#or a few days here and there after I graduated

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA/WIBTA to remain friends with people who agreed not to move out with me?

☘️💮🏡💸🏝️🎏🥪 < 4 me

For a while, I wanted to move out of my parents' home and rent a place with B and T. We're all in our early 20s.

To make a long story short: B and T were my roommates freshman year of college. We got off on the wrong foot but reconnected and apologized to each other junior year. From there, I got to know them a lot better and slowly regained my trust in them. We got to talking about moving out together around this time as well.

however, I notice some issues in our friendship. After graduation, I moved back with my parents while they both stayed in an apartment with B's older sister. Anytime I visit, I barely get to talk with T, who is usually in their room talking to online friends or doing homework (has 1 yr of school left). The last time I visited, I bought everyone food and T came out to thank me. Me and B wanted to play a board game with them, and T promised they would join in later that night. They never came out of their room, even when I left the next day. This is on top of the few texts I get from both of them ever since I moved back home. But to be fair, I was always aware of B being a dry texter, and I know T needs to focus on her education. We're all introverted ppl here, but I'd appreciate it if they talked to me a bit more, yknow?

Now the housing situation: B recently brought up a place we could rent and told me we'll sign up for the waitlist IF I am financially stable to move out this year. If not, then they might be able to move out again into a bigger place when I am ready in about a year/year in a half. I agreed and said I'd give them an answer by the next week.

Next week comes along, and I just lost my job. I text the group chat about my situation and they asked if I wouldn't be able to move, to which I said no, it wouldn't be happening this year, but next year I should be ready and let them know when I could move ahead of time. B then says that they actually have no idea when they'd be able to move again and make room for me, and T adds that after a few yrs they will move out to live with their partner. I don't remember this change of plans happening so quickly, but I just reply wishing them the best of luck in finding a new place without me. I talked to my best friend about this whole situation with them and he's suggesting I definitely need to rethink the friendship if they keep changing their minds and not communicating with me, even if I gave them a second chance to be their friend.

Next time I visit them in person, I'm going to be honest about the issues in our friendship and how I feel a little hurt about how quickly they changed plans/don't talk to me as much anymore. I hate confrontation, but I don't want this friendship to be ruined a 2nd time and continue bottling up my feelings.

#aita #am i the asshole

[xbomboi]

YOU 🤝 ME

SCREENWRITING

Could you possibly elaborate more on your EQ movies?? I'm really interested in this Cove Sunset... 👀

oh yeah actually i would love to talk more about that! so basically i wrote two movies intended to be the penultimate and the final installment in the Equestria Girls series since that’s definitely never going to get an official ending. i wanted to tie up loose ends…

i made a poster for the second one of the two that i made a few years back right here. but anyway…

the first of the two is called “Royal Nightmare.” the premise is as follows: it’s now spring of the girls’ senior year, and rarity has made the decision to run for queen of the spring fling after being robbed by sunset she tried to run for princess years ago. but when rarity gets possessed by dark magic, sunset has to confront her repressed baggage from the past if she wants to save her friend before it’s too late.

basically, this one deals a lot with sunset’s past with rarity. the film has a mix of the events taking place in the present day as well as flashbacks to the past, being the girls’ freshman year. it covers stuff like sunset arriving for the first time, her meeting flash, how she rose to power, and what she did to rarity (i changed it up just a tad because the junior novelization is a Weird book). it also has a lot of focus on rarijack as well.

the other one, intended as a finale movie, is titled “Forever Friendship.” after finally graduating from canterlot high, the girls are about to move onto the next stages in each of their lives. however, sunset still has unfinished business in regards to herself. together, the girls set out on one last adventure to uncover the truth behind sunset’s family and the sunset from their world. but could this be end?

this one is basically, like, giving sunset closure. in it i explore sunset’s origin and the truth about the Other sunset shimmer. it has an entire conflict that revolves around a discussion of the moral dilemma that comes with having magic in the human world. at heart it’s about sunset finding her purpose once and for all. i can’t say much else without spoiling it.

