#past me whyyy

[pipthehuman]

present me: oh it'll be fine future me can do it

later present me: god I hate past me

#I AM ALWAYS PRESENT ME #why #past me whyyy #not star trek

[nox-sssscraps]

Gawd I’m. it’s 4:20am and I’ve been listening to exclusively the new 21 savage album since it dropped last night and I’m thinking abt my ocs . And spacewaffles I suppose

#RRRGG I can never get Bacon’s colors right but it’s ok!!! #it’s sooo okay and fine I’m deffo not upset abt it ^_^ #lifesteal smp #baconnwaffles0 #planetlord #oc: Corduroy #im so proud of the name Corduroy I really like it . need to flesh out her character more <33 #UGH ok I dislike how Planet’s head/hair looks and Bacon’s hair is too fucking saturated AND you can’t tell that’s it’s braids !!! #Corduroy looks fine. love you Corduroy <333 #according to procreate I spent 2.5 hours on this OHGG MY GOD WHYYY #ok caption true tho new 21 kinda awesome #my favorites so far r see the real and uhh #wait hold on #and just like me . special mention should’ve wore a bonnet . THAT song takes me straight back to middle school and swing screen doors <3333 #AND ICE POPS AND WATER BALLON FIGHTS that we were allowed to start past 7pm cuz parents would make us clean up and we had school #damn. I love music #ok bye I’ve been here for long enough and i probs need to sleep lol #nox art

[izzystinyhands]

Working in a shop in a small town is such a fucking weird experience bc they all know my name, and address me as a friend, but dont know the first thing abt me but i know what coffee they like, the night they have pizza each week, which cigarettes they prefer, why they buy this juice over that juice, what their kids are doing in college, why they last went to the doctor, everything except their goddamn names if im lucky

#most of our regulars i know all that AND their names #but they dont know like. anything past if i have horses if i mentioned it in passing #living in a small town where everyone knows u means i have become a slightly private person bc whyyy does everyone know everything #consistently fucks me up

[pierz]

i will never understand why tumblr can try to recommend you blogs you have blocked

#dexter.txt #text #every time i’ve checked the mogai tags for the past week it’s shown me the blog of a transmed i blocked ages ago #whyyy

[ikyw-t]

this is a moodboard for how my brain has been feeling the past couple weeks. yes i spent like 10 minutes organizing these pictures if that tells u anything about how im feeling

#not that anyone asked but it's bc my adderall rx changed a month ago from extended release to short release #bc the extended release was making me feel super anxious in the afternoon when it would start to wear off #which is obviously counterproductive and i am already anxiety-inclined if that's even a phrase #so ive been on the short release version of adderall for the last month and overall it was going a lot better #the anxiety in the afternoon pretty much disappeared which was nice #the past like three weeks tho ive been dealing with being unable to stop picking at my skin and cuticles too #which is something ive struggled with since middle school in various degrees and tho it was getting better in the past couple years #ive never struggled with it LESS than i have since starting adderall in like march. and my god. what a joy and relief that was #so now that it's started happening again it's honestly pretty upsetting bc it's kinda physically painful and also just rly embarrassing #like i dont even have that bad acne probably but being unable to stop picking at it makes it like ten times worse #like i haven't had acne on my back in like three years since i finished taking accutane #and in the past three weeks i have but it's rly only bc i can't stop scratching at it and so there's gonna be scarring too #it's just very embarrassing and also disappointing nd disheartening since i was finally able to NOT have to deal with this for a few months #it's appalling and upsetting to realize that this was just my life for like a decade before i got treatment for adhd #and once i did it a lot of my impulsive and unconscious skin picking pretty much disappeared. #like damn bro the amount of times my mom and everyone in my family told me how nice my skin would be if i could just leave it alone. yeah. #anyway. im gonna talk to the doctor about this next month when i get my refill obviously bc i am not having a good time #even tho this was working rly great for the first three weeks. like whyyyy can't medicine just work. whyyy #anywayyyy if u read all this no u didnt bc it's embarrassing for me lol #i just felt the need to talk about it cause it's been upsetting me today

[transgnckon]

When you mostly do vague titles for your fics in google docs & now you can’t find this one specific thing you were writing & now you’re like 90% sure you probably deleted it or something & now you’re sad

#txt #IF I DELETED IT ILL FIGHT PAST ME WHYYY WOULD YOU DO THAT

[aroaceofthesea]

Do you guys ever. Keep meeting the same person randomly for like a week and then go months without seeing them? Even tho you havent changed what you do and they have no reason to either?

