#oh this is nervewracking..

[bandage-hearted-butterfly]

I've been holding on to the idea of making this blog for quite some time, and decided that no harm could really come from this + I'd like to seek out some community around this as well; while I've been familiar with the concept of kin for a while, and I've been genuinely identifying with it for about a year, I'm still fairly new to this and don't really know a lot of the terms, so I'll speak with what I know.

I have only one kin and it's Sh.aiapouf from H.unter x Hu.nter; it's all psychological as well, so no memories, canons, or anything of that nature, just a lot of connectivity in a lot of other places.

I want to be able to have this as a discussion space for this because it's been so incredibly integral to my coping and current recovery process; this blog is also going to be where I collect aesthetic images and the like that I feel fit. I also make periodic personal updates regarding my physical health. Overall, just carving out a nice space for myself here, and hoping to be able to see others doing the same.

[This is a sideblog, I follow/interact back from @/a.dhd-sh.aiapouf]

Tags, for quick reference:

🦋 Musings 🦋 -> talk tag

👑 -> interior architecture for palaces, etc

❤️ -> lovecore style imagery

💭 -> catch-all for other images

#oh this is nervewracking.. #kinblr #psychological kin #kin blog #this is nervewracking.. I've never really put myself out here so much.. I'm not bold enough for this to go in the main h.x..h tag just yet #trying to show myself that nothing bad will happen if i do something like this; that maybe i just won't get any responses #and that's okay too; this is for me first and foremost and that's okay; this is my silly blog on the silly blog website #anyways hello to all! i hope i find things enjoyable over here! #tbd talk tag

[johnslittlespoon]

it's almost time. when? idk, when i stop being a coward LOL

#would be kinda funny if i waited to post it on 4/20 like haha happy bday curt *lights blunt* #genuinely can't bring myself to hit post tho been staring at it all day #it's so much scarier than posting a oneshot i want to do this right and i want to do the way i see them in my head justice #posting my writing never gets less nervewracking for me #like oh hello strangers and friends i just poured my heart out onto a page and now i'm offering it up with shaking hands #and i'm trying very hard to be normal about it because it's not that deep but also i care very much SJDGJK #but i think i'll post it before tonight i just feel NAUSEOUS #still need to write an end note anyway #i'm fr just yapping to stall atp LMAO #dog coded bucky fic #johnslittlespoon yaps #i'm also like what if it doesn't live up to expectations. LIKE YEAH WHAT IF. the world goes on. but i will be so hard on myself bruh

[takethebodymarc]

holy fuck im gonna be honest i thought team bolas was gonna win, so happy for soulfire!! im sure they tried their hardest:')

#mustve been sooo nervewracking watching live #just watched the last 20 minutes rn ksjsks #qsmp #omg the meteors #EDIT: OH WAIT BUT THEY'RE TIED NOW #CANT WAIT FOR MAX TO NUKE THEIR ASSES TOMORROW

[dykeminecraft]

attempting to keep my brain intact through this drawing via taking breaks to draw them running around

#thorn post #thorn art #technically. i mean it's a screenshot of a wip but like. oh well #should i tag. but that's kind of nervewracking #animator vs animation #ava fanart #idk how evident it is but tdl is trying to egg the others on. is this situation out of character. maybe. but #it's nice to be interested in something that has characters with simpler designs. #because it means when i get tired of environment drawing i can just. put them there.

[penginlord]

I would've died if I lived in a day where messages were only sent by mail. Like, I'd send a message, then spend the next two weeks nervously pacing around my study overthinking every word I wrote and how the recipient might read into it, while also consciously suppressing the desire to send several supporting letters explaining or clarifying or adding onto my original message. I'd be checking the post every day past the first few days I think.