royal nightmare is complete in THEORY but needs a lot of, like, extra fleshing out and possibly the addition of a few more scenes. also, forever friendship is now missing a song or two because i removed one scene entirely and instead repurposed the song for royal nightmare. also ALSO, they’re a bit old now and i approached them differently than i did when writing for ever after high. i wasn’t totally thinking about completely matching the tone and more about cinematics. it’s not that i bumped the ratings up, but i let dialogue be lengthy and… idk, nuanced? i guess? more so in forever friendship than royal nightmare, at least. and there’s probably an occasional typo in them both.

i would share them, but the thing that makes me hesitant is the fact that for the songs, i made an unlisted youtube playlist of myself singing them each just for people who read them to have reference when the scenes pop up. it wasn’t so embarrassing when it was just being shared between myself and my friends, but the audio is kinda bad and there’s no music it’s just me singing. i didn’t even have the same range as i wanted for some of the songs or the characters so i sound wonky in it. and i can’t redo it now because i’m older and my voice has dropped so that’s a no-go.

idk, maybe i could give in with enough convincing.

#equestria girls #eqg #sunset shimmer #rarity #applejack #rarijack #mane 7 #ramble #ask #duncontent #duncart

[clubdionysus]

[DRABBLE] Last Christmas

warnings: alcohol aisle but no consumption lol

wc: 1.2k

bd total wc: 540k (on-going)

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4 MONTHS EARLIER

"No," you say with a stern look in your eye as you clock Danbi's latest suggestion. At the opposite end of the supermarket aisle you've been down for the past ten minutes, she holds up a dark bottle of overpriced port.

"Oh, c'mon-"

"Absolutely not," you laugh as she walks towards you, shaking your head with playful disapproval. "We both know what happened last Christmas. We're not repeating it again this year."

While Danbi knows you're right, she still pouts. Doesn't even like port that much, just knew it would get a laugh from you, which is why she suggested it.

Late December, you're in need of drinks for the festive little gathering that you're hosting that evening. It'll be a small crowd, just a few friends and other halves, but you're looking forward to it.

You hadn't even been planning on drinking that much, but your boyfriend cancelled earlier in the week, so now you're thinking of just getting wasted. Bars are always open, and Danbi's been whining about a mistletoe kiss all week, so you might even hit the town.

Nothing is set in stone, except for Danbi's need to keep a smile on your face, 'cause Lord knows your 'good-for-nothing, sack-of-shit boyfriend' (her words, not yours) doesn't seem to care about it.

"I'm thinking vodka," you muse, looking at the shelves ahead of you. It's a small section compared to the rows upon rows of wine, but you're not after anything classy.

The aisle you're in is crowded; people stocking up last minute for supplies that will last them for the rest of the festive period. You really should have known better than to leave shopping until the last minute, but had also spent the past two days at home together, with the last of your wine supply and the entire Christmas movie collection on Netflix to see you through.

Christmas is the time to indulge in unhealthy habits, and indulge you have, but you think it's okay if it helps to heal your heart a little bit. So does Danbi. In fact, she's the enabler, here.

"I'm thinking you wanna get shitfaced," Danbi assesses as she meets you, and joins your contemplative gaze towards the clear bottles of alcohol.

The labels are all fairly similar - red, primarily. Shiny. Inherently festive, you think.

There's one bottle that's really grabbing your attention, though. Top shelf. Limited Edition Christmas bottle. Covered in glitter. Comes with a complimentary pot of shimmer dust to pair with the liquor. Is practically calling your name.

"And you don't?" You tease, glancing across to her, pleased to see that she's clocked it too. "What do you reckon? Worth the price tag?"

Nearly three times the price of your regular vodka, you only ever go for top-shelf on very special occasions - important birthdays, your graduation. Christmas doesn't qualify.

"I reckon with the money we'd save by getting the usual bottle, we could get edible glitter from the baking section and just make the bottle glittery at home," she reasons, but is also a sucker for a gimmick. "It is a nice bottle, though. And the vodka is better..."

Her thoughts linger in the air and have you contemplating just saying 'fuck it,' and going for the overpriced chaos of the glittery bottle - until you hear the clearing of a throat beside you.