#this has been happening to me so much this year #there was a time where i met this guy from music like. every single day for 2 weeks like why💀 #we had barely ever talked we could catch up the first day but then? what were we supposed to talk about??? #(and still he insisted on not ignoring me😔😔) #or like in the mornings? i used to find someone every day for a week and proceed to never find them again? #(this has changed recently bc i go very late every day but i used to always get basically the same train and this happened idk) #or there was this time when i started being late if i was at aprox 10 past 8 going into the train station i would meet this girl #and then it stopped (sure there was a while when she had exams and a while when i did but thats over i should see her every now and then?) #idk it feels like its happening a lot and i dont understand whyyy #i keep meeting ppl bc somehow theres always someone arriving at the same time as me at uni or things like thay #but its like a few weeks of someone and then it stops whyy #theres ppl i wanna keep meeting ppl i wanna stop meeting why does it have to work like that #mine #rant #life

[such-a-downer]

Satus update:

#lol #personal #just whyyy #i wish cancelling sleep is easy #but is not #I've been pulling 1 or 2 am sleeps this past days and my body is telling me to prioritoze sleep if i don't wanna get sick for 2 weeks #time is just never enough

[an-absolute-nightmare]

how do you stop grieving? how do you stop the weight on your chest dropping randomly over something that's certainly in the past now? how do you stop yesterday from ruining today? i've tried crying about it. but it still comes up in waves and makes me feel like i'm almost back there. idk. haven't i cried about it enough while i was going through it. shouldn't it be over now, now that it's supposedly over. when am i going to get over it

#i'm doing well. but i'm also grieving for the person who i couldn't be because i was too busy trying to survive #idk i feel like i've gone from 'bad things are happening and probably because i deserve it' #to 'bad things happen it's random you're not uniquely responsible for something that isn't even in your control happening' #to 'but whyyy. why did it happen. it should not have happened. please take me back to the past and make it not have happened.' #i was fine until it should not have happened but i seem stuck in the 'take me back and stop it' phase for the past couple months #which is insane because like. #at least 70% of the things that happened to me in the last six years or so were absolutely external #there's no decision i could've made that would've stopped covid happening for example. #none of the terrible things that preceeded that could've been stopped by any decision i made #but i want it not to have happened. #i know i'm grieving but i want to stop. #because how am i supposed to carry about my life when i'm gonna be hit by a burst of wanting to cry three times a day #nothing bad is even happening #but i'm still so. teary.

[depressedzelda]

uargh and so on and so forth

#im sorry but my life is so fucking stupid. the triviality of the cruel dumbass shit im constantly having to deal with is so fucking stupid #like i am the trueman show exceot nobody even watches and my show got cancelled but they didnt tell me lol #whyyy am i 'difficult' for being the only fucking person in my family that caresss about covid LOL #why am i the onky one that was literally ostracized and bullied nonstop during the time i needed and WANTED my family the most #and they hsd SOOOOOOOOO MUCH TIME AND SO MANY OPPORTUNITIES TO STEP IN AND HELP #AND IT WOULDVE BEEN E A S Y!!!!! EASYYYYY ALL I NEEDED WAS 1 PERSON TO C A R E #but no instead they straight up bullied me past the point of suicidal intention Even after i picked myself up again #like they dont understand it is literally all their fault lol i spent the first 20 years if my life apologizing and doing anything they #asked or wanted i was the perfecttt kid lmfaoooo but fuuuuuck me right #and now i have to be the responsible one and theyre all the fucking children making everything so fucking hard FOR WHAT #like you really wonder why i didnt want you in my life anymore??? ID BE BETTER OFF!!!!!! THIS HAS BEEN PROVEN!!!! #i swear to god. when omi does die...i have no reason to interact or speak to them anymore #if they want to blame me for that fine. they can do that. FAR away from me.

[catrinkets]

i want to play halo but then i remember last time i played i had to quit because it was making me angry so maybe not

#i cant stand the flood bruh i went from being afraid of them to being angry #ok still somewhat afraid but moreso of the infected ones #but ANGRY because WHYYY!! Do the fucking infected beasts have BAZOOKAS!!! #I’m on 3 shitty bars of health and they pulled up on me with a grenade launcher i mean WHAT A SICK JOKE! #AND THERES SOOOOO FUCKING MANY #I’m gonna get past it eventually… but for now i complain!

[saltytyrus]

he said, on tuesday, that the syllabus would be up by 5:00pm central yesterday...and it wasn't

#much to my disappointment and impatience #im at the stage of wanting little tasks and being bored that there's nothing #I'll probably regret not soaking it in now #but seriously this isnt the first go around for an online class for them #whyyy isn't everything already typed and ready to go/posted #week 1 is almost over and week 1 introduction information is still slowly trickling in #at least give me the syllabus 🥹 #also his information section is empty??? just copy paste it to make it look full 😭 #i know it already exists #you're giving nothing ☹️ #also weird how u give a 2nd week 1 assignment today / have it due by monday 10am when we could've had all week with it #its easy and introductory but stilll #where was it on tuesday (which really should've been monday but thats a whole other thing)

[mieltelecheycrema]

tummy 😔

#HURTS SO BAD WHYYY #salami must you betray me like this ive tried to give my heart to you but my mind and stomach have created iron bars to seal you out #ive loved you in the past but your attacks upon me go ouch owie hurty so bad #or maybe it was the pork or all the pizza idk lol #or soup my tummy has been on a bit of a like sensitive thing recently and im trying to treat her kindly

[foolishrages]

trying to learn how to edit again after not touching ae since like 2018. im going to scream

#WHYYY DID I EVER STOP (SHAKES PAST ME) STOP BEING DEPRESSED AND DROPPING ALL YOUR HOBBIES YOU FUCKED IT UP FOR ME #alice's talkshow

[ajortga]

bear hugs

pairing: tara carpenter x pouty reader

summary: you can't fall asleep until your nestled in your girlfriends arms and kisses.

word count: 600+ (drabble)

It's been 30 minutes, and you can't sleep without feeling your girlfriend by your side.

