#oh man uh. hm.

[spade-club]

Let’s play, “was I abused” game! Reblog and bold the things your parents have done to you! Italicize if you’re not sure. (copy paste it all and then bold)

(I found this and thought I might as well do this to help myself with denial later!! obvious abuse tw!! also I have a lot of stuff that came from outside the house too, but this is like. parent stuff yeah idk!!)

Physical abuse

parent slapped me to prove their point/teach me a lesson

parent spanked me as a “punishment” saying it was for my own good

parent pulled on my hair to force me to move

parent threw things at me while angry, things heavy enough to hurt me

parent trapped me into a room/corner so I couldn’t escape them

parent hit me when I wouldn’t obey them/tried to confront them

parent used a twig/stick/belt to lash at my body

parent grabbed me to force me to pay attention to them

parent pinned me down and physically prevented me from escaping

parent brought me into situations where I feared for my life

parent made it painfully obvious for me that I’ll obey them or suffer injuries

parent threatened to beat me if I wouldn’t do as they say

parent forcefully fed me something I refused to eat

parent made an attempt at strangling/drowning/burning me

parent banged my head/body into the wall/furniture

parent forced me into sexual activities

Emotional abuse

parent called me derogatory names and slurs more than once

parent said my name mostly with hatred and scorn in their voice

parent degraded and humiliated me in front of others for fun

parent insulted and devalued something really important to me

parent deprived me of something that meant the world to me

parent yelled and swore at me in anger more than once

parent blamed me for things that were out of my control/not my fault

parent shamed me for my physical appearance

parent guilt-tripped me for not pleasing them well enough

parent regarded me as a burden, and shamed me for needing them at all

parent insisted I couldn’t take a joke after I got hurt from their insults

parent never comforted me/got angry if I reached for comfort

parent punished me for crying/showing fear/showing trauma symptoms

parent humiliated me for showing excitement and happiness

parent subtly let me know that my feelings and my problems don’t matter

parent got angry at me for feeling depressed/angry/tired/suicidal

parent blamed me for feeling depressed/angry/tired/suicidal

parent compared me to cousins/other children to prove how I’m the worst

parent decided for me how I feel when it was convenient for them

parent told me that I was crazy/delusional/need to be locked away

parent threatened me with kicking me out/sending away if I don’t change

parent refused to accept my sexuality/tried to force it to change (gender but same deal)

parent required for me to act normal to protect family’s reputation

parent isolated me from family activities they all enjoy

parent assured me that nobody will ever want me

parent insisted that I was lucky and that I could have had it much worse

parent made me responsible for their well being and made me the caretaker

parent insisted that their harmful acts were all made “out of love”

parent demanded me to be available for their requests at any time

parent punished me for trying to establish boundaries

parent destroyed my belongings as a revenge

parent made inappropriate sex jokes and comments in my presence

parent denied doing any of this and insists that all the blame is on me

Psychological Abuse

parent kept pointing out my flaws as proofs that I wont achieve anything

parent called me stupid, incompetent, ignorant, while withholding information that I needed to know in order to complete tasks

parent would change their side of the agreement in crucial moment and then pretend it was obvious from the start

parent stalked me/distrusted me without any reason/invaded my privacy

parent attacked my insecurities and vulnerabilities in any argument

parent forced me into degrading actions while they watched me do it

parent threatened to leave me

parent accused me regularly of behaving the way they did

parent never acknowledged, praised or approved of my actions

parent always demanded they are right without any proof/explanation

parent insisted that they’re a great parent using financial support as proof

parent insisted that I should be grateful for how good they are to me

parent gaslighted me and tried to make me believe my memories weren’t real if I confronted them with what they did

Neglect

parent didn’t notice I haven’t been eating properly

parent didn’t notice I was sick/didn’t care for me while I was sick

parent didn’t notice I was injured

parent didn’t notice I didn’t have clothes/shoes I needed for school

parent didn’t notice I suffered from trauma

parent didn’t notice I was anxious and stressed

parent didn’t notice I was depressed

parent didn’t notice I was cutting myself

parent didn’t notice I was suicidal

parent didn’t notice I was being sexually abused

parent didn’t notice I was being bullied

parent failed to get me medical attention when it was needed

parent failed to teach me the very basics of self care

parent didn’t seem to notice any of my needs and feelings except the absolute minimum I required to survive (hardly even that)

when I notified them of these things, they denied it, accused me of lying, decided it wasn’t happening and/or blamed me for it