"Word to the wise," the guy perusing the shelves next to you says, leaning slightly closer so you know that it's you he's talking to, then passes you a bottle from the middle of the self.

Though you can see him in your peripherals, you haven't really bothered to look in his direction - was too focused on the alcohol. The movement of his body spreads the silage of his aftershave, and you're reminded of why you like men so much.

He's dressed in all black, that much is certain, and the hand that passed you the bottle was covered in tattoos. Part of you fears looking in his direction, for the knowledge that you probably won't be able to stop.

"It's made in the same distillery as the top-shelf one," He continues. You don't look at him, still, too busy reading over the label. It's not one you've ever tried before, but it's in the same price bracket as your usual one. "It's just filtered one less time, and doesn't have the marketing budget. You can barely taste the difference. Most of the bars downtown swap the bottles, and no one ever notices. I never told you that, though. And Dionysus definitely doesn't do that. Merry Christmas."

Studying the bottle, you take a second before glancing up across to the man beside you - but he's already walking away.

"Nice to meet you, too," Danbi whistles under her breath as you both watch him head towards the next aisle. Didn't really get a good look at him, either. Didn't realise he was talking to you until the last second. "God. He was like a sauve, sexy Santa, delivering presents and dipping like that. Delightful."

"What does that make us then?" You laugh, still holding the bottle. "His little elves?"

"If that's what he wants us to be, sure," she playfully jokes.

"Well then- ho, ho, ho," you hum in agreement, looking to the now-empty end of the aisle. Broad, tall, and dressed for a funeral, you've no idea what your mystery vodka man actually looks like, but it doesn't really matter. You know he's hot. It was laced in the way he walked away. The way he spoke. The way he'd definitely been eavesdropping and waiting for the perfect time to bestow a little wisdom to you.

If there's one thing you like in a man, it's competence. It's why you're with Seokjin. He has it in abundance. And so did this mystery man, it would seem - or at least, he knows far more about obscure vodka brands than you. Maybe he's a bartender, you hypothesise. Or maybe he's just hot. Maybe both.

"Our very own Christmas miracle," you say with a smile, then turn to Danbi. "Baking aisle? We need edible glitter."

"Baking aisle," she nods, grinning just as brightly as you are. "Shame there wasn't any mistletoe there."

"I have a boyfriend," you remind her, shoulders knocking together as you walk.

Danbi holds her tongue. Could say all sorts of things about Seokjin and his less-than-saintly behaviours. It's Christmas after all. No time for discussions of such unpleasantries. One day, his horrible qualities will just be a memory of the past - as will the presence of your mystery supermarket Santa, and the club he mentioned. You'll think nothing of it as the word Dionysus rings in your head when Hoseok and Danbi insist on going to bars in a few months time to nurse your impending breakup.

You're none-the-wiser now, though. Ignorance is bliss.

Danbi just shrugs. Wraps an arm around you and squeezes you tightly. Giggles. "Bah humbug."

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[damnprecious]

absolutely unheard of me to feel at peace with the world with zero worries hanging on my head

#noopa rambles #somehow brain has gone to Vacation Mode #bc I'm taking the next week off from my main job #and it's not even like a Real Vacation #bc I have a long-ass sidejob shift coming up #and suspected some side job shifts might be up for grabs in preparation for it next week #so figured I'd do half a vacation half a job that requires less brain cells #my suspicion of probably side job shifts was right too gonna go to work on tuesday at least #might be more if there's more demand for it #idk my mans I'm so relaxed rn and idk what to do with that #might go browse some shiny things in town later #one day I'll have a real proper summer vacation #the last time I had any sort of real summer vacay for more than a few days was when I was like 16 or smt #it's been like a week at the end of the summer before uni started #or a few days here and there after I graduated

