out what colors I want to buy and build out my holbein collection - which is something I've never done with watercolor, I haven't gotten around to tube paints yet!

Idk I just feel happy! I feel like I'm learning and the things I make bring me so much joy!!!! Me 10 years ago never would have anticipated I'd be here but 🥰 Learning!!!!! Growing!!!! Evolving!

#ashlie.jpeg #<- in addition to being my art tag that's also my art insta handle #lmaoooooooo #gouache is SOOOOO fun aaaaahhhhhh

[shynetyme06]

1 - 23 :3

cracks knuckles okay

1. how would you describe your art style? uhhhhhhhh, maybe "safe" is the word rn. whenever I think of my art style, what comes to mind is just how little I've been pushing things with it. I wanna change that ;D

2. what's your favorite thing about your style? I realize I like to use semi-realistic proportions, its cool how comfortable I've gotten with drawing faces and bodies

3. what's your least favorite thing about your style? It's so static man. same thing I said for the first question, I don't think anything really looks bad, but it just is lacking in creativity in comparison to the older art that should be looking worse than what I do now. I prefer my older stuff ;D (looking at you inktobertale2021.. where did it all go wrong)

4. favorite thing to draw? regular ol people. human characters are def more in my comfort zone, which explains why I keep hitting skeletons with the humanization ray (also I prefer to draw feminine characters)

5. least favorite thing to draw? I can't even say I rlly dislike it cuz of how rarely I even do it, but I am procrastinating so hard on learning backgrounds..

6. warm colors or cool colors? cool colors are my fav, but i find it easier to work with warm ones (I used to put a cool overlay over all my warm toned drawings hgdhfg)

7. show us a WIP behold, the wip ever. this drawing... was supposed to be posted on august 2022. and then, it was supposed to be posted on dec 21st, dream and nightmares birthday. (atp if I do end up wanting to finish this idea again, I'll probably just scrap it and start over)

8. what's the most fun and least fun parts about your process? most fun is flat color and rendering. (though I rarely do the latter anymore) and for least fun, tbh a lot of the sketching part tends to be difficult for me, sometimes its cool tho

9. show us a finished piece alongside the original sketch example from when sketching was fun

10. how many different sketches do you usually have until your piece is finished? I think I do need to make more of at least thumbnail sketches tbh.. I usually just make one and keep editing it, trusting the process. (and that fails like 70% of the time. woww wonder why sketching isnt fun for me-) 11. show us the last thing you drew, be it a finished piece or a small doodle can this count,,

12. show us an old drawing first deltarune drawing. here's the redraw I later made of this :3 (also old hsgdhgf)

13. how long do you usually take one a piece? depends. I'll have like 276478923 wips started, and then I get a random idea that I just have to do right at that moment, and I'll get it done in like 1-4 hours. meanwhile old sketches start to rot and maybe if its lucky I'll revisit it before my motivation dies and my style is too different to wanna continue from where I left off 14. digital or traditional? digital all the way, i've gotten too dependent on the transform tool + liquefy ;D (and many other things tbh but I'd be here all day if I tried comparing them more jhdjdf)

15. if digital, what program do you use? procreate, the layouts on other drawing programs scare me

16. favorite media to work with when drawing traditionally pen on paper (am I understanding this right wdym media-)

17. what do you love getting compliments about? I like when people enjoy the humanizations I come up with, and also original designs in general 18. are you satisfied with the attention your art usually gets? hmmm yeah

19. how often do you draw? very often, I just don't have finished things to share most days

20. a piece from this year that you're really proud of :3

21. something you would like to improve on the dynamicness (well, the lack of it) of everything, as said before

22. what inspires you? Ink sans and a ton of creators in this fandom (also animated shows and movies, I love animation)

23. what's something you hope people notice when looking at your art? idk tbh, just notice it at all and I'm happy :>

#shy rambles #ask game #long post #twinribbonz #yaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #another sign to look for more references #my problem may be going from imagination too often

[devitalise]

the end up the month always sneaks up on me, i saw your message and was like "oh she's early I have plentyyy of time!" yet here we are two days into April already AHHHH how were your March reads? & i forget, are you doing a no-buy thing or minimal buying for books? how's that been going 🤨

no literally in my head it's still march the last week has been a complete blur especially with the clocks going forward only just got my bearings. but this is now a nice lil springtime treat so let's get into my

march book wrap up

milk fed by melissa broder

i had a real voraciousness when i read this, i just couldn't get enough. not necessarily the writing, but of rachel. i love her. girls with complicated relationships with their mothers. a very unapologetic read i think, i had to do a bit of googling but i love that Broder didn't shy away from presenting the ideas and themes she set out to do in their fullest forms. kind of let down by the ending at the time of reading, but i can respect what it serves the book on reflection.