Financial Abuse

parent made me feel ashamed for needing money

parent made me feel like I’m a financial burden to them

parent only gave me minimal money to survive

parent made sure I never have a decent amount of money on me

parent took the money I earned from me

parent used the money to blackmail me

parent insisted since they “pay for my stuff” they have the right to control my behaviour and actions

parent had enough money for luxury but kept me without anything

parent refused to get my medicine/get me medical attention because it’s too expensive while they got everything for themselves

parent would keep me anxious over if they would pay my expenses or not

parent would make me do as much work for them as possible before they would pay for a necessity

parent kept me in the dark over family finances even when I was of age

parent would make sure I never have enough money to escape them

#oh man uh. hm. #literally im not kidding TODAY my parents told me I had it so easy compared to them #like. okay. you didnt hit me #congrats on that im sure that was so hard for you?? but like. that doesnt erase the everything else. #they literally started talking about the abuse they went through as kids and I was just like. I cant participate in this conversation. #and then my dad said its because I had it easier and im like. yeah sure well pretend thats why haha #anyway thank you emotional amnesia for allowing me to do this post easily. you suck but ily xx #also there was nothing for *dragging me through the house to get me to do what they wanted* but thats okay ig #also idk what forcefully undressing me and shoving me into shower classifies as either #so like. yk. there is some physical stuff too its just idk what to call either of those #oh also for the food one its bc I was allergic to the stuff they were feeding me and I told them that but they didnt listen!! #so pretty epic double whammy there #OH AND my mom would tell me after every fight *you better not be telling people about this* #to the point that I stopped telling people because I was scared she would find it and freak out #alsoalso the only reason she knew I was sh-ing was because she read my texts and then she demanded me to tell her everything about it #so she could *help me* or whatever. and then she promptly never brought it up again as if it never happened #so a lot of weird as fuck shit idk #also the way she checked my texts to make sure I was okay but didnt notice me being groomed online lol #and instead just taunted me about the crush I had that she found out about through that. fucking. okay. #okay thats enough oversharing I will just hit post now hehe

[fate-defiant]

'kay so I doodled another thing before bed, just to test the tool further. I wanted to see what I could do if I went beyond just a sketch with a bit of color slapped onto it. Not gonna lie after fiddling witth the brushes further I was a bit dissapointed - they're not unworkable, but the limitations are frustrating nonetheless. I ended up doing the lineart as though I was working with a mechanical pencil - set the brush size to being as thin as possible(i worked on a 800x600 pixel canvas here, for the record) and then just sorta went over the parts I wanted to be bolder several times. It didn't turn out great but that's more of a skill issue on my part.

All this isn't to say that's it's bad, for the record, the main goal of the people making this was clearly to make something for people to have fun together with and not a perfect clone of [insert your preffered drawing program here]. If I experimented further I could definitely figure out plenty of interesting things that can be done with just the free features, I just don't have the time or the patience tonight.

#this has been uh. a review i suppose #hm. #my anatomy skills leave much to be desired #but i man did i not feel like using a refference #also hey remember back in 2019 when i doodled a character that sorta reminded me of duck #and then i ended up sorta going with the self indulgent flow without really thinking about it much #and then i drew her like thrice #and then i spent some months ponderign the implications of the worldbuilding and parenthood and also the fact th #that i decided for her to be a very young mom and now i am the age where i decided shed supposedly have had her kid #and also now i've had some time and space to consider the effect that has both on the parent and child #and now instead of a purely self indulgent oc i spat out randomly during a time when #i pinned a lot of my self esteem on the validation i got for running this blog #this is like. someone i can potentially tell an interesting story with? #idk ive been pondering family ties here and there. now and then. #i wanna write stories abou that i think #but oh man i am not at all well practiced story teller #still id like to try #anyway uuuuuh #bertha #my art #fate.txt #this has been. a review and a ramble

[compacflt]

Okay. Need to know after seeing your graph breakdown. Who told Bush and/or Obama about icemav???????? Please I need answers

i mean all they’d have to do is just look at them.

#not that hard to figure it out LMAO #But a serious answer is like ice is funneling $3k+ into mav’s bank account every month im sure that might’ve come up on a bg check #also other admirals who know & see it as their sworn duty to notify the govt of personnel liabilities #which like. fair. #icemav is kind of a liability. #my ‘fatal flaw’ is not that people wouldn’t find out it’s that people DONT BRING IT UP WITH ICE & MAKE HIM CONFRONT THE TRUTH lol #’uh you are paying this guy you are fucking to live with you? and he’s uh. your subordinate? hm.’ #ice: oh yeah were good friends we invested in an airplane together :D its our big project :) #’yes all very legal yes.’ #mr president sir jsyk one of your rear admirals is likely engaging in fraternization with the most dangerous pilot the navy has ever seen #dubya: I DONT CARE IF THIS MAN IS GAY SO LONG AS HE FIGHTS A GOOD WAR IN THE MIDDLE EAST FOR ME #Obama: ‘well let’s let ‘em get away with it. and lets not say anything about it to him. it’s good for the plot.’ #asks #ive been saving ‘pancho and lefty’ for sliders songs but it’s like my no 2 tom kazansky song for this reason

