#more paranoid than usual

[ardustein]

Alright ya'll, hear me out.

So the citizens of Fawcett city start to notice this homeless kid. Now, this wouldn't be too strange normally, but this kid is weird.

He will randomly walk out of alleyways that no one saw him entering. He has strange lightning scars up and down his face. Coincidentally, the sound of thunder seems so follow wherever he goes. If you try and talk to him he will answer vaguely before running off and disappearing without a trace. Some people say his eyes glow in the dark. Others mention him having conversations with a tiger. Criminals who attempt to rob from him get caught the day after.

After a little while, Batman catches wind of this, and of course, he needs to know everything, so he starts to investigate. After gathering intel about the kid, he finally goes to approach Captain Marvel about it. Marvel starts acting strangely, skittish, on guard, suspicious.

So Batman gets even more interested and starts diving deeper into this Billy Batson kid. It doesn't take long for him to discover C.C. Batson, the boys father, and sharer of Marvel's face. The whole family seemingly disappeared overnight, parents dead, both children missing.

Batman brings up some evidence of Billy to Zantana and after examining it she states that this kid is definitely not human. His aura is flickering, like his corporeal form is in flux.

So, Batman comes to the only logical conclusion. Billy is a ghost

and Captain Marvel murdered him.

#hijinks ensue #batman would for sure try and talk to billy but he would avoid him like the plague #batman does not mention this to anyone for fear that marvel will find out #so the league and billy become very confused about why batman has started acting so paranoid #well #more paranoid than usual #and in billys attemps to stop batman from finding out his identity #billy just convinces him of the theory more and more #and maybe the two accidentally bond for real during the misunderstanding #batman #billy batson #shazam #captain marvel #shazam! #dc #dc comics

[aquapede]

the voices in some god's head

#slay the princess #stp #the long quiet #voice of the hero #voice of the paranoid #voice of the smitten #voice of the stubborn #voice of the cold #<-tagging the fan favorites i dont have time for the rest of them get better soon #scribbles #id in alt text #ask 2 tag? #i wanted them to look more like the princess than people usually portray them #since they're implied to be the part of lq with the capacity to change (i.e being a remnant of her....) #dont deny them their feminine swag okay. my final message

[pansear-doodles]

maybe sometimes the character is out of character because it's the fan's form of escapism to project onto a character they enjoy. while they can certainly just make a new character at that point, it can be hard to detach their favorite character from their visions because its literally their projection and literally their favorite character. just saying

i understand the complaints though and it can be annoying sometimes if theyre your blorbo/fave too but like sometimes... i genuinely have a difficult time trying to separate oc ideas from canon. its so hard when you are mentally ill and its your coping mechanism and you have no other feasible outlet to get help or get a better alternative

the evidence? literally fucking me

its something else if its genuinely problematic though or something else than projection. there does seem to be the difference between blorbofication and something that's meant to be more personal.

#thoughts #i am so guilty of depicting artificer much more mellow than what they appear in-game and while i usually dont care about what- #-people will say to me about it its making me paranoid especially with the increase of “they would not fucking say that” posts hgnngggg #ik this is a self issue ill stop now

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

thinking about when my doctor first saw me for mental health reasons and went through various things and kinda wishing I hadn't skipped him so quickly past bipolar and related stuff

#because i don't know sometimes i think it's possible #i can get paranoid and i know for dead certain i could drive myself into actual paranoid psychosis if i let myself #occasional hallucinations usually i figure out they are pretty quick but sometimes i don't know #and mania is. actually possible? where i immediately flatly denied it but also i had a false view of mania as far more severe than it *can* #be. so it's like maybe i have had it in the past idk. but also all these things are so self-reported how would i ever even know. so i keep #saying no to all teh questions about voices in your head bc i don't get them too often and it's easier not to open that can of worms #idk guys i am so tired #personal #tw paranoia #tw unreality #tw hallucinations #idk?? covering my bases here

