#my type needs to be studied

[ch-4-eri]

i’d let a girl with red hair ruin my life and it happened before and it will happen again if i go crazy enough

#had my stomach turning for MONTHS #she had a motorcycle too #like #my type needs to be studied #she was very good to me though #i’m the one who went all mental asylum #oversharing

[giantkillerjack]

Me: hm, I want something to put on the TV as background noise... Huh. Looks like YouTube is recommending something called The Last Unicorn. That's perfect, it's probably some old shitty animation that has aged poorly! I can watch it ironically!

Me, 2 hours later as the credits roll: *crying, cheering, buying the book, composing the songs*

Me, 2 weeks later: So I have compiled all of the quotes from the book that I think could make good tattoos, and also, HOW HAVE I NEVER LEARNED ABOUT HOW THE LAST UNICORN FUCKING SLAPS??? This gay-ass little fairytale fed my soul! Watered my crops! Transed my gender! Can't believe I heard of this story from youtube recommendations, of all places!!

#original #the last unicorn #tlu #peter s beagle #molly gru #schmendrick #schmendrick the magician #two of my favorite characters in anything right there in the center of the story! and I'm glad I saw the film first! #my reading ability has diminished due to trauma disability etc. but it seems like having a visual reference actually really helped! #no wonder i only ever want to read fan fic! turns out reading is not actually Superior to other types of Storytelling. it's just different. #to say otherwise is snobbishness I have been eminently guilty of in my life! #but like it is easier for me to consume tv and movies and that is fine actually. also that's why I'm doing a graphic novel lol #because i wanted to make something i would actually be able to read if i found it at a library. altho the audio book IS gonna be bomb #the audiobook is for visually impaired readers and anyone who wants or needs it! accessible stories for everyone! yeah!! #my gender was already transed but now I've gained an ADDITIONAL gender! which one? I'll never tell 😘 #i am so powerful i have so much fuckin gender. my wife has no gender. and she is equally as powerful. #and also she has STUDIED THE BLADE #mostly zoro's blades from One Piece #normally YouTube recommends me shit movies like idiocracy or smth this is like if every day ur cat brought you a piece of rotten food and #then one day it brings you a BEAUTIFULLY ANIMATED TALE FEATURING MY BELOVED TWINK FUCK-UP WIZARD FRIEND AND MY ALL-TIME HOMEGIRL MOLLY GRU #and also it's soft and beautiful and funny and fucking weird!! i wrote melodies to the songs in the books on my ukulele

[yestrday]

COLLEGE CLASSMATE! YUTA who has his eye on you ever since you two entered college. a young, bright-eyed thing who moved from the boonies to the big city at a chance to find out more of the world beyond your farmlands and vast expanses of grass. who noted with wry amusement the pep in your step and the twinkle in your eye as you sit in the front row like a good student with an eagerness to learn.

COLLEGE CLASSMATE! YUTA who you approach with a stunning and naive smile. you're asking him for notes, the professor being too fast for your hands to properly take notes. he asks for your sns and sends you the pics of his note, and you eagerly thank him while unaware of the glint in his eye at this opportunity.

COLLEGE CLASSMATE! YUTA who scrolls through your social media and collects information about the kind of person you are. you know little about the world, but you're eager to learn more. your comments sections are full of relatives and friends congratulating you on you enrollment in the big city, and your cheery replies of thanks and acknowledgment. yuta chuckles as he sets aside his phone, eyes still trained on your back. how cute.

COLLEGE CLASSMATE! YUTA who continues keeping an eye on you. you keep asking him for notes because your cute lil brain just can't keep up, and he notes the waver in your smile when he shows off a little bit of his intellect. from how casual he is about his studies yet still getting high marks, the distance between you two is obvious. but there's still a spark of determination in your eyes—

— until prefinal grades come around and he sees you staring blankly at your phone. yuta angles his phone on purpose to let you get a glimpse of his, and he marvels at how bleaker your expression becomes. all your hard work... all your enthusiasm and eagerness... for nothing? have you always been this stupid? you were... you were always the brightest in your local school...