#and god forbid I do this with a girl I would be romantically interested in #I'd simply perish #I mean texting a girl now is nervewracking enough #and my anxiety makes it so much worse #like if she doesn't respond fast enough my brain goes “OH NO WE DONE FUCKED UP SHE'LL NEVER LOVE US ANYMORE” #so i can't imagine waiting weeks under that mental stress #social anxiety #anxiety #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff

[overdevelopedglasses]

Sunday Six

Thanks for the tag, @fire-tempers-steel! Never been tagged in something like this, so this is a bit intimidating tbh. All of my current RGG stuff is being prepped for Tojoctober, so I'll share something close to home instead.

I don't have anyone in mind to tag for this, so whoever sees this, consider yourself tagged!

There's an original series that I've been workshopping for years now. I call it Essence. It's a world of energized spirits, fantastical powers, but with a story of found family and usurping destiny.

This is part of a scene that takes place in a later part of the story, but I think it doesn't need much context to be shared. The only thing I will say is that the two characters present in this scene are... bonded, and it's been a hot minute since they've really seen each other.

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"Lily. Why haven’t you been using your powers?" Omega asks the young woman, who freezes for a second before responding.

"What are you talking about? They’re right here." Lily flashes a bolt of electricity between her fingers.

Omega gives her a look that says that’s not what I mean. Lily sighs, her attempted avoidance being thwarted.

"Sorry, I’d expect you to know, but you weren’t there when it happened." Lily properly responds.

"When what happened?" Omega asks, pressing for more information.

"It’s nothing. I’ll try using that power more in fights." Lily turns away, continuing to do what she was doing previously.

Omega sighs. This wasn't going well.

"Do you know how to use them?"

"Yeah."

"Then show me."

Lily spins around, and her eyes harden.

"No."

Omega’s eyes narrow. Why would she refuse to do something she'd willingly do before?

"Lily, you’ve had two years to train with it, I’d like to think you’d be more-"

"TWO YEARS IS A LONG TIME." Lily suddenly shouts.

Omega jumps, startled by her outburst.  A beat passes, and Lily takes a breath, calming herself down.

"It may seem like a blip in time to someone as old as you, but for us humans it feels like an eternity. For two years I was stuck with powers I don’t understand. And all I’ve done with them is hurt the innocent. All I’ve done is fail. All I’ve done… is hurt the people I love." 

Lily’s voice lowers to a whisper. "At this rate, I’m better off without them."

"Is that what heroes do now? Give up? After everything they’ve been through?" Omega asks, slightly confused by the lack of confidence in Lily's voice.

"A hero?" Lily's laugh comes out dry and sarcastic. "Is that what I am? Omega, there hasn't been a day since I got these scars that I've felt like a hero. If anything, I feel like a scourge on the world. Do you know how many people I met that were envious, or jealous, or hated me for what I was, to them, to the world?"

Lily’s voice starts to break. "I never asked for this… Why? Why can’t people see me for who I am?"

#sunday six #my writing #this is very nervewracking I hope people like this oh dear #this was originally in a script format so editing that was fun

[coldbycrossfade]

guess who's back in the house heels click-clackin' about fine fresh feminine style to 11 i'm divine so heavenly gentlemen sweatin' it's dimes across the board with no doubt body like wow! pussy bouta end this drought—

#finally getting it going in DA2 baby #continuing with my world state building for whenever dreadwolf comes out #i didn't actually have anything to say in the post i just wanted to share my hawke #look at him his pussy is on fire baby #foine asf if i DO say so myself #kore talks dragon age #i JUST got to act 2 after working my ass off modding and then stressing about friendship v rivalry oh my god i forgot how stressful this is #i'm just tryna keep isabela from leaving me dude it's so nervewracking but good news she won't leave me i succeeded #now to get fenris to make out with hawke and not accidentally romance anders like i used to do a lot fully by accident #i put too much work into making that elf look good and you know i love you isabela but hawke MUST fuck that elf #outta the way bisexual he's bouta get it

[elephantsatsea]

watching barry makes me physically and mentally sick <3

#every scene is so compelling and nervewracking #makes me sit on the edge of my seat literally #and every character is so layered and the acting is so good oh god #barry hbo

[over-plays]