[crescentfool]

reunion 🌸

#persona 3 #persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #makoto yuki #ryoji mochizuki #aigis #ryomina #lizzy does art #HELLO EVERYONE!!! march 5th is upon us again so i bring... my contribution for this year. my third year drawing for it! #i made the thumbnail for this a few weeks after last year's graduation day #i thought it would be fun to lean into the ryominaigis angle of graduation day (you could read this as minato/aigis if you like- #but i feel like most people would read it as ryoji/minato) #IN ANY CASE working on this made me very emotional over this game :') (specifically minato) #i really enjoy how p3 ends it's such a nice way of wrapping up the narrative's messages and themes #working on this. minato's kindness was at the forefront of my mind throughout the piece #and i really wanted to capture how. ultimately it was his decision to sacrifice himself- to do the great seal #while to an outsider's perspective it is. sad that minato passes. i think becoming the seal is something that minato- #actively welcomes. in the same way that death (ryoji) is a comfort to him because death was housed in him for Ten YearsTM #AND I ALSO GOT REALLY SAD OVER AIGIS TOO. i still get fucked up over how in fes's animated cutscene for 3/5 they portray- #her as human and not drawing the robot parts so i wanted to do something smilar here... #but also i am very sad on aigis's behalf because she discovers her humanity through minato and realizes what she- #wants to do and then. well. minato is like. he's ready to pass on (even if he's scared) and im like. OH MY GOD THIS TRIO GETS ME MESSED UP #this was more coherent in my head LOL BUT ough i like drawing p3 and working through my feelings about it... #anyway! happy (in quotations) march 5th. i love this game to bits. it's so fun to draw for this day every year and see how i've improved #if you've read all this thank you :) lizzy appreciates you all very much. mwah! <3

[cheekblush]

i was honored as the best student from my class at yesterday's graduation and today exo dropped a new album truly the best graduation gift i could possibly ask for <3

#i'm so happy 🥰 #i've been dancing in my room the whole day already listening to exo's album <3 #i have 3 weeks of vacation now so i can finally have some downtime after all this studying #going on a trip with a beloved friend in a few days 💗 #i'll be working 40 hours a week soon so i gotta make the most of these 3 weeks off #i had so much fun at my graduation i felt beautiful and i really didn't expect to be the best of my class i was so shocked #my friend took so many great pictures of me i'm contemplating on sharing some on here but i'm not sure i'm comfortable with that #i got a 40€ amazon gift card for being an honor student so now i can finally buy some things from my wishlist 🥰 #☁️

[corkisms]

Hello friend. I have a question: the WolfHox art you did... was the final panel inspired by the, erm, Reservoir Dogs fanfic on AO3? 👀

it wasnt but i am SO intrigued

#i loved reservoir dogs when i watched it for a film class and was surprised to see it in pd2 but a DEDICATED FIC??? #I EAT THAT SHIT UP BABEYYYYY #also pardon the brief break its finals week over here and i am being forced to make up sooo much hw to graduate #i got an ao3 acct approved(?) after a few days but im still procrastinating posting on it. i gotta check this out aahhhh head in hands

[usoratonkachi]

guess who entered their 20’s arc . smirks here’s a pic of me from friday <3 (don’t rb or save ill annihilate u)

HAHA GET PRANKED SUCKAAAA ur so gullible and 4 what . u fall for this every time literally stand UP (/lh ily sorry the only way u will ever see me is if we’re mutuals and u ask to see my sharingan pic. smirks)

#ONE MORE YEAR UNTIL THE REAL PARTY STARTS 😏 #<- i don’t even drink or anything. But hey it’s cool that i will have the option to or something LMFAO #life is just beginning shartyyyy new things r coming and 20 is simply a new page to turn!! #i was. scared for this day for some reason like a couple of months ago but now it feels good actually. im finally done with 19 LMFAOO #here’s 2 a better year inshallah bro lmao #ive grown so SO much in the past year after graduating and it’s insane and im.. really proud of myself TvT <3 #this year was so tough bruh like damn sdjkf but u always come out stronger after a few hardships if u will . so HECK YAHH ig #IM READY TO GO WILD (rot away still probably on most days but way cooler . and jacked . smirks) #also if u read this far SORRY FOR PRANKING U i will never show my face here. but if we’re moots u can def ask to see my sharingan pic #and im being fr like u can see my face it’s just me with my kaka.shi sharingan like fr no pranks #😏 #this is UR CHANCE TO SEE IT. GOGOGO ASK. ASK TO SEE MY SHARINGAN PIC

