#or i'll ask my coworker maybe

[daiseukiis]

hii how have you been?

i miss my family 🧍‍♀️

#my mom sent me a video about once your child leaves the mom also needs them #to like be there for them when their mom is stressed when their mom misses them #and i cried for a bit bc i argued with my mom a lot #we didnt see eye to eye but i really do think my mom still thinks of me as her little girl #bc despite not being as close i am to my mom compared to my dad i felt like i had so much burdens for being the eldest and girl #so sometimes i would get upset that my brother would get some special treatment from my mom #idk now i just rlly miss her cuz i miss actly waking up to have brekkie w her #i rlly missed cooking w her b4 i didnt like it bc i thought it was bothersome but now i miss it a lot and her cooking !!! #one of my roommates are husband and wife and i helped cut up the onions and garlic for her bc she started crying from the onions #and then i just completely rmbrd how many times my mom would ask me to help her cook and it makes me miss jmy family !! #i dont rlly get homesick often but i have been in a few arguments w my husband but its like those small quarrels where we're both #tired stressed n feeling defeated like there was no wrong but mentally tapped out #i feel hella lonely tbh ion have many friends outside from me talking to my roommates or my coworkers #and i go once a month to my friends thats an hour and half away but i never mind the travel bc their family treats me well #im supposed to go today but our plans got cancelled and since the travel is far i usually sleepover we were gonna watch a movie !! #we were gonna go watch the mario movie but i might go by myself w my teddy bear #or i'll ask my coworker maybe #but yeah other than that im just trying to survive xoxo im so tired #im also getting so much free cosmetics skincare and fragrances at work that i cant even use all of it #tha shit is displayed on my shelves just cuz #but so excited for my smau heheheheh #༊*·˚ koca has heard your wish #༊*·˚ a kiss of blessing #༊*·˚ a wish upon a goddess #༊*·˚ freddie <3

[hungerpunch]

stop engaging the person with a huge fanbase and giant platform about rpf ships!!!! stop engaging the person with [checks] almost 40k followers + monstrous amplification power through reposts, reblogs, screencaps, etc. about rpf ships!!! stop it stop it stop it STOP IT!!!!!!

#richard siken #f1 #yeah i'll put it in his mf tag #THIS LEADS TO HARASSMENT #talk to him about fandom. sure. talk to him about writing fic fine! talk to him about shipping culture sure! #STOP ASKING HIM AND TALKING TO HIM ABOUT SPECIFIC RPF SHIPS THAT INVOLVE REAL FUCKING PEOPLE OH MY FUCKING GOD #STOP TALKING TO THE ////FAMOUS POET//// ABOUT RPF SHIPS #this is why we can't have nice things #i'm sooooo oh my god i feel so ancient and crabby. can y'all have common mf sense for once in your LIVES!!!! #CAN YOU NOT SEE THE VERY OBVIOUS FALLOUT WHERE REAL PEOPLE ARE TAGGED AND BOMBARDED WITH GRAPHICS AND WORDS THAT A FAMOUS POET SAID #ABOUT THEM FUCKING ONE OF THEIR COWORKERS #CAN YOU NOT SEE THE TINHATS TAKING ALL THIS SHIT AND TWISTING IT INTO 'PROOF' #if you can't idk what to tell you except that maybe you ain't been here long enough to see how this shit GOES LEFT REAL QUICK #fandom talk

[standfucker]

not gonna lie yall, it feels like all I do is either work or recover from work and it's bumming me out big time

#I don't have a chronic illness. I shouldn't be taking this long to recover #idk why I can't get home from work and go straight to writing #it's like I have to spend a day mustering up the will to live in the face of ongoing capitalism #it's my own fault. I would have had a two day weekend but they asked me to come in to cover someone and my clown ass said sure #I want to be pissed at the coworker who called off but it's my own fault for accepting #I had a phone interview today and I am ANXIOUS to know if they're going to bring me in for a second interview I NEED a better job #I just want a job where I dont dread going to work and also maybe get paid more than minimum wage #feeling really depressed about capitalism and working forever and knowing I'll never be able to afford a house #I WANT TIME TO DO MY HOBBIES GOD DAMN IT ;A; #also im lonely as hell. how am I supposed to go out and meet people if I'm too tired to do anything #I wanna meet someone. I wanna be loved romantically.