music: milk fed playlist review: booksburgersandbackpacks

fight night by miriam toews

kind of laughed as i remembered i read this. went on holiday this month, so picking this as my travelling read felt a bit risky i didn't know if i'd have the time to give this the attention it deserved, or if it'd even grab me. but it did. i loved this book so, so much. crying on a 9pm flight as i'm over the English channel unlocked. shiv i just want to hug you. i'm going to try get the physical version of this, i want the physicality of it so bad. equal parts love letter and biographical in nature, made it onto my top 2023 shelf and idk if i even have the words to do this justice!

music: think this was just my liked songs? podcast: shakespeare & company

things i don't want to know by deborah levy

claxon sounds alarm rings horns blare. i read nonfiction. i've heard real high praise of levy as an author. i don't know if there was any rhyme or reason for picking up part one in her living autobiography series, but i'm realy glad i did. how do you judge a memoir? sorry, your life was boring! in levy's case it wasn't. i appreciate how vulnerable it is to unpick your memories and make sense of them almost 40 years later, to revisit apartheid South Africa and digest what that makes you as a woman now in your 60s. refreshingly candid, some real interesting threads on womanhood, displacement, motherhood and agency in this. will be picking up the next in the series.

music: just some indie pop i think (scared to update spotify i've seen there's no more genre filters in liked songs? what's that about!) no review here did some independent thinking scarily

ok i did finish a book yesterday that i want to count but it hasn't been long enough for my thoughts to settle but i'm going to link everything now before i lose it.

let it come down by paul bowles (technicality)

music: let it come down (not period appropiate but perfect for that kind of restless energy) articles: the international zone: expat writers in tangier, what was the international zone, franco-moroccan war

and that was my march reading! still at a slow and steady pace. i am trying to do a no book buy moment! other than me buying 3 books in march, i've been going pretty strong. might break it though because i've picked out two more books set in tangier also by some of bowle's contemporaries and i really want to explore a setting like that as a wider more Themed block of reading if that makes sense. so i'll be buying naked lunch by william s. burruoughs and in tangier by mohamed chouckri in the next couple of days (in tangier is a memoir)

also amazon sent me a notification like maybe its time for a new kindle! my current one isn't even 2 years old and works perfectly fine i won't be giving in

#book talk #djservo #let it come down has a really good afterword too usually i find them a bit iffy but it was interesting to read #saving thoughts for the april one though

[masschase]

as a resident Johnny Gat enthusiast, i would love to know more about his relationship with Casey

(and maybe also spare some Matt and Casey crumbs 👉🏻👈🏻)

:)

Any two characters ask meme

A headcanon for Johnny & Casey: See, now idk whether to go into their whole dynamic or just one hc... I'll kind of do a hc that sums up a lot of their 'current' friendship?

Ah, Johnny and Casey and their "we fucked one time but we're definitely siblings" friendship. 🤨

These two did the whole getting-to-know-you thing pretty well in the early days of their friendship. I've mentioned something before about Dex, Lin and Johnny taking her out for food a lot because she was a skinny little fucker and they all kind of subconsciously wanted her as their protege. Like a low-key bribe. She almost *always* had breakfast with Dex so actually, he was winning, and it shows in her tactical planning skills years later, but I digress. With Johnny it was usually Freckle Bitch's and the one they always went to remains her favourite FB's forever.

This is why he knows at least an overview of her background and she his. Thing is though, this was years ago and they don't necessarily remember a lot of it! They're great at keeping their friendship intact by shooting the shit while shooting shit but... they don't actually look at revisiting some of this stuff.

I frequently think about the fact that their 14 year friendship by 2020 is honestly only like... 3-4 years of interaction. Like compare the fact Casey has known Pierce and Shaundi for 9 years and she and Pierce were best friends for like 5 of that. Their "best friendship" is based on a lot of love but is largely a token thing by this point.

They kind of realise this in 2022 and decide to act like grownups, get a bottle of wine (even though neither of them much like it) and just have some of these discussions again. I think they get back to something a lot more genuine by this point and when they get to new planet stage Johnny is always hanging around Matt and Casey's house offering to mow the lawn and shit 😅

A headcanon for Matt & Casey: I find it so funny to hear you say crumbs when I'm trying so hard not to shove a whole loaf of bread down everyone's throats on a daily basis(Some would argue the loaf is already out there as the fanfic but hey).

