#oh well ig we'll see

[lagtrain]

i srsly cant wait for tomorrow... i need my free pulls + colourfes

#tbh im still kindaaaaaa? debating whether or not i should pull on colofes #bc like. i want the cards!! shihoan lims *frothing at the mouth* #and on the other hand. im not quite at a spark :( im at likeeee 49k rn?? and u need 60k to spark with 10 tickets #so i dunno if ill be able to grind out like 11k crystals in the span of the banner #they are giving us the free 3900 which will be nice #and if i fc all the hard songs + ap all the stuff im missing then that shoulddddd be at least another pull #but id still need like. 7 or so thousand in event of that #which idk if i can do LOL #i might just pull anyways tho bc i dont really have any cards coming up in the near future that i NEED (i dont think anyways) #plus an & shiho are usually pretty kind to me (6 shiho 4stars including her colorfes which came home randomly) #(5 an 4stars one of which being her ny lim that came home on my last possible 10pull) #tbh im sorta kicking myself for impulsively pulling on random lim banners as much as i have (30 pulls on recent val banner) #(but i got val nene so its not all bad) #bc if i hadnt done those pulls i could defo spark #oh well ig we'll see #< sorry about the big ass paragraph this turned into i wasnt intending that 😭😭😭 #gacha game pull planning is SERIOUS

[cloudy-moth]

I will always insert transsexuality in my homework god bless <3

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#i do art sometimes hi #art #transgender #trans #trans art #queer #queer art #queer artist #trans artist #i love being trans <3 #trans positivity #transfem #uhhh running out of tag ideas so ig i explain myself! #we got tasked with drawing something “related to the lgbt community” #AND #“monochromatically blue” #cause it was gonna go in a big ass pride flag or whatever #but we'll see just how well that turns out lol #oh yeah it was smth lgbt or smth generally related to sex education which #oh kay #anyways #trans divinity #trans joy #amirite #the first pieces i made i was so so not happy with they were way too simple #and honestly didnt convey that much of a message #this one im okay-er with #maybe itll grow on me idk #god i hate how the text ended up #i hate writing and i hate drawing in drawings and i hate having to draw knowing ill have to write

[jqnehr]

hey guys what do u do when you get potent bad vibes from a person that is friends with everyone, someone who everyone likes, but you just get the feeling they're a snake? yk? I don't wanna act on it, since I could be wrong, but this person has said some pretty backhanded things to me and another close friend of mine, who's childhood friends with this person...

#and there's no point in confiding in anyone #since everyone seems to be fooled by this person's sunny and sweet personality #but idk I just...dont like this person. and they don't like me. #oh well ig we'll just have to wait and see what happens

[hazbinsinners]

;; been thinking for like two days now that i wanna make a valentino blog but . i'm afraid of that LMAO

#;; i have a knack for writing dark fucked up characters #;; i know i could do it well #;; i'm just. nervous of how he'd be received ig #;; truly i just wanna write staticmoth #;; and i can not write vox's character to save my life #;; but val? oh i can do val #;; also writing some angel val stuff from the opposite perspective could be cool too .... #;; aaaah #;; idk #;; we'll see. my muse for angel is still through the roof so #;; any other blog would be relatively low activity anyways #;; ooc

[osaemu]

goodmorning tumblr 🙇🏻‍♀️

#sabs posts! #was pretty busy yesterday so i didn't have time to post at all #but i'm back! #i wanna write but nothing on my wip list is interesting me 🙁🙁 #idk #we'll see ig #i wanna write for dazai but.. i'm braindead.. #oh well hopefully i get an idea later #send em in if u have any 🤞🤞

[im-smart-i-swear]

(i KNOW im late to the party sorry)

so uhhhh that trailer huh???? it just fucking appeared. out of nowhere.

anyway. i have no explanation for this than ‘net looks like a guy who would ramble about fnaf lore passionately and get into heated debates with felix about the timeline. all while nika has no fucking idea what is happening’’

#fnin #felix net i nika #my art #this is so stupid #oh well #i got into fnaf during the pandemic bc i was bored lol #and now theres going to be a movie. thats insane to me. #i never actually played the games i just watch a bunch of letsplays and lore videos...... im too much of a coward to play horror games:( #i WANT to go see the movie. i INTEND to. but im going to regret it sooo bad #doesnt matter if its a good horror movie or not. im still gonna have nightmares for a week after seeing it propably #im a baby who cant watch horror movies BUT i rlly want to see the animatronics........ and shaggy william afton ig #we'll see how it goes! #sorry for this i know this is rlly random............