COLLEGE CLASSMATE! YUTA who watches you throw yourself into your studies more than ever. you don't have that pep in your stel anymore, your eyes have become dull and beavy, and no one can strike a conversation with you because you're always asleep. yuta is your only companion, angling your head on his shoulder so that you can rest more comfortably, leveling onlookers with a stern stare as he shushes them with a finger.

COLLEGE CLASSMATE! YUTA who watches your eyes lose the last of their light when midterm grades come. your fingers are trembling as you clutch your phone, and you bite your lip to avoid the tears spilling out. yuta puts a comforting hand over yours, and you slowly clutch his shirt. "i did my best, didn't i?" you ask. yuta hums, hand on your neck. "... i did, didn't i?"

COLLEGE CLASSMATE! YUTA who is your only point of contact for the rest of the finals. you don't even try. instead, you cling to yuta like he's your last chance at validation. you preen at his compliments, blush when he says he likes your outfit. the only time the light comes back to your eyes is when his attention is on you, and you feel a sugary rush in your veins whenever he smiles at you.

you, who does nothing for their schoolwork but instead focus on making yuta happy. you latch onto him like a clingy girlfriend, and he's more than happy for you to do so. while he studies for the upcoming exams, you're cuddled up on his lap, keeping him warm for the winter months. he pats your head and rubs your temple as you doze off to sleep.

sometimes when you voice the need to study, yuta shushes such needless concerns away. "you don't need to think so much," he whispers, scratching your scalp and he watches you preen. "aren't you happy right now? with me?"

you nuzzle into his touch, eyes fluttering shut under his touch. "... yeah."

"good," he hums, kissing you on the forehead. "then don't think of anything else but me."

#yandere yuta okkotsu #yandere jujutsu kaisen #sorry i typed this out in a rush im really so low energy abt my studies #i dont know what to do anymore..... #im so.... tired #yester.shorts #i need someone to pat me and make me forget abt everythibg #yandere x reader #soft yandere #yanderecore #yandere jjk #yuta okkotsu #jujutsu kaisen

[umeji-imeji]

✨ Rose-tinted glasses ✨ I wanted to play around with an analogous palette, so here is pink Balam for you all, as the most beautiful demoness hehe (inspired by Welcome to Demon School! Iruma-kun, chapter 156)

#happy 2024 i guess #what a- checks previous post #two months huh #life got in the way #boy do i need the type of external accountability the inktober challenge gave me #if anyone is in the same boat and wants an accountability buddy don't hesitate to reach out #in the meantime i'll share more of my studies and exercises #and the occasional coloring of my favorite inktober drawings #digital art #mairimashita! iruma kun #mairuma #m!ik #welcome to demon school iruma kun #iruma #redraw #fanart #m!ik fanart #iruma kun #naberius kalego #balam shichirou #shichikal #balego #otp #my otp #m!ik balam #m!ik kalego

[cranberrytea451]

Heyo

These aren't super indepth studies of @arik-fonarik style but I'm getting there. I chose references from multiple posts from them.

.... unfortunately, all the ones i chose were with his eyes closed. I'll probably do more later.

#studying artists is the only way to improve #i cant seem to get the lines right #i wonder what type of paper and pencil they use #horror!sans #horror sans #ht!sans #horrortale #i love traditional drawing so much but i have to discipline myself to do digital cause thats the way the industry is going #my art study #i need to comsume their art so i can have expressive lines

[roger-paladino]

My favourite thing about Tim body type arguments is that really he's not even that fat. He literally just has a bigger frame than everyone else, more of a dad bod. It's not like we're asking you to learn to draw fat rolls and double chins, just give him some actual body mass

#and yes you should learn to draw fat people of all ranges #but like complaining you cant draw tim fat so you'll draw him as a twink. when he... isn't even that much bigger #its so... confusing... like hes the perfect excuse to start learning #not saying i dont need to learn more #because i absolutely do need to study more body types #but the people that refuse to even try.. my brother in Christ its not that hard #marble hornets #.txt

[bluebird-ascended]

back on my star stable bullshit.

