#mom issues help lmao

[staronet]

I got really tired, like can hardly keep my eyes open tired. I looked at my saved photos and I found over 40 screen shots of Damian Wayne from the one comic series I read.

I can't lie, he is a little fella but over 40!?!

#batman #damian wayne #he's become my new obsession #if you couldn't tell #i just gravitate towards characters with sad/traumatic back stories #that clearly have the trauma from it #yet persevere though it and become thier own person #mom issues help lmao #i know the there are many different stories and he doesn't always follow this path #but shut up #let me have fun #I'll post Some if you guys wanna see it

[cringelordofchaos]

Emotion achieved: empathy (only for a fictional character though)

#djxmd #d.d......... #episode 87 jacksons diary. #the whole time i was feeling rly bad for exer bc exer said “i canngo to therapy. i love you” to his dad. but his dadz face looked soulles #and for some reasjn mt brain is making me think that means his dad DOESNT want exer to improve or thinks he doesnt deserve love ... WHICH IS #WRONG !! “i need to find a way to help both jackson and exer” - harry campell. direct quote #but still. it made me FEEL LIKE he hated his son for some reason (WHICH IS UNTRUE) #which made ke feel bad for exer? and i accidentally thought of me and my own parents. like “lmao what kf your mom doesnt think you deserve- #- love but js only pretending you do“. and i got really sad and i cried. idk why i dojt have mommy issues just #uhxkx. mannnnn. #i LOVE HARRY BTW !!! AND HIS FATHER-SON RELATIONSHIP W EXER #MY BRAIN JUST MAKES ME THINK IRRATIONAL THINGS SOMETIMES #jacksons diary #webtoon #exer campbell

[altruistic-meme]

dear Abram,

i hope there have been Gentle Moments between the Horrors. dont forget to take it easy, but Take It.

how has the Horrors been going, by the way? last posting i recall you were halfway to acquiring a Vehicle? how goes The Hunt?

with much love,

Milo

P.S.

thank you milo ;;;

there have been some gentle moments!! despite everything, there have been a few good moments this month :) including cat cuddles. i have gotten so much cat cuddles and boy did i need it.

the Horrors. man. i have now MOSTLY acquired my car! unfortunately there was a mix-up while at the bank which means i have to go back again tomorrow, and to the dealer as well, BUT the dealer was very VERY nice and he let me ""borrow"" the car i'm buying since he knew i was actively without a car right now. so the car is parked outside!! i get to drive it!! i have it now!! i just have to finish up with all the financing stuff :') and also with dealing with my sad little VW rip

the rest of the Horrors........ well. i've mostly only talked about my car here bc it's the only one that i can have any like actual control over and it's the only one where it's like "ok this is an issue and this is how it gets solved and all of these things are achievable" so i've been making myself put most of my focus on it since it IS the only issue this month that i CAN solve. the rest is stuff that. sigh. 2 of my family members died this month, one of which was my last living grandparent. and it sucks!! and my mom is currently halfway across the country having to deal with all of the paperwork and logistics of that more-or-less alone.

i know my job has bereavement leave, and i have been deeply considering figuring out how to use it so that i can go see my mom and give her some support. but i can't afford time without pay so i need to figure out if it's paid or not. OUGH.

but SOME good! like my new car being so fucking funny to me. it has push to start. it has android auto. it is so fancy. also it has roll-up windows. and little knobs for the side mirrors. i die. the contrast. her name is also Tails in honor of my favorite Sonic character. and she will be getting flower magnets.

and TSC coming out!! and rewatching Bungo Stray Dogs!!

and Blue! Blue is good too :)

#sorry for the rambling just. HHHHH. #it's hard to actually think or talk about especially with my family #cus we're all kind of going through it because of The Everything and they just aren't well known for #actually listening to me or comforting me so :') #but yay bird!!! #and also yay for blue!! #my mom is thankfully not ENTIRELY alone she does have more family out there #but #we aren't super close with most of our family so i'm grateful she has my cousins and their families out there with her #but also her sisters are... expected to be Issues. although again my cousins have apparently already offered to be body guards for her lmao #still though. it's different than having me and my siblings and my dad with her cus we're all still in GA #my dad having stayed behind so he could help us deal with the everything here #and play middle man so we could be updated on what was going on without putting it on our mom along with everything else #and just. yeah. april sucks. we hate april now. i'm so glad my birthday is only ALMOST in april but it ISNT thank FUCK. #fuck april!! worst month ever!!!!!!! #old man blue #askers #cozy-fish-crow #shh ac #okay i'm done ranting now ;;;; gonna see what sweets i might still have to consume