[technicolorxsn]

finished pins and unfinished ones :)

#making them actually isnt too hard #i rly thought it would be #2 of the pins were made by my friend and 2 by me #i painted them though #the corona one i did just now! it was rly quick actually #not too happy with the colors on the off pin but it was fun #the finished ones both had base coats of black acrylic but the unfinished one is black gesso... i wonder if that might help the paint stick #bc even with sanding the dents dont get sanded as well n stuff #idk we'll see! #my art #ig lol #ive only made a couple before the one i made tonight actually #idk what happened to the other one now that i think abt jt #i know the flower was made by ak and the gesso one was made by ai #im pretty sure I made the off one #what happened to the other one i made???? huh #oh well #my pins

[lateseptemberdawn]

It's so confusing even to me sometimes especially when it perhaps matters the most how I am an empath as in I will feel like crying while watching someone else cry out if their hearts and I could literally feel their pain but then I'm also so detached like so much so that if someone I know is going through something (as in trouble in paradise (yeah I'm eloquent)) and completely losing it over that person, not being able to function properly like not eating being sad feeling depressed -- it just makes no sense to me??? Like I can't even begin to try to comfort other than just pat pat like??? So you found out they don't care about you don't you just instantly lose all feelings as well? Don't you feel cheated and ridiculed?? Does that mean nothing to you, your self-respect?? And if it does all those things then why do you feel sad. What do you feel sad for. I would feel angry. So incredibly angry and I would simply think I was an idiot to not notice the signs or to stay for as long as I did and it would be like a switch just completely off. I don't think I could ever hold a human above myself. And this makes me wonder if I could ever love at all.

#like ive thought about this ofc but just #it came to me again today #bc someone i know is going through it so im jusy #so lost? like bro snap out of it she used such a lame ass excuse and youre gullible and naive enough to take it at face value and cling on #and crying and feeling sad and sorry and taking your anger out on everybody else #and its extra pathetic the way i always knew that what that person felt was one sided from the beginning and kept telling them about it but #they were so in on their head #like insane level delusion #and i had to comfort them and all i could do was spit out bitter facts #and theyre v immature and like kinda narcissistic #and ik youre not supposed to tell them the bitter truth so soon but that also doesnt make sense to me #oh god am i antiromantic? i dont think so? like ive had crushes before? #im definitely in LOVE w my fav characters and tae and zayn #huh so maybe i am just hopeless irl #well. we'll see about that ig #comfort #antiromantic #detachment

[aquariium-ediits]

Probably gonna try to get some promotion tomorrow, for now I'm just gonna be battling with my anxiety of interacting with people (/lh). I know nobody will see this, at least, at the time I post this, but oh well! I feel like posting. So I will.

Part of me is thinking about how funny it'd be if someone just stumbled across this blog. Idk.

#mioara rambles✦ #Idk why I feel the need to post when my account isn't even somewhat promoted yet #But oh well it's my blog lol #On a side note #The anxieties I have about this blog and what'll happen while it's active are being funky rn #We'll see what happens ig! :)

[daz4i]

hmmm

#you guessed it! I'm doing bad #truly feel like i have no choice but to die 🤷‍♂️ oh well #the good news is I've got a more concrete plan now! yippee! #will take awhile bc i need to actually go out and get stuff i need for it 🙄 but it's becoming more real at least! #and I'm gonna be home alone for over a week in like 2 weeks so I'll also have time to do it! nice. #haha yeah right I'm definitely too chicken to do it 😭 but ig we'll see! #liveblogging my mental breakdown on tumblr dot com #suicide implied // #ask to tag

[perenlop]

manifesting that sage isn’t gonna be as disappointing as infinite

#i mean. not like i was part of the forces hype either but his powers did look really interesting #and even if he did end up as another lab rat character itd have been fun and maybe interesting to see him interact w shadow #but no. hes got a really boring motivation and his powers dont make any sense and his backstory sucks #''w-w-well actually!! his backstory is that he lost his squad bc its implied shadow killed them in his story and thats tragic!!'' #cool. wish they actually did anything about that beyond one line bc as is it seems likehe only cares that shadow called him a pussy #and in the comics they protest against being signed up on eggmans army and he justignores them and makes them do it anyways #so if anything its his own damn fault they're dead (if they're even dead? wiki implies they are so ig we'll go with that) #which- if thats what theyre going for- they again didnt do a good job of bc again theyfocus on shadows WORDS. not his ACTIONS #which makes me not feel all that bad for him since he seems more pissed about his pride than anything #also oh nooooo the squad we saw in one comic that didnt do much and weren't referenced in the main story at all... how tragic #also it just makes me more annoyed about shadows character in this game like him just coldly murdering these people #feels really out of character for him at this point. but his character type is just ''ha ha iam violent i hurt people'' so whatever ig #echoed voice #idk i dont like anything about him in the game. hes really boring as a character and i dont feel bad for him at all

