#my room is almost perfect >:)

[every-eye-evermore]

I think about this moment often

#murderbot is so silly <3 #the amount of thought it puts into making sure it has the Perfect Body Language for every stressful social interaction (so all of them) #delights me #there’s a version of this I almost posted but had to change because the table looked too much like a footrest #so now it is hastily made circles <3 perfect for the ‘shitty fake-expensive hotel room’ feel #the murderbot diaries #after testing my murderbot design with an actual comic I can safely say it is perfect #mine #murderbot #murderbot fanart #not music #my art

[middleschoolfursona]

i miss you tomorrow today

#im on a haitus but decided to post this #art has been beyond hard for me lately #i cant bear to draw lately. but i was overcome with so much pain in the form of some kind of concept of unavoidable loss #which ambushes me sometimes. and i almost cried in the dining room over it #late in a dark winter i had fast food for the first time in years when my dad came home from hospital testing #with my birthday coming up it just feels so hopelessly #such a perfect scene to remember a decade from now #will i be thinking #'when you were here?'

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

what the hell is happening on this site some asks are Completely gone from my desktop inbox, but on mobile they're there???? mf i just spent ten minutes trying to find asks i was SURE i had received

#it was like Oh Fuck Have I Already Answered These???? #starting to think that my memory is Worse than i thought #i still feel like one or two are missing... #i combed my archive and they arent there either #i Realized Something Was Off because some of them gave me the perfect set up for one of my favorite bits!! #now im very worried that some asks people have sent are just. gone. #maybe it was a reply...? i dont know.... #oh to have a brain that Functions #cant remember jack shit!! #absolutely unprompted #im trying to answer some non-art asks #since i'm not sure if i'll scribble much of anything tonight #too much happened! vaccumed! readjusted my room after the Cleaning! watched a show with a good friend! played with cats! killed a spider! #formulated a response to a response! ate a salad! showered! #see: too much happened and now its almost 4 am #plus i just dont know if im feelin scribbly tonight #which happens it Happens #if i spend too much energy i simply don't have it in me anymore #tomorrow! tomorrow i will doodle! #i will do more laughingstock and make some ask responses and also draw more greaser au for my Friend <3 #unless something happens and i run out of energy again. ill try to be careful about it

[anotherpapercut]

my best advice to anyone who's still in middle/high school is to make your teachers think you are the nicest sweetest purest little goody two shoes on the planet so that you can get away with breaking rules fairly openly bc your teachers either won't believe it or will view it as a very minor issue since you're the perfect student

#this is how i broke a kids leg and physically injured a teacher twice with 0 repercussions #also make best friends with the snarky english teachers theyll protect you if you can match their repartee #literally just be like im such a perfect sweet little angel who is so so interested in history class #i would NEVER play cards in the empty orchestra room during class with some other kids. never would i break a rule its preposterous #if you have at least one teacher who views you like this theyll go to bat for you if you ever actually get caught :) #also just be autistic as fuck your classmates will hate you but ur teachers will infantilize you into non agency #i almost got suspended for wearing a hat all the time after being told not to then i told one of my favorite teachers #and she told the teacher who kept getting on to me to leave me alone #another year i feel asleep almost every day in biology and my astronomy teacher told him i was having a really hard time (i was) #so he ended up printing out the slides for me every day and asking my table mate to give me his notes when i fell asleep #which was so so sweet of both of them and i really needed that kindness and ill never forget it #but i think a more disruptive kid may not have received the same level of kindness

[theheroheart]

As an adult who celebrates (heavily secularised) Christmas, including now actually inviting people over for dinner and stuff, I now understand the reason behind going overboard making the house look nice.

It's not about appearances or upholding tradition or anything like that. We're only inviting people who don't really care, and I only care about traditions that make me happy.

HOWEVER

A) It's fun to decorate and do something a lil fancy once in a while!

B) It's a good fucking excuse to actually make yourself clean the house properly, after putting it off all year.