[r0nnietherat]

Headcanon that Barbara had schizophrenia just to make Dennis more relatable to me 😍😍

#me when my mom just got fired from her job and she ‘loves’ me yet she literally will not take care of me #me when she’s sick and therefore I’m never allowed to feel bad or upset with her bc she can’t help it #me when she’s my mother and therefore I must love her #bestie going THROUGH it rn #sorry y’all #I’ll probably delete this later & write a fic to channel this lmao #it’s always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #Barbara reynolds #iasip #mommy issues

[buysomecheese]

Preventing myself from freaking tf out by remembering that even my hormones don’t want to be in my body even my body is trying to prove that it’s Wrong and it’s funny that everything agrees with me except my mom and the government

#boyfriend I’m ok I promise lol #context for my dear friends here on Tumblr I got diagnosed (?) with a complex ovarian cyst today #it hurts and I’m upset about it because it’s Just Another Reminder that this body is female!!! #I used to say ‘yea it may not be the body I’m supposed to have but at least it works just fine’ #no I have chronic issues with synthesizing hormones or something #like this body knows the hormones and shit are wrong and keeps rejecting it but that doesn’t Help any #and being on testosterone will actually probably be very helpful to my literal health y’know #because otherwise I’d have to be on bc my whole life to prevent unnecessary pain and shit #and I’ve already lived that it caused Other issues lmao (irregular menstruation even when on the pill blood clot risk No period for >6- #-months sometimes etc.) so testosterone will. be very healthy for me to be on once I get there. #but before I start now I have to figure out so many Things and my hormone levels will have to be So totally tested #which was gonna be needed anyways it’s just gonna be annoying #and I would be so ok with just having a hysterectomy (partial or complete) and taking gahrt being done with it #but NO no of course not. never would it be that easy. my MOM- #it’s fine like of course she doesn’t want her 18 year old unmarried childless daughter to have a hysterectomy that makes sense #doctors would agree with her and they’d be Not Incorrect #but I don’t want or need bio kids I’ll end up getting a hysterectomy anyways #but I had to explain Every Little Bit of the surgeries used for ovarian cysts they’re all so easy (like laproscopies and such) #it’s just tedious that she doesn’t know how to do research so it’s All on me to explain it but she also thinks I’m an idiot #like girl pick a struggle #either listen to me or don’t make me do your research #I’m gonna explode I’m fine. I’m gonna take a shower and then write an essay and apply to beta-reading jobs and go to sleep #speaking of. if anyone knows anyone who’s hiring beta-readers uhh give them my tumblr let them Hime #*hmu #I would love to be paid extra for reading and commenting on books lmao #especially if I’m gonna be paying my own hrt without my insurance (which is paid by my mom) then. well. #my $12.50 an hour for 8-12 hours a week job isn’t gonna cut it

[bottomvalerius]

sam's very first reaction to (i assume) damian being "abort it" makes... so much sense

LFNJSISOSOS like I know I personally gush over domestic dad!Sam a lot, but objectively he is very against the idea of having kids LMAO he also is very aware that Donna would feel obligated to keep it for a variety of reasons and would probably be the only one to really check in with them like that (Asra probably THOUGHT IT but would never say it out loud LMAO)

#I do think though that Sam would be like actively involved in the birth process LMAO #he helped with mom with every other pregnancy she had as soon as he could walk #he KNOWS what to expect and how to help and is the most realistic of the bunch #asks #he has a lot of conflicting emotions about forming families and it’s 110% to do with his mommy issues lmao

[todayisafridaynight]

I completely agree! I'm glad you don't mind at least, but of course, it's totally natural to be predisposed to liking what you end up liking. I think that's gonna happen no matter what and it's not something that ever needs to be suppressed. There are very obvious patterns in my favorite characters and pairings for a reason lol

Same! I'm very selective as well, so a fic that stands out that much is always gonna be one for the books. I'm thrilled the language barrier didn't get in the way. The scene at the park GETS ME like the way Jo just knows that it's gonna eat away at Masato and does his best to accommodate instead of dragging him straight home like bro😭😭

I've always wanted to know what differs in Jo's and Arakawa's "parenting styles" that made Masato have such a clear "favorite," and maybe it's things like that that build up. ALSO AGREE on the drama theme in Confession, there's a bit of that in Y7 as-is so it was a great choice to hone in on and highlight it.