[skrunksthatwunk]

fuck offfff poor audio processing makes ppl flirting with me so stupid they'll be like hey you're pretty and I'll go ah 👍😐. or omg yeah! 🤘 or i just laugh bashfully without even knowing what they said until like a minute later. help help my default responses are making people confused and unsettled. and those are the same responses i give when ppl talk shit about me too it's not good

#ah 👍😐ahaha☺️yeah🙂 #met a girl in my childrens lit and bio class who called me beautiful (n) and love (n) and like we have said 2 sentences to each other #i dont thiiiiiiiink it was flirting? but my response was still the 'ok 🙂' #come ON man get it together #the other day the cafeteria guy. oh god the poor cafeteria guy. im so glad he thought i was cute bc i was failing that interaction so so bad #it's actually sickening. just blank staring and hm-whuh?? huh? oh sorry um. [doesnt answer question] #agonizing experience only to get the worst saddest chicken nachos of my life. yhey were so bad #like just staring at him trying to figure out how to ask for food and form sentences for like 40 secs per thing #yk like 4 little tub things. with food and sauces and stuff. head in my hands ughhh embarrassing #not his fault i dont think but somewhere in the middle of that he told me i have a pretty face and i think i just said like #'oh yeah' [actively mid-turn to my friend] [kind of half process it after] 'ahahha aww. thanks! (delayed)' #anyway if i was not mentally tapped out all the live long day a girl telling me 'move over beautiful' woulda like. destroyed me goodstyle #but again it doesnt sink in so like. it didnt. anyway if you're that girl ummm sorry lol not your fault #also your makeup is cool go crazy. if we become friends you will experience this more so. prepare #just. dying. tbf i'd been wandering underprotected in like 12°F weather for 20 minutes so my brain was like. reeling #wuhh-uhbuwhah? wh- ... OH oh yeah uh um like x and y are the (so true) um the. yeah 👍👍 #<- average you telling me things irl moment

[l-cereta]

oh my god u know the hrt is working when u get genuinely white girl drunk

#ive never been this drunk before this is crazy. the gender euphoria of not having any tolerance despite being able to drink 4 drinks a year #ago #like its that or someone Did something to this drink but it was from a housemate's stash. oh my god i wanted more of this im so glad im in #bed rn i could have made so many bad decisions #im like this close to posting one of the thirst(?) pics i took on my sideblog that i havent touched in a month #oh my god im fucking up so many words . gang im not pretending here i drank like 2 shots tops and its Fucking me somehow #WAIT I CAN EDIT TAGS #typos fixed :sunglasses: #genuinely crazy how much im feeling it tho ive literally Never felt it this much. id ask if ibuprofen or spiro interact w alcohol but i #think there was a decent amount of time between when i took both #yeah like i took spiro ~10:57 and then uh drank after. 11 hm ok this isnt as spaced out as i expected #i dont think im going to alcohol jail tho. im being responsible im In Bed im not gonna go do anything stupid (altho i do. want to ask #someone downstairs to do something stupid. but maybe thats the alcohol talking) #also shileas is downstairs and shes a bitch and i dont want to be cringy in front of her #i dont know if shes trans or just a really masc lesbian btw . shes cool but she also has some bad takes sometimes and i dont think she #likes me #im writng so many tags <3 but thats what love is. if anyones read this far idk like the post or something #you know the one post where the person puts an egg in their mouth. and then people share the tags. this is that #i was gonna be typing this out on a discord server but i thought no. this deserves to have everyone see it #man also if i went down and asked like if anyone wants to fuck like who would say yes . shileas is a super senior maeve is in a relationshi #p #i dont like riley and . man idk about griffin. but i think im a lesbian. maybe im just desperate. #bUT IM NOT GONNA. im not gonna. #i dont want to sleep tho i want to have fun :(( but my roommate is asleep #& its not like anyones gonna fuck me on this bed . with like my lovies (thats what i call my stuffed animals) and shit . #i genuinely didnt expect that i could get this drunk and whats crazy is i know i could be more drunk #can u imagine if someone reads this and goes 'well shes clearly sober and faking it' no </3 im simply very eloquent i was neglected as #a child so i read alot lol #whoops *a lot not alot #wasnt there a limit of like 26 tags. when do i hit that

[quietwingsinthesky]

okay sorry didnt mean to go on like that i just have many feelings about this. As A Gamer.