[prismazoa]

so i went and looked and it seems like the last time i posted art on tumblr was like??? 2016???? that cant be right

but then again that was during my last year of uni so. maybe it makes some sense

#that was around the time i started to burn out mentally and creatively #i could barely bring myself to smile for my graduation photos bc i was so depressed lmao #it took a few months after that before i finally admitted i needed therapy #and i didn't draw practically anything for a looooong time #my only source of happiness was the d&d sessions i had with some friends from school #that same d&d group is still going to this day #no exaggeration i wouldve been in a way worse state if not for them #d&d also motivated me to keep drawing #if only a little bit #because i loved the characters we created so much #which reminds me #i should post d&d related stuff on here too #hmm

[orcelito]

Tfw i avoided dealing with applicants for like 2 weeks so I had to play catch up today. Stayed like 2 hours late reviewing all 20 ish applications we got in this time, contacted 12, and I have a confirmed 4 interviews for this week with a prospective 2 more

Look at me being all manager-y lmao

#speculation nation #most of them r on tuesday bc thats my set long manager shift n lmao #confirmed 1:30. 3. and 4 on that day. prospective 2 and 2:30 (waiting to hear confirmation) #with One on wednesday! bc the person isnt available until then #lmfao i really am playing catch up big time but THAT is okay. We Good #god tho i really understand that one class that addressed resumes now. how they were like Keep It Short #bc recruiters dont have time to read big massive resumes lmao. & god thats so real #zipped down to education to know what i was dealing with. Then looked at prior work experience. Then availability. #education relevant Primarily so i can know when/if theyve graduated high school #bc not graduating isnt an automatic deletion. but it's good to know Especially for if someone's a minor or not #we already have a lot of high schoolers rn lol so im kinda leaning more towards Not in high school for this stuff #aside from that it's mostly assessing capability based on what little evidence there is. + how long they would be likely to stay #there really is so much going into reviewing all this lmao. & oh god i really am the obnoxious kind of employer kind of #like not Really. im giving everyone a chance should they fit within the criteria we require for hiring. #but a few ppl messaged us asking up on their applications n those ppl get mental points in their favor for caring about our position #caring enough to ask after it at least lol #ultimately im reserving judgement for interviews. but tbh theres a few ppl im on the fence about contacting #that r in the vague status of 'will pursue if they contact us first'. which is SO obnoxious of me actually but like #there r way too many ppl i have to consider for this. if im not sure how well a person will fit here then them putting that extra effort #is a great way of convincing me that theyre worth my time #that kind of thing of like. if They show they care then i'll end up caring more too #theres actually a high schooler i Probably wouldnt have considered but bc she messaged very actively im interviewing her too #reserving judgement. still have my doubts. but bc she put in that effort im gonna give her a chance. #ah. thus is the life of a fucking recruiter i guess lmao. god i hate it

[altrxisme]

Feeling a little better now. Bought some moving boxes so I can at least have some things packed just in case I do need to make an emergency move

#; speak writer #the past few days have given me a lot to think about #my parents never really made it clear what would happen if I hadn't graduated from uni 4 years after i graduated high school #so we've been stuck at a weird impasse where they never defined if I should pay them rent or not #i've never really asked either but that bc I've been focused on school and work #now that my brother passed his driving test but there's been some complications regarding his govt id i'm also getting the brunt of the- #frustration as well as them saying i'm a freeloader essentially #they're partially correct but they're also partially unempathetic to what i do #my experiences are not theirs and theirs are not mine #and with mom reducing to expressing her anger the way a passive aggressive teenager would as she usually does #it's... definitely time to get the fuck out of here #i don't have the perfect means to do so bc i don't have a car and my insurance is about to get cut off soon #but better that than temper tamtrum mother and a passive father #negativity cw