[galacticslugs]

my list of symptoms to talk about at my appointment keeps getting longer 🏃

#im obviously condensing them but i need it on paper bc i am the bitch who had failed myself multiple times by forgetting what #i came in there for .this has happened too many times LMAO and im at the end of my rope so to speak 🗣️ #bc its . hard to differentiate which one is increasing untreated mental illness or just yknow depression. but . i know its not depression #bc i know her very well!!! #shhchri #i will not shut up today ive been talking more lately and . usually ppl would be like ye youre getting out of your shell #im like?? i think im being . more reckless . so i dont. know. #anyways i have maybe a suspicion something is wrong. like. mor than usual up there and it needs to be . treated. #i think there is a foreign matter up there and im too afraid to tell anyone bc im just being paranoid probably

[b4kuch1n]

do you allow ppl to draw fanart for your designs? your pokemon aus + designs are beautiful

absolutely! feel free to draw any of my fan designs whenever you want, and tag me too if you post it, it'd make me very happy to see it! my only caveat in this is if a design I do is việt phục (traditional/historical/modernized Kinh Vietnamese garments, e.g. áo dài, áo tấc, nhật bình, etc.) I ask that 1/you don't modify it in your drawing, and 2/you don't put that design on a character it's not originally made for. thank you very much!

#bakuspeech #ask #if you aren't sure if a design I did used việt phục elements or not feel free to ask! #tho I do usually mention it in the original post tags. I love bringing up that shit lmao #this kinda safeguard is in place so I dont become even more paranoid about someone claiming my designs to be hanfu or hanbok etc #which. did happen once. granted that person was certified instagram insane™ so. lol etc #just. a Lot of baggage there. lotsa historical things goin on #but yeah! other than that go nuts do whatever u want babeyy #use ur judgement and have fun! enjoy art! enjoy drawing! #hope u have fun with the design!!

[lunar-fey]

9 people you want to know better

tagged by: @celia-the-pikachu

last song I listened to: uhhh technically probably something on the bg3 ost. but i don't know any of the names and i feel like it kinda doesn't count anyway. the actual last song i listened to was @/dootnoot7125's mashup of the concept of love from jet set radio future and twister from twewy linked there for your convenience

currently watching: i actually watch a lot of anime every season LMAO its kind of My Hobby. like. i'm watching 10 shows rn. 7 of which are currently airing. uhhh but top few for the season: bleach thousand year blade war, bungo stray dogs s5, link click s2, & undead girl murder farce which is like. i feel like it has a very specific audience in mind. and i am that audience. the jokes hit perfectly. to me <3 but im not actually sure if its like. Good. also honorable mention for jujutsu kaisen s2 and zom100 which i actually haven't started yet bc i'm gonna watch them with skerples but they both look really good 👍

currently reading: .......... ..... I think the last thing i read was the mononoke manga...? probably over a year ago now? unless you count video game dialogue bg3 i GUESS. uhhh actually visual novels should count imo. i haven't started it yet but i have downloaded the vn mamiya and i'll be reading that....soon ish? but also i'm going in blind and don't really know anything about it

current obsession: baldur's gate 3. in case you couldn't tell. ouhhhhh its sooo much fun for me i love it sooo much . not really much to say there just having a classic Good Time. also really happy seeing like Everyone getting into baldur's gate as someone who played the games on like. ps2 as a small kid with his dad. its awesome :)

as per usual i'm not actually going to directly tag anyone but if you see this and want to do it feel free to say i sent you!! and tag me so i can see your answers :3

#the fey speaks #if anyone wants to be tagged in stuff like this pls let me know!! #i get really paranoid and unwell about tagging people for reasons i won't get into #but if anyone does want to be tagged in stuff like this i'll like....make a list somewhere so i know who i can tag and ya'll can get tagged #in stuff!! literally a win win #oh also. to clarify. #once i start those 2 shows with skerples i'll be watching a total of NINE airing shows this season. which is admittedly more than average #usually i start with ~8-10 but by this point in the season i'm usually down to like 5.......... #i also have recently watched a few non anime stuff like good omens s2 but nothing atm #anyway. @ ye who tagged me. high fiving you and shaking your hand!! anime mutual!!!! #i don't have enough of those tbh

[meowthiroth]

YOU! NEW FOLLOWER! CAN YOU SOLVE THIS CAPTCHA

#I hate how paranoid this bot war situation’s made me about new follows :( #for the ​past couple months ive had to block/report almost EVERY new follow #because usually I only get new followers VERY occasionally & probably like 99% of them for the past couple months WERE just bots #but lately i noticed more Actual Real People following me than usual alongside the bots #I feel bad cuz i’m at this point where almost every new follow notif aggros me until i check & confirm they’re not a threat :( #ace screams into the void #vent//

