#oh my god im so nervous to post this

[feelo-fick]

WELCOME TO PHIO'S EXTREMELY SELF INDULGENT AU HOUR!!!

"Oh, FINALLY, another visitor! It's so quiet in here, it's unnerving..."

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This AU was meant to be posted on halloween but eh.... Happy Thanksgiving? HAHAHHA

still dont have a name for it, but basically, back in october i was suddenly hit with the need to have a halloween au, so now we have ghost-ified prismo and vampire/witch-ified scarab :D ( although didnt finish the scarab reference spread in time because uh, school and i lost motivation unfortunately )

au synopsis and rambling below the cut!!

the premise of this au is simple : scarab is a real estate agent whos known for his manners ( never barges in, always waits to be invited! though it is a little weird how he keeps asking to be let inside even if they already agreed that he was going to come over... ) and efficiency at his job - that is, convincing people to buy high-end housing for a good price. although his social skills need some... work, his ability to persuade people isnt something to be laughed at.

unfortunately for him, persuading the higher-ups is a completely different story - which he learned the hard way after flunking something big for the company. they dont choose to fire him, no. instead, they put him through a trial, assigning him to sell their most unprofitable property : the mansion in a small town locally known for being haunted by an "evil spirit". if scarab manages to sell it (for good profit) within six months, he is excused and is able to go on with his job. if not... well, best not to think about it, yes? after all, he'll succeed with ease - all he has to do is dispel any worries about some fake "ghost" that only exists as a result of filthy rumors. maybe clean up the place. not too hard, right?

meanwhile, stuck inside said mansion is an extremely bored prismo. hes been hangin around this place for like... how many years now? forty? a hundred? meh, all the same, lately the place has been quieter than usual. i mean- of course people dont just walk into a creepy mansion every day, but there would usually be at least a few bold kids or vloggers coming in now and then for him to entertain but even then they wouldn't stay long ( for obvious reasons ). and now, just some unbound spirits or dumb animals would pass by and thats about it. a guy can only entertain himself for so long, yknow?

that is, until today. when some posh-looking business man entered the premises and started snooping around ( whats the deal with that, by the way?? ). must be prismo's lucky day!! this is the perfect chance to pull out all the stops and play the FUNNIEST prank ever! hah!

... oh. looks like things've gotten a little out of hand.

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WOOT WOOT WOOTTTTTTTTTTT!!! im so so happy to finish this because ohhhhh my god this has taken ages for no reason other than the fact that ive been really dragging myself to make presentable art JSNDJSJXNSJX.... i realize that i have never worked in real estate ( or at all ) which means i have probably fucked something up but uhh um ill deal with the backlash later :"D im also realizing how many odd unanswered bits and bobs this au is going to have in the future, which... i am ignoring for the most part for now, but there are SOME things that i DO have figured out like ghost lore... but thats for another time, for now i leave you with this >:)

#again i do apologize for not including scarabs reference SOB it was taking so looooong and if i didnt finish it by now i wouldve just never #posted it at ALL so im glad im able to get this out now #again still dont have a name... but would love suggestions if people have any :D #ive been thinking so hard about the name and havent landed on aaaanything dude #creepy crawlies? tell-tale?? witching hour?? GAHH THERES SO MANY OPTIONS AND I DONT KNOW WHETHER I WANT TO GO WITH SYMBOLISM OR SILLY SIMPL #but anyways time for real tags #prohibitedwish #prismo the wishmaster #scarab the god auditor #uhh idk what else to put HAHAHHA #dont wanna tag fionna and cake cause i feel like thats just a lie idk #ACKKK I CANT BELIEVE IM FINALLY POSTING THIS I AM. SO NERVOUS MY HANDS ARE SO SWEATY YOU DOTN EVEN KNOW #okay okay. sending post now oh god

[bugtoast]

guys what the fuck what the fuck a (kinda big??? idk???) youtuber just made a video about that one tumblr myth analysis that i chimed in on awhile ago and the video ended the video on my little analysis part?????? what???? anyways uh??? hi!!!! if you're coming from the Bettina Levy video, hi!!!! if you're looking for more analysis of things like that you're probably not gonna get it, cause I only really post random shit about my hyperfixations on here!!! i mean i might do more things like that if i get hyperfixated on something but like!!! hi!!!

idk im just??? im so surprised that im now in a video with (as of the time of writing this) 8.7k views????

