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artkaninchenbau · 9 months

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An AWS comic

#My art #For the record I am not a medical professional and as far as I know AWS isn't even something you can be diagnosed with???#It's so hard to describe what the two sensory hallucinations really *FEEL* like #Like the time one... You know how a dramatic slow motion scene looks like in an anime?#It's like that but if you made it a 60 fps interpolated version of it #It is an absolutely bizarre feeling #Meanwhile the hyper awareness and everything feeling intense feels like how a fisheye lens shot in an anime feels #No I could not be bothered to try to figure out how to draw that for this comic #For the record I haven't actually had those visual hallucinations since I was a small small child #Hell I don't even think I had any hallucinations in my teens at all like #The sensory ones just kinda started happening again in the past 7 years or so?#Also the swelling sensation I've only had once so far. Usually I get the hyper awareness sensation #(Also sometimes I get this intense feeling of swaying when I go to bed but that might not be an AWS thing??)#(Like there's other things that could make you feel like you're rocking on a boat when laying down so I didn't include that)#No I have never talked to anyone about these hallucinations because for the longest time I didn't know what they were #And they are like. Harmless. Like I'm 100% aware they're just strange sensations but not real at all #They last max 15 minutes if even that long and they happen like super rarely #Only once have I had the hyper awareness be SO INTENSE it made me feel distressed #So like. It doesn't really affect my life at all? So why bother with it?#Also IDK if I could even go to a doctor and ask about AWS and have them know what that even is #And even if I could as far as I know there is no treatment for it so like. Whatever #As long as I don't start having distressing hallucinations or visual hallucination's I'll be fiiiiiine

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crowlore · 7 months

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man. been thinkin bout this sleeping arrangement

do you think the twins slept in rem's bed the entire year or only after tesla

#i hesitate to call this a bed because we don't really see the whole thing. the only other angle makes it look like a duvet on the floor 😭#look. i've just been thinking about their family a lot #rem loved her boys a lot obviously. it's clear #she wasn't prepared to be a mother but she wanted to be one for them #and she made mistakes like any mother does. the difference being she didn't get the time to make up for it. she had one year #i'll be honest i've been rambling in the tags hoping i'd hit the point where i could tag them all without it showing up in the search #because i need to maintain my personal tagging system. archival reasons #but i don't have much else to add here #not right now anyway lol #trigun #rem saverem #vash the stampede #millions knives

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bluastro-yellow · 7 months

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get it Kim has a lot to unpack do you get it

it's imperfect I'll never polish it just take it as it is

#I don't know how the hell to draw kim #PLEASE gib me feedback #pretend the dialogue is better this is all I can do lol. but you get the gist of it #aaa give me constructive criticism. the other post about kim secretly being a loser made me think about what his apartment would look like #and this popped in my head I had to draw it #is this in character?#there's no eyebrow battle because in my head this happens some time in the future where kim opens up a little more easily #at this point he trust him with his secrets more (but not completely. harry's not touching the blue box today)#but it's a mixture of ''maybe if I tell x he will stop asking for more'' and real trust #but like do you see that happen #it's a secret because he doesn't want other people to learn that insisting can work #like I said in the tags of the other post I think he never lets anyone in to the point of avoiding calling the plumber even if the sink #has been broken for months #addition: fuck I should have putted more machines in there. I couldn't think of anything else other than radio controlled airplane #and a sewing machine. he must have more stuff like the camera.#he'd have some dangerous thing to warm the room #and nerd stuff. I'm not sure if he'd display it or keep it boxed somewhere #disco elysium #that's a convertible couch-bed if you can't tell. half covered with the Pile #pointless microblogging #it's so hard to draw them right they look different in every official thing #believe me I have tried #idk how to put more of the skills here :/#I have achieved peak kimharry brainrot I can't go back

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osoreruna · 2 months

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bruh......... his feet —

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ]#tbd #don't ask me why i was looking at them mind your business #but i wasn't expecting to see his feet just #hanging over the end of the bed — i wasn't ready !!!#HE'S HUGE #IDK WHY —#BUT THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME #I MEAN OBVIOUSLY I KNEW HE'S TALL #HE'S 7'3...#i always hc'd that he shrunk a lil when he wasn't in muscle form...prob down to like...6'10“ ? 6'11” ??#but looking at this and knowing izuku is 5'5 #idk anymore !!#he may very well still be over 7 foot in tiny might form —#it'd be way easier to tell if he STOOD UP STRAIGHT FOR ONCE IN HIS LIFE !!!#i mean c'mon man — you walk around like you've been carrying the entire weight of the world on your shoulders for 40 years or smth !!#oh wait —#smh...he gets a little better about it in more recent chapters #i'll have to hyperanalyze them at some point. prob when i finish up my icons —#ngl putting mha on was the worst decision i've ever made in my entire life i'm so distracted rn #i'll be around proper when i finish up laundry i think

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katimanki · 1 year

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When you're supposed to draw sketches of Mike and Mike only but Will Byers still ends up there✨

lol

#mike wheeler #will byers #byler fanart #byler #stranger things #made some mike doodles and now we're here #ok I know Mike's not an artist but he would try to be so he could impress will. tell me he wouldn't draw stick figures of him and will😭#also he so would try to copy wills dnd doodles #ok but why did I make his bed head so slay #the ponytail is so fluffy #how the fuck do I make some one look like they're bathed in sunlight?!?!?😭😭 the sunshine boy is not sunshining :/#low key I don't like how I draw will but he's my boy so idk what to do lol #myart #shitbyme #stranger things art