I recently bought FFXIV for the PC because I got a high-end gaming laptop and, you know, why not have two different versions of FFXIV right. So naturally I downloaded Anamnesis because if I can’t draw, by god at least I can pose my dollies together. And I’m very proud of how my first shot at custom posing turned out!! Also a little annoyed at the fact I couldn’t for the life of me manage to fix the shoulders of Chaurakh’s jacket but it’s minor compared to the serotonin boost I got upon finishing and taking shots. Excited to dive into more posing in the future!! Bonus close up because Thancred is a lucky bastard to be looked at like this tf

#ffxiv #chaurakh kha #thancred waters #wolship #nervewracking to main tag but i'm too proud of these not to throw them out there #hello look at my lizard. he is oh so handsome

[carcinized]

it’s turning to fall where i live it’s so lovely. it’s harvest season & every morning i get stuck behind trucks full of oranges and every other night we’re having apple pie from the apples in the backyard or the orchard next door. someone’s burning vanilla and pumpkin candles wherever you go and there’s ice on the windshield when you wake up and so much fog in the morning that all burns off to a 70 degree sunny day in the afternoon… it’s fluffy blankets at night and french guitar in the evening and movie nights and ouguhhh <3 its so nice

#i have a complicated relationship with fall. growing up it was my favorite season but now it’s a little more nervewracking #so i am trying to learn to love fall agaib #oh and i also work in a craft store and like we’re getting out the fall stuff and the SCENTED PINECONES…. this helps the feeling along. #tobin talks

[gender-euphowrya]

literally no terf who sends online hate to trans people ever has the guts to go off anon lmao y’all have the spine of a slug

#so thankful for the fact that i'm in my Nobody Can Ever Tell Me Shit No Words Can Affect Me stage #keep wasting your time it's only hurting you not me #licherally what do you envision is going to happen after i read your Oh So thought-through anon blurb #that i'm gonna cry ? that i'm gonna detransition ? that i'm Not going to go through with the hrt & surgeries ? #that i'm gonna idk revert the name change i just now got ? burn my binders ? #all because little miss Literally Don't Know Who Because Stranger On Anon told me 'buh boo trans bad !!!!' #do you actually think you're hurting anyone but yourself and your precious limited time on earth #this is actually sad for you #i'm alive and thriving. cope and seethe #i only post the scribbles you send me so people can see the shit we have to deal with And the fact that we're not gonna take it laying down #also to showcase the pathetic level of the shit you even come up with like i could have a better argument with a 4-year-old #an ant could come up with more meaningful nervewracking insults all y'all have is the same boring ''u not gender u other gender!!!!!'' #''ur larping! ur homphob! ur mental ill! ur delusion!'' c'mon sis get new material #how have your millennia of attempts to make us stop existing worked out ? oh yeah. not so well. we still here lol #bye bye see you in future history books but not for any good reason luv

[the-composer]

“Hey, Composer. Where’re your cats?”

#tbd #/ wow congrats that actually made him sweat lmao #guess that's the brand of threat that works #joshua vc: oh shit #joshua: .... am i turned on or am i Nervous....... oh my god i am Nervous #not having his CATs around him is indeed nervewracking

[talaok]

Will you kiss me?

Pairing: Pedro pascal x reader

Summary: You are a famous actress who Pedro has a crush on, and he finally gets to meet you once you get both invited to The Graham Norton Show

warnings: just fluff

a/n: I had to

"What a pair we have here tonight huh?"Graham spoke enthusiastically, making the audience explode in roaring cheers and applauses.

You just smiled as you tried looking at the crowd, getting overwhelmed by the blinding lights.

"Y/n Y/l/n and Pedro Pascal, just- wow"

Other applauses filled the studio.

"Ok so let's start with you y/n, you have a show coming out next week, two oscar nominated films already out, and one more coming out next month" he took a deep breath, feigning fatigue "You must be tired, I mean, How long has it been since you slept?" he joked, making you laugh.