#because i'm the type of person who gets crazy amounts of happiness from completing sets of things #i will try and draw every character in the characters journal. with tweaks to their design if i see fit bc why not #maybe after that i will do every place listed on the map. (i need practice with landscapes) #i can't be stopped #fun fact this also doubled as a skin and lighting study #sso #star stable online #linda chanda #sso linda #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #star stable #star stable art

[queenlucythevaliant]

make your choice

Digory didn’t think much on making choices. The whole world would be over when his mother died anyhow.

Of course, this didn’t keep him from being curious or adventurous. It was exciting to meet new people, exciting to go exploring and to speculate about whatever mischief his Uncle Andrew was up to. Being a lively young boy was perhaps the best distraction from being a boy about to lose his mother.

Going after Polly was so obviously right that it might as well not have been a choice at all. What else could he do? It was easy to be righteous in the face of an evil old magician who said things like "Ours is a high and lonely destiny."

Yet once they were there in that rich, in-between place, with all the worlds there were splayed out before them— ((Make your choice, adventurous stranger)) Well. What sort of lively young boy would he be if he turned back now?

Digory could feel the bell’s magic ((strike the bell and bide the danger)) beginning to work on him. There was no use in resisting. He felt tendrils of magic sinking deep beneath his skin, laying claim to any free will he’d ever had. He said as much to Polly, but she wasn’t listening.

Polly said ((or wonder till it drives you mad)) that he looked exactly like his uncle when he said that.

Jadis’s whole world had ended. Everyone had died, and she’d just gone to sleep. She might have stayed sleeping forever if he hadn’t woken her. Sitting outside his mother’s sickroom, Digory wondered ((what would have followed if you had)) if that was really so shocking. Hadn’t he been preparing for just such an end? Were Charn and Mabel Kirke so different?

Narnia was not an end. It was a beginning.

And face to face with the Lion, Digory was forced to admit that the bell had not been magic. Nothing had caused him to strike it. Make your choice, the writing had said. Digory had chosen. 

I’ve spoiled everything. There’s no chance of getting anything for mother now.

The enormous Lion asked him, "Son of Adam, are you ready to undo the wrong that you have done?" and Digory sputtered his maybes.

"I asked, are you ready?" the Lion said again.

At that very moment, an ultimatum flashed through Digory’s mind. If I salvage your beginning, will you prevent my end? If make amends, will you save my mother? He thought of refusing, of holding his choice hostage until his future was secure. Could the Lion be bargained with? Could Digory twist his arm, as he'd twisted Polly's?

But what Digory said was, "Yes."

Jadis conjured such lovely visions of the future. His mother's face would lose its gray sheen and she would say, Why, I'm beginning to feel stronger. There would be no more morphia, no more of the terrible drawn look about her when she slept. She would rise from her sickbed, vibrant and whole ((Come in by the gold gates or not at all)) rise and walk to the door and fling it open and then Digory would go running into her arms. 

He gasped as though he'd been mortally wounded. Perhaps he had been in a way. After all, had the gate not said ((take my fruit for others or forbear))? 

Jadis ((for those who steal and those who climb my wall)) called Digory the Lion's slave. Years later, he would think back over all that those words implied. The Witch seemed to think that Digory had no will, if he was willing to subordinate himself to Aslan.

But was it not Aslan who made Digory realize his own culpability ((shall find their heart's desire and find despair)), and in the same breath gave him a way to repair it? Had not Aslan given his will back to him?

And at the foot of the tree, Aslan gave Digory his future back as well. 

He was old, but now he is young again, watching as the stars fall headlong across the black of the world-that-was. The world is ending at last, but Digory does not fear such things any longer.