[mag171]

just had a very exciting past few minutes. played a lovely game of "oh my fucking god theres a dead rat in my desk thats flies thats FLIES" and its wonderful sequel of "how much womens shaving cream does it take to drown the three gigantic spiders i just found eating the flies"

#the answer is about 3/4 of a can #the rat is disposed the spiders are drowned and i just. im about to fucking freak out i mean it #theres nothing that causes me more panic than the idea of bugs on me or near me #and i just. #i swear im not a violent person and usually im all for catch and release #but i cant deal with that. i couldnt deal with that #im shaky and paranoid and literally every motion. every hair-trigger. is a bug trying to get into my skin #im so freaked out right now. might read some fic. play dragonvale. drink.

[orcelito]

i think im officially cursed today lmfaooo

on top of dropping a 20L container on myself (thankfully empty, but still Ow), banging my arm on the edge of a Different tea container when my hand slipped, the store being So Busy i cant do shit & then dying down right when my shift ends, dropping Multiple things into the tiramisu cream when i finally got time to make it (one of the cream bottles & the Fucking Mixer), getting soaked from the rain during my bike ride home, going thru a Four Tornado Event, my living room flooding a lil & having to clean that...

i just managed to knock a drink out of my fridge. and the bottom of the cup split & spilled all over the floor

:')

#speculation nation #it... has me a too scared to burn a candle rn lmfaooo bc with my luck today i dont trust that it wont just burn my apartment down #carefully carefully carefully carrying my ramen to the table bc im paranoid im gonna drop it all over the floor #i just Do Not trust myself rn. my luck has been so absolutely atrocious today. #im not out of the clear with the ramen yet. im scared im gonna drop it on myself & burn my lap or SOMETHING #I Do Not Trust Myself Right Now. #that. list of events is so. wow. wowowow #that isnt even counting all the many mundane little drink spills. more than usual it felt like. #probably the stress. all my clumsiness can be blamed on stress and/or fatigue. #the tornadoes thing & living room flooding tho were ABSOLUTELY outside of my control. & thus im blaming luck lol #wishing for the best with my attempts to eat my ramen. we'll see if the bad luck continues.

[coffeeworldsasaki]

The only thing that changed since i was 15 is that i feel the same emotions towards dracula and Frankenstein but more intensely, meaning that i now i don't just dislike dracula but i actually hate it and that i don't just really really really like Frankenstein but love it

#like yes i own 3 different editions of Frankenstein so i obviously loved it already but now i love it more #i have a translation an original and a translation but in special illustrated edition #god im so glad that when packing i was paranoid and ready for my family to not settle in before 10 years as usual and had my important #books wrapped in plastic one by one #took me more than a hour to do that but now I'm not worried they've been ruined by humidity #the other books are probably all ruined but ah whatever #it's not like I'll read them again anyway i got an ebook of everything i want to read fhsjdj #... I'll be so annoyed if the persian boy is ruined i really like that cover and i don't know if they still print it

[olessan]

My dead tooth broke off today 🙃

#''see a dentist'' I'M FUCKIN TRYING #injury tw #it sort of just gave up actually there wasn't a snap or anything it was like a dead toenail just yeeting itself #it felt a LOT looser than normal #i was paranoid about it even more than usual #last night while I was salt rinsing my mouth and stuff (I don't brush near it it's dangerous) it seemed FAR looser than normal #(not that having a fucked up tooth is normal) #and it kept tilting and getting caught on my lower teeth when I would do literally anything with my mouth incl. checking it with my tongue #there is still some tooth left at the base so the nerve is not exposed... yet... I think #there's the dark pink bits where the side of the tooth used to be touching the gum #part of that was already exposed from where the other half disintegrated last year #I had a very close look at what snapped off and it's the remaining part of the tooth above the gumline minus a small part #it didn't even really snap it sort of just disconnected it's quite deteriorated inside and you can see the #boundary between the layers of the tooth and how royally fucked the interior was from the expanding cavity #the remaining chunk doesn't have much discolouration but that's not to lighten the fact that it's BAD that the last piece broke off #I can't brush or chew on it (toothbrush would DEFINITELY have made it worse) and there is some toothpaste and other gunk #but the broken off piece kind of soft inside #I have actually swallowed by accident at least two other pieces that I know of when it first started falling apart #I chewed them #went 'wtf' #and swallowed them without parsing that it might've been that little cavity getting worse #I am RELIEVED that there's still some left and that the root is STILL FUCKING IN THERE #so there's no obvious DIRECT PATH TO MY BLOOD BRAIN BARRIER #(dental infections have the most horrifyingly direct path to both the brain and heart where they SPREAD)