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Alright so I have 2 weeks to find a new job before I get straight to hell huh

#we have a skeleton crew as is; it's gonna be down to me and one other experienced person #and she's wanting to transfer out bc of the stress; i told her today I'm looking for a way out #and she said that someone else had asked her what was gonna happen when our final qualified coworker goes on leave #and. frankly. i simply do not give a fuck. i have to GO i am losing my mask under the stress and am looking like an asshole #bc i am just. burning out. god. god. i have an idea but I'll need to talk to some ppl first #maybe i WILL try taking that month off if i can #shai speaks

[miserye]

there's a professor at my school who has been mispronouncing my last name (not his fault) for like almost a year at this point and i'm like dreading the day i have to say it or like someone who knows says it because i feel so bad that i've let this happen for so long but also i never have the chance to correct him and it's far too gone at this point

#chatterye #when he first said it he was announcing my name for an award and i couldn't be like #umm actually it's pronounced like this. in front of the entire department???? #so i just.. went w it and it's not a big deal really #and like every other time it's him introducing me to others I CANT SAY ANYTHIGNKGJKEWG #i'm like 99% sure my boss doesn't know and says it the same way he does #i think there's one prof who knows and i never need to introduce myself anyways #but yeah it's so bad i feel so bad for not saying anything #this is something i'll take to my grave if i can LFASMFJASFJ #if he asks i'll be like oh lol either is fine but that's a lie it's not fine #if he goes to my graduation maybe he'll find out there LMFAOOOO #he;s really nice and a great person w a weird sense of humor #think like white guy who has strange specific interests #if you know what i mean #he enjoys star trek and looks like he should be working w computers or engineering (which in a way he is) #anyways it's so funny and it's lowkey a running joke btw me and one of my coworkers/grad student

[thatrandombystander]

Heck yeah lads I've finished cutting out the paper template for Vash's prosthetic arm

Going to start cutting the pieces out on foam tomorrow and possibly start gluing next weekend. This weekend I'll hopefully finish gluing the gun together

#ramblings of a bystander #a bystander makes cosplay #cheers to my coworkers who've been seeing my cutting these out on a craft mat in the kitchen area #no one has commented/asked about it yet #but maybe I'll get a comment when im woeking with foam and a stanley knife instead of paper and craft knife hehehe

[galaxseacreature]

Weird fucking end of the day, y'all!

I've got a progress pride flag pin and a little round ace pride flag pin on my backpack. The progress pin has been there long term but even the ace pin has been on there for probably a year now. I've gotten exactly one chill "hey me too!" in that whole time (nice!)

So ofc it's the day I'm drop dead tired, I'm talking brain absolutely fried, need to get home asap, lay on the floor, and recalibrate type of bone tired. Ofc THIS is the day a coworker I'm walking out of the building with decides to ask what the ace pin is

#It's chill overall but it was kind of awkward and I just feel kinda weird #I'm weird about it much of the time tbh but especially with my brain whirring along at dial up speed from the world's longest Tuesday #So idk. I guess I sort of came out to 2 coworkers today #The first big test of my ''I'll share if asked/directly relevant'' philosophy given being ace is almost never directly relevant or obvious #No one was bad about it I just said it was an ace/ asexuality pride pin #(I have trained myself to say the full word for better comprehension. but not well enough that i don't still say ace first every time lol) #Got a ''oh I don't think I've seen that one before'' #And I said something lame like ''yeah its not as commonly known'' #Awkward beat. No direct follow up. Felt like maybe I should elaborate but not sure about what really #Could have explicitly said I was ace I guess. Probably that was the move. In hindsight and all. definitely the move! #I bet people are more likely to understand a direct coming out social script than a nominally-small-talk-about-pride-flags one #Not that I really know what I want someone to say when I come out either. Just....acknowledgement? something not mean? #Idk it just felt awkward all around. Vaguely weird. Not actually bad really. Just. Threw me off balance. #the literal end of dayness of it all too. timing really is everything in this life i swear #So that was my Tuesday afternoon!

