#no more church for me for a while

[discount-kirishima]

I'll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife

(alternate coloring under the cut)

#offer me that deathless death good god let me give you my life #🙃🙃🙃🙃 #i drew this to cope #while listening to take me to church #wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun 98 #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #ive drawn more in the past week than i have in the past year i think #vashwood #trigun has me on a chokehold #digital art #trigun maximum #trigun badlands rumble #my art 🎨

[cestacruz]

In F/SR, Chiemon was the victim of the Shimabara Rebellion, his family and his village all died because They were christians

He doesn't ever stop being religious, he still prays to God, even if he has given up everything else

He has no hopes of going to Heaven, so what he wants is to see that Hell he lived again

Because that's what he believes that he deserves

And yet, at the end of the day, the only thing Chiemon wants was to be saved (from the DLC 1, Lancer's Team ending, he prays at (possibly) his mother's grave)

But he can't allow himself that because he doesn't even believe he should have survived at all

Why only him

His mother, his father, all of them killed

And he was the only one who survived

Left in that hell

And then you have Lancer

He prayed her summoning, he started the chant as a prayer

Jeanne, who gave her life to save everyone

Who was fine with being killed because she had saved her country

They are opposites and they are one and the same

#do NOT tag as ship AT ALL or i kill you #they go to church together btw #chiemon doesnt want to but jeanne is like “i'll buy ice cream” she doesnt havey money and chiemon doesnt care for ice cream #he still accepts because his 19 year old older sister|mom (he is on his 20s) looks very sad and while he wont admit it #he cares a little #Just a little #like literally. he cares so little. #he mainly wants her to die #which is hilarious to me #he really doesnt like her #but he wants to be saved #and if he let her #she would #saving is what she does best #she'll pray away your depression chiemon. just trust #she can do it #if he had summoned JAlter (the avenger. lancer isnt jalter. shes just jeanne) #FSR wouldve been WAYYY different #17 more bad endings #unlocked #i love characters who are religious and sad

[ultimateinferno]

I'm going to say, as someone with red hair whose mother was blonde and father had dark brown hair, seeing people try to piece together the Church family genetics like it's a puzzle is amusing. You're 100% overthinking it.

#red vs blue #rvb #rvb tex #rvb church #rvb carolina #if you want to know more to fabricate extended families my mom's brother; sister; and father have red hair #while her mother and brother are blond #and my dad's mother had red hair and the rest of his family is large enough that ill say its a mix of brown and blonde #and leave specifics to rest #both of my siblings are blonde too. my sister called me the redheaded stepchild growing up

[spaceratprodigy]

WIP Wednesday ✏

Thank you for the tags at various points @captastra @darkfire1177 @hibernationsuit @the-lastcall 💖💕

Besties I have not been very productive lately lemme tell ya. I am very tired and have been a bit busy so I've been slackin' workin' on my wips. But that's okay.

Most of y'all have already seen the Faith and Max wip but it's rly cute so I'm gonna show it off again anyway :]

I also have a couple of oc x oc illustrations in the works for the color palette prompts y'all sent me but I don't wanna show those off yet!! I want them to be a surprise 🖤

open tag to anyone who wants to jump in!

#other than that uhhhh I've been developing ceciliana more when I can and preparing for when I finally start drawing her! #I am admittedly just very sleep deprived so trying to get done anything I want/need to has been sloooooowww bc I can't focus #also this month has just been so hectic I'm so tired #anyway now I'm gonna stare at my canvas while listening to take me to church and think abt finishing my drawing instead of actually doing it #<3 #my art #faith and max

[no-i-didnt-pray-the-gay-away]

Yes, I'll admit it, I was a terrible mormon. Put up a fight to go to church and seminary sometimes, hated youth, never read my scriptures and lied throughout seminary only to graduate. I lied to my bishop every time I was in his office, I never paid my tithing, I broke my fast because I hated fasting, I swore a LOT, I've never wanted to go on a mission.

That did not prevent me from feeling devastated when I found out the truth. I was broken for a while. I hated it, I was in denial for a long time. I kinda did want to leave, but I didn't want to face the idea that it wasn't true, and the fact that it isn't true was so heart wrenching.

#exmormon #exmo rambles #This is more for me #Just a reminder #Because I've been feeling like a lazy learner or too gullible about these kinds of things #It's hard to remind myself of the reaction I had #Which was a full meltdown for two hours in my car in a church parking lot #Crying for a while and then on/off every few minutes #To all the tbm's out there yes it is scary and devastating when you find out the truth #Still can't even come to terms about some things I've been taught my entire life to be false #I wanted the facts to be wrong

[moregraceful]

one time my mom told me that our young neighbors loved our persimmons so much that they decided to plant some trees of their own. so they planted four persimmon trees ☠️