I knew you'd say that haha, but I think my subconscious simply understands that if I'd trust anyone with AraSawa, it's you. Also no worries, I genuinely wasn't even expecting a reply until you got home, godspeed lol--super excited to see what you come up with, and I hope you enjoyed your trip + the sushi!

Of course! Nothing wrong with liking what you end up liking. I only worry about it so I don't miss out on good things just because I'm not familiar with it or it's something new- trying to be open minded and ready to try different things and all :]

YEAHYEAH it especially felt great since like. Jo seeing Masato cry about not being able to walk was of course what got him back into his life, so it was nice to loop back to that and instead of Jo not being able to do anything like the first time, he go to be there for him now ;;

On the topic of parenting styles though, I'm genuinely surprised I haven't let slip any of my personal notes about how they parent Masato- or at least how I've speculated they parent him (of course we see how Masumi takes care of him more, so the 'speculation' part more so lies on Jo's end since obviously we didn't get to see it as explicitly). I actually thought of writing up a post about their parenting styles, but I thought I'd be repeating a lot of points we went over uu;;

Even if I might not ever write a fic, I'm glad that I've gotten the mark of approval for AraSawa interpretations (I guess my silly comics are the closest to written fics huh lmao)!

#snap chats #i'm genuinely surprised i havent rambled about parenting styles..... #very evident i have. Parental Issues so of course parenting styles and parenting in general is a very Interesting topic to me #ESPECIALLY when my last course was on childhood development and how parenting affects a child's outcome #literally was is wrong with me this is the perfect time to write that parenting style post..... headass... #moving on tho my mall trip went great ! if you happened to read my tags on my posts vaejlv #the sushi i got was something called a Golden Dragon Roll- it had salmon with mango on top and some kind of spicy saucy #very strange sounding i know and that's why i got it. because What The Fuck. #it was actually p good ! but im also not a particularly picky eater so im happy with a lot of things i eat #p funny since i was super picky as a kid but i think thats just cause i didnt like my mom so by extension anything she gave me i hated #prob didnt help my dad did most of the cooking... he was the only one who did any cooking actually.... #ENOUGH of my parent issues i have MOVED ON from that subject of the tag ramble #i guess thats the end of the tag ramble now actually. oops <:} #just gotta flip a coin on whether i want to draw or watch one of those movies rn... we'll see what i decided in like three hours ig lmao

[scoopstrooptm]

it's not mother's day where i'm from but it would be for robin and one day i will talk in much more depth about the Complicated relationship she has with her mom

#&. headcanon ( robin buckley. ) #her mom is..... not my favourite person lmao #the reason why robin does so many extracurricular activities ? because her mom enrolled robin while at elementary school #in an attempt to push her to socialise #and getting her into soccer was to help with her coordination after her developmental issues as a toddler #and this is the thing: it's always to /push/ rather than to help #i have muses with way worse parents #and i do think they could repair their relationship later in robin's life #but robin's mom is someone who was a 'perfect' queen bee at school and ends up frustrated when her daughter does not fit the same mould #and then there's dustin. who is extremely close to his mom but also plays a pseudo-parental role with her from time to time #because she's alone and a lil fragile. and because dustin's dad left and dustin subconsciously tries to fill that void #they're two very interesting dynamics to me tbh

[kawaiianimeredhead]

Last time I went to my dentist appointment the dentist called my teeth boring and the hygienist agreed and said it was nice to look at boring teeth for a change

This time around, the dentist (a second one, the first's husband) said everything was looking good and then paused a moment and asked if he could take a photo of them. He said they look very nice and he'd like to use them as references for people who need cosmetic procedures

And so I've been incredibly pleased today to see that I'm getting a good grade in teeth

#ive had issues keeping up with then when i was younger #depression and etc and all that #but my mom was a dental assistant so i had regular cleanings and check ups #so theyve been monitored but i still like have to do most the work or whatever #my gums have been having issues and still are but the hygienist mentioned theyre looking a lot better than they had been #so not only was it pleasing to hear that my teeth look nice it was pleasing to heat someone notice what i was doing and it was improvement #the braces i had in middle/high school paid off i guess #i stopped wearing my retainer ages ago but the only shift in my teeth ive noticed are a small shift on the bottom #which the retainer wouldnt help anyways and if its not causing a health issue i dont see a need to fix it #but yeah its just exicting to tell my mom how i have boring teeth lmao #dont mind me #tag rambles

[ashetheshade]

The new manager thinks I should just pick through the pain. Bitch I’m always pushing through *something* and pain makes it fucking *impossible* to function properly. And I think he threatened to fire me?