One I frequently thing about is the fact that they manage to build this really deep friendship based on trust and loyalty despite both battling the fact that there is some degree of fear there, and if anything their long-term friendship has only worsened that fear.

Matt's biggest fear is dying. He sees danger in Casey because she could easily lead to his death. But he fights that because he's fallen in love with her.

Casey's biggest fear is losing someone she cares about (again). She sees danger in Matt because she knows she could easily fall in love with him. But she fights that because she feels that would lead to his death.

That's the constant disharmony behind their cutesy cuddly teasy Nyte Blayde night shit. It's why so much goes unsaid for so long. Only when they get together and conclude they *have to* communicate better in the future because they both badly want this to work, do they manage to tackle this fear together.

It's not instantaneous. It takes time, just like them falling in love in the first place did. But one day they just look into each others' eyes the danger has just kind of crept away. All they see is their future together.

#casey getting breakfast with dex lunch with johnny and dinner with lin sounds like a sweet deal though #also the gatmattcass friendship triangle in general is hugely important to me #sr boss: casey clark #johnny gat #matt miller #saints row #asks #thanks for asking!

[kenobster]

✨ 🎶 🦅!

Thanks for the ask ^_^

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

My prose is pretty. So pretty that I won't let go of certain scenes or paragraphs sometimes, even when I really should. xD

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

answered here

🦅 Do you outline fics or fly by the seat of your pants?

Any time in my life prior, I would've said seat of my pants... but lately it's come up in a new way.

In the past, outlining has sucked the life out of my ideas. It has ruined all the surprises, emotional twists, and lightbulb moments I get while writing. So I haven't outlined, and I've become very good at mapping out a story (even a long one!) simply by writing the first draft and revising stray plotholes in earlier scenes later.

It's been interesting writing my big bang fic tho bc it has required a bit of outlining (purely for the sake of the event organizers or artist to understand wtf is going on lol). After not risking outlining for so long, I've been shocked to find that outlining doesn't feel the same way it did when I was younger.

I think, when I was younger, outlining ruined my inspiration because my mindset was always abt the end goal, the end scene, the finale. Why continue working on a question you've already answered? But going to university (and taking an advanced literary seminar focused solely on Ursula K Le Guin's work) kinda changed my viewpoint on narratives and how the end isn't everything - how you can revisit and revisit and revisit and revisit. These days, it's not just about the overarching structure to me; every single scene, paragraph, sentence, word feels like a question in need of answering. An experiment worth conducting.

In other words, the joy of writing is not in the explicit summary but rather in the details. And because of that mindset, I'm finding that outlining does not suck the life out of my ideas anymore. Each bullet point is an individual question rather than another answer in a series, and it's fun to see what words/shapes/tones/methods are used to convey them! So idk, maybe I'll start outlining more. ^_^ It's been a fun revelation.

#ask game #writing

[weepylucifer]

Hey. I've really been thinking about my faith and just like, religions in general lately so I wanna ask people whose opinions I care about some stuff. Like, are you or were you ever spiritual and/or religious? How do you feel about organised religion as a whole? If you don't mind sharing that is

Firstly, it is wild to think that I'm someone whose opinions someone cares about. Kneejerk reaction to reading that was "is this some kind of copypasta or bot" bc generally nobody has ever cared what views I have on anything in the world. Maybe this is a copypasta or bot and I'll see a post about "the copypasta that asks people their religion!!" later and feel embarrassed for answering. Or maybe it's some kind of bait. Still, if you're a real person out here... of all the blogs you had to walk into mine (I said this in a gritty noir detective voice)

Probably I'm going to be unhelpful here bc my relationship to religion is extremely vague. I'm a natural doubter, and raised by atheists, so I feel a bit ridiculous when trying to pray or observe religious "rites" (for lack of a better word)... it feels like talking to something that'll never reply, bc maybe it's not there? Or doesn't exist on a level similar enough to talk/have any tangible influence on my life?

On the other hand, I wish I could buy into the whole thing enough to allow earnest, wholehearted spiritual belief into my world. People who rest secure in their faith are people whom I kind of envy! My mother always speaks of religion as inherently oppressive and ridiculous and I think it's a really annoying, narrow-minded viewpoint. Ideally, organized religion without oppression can be and should be completely possible. Maybe it means churches have to distance themselves from missionizing, bc the root of all ill that's done in the name of religion (any) seems to be trying to force it on people who don't want it. I'm in no ways an expert.