#idk man most of my childhood games were. shovelware. bad. objectively trash. #but i play them now. and look at their horrible review scores and its like. #okay the number says Terrible but my experience is saying ‘well its complicated. theres mindless levels and theres loving details.’ #whats another one uhhhhh. hm. OH. phineas and ferb across the 2nd dimension. the wii game again. #its not a great game! its not! it can be annoying and glitchy and bad! but its also so filled with charm and clear love for the source #material and it can be very pretty in a cartoony oversaturated way! #or what about uhhhhm. the marvel super hero squad game. yes the one for that cartoon no one remembers. #again! its not good! but there’s love in there!! the characters all work in such unique ways!! the beat-em-up style is fun!! #or what about the suite life of zack and cody on the ds. its got. well. its got. uh. yeah actually nvm this one is just bad- #but my POINT is. these games matter. they deserve to be preserved and they deserve to be looked at. they are interesting in their own right! #thank you for coming to my impromtu tumblr talk. theres a chocolate truffle under your chair for listening to me

[peapod20001]

Currently fighting off another wave of depression with a stick hoping I can shoo it away before it sticks around hahaho

#random post #someone tell this fucker to go AWAY I don’t WANT IT #I’m not trying to have worthless feelings so bad I can FEEL my hair fall out mkay. don’t want. don’t send it #how to convince the brain I’m NOT lonely/alone when I do obviously literally am. cus I don’t have friends that send messengers hahavvsggs <3 #mm last time I went out with a friend was. uh. #February oh shit! haha ok I. hm. I don’t yea <3 #I’m reading too into things man. I jus wanna be included <3 in things #instead of feeling like a background character in my own SPACES man #maybe if I think harder about my ocs I can forget myself entirely

[shopcat]

i just read that post about steve & the torture, and like High key think that the potential needle trauma is also v forgotten about.

and like sorry to talk about myself (Again, loool) and how i relate to steve, but when i was 10 and i was getting the tetanus shot by the school nurse, and she said "i won't poke u until u say it's okay, the okay word is 10" and then her assistant asked me my age and obviously the answer was 10, and i realized that if i answered the question the nurse would give me the shot and i wasn't ready so i didn't reply, and then the assistant said "you're 10 right?" as an answer to her own question, and then the nurse gave me the shot even though I myself hadn't actually said it was okay,, and now needles still freak me out rip, it's gotten better but i still hate it rip. idk it's like, the fact that the nurse said she'd listen to me and let me give consent, and then tried to trick me into giving it without noticing, and when that didn't work out the way she wanted, she like did it anyway/changed the conditions she set, idk i think it just made it worse, like if she had just said ill do it on 3 without telling me i could decide, i think that would've been better.

anyway my own experience with like all of that makes me think/believe that steve would likely have some sort of trauma attached to/an aversion to needles. and probably a p big distrust for medical personnel, even though it wasn't like a hospital doctor, i think it is connected enough to make him distrustful.

also now when i get poked by a needle i need to like see when it makes connection with my skin, but as soon as I've seen it and it's starting to go in i have to look away, bc like i don't want to be surprised by it, and like idk how it would be for steve, but i think he also wouldn't want to be surprised, idk how that would present itself in him though.

idk i just feel p strongly about it lol

nurses are crazyyyy i have to see like. 2 phlebotomists and a nurse every 3 months to do my hrt and it's always a different experience every single time bc half of them are CRAZY. anyway. i never actually even thought of this before to do w steve specifically i mean like you're actually so right even with that one guy being like "your friend needs a Doctor" and that the doctor was the one doing phase 2 of the torture... and then afterwards two times now we've seen him assumedly AVOID medical personnel slash hospitals/not get treated.... interesting..... i will let this marinate in my brain until i succumb to it i think. i need to fucking safe him.

#asks #sts #oh my andhow it could run alongside like. the hc that he actually becomes an emt... HM ! #and specifically an emt which has different like. training and school vs paramedics vs i dunno nurses ? #medical tw #oh i think i never even thought of it bc i already have it in my mind he doesnt like medical care in general but bc he doesnt want to face #that he IS hurt hes like im fine. basically #but i also think he totally could have developed aquaphobia i think thats a very.. realistic thing to explore #i also just have a hc that hes scared of dogs LOL which has differing levels of uh. reasons why #like mostly just bc i like random hcs to be honest to be honest.. but also DEMODOGS MAN #but yeah specifically a medical aversion esp trouble with needles TOTALLY. just like with i dunno. having his hands tied

[dedmau]

you should give them all at least one shiny to represent the white eye

secondo gets a shiny sylveon for the bit

#its his therapy dog #i live to be silly with this man #wanted an umbreon but uh oh he was nice to it. funny glitter dog #hm. nihil shiny gogoat