#'let's get some half-finished stuff done and posted before the Inklings Challenge' challenge #i'm not 100% satisfied with this but I quite like all the concepts. we'll see #i actually have a bunch of these type of character study things from back in the day that i'd like to keep revisiting #anyway. i have always always always been fascinated by the writing on the bell #curiosity would totally be MY fatal flaw in a fairytale/myth so i can absolutely see where Digory is coming from #like of course he has to strike the bell. of course #but the way it gets frames in relation to Choice and Will and Responsibility is just really cool #a neat counterpoint to all the stories of those overcome by curiosity whom the narrative justifies #it was your fault. you need to own that #curiosity for its own sake is not inherantly a good thing #and then of course i can't write about Digory without pulling in the dymanic with his mom's impending death #that is by far the most compelling aspect of MN it is the linchpin of the whole thing #so yeah #founded in song #the magician's nephew no longer #narnia #leah stories #pontifications and creations

[holopossums]

Putting the Bear back in Barry 💗😏

#rottmnt #baron draxum #rottmnt draxum #rise draxum #isyris draxum #holopossums #'i won't draw i have to focus' #i lied i am a big fat liar #i needed to destress from studying okay let me have this one #honestly i might just. start drawing him with this body type permanently #at least for Isyris. possibly a post-fic look? #it just looks so good on him grahhh #i'm losing my mind i made him like ten times more desirable what did i doooo

[buggbuzz]

my gender is like meat leaf i think. boy materials in the structure of girl. like im a girl made out of boy things but not in a transman way like i like being female im just. a girl-leaning boygirl. maybe??

#u dont understand ive been insisting to all of my friends for like 6 years that im NOT a trans man #i cannot be proven wrong at this point i'll lose it #and anyways im not actually a guy #im definitely a girl just like. a type of girl that scientists haven't discovered yet #and that sounds like a joke but im soooo fucking serious #im a fucking student geneticist dude #i think theres some autosomal gene (or probably multiple) that regulate gender in convoluted ways #probably linked and i think there's probably multiple types of fem and masc genders not to mention non fem OR masc genders #codominant? incomplete dominance? is it different on different scales? #its a completely possible and furthermore plausible concept like from my perspective it'd be really weird if gender genetics weren't a thing #i think theyve already lowkey been proven to be a thing cause of that paper comparing trans brains to cis brains #& finding a link where trans men had a certain section that was the same as cis men #and that same section in trans women was the same in cis women #its an OLD study too #anyways i want to research this one day but i also dont because i dont trust humanity with that information #but if i found proof that it exists maybe it could seriously back trans people with scientific evidence #not that they should fucking NEED it testimony should be fucking good enough #ive been bio obsessed since i was born and im a natural skeptic #but when i was 11 i asked a trans person i knew like 2 fucking questions and they answered me and i was like 'yeah this makes sense' #figured anything that didnt make sense was just something i didnt understand yet #and now that im older and in college level biology and genetics classes i know i was right #it would be really really weird if trans people didnt exist did you know that? all the kinds too like nb genderfluid agender genderq demi #i dont fucking care it makes SENSE #'nonbinary' was a good term to adopt because it really just fits perfectly #nothing in biology is ever ever ever truly binary especially not a neurological and psychological phenomenon #especially not in a species with a brain so overly complex and tangled up like HOMO SAPIENS?? #are you kidding?? the fact that we even have a concept of art and music let alone have talents and passions for them is proof alone dude #that shit doesn't help us survive its a modified version of pattern recognition and uncanny valley #combine that shit with the fact that intersex people exist?? like #nonbinary gender is literally the combination of intersexuality and human neurology

[adhdtsukasa]

in addition to the emukasa post i made some time ago, if anyone even cares, the second absolutely heart-shattering wxs relationship for me is nothing else than ruinene, you can even say that obviously.

just like in emukasa's case, i also don't really ship them romantically that much outside of polysho, but it absolutely doesn't mean that they're not a good dynamic. it's that they're (or were, because they're better now, after all!) tragic childhood friends that makes them so good, so heart-wrenching — romance is only optional here and not that much needed of a flavor (unless you want to see them as middle school exes. this is the one scenario where romantic ms ruinene peaks over the platonic one)

because, in the very beginning, they had such a good time together. they were best friends. rui understood nene, and nene understood rui — nene was rui's best friend and major factor in shaping him into who he is today. they were just two children with good hearts who had found solace in each other and wanted to pursue their passion for theater, together.

and then middle school came. and then they drifted off.