[astrxealis]

my dad just played a bit of Nothing Else Matters just now on guitar he's so cool

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #heyy i am shy with music with my dad ngl. he's the guy who really got me into music after all #on our trip like a couple of weeks ago tho? he now knows my top 3 favs are the 1975 and hozier and mcr ^___^ #today apparently his coworker was like hey anyone wna come with to mcr concert! and i got rlly excited and like damn but it was in aus so.. #and then mom asked if that was a kdrama LMFAOOO and then dad said no theyre emo band..... hes not wrong but i tried to say theyre punk rock #he said No They're Emo LMFAOOOOO i suppose he's not wrong. anyway #idk i really want to learn guitar uh it's good i have my dad who can possibly help out but id rather he not tbh! #+ also uhh we were walking around the other day talking about courses and he was like maybe music (for non-quota course but idk anymore lol #it's complicated) but he was like. music nah bcs you guys arent really musically inclined/talented (?) i forgor anyway a bit taken aback but #hes right unfortunately...? used to play piano as kids. doesnt feel like long ago but it was ages ago #and then i wanted a guitar and we got one but since then i've learned only like 2 chords and it's been over a year now i think. or almost. #idk anymore tbh! time crazy but anyway i will do my best fr. with everything. gah #i'll be honest i kinda really do want to pursue music actually but i'm terrified and confused? uhh complicated complicated complicated frfr #its an acoustic guitar btw. might have been easier if it were electric bcs damn its hard for me to place my fingers right #+ i think theyre cooler but not the point! if i do learn the guitar dad said we cld maybe buy an electric one or a bass so... ^___^ #anyway i think mom is warming up to cats and we might convince her more soon to. yk. allow us to adopt #not buy! i want to adopt. i love cats they deserve everything but i also really love dogs sobbing but moms scared so its fine #i forgot my other thought oh my god goodbye #oh. right! violin! lune likes the violin and considering we now know its our moms fav instrument we may convince her to let lune learn ?!

[unenomainen]

I'm like 99% sure one of my coworkers quit lmaooo

#bc my boss asked if i could do a few extra shifts like 3 weeks from now #like. no one's calling in sick almost 3 weeks in advance #idk maybe i will hear more when i actually go to work again tmr #my boss just texted me on friday #also the coworker who (possibly) quit mentioned she was looking for a new job a few months ago 🤷‍♀️ #i've also been thinking abt starting to look for a new job but i don't think i can do that now #i'll probably be in charge of training new employees since i've been at the reception longest 🤪 #aside from the one who (possibly) quit #anyway.

[onepiexe]

well i left 10 min early. lol.

#logbook #my coworker and i had to redo the tables. and THEN the gc supervisor said she wanted smth else. fuck her. #we had to redo yalls shit that yall didnt do correctly both ways you were told and then ask the ppl who fixed it to do smth else? GENUINELY #fuck you and fuck no. #we were just trying to get smth up that looked semi decent so the tables could be filled bc i had 30 min left of my shift to do that. #and then she made my coworker take all the nonsellable houseplants and put them outside and found the plant an employee wrote #down to $1 for me and took it for herself. i was so tired and irritated i let it go. #cwnt wait to tell bt what happened tmrw in the morning b4 anybody else comes in. #and im working like. a 2-3 hr shift on thurs to make up some hrs. and then i'll stop by nl. and then i'll have the rest of the day to mysel #myself* #ans then fri at hl and sat/sun at ml and then?? #idk maybe mon at hl and then off tues/wed. #idk im irritated and my coworker was like 'im going to get rattled' but not unkindly. she was also irritated i was just more high strung. #im home now. warm cider and ac time. #maybe a shower too idk

[outism-had-a-purpose]

HANDSHAKE AS WELL. reading moby-dick (and classic lit in general) bc of limbus has also led to the funniest pipeline of being autistic about whales bc damn boy. that ishmael sure does not shut up about whales. i was captivated.