#real life maybe #i moved back in with my housemates in September #and it's been a slow progress of unpacking while also studying #the living room was so full of boxes stuff for a while #esp since we were also doing a BUNCH of house cleaning and getting rid of a load of things #and then we were getting new closets for storage space #and in general it's been like non-stop low-level chaos since summer #now we've FINALLY got almost everything worked out #and like yes. everything not perfect? it's fine. no one cares. #but it feels so good to get stuff done!! #also pls note that one of us has ADHD and apparently just fucking permanent iron deficiency fatigue (me) #another also has ADHD and is super busy. and the last one is autistic and is disabled with chronic pain #so it's frankly amazing when we do make the house look great

[arctic-hands]

Has anyone gotten the Cane Buddy to actually stay put on their cane? It's "secured" to the cane by wrapping Velcro around the body of the cane, but like I think the makers forgot that canes are in general pretty damn smooth so no matter how tightly I pull the Velcro it keeps sliding down to the very bottom, which a) poses a dangerous trip hazard if you don't constantly readjust it, and b) the act of readjusting it either means bending my back the act of which has been declared verboten by both my rheumatologist and my physical therapist or lifting my cane off the ground which defeats the purpose of using a cane both for balance reason and for not putting pressure on my fucked knee

#cane #cane user #cane buddy #cripplepunk #cpunk #in the Before Times i carried a backpack for my Emergency Crohn's Kit but then i was forbidden from carrying things #then i got a lightweight rolling suitcase to lug things around on #*in #but while effective was an ordeal because complete strangers were always snidely asking if i was going on vacation #which is annoying just as a one-off but i heard it CONSTANTLY and i don't know why? it barely looked any different from a rolling backpack #the ableds are not okay #it was to the point i almost got a bumper sticker to put on it telling them to get off my dick #anyway i can't walk very well with both hands occupied because i need an arm to swing for balance #so i can't use the cane and drag along the rolly bag at the same time very easily #so that's where the cane buddy and various funky fanny packs come in #which still isn't perfect because neither has room for a spare change of clothes but i can carry most everything else i need in both #in theory #cane bag

[dafry]

I'm late, but at least it's still September so- XD

Happy (late) anniversary to Undertale!! :D

It's been literally years since I even drew any other Undertale character other than SANS, so excuse me if it look off or weird or I'm missing a detail XD

(Also, long rant ahead-)

Undertale was definitely played a big part of my journey to become an artist

The sheer amount of creativity and passion the fandom had really inspired me and pushed my will to create and after years I finally got here!

I've always wanted to finally celebrate one of the anniversary but I never got to (-partially also because I can't draw as well as I do now, but it's mostly because I either forgot or missed it or was just too lazy in general-) but this year I decided to just DO IT while I can and I wanna say my thanks to the fandom for inspiring me

It also helped me through some tough times in the past where I was really depressed (and I didn't even realize or just wasn't sure about it because I've been unconsciously lying to myself and truly believe I was fine and thinking I can handle myself with anything-) and had been bottling up emotions that caused me to be pretty desensitized and pretty emotionless from the outside

But then Undertale gave me hope and help me start to change and also grow mentally and emotionally enough to realize I wasn't doing as well as I hoped and start to accept that fact and be okay with not being fine

Probably the first fandom I ever properly got into and also the longest one I've stayed in compared to others so I really made a lot of memories during that-

Also funfact: I used to rewatch Undertale playthrough SO MUCH that I was pretty confident I memorized the entire Undertale dialogue from start to finish XD

Now though I mostly forgot them lol

#undertale #undertale anniversary #the 7th one to be precise- #napstablook #mettaton #sans #papyrus #frisk #toriel #undyne #alphys #asgore #chara #asriel #I FINALLY FINISH IT!! #Took me long enough- #honestly could've done a bit better on shading a few things but whatever #it's not perfect but it's definitely better than what i drew in the past #honestly past me would be so proud and amazed at my skills now but i could still make room for improvement #oh i almost forgot lol- #toby fox #as the little doggo that he is #anyway... EXCITED FOR NEW DELTARUNE CONTENT

[brainworms-all-night-long]