[kaeyaphile]

called out of work again today because i wasn't able to get any quality sleep, i kept waking up and my kitten had absolutely nothing to do with fortunately he slept all night, and everything hurts and i'm dying

i'll be going in tomorrow though, resigning myself to forcing myself to stay awake all day even though my entire body aches and i feel gross and miserable

#kayleigh.txt #fibromyalgia flare-up + period + lack of sleep = exhausted miserable non-functional kayleigh #hopefully missing two days of work on the first two days of only my third week won't come back and bite me in the ass #it's a privately owned veterinary hospital so i hope not but who's to say lmfao #i feel so out of it idek if the message i left on the machine when i called the hospital was coherent or anything #oh well i'm gonna take more pain meds and my muscle relaxers (even though i took both last night but it should be enough time) #and play genshin impact and chill tf out and rest #definitely gonna go some yoga later once my brain wakes up a tiny bit more ugh #✨ i'm a piece of shit ✨ who's crying over not going to work lmfao #what else is new though but i genuinely love this job so it's just difficult #idk we'll see what happens when i go back in tomorrow ig 🤷🏼‍♀️

[thebuttsmcgee]

so. um. 👉👈

hi guysies.

Ig I should just say like. Hi

I haven't been posting here as much cause. Idk. Might be depression? I keep thinking its cause I've been so busy, which also wouldn't be not untrue, but these past, like, 3 weeks I think so far? I've had some free time but I haven't cause. I dunno, then again, I haven't been doing too much in general? I gues, besides very mandatory things, hell I've even been lacking in my regular skyrim hours of playing.

That, and as said, I get super melancholic when I remember just how sad and bittersweet it is that t0h is. Actually legit over. The show and experience, that is.

Oh all that and also becuz my headphones broke! Fuck! That's like number 2 in my bare necessities for when I post, do almost anything really! It's seriously been painful this past month going without headphones holy shit. Dude I've been scratching at the bit for some relief for headphones, I NEED music legitimately. Even right now, as I'm typing this on my phone, my music is on low levels.

But yerp. Its been. Rough. Really rough. I really do appreciate yall, everyone of yall. Have a sweet week everyone, ✌️!

#the butts chronicles #ogh but yea. been rough. #as said I have no idea if we'll keep this house cause man shits been fucked #uhhhh. lets see. recently my sister got into a fairly nasty argument with her husband since they were both drunk and hes a bit of a. hm #quick to being mad guy? I spose? but yea they made up and he actually apologized to me and my family for that so. its okay? #OH YEA FUCK LOL a few weeks ago fuckin tecksas got hit nasty with a hurricane and GUYS. I FREAKED OUT SO BAD LOL #cuz there was hail with the rain but since. I dont think we even ever experienced hail here I was scared that my ceiling roof broke again #and that it was the rain leaking to my room ceiling and was about to burst my ceiling so I legit started hyperventilating and panicking #with like. short and heavy breathing and almost crying badly until I went to look outside and saw hail and only slightly calmed down #oh but yea it was nasty lol. then the next day almost the entire block lost power and apparently sparks were happening cause fallen trees #uhhh. lets see. hmmm. OH OH RIGHT DAMN I FORGOT WE GOT A PUPPY LOL #we've gotten a lil pup all the way back from dec? iirc and she is now older and a shit lol shes in her teething phase and whatnot #still p cute tho and very puppyish. oh yea also during dec our power went out and ogh man dec was so freezing literally. #almost as bad as the one from. uhhh I cant remember the exact year but I remember it being within these past 4 years at least cause I read #a t0h fic during it lol. oh yea speaking of. we also changed our light company and damn. its been not bad so far! we had to pay up to 300 #in our old company and now we dont even get to 200 so far! hope Im not jinxing it! hmm oh did I already say before that I had to get a new #phone? cause I did and I did not enjoy it lol. had it for a while and now and its arguably worse cause no damn headphone plug-in #I think I did mention this but in case. I did finish counseling. well more accurately they required payments again since things and whatnot. #I think? I mentioned the stuff I got for my bday and chmisas. I got mostly neat stuff. I guess. one of them has still yet to arrive lol #uhhhh. hrm. I did get Mr. Martinet's autograph as a present! hrmmm #my other sister got another surgery a while back and its been relatively the same since. hmm. my only other living grandparent passed away #me and my ex got into a. not great argument cause mistakes and whatnot. raccoons in the attic thats hopefully taken care of for now #aaaaand the plushes I ordered a damn near year ago have been technically canceled cause of unfortunate circumstances for the creator #who just kinda. posts things now lol ig. #but yea. lots. holy shit guys. lots has happened. fuck man. I think Ive been way more tired than I thought. #not to mention the past weeks of just. reflecting. man #uhhh #long post #LOL i gues #but yerp.

