#my hand still hurts but it's ok

[randomprose]

one thing about He Tian is that, no matter the state he's in, Mo Guan Shan's safety and comfort will always be his top priority

#19 days #and my boy gots his priorities straight!! #even if he isn't lol #he tian (got tackled to the ground hands still tied and just ran across the whole He property sees guan shan): are you ok are you hurt? #he tian #mo guan shan #shitposts #19 day shitposts #tianshan

[mizzyislost]

something something how horribly tragic both the broken vessel and lost kin fight feel something something idk man this is hard

#i was going to say something much more poetic about the indescribable emotions i feel every time i fight broken vessel/lost kin but yknow. #indescribable #i swear if this doesnt do well i will explode i spent way too much time on it #you guys have no idea how many different coloring and rendering schemes i tried for this #ok actually it was only like 5 #but still!! #as someone who hates coloring #the whole process hurt me both emotionally and physically. my hand hurts now. #hollow knight #lost kin #broken vessel #my art #and i KNOW thats not how void. or like. spells or whatever work at all i was just trying to make it look cool ok #bv is crying and ghost is crying and IM crying and #various meanderings

[badgraph1csghost]

Inspired by this post, from @theunfairfolk and @chassdraws

The credits sequence theme from Mother Nature & Daddy Electric.

Concept by theunfairfolk's cousin, art by chassdraws, music by me.

#disco #ok fine the linn lm1 wasnt from the 70s #disco should have lasted into the 80s #my music #fl studio #my hands still hurt from playing that guitar riff

[lonewolf638]

Leila Chatti, "Fault" + Sam & Dean Winchester.

DEAN Even if I said yes, it doesn't mean squat. Sam will never say yes – not to you.

EZEKIEL But he would say yes to you.

#sam and dean #spn edit #supernatural #spn #my edit #web weaving #sam winchester #dean winchester #ezekiel #sam looks so good teary eyed fuck his best look #szn 8 #this arc was all kinds of fucked up but i love codependency so its ok #still!! it hurts so good that dean never apologized for it!! he doesnt regret it one bit #:(( hate the fact that dean was self-deprecating when sam said he sees his hands killing kevin #he just doesnt get it its so bad that its good i love him 2 bits #let him hit you again

[madamescarlette]

don't you love when you're like, okay now I'm going to leave this sorrow in the old year so I don't turn into a crotchety bitter person over it, and then you walk on feeling all refreshed and bright no longer carrying it on your shoulders, but then the sorrow wanders after you like a child who was lost in the supermarket weeping its eyes out and it says to you where did you GO I was lost! I was lost and I missed you!!! and you can only sigh and take it by its hand and say to it very well. here's your seat. I'm sorry I left you behind, I promise it was with the best of intentions, but I want to do my best by you, so let's sit together and try to figure out what you're saying to me.

#thinking out loud #i'm truly like. ok i'm mostly fine i'm a little bit going through it because it's harshest month of winter and it's always weird this month #but i just think it's so funny that i have to be like OH you don't suddenly stop....hurting over something because you decided to! #if you were missing someone who was important to you two months ago by golly you probably still will two months from then!! #weird how that be! anyway #it's funny to me because it's like the opposite of object impermanence #i used to think i was all heart no head and that there's a part of me that went hard in the opposite direction to counteract that #but i am still as much as heart as i ever was except now i have my logical side going yip yip girl we gotta go!!! let's go!!! #and the heart is like holding up a shakey hand going oh lads you go on without me...i just need to catch my breath for like....15 years #anyway anyway. the narrative is indeed kind but that doesn't mean that it doesn't sting sometimes #but! we can do the best that we can and take our troubles by their hands and learn what we can from them and it will all be okay in the end #(i hope this post isn't too complainy or miserable. i may take it down later but i feel the need to say it somewhere.) #regardless of that. happy Friday my friends I love you all dearly bless you for being near me <3 <3

[oatbugs]

oh my god u rly are everyone you've ever loved !! for better or worse !! a part of you becomes them!

#i had a moment of lucidity idk im in this café the person i went on a few dates w is coming to see me i said come study w me #and they said okay immediately even though im a town over and i dont like them i really dont feel even a little attracted to them that way #but i did let them bite my neck a week ago and it still hurts i let them hold my hand i just #i never start anything #i let them kiss me. why do i do that? i dont feel anything towards them #and i told them ill probably never sleep with them and i thought thats enough but it really isnt is it #they write poetry about people they meet even once #theyre coming a whole town over to study w me but its not a date i feel nothing towards them romantically and i dont want to lose them as #a friend. this was her line of thinking wasnt it? i would take the train and meet her near her place in ldn and wed study together and #shed let me hold her and she would never initiate much and we were just studying together and it wasnt a date #like . fuck. i dont want to do what she djd to me to another person ever #their shared location map went offline at london bridge like ok theyre in the underground they are fr coming a whole town over #its a short distance but the point is i think i should have taken what my friend said more seriously . she told me i was kinda leading #them on bc what i thought to be just meetups dates might entail more for them #anyway im gonna be clear w them this time maybe #....IT JUST NEVER COMES UP IS THE THING #do i have to clarify even if it never comes up #i do in fact hear myself #ok #the parallels r lining up #aaa

[pestilentbrood]

calistrival more like... calis TRIVIAL!!!!!