I have just watched Nimona and it, it scratched my brain in Such A Way

#nimona #i am going crazy in my room as we speak #and they almost didnt manage to finish and publish this movie???? #hello????? #you would want to deprive me of the Perfect Story made just for me????? #if this movie came out when I was six i wouldnt see it cause I have homophobic parents but it wouldve been over for you bitches

[kirexa]

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#what the fuck did i do i was watching youtube and then my sisters wanted to play mario kart so i gave them the switch #i thought they knew how to disconnect my headphones from the switch because they didnt give me a chance to do it #then got mad at my headphones being connected #and got mad when i tried to explain and told me to just turn off my headphones #and yelled at me for something completely unrelated #and its still my fault???? #i was enjoying myself and you guys shat on it and i left and i was fine but you got upset because it wasnt perfect and threw yhe contrller #across the room when i tried to show you whag yo do with it #and it almost got stuck in a place i #cant get it out of #and so i was upset and IM the bad person for being upset. so im even more upset and slam the door and get yelled at for THAT too #and its my fault #it's not adding up #i can barely walk right now im sorry im not perfect for you #k vent

[wildpokemon]

omg i finally got platinum in returnal wtf am i supposed to do now, doing two runs a day has been part of my routine since like june..

#stupid crimson wastes and abyssal scar surveys took me MONTHS #and added another 40 hours of playtime i shit you not #just me doing more and more runs to find stupid random rooms for all the ciphers #im actually stoked tho #i honestly didnt even think id be able to play the game at all considering how genuinely difficult/punishing it is and #how limited my hands are #(ty developers for allowing controller remapping ily) #the story was so intriguing and cool and perfect for the medium that i really wanted to play myself even after #having watched my husband play almost two years ago (when i definitely couldnt have played myself lol) #i was so stoked when i actually got good enough to beat just the first boss bc it felt like i had really earned it lol #especially since i just didnt think it would be possible for me #and now i can just pick it up whenever and beat the whole thing and i rarely die at all which is sort of amazing #ive also learned i really like roguelites lmao #back when i got into hades i thought id HATE it and turns out its my new favorite thing lmao #that free god of war dlc from a month ago was super fun too #i fuckin love games #returnal #x

[wabblebees]

thought id update to say; i survived opening night!!! and not only that, it went REALLY fucking well, and people seemed to REALLY REALLY like it omfg... god this is so crazy

#i was literally holding the script in a bigass binder for almost the entire show (sparing only the parts where i had to BULLFIGHT) #(bc i needed two hands -- one for the cape & one for the banderilla.)(yall i had to learn how to BULLFIGHT TANGO & SWORDFIGHT. in TWO DAYS) #but the audience said afterwards it was like i wasnt even on-book; they hardly noticed it was there??!! #yall this is my real life rn. im failing my classes but yknow what?? #i can pull it together enough to emergency understudy in a highly physical show 2 days before opening even with a script ive never SEEN #and apparently we made people fucking CRY. HOLY SHIT!!! HOLY SHIT #this playwright is just. incredible. the script is INSANE. BEAUTIFUL & CLEVER & HILARIOUS & TERRIFYING & VILE & TENDER & TECHNICALLY PERFECT #and apparently our production is like. only the eighth time this show has EVER been produced. for real #but god EVERYONE should know about this playwright's work. fuck i actually think tumblr would really love her. holy shit. #maría irene fornés is her name -- she was a queer cuban-american playwright+director who made radical heartwrenching magical theatre #im so grateful to be doing this & SO fucking sad for the original performer im covering for... god. bc this is just such lifechanging work #this play is queer in EVERY sense. its off-putting loving repulsive peculiar passionate holy and GAY AS HELL. its real its farce its SO CAMP #((IRENE & SUSAN SONTAG DATED. SONTAG AS IN 'NOTES ON ''CAMP''' SONTAG. ITS FUCKING GORGEOUS.)) #its gorgeous its gorey its glamourous its also literally the first part ive played that i think might truly fit my casting type exactly lmao #which is INSANE. bc the character is literally just described in the script as ''ISIDORE: an androgynous clown'' LMFAO #but honestly what could be more homoerotic than 2 ''men'' locked in a room together dancing tango+talking abt beetles+stabbing each other #hmm. maybe its the fact that after i stab the other guy i call him ''saint sebastian'' and then we LITERAL ACTUAL GAY KISS #which is crazy bc we only practiced that ONE TIME before opening #and youd think this shit cant get Any Gayer BUT. IT DOES. bc my scene partner+the director are gay+together irl... and uhh. #ive literally been their third. like. more than once. #ISNT THAT FUCKING INSANE. THIS IS MY REAL LIFE?? THIS IS MY REAL LIFE #ANYWAY #so now im headed back out to rehearse more before we perform it again tonight lmao #i hope it goes as well as it did last night #that audience was fucking incredible i really hope the next two like it as much as they did🤞🤞 knocking on wood #so. if u read this far. u should go find+read ''tango palace'' by maría irene fornés. mwah okay bye #bee speaks