[crazywolf828]

But who will be getting pegged🤔 Sun is the obvious option, but he's already got a spot (maybe a few tbh) so who is the lucky lad

#hm #well #i guess i could do sun in a different pairing? #i concidered arkos but i feel like im not going to be great at writing pyrrha smut #oh... #i could do outside the rwby fanfom #maybe forjester? or uh. fuck i forgot caleb/jesters name #i could do arcane #mel and jayce i mean i dont care what canon says #the man gets pegged okay #don't mind me

[astrxealis]

i will continue gbf msq (rambles in tags) ^___^

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა gbf ໒꒱ *·˚ #the voice acting for itoris man... :(( #RCKAM ily WAIT OH MY FUCKING GOD RIGHT THE EYE THE EYE. SO IT IS ALL COMING BACK i am very happy #YOOOOO WHAT MARTIAL LAW ?? as a filipino i hate that word LMFAO MARTIAL LAW....... #the music !! the music !! it isn't super extravagant or anything i'm just a nerd it is SO pretty #ah right so yeah. like said b4 it starts w the islands and then the goal is istavion. oh wow alliah is so pretty (<- random thought) #djeeta i am so gay for you. which is really funny considering you're kinda me while i'm playing this game. but also yes #oh... rackam is still... :(( #oh this still makes me sad (you see i have a weakness for this kinda thing) #this makes me think things. the burden of the king. hmm silence #octavia you just appeared out of nowhere. she does this a lot it is so funny #uh. loki. OH THE SHIP I SEE ....... i was so shocked seeing him out of nowhere again LMFAOOO #hmmm interesting. yeah. contradictions and discrepancies and BTW i love how the storytelling is in the new story quests!! #purposely confusing and there's not much like uhh connecting like. all of a sudden theres new changes and i think that fits well #with the narrative. idk if i'm even saying this right but yeah i really like it even if it can be kinda confusing at first #mikaboshi and shitori sgebjhabjhbhjbehg........ hm? what's she talking about. mika is so cute :( returnign remembrance WOW #hmm last bit now. harsh reality part 1 aka chapter 163 #oh no oh shit. oh nvm okay this is just the king's eye PHEW i #huh. this is not what i recall hmmmmmmm #this is like one of the other worlds then or something ?? hm. hmm #oh... blue liberation front....... oh my GOD. god. god. #this reminds me of xiv/fe a bit ?? ifykim. shitori :(( #oh no. i had a feeling this would happem. n. NO WAIT WHAT KATALINA. ik theyre okay in another uh. world ?? #but no this makes me so :(( whbgajehbgjh i do not like this !! lyriaagehjbjhebjhbjhbehbjhgagh man #this edgedweller isn't a good guy isn't he. is he also one of them in disguise or #'the holy seat of genesis' very cool name love that fr <3 NO. NO. LYRIA. wHBGHABHJG. also where the fuck is vyrn and mika #ah. ah. djeeta. lyria. ah. look ik theyre okay in that other uhh world but this one. this is.eghabjhghahbejhbjhg :(((((( #ahh i see. it all makes sense now (and reminds me of xiv so i really like this a lot LMFAOOO) <3 sorry for vague xiv spoilers btw uh ya #okay uhm this is the 30th tag. bye!

[keeps-ache]

i've gotta stop cooing at everything lol

#just me hi #if you've ever spoken to me you know i overuse 'oh' a LOT #with a bit of variation including 'ah' 'eh' 'uh/m' 'hm/hum/humn/hmn' #i see anything neat or funny or terrible and the first sound ever is 'ohhh' #depending on the situation it will sound Very Pitiful #oh that reminds me of the one time i did it around my brother and he spun around to look at me like thunder had struck the ground i was #walking #and he said it 'sounded like' i was 'autotuned' #which i still think of that quite proudly #yes i can make convincing Robot Noise but only when i'm paying 0 attention and i have to walk into a food court #oh speaking of Public Things so a couple months (or maybe not? i'm choosing to ignore Time) ago i was at the Big Store (very bad store. #pick the Worst Store Ever and we'll go with that) and i had to go get a grocery cart #WELL i have this nervous habit of singing or humming to myself and i do it under my breath in public #usually paired with muttering phrases like 'this is fine we're being normal no one is looking at us we are INVISIBLE! >:D' and it's AllNice #well i was walking past the old guy that was manning the front doors ('hello welcome to Big Store good bye see you soon (hate it when they #say 'see you soon' like sure whatever you're right but DON'T SAY IT LIKE THAT. that's a THREAT.)) #and i'm mumbling 'just have to grab a cart it'll take a couple second this is fine we're alright' and as i'm walkin past this guy the #Crowd-Noise lulls and he makes eye-contact w/ me cuz i heard my mumbling and i'm telling you something in me d i e d #and i still. think about that #it isn't THAT weird but. lol #anyway tuning out #YOU tune in later for another fine installment of 'why did keeps do this why please' #and maybe i'll talk about the one time my little brother tried to down an entire tube of toothpaste :D #~+~ toodles ~+~