#Btw im only posting this as a ' ' just in case ' ' scenario #like if i randomly get a bunch of attention n all that #if nothing happens then i'll probably delete this #anyways i am like??? im so nervous right now?? not in a totally bad way but in a ' ' oh my god what is happening right now? ' ' sorta way? #im just not used to having this much attention on me #even if its from a secondhand source? #like?? what?? #anyways this post is meant to be taken /positively!!! #textpost #might delete this later #rambles

[becauseplot]

Staying Level-Headed

You know everyone was looking at qPhil coming back chanting “KILLZA KILLZA KILLZA” and like yeah we all want it, and we sort of got it through the initial chaos: the lava cast over the presidential building, the threats of further action against the Federation. It's not exactly the violent/furious rampage some might've been wanting or expecting, though.

And honestly? I'm glad---because it makes perfect sense.

Since the start, Phil has been very upfront about his thoughts concerning the egg situation. He knew and believed and repeatedly expressed (to his kids, sometimes!) that there was a very good chance they were going to die, or get taken away. He's always been very practical about death and treated it as an inevitable force that can't be evaded. Man, you can trace it back in his character so far. When the Nightmare happens, and Phil is holding a dying Chayanne in his arms, he says something to the effect of, "I'm so sorry, they just don't want you to live in this world."

A fact. A hard, cold, undeinable fact.

Phil is pragmatic. Married to Death. Hinted at having lived a long, long time; seen many things, outlived many people.

He is a survivor. And rule number one of being a survivalist: always be prepared to be faced with the cruel, the unfair, and the unexpected.

So, yes, of course it hurts. He never wanted his kids to be taken away from him---but he's braced for the blow. He has been mentally fortifying himself for a moment like this for months, and on another level, most of his life.

Thus, after he has a moment to allow himself to break, he takes a deep breath and keeps a level head. He talks to Tubbo and Fit, lets them fill him in on the situation, doesn't demand answers they don't have. When they tell him about how the island's president has gone off the deep end, Phil's immediate instinct is to believe the best in Forever and that he must be being manipulated by the Federation in some way. (Seriously! He draws that conclusion so fast! He immediately recognizes Forever as a victim rather than a threat or an enemy, despite Forever's position of power and "emotional unavailability.") And yeah, Phil instagates the lava cast, which is still griefing, but it's a localized, controllable form of griefing that is inflicted upon Federation territory only, and he follows it up with threats of further action with a viable plan. Then, he immediately plunges into an investigation of the old freezer/prison with Tubbo to look for any possible clues left behind.

Look, this isn't to say that the way that qPhilza---or ccPhilza, for that matter---is handling the situation "better" than anyone else, or that the other characters aren’t capable of making rational decisions. All of the other characters' various reactions, breakdowns, retaliations, and quests for answers are believable, well-played, and fascinating. (Like fuck dude the ccs are COOKING right now; and objectively speaking, the mines are pretty goddamn funny lol.) I just want to outline exactly why qPhil's reaction works so, so, so well for his character and why I'm ultimately glad that he didn't go all hyper-murdery, stewing about putting the Federation's heads on a pike or storming the Federation HQ or anything like that.

