#ok i am SO seated for this

[bizarrelittlemew]

i was hoping to make a post like this under happier circumstances, but here goes.

as some of you know, everything with the cancellation and renewal campaign has happened right on top of the worst part of my mom's cancer treatment (plus the show was cancelled on my actual birthday 💀). i won't go into details, but it's been tough. lots of ups and downs, mostly downs, luckily ending (for now) on as much of an up as circumstances allow. the whole thing has been weirdly tied to the cancellation for me, kind of amplifying every feeling. the grief got mixed up, and there was so much of it - mourning the loss of the kind of future i thought i'd have with my mother and the time we might not get, mourning the end of a show that means so much to me and is such a big part of my life. different types of grief, sure, and of different magnitudes, but in one big ugly swirl. i sort of had a breakdown right at the start of february, and it was because of news about my mom, but it morphed into my brain telling me everything i'd ever written was shit and wanting to delete it all. stuff like that, spilling over.

anyway. i was holding off on writing this post to see if the show got picked up by someone else. but i still want to say it. because what also spilled over was the support and community from this fandom, and being in this space (despite the rough times and high emotions) helped me through it, because of all of you here. whether we talk regularly, or you left a comforting reply or simply a like on one of my posts about having a hard time (i tried to keep them few), or wrote a nice comment on a fic, or said something funny or nice or insightful in the tags of a gifset, or was active here (or on twt) in any way, talking/sharing/creating stuff about the show - THANK YOU.

you all helped me through all the ups and downs, and i am so grateful. thank you for being here, listening, distracting, helping me feel some joy despite the horrors. i love you and i love this incredible show and all it has brought and will continue to bring and inspire, and although it should go without saying, i'm not going anywhere. just do me a favor and give yourself a big ol' hug from me, and know that you made a difference for some random guy on the internet (but in reality for many more, and for this fandom as a whole, just by being here and being you) 💕

#🐭📓 #oh wow this got long #i grieved so much in january and never truly got my hopes up even though i of course wished something would happen #that the second “cancellation” message did not hit me as hard as it did for others - like i'd already absorbed that reality #but no matter what. all the effort was worth it - even for just the slightest chance of renewal and showing the cast and crew all the love #and seeing the fandom rally and all the fun moments we found along the way in a shitty situation none of us wished to be in #and for the record - i don't think this means there is no possibility of anything happening in the future #i just think the current/immediate negotiations fell through due to the current streaming landscape #you never know what can happen even if nothing happens for years #it's just that it's not happening right now and we shouldn't be at the edge of our seats. but instead settle into long term fandom mode #instead of constant campaign mode. keep showing all our love for the show and letting it inspire us and move us #and keep supporting the cast and crew in their next works #there is so much more to come from the same creative minds #and i for one am looking forward to experiencing it with you all 💗 #ok i will stop rambling now skdjfhdjks

[cocolacola]

man idk, i only watched five episodes. sorry

#do they interact more im on the edge of my seat #is this even like?? a pairing?? that exists?? did i make this shit up???? #ALSO please correct me if this isnt an ok thing to ship as i said i only saw the beginning of the series and have no idea what happens later #as far as i can tell it's not horrible but i am open to being corrected with my newbie knowledge #they were just my two favorites so of course they hang out #i didnt really find anyone else that interesting #cheers to this show ruining my life in the future #i didnt watch it when i was younger so i didnt get the same experience as everyone else #grelle sutcliff #mey rin #kuroshitsuji #black butler #my art

[hitorimaron]

Inspired by the lathe by @palmviolet

#palmviolet #steddie #eddie x steve #fic rec #MY ARTSIES #i see a time loop fic #i read the time loop fic #its as simple as that really #BUT ALSO #this fic is a freaking masterpiece #how can you dissect one loop this well #how can you dissect it so many times and keep be on the edge of my seat #THE FEELS #I AM ALIVE #anyhow this fic already has art #AS IF THAT WOULD STOP ME #i had to draw the main plot point of this fic #because I FELT IT ok #I FELT IT SO BAD #eddie just can't seem to stop dying. steve finds this totally unacceptable #that's it #that's what this pic represents #me and steve endlessly frustrated by eddie freaking munson #I FEEL YA