[depresseddepot]

my cat's surgery is scheduled and the recovery will be. pretty intense

#i have to do little physical therapy exercises with him three times a day #which. fine? i can do that #but he has to be confined to a small area where he cannot run or jump for 3 whole months #and that shit is going to be ROUGH #a week? sucks but i could handle it #THREE MONTHS?? of my little boy not being able to move and having to be in a cone? #i've spent the last 6 days like. paralyzed because I'm just WAITING #waiting and watching him in pain!!!!! #first i was waiting for the vet apt now im waiting for the surgery #and after that itll be 3 months of waiting for him to recover #maybe its the looming dread of how ALL of my routines will be out the fucking window #and i have so much shit to do the next few weeks #the body must survive to care for my cat (and it will) but the mind will tap out early i think #3 months of cold compresses and warm compresses and physical therapy and 2 weeks of cone and 8 weeks of limited mobility #and i have two finals due next week that i haven't even started uwu #i mean maybe thats good? #i can work on those on my laptop sitting in his little cage maybe #:( #at least my parents are paying for the surgery. i have to remember that #i am still on track to graduate. i can still get the goddamn hell out of here eventually #but i have been so nervous for the past week i can literally feel the cortisol in my bloodstream #(thats an exaggeration i know that isnt how stress or cortisol works) #he's going to have a nakey leg. like a rotisserie chicken #oughhgh i feel the anxiety eating me like bugs!!!!!!! #the deep breathing isn't working batman. or whatever that reference is

[toaster-selfships]

Cannot wait to have today over with, getting through work and getting the yummy food I've been dying for

Uuhhh slight rant in tags? Kinda just butthurt complaining. I didn't know I was gonna have a whole rant but I'm just gonna leave it as is

#i wish i could speedrun this weekend. i got a 3-10 shift on Saturday and...hbhhhggggggg. I just want it over with!! and to relax #and do nothing all day #alas. not my first 3-10 shift surely not my last #not to mention summer hasnt started yet it always gets unbelievably busy in summer. but i wont have to juggle school and work then #probably doesnt help that i dont really like the job or schedule i have for it right now but i cant really change it cause i have to- #-schedule around school and not many places hire people under 18 #i can at least relieve myself of this job when i turn 18. its a whole story but I will be free then and smooth sailing till i am OUT OF HERE #getting through work by thinking about what food i want is on my break is so nice. great strategy #lucky for me though work has been going by a lot more quickly lately. it used to drag on forever when i first started #i guess its more so just the knowledge of putting like 8 hours there and getting home and only having enough energy to sleep just...sucks #i am so not a night shift person. maybe evening shift depending on when it ends but im 100% a morning shift person #am i 18 yet. particularly 18 after ive graduated and im free and zero complications happened with me graduating #febuary is almost over. just a few more months yall. and by few more months i mean my birthday is all the way in december #so i got the rest of the year

[pinkpeccary]

fun fact i have a trans name now

#ollie talks #not publicizing it here but if anyone's curious i'll tell you in private #i'm not retiring the legal/official name just yet (or possibly ever) but adding this one into the rotation #(i say as if i've told anyone about this- it's a nickname bf gave me a while back that has recently graduated to name status in my head) #(so it gets used but like. not in a trans way yet) #probably will tell bestie when they come visit again in a few days #also it is after a fictional character which i think is very funny bc i did not pick the character

[milo-is-rambling]

How do me and my mother manage to get into a fight every fucking day I want to dieeeeee how have we fought about bullshit and it’s not even ten in the morning like what the fuck I’m so fucking miserable and no one likes me they all make fun of me I need to move out or I’m going to fucking ruin my life !!!!! (Also why won’t my fucking period just start so I can get all of these emotions to stop bothering me!!!)