((Also, it's worth mentioning that all of his plans aren't """perfect""" decisions for the situation! Like his plan to play keep-away with Forever's briefcase of drugs until the effects of his last dose wear off. We know how unstable Forever becomes when the withdrawal starts to set in---he began to panic and pulled a gun on Phil. As terrible as the pills are for him, Forever becomes a danger to himself and the people around him when the medication wears off. He's so fragile right now, so if Phil going to try to get him to go cold-turkey, ideally, Phil would need to do it in a safer environment than just, fucking anywhere. Also Phil's follow-up plan is to assassinate Forever, potentially by taking advantage the apparent trust Forever has in Phil??? Like I get it, desperate times require desperate measures, and it still makes for an interesting story line that I would absolutely gobble up, but OW???? Like qPhil, bestie, are you sure that's the best plan in the long run????? Anyway, I digress.))

So that's about it. I miss my little huevos but I love this arc SO so much and I love pPhil and I have so many thoughts about him and I can't wait to see where this goes. Rambles over. Gn <3

#if this is shit uhhhhhhh blame it on the fact that someone let me have internet access. and i need to go to bed. #dont mind me im just rambling #qsmp philza #qsmp character analysis #qsmp meta #<-kinda?? yeah kinda #q!philza #so fucking nervous i dont usually do long ass character analysis posts like these fuck man how do yall do this all the time. fuck!! #i post my Thoughts and the 287439 demons in my head are like #“youre wrong. youre SO wrong oh my god youre so wrong. delete your blog right now.”

[myork]

gtkm

biases [1/2]: ★ Park Jimin ★

"If your heart has grown bigger, that also means you have also let go and emptied out many things. This shows that you have let go of the bad things and are left with nothing but happiness and freedom."

#oh my goD only one man i would put in so much effort for 😭 #i chose vlives because i love his lives and hes just very comforting and funny okayb :( #im so nervous to post this dhjfhjdfjd im just gonna run away #gtkm #loml #jimin #mgfs #bts #btsgif #pjmdaily #usersky #userkelli #tusercelia #tuserjay #heyryen #shirleytothesea #tusercait #annietrack #esmetracks #trackofthesoul #markstrongs #tuserdaisy #usergif #usercroft #underbetelgeuse #userjeonqquk #flytomyroom #userkosmos

[jaztice]

ya boi made a ttrpg ashcan

Hi guys! So I just posted an ashcan for a ttrpg I’ve been working on called Extra Ordinary to itch.io for $3 (it should also eventually be up on DriveThruRPG for the same amount). It’s a Belonging Outside Belonging game about extraordinary kids on the run from danger in an ordinary world. The PDF is 49 pages long and includes 4 different Kid playbooks, the basics of how to play, and enough content to help you get started with creating your own game. It can be run with or without a GM, and it’s heavily inspired by the game Wanderhome by Jay Dragon!

The full game obviously isn’t done yet, and I really need playtesters and feedback on it, so if y’all could check it out or share it as you see fit, that’d be super amazing! The vibes are based off media like Maximum Ride, Percy Jackson, Escape to Witch Mountain, Hanna, and Stranger Things (according to my friends it’s also apparently very Animorphs-esque, which I never read sadly), so if you like any of that stuff, I encourage you to give it a try!

#ttrpgs #belonging outside belonging #im so nervous about this yall gHGHGGHGGGG #do i know how to do any of this? no #is that gonna stop me? lol what do u think #oh god i hope people like it #my post #indie ttrpg

[stinkrascal]

its so cruel that references do in fact work very well..... why did we all collectively convince ourselves that references are "cheating" and youre not allowed to use them back in the day bc thats ruined me as an adult. references are the shit!

#well idk if you guys have this complex but i certainly did growing up! i think this is why i gave up drawing #i've been drawing a lot more lately too :) nothing worthy of tumblr mind you lol #i've just been trying hard to expand my creative hobbies and doodling whatever comes to mind. it's been fun!! #but this post was about using references for my sim builds specifically ha. im redoing the vatore house rn!! #ik i said this already but im so excited that ive begun building for standstill omg TWO WEEKS FROM TODAY!! 😭 #she starts in exactly two weeks oh god im so nervous i'm shaking like a wet dog!!!!!