[egberts]

what is with the influx of random articles about whether or not you should move to another seat if somebody tries to take your seat on a plane or bus. like i'm so serious i've seen at least five in two days

#just so we are clear MOST of the time i am on the side of the person who bought the seat #ESPECIALLY when it's a window seat or even worse first class and they paid more for it #like i am sorry to all the moms out there but being a mom and having a child with you doesnt give you priority in a stranger's life #hold your child #ok this slightly diverged to me being mad about a mom who got mad that a man in a wheelchair wouldn't move for her 5 yr old

[juicedbeetle]

when the note doesn't light up (fav moments 6/?)

#Beetlejuice #beetlejuice musical #gif #mine #bonus blum for some reason not changing the wig from the green one at all?? i thought it was just in the red but no. no purple either #i have another 🐍 but i wasn't able to put the specific part that has say my name on my phone so i- #still dont know if the note works there 💀 whatever I'll just do another gif when i have it all in order if so #very troublesome format it's in :( but its ok we can cope #i feel so lucky in this chili tonight that two masters were able to capture both BRIGHT and BLUM having a note technical difficulty #so i can effectively compare them 😭 isn't it beautiful. or am i the only one that cares about something like this #what were the CHANCES #dude what was UP with that wig i need to know why they didn't change it the whole time #me in my happy place making gifs....... my relaxing activity..... hoping everyone else likes them too :3 #i used to compare 🐍s by seat placement but the new ones i have all have the same seating #😭😭😭 so i will get confused between them #very excited to debut this gifset in like a week lmao i make them so in advance #fav series #sowwy todays daily gifset took so long to post i took hours to make a new one teehee got lost in the sauce

[koool-thing]

Today I was sitting in class and all of a sudden the breath hitch in my throat and it felt like my heart for a million times faster. I could feel my pupils go wide like in that one Gumball episode where Gumball and Darwin were too happy they got everyone sick. I tightly gripped on to my desk, a weak attempt to keep myself grounded. I wanted to rip off my hoodie, but I was too weak and fell to the floor before I could, I was hot in the unattractive way and it did NOT feel good. I had landed on my knees and the pain was excrucating, but my hands were supporting me too. I could feel myself shaking violently, and this was no epileptic reaction this time. The world was spinning and I knew what was going to happen. I was about to die. Then I landed face first into the hard floor and actually died. All because of a video.

You should see it though, it's always an experience when I watch it fr (it contains flashing lights)

#will toledo #car seat headrest #Csh #why am I so dramatic #true story tho #once I was in class and I fell backward while I was in my seat and despite how loud it was nobody cared enough to see if I was ok #Idk why I wrote that entire paragraph maybe spend too much time on ao3 #Youtube

[soldez]

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#i have to say this somewhere or im gonna go crazy #so at a preschool. you HAVE to have one adult sitting at every table when kids are eating. and you also need a person in the hall #for kids getting their lunchboxes and going to the bathroom and shit ok. are you with me here. this makes sense #so today. my 2 coworkers had already taken the chairs bc i got caught up in the hall but i was so fucking hungry that i just ate standing u #which was fine. like i could just put my lunch down if someone needed my help and i Did that ok it was fine. no one was left alone #but later at SNACKTIME. it took me forever to get these 2 kids in the room and seated ready to eat & by the time i got in some kids were #already finished and ready to go to the playroom. so i was like ok i guess I'm not eating for the latter half of the day because they cant #be left alone. and my 2 coworkers at this point were sitting with the snackers and they looked fine so i looked after the Players #intermittently glancing to the snack tables to make sure everyone was fine mind you #So what happened here was. #There was a 20 second interval between the time i glanced up to see 2 adults at the snack table. And the time i glanced up to see #a completely unsupervised snack table. one kid STANDING UP ON THE TABLE blowing raspberries and pointing at the other kids #could not have been more than 20 or 30 seconds that i wasn't looking and NO ONE TOLD ME they were leaving the room #if i had been WARNED that they were leaving i would have prioritized the snackers and sat with them so no one choked and no one fucking #stood on the table #but they both just left for whatever reason without saying anything #and when i brought it up after school they were just like. well marty you were eating too much during lunch #next time you should eat before coming in to work so you can give the kids your full attention #??????? i already skipped a meal today for that exact reason?? how is it my fault that i don't want to starve? #am i actually in the wrong here because it's driving me FUCKING nuts. that was NOT a safe situation and it obviously can NOT happen again #but the issue was a lapse in communication not me wanting to eat food so i don't actually die #and those were two different times of day so they're not even relevant #obviously there are bigger issues in the world than this but i feel like throwing up over it. this was not my fault #I'm sorry that you guys can survive off of like 1 spoonful of granola and a single acai berry for the entire day but im not built like that