[ajdrawshq]

you love them...... 0(-(

#today you're happy . #oh boy i gotta run thru the whole house this way. time to 100% this shit i guess #unless i can loop forward . hopefully #woageoahwoahwoah woah. hey. siffrin my buddy???????? are u good. holy shit dude #WOAH. okay. thats. hm. YOUR ATTACK LOWERED? #theyre literally nerfing themself so they dont scare the shit out of everyone. well #SADNESS WILL FLEE FROM YOU. OK #things are gettin weird today #ooo his title changed.. when did that happen.. #HEY !! ANOTHER SIFFRIN AGAIN. is spacetime getting fucked over by all these loops. not that ive had too many.... this is loop 20-something #oh. oopsie. looked at too many things and Odile is onto me. uh oh #surely that wont come back to get me later right. right #that is actually a bit scary tho. tbh #oh shit bonnie WAS listening to that conversation huh #man it would suck if i lost this loop. but i dont think i could stomach doing that on purpose lmao #it would also be hilarious if i died to pineapple right now. which im assuming is a thing bc of Loops warning earlier #omg i love bonnies interactions when theyre not being mean to sif theyre so silly #why is everyone treating him like a puppy today.. except for odile . who is still suspicious. #even if she figures it out somehow i dont know how she'll like. bring it to light? or do anything abt it?? #will she react badly to it at all ???? i mean its Weird but half of the evidence shows that sif did it to help more than anything #tho she could draw different conclusions.. #isat #isat spoilers #'you feel happy???' 'even though youre not friends.' hey dont do that.

[midnightarcheress]

stress-relief

husband!Simon helping his wife!reader with her stress <3 cw: nsfw. mdni. fem reader, masturbation, squirting, a lil overstim.

you shuffle through the bag to find the keys to your home, only to drop it the minute you raise it to unlock the door. great. it’s one of those days where everything goes wrong, and you want nothing more than to shut out the world and curl up in bed, silently praying for the next one to be better. 

you pick up the keys from the doormat and swing open the door of your flat, hoping that the familiar scent flooding your lungs will help you ground yourself back to a more serene state. tossing your coat and bag aside, your gaze falls on the tall man quietly reading on the sofa, sweetly mouthing a “welcome back, love.” that you dismiss with a grunt, stomping your way to the bedroom.

‘uh-oh.’ Simon thinks, siren already buzzing and red light blinking in his brain, making him pull up to his feet at god-speed and quickly follow you to your shared room, being met with your clothes scattered around and the sound of running water coming from the bathroom. he promptly puts away your discarded attire and sits on the edge of the bed, patiently waiting for you.

you stay in the shower for some good thirty minutes, allowing the water to wash away your stress as you massage your scalp. the weight finally falls from your shoulders and flows down the drain, leaving you alone with the tiredness that’s been brewing in your tense muscles since you stepped out of the house. with a long, weary sigh, you drape the towel around your body and walk out the bathroom, tiny droplets cascading from your hair to your chest, descending on the swell of your breasts and stirring your husband’s cock in his pants.

“gonna tell me wha’ got you so cranky, dove?” he asks with the slightest of teasing, knowing he’s staggering on the thin line of your temper.

“‘m sorry, jus’ a hard day.” you mutter sheepishly, turning to get some well-deserving comfy clothes on the dresser

“c’mere,” you barely have time to react before Simon pulls you by the wrist onto the bed, positioning your body between his legs as he rests on the headboard, “talk to me, lovie.”

his hands brush your arms delicately, fingers running up and down your skin as you start addressing the misfortunes of your day. how a jerk cut you off in traffic, how a client screamed at you on the phone after you explained it wasn’t possible to fulfill his request, how your long awaited sweet treat after lunch fell straight to the floor, how your mother called just to raise hell at you for not visiting enough, how your boss scolded you for a mistake that wasn’t even your fault.

“hm, she said tha’?” he murmurs, massaging the knots on your shoulders and slowly drifting his hands downwards, opening up the lightly damp towel that’s clinging to your frame as you ramble. his rough, calloused skin finds its way to your soft tits, gently kneading the fat while his lips plant small kisses all over your neck.

“i swear that woman’s out to get me, don't know how i haven’t been fired yet.”