"Y/N, I still have homework sunshine, I promise we can cuddle when I finish, it'll only take me 15 minutes."

A whine pasts your lips as you kick your feet on your bed, the only light from the salt lamps, fairy lights, and night light.

"Pleeeeaseeee"

She giggles, pressing her lips to your forehead, "Soon baby."

"Nooooo," you groan, sleepily as you twist and turn in bed, "Whyyy can't youuuu?"

"I just need to finish this baby, I'll almost be done," she coaxes, opening her laptop and clicking away.

You grunt putting on your most innocent look as your curled up into bed and watching her every move, "Pleaseeee? For me??.."

Tara doesn't even turn around, making you angry, well from this angle you just looked even cuter.

"It's not due till Wednesday, it's Monday. Tara baby pleasee it's not fairrrr.."

She hums, typing.

"You hate me," you say, getting out of bed and wrapping the blanket around you. You look like a grumpy child that got rejected from getting a stuffy at the toy store. You murmur angrily, making a small stomp before leaving the door. Tara hums.

Tara waited 5 small moments before she heard your footsteps and opened the door again, to see your tiny figure trod back to the bed, "Too cold, changed my mind." You say, voice a tiny as you don't look at Tara. Obviously mad.

A soft giggle past her lips, shaking her head as you flop into bed, groaning and complaining.

"I just want to cuddle with my girlfriend," you pout, stomping your leg and turning off your salt lamp. You turn away from her and cover yourself with a blanket, huffing. "Hmph, see if I care."

You care, too much. You had a bad day and you want your girlfriend who currently is not paying attention to you. You face the wall, arms crossed, "No fair."

You hear a sigh come out from her, her laptop immediately closing, "You know I can't say no to that," Tara whispers softly to herself. She slips on her t-shirt and some shorts as she crawls into bed, seeing the way your small figure wrapped in a blankety burrito. She untangles yourself from the blanket, seeing your tiny figure in a laced tank top and the fluffy heart pajama pants she gifted to you. Tara shuffles into the warmth of the blanket, seeing the way you shifted slightly.

"I'll cuddle with you," she whispers, pressing her lips to your ear and seeing the way you immediately turned around and scooted into her embrace, exhaling in happiness.

"Do that stupid assignment tomorrow, I can't sleep without you here," you say, looking sad as she plays with your hair and scratches your scalp, making you coo.

"Okay okay," she laughs breathily, "I'll ask Mindy to finish it, I know she took answers from Anika, but hush, you haven't been able to sleep for the past hour."

You murmur, breathing in her scent that immediately comforts you. A soft yawn passes your lips, "Because..." yawn "I can't fall asleep without my girlfriend.." your voice trails off, slowly growing sleepy.

"I know, but I'm here now, go to sleep," she whispers, kissing your lips softly before spooning you, you turn back around and nuzzle into her chest. She rubs circles behind your back, knowing the way it makes you fall asleep much quicker.

No longer than 3 minutes later does a soft snore sound throughout the room, making Tara smile and turn off the light before wrapping her arms around you and pulling you closer.

#vada cavell x reader #jenna ortega x you #jenna ortega x fem!reader #tara carpenter x reader #jenna ortega x reader #tara carpenter x you #jenna ortega x y/n #jenna marie ortega #vada cavell x y/n #jenna ortega imagine

[euaphoric]

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✩‧₊˚ pairing — boyfriend!jk x hyperfem!f!reader

✩‧₊˚ warnings — fluff, sm*t (not too detailed tho), cutesy couple stuff, v dramatic koo, marking, dry h*mping, c*ckwarming

nothing’s more fun than sitting on your boyfriend’s lap, looking pretty while doing your makeup <3

banner made by moi, pls don’t steal! (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧

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“mmph, hah—stopp that tickles!” your voice squeaks from forcefully letting out a string of giggles. attempting to apply eyeshadow through the vanity in front of you but failing miserably. all you can hear is him whining and moaning, “but whyyy? i’m having too much fun with youu.” ring clad fingers creep up past your collarbone again, jungkook was getting way more entertainment out of this than you. “‘c-cause you’re distracting me, gah!” the noises you’re making are obnoxiously loud at this point but he didn’t seem to care at all. you’ve given up—tears began to form in the corners of your eyes now, this tickle spree has gone on for far too long but no matter how much you protest and squirm he wouldn’t let you out his grasp.

it started off tranquil at first, casually sitting on his lap with his arms locked around your waist—nuzzling his chin in your neck as you do your makeup to head out with friends later. you were trying to keep him entertained by narrating everything you’re doing, acting like one of those beauty gurus you like to watch on tiktok or youtube. you wore your my melody spa headband to keep the strands out your face, along with