He’s, “worried about my longevity at *insert business*”,

And at first I though he was worried about my health because I’m dense as fuck but I think he means that he doesn’t want to keep someone that gets sick that often around.

He claims to understand pain because he pushes through headaches caused by lack of sleep but,

My headaches are caused by way more random stuff and can get pretty severe (to the point where sometimes I can only lay in bed and try to sleep)

Plus everyday I show up is a trial in and of itself regardless of physical health issues.

I tried to argue all this, but I did no call no show once, but I know my rights. You can’t fire people for being sick. And I am.

#health problems #tw health issues #it’s probably some sort of discrimination #I want to say a diagnoses could help me #but my doctor is shit so whatever #and I sure as hell am not telling my workplace about my adhd and gad lmao #it’s mostly people like my mom that work there #I’m sure they know I’m weird #but clinically weird?

[jentlemahae]

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#idk why but these days ive been thinking seriously that i should switch to a wheelchair #in a weird way i think it would give me more freedom bcs there’s a lot of things id like to do now that i dont do bcs ik it will make me too #tired #like id love to go to museum or parks in the centre but i dont now bcs ik id be too exhausted #but if im not walking it would be different #also id even save money on transport bcs if im not walking being tired is not an issue so i wont have to take taxis as much #also omfg i could finally wear whatever i want since i don’t have to be careful about falling #ik my mom is against that bcs she feels like me getting a wheelchair would be giving up but for some reason i dont feel like that #i felt like thwt when i got the walker but then i saw how much it helped me #and walking is so difficult rn i think id benefit from some extra help #and idt it d be giving up bcs it’s not my fault my disability gets worse and there’s nothing i can do about it so what can i do #ik life would more complicated in some ways (eg finding a wheelchair friendly accommodation might be hard) but u think it will be easier in #other ways #also bcs i wanna move to a new country after my first master and i think extra aid would be for the best #it would make things more complicated but i feel like forcing myself to go on without it is making things more complicated already #i just really want to be independent like i just want the ability to do what i want by myself as much as possible #tbh i feel like that’s also why i wanna move again bcs in ams my mom can come whenever and i don’t like that lmao #anw im easing my mom into it these days

[darkwood-sleddog]

eeeeee the pure kotzebue boys that were on ice were used in a dual sired AI litter and they’re due at the end of june!!

#dogblr #alaskan malamute #this is SUPER exciting for me #but also something i think that should be said is that we must also be careful with inbreeding levelsl when breeding off these dogs #as they themselves are related #but i do think use of ai to bring in now deceased dogs is a really helpful thing for potentially lost genetic diversity #i think it will be interesting considering the very highly related percentage of these pedigrees #what the COI will be in these puppies #bc mom is a high % kotzebue #will it be less or more than other high % K dogs? #edit: note that when i mean super exciting for me i do not mean i am getting a dog #i just think its a really interesting project and i'm excited it was able to happen #always be thinking about #dogs being born now that could contribute to exciting breedings later #maybe when i can breed at any point lmao? thats why i get excited by certain dogs my breeder keeps #edit 2: high % k mom also has a working title and breeder regularly works her dogs so its def a breeding that i'd keep my eye on #and keep an eye on where those repsective pups go #i cannot imagine the breeder would let these dogs go to non breeding homes #unless they had a glaring issues

[ii-zi]

I'm not in the most collected state of mind due how things are going rn but just a heads up

Due to unforeseen circumstances, and to my own misfortune, i wasn't able to get my baby cremated (not bc of a lack of support from yall but bc of home issues lol)

I'm busy rn and spacing out a lot bc I'm not coping well with how much shit I'm currently going thru lol but pls know all the kind words were immensely appreciated (and those who supported the cremation pls hmu so i remember to return the money when I come back online)