Was I ever adherent to a religion... I tried. I was/am Luciferian. I started this as a teen, for all the typical reasons edgy teens become Satanists. I revisit it sometimes now, because all flavors of Satanism are such artifical, made-up constructs that they demand no certainty of me, and I think that's funny and fascinating. For many, it's more an attitude towards the self than a belief that the devil is real. I live with that as the little spark of magic I allow myself without becoming a fuckin internet witch. Sometimes I try to act like Lucifer is real and listening, bc why not at this point, and I wear my sigil necklace when I'm out and about, and I let my general pro-devil-stance inform my literary analysis which I hope to make my career. And I generally try to live my life in a way that would intrigue a heretic angel. Idk if that's the same thing as believing.

That's more or less my story. Not very helpful to anyone on the search for clarity in their faith, I reckon, because I have no clarity to offer. The question of "how do I stand on religion" is one I constantly put off dealing with. If I have any advice at all, it's that the thinking human is always beset by doubt and controversy. It's fine to not be 100% certain in what you're doing. It's fine to be in negotiations with your faith or your deity. Religion is for humankind, like society and law, we created it to help us. It exists for us, we do not exist (only) in service to it. In the end, what you gotta know is, "Does believing [x] or following [y] add something to my life that I think is worthwhile? Does it help me somehow? Does the help outweigh any harm that might exist?"

#answer'd #gonna put this under a readmore #my problem basically is that as a kid i thought dragons were real. and then my family said ''no'' #''you're not allowed to think that'' #and then i (8 years old) grew embittered. like why is my religion teacher allowed to believe in jesus and not i in dragons #especially since back then my books about dragons seemed so much cooler than stories from the bible #so that's why i have trouble having faith. of course dragons aren't real but that's neither here nor there

[xenokiryu]

OKAY, last post overall and then I promise I'll make like- idk a pinned reference post among other things on my tumblr like I've been meaning to actually do for the longest time.

But ONCE AGAIN, I am subjecting @ikemendrew to the LAST of this personal Hell of a House project. Y'all are also welcome to ask questions about it as well, it was largely put together because we both play Sims and I use Sims for Floorplan references all the time when I finally actually do get around to drawing backgrounds or even writing backgrounds. The rest will be under cut of course to save everyone from the clogging of the dash.

[Floorplan] | [First & Basement Rooms] | [Second & Third Rooms]

Up to bat will be [Haha bat, love that for me right now.], please tell me that y'all got that painfully obvious joke and reference right there- Second floor Room #1.

This one was a little sporadic, redid it quite a fair bit, it was one of a few rooms where I literally spent more time undoing and redoing so much of it cause I could not for the life of me figure out how I wanted it to specifically look. Anyway, the hints are fairly obvious to the point. Def another one of my personal favorite rooms. I really do dig the quite quirky looking ones.

Room #2 for the Second Floor is rather simple and to the point, I legit could not think of much of a theme in full for it other than to just have it look fairly cozy and quiet. But a part of me is thinking of reworking it sometime at a later date, though the inspo/ref for the room's thematic didn't leave much for me to fully gauge and I say "How dare >:("

Room #3 for the Second floor, It's hard finding colors that aren't too obnoxiously pink that'll work well for the two that it's supposed to have a thematic to. But this is another room that I might go back and revisit at a later date and update the new pictures to this post for it.

But ain't it cute? Absolutely simple and cutesy and adorable? I think so. Especially with the lil teddy bear holding the hard in the one corner.

Now just casually moving onto the Third Floor rooms, and that wonderful one room that's a hybrid room between the third and second floor. I've always been a sucker for those kinds of rooms anyway-

Another fairly simple room to the point, that is the case for Room #1 of the Third floor, if you know then you know. And if you know, then you know who it's supposed to be themed after and if you know that you know that you know that I know. Then-

You vaguely get the picture with this room. I have my reasons, can you tell who I do and don't like with each little room theme thus far? Though the next room is the COMPLETE opposite of this one and it has me laughing.

Onto Room #2 of the Third floor! This one is absolutely my top tier favorite out of all the rooms I have done for this hell project of a house! The Documents strewn across the floor, the pictures on the wall, the classified wallpaper with the weird frame border! The Boxes and Hard drives and the Article display on the wall! The Spy gear on the dresser! Everything about it screams "This room is absolutely lived in!"