#literally been home for less than three days and every interaction with my mother has felt like a punch to the gut #today she was bitching to me about my brother leaving his hoodie and his hat on/around the couch he sits on and my mom was bitching about #how he leaves his shit everywhere and whatever else and I was like dude you gotta cut him some slack yknow like he’s been used to living in #a dorm and having a living space where he could be a person and my mom proceeded to be like ‘he doesn’t live here’ AND IM LIKE HE DOES NOW #HE GRADUATED AND MOVED BACK HOME AND YOURE TREATING HIM LIKE A CHILD HE IS DOING ONLINE COURSES AND LOOKING FOR JOBS AND YOU TREAT HIM LIKE #A CHILD #UGHHHH #my mother then proceeded to once again tell me off for being bossy and telling her what to do and I’m sitting here like maybe you should try #fucking listening to me then and treating my brother like a part of the family instead of like company #I know he’s in the guest room technically but he’s part of this fucking family and you and I both have side tables to put shit on its not #his fault that he put his jacket on the couch he has no where else to put it he’s gonna wear it again next time he comes out like what the #fuck why is she such a bitch and then she gets mad at me like idk what you want from me #I used to never get along with my brother and now I’m defending him to you and you act like he’s the worst person ever #like why do you hate your children so much why do you love him but you hate me I’m so sick of crying over mommy issues #but if my mother could just like me that would be incredible I really feel like everyone hates me constantly and no one wants me around and #I try to defend my brother and be nice and it only makes my mother hate me so I just go into my room bc I’ve tried over and over again to be #nice to my mother and apparently I’m doomed to just fucking hate her and have everything I say be an insult or some nit picky bullshit bc my #mouth won’t stop saying whatever my brain is thinking and I keep apologizing and then I keep saying shit it’s like I have the happiest two #few days after months of being alone and miserable and then I come home and immediately it’s like my mother just no longer likes me #I feel like I’m stuck in perpetual coming home from a sleepover mode #do you guys remebrr that? coming home from a sleepover after being happy and your family would instantly make fun of you for being happy or #excited or wanting to talk about the sleepover and then you’d cry and go into your room and feel like shit bc everyone hates you and then #you’d start to assume that everyone at the sleepiver thought the same thing as your family and thought you were annoying and interrupting #their lives by being happy I mean whatttt haha yeah did that happen to anyone else or just me 😭👍👍👍👍 #life recently feels like it’s ​me being happy vs me realizing joy doesn’t last vs me needing to ruin my own joy so someone else doesn’t do i #first. I have very strong need to hurt myself before someone else can energy but all it does is make sure I get hurt twice cause someone’s #always gonna hurt my feelings and not care so I should be showing myself compassion but all I want to do is tear my skin apart #been so fucking depressed since I got home I’m fucking miserable and my family hates me I hate everything and I’m so stressed I hate this #anyways 😭😭😭😭 can’t stop crying recently after not crying for months now talking about anything makes me cry and I hate it #I’m embarassing myself constantly bc I can’t hold back from crying

[oflgtfol]

honestly im so glad to be graduating bc i cant handle school anymore i need to get the fuck out of here but i am genuinely so sad to be leaving the place i work at on campus like ive been involved there for over two years now as either a volunteer or staff and its been probably one of the best parts of my time at this uni and im just so sad to be leaving and like you explicitly have to be a student to volunteer or work there so i literally am not allowed to be involved with it anymore once i graduate and im just so sad. i would totally continue volunteering if i could but alas

#we’re revamping the intern situation like adding more interns for next year going forward #bc it was literally just me (paid intern) + my supervisor on the back end of things #which is. a lot for only two people #especially when one of them is hard limited to only 8 hours a week #so we’re adding a few unpaid interns (for academic credit) to help out #so this week we’re doing interviews #i sat in the interview today with my supervisor to know like how to do it #abd then tomorrow im gonna be alone interviewing the girl who will be taking over my position #AND IM JUST SO SAD LIKE IM INTERVIEWING MY REPLACEMENT…. #and i was discussing the change in my position w some of the volunteers today #and they were all sad to see me go too like none of them knew i was graduating apparently 😭😭 #so theyre like YOU WONT BE HERE NEXT YEAR?? 🥺🥺 #LIKE NO I WONTTTT IM SO SADDDDD #brot posts #and im literally organizing the whole summer volunteer cohort right now too but i wont be able to like #see it through becauss im leaving right when the summer session begins #like im emailing them about the volunteer orientation that i wont be attending. bc its the day after i graduate #i mean my supervisor said i dont ‘have’ to go which implies i could #but like i wont be allowed to oversee the summer volunteers in the actual summer session #so i feel. strange. attending their orientation. and then never seeing them again #like hi everyone im brot im the previous staff member overseeing this place. you wont ever see me again after this #and my replacement wont be starting till the fall so like lol