"well I did work a lot this past year, but it was worth it, I'm happy I got to be part of so many wonderful projects and I'm really proud of all of them, I just can't wait for people to see them"

"well I'm sure we're all gonna love them"

"I hope so, I'm always nervous about it"

"Really?" The man beside you asked, surprise clear in his tone.

Pedro Pascal,

You had heard of him before, of the boom he seemed to have made lately, but had never met him until half an hour ago, when you briefly introduced yourselves to one another.

He looked nervous, awkward even, and you didn't know if it was because of the show he was about to get on, if he just was like that, or if there was something else bothering him.

"of course, when I go to premiers I'm always looking over at how people are reacting, if they're like bored or on their phones or actually interested, it's nervewracking, don't you?"

"well of course I do" he chuckled "but I'm no one compared to you"

He had a beautiful smile, you noticed, sweet, comforting.

"oh stop it" you smacked his shoulder playfully " you're a big deal, Pedro"

He just shook his head, still smiling softly, and Graham took the opportunity to intervene.

"of course you are, I mean, Game of Thrones, Narcos," he listed " and now the Mandalorian and The last of us, I mean you're really killing it"

The crowd cheered some more at the mention of those shows.

"thank you," he said shyly, looking like he almost wanted them to stop.

"so how does it feel?" he asked, "to be on such massive hits at the same time?"

"Well, it feels... scary" he laughed, joined by the audience

"you don't like being the center of attention?" Graham asked

"oh no I do" he corrected, making you laugh "It's just frightening at times, 

but I'm having a good time y'know, it's also comforting seeing everyone I've worked with kind of be in the same position as me" he shrugged.

"People you've worked with?"

"yes, you know like Bella Ramsey, they're also- well they're young so of course, they're new to this- but, y'know, we're not used to all this attention and it feels good to have someone by your side who understands what's going on"

"of course" graham nodded "that's true, Bella is really young" he noticed "that's a thing both your shows have in common, young people," he said, "how did that feel? working with the new generation, I'm not saying you're old, but did you ever feel left out?"

"oh, all time" Pedro laughed

"yeah me too" you agreed "there were times when I was really lost but too ashamed to ask " you laughed in embarrassment

"absolutely," Pedro said, " they have a language of their own"

"right?!" you exclaimed, happy someone finally understood you.

"yes, like, there's one term that I learned recently that's really wonderful- somebody was saying - you swerve - "

You frowned

"do you know what swerving is?"

"nope" 

"I was like oh- get somebody off your scent or something like that- I don't know - confuse somebody, and they were like: no, they come in for a kiss and you swerve" he demonstrated, pretending to be avoiding a kiss on the cheek.

"Isn't that great?"

you nodded, laughing, as an idea came to you

"We should try"

His eyes widened as he turned to you 

"c'mon swerve me"

"no, I cannot swerve you!"

"c'mon it's for science"

"I can't, I can't swerve y/n Y/l/n, that's like - a crime"

"oh stop it, just do it, I wanna try it c'mon," you said, flattered

"ok fine, but just because I can't say no to you" he surrendered

"ok" you cleared your throat, preparing yourself "Oh wow, hi Pedro" you pretended to greet him, going in for a kiss.

He just smiled, as he did, eventually avoid your kiss,

his beard grazed your cheek, and the proximity to him, sparked something inside you, something quick, but likewise persistent.

As you leaned away, you noticed with amusement the flush on his cheeks and had to bite down a smile.

He fanned himself exaggeratedly "I'm blushing," he mumbled, making you chuckle, as you rested a hand on his arm, trying to soothe him.

" So how does swerving feel?" Graham asked

"it's... interesting" you glanced at him.

"It makes me feel rude" he looked at you too now, "I would never do it, it feels- it's mean"

"oh we know you wouldn't" you reassured him.

"I didn't like it" he shook his head

You smiled, tilting your head "would it make you feel better if we did it again without the swerving?"

You noticed how he seemed to have a momentary shutdown.

"yes," he said bluntly

"oh my god yes"

You laughed softly, as his mouth gaped open.