And you'll never guess the two that this entire room is themed on. Or maybe you will? Who knows! But it's totally my favorite of all the rooms I have done. 💕

LASTLY is the weird jointed room, with a few additional shots. It's my second favorite room by far, and as I've said I'm a COMPLETE sucker for these kinds of rooms. I know for a fact that they have an actual name but I cannot for the life of me remember at all!

But the last two shots you've already vaguely seen, but not the top two! There's no real set theme for this room other than it being one I'd personally would love to live in if I was allowed free reign to do what I wanted in terms of vaguely layouts.

There's two beds in between the top and bottom shots, but because it is a Murphy bed, I owe the Tiny Living pack my life for half of the furniture they have in it. But this room is meant to be shared by more than one person, trust me I know this.

Finally done with all those posts and Hey! Now I can just not look at it for awhile until I get very specific set up mods for it and actually start playing this lot.

If you have the packs or are curious about wanting to have the lot for yourself. Feel free to look it up on the Community tab in Sims 4, it'll be under the Username XenoKiryu of course. If you can't find it, let me know and I will see about trying to tack some tags onto the uploaded lot. ✨✨✨✨

#Trezzie's misadventures #Long post #Personal references #Will update the other two with the little links tab

[72000]

idk how to even look at my "profile" anymore

I lied when i said i would post more art here. I didnt really, and i havent, really. I still do prints, I still do music. I sometimes do videos. I post on instagram to the two people who love me and see them in person first. https://www.instagram.com/d722220

instead i will throw 200 words you.

I have decided to listen thru all of Prince's discography. I've fallen in love with every single one so far (For You, Prince, Dirty Mind, Controversy, 1999, Purple Rain, Around the World in a Day) EXCEPT for Parade. still revisiting but its not grabbing like the others did. I did not like Dirty Mind at first. I also didnt care for Around the World in a Day, but both i have come full circle on. Particularly ATWIAD. I am now in love with them and Do Me, Baby is a perfect song. It's funny to think (and read) that people weren't crazy at ATWIAD when it came out and last 3 songs are an incredible run (Pop Life, The Ladder, Temptation). It is also over started how Purple Rain is a 10/10 perfect album but let me be the 249,406 person to tell you that it's a perfect album. I was moved to tears on the first listen. Very few albums have done that (Kate Bush Hounds of Love being an example duh). Decided to take on this task on a whim and I'm so in love.

I had also decided to revisit and continue listening through Alan Vega's discography. Once again, 10 years ago when i first heard Just a Million Dreams i HATED IT. a lot. its so vastly different from anything Suicide related, and though you could say the same for the first few Vega solo albums, something about JAMD irked me. I even liked Saturn Drive more. I revisited it last week and only days later drove to the record shop to buy it, I NEEDED IT. it's really fucked up he could start as protopunk protoindustrial w Suicide then do rockabilly (S/T - collision Drive) dance pop and dance rock, then go totally avant garde(?) once you hit Deuce Avenue. it's still dance oriented but not in the same way Saturn Drive and JAMD are.

I cannot lie I love dance music. I also picked up Sheila E. " The Glamourous Life" and Nik Kershaw "Human Racing". I love dance music. The last haul was Toni Braxton first album (s/t ?) and The Time s/t.

Other than that I've slowly been working my way through Dean Blunt discography. (pattern?) I made it through Jill Scott Herring OST and Narcissist II but once I hit The Redeemer something in me knew I liked it but I couldnt articulate why. Still kinda can't tbh. after the 3rd listen it finally clicked and I "got it". The only thing I didn't care for up to this point is the last song Gass on Babyfather. I've only made it up to Walhalla. I'd always seen BLACK METAL be a topic of discussion any time his name is brought up but The Redeemer is the one I come back to the most. time will tell.

The funny thing is i live alone and have been for almost a year now and normally I would come home and throw 1000 words at my then roommate about what I'd been listening to and what I thought. Now that I can't do that maybe I'll bring it here. maybe I won't. maybe I'll delete this out of some sort of weird humility and temporary attempt at pretending to be elusive ?

I keep track of full albums I listen to on a monthly basis a la Topsters so maybe I'll start posting them here. Nobody will see this and I feel like posting them to twitter is a little to revealing. I've been kinda showing my ass lately.

how many words was that ?

9/25/23

#prince #sheila e #the time #dean blunt #alan vega