#OH YOU SWEET SUMMER CHILDREN LMAO #we have two trees planted in 80s. they put out conservatively at least 300 persimmons each. maybe more #FOUR PERSIMMON TREES #fuck around and find out of ALL time #<- says the guy who is inheriting a house with 14 different fruit trees on the property #i feel real fear when i think about my future sometimes #not bc i am afraid of growing old. but bc i am afraid of the amount of gardening i will be doing #but like what am i gonna do - cut down the persimmon trees? those trees are my family. all the fruit trees are my family #anyway if any of you are like should i plant 1-4 persimmon trees? NO just COME TO MY HOUSE i will GIVE YOU THEM FOR FREE #fresno oilers.txt #feelin real chatty tonight but i was just at church for 5 hours and am trying to recover from the yearning #so i can get started editing my fth fic #i got stuck in traffic while going to church tho and untangled a motif that was driving me crazy so i'm feeling MUCH better abt it #and we stay silly above it all

[ferretwhomst]

ON THE TOPIC OF THE GHOST BROTHERS IVE BEEN MEANING TO ASK BECAUSE THE INSANITY IS GROWING Help why am i yelling

How did the ghost brothers first interaction go the mental image of them doing the spiderman meme made me keysmash irl but On a more serious note . i am autism staring you

HEHEHEHE HI EMBER. sorry to keep you waiting for like two days on this ask. to make up for makimg you wait i went a littleee crazy. ENJOY. ALSO YES I WILL BE GOING TO SLEEP AFTER POSTING THIS. DW

when they first meet ghost ford is on the verge of panicking, trying to properly utilize the first burst of energy he's had in 30 years by doing the only thing he can think of: following his brother trying to make sure he doesn't do something he shouldn't. (and let's face it, after seeing how stan reacts to finding his remains, he 100% expects him to do something he shouldn't. stanley's always been impulsive like that.)

following stan into an entirely different reality is deeply disorienting- and of course it's a lot to process!!! three decades of total inactivity and suddenly he finds himself dimension hopping. it's a lot.

this dimension's basement looks a lot like his, minus the blood embedded in the floor and walls, of course... but fundamentally it's the same basement. the first thing he notices is the trembling shape of two people's silhouettes intertwined in a tight hug. it's hard to see, what with the bad lighting (and, you know, his singular working eye), but from the wild hair ford can tell that the misshapen lump contains his brother and... another version of himself???

he catches himself overthinking and, through gritted teeth, promises himself he'll unpack that later; he's still getting his bearings and processing his environment. standing somewhat behind them are what look like two children, not older than 12 or 13. they're on the verge of tears, but look relieved nonetheless.

before ford can start to question what this means, the most awful scent of smoke starts to engulf his senses. he winces. it's... still better than the lasting smell of rot in his own basement, but it overwhelms him nonetheless. it's a reminder of how his last conversation with stan went, and an unwelcome one at that.

as he surveys the room for a source, he suddenly locks his gaze with someone who looks a lot like him. he brushes his unkempt hair out of his eyes (tired, tired eyes; ones that have worked 30 years past their expiration date) to look at ford with a horrified look of realization.

#I DID THE THING AGAIN #WHY CAN I ONLY WRITE SHIT WHEN I START IT OFF ALL EXPLAINY #(i know exactly why because going in witj no expectations for good writing helps me more than anything but STILL) #also #i would continue and make this post longer but #this might be a scene in the actual fic at some point (spoilers!) #and while that is basically how i imagine it to go #i don't wanna set in stone any specific dialogues yet #if that makes sense #asks #church tag #ferret rambles #blood brothers au #homeworld ford #ghost ford #parallel stan #ghost stan #also it's fun to think about how ghost ford follows portal stan #if he WAS gonna do something he shouldn't its not like ford would be able to stop him really. #anyways thinks about that one variant

[shedpuns]

"undyne was a cop in undertale" cold take. undyne was a soldier. they say multiple times that the royal guard exists because of the war and that when they don't have to fight humans the royal guard disbands. in the neutral pacifist ending the guard is disbanded because it's a tool of war with the humans, not of control over the monster populace.

there's plenty wrong with soldier being a profession and with standing armies in general and with keeping a populace in a state of constant cold war, but it's not the same things that are wrong with police, and the willingness of even Asgore (after the true pacifist ending) to disband the guard is a super positive sign.

Undyne cares deeply about the welfare and the freedom of monsterkind in a way that cops do not care about you. The fact that she doesn't in Deltarune is as much of a red flag as the fact that Toriel lets Kris' half of the room go empty or that Asgore doesn't remember that they don't like hugs or that Alphys prefers grim and joyless anime.

#sorry for vagueposting #and discourse #this is just really really important to me #the politics of undertale/deltarune are fascinating and complex #but undertale is largely more about war in general than it is about fascism #hence why it has kings and soldiers #while deltarune seems to be at least somewhat about modern american religious and political fascism #hence why it has churches and cops #now this isn't saying toby is going to do a *good* job addressing these topics but hes clearly trying #(btw undertale does broach the topic of fascism a couple times in neutral endings! but it treats it as a consequence of war) #undertale analysis #CWs: #police #us politics #fascism

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

I love learning ASL it’s so good. Makes me happy to learn it. I’m so glad my university has classes for it with professors actually steeped in Deaf culture.