"Will you kiss me?" he almost begged, which was funny considering you had proposed it.

"Alright then, come here" you gestured, and he leaned closer, letting you press a quick kiss to his cheek.

"there" you smiled

"I think I just died"

"oh stop it, you're flattering me," you said, noticing a trace of red on his face "whoops, sorry I left a lipstick print" you went to clean it 

"no no" he stopped you 

"please leave it, I want proof this actually happened"

#pedro pascal #pedro pascal x reader #pedro pascal fluff #pedro pascal x female reader #pedro pascal x fem reader #pedro pascal x you #pedro pascal x y/n #pedro pascal fic #pedro pascal fanfiction #pedro pascal fanfic #pedro pascal interview #bella ramsey #the last of us #the last of us hbo #the last of us fanfiction #tlou hbo #tlou

[mysteryshoptls]

SSR Rook Hunt - Savanaclaw Dorm Uniform Voice Lines

Savanaclaw Dorm Uniform Rook does not have a vignette

When Summoned: I vow here and now upon my ever-burning tenacious spirit that I shall repay this favor!

Summon Line: Welcome to Savanaclaw! ...I kid. It's a rather strange sensation to stand before you in this attire.

Groooovy!!: For the sake of bringing back the beautiful world that I cherish... I must strike to put a stop to this treacherous dream!

Home: Ah yes, I feel the spirit of persistence flowing through me.

Swap Looks: Time for a short break.

Home Idle 1: My hair is easily damaged by UV rays. If I don't take proper care of it, it starts to develop a wheat-like texture.

Home Idle 2: Oh là là! There are holes in my denim jeans around my knees... This would always happen whenever I would get caught up in chasing after animals.

Home Idle 3: You know how we stay in shared rooms until our junior year? As I thoroughly enjoy private time to myself, I found it quite nervewracking.

Home Idle - Login: I never would have imagined being able to traverse through a dream like this. ...My heart leaps in anticipation of the beautiful world I will witness!

Home Idle - Groovy: I truly do wish to see a movie where Neige-kun and Vil are both together the lead roles. One day, when that happens, you and I should go watch together!

Home Tap 1: I had forgotten just how easy it was to move around in the Savanaclaw dorm uniform... It's a refreshing sensation, especially since I'm more used to the Pomefiore dorm uniform now.

Home Tap 2: Are you interested in the paper I keep in my waist pouch? I keep these on hand to easily sketch my observations, or attach notes to arrows.

Home Tap 3: The King of Beasts overcame adversity and after strenuous efforts, was able to secure the throne. I absolutely hold his persistent spirit in high regards.

Home Tap 4: Truthfully, in the past, I would always just cut my bangs with a knife. At the time all I cared about was to keep my vision clear, after all.

Home Tap 5: My hat is dirty? Ah, you're right, it's covered in leaves, sticks, and even dirt... Fufu, if Vil were to see this unsightly mess, I would be in for a tongue-lashing.

Home Tap - Groovy: I find it slightly embarrassing to have others witnessing my innermost thoughts. Of course, you would keep to yourself anything you see or hear in my dreams... Wouldn't you?

Duo: [ROOK]: Vil, I dedicate this victory to you! [VIL]: Do ensure that you take them down, Rook.

Requested by @thelonepearl.

#twisted wonderland #twst #rook hunt #vil schoenheit #twst rook #twst vil #twst translation

[tony-the-tigers-juicy-armpit]

the moments leading up to being naked with another dude are so nervewracking and then you and him r sitting together naked and its like oh this is the best thing god ever invented

[theneighborhoodwatch]

like a week ago my mother looked up welcome home because she wanted to get to know me better. this was initially kind of nervewracking for me, bc my mother is a 60-something-year-old republican who (by her own admission) doesn’t really Get horror, but it didn’t result in much aside from her asking me to explain args/unficition to her, and also one funny incident in which i showed my therapist my wally plush and my mother went “oh, it’s willy! :D”

#public notice #welcome home