SO TRUE. that ishmael loves his whales as much as ahab is set on murdering moby dick. Invested every time he goes on a tangent about them. Man has whale dimensions tattooed on his arms. respect. One of the crew fell into the spermaceti organ as they were trying to extract the oil and all Ishmael can say is how wonderful it would be to die in a whale or somehtign along those lines.

#assorted outisms #the beautiful cetology chapter would have deeply interested me if I was not on a moving car and feeling nauseous #maybe once i finish crime and punishment i'll go on a second reread on moby dick to get a better handle on it #i was reading most of the book during my work breaks so. very much a little hurried and not that invested when your coworkers are #fucking around in the break room #the asks had a purpose

[cosmocove]

making plans is weird

#bonk.txt #my birthday's on saturday n my mom asked me if i was planning on making a cake cause i usually do that for my sister's birthday #but i dont really like cake enough to have a whole one to myself n i would have to end up eating it by myself unless i got my mom to take #like at least half of it to work so her coworkers could eat it cause my mom wouldnt eat much n my brother doesnt eat homemade stuff #i like baking but baked sweets arent really my thing maybe i'll make the severely misread muffin recipe again those were pretty good #or that one banana bread recipe that was also really good in muffin form since i found out what nuts i like in them (walnuts btw 👍) #idk where the muffin tins are i'll have to ask later

[greppelheks]

I've always ben drawn to working with kids, those were the two things I studied before I had to stop due to my mental health, and now I'm at a point where I need a new job but no clue what. So I emailed some places that work with kids today to ask them about the possibility of working there while I study one day a week.

#idk if I'm gonna do it but it doesn't hurt to look into it #idk everytime I'm thinking about studying again it's immediately kids! #I'll talk to some friends about it #and look into it some more #personal #but im kinda excited??? #I was waiting for a coworker who I never see while I made this post #and we had a drink together #and she asked me if I still liked my job 'cause she felt like it didn't suit me #she's intuitive as shit #so i told her not really here's why but here's why im not leaving #and I told her a bit about how i dont know what i want but that im thinking about working witj kids maybe but not sure yet

[fxllfaiiry]

─ you're the sunflower ੈ✩‧₊˚

✶ pairing: miguel o'hara x fem!reader

✶ synopsis: everyone on the team loves you, expect miguel who seems to hate you more than anyone.

✶ warnings: angst!! major angst. sunshine!reader x grumpy!miguel. reader is nicknamed sunflower, mentions of death.

✶ notes: there's one spanish sentence in this, I'm not good with spanish so if I've made a mistake please tell me so i can fix it! part two is already up!!!

Everyone on the team loved you from the moment you joined, everyone, except Miguel. 

You knew Miguel was cold towards everyone, but he was extra cold with you. Maybe it was because of how different your personalities were. 

You were the embodiment of sunshine, always positive in any situation, putting others before yourself. Hence why everyone calls you sunflower, it fits perfectly, Miles was proud of coming up with it. 

Miguel on the other hand was cold and distant but that didn't stop you from trying to get him to open up. You'd try to have simple conversations with him but nothing, all you would receive in reply was an eye roll or a slight grunt, but you wouldn't give up that easily. 

Like today, you got him some coffee. 

"Morning, boss. Got you some coffee." You said in your usual cheerful tone. 

"Why?" He raised his eyebrows, looking down at you suspiciously. That's the most he's said to you all week. 

"Because I wanted to." You shrugged, placing it down on his desk. 

He steped down walking towards his desk, you couldn't help but stare at him, unfortunately for you, everything about him was so attractive, it's such a shame he hated you. 

"This isn't how I like my coffee." 

"Huh?" You snapped out of your daydream at the sound of his voice. 

"The coffee, it tastes terrible. Get it from another place next time." 