[toastsnaffler]

I love valentines day theoretically like I love what it's abt + the aesthetic is gorg + the buildup where I get to make cards is so fun + yummy sweets + also valentine is a sick ass name it's all round a pretty awesome holiday even if the commercialisation is annoying..... but also the day itself is nailbitingly stressful for me bc im so wildly insecure and rejection sensitive I find it really really hard to accept cards or even nice sentiment from other ppl. sorry im such a broken ass person that being told im loved makes me want to bash my fucking head in with a steel beam 🙂

#i feel so fucking bad abt it bc I did get rly nice cards from a few of my friends and i love them so much its so sweet of them but hhhhhh #and also it makes me rly self conscious like the urge to compare myself to other ppl is overwhelming. the only way i get thru it- #is by telling myself other ppl are lying to be nice. and also even if they did mean it its irrelevant bc i dont deserve it + im inadequate #next to the other ppl in their lives who are far more capable of giving and recieving love and also just better ppl. problem solved #its just easier to think like that out of defence. if i completely shatter my own self esteem then no one else can hurt or reject me ever #birthdays are difficult for the same kinda reasons tbh #i would kill myself before telling them this tho i hope they know im grateful and leave it at that #anyway. sick of being at work its so hot in the lab today bc the incubators on im sweating so much my goggles keep fogging up #i just wanna be miserable at home in bed plsss. sighs #oh well. i should go do more training #.diaries #.vent #sorry to be a bummer on valentines day lol i do genuinely like so much of it but. i always have to take this hit. it balances out ig #ill be fine tonight or maybe tomorrow we'll see how bad it is #its like a physically illness or allergy. emotionally im sweating blood and throwing up battling this out

[romeoandromeo]

.

#yallllll my plug is totally flaking on me #i NEED pot lol #i can't sleep without it #I've been saving this $40 in my wallet for over a week but she's like completely ignoring me now lol?? #which like I'm not even pestering her #not over a week just about a week #like i texted her Monday like hey when i see you Tuesday can i cop off you and she was like yeah of course #literally saw her for 2 seconds because she left as i came in and i got caught up talking to asshole #then i texted her like hey sorry we didn't get to proper meet lmk when you want to meet #and she was like ok let me just drop someone off and whatever #and hours pass and i was like sooooo it's getting a little late is tomorrow fine and she was like yeah sorry we'll meet tomorrow #so Tuesday comes i text her in the morning like hey lmk when and where you want to meet girl #no reply #it gets late again and i was like so um... tomorrow ..? #and she text me back like yeah sorry had a lot going on today I'll get you tomorrow #Wednesday comes and I'm like hey... just lmk #she texts me back that she needs to go to Detroit to pick up more stuff 🤦🏼 and i was like oh okay well just let me know #so Thursday and Friday pass. nothing #i texted her last night asking if she was ever able to cop #so like idk what's up but ig she just doesn't want to deal w me anymore so ig I'll have to find a new plug #so i texted my other ex coworker just now asking if she knew anybody because i know she's got hookups lol #if not I'll hit up my friend in cle but i just don't want to drive half an hour on the freeway but yk I'll do it whatever #just a little bothered she won't be straight up with me like just say anything?? #like if you don't want to sell to me just say so why ghost me after you've been selling to me for over a year #& i know she won't have many people to serve for long because it got legalized here as soon as rec dispensaries open #she's going to lose more than half her business #we literally talked about it i said I'd still cop off her and she said she really appreciated that so idk where this is coming from #maybe it's nothing but I'm having a hard time not taking it completely personally lol

[5-pp-man]

no wayyy the buster bros in kamierabi episode 1

#i am aware of the fact that they have the most generic names in japan btw. i just thought it was funny #kamierabi #hypnosis mic #buster bros #i know it means. 1st son 2nd son 3rd son. and their last name is not only a very common surname #but yamada taro (another name that showed up during this sequence) is the japanese equivalent of john doe #oh and. i was watching this part of the 1st ep again to listen to goro's speech abt how this series was gonna play out #i remembered it all this time. it set up my expectations for this show very differently #cause rn hes literally just making friends w everybody when he says the opposite in this speech. so what gives?? #we'll see how this plays out ig. theres still 3 eps left. well more like only 3 omg... #tedpost