#this was expression practice ! my hand hurts #i loev this guy. he goes through literally so many horrors and none of them would have happened if he was an ounce of a better person #clamart #ok one of them would have still happened regardless. but still #point REMAINS. #flight rising #fr pearlcatcher #//dragon: calistrival #//clan: Incompetence

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

dear google, how do i ask my stepfather if he was being Serious or Not about buying extra edibles and if so, can i have one-

#he got. he got one and portioned it for our Very Nervous Cat ezi #(safe portion. neither of us want to hurt our fluffy friends) #and i want so badly to be like 'wheres the rest. can i have it. gimme' #related tangent it was So funny to have him hand me this lil sliver of gummie and tell me its for ezi #and i just stared at it for a second. Realized. and went YOU WANT ME TO GIVE MY CAT AN EDIBLE???? #we tried. ezi wanted nothing to do with it. sigh #this cat is gonna have Such a bad time when we move unless we find some way to calm him tf down #god but like. was he serious? did he get more than just one for ezi???? #WHERE'S THE REST OF THAT ONE???? #sir please... im so stressed.... give it to me.... #absolutely unprompted #he made a joke about it but i cant tell if he was jokingly serious or seriously joking #and how do i fuckin go 'ok cool can i actually have one' #i mean. in less than a month i can go buy some myself but still #i would like a lil treat Now thankyew <3

[smilesrobotlover]

oc thing age in 👑

Prince consort of the zora!

#asks #ok my hand is starting to hurt #I have one more to do 😭 #lbl age #I still don’t like his sash :( #I want it to be blue cuz I think that dark royal blue is his fav color but #it blends in too much #AGH

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

oughh......

#laya plays dragon age #da2 #oc: liam hawke #this happened a bit ago already & i wanted to draw sth for it but idk if i will finish that #but i gotta yell abt them anyway because OGH. #i have a lot of emotions about this quest ok #bartrand was the perfect scapegoat he was perfect to direct all the rage and pain at all these years #years of imagining gleeful revenge while bartrand is gloating and laughing like an evil soulless bastard #and then you meet him and he is just. a pathetic husk of a man with barely any own will left #and whats worse. varric is so so torn up about it #varric. the guy who never makes anything about him and who will always handwave and joke when something hits too close to home #drops all efforts to be smart and is just. desperate. begs hawke to not kill his brother #and liam wants to want bartrand dead so bad. he wishes he could look him in the eye and enjoy taking his life #and he knows varric will listen to him if he insisted. he knows when it comes down it it varric will yield to his decision #but he sees this broken guy who is barely the villain he kept projecting onto him and he sees varric and he sees two doomed siblings #and knows what its like to lose your sibling to your own blade #and he cant do it #and he hates it so much. but he wont do it. #and its the reason why i cant decide who dealt the killing blow for bethany bc it makes this scene juicy in different ways #if varric kills bethy its equally wanting to spare each other their siblings blood on their hands #as it is taking some form of revenge (on liams part). we both killed each others siblings. now we are even #the revenge part would still be there if liam did the blow on bethany himself. you made me do that and now i will take bartrand for it #but its also much more i know what its like. i wont make go through that too #if varric killed bethy and then also bartrand it would be more #''its my fault she is dead. i will take the revenge she/you deserves if you tell me to even though it will hurt me #dunno. all good variations i will. have to rotate them in my head more #or maybe just never decide idk they can be in canon limbo forever #anyways thats it for shouting into the void about them for now it Will happen again

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online to see it rn but GOD it feels so good to be in love again!!!!!!!!! i reached the tag limit on that last reblog of la la land, there's a tag limit of 30 and i originally wrote almost 60 and then i had to keep revising it over and over until i only had 30. i just kept talking abt how much i love sebastian!!! and that's!!! how i'm supposed to be!!!! it's such a huge goddamn relief to start self shipping again even if it's not with TF, i really hope i can come back to my robots one day, but god. god it's such a fucking relief to have seb and six and ken and barbie and harley etc etc etc etc the list hopefully will just keep growing. this love in my chest, this feeling of overwhelming love that makes me actually physically sigh because there's so much love in me... that's how i am supposed to be and i am so relieved to start feeling this way again. i was numb for so long. i'm so grateful for these characters.