"Well, actually I made it-" But he had already walked away from you not listening to a word you said. "Alright, never mind, I'll just go back to work." You mumbled hurt by his words. 

"Wait, hold on." You looked up, thinking, maybe he'll say something nice after all. 

"Yeah?" 

"Take the coffee with you, I won't be drinking it." 

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

"Girl, why do you look so sad? Did Miguel do something again?" Jess asked with a frown, she did not like seeing you sad. 

"No."

"Sunflower…"

"Okay, yes." Miguel being cold towards you was normal, he never spoke to you unless necessary. Out of everyone here, he probably hated you the most, even more than Miles.  

"Sunflower, I've told you to stop trying." Jess sighed. 

"I know, I know… why does he hate me so much, Jess?" 

"That's just the way he is, don't overthink it. It's his loss, baby." She replied, gently patting your shoulder. 

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

Today was going to be a good day, you were so sure of it. 

But, of course, you were wrong. 

Everything was going great up until a few hours ago. 

Miguel had assigned you on a mission to catch an anomaly, alongside a few other spider-people. His instructions were clear, stick to the plan and catch the anomaly. It was supposed to be simple. 

If only you didn't disobey him. You screwed up badly, and because of that, you could have been killed. 

"Why don't you ever listen?" Miguel shouted. No one had ever seen him this angry. 

"I was just tryin-" 

"¡Ay, por el amor de Dios!" Being yelled at by your boss in front of your coworkers was humiliating, everyone was looking at you with pity. 

"I'm sick of this, why can’t you follow simple instructions? Is it that hard to understand?" He barked, towering over you. 

"It's not a big deal." You tried to keep your composure, you didn't want to humiliate yourself further by bursting into tears. 

"Not a big deal? You could've died! A simple mistake would have ruined the whole mission." 

Don't cry. Don't cry. 

"But we're all fine, aren't we?" You weakly chuckled. That was the wrong thing to say because it only made him angrier. 

"Oh? If that's the attitude you have then you shouldn't even be on the team." Ouch. 

"Miguel, I think that's enough-" Hobie said, quickly jumping in. 

"Not now, Hobie." He growled. 

Never once did you think that you'd be in a situation like this. 

"If you put more focus on trying to be good at your job, rather than impressing me, we wouldn't even be here!" Oh, so he did notice that. 

At this point, tears were streaming freely down your face and you made no attempt to stop them. 

"Yep, you got it, boss." You smiled up at him through your tears. It was pathetic, but you did not care, you just wanted to leave and never come back. 

"Next time make sure this doesn't happen." 

"It won't happen next time." That's because there won't be a next time.

#📂 ‧₊˚ my works .ᐟ #miguel o'hara #miguel o'hara x reader #spiderman across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #spiderman atsv #spiderman x reader #spiderman #spiderman 2099 #spiderman 2099 x reader #oscar isaac x reader #oscar isaac #miguel o'hara x you #miguel o'hara angst

[yo9urt]

balaaaarrlrlalrlggh

#mine #i forgot to mention this on the last post but i think the fact that he asked about my shifts next quarter is a good sign #because what if it means hes trying to see if we have them together because he enjoys my company ???? #im not reading into it. i know better than that at my big age #if he does feel that way then it is mutual though and i kind of would like to be maybe outside of work friends with him...maybe..i dont #know!!!! #sigh #but also i just realized hes not going to be on my sunday shift next quarter which is so sad #who am i supposed to talk to when i finish my back of house tasks...????? #someone NEW??? a DIFFERENT coworker???? #what if they give me someone ive never met before???? #what if they give me someone boring who wont talk to me and become my friend?????????????????????????? #lame. i'll miss having him there #i didnt rly realize that until like just now which makes me feel like i didnt savor today enough #:( #plus our other coworker is on this shift and shes rly fun and i hope shell stay on sundays on the spring especially cause she worked sundays #with me in the fall too and if springtime sundays are desolate with no friendly faces i will cry all day #siiigh