[ofpd]

me rn 🤝 30yos who are insecure about "visibly aging"

pls card me pls card me come onnn

#i did get carded saturday but it was bc i bought a knife & lighter. not even for me #i wasn't expecting to be carded lol. but anyway u only had to be 18 for that. but i ordered alcohol last night #bc i could!! and the flight attendant asked if i was of age and i was like yes. and she didnt ask for id..... #like dude being of legal age to buy alcohol isnt a common occurence for me. im american.... #but now i get nearly 2 months of this so the novelty will probably not take long to wear off lol. anyway #and then I'll be 21 only a few months after that...woah #txt #ok ik this post is so 20yo of me but. yknow its ok #also i am reminded of when i saw great comet (in america tbc) and they poured me and my friend (also 20yo) vodka during a song #u'd think they'd have some measure in place to make sure only 21yos sit in the Vodka Seats like they could get in trouble for this kdlakdjd #it was good enough vodka though that i drank it without mentally preparing myself (assuming it was water) and didnt feel like vomming. so

[jakeperalta]

trying to emotionally prepare myself for the cost of taylor's next tour tickets

#everyone's talking about being worried they won't get seats #which I'm not personally bothered by #(my rep show had tickets available on the door when the opening acts had started so even w increased demand i should be fine in presale) #but i almost didn't go to rep tour because i was put off by the cost #this time i am determined to go and to not have nosebleed seats #but that does mean trying to convince myself that it's ok to spend a huge amount of money on a single night #talking

[thebirdandhersong]

🌨

#very few things are more depressing than listening to your friends #talk about money material pursuits wanting to live a ''rich'' life #and how wealthy/upper class they'd like their future husbands to be #i am still mentally sitting at that table shrinking in my seat thinking: #what is wrong with a simple and humble life?? does it matter what kind of car you own? #ok maybe it's depressing to me because the world seems so small and sad suddenly #when earlier in the day (while i was looking at the sea #and reading the part in the inklings biography where cs lewis starts doing #those bbc broadcasts on faith and morality #and eating ice cream and talking about thomas hardy and george eliot with another friend #and seeing the january stars come out in the sky #and listening to joy clarkson talk about romanticism on her podcast #and writing bits of prose and poetry down) the world seemed so beautiful and expansive #is it not enough to live a simple life and think and write about beautiful truthful good things? #does it MATTER so much if your boyfriend cant tell his soup spoon from his dessert spoon?? #will delete later i am just........dazed and strangely sad

[gncrezan]

FNSADJKFHSKJF IM SCREEAAMMING HI. I JUST CHECKED YOUR ABOUT CAUSE I JUST FINISHED INFAMOUS (obsessed with orion now, blaming you) AND WANTED TO SEE IF YOU HAD OTHER IFS YOU ENJOYED IN THERE OR SOMETHING. AND YOU HAVE MY ASK LIKE, FRAMED THERE? anyway. man. im just happy to be here.