[alatar-and-pallando]

thus far, my body flatly refuses to put on bulky muscles (alas) BUT the lil muscles I do have get stronger than it looks like they could possibly be when I've been working out.

This meant I was able to give the instructor at the gym last night a real shocker when he was gently suggesting "oh it's fine if you can only do one chin-up"

I took my twink-lookin self (clad in a crop top and short shorts, because boys should be sluttier and change starts with me) up to the bar and just kept doing chin-ups until he told me to stop :)

#i can do like. 15 chin-ups in a row #it was a weightlifting fundamentals class #because i would like to be a little more swole please #but i didn't want to just dive into hefting free weights without some protips first because i'm paranoid about pulling something #so i learned how to do a proper benchpress #and woo mama do my pecs burn today #HOPING that doing heavier weights and fewer reps will actually translate into muscle gain #rather than the high-rep workouts i usually do #my posts

[jwowwsboobs]

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#i think imcomong down w an illness #n i havent been sleeping great n ive been more paranoid than usual #n 2day thsi dude at school told me that this othet guy i rlly rlly dont like took a picture of me at some point n was sending it 2 ppl as #like ??? proof ??? we’re friends or dating or something #i think i made it pretty fucking clear 2 ppl i do not like him at all hes tried 2 guilt trip me imto being nice 2 him tried 2 stop me from #from being friends w ppl he didnt like which. didnt work. its just so. goddddddd. i’ve blocked his number n stuff but like its so like tota #totally sickening honestly. i guess im glad the dude told me but like:\ i told tht other guy not 2 take pictures of me its so. gross #n i havent painted my nails in agessss i feel so slopy n gross n my hair’s greasy its just everything all at once #uck #xoxo

[zarovich]

I cant stand this, cant deal with this constant exhaustion. im so damn tired yet no matter how much I sleep its never enough and i pass out through the day regardless. the worst!!

#makes me so miserable that id rather be dead. cuz i aint living #i havent ever been living. its been like this for as longas i remember i have to sleep for at least 10 hours or im unable to function #and thats at least. i usually sleep longer. literallt have slept for 24 hours before. and was still tired after. as so fucking tired #i cant stand this combineed with my chronic migraines?? i rathe rkill myself than live like this much longer. who wouldnt? #tired lf the passing out too. im afraid to leave the house often bc i get so sleepy i feel faint. makes my agoraphobia worse #idkwhats wrong. i need to get a sleep study but i have no way to do so. its not up to me. plus i dont trust doctors no more #ive kinda just. given up at this point. id rather just sleep it away. my dreams are so vivid and happy why wouldnt i want to stay #i need to sleep now anyways. imso tired im shaking and hurting all over. sorry i nwed to vent i feel alone and paranoid. void talking #if i get embarrassed by this i might deleted it. if i even remember that is #vent #personal

[nagitoedit]

#scarsies #i was thinking abt something and got too insane and it felt like my chest was empty full of air like i couldnt breathe and i #felt dizzy and almost nauseous . gets scared gets scared gets sc #but iy might be that i havent been eating well like uhm at all. like worse than usual #and by not eating well i mean like . going most of the day without eating. not on purpose im just like. theres not a lot to make food with #bc im so paranoid that the food is bad so i just dont eat #and i barely ate any dinner last night bc the food just didnt agree with my stomach or brain. i tried to eat more but i just couldnt #idk thats almost comforting 😭 like as in its 'just' like malnutrition and not just i was thinking abt a topic so much i nearly died #not good though 👍 veryveyr bad 👍👍