#im literally getting scolded so so so much and it's adding so much weight on top of it all #i lost one of the most precious people i had. few days later i lost my baby. mental & physical health steadily declining #the house is a mess. everything everyone says to me are complains about how much they hate being around me #and to top it all of i haven't been successful teaching the kittens how to use the litter box l #sushi keeps eating the litter 😭 #they're all resenting quesito's death a lot and need far more attention that i can give rn and it wears me out so much #so they go to the others for attention and only get rejected and it breaks my heart. so i can't help but give them more than i can #afford to lol im tired 24/7 n can barely do shit jdkfngsk but still getting scolded over it all ofc 👍 #my mom saw one of my drawings (i love drawing furniture lmao) and asked if it was mine in a v particular tone and idk what to #think abt it lol #on other news the fear of never getting a diagnosis is paralyzing 👍 #also im legitimately being gaslighted right on my face everyone keeps telling me how im misremembering everything and #making shit up and stuff and i know my brain's not working well but i still have enough function to trust it. i know im not crazy even if #they're so hell-bent in making me thing so.. #oh that's another issue too the paranoia has been going stronger than ever and it's wearing me out even more lol i really can't #give myself a break lol

[qrtmin]

hehehe the tags in your last post are very cute!! im happy youre learning more about yourself and what you want and will accept!! im happy you found someone to maybe explore that with! it makes me smile

jen !! you're too sweet love, i'm smooching and hugging you super hard rn i swear <3 i'm also very happy i'm finally figuring out that part of myself since it's something i've struggled with for a long time, so hopefully the guy i've been talking with will help me move forward in that process hehe. even if we don't end up actually having anything serious, i'm still happy we've been talking lately, it feels nice having someone new to talk with and get advice from ngl lmao

#mail. #i've been struggling lately with figuring out what i wanna do with my future and all that fun stuff and he's been incredibly helpful #talking with my mom is hard bc she's still fixated on me going to college #and talking with my friends is also hard bc they're all in college and aren't experiencing the same issues as me #so talking with him has been nice bc he had a similar experience to what i'm going through with all this yk #the difference being that he's already 21 so he's already gone past all of it and can give me actually helpful advice lmao

[pussy-ache]

my dad wants some of my pot to give to his friend

#like … no #you know how JOEY. DOESN’T. SHARE. FOOD? #alyssa doesn’t share her drugs. period #especially because he wants to give it to his friend and her daughter #her daughter used to be my best friend when i was a kid and she had a lot of issues #and her mom 100% could have helped her daughter and helped ME when her daughter verbally abused me when we were children #but she didn’t! just told me to grow thicker skin. which wasn’t bad advice generally speaking #it just shouldn’t be your advice when it’s YOUR daughter thats misbehaving and causing someone ELSES daughter to ‘’grow thicker skin’’ #so no. not sharing my pot. grow some thicker skin and get over it #and i literally told him to tell her that lmao

[boomerang109]

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#tw disordered eating #no because at what point do I admit to myself that just because it’s wrapped up in a couple extra layers of neurodivergence and sensory #sensitivity at the end of the day I find comfort in not eating and the control of hunger #and like I genuinely don’t have enough energy to get through the day because im simply not eating enough and can’t remember the last time #i have and like at what point do I admit that this is actually a problem #cause like I haven’t seriously looked into a job for the summer cause im like. idk if ill be able to feed myself #but I keep being like ‘oh it’s just an adhd issue’ ‘it’s a meal prep issue’ #what if it’s a fear of change issue #what if starving myself is the only goddamn thing I can control in this world even if I don’t admit to myself #i don’t know what to do and I don’t know how to get better #and I have so much shame because I grew up hearing about my mom having an eating disorder in her twenties and it was always like well don’t #worry mom you’re raising me with a better relationship with food so I won’t have that issue #well guess who’s in their twenties and went to one session with a dietician and the dietician was concerned they were malnourished lmao #(i don’t think i checked off enough of the symptoms to actually qualify. but still. the fact that it was a consideration?) #and I just. I literally don’t know where im going to go this summer #because I need someone to teach me how to eat. to teach me how to grocery shop and meal prep and cook #because I KNOW im capable of all those things but no one has ever walked me through all the steps so it’s too scary to me rn to do #but I literally cannot even fathom making anyone put up with my presence for 3 months let alone being like ‘oh also will you help me get #better? cause I’ve tried on my own and it’s just not working’ #i just put the tw here but I moved it to the top so people could be warned before reading but #love that I refuse to use anything other than that tag because that would be admitting this was real #im just starving myself and never gained back the weight I lost four years ago from starving myself im sure this is all suuuuuper normal and #just a silly little phase #(fr tho if i need any other tws let me know i don’t wanna trigger anyone)