NOT AT ALL I LITERALLY LAUGHED SO HARD AT THAT ASK I THOUGHT I HAD TO HAVE IT IN MY ABOUT!!!!!! i can in fact be defined by the lengths i am willing to go for rezan at any given moment!!!!!! and also i am so glad it worked out cause i was worried i was being very unhelpful LMFAO

AND LOL. ORION BEARTRAP THAT YOU CANNOT ESCAPE. everyone thinks they're walking towards seven but in my experience there is also a massive pit disguised with leaves that leads to orion. i fell in and realised i am not immune to that grumpy man

#currently im trying to tunnel out of that pit towards victoria but thats on account of having a very hard mc to play. #'aki you are so everywhere with ur romances' says the guy who wrote you this way. #'if i had my way we would be romancing august right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' says guy who wrote you this way... #i think i saw the blog teasing that ch3 is the reprecussions of all your actions. i am so fucking seated LOL #ocs who i want to kiss tenderly on the lips. it helps that i wanted to design a man who looks like he'd be voiced by yuichi nakamura #ok i say this but i love him. he has onion layers i hope to unpack because he's repressed every bad emotion since the dawn of time #answered #anon

[skettelyboi3000]

My friend and I got called the F-slur by a lil straight freshman bc my friend took "his bus seat" (We sat there on the first day and he and his friends still insist that it's their seats)

Like, alright buddy.

#bro was literally huddled up in another seat pouting and talking shit #we would have been nicer about the whole seat thing if not for the fact that him and his friends sat on our backpacks on the first day #AND he wants the seat to himself #like at least me and my friend sit together and if we do sit in our individual seats then we let others sit with us #but im the bad person ok💀 #also technically its nobodys seat so... yeah #public school am i right?

[hmmwellok]

not to be dramatic but i would, with no hesitation, die for kim kitsuragi

#kim trusts you #KIM TRULY TRUSTS YOU #disco elysium #IM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ok also i wasn't able to save titus cuz my check failed but guess what DE runs like absolute shit on the switch #so my game crashed and i was DEVASTATED #i had to replay again and ok i maybe accidentally got spoilers that kim ends up in the hospital (i didn't know HOW at the time) #and so i'm like oh shit i have to replay it what if kim ends up in the hospital this time #my second playthrough after the crash i was able to save titus by shooting that guy AND kim trULY TRUSTS MEEEEEEEEE #i'm still flailing about that #i need to like SCREAM at someone how fucking emotional i am about this #so instead i'll make this lil post #AND HE HEALED U WHEN NO ONE IN '41 CARED IM #hnnnnngh #BY FAR the most intense part of the game and i was on the edge of my seat throughout the entire altercation #holding my breath both playthroughs

[eggbeam]

Maybe I just got spoiled from moving into a house where I don't have to share a bathroom but I've had relatives staying over recently and I'm going crazy with the mess they're creating in my bathroom 😭😭😭😭😭😭 ughhhhhhh... GET OUT

#bs #my uncle was staying with us and he like. left a poo smear on the toilet seat. very cool 👍 #and then he left and now my great uncle is staying with us and he left a poo smear on the toilet paper. yay🫡 #AND he keeps leaving tons of food bits in the sink... ok sir. splashing a bit of water in the sink to wash it down the drain takes 5 seconds #like i dont even care about them being messy. i am too. just clean up after... :(.. #there's wet wipes on the counter that they can use.. and they just dont.. #like i definitely create mess when i shower cause so much hair falls out and goes everywhere.. #but then i take a bit of time to collect it all and throw it away #am i being too dramatic.. #i reallyyy got spoiled not sharing a bathroom i guess. -_-

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

hey why is trying to book a flight so weird and anxiety-inducing. couldn't they think of my poor nerves.