[boxwinebaddie]

i am currently dying and can’t produce any new content besides…the contents of my stomach rip…so please enjoy these dialogue snippets from my favorite chapter aka when jersey figures out raven is trans and they sit and talk in his room ( these aren’t in order ) — pls clap.

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live laugh love ravens t&p shrine closet

#nina writes sometimes #nina dialogues sometimes #there’s a part i want to post that’s actually like #sentimental and heartwrenching but it feels like something i have to fill the dialogue in for #so ill wait BUT LETS LAUGH FOR NOW #LOL I LOVE THEM #i love that stan is so rich and just likes his lil cvs star pimple patch #and gets nervous when people look at his mouth #i just know kyle is like Enamored #and stans like oh my god i look hideous im so embarrassed #LIKE BESTIE UR SO BEAUTIFUL #anyways….AAAAA #THE T&P SHRINE CLOSET IS SO FUNNY #I LOVE THE CD BUTTERFLY BACK TATTOO TRAMP STAMP OF BROTHERHOOD AND FRIENDSHIP #iconic actually

[flattykat]

ok these are the last ones i promise but i did get an obsession on @kyuhu ‘s feliks omg let me tell you they started something big

#estpol #aph estonia #aph poland #i gave up on estonia’s legs #yes those are psychology notes in one of those i did pay more attention to the drawings than my actual psych class #oh god i may not pass that class but hey i got killer drawings #posting makes me so nervous i will turn off all tumblr notifs until im mentally prepared to face my post

[oh-katsuki]

original pinned!

hello :)) okay so i mentioned this a little bit ago, but i will be moving blogs in the coming days and will be shifting entirely onto the blog @woahjo. i've decided to go by the same pseud i currently use, (because i feel like i'm lying if i don't and i hate that LMFAO) though i considered going by a new one, and my ao3 will be staying the same. i also won't be reposting anything to the new blog just yet (maybe a few of my favorites eventually), but i'll be leaving this blog up! the new blog (ofc) is a writing blog and will function essentially the same way this one does. please come join me over there if you like. i'd feel very honored <3

i'm not sure how many people really care all that much about what i have to say about this, but i'll say a little bit anyway bc i feel a lot of responsibility and big feelings towards this blog.

tldr; i'm switching blogs. it's silly to get emotional but i love it here, i love you, please come say hello over on the new one if you'd like.

i've been feeling this way for a while, and while the recent discourse had an effect, it's mostly a result of my own feelings. i just think it may be time to get a bit of a fresh start. i've had this space for nearly three years now and the community that's been built on this blog is beyond what i ever could have imagined when i first started writing. i know i'm getting a little sappy, but frankly, im shocked people wanted to be here and follow my writing at all. (i never know what to say when people tell me they do) it really humbles me and i hope to continue writing for many many years to come.

i recently took a long look at the way i view fandom culture and space, as well as how it affects me, and i sort of came out on the other side realizing that it might be time for a change of scene. i love this space. i love this community. it's something that i am deeply proud of to a point that i feel very emotional over leaving (clearly lol). in fact, i'm incredibly nervous about posting this. there's a lot of anxiety in posting your art for people to see and it makes me feel vulnerable to type a post like this telling y'all just how much i appreciate you and the part you've all played in this lovely little spot. i'm very emotionally attached to this place.

but!!! i'm excited for the type of creative refresh effect a new blog might have, as well as the ability to get to chat with you guys a little more and make friends. things get lost on here (both because tumblr sucks and because my blog is so messy that it makes me physically nervous to think about) and im hoping to be able to keep my new blog clean and tidy so that everything is easier to find. i've been feeling writer's block for a while now and i feel like having "more space to roam" (for lack of a better phrase) might have a really nice effect.

anyway, all this to say that i love it here. for those of you that choose to follow me to my new blog, please come say hello. and of course the group of old mutuals who are no longer active, i love y'all. if you ever come back to tumblr when ur old and gray, come say hi since i'll probably be writing x reader anime fic still. lol