#woof #pretty sure i spent at least 20 minutes typing those tags #and then after i finished i was like 'oh there i am' #there's that star in my heart! she's still burning bright after all! she's just hurting. but she isn't gone. maybe she never was #and maybe one day i can finally finally finally come back to TF #but for now. for now. i am holding ryan and margot's characters' hands. all of these characters all of these pretty ppl #and they are guiding me through hell and telling me things are gonna be ok #bc lord knows i tried to throw myself at ANYTHING and NOTHING would stick #i tried watching different movies/cartoons i never saw before. didnt feel loved #tried to watch old things i used to love like SBTM or MLP. didnt feel loved #maybe the trauma was too fresh for me to be able to focus on anything else #but barbie came at the PERFECT time. the STARS ALIGNED JUST RIGHT #and out of any character that could have saved me it was KEN? #its because he makes me laugh. barbie did help MONUMENTALLY with pink #im still struggling with pink sometimes but its definitely majorly improved #like if i look back on myself 2 months ago i COULD NOT look at pink without having a panic attack. insane #but now??? im going thru pink blogs and associating EVERYTHING with margot's barbie #and any time i feel tense i can easily ground myself bc i am associating it with my self ships #im using it in my art again and its such a relief #im not fully myself without starscream but hey. a part of me is here. a part of me is breathed back to life just a little bit #its as if ive been drowning for over a year and finally someone reached out their hands to save me #pull me to the surface and maybe im not on solid ground yet but the waves arent thrashing or pulling me down as much anymore

[random-rabid-creature]

I want all of you to meet the project i've been working on for the past three days nonstop, my most elaborate project so far too

Meet rainbow hell, she is my favorite creation ever and i'm so incredibly proud of her

#i would like to note that all of that was sewn onto her. with my own two hand. yeowch #aslo she is not done yet. i still gotta do some work to the sides #but that's for future me to deal with. future me loves to deal with the stuff i don't deal with right now #my paws hurt #H does art #she is art to me ok

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

#haunted ecosystem #this is not helping with how much my hands hurt on a daily basis this is why i type and dont handwrite/draw very much. #im lured in regardless and i really need to find an artform that doesnt Hurt but for now. digital art <3 #like theres a difference between my dumb doodles (quick easy not much different from regular computer usage) and actual art #but im an artist at heart i spent sooooo long being an artist and thinking i was shit at writing. that is wrong! im actually kinda good #im rambling in tags today because i have been not social (my partner is in genshin hell and my beloved is. somewhere.) #okay but on another note i reread the first. couple chapters of wtds this morning? the pacing is a little weird and the tense is fucked #but its actually a lot better than i thought it was? you can tell i was fleshing everybody out in my head and i totally forgot about how #i described the watcher [who i am STILL redacting the name of until we get there] and just. ough. pandora being very logical #and then jumping to the latest chapter and fucking sobbing because i forgot about how it went and just. pandora and his. #whatever the fuck is wrong with him. #i have gotta start recommending people read that again. its surprisingly friendly without context because of how i approached it #that fic has taught me so many things its actually a little comical. it also made me relearn how to make and write ocs so thats fun #once i finish that main fic (and i WILL i am actually planning to sign up for a thing. im finishing it i swear.) i finally get to show off #more of the world and characters ive crafted. showing backstories and what-ifs and all these oneshots ive been keeping close to my chest #for like absolutely ages because i dont want any spoilers on my tumblr #and. im finishing that fic in pseudo-memoriam of somebody who deleted their accounts everywhere. still miss you dane! #ok this has completely gone off topic ily tumblr im going back to drawing and i might make a new pfp #it'll still be lavius but it'll be fray lavius since i think about him a lot and i like his color palette.

[skadream]

its always hard for me to figure out what counts as a special interest and whats a hyperfixation. i think i cycle through various interests (special or not idk) but they tend to be the same ones for years? i could argue that origami and crochet were more hyperfixations than special interests BUT i can see myself getting way back into it again and i just havent. but i think those are more hyperfixes than SI.

#ALSO. sometimes things graduate from hyperfix to SI in terms of #becoming a long term thing #my dnp thing..... i thought it would just be part of the hyperfix cycle #but like i am In It now..... and i think its cuz i am now engaging in a healthier way #maybe it is still hyperfix its just taken a lot longer to move to the next part the cycle #but also. so many of my interests involve smth to do w my hands and :( #shit hurted and i know i have to get it fixed but give me time ok im gonna wait until the new year

[indigopoptart]

HELLO ALL. JUST LETTING YALL KNOW REAL QUICK THAT STAMPS IS GONNA UPDATE LATER THAN USUAL. I MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE A HAND INJURY.

#is it a cyst? is it a bone? who knows! #but it hurts to use! #I will get it out I promise I just need more time #I have like a rant about this ok #you know that thing where its like #ao3 writers go through like the most wild shit and still manage to upload? #because that's me rn #like is it just some sort of thing with ao3 authors that the moment they start publishing bad stuff starts to happen #if so thats #kind of funny #but ow my hand #anyway ok #it will be out I PROMISE #BUT JUST NOT AT 12AM LIKE USUAL #STAMPS fanfiction #indigo speaks

[zihette]

Play your part

#mlp #my little pony #princess celestia #twilight sparkle #do NOT tag as ship ill kill you with my own hands #fanart #also hi hows everyone been today #i almost had a heat stroke but im ok now #did suffer fro heat exhaustion tho which sucked #my head still really hurts but tbh that could be becuz of chronic migraines #not rly happy with how this drawing tured out but figured id post it anyway so #here u go