“she knows tha’ place would fall apart without ya, doll. you’re the only one with a brain there,” he coos sweetly in your ear, fingers traveling down your stomach and reaching your mound, making your breath hitch in your throat. Simon smirks at your reaction, feeling your head tipping back to rest on his shoulder and your still wet hair soaking his shirt, “let me help you decompress, eh?”

you, too tired to resist the offer, let him spread your legs with ease, compliant to the touch of your loving husband. his middle finger smears the hasty arousal leaking from your cunt through your slit, softly caressing your folds as you melt into his arms. “so wet f’me, love.” he chuckles, slightly rubbing your clit as you hum.

his moves are tame, gradually pooling the warmth in your belly, taking his time to shape your tension until it’s the right moment to set you free. his finger toys with your entrance before sliding in, feeling the familiar walls of your cunt clenching around it, causing you to breathe heavily at just the beginning.

“you like tha’?” he whispers, introducing another finger on your tight hole as you turn to bury your face on his neck, mewling with pleasure and pain while he stretches you, digits hitting all the right spots. by the time he speeds up the thrusting, your moans are erratic, gasped, barely leaving your throat as you grasp his forearm in a desperate attempt to ground yourself, even with your brain reaching the fucked-out point by a simple touch.

his thumb lazily strokes your swollen nub as he continues to be knuckles-deep inside of your velvety walls, curling his fingers just enough to earn a squeal out of you. the coil on your lower stomach tightens, fibers threatening to snap at any second as Simon murmurs sugary praises in your ears whilst nipping the skin where your neck meets your shoulder, the love bite’s stings only intensifying the pleasure coursing through your bloodstream.

“Simon, ’m gonna-” you don’t even have the energy to complete your sentence before your juices flood on his hand, the god’s nectar gushing from your pussy and dripping from his wrist onto the long forgotten towel, as he bullies your clit to overstimulation. you cry out his name like a prayer, begging whatever higher power out in the universe to let you keep that sensation forever.

“looks like someone really needed tha’,” he laughs and you feel the deep rumbling from his chest on your naked back, only driving you closer to the edge as your legs convulse at the overwhelming thrill of your nervous system. your frantic moans echo in the room when Simon raises his free hand to your nipple, rolling the hardened tip between his thumb and index, painting twinkling stars in the ceiling, the scintillation being too much to keep your vision clear. “think ya got another one f’me, princess?” 

he doesn’t wait for your answer; he knows how to treat his precious wife and can cite by heart the prescription to get you to sleep better than any pill would. tears prickle in the corner of your eyes when he starts again, just barely giving you time to recover from the near out-of-body experience. 

his new rhythm is harsh, pulling your thighs - fully covered in slick and arousal - over his to keep you spread open, and fiercely pounding two digits inside you. you squirm and press yourself harder against his broad chest, babbling incoherently as he pumps his thick and scarred fingers somehow even deeper than before. 

“Si, ‘s too much, i can’t-” you choke out, streams rolling down your cheeks as he builds another orgasm out of you. half-lidded eyes meet his hazel irises in a lustful gaze, pleading in agony for another release before your body gives out.

it doesn’t take much before a jolt of electricity tingle beneath your skin and makes you cum, getting you blissfully drunk by finger-fucking only while your peak ripple through your core. your hands sternly grip on the sheets under your limp body, the frenzy running its way through every corner of your being, clouding your vision and leaving you in a divine peaceful haze.

your limbs twitch slightly as you come down from your high, Simon holding you tight in his burly arms and pressing kisses on your pretty face. “you did so good, lovie,” he praises, his thumb rubbing soothing circles on your belly, “could’ve given ya s’much more but your eyes are so droopy already,” his quiet laugh almost lull you to sleep right there and then, “feeling better?”

you nod, eyes tempting to close as the fatigue washes over you, weariness creeping up your mind after a hell of a day and a celestial end to it. “thank you, Si.” you mumble with nothing but affection in your voice, utterly elated by the sight of your devoted husband cradling you. 