#i would tag this with my important tag but i can't FIND IT #DAMMMMNNNN ITTTT #anyway #i know im corny please don't laugh at me #this blog has just been very formative for me and has been such an outlet #and ik it's dumb to be attached to something as silly as a blog.. but i def am #and for fear of sounding sappy or silly #i'd really love it if you came to join me on my new one #not just because you think im cool.. but because the new username is sexy and i think that it's important to acknowledge that #i feel so shy posting this #oh my god #SCREEAAAAMMMMMSSS IM SO NERVOUS #this is so poorly written WHATEVER IM NERVOUS #this can be reblogged if you'd like!! doesn't have to be though #i may make a more concise and short post for it eventually too

[the-trans-dragon]

When did 2 gallons of milk start costing over $10?

Minimum wage here is $7.25

#sorenhoots #milk is my samefood and i can drink over 2 gallons a week if im being diligent about staying hydrates. yes i know i should drink water. i #cannot make myself swallow water because the sensory is so bad. fun fact: water tastes fine if i start taking adderall. but the effect wears #off within a week. my point is: my sensory issues are probably tied to my Non-Ideal Nervous System that cause me widespread pain. and thus #it would be really cool if they could either properly study fibromyalgia and cure me... OR charge less than $10 for 2 gallons of milk. #or raise the minimum wage. or let me live in a community with a neighbor with dairy cows that i can impress with my ability to do the same #thing for 10 hours straight such as doting upon plants or animals and then we can be friends who share milk and labor #god i just reaalized i sound like im daydreaming of being a medival milkmaid. oh my god now i realized tumblr hasnt discovered the word #milkmaid yet. i bet Tumblr would love that word. #wow i just realized you can REALLY TELL i have unmedicated ADHD aldjskssisndks. what was this post even about? milk! i paid $10.19 for milk! #thats bonkers!! i distinctly remember that in 2022 it was about $6 or $7 and i thought that was way too high.

[elibean]

t-24 hours until this blog becomes an absolute dumpster fire.

you have been warned!

#text post #will be tagging everything with link click spoilers so. block that lol #oh man. oh man oh boy oh god oh man. #dude. oh man. oh man. ah jeez. #im more like #nervous for how disappointed i'm inevitably gonna be when they don't tie things up the way i want lol #like i know they won't tie EVERYTHING up i'm not worried about that #but like.....when hat man comes out of fucking nowhere and fucks with everything #ok well at least i'm prepared for that #BUT I'M NOT PREPARED FOR THEM TO SQUASH THE ALT TIMELINE LG THEORY LIKE A BUG #BC LIKE #I KNOW THEY'RE GONNA DO IT. I KNOW THEY'RE GONNA CRUSH MY DREAMS #BUT A PART OF ME STILL HAS HOPE.......... #tomorrow's gonna be rough

[arcaneyouth]

anxiety is such a weird lil shit

#vent post #negative #✌️ so i got bit by a dog today #it should be fine. it could be a lot worse. its chill ive been chillish about it all day #but now that its time for bed and i know i fucked up changing out the bandaging a bit im so nervous #my brains like. what if i move wrong in my sleep and fuck it up worse #which i dont .. THINk is physically possible? #but im not 100% on that #it did bleed more than i thought it did. nothing terrible just more than i expected #so thats enough for my anxiety to be like. uh oh #i wanna stay awake so if i do fuck it up its my own conscious fault #but getting this little sleep when im This Stressed is a baaaad idea #so damn guess I'll have to just tell my anxiety to chill out for a minute #god im tired

[zip-toonz]

The fun thing about making pokemon aus is that the manga is just free real estate for me. I go on my little manga site and skim through the pages digging through pannels to make silly little edits