#the whole online plane ticket purchasing experience is just constantly feeling like I'm gonna mess up one little thing and ruin EVERYTHING #also GOODNESS they manage to tack on a whole lot of random fees for stuff that doesn't seem necessary/it doesn't seem like #I should have to pay extra for??? like??? “75 dollars for extra legroom” well my legs aren't THAT long tbh I think I'll be ok.... #anyway. I got nicer seats for the flight there (they were a little extra but I've never flown before so I wanna see what's going on #and I DON'T wanna be sandwiched between two people I don't know that would be so bad) #and the bottom of the ladder ones for the flight back (but based on the layout they showed me they're still decent seats? #still window seats and not on the VERY last row of the plane. just pretty close to the back.) #anyway!!! I am a few hundred dollars poorer but I am GOING to see Lu in-person again!! and we're getting to spend like half a month togethe #because it was cheaper than a shorter trip!!! I see this as a definite win!!! :D :D #and also I did extra work at the beginning of the year specifically to make extra money to cover this trip so it's ok. it was all planned #for and it worked out just fine. :) #gurt says stuff

[myownprivatcidaho]

whats tough about like. Having Chemistry and spending time with someone at the start of the spring semester is that valentines day is coming up and its like a make or break point with what you may or may not Be and you have to question what direction things are headed in and its a pressure just Not present in the fall semester idk. idk

#we uhhhh. kinda hit a bump in the road ...... idk. #hes. been very gentle and kind and understanding about where im coming from and so we havent talked in a couple days but just .... #god ok fuck it. we were hanging out saturday night and at some point we were going somewhere where parking sucked so i just suggested we go #in his car rather than separate bc finding parking for ONE car is a Struggle. anyways so afterwards we went back to where i parked my car #and i hahahhaaaaa was NOT leaving. it was just past midnight and so we were just hanging in his car talking for abt an hour #in there at some point i told him about that last crush and how it dragged on and he was like jesus CHRIST sia thats a lot #i was reclined in my seat and shutting my eyes listening to the music and i caught him looking at me a couple times andddddd uh #yeah basically i ended up in his lap and then we were kissing and touching and grinding for like the next hour and a half #and he asked if i wanted to go back to my place and i was like uhhhhhhhhhhhh not now so we stayed in there and just made out & talked more #and then he TOLD me. basically hes in a similar situation i was in this time last year. like a girl he liked and was talking to actually #has a bf. hes sorta in limbo and she still talks to bim and is stringing him along and playing off his hopes theyll get together for. #entertainment ig. everyone at this school is fantastic btw. jesus fucking christ. #so yeah he told me bc he said he didnt wanna hurt me or end up fucking me over and that i deserved full honesty and didnt want to get my #hopes up. which i REALLY appreciate. we talked for 8 days he got carried away once and immediately owned up. i do appreciate that #so like. he said that we can just be friends with or without benefits and i said id think about it. then at like 3 am we went home and he #check in with me to make sure i was alright since he could tell i had a LOT on my mind. i said id call him the next day and so we talked #and basically i explained the reason for my apprehensions and why i said no to hooking up (csa) and he was really understanding #and then like. i just asked him more about what was going through his head the night before & he described it as a heat of the moment thing #(which i agree it was) and like. he was genuinely concerned about me tho. idk #i told him that after i got home i had to shower for an hour scrubbyat every place he touched me and that im tired of feeling used #and he really heard me out and listened. he also asked if he hurt me and i said no but it def could have gotten to that point and i #and so he said 'im sorry for making your life at all hafrder to deal with' and i REALLY really #appreciate him being as honest as he was. so i said its cool we can be friends but i just need some space rn & he once again was really #understanding & said 'for as long as you need. just let me know whenever youre ready to just be friends again & if you need me to stay sway #from [xyz places we hung out] just let me know and if you need anything for class just feel free to reach out' #and. GOD i appreciate him. so that convo closed out on good terms. i was worried id need WEEKS but it rlly was just a few hours after that #i was ok again. traumas all about narratives and before that convo all i could see was another instance i was usee but like. #after actually talking it out all the fear around it dissipated and i can just see it for what it was: 2 friends who got carried away #but i really REALLY appreciate how hes handled this and we're both single & attracted to each other and so the question im thinking now is: #crushposting