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oneiricazalea · 2 months

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Happy 5th birthday to my dear OC, Sei ♥

#my art #illustration #original character #oc | seijaku #world | luxenvalice #sentimental rambling in the tags #my dearest girl!! light of my life!! the only reason i get out of bed sometimes!!!!#she was drawn earlier than Feb 14 2019 - but that is the date she was first posted to ToyHouse #and so that is the date she was probably truly solidified in my mind as an OC that was going to stay #Do you ever have an OC and don't realize how much of you - the creator - is in that OC?#realizing stupidly late that this is why it bothered me immensely when people took art involving her to repost #I still feel kinda gross posting personal art because of it but #that's why my watermark is a little more annoying now #Anyway it feels like a lifetime has passed from her starting off as a BNHA OC #Don't remember anymore why I made the conscious decision to watch the show when I always had and still have trouble starting/finishing medi #but while I don't keep up with it anymore - it did result in me creating her #first as a student character and then changing her immediately when I saw a certain villain loool #there was a lot more I was going to say down here but the internet has cut out #So for now I'll just end with...#thanks for your time if you read this 💕#and I look forward to doing more with this character in Genshin and other fandoms #and ofc the collab story she is involved in 😌

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thenwethrowitonthefire · 26 days

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Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present)#multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way.#combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells.#this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing.#then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on.#my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?)#me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting.#Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism*#still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something)#me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room.#i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that.#the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk.#can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

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elizabethrobertajones · 9 months

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I'm actually kind of mad after wearing a knee brace (with patella support!) for 2 days because I just went down for breakfast not wearing it and my kneecap was wobbling loosely in its socket like it's done for years and I could FEEL how wrong it was and just had the biggest "you LIVE like this??!" moment and now i GUESS I am wearing a knee brace every time I go near stairs forever because it turns out it's not ideal if parts of your body have their own plans for every joint movement.

Mobility aids <3

#mad at myself for not even noticing it was weird even though I've known I have the stretchy joints for years now #honestly I need a full like. Scientific observation from behind glass hooked up to machines and doing silly little tasks for science week #please find out what is happening in here #I also got 1 ankle support and out of curiosity slept in it last night #and omg one foot resting upright made me realise how much the other was flat on the bed #when I lay on my back #the same thing that got me diagnosed in the first place #the rheumatologist who'd just told me I don't have cancer because of the bloodwork had me lie down to examine #he took one look at my flat fuck friday feet and like actually yelled in alarm and recoiled #which took some explaining #anyway he poked and prodded me but he already had said 'oh you have hypermobility and it's given you fibro'#this is why specialists also have to keep up with all the other medicines too :P #(i spent a weekend with my medic friend recently and she has Stories oh my god)#(was too busy talking to look at my feet even as I told her I'd dislocated my ankle and knee as we talked XD)#POINT IS I'm very slow to notice things about my condition #I quit chocolate for a year because I worried it was giving me migraines #and was too busy having migraines to notice the chocolate wasn't what gave me migraines

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miallurk · 4 months

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In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

#i am losing my sanity day by day #drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day #why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about #don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha #ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't #fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess #am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story!#i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow #vent ig #my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol #nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays #at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig #anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs #when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop #anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go #please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you #i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just.#all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this #for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect #and care made me expect it more? fuck #i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person.#everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things #long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider #my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at #at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person.#my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got #to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me.#this is showing so many issues.#so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12 #i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering

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flecks-of-stardust · 5 months

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latine unparalleled innocence

#sorry. sorry sorry sorry i'm normal #(lying very hard)#i associate saros' voice bank as their voice. they sounded like that in my head even before i found out about saros #and i. oufhrf. hgoughdfgfhjnhr #they have spanish voicebank support.#spanish speaking inno is doing Something to me #what makes it better/worse is i associate des with solaria's voice #saros is releasing on the 24th #within the week someone will probably have made a duet with those two #i'm going to Die i'm going to Ascend i'm going to Explode #if you don't hear from me know that i'm lying face down on my bed clutching my innocence doll while listening to the new music #unparalleled innocence #hi. look at me.#or don't. i don't know. does anyone else see my vision #i'm not main tagging this but the smaller tag for innocence can look at me

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moe-broey · 8 months

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Idk how committed I am to this comic tbh but I really like how this sketch came out... might be a bit clunky/cramped but you know what. I specialize in funny little guys and funny little guys ONLY‼️‼️‼️

#feh #yes i have one million other wips. but i get bored :((((#complaints about bgs aside it IS really fun to design rooms w the specific charas in mind.#even though this is meant to be in the barracks/castle (so not his personal room i don't think)#i like to think each chara has their own personal touches they add to the basics they're provided with #unless. if they don't. which says a lot about a chara as well.#there's also a few things of moe's on the bed where it was hanging out. that was also fun to add!#also since idk if anyone will point it out/ask. the plush on alfonse's desk was made/gifted by moe.#i'm thinking it's a cat that kind of looks like him LMFAOOO (dark blue coloring w gold accents)#i love...... storytelling......... 😳🥺#fe alfonse #moe tag #summoner oc #my art

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eudikot · 11 months

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