and for nene, what happened to rui and what kind of person he was at this time must be shocking — and must hurt her a lot, because she wasn't able to help him. his stare was duller, his hair was messier, his words were not like his, and she couldn't do anything. all her efforts to reconcile with him were in vain, because he was better off alone — he said it himself. but he also said that it's hard to find someone like her, so why doesn't want to accept the hand that she's reaching to him?

well, but rui at least had mizuki, a person who he could share his loneliness with. nene had no one, if you think about it. so when the incident happened, when she messed up the show, she was all alone — this time rui wasn't next to her. she was stigmatized for what happened, just like how he was stigmatized for who he is, but he couldn't hold her in his arms, because he was just not there... they were both alone, on the different sides of the same spectrum. and even though nene must've understood rui's decision at least in a way, i wonder if she at least once thought that, basically, rui abandoned her.

but they're both together again now! they're in a place that allows them to pursue their dreams. nene can sing without fear, and rui is not a weirdo anymore. they're in a place where they can both laugh about the past and shrug it off, because that's already behind them...

yet, somehow, someway, even if just a little bit, it must still ache. rui said it himself, after all. it takes a long time to heal from trauma. and their middle school separation definitely, definitely took a toll on them.

that's why i really, reaaaally want nene5 to be a middle school nene event, though it's highly unlikely and i don't have high hopes. not because i want nene angst, i want my girl to be happy all the time — but because middle school ruinene is such an interesting aspect of their backstories that i just desperately crave more of.

idk man, everyone should think about ruinene once in a while too!!

#typed this all while looping donketsu i'm emotional #middle school nene is such an interesting creature for me i need to look into her brain and study her under a microscope #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #ri says things the tag #ruinene #nenerui #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #wonderlands x showtime #also i should be more active on here i think..... #cfs is kicking my ass sorry. the only thing i have energy for is lately is scrolling twitter😞

[jennrypan]

..you know what's weird?? When people make characters fat/chubby and then..put them in the most unflattering clothes, that distracts from the actual character design like 🤨

Take Catty and Iris from G3, them being fat isn't an issue at all, but the outfits ??? Those are so terrible and not flattering. Like why can't chubby girls have cute and flattering outfits like everyone else?? That isn't a cluttered mess of brightness or mushed designs.

Yall can't design better outfits tf??

I'm ALL for chubby characters but at least give them good outfits, let them shine like everyone else!! It just seems like they put less work into the bigger characters to me ://

(And before Tumblr forgets how to read. I'm annoyed at the lack of FASHION, not the body types. Don't act stupid.)

#j.p speaks #i think some redesign people need to study fashion #also saw a pic of a chubby rarity and the outfit was so..basic?? #like you really think Rarity wouldnt be decked to the nines no matter her body type?? #monster high g3 #catty noir #mh iris #iris was done so dirty why his her outfit so UGLY. oh my god thats a travesty.

[your-favourite-plague]

I have no explanation for that

Im going to sleep as i should before i turned a tablet on

#i miss it is he even medicated? i feel he could be “why you need drugs when i can raw dog my depression loser” type of guy #idk i have to study him more. under the microscope. or with a scalpel #jean vicquemare #disco elysium #i draw

[wulfhalls]

.

#over two weeks since my baby boy passed #i miss him more everyday. and its only getting worse #and i feel so responsible so fucking guilty its tearing me up inside #he was only 8 my tiny angel was only 8 #i still cant believe hes gone #i miss him everywhere he isnt anymore which is. well everywhere #i havent wanted to die this badly since like my early twenties maybe not even then #spiralling bad ngl #when i bursh my teeth and he isnt at the faucet just hanging out. when i find some of his fur somewhere. walking by his favourite boxies #his sleeping places. my desk where he helped me study #just one breakdown after the other. all day #i miss him so fucking much every second of every day. he was with me ALWAYS all the time he was just there. #im still waiting for him to just. u know come back to me where he belongs #had one day where i was so dead inside i didnt even weep wail cry weep wail again for a whole day. 👍 #but its convulsing on the floor o'clock yet again. oh well #u know the spiel. ignore me ignore this i just. needed to type this out #bb baby #txt.me

[invinciblerodent]

I've been thinking a lot about magic healing today.