[interstitialvacancy]

Monkey brain: sees post with photo of us hospital guide post to a chain fast food located in the hospital

Monkey brain: starts yearning for local hospital's canteen with food 400% better than one served to the patients and how it tasted after 4 days of eating polish hospital food standard (vegaletarian version)

#liveblogging stuff #I've been at hospital back in november and surprisingly that's what i carred out #also had a perfect view at my workplace out of my room's window and it was a specific kind of torture #vegan version bc almost 100% of meat given is pork akq the cheapest option and I'm allergic to pork #so i got white chease inplace of meat and wasn't ready for it #....ak not vegan just vegetarian

[pocketdragon]

Make Some Room- Chapter 49

Three girls, one New York apartment and an ad for a spare room.

Enter Beca Mitchell.

An “and-they-were-roommates” AU. Strangers to friends to lovers. Bechloe. Slow burn (not sorry).

Read on AO3

#almost the end #sorry it took a while #make some room #pitch perfect #my writing #the pocketdragon #bechloe #bechloe fanfiction #bechloe fanfic #beca mitchell #Chloe beale #pitch perfect fanfiction #pitch perfect fanfic

[a-walking-fandom-reference]

literally don’t know how to organize my room without getting overwhelmed

#it’s been almost 2 years besties and i still have so much stuff in boxes #i just my problem is my room is like a museum exhibit to me and if it’s not perfect and exactly how i pictured it in my head i will have #a meltdown and then avoid doing anything for months #mostly i just want to get a shelf ready for my new marvel pops but half my marvel stuff is in boxes #rey actually speaks

[simplysummers]

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#tw sui attempt #this is about to get real ranty and I’ll probably end up deleting this later but I’m really upset #so yesterday my stepdad and i got into an argument because he yelled at me on the stairs because he playfully went to push by me and I #replied completely neutrally with ‘I’m sorry I’m not really in the mood can I get by?’ #he proceeded to shove me and scream about how moody I always am and how I’m the one bringing animosity into the household. he has a habit #this. i got very upset to a point where my older brother had to calm me down outside. he ended up going out and I calmed down #my stepdad has an awful habit of being very rude to people including me both my brothers and even my mom #and I’ve finally snapped. I’m not putting up with it anymore #he is one of the key reasons for my extreme self criticism and I’m not dealing with it now #I’m almost 19 years old. i will not be spoken to like this. #and so today he’s come into my room demanding an apology from me. and I very calmly explained that while I wasn’t going to ruin my moms #birthday (which is on Friday) that we would not be on speaking terms before and after the event until he can admit how he’s treating me is #out of order. he constantly deflects whenever he does something wrong and he can never swallow his pride and apologise #there was an incident in November where he told me it was my fault my mother had anxiety and if she got worse he would blame it on me #because I was ‘crazy’. that same day I left my house and headed straight for our overpass because I couldn’t handle the guilt #i was talked out of it by my bio dad who I called on the phone. he picked me up and held me close and my eyes are welling with tears just #thinking about it. it was a terrifying experience as a suicide survivor from last February #am I out of order for this? wanting respect from the man who has been in my life since I was 3. who is married to my mom who I love with my #whole heart? i keep claiming to not be perfect. I’m my own worst critic and yet he parades himself as the victim because I’m finally #standing up to him #and Idk where to go from here

[mcmansionhell]

we've found it folks: mcmansion heaven

Hello everyone. It is my pleasure to bring you the greatest house I have ever seen. The house of a true visionary. A real ad-hocist. A genuine pioneer of fenestration. This house is in Alabama. It was built in 1980 and costs around $5 million. It is worth every penny. Perhaps more.