#blue chatter #am I good at ASL? hahahahahahaha. no. #ASL and English grammar are incredibly different and even when I remember my vocab I am easily clockable as hearing #but I do have some language capacity now. enough to communicate the basics. #and I just. genuinely really enjoy it. it’s fun to learn and engaging in a way most of my classes just aren’t. #and I can. yanno. communicate respectfully w Deaf ppl. and learn about their culture #which is incredibly important given that I want to go into a field where there is a higher incidence than typical of Deaf people #autistic? you’re more likely to be Deaf! #not to mention the fact that sign language can sometimes be a useful alternative to speech for nonspeaking/nonverbal people #depending on the person obvi; some nonspeaking/nonverbal autistics cannot use sign language and that’s okay #but surely at some point I will encounter either a Deaf client or a nonspeaking/nonverbal client who uses ASL #and when that time comes I should have some idea of how to communicate with them #I also rly like the Deaf church by my parents’ house #their community is really welcoming and their services are really interesting #I think it’s rly cool how they take intentions directly from the congregation #they’ll raise their hands and then sign what their intention is from their pew to the ambo #which is rly neat #it is funny bc every time I go the Deaf ppl I talk to will tell each other ‘go slow she’s hearing’ #which is ENTIRELY fair bc. I am hearing. and I do need them to go slower. #but it also makes me laugh bc truly everyone knows within a few minutes. #oh hey the new person? they’re hearing. yeah they’re learning ASL at college. sign slowly for her. #which again makes sense bc a big Deaf culture thing is keeping ppl informed. it’s not gossip it’s getting everyone on the same page. #Deaf ppl do NOT beat around the bush that is like the height of rudeness to them. u say what u mean goshdangit. do not waste their time. #which I appreciate the heck out of bc i don’t have to try and phrase things delicately or w/e #it was also funny bc my mom came w me while I was home for Christmas and they asked her if I was her kid #and she said yes. and the lady running the kid’s craft corner thing was like ‘great you’re doing a craft now’ #and I’m sitting there. visibly over 18 years old. amongst several seven year olds. trying desperately to figure out how to say hot glue gun #I made a v pretty pinecone tree it was a lot of fun ^-^

[fictionadventurer]

It is so much fun watching Roseanna M. White be Catholic.

For one thing, she tells you cool history stuff about Christmas music.

#for another thing this is such a satisfying end to a years long saga #of me trying to figure out if she converted or not #it started when i found a blog post of hers explaining why scripture can't be the only source of christianity #and i was like 'honey you just point-for-point presented most of the catholic arguments against sola scriptura' #but other posts made it clear she was still protestant #so i could hope this was the beginning of a journey but didn't really expect anything #then a long time later she posts about how she and her family have found a church that fits their needs better #which is more how you talk about switching protestant churches and not going through rcia #so i dismissed all but the wildest hope #then she mentioned speaking at a catholic writer's conference #which doesn't necessarily prove anything because ecumenism is a thing #even the fact that she had a catholic branch to her small press didn't prove anything #it was run by her catholic friends and i know of protestants who work very closely with catholic initiatives while remaining protestant #so the evidence was piling up but there was nothing absolutely conclusive so it was driving me bonkers #and then FINALLY for advent she started talking about the liturgical year #and said 'now that my immediate family is catholic we celebrate advent' #AT LAST! CONFIRMATION! #(pun not intended but still appreciated) #and now she's had several blog posts making it clear she's very excited about catholic history and spirituality #and i'm so proud of her #i can see why you'd be coy when you have a very protestant audience but i'm glad she finally went public with it #not least because i get to find out cool stuff about christmas carols #catholic things #christmas #roseanna m. white

[a-queer-seminarian]

(i prefer you don't re-blogg this btw) a few upcoming things i'm excited about:

i'll be preaching virtually for a church in Wyoming for their June More Light service. Just got off zoom with their pastor and treasurer and their congregation seems rad — mostly a bunch of retirees using their time and resources to be active in their community. you love to see it

i also FINALLY successfully got in touch with the person in my presbytery in charge of pulpit supply. don't know why THAT took LITERALLY THREE years but. glad it's finally happening!! this means that churches in the area will see my name on the list of options for when they want a guest preacher

More Light Presbyterians will be announcing our new staff member in June so. at last we'll be able to do more stuff!! (we currently have no full-time staff and that's been the case for a Long While)

#log #spring 2023 #it's been quite a while since i've preached because for some reason my home church hasn't invited me to in ages :(( #even tho since we're between pastors they literally have a guest preacher every week? #i love preaching so i'm pumped i should be getting more chances soon!

[surpriserose]

Crying and screaming i think cis people need trans characters to look right at the camera and say im transgender to get it you can't imply SHIT

#Reading feedback on my second story in the class and while yes i think i can and should imply it more like....can you guys work we me #What part of character escaping their family and the mormon church by running away and literally transforming themselves reads as cis come