Like I can't stop thinking about how much truly incredible medical knowledge (specifically what we now think of as folk medicine, or like... battlefield surgery) is rendered pretty much completely obsolete by the existence of people who can mend bones with a thought. About how rare it must be for someone to actually know about how a body functions, when among most adventuring types, there's... actually little practical use for such knowledge, with little motivation beyond curiosity to figure it out.

Like of course, I'm sure there are many settings in which those with magical talent are few and far between. I'm sure there are low-magic settings where having access to magical healing is rare, and/or comes at a prohibitively high price for most commoners. But I can't help but think that... in worlds where healing spells and broad-spectrum healing potions are found in the stock of pretty much every merchant and every thug's inventory, ready to be looted, the work of midwives, village wise-women, herbalists, field medics, surgeons, and a thousand other professions is made pretty much completely irrelevant to so many people, simply because clerics, paladins, druids and such, are able to just.... wave a hand, and eradicate diseases, mend bones, transfuse blood, restore limbs, and sometimes even raise the dead.

Being medically knowledgeable on top of being magically adept would probably not only be rare as hell (hello, Halsin), it'd also take a lot of dedication, and a lot of respect for the body and the natural way of things that... I don't know how many even among the best magical healers would actually have.

I'd imagine that many who usually have steady access to a healer don't actually know jack shit about their own health, and... maybe even those who rely on magic to heal, don't actually know what they're doing all that often.

Idk. I'm just rotating this thought in my head today.

#squirrel plays bg3 #just sat in the bathtub with this #thinkin' 'bout stuff n things #mainly how I had this thought that... it's weird how infrequent it is to see healer characters who do like. actual research #or study concrete things beyond a nebulous “oh they look into the magic of this thing” #like it could be me just being submerged in only one specific thing rn #but halsin is the only one i can think of who is cited as doing literal biological research on the tadpoles #there's malus thorm who knows about non-magical medicine #but... priestess gut? magic. nettie? magic (though probably Halsin's student). auntie ethel? never intended to help #clerics and druids and paladins don't NEED to know shit about the body #idk what to make of this #same with Ghustil Strognoss and... i actually can't think of more healer-type characters #which feels weird i mean why would there be no healer living in the lower city #all we really know is that Karlach's parents died because they couldn't afford one 10+ years ago #anyway i have thoughts on my characters as well but I'll maybe rant more in a reblog

[wangxian-the-zhijis]

I don’t hate those who have seen the original source. I hate those who:

feel superior and entitled because they’ve seen the original source

trash on CQL just because it’s different from the books

force their book opinions on CQL lovers when clearly, these 2 are different (civilized discussions are welcome)

are disrespectful and toxic

If you think you are at least one of the bulleted points above, do us both a favor and block me!

I am doing my utmost best not to attract book/donghua fans by using proper tags. It’s not my fault that the characters have the same names in the adaptation. If you really have a problem with The Untamed, kindly block the “The Untamed” and/or “CQL” tags and I won’t be on your radar anymore!

Now, if you love CQL or— if you’ve read the novel or watched the donghua or both AND— you ARE NOT any of the bulleted points above, then you are very welcome here! Welcome to my blog!

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My Fanfics (there’s only one as of now but hopefully I make more in the future)

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[ My previous pinned post - All CQL lovers should see this! ]

#ugh it sucks to change my pinned post since I love that post very much #but I just need to pin this post to immediately create boundaries #i haven’t seen the original material because I DON’T HAVE TIME #just respect that not everyone has the time to indulge on leisure activitites #just because i watched cql last yr doesn’t mean i still have the time to watch now #things and situations change. #i’m a medical student. i hope that’s an enough reason for you to figure out why i dont have time #and also my posts here are 90% queues #i have like 15 queues while I’m typing this and it stops at the last week of May #(some reblogs some own posts) #so don’t expect me to be online when i post stuff #because i’m probably studying or sleeping or crying or all 3 at the same time #(yes that’s possible 😂) #my pinned