Now, I know what you're thinking: "Come on, Kate, that's a little kooky, but certainly it's not McMansion Heaven. This is very much a house in the earthly realm. Purgatory. McMansion Purgatory." Well, let me now play Beatrice to your Dante, young Pilgrim. Welcome. Welcome, welcome, welcome.

It is rare to find a house that has everything. A house that wills itself into Postmodernism yet remains unable to let go of the kookiest moments of the prior zeitgeist, the Bruce Goffs and Earthships, the commune houses built from car windshields, the seventies moments of psychedelic hippie fracture. It is everything. It has everything. It is theme park, it is High Tech. It is Renaissance (in the San Antonio Riverwalk sense of the word.) It is medieval. It is maybe the greatest pastiche to sucker itself to the side of a mountain, perilously overlooking a large body of water. Look at it. Just look.

The inside is white. This makes it dreamlike, almost benevolent. It is bright because this is McMansion Heaven and Gray is for McMansion Hell. There is an overbearing sheen of 80s optimism. In this house, the credit default swap has not yet been invented, but could be.

It takes a lot for me to drop the cocaine word because I think it's a cheap joke. But there's something about this example that makes it plausible, not in a derogatory way, but in a liberatory one, a sensuous one. Someone created this house to have a particular experience, a particular feeling. It possesses an element of true fantasy, the thematic. Its rooms are not meant to be one cohesive composition, but rather a series of scenes, of vastly different spatial moments, compressed, expanded, bright, close.

And then there's this kitchen for some reason. Or so you think. Everything the interior design tries to hide, namely how unceasingly peculiar the house is, it is not entirely able to because the choices made here remain decadent, indulgent, albeit in a more familiar way.

Rare is it to discover an interior wherein one truly must wear sunglasses. The environment created in service to transparency has to somewhat prevent the elements from penetrating too deep while retaining their desirable qualities. I don't think an architect designed this house. An architect would have had access to specifically engineered products for this purpose. Whoever built this house had certain access to architectural catalogues but not those used in the highest end or most structurally complex projects. The customization here lies in the assemblage of materials and in doing so stretches them to the height of their imaginative capacity. To borrow from Charles Jencks, ad-hoc is a perfect description. It is an architecture of availability and of adventure.

A small interlude. We are outside. There is no rear exterior view of this house because it would be impossible to get one from the scrawny lawn that lies at its depths. This space is intended to serve the same purpose, which is to look upon the house itself as much as gaze from the house to the world beyond.

Living in a city, I often think about exhibitionism. Living in a city is inherently exhibitionist. A house is a permeable visible surface; it is entirely possible that someone will catch a glimpse of me they're not supposed to when I rush to the living room in only a t-shirt to turn out the light before bed. But this is a space that is only exhibitionist in the sense that it is an architecture of exposure, and yet this exposure would not be possible without the protection of the site, of the distance from every other pair of eyes. In this respect, a double freedom is secured. The window intimates the potential of seeing. But no one sees.

At the heart of this house lies a strange mix of concepts. Postmodern classicist columns of the Disney World set. The unpolished edge of the vernacular. There is also an organicist bent to the whole thing, something more Goff than Gaudí, and here we see some of the house's most organic forms, the monolith- or shell-like vanity mixed with the luminous artifice of mirrors and white. A backlit cave, primitive and performative at the same time, which is, in essence, the dialectic of the luxury bathroom.

And yet our McMansion Heaven is still a McMansion. It is still an accumulation of deliberate signifiers of wealth, very much a construction with the secondary purpose of invoking envy, a palatial residence designed without much cohesion. The presence of golf, of wood, of masculine and patriarchal symbolism with an undercurrent of luxury drives that point home. The McMansion can aspire to an art form, but there are still many levels to ascend before one gets to where God's sitting.

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