“anything for ya, my wife.”

just a little something i thought of while procrastinating my other works lol

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[peapod20001]

Haha don’t pay me any mind oho

#vent #ok. so #I was! fine for the most part today! but then! idk what happened! #I’m like sad now! depressed? like. I kinda don’t feel real #I think I was giving myself anxiety over thoughts. got really clammy. literally shoveled goldfish crackers into my face #now don’t judge me but #I’ve been looking at things that make me feel bad for like. at least 4 hours now haha.. #I dunno man it’s the adhd I got one thought about thing that made me upset and now I’m hours in and my emotions are fried #and. shh don’t tell anyone I feel things but I know have a fantasy of someone I can cry around #whehe how pathetic is that. scraping the bottom of the barrel here looking for another human just let me cry @ you #hmm. how did I go from thinking up poems for valentines only to. feel so cold and alone #I’m not crying. but. I definitely need to later haha maybe this all kickstarted from my two whole hours of sleep last night 😎 #mhm so uh. if your reading this with the most cold unfeeling monotone voice then you are exceptionally accurate!i am currently not all here #can’t sleep now tho gotta. do other shit I guess #I’m laying in bed for a second though. my legs were very cold to the touch. unfeeling unhuman #oh and I might be balding potentially but that’s still just a theory. my dad noticed and pointed it out #haha what would I be withought my hair? another germ just populating this Earth? #oho ahh. hm. I’m just a trying to say I don’t fell right now if that makes sense. anyways

[riediaries]

the wailing sound of a baby fills up the room for the nth time tonight. the crying continues and becomes louder throughout the second.

you groan, waking up from your needed sleep. as much as you want to wake up satoru to take care of her, you can't. you are both equally tired and sleep-deprived because of your daughter.

you try to get up slowly to not wake up satoru but he already beat you into it. he gets up and pushes your body gently to the bed.

"sleep some more." he leans down to give your forehead a kiss and then gets up to be with his baby daughter.

"hi mochi." he smiles to her. that smile alone makes her feel really safe and comfortable as she's now calming down. she raises her two chubby hands, wanting her daddy to carry her.

"do you think it's too early for you to wake us up?" he jokes. satoru checks her diaper for poop just in case and after that, he carefully puts his gentle hands on her body to lift her up.

you can not take off your eyes on the scene unfolding in front of you. quietly observing the two white haired baby and the big baby.

satoru continues to rock her body as he hums in a melodic tone. the crying comes to stop and she hiccups.

"yes.. yes.. daddy's here.." he swaddles his baby around his arm in a gentle way, afraid to hurt her in any way.

you get up and your feet automatically makes its way to your little family. you hug your husband by the waist, putting your chin on his shoulder to see your daughter eyeing his father. blue eyes to blue eyes.

you were not glad by the genes of this man covering your daughter whole. from head to toe. she's the carbon copy of her dad but on the other side, you were happy that the only man you love is practically the twin of your daughter.

this thought makes another thought on your mind in which you giggle.

satoru breaks his eye contact with his baby and turns his head to you. "hm? what is it? and shouldn't you be sleeping?"

you continue to giggle and put your forehead on his shoulder, an attempt to muffle your giggles but satoru's plump lips makes out a smile.

"what is it? what's funny?" he asks again. he's curious why you're giggling a little too much.

you sigh and turns your head to meet his stunning blue eyes that was passed down on your daughter.

you look at your daughter first who's already eyeing you, too. great. two pairs of beautiful eyes watching you.

"there's this saying.." you start and your attention goes back to satoru.

he hums, signaling you to continue.

"this saying says that whoever was the carbon copy of the kid was the one who enjoyed a little too much during the making.." you burst out of laughing.

as you make your point, satoru chuckles at that saying, slightly agreeing. "oh?" he raises an eyebrow and grins.

"oh.. is that so?" he wiggles his eyebrows this time.

"mhm.." you hum. "so.. you enjoyed it a lot, huh, satoru?" you tease him.

he laughs quietly. "uh-huh, you caught me, babe." he leans to you, pecking your lips shortly. "i enjoyed it a lot and i will enjoy it more in the future." he whispers on your lips as teases you back.

it's now your turn to frown. "no way." you roll your eyes to dismiss his earlier thought.

he grins even more and turns his attention back to the baby who's been quiet. "but she needs siblings soon enough to have a playmate. isn't that right, baby?" babying the words in the last sentence.

"c'mon. you clearly enjoyed the making, too. even though just a little of your genes were taken out for our baby." he laughs and your daughter giggles, it's as if she's teaming up with him to tease you.

"oh my.. what a little rebellion we have right now." you chuckle at your daughter's early stages of being a mini satoru.

"you should team up with mommy when you grow up." you boop her nose which made her giggle more, making you and satoru smile at your child that has you and satoru's best qualities.

giggles and laughs filled the room at three am in the morning, too early for some playful interaction with your little family.

"no, right? baby girl should team up with daddy and that's why, mommy.." he turns to you again. "we should make another one for you to have a teammate soon enough." he laughs, louder this time.

"no–"

"but this time, i will make sure you'll enjoy more than me so that the second one will be your own very carbon copy." he grins and you slap his back.

what a rough future you'll be expecting.

#rie.writes #gojo satoru #gojo x reader #gojo satoru x reader #gojo fluff #girl dad gojo