#i hope people know that when i make some au refs they are drawn over the offical art to make things easier. i always forget to say it #when i post #cause i think the refs are recognisable enough reguardless of how much I change them #also i would never edit or trace over fan art thats evil #i only ever edit or trace/draw over offical artwork because nintendo isnt losing money cause i made trevors fingernails pretty #or turned them all into marine animals #like screenshots ref and manga edits are clearly from offical media #im not claiming the original art or anything either so much as im claiming the changes too it or the work i put into it #like the splatoon references are all on separate layers and were hand redrawn with the offical refs as a base #same with like the revival au ref or the manga edits where i redraw the lineart so i can freely color #i do put the same ammount of effort into them as i do my real art #i just hope no one thinks “oh god kodi is tracing” 😒 #oh damn i went on a whole rant in the tags! sorry i just real nervous about stuff #im making more manga edits btw with what little energy i got after work #3 day weekend will be dedicated to art i owe some friends

[ewwgene-fitzherbert]

forgot aj said he'd want to get bit if clem got infected so that they could stay together and forgot clem has a dream where she talks to lee and he tells her that hes proud and she says she misses him and she says shes proud of aj and then ep4 opens with aj talking in the intro saying he remembers all his lessons but thinks clem is wrong sometimes.... remembering what That means for them later in ep4 and

best game ever i think

#im SOBBING. oh baby boy. god the first time i played ep4 i cried so fucking hardd i cant believe they did this to me #aj narrating the intro and the outro OUGH throwing up. fucks me up what a game #hes my baby #games that are like. ur a parent figure and this child will learn from your actions break me every time #like bio/shock2 where eleanor says 'you taught me mercy' and then she spares sofia IM CRYING. i cant handle this #and every time the game says 'aj noticed that. aj will remember that' i get so nervous remembering that on no #i am shaping this little 5yo bundle of pixels #anyways i am DYING. i am suffering. i love this game so much. twd1 and twd4 best games ever made #twdg4 #my post

[silverislander]

fully intended and foreseen consequence of coping better with my anxiety is that this blog will at some point inevitably become More Cringe and that point is SO close on the horizon. if you get mad at me for posting things i like on my blog that is for me you clearly have more issues than i do for worrying abt that possibility for hours on end

#its tumblr were all cringe here. fucking grow up or leave genuinely #also i literally tag everything im into + trigger tags too. block tags or just unfollow me theres no hard feelings i prommy #anyway. ive been falling back into creepypasta which ive mentioned before i was super into as a teen! fun stuff #i love that the fandom is still alive and doing fun new stuff :') theres such good art out there!! and character interpretations!!!! #and ive also gotten really into league lore over the past few months actually. the arcane fixation has morphed #basically it went 'this character looks cool whats their deal. whats this region like. oh another neat character lets look into that' #and then suddenly i know too much™️ bc hyperfixations for me are about gathering information and stories like a raccoon #i have FEELINGS about it. post probably incoming soon abt that #and BRIAR!! shes a little gremlin i kind of love her already #levi.txt #will i delete this in the morning? lets see #but for real tho. im doing really good lately. things arent perfect but i feel like a person for once #i can talk to strangers without acting like a trapped prey animal! it turns out im fucking funny actually! people like my jokes #im SLEEPING again. regularly. that was an issue for nearly a year and im doing ok again (not perfect but hey! ~8hrs!!) #i can just. sit around in public now and not feel like im on a hidden camera show where everyone is judging the way i breathe #slowly switching from self deprecation 'i want to die' jokes to 'im literally gods favourite prince and the hottest bitch alive' #i still get really nervous but it doesnt feel like a personal flaw and it doesnt feel insurmountable anymore #so yeah naturally thats going to come with (hopefully) a lot less shame around things that i like #just asking kindly that people are normal abt it. this is me thriving i guess

[lovemeloud]

Well... I guess we're doing this~~~

#i am incredibly nervous about this oh my god #y'all aint getting more than risque for free fhdjjg #ive been toying with the idea of posting pictures for a while #and im running very low on money so if people end up interested in more~~~ #nsft #nsft tumblr #bs/sm sub #bd/sm switch #trans ns/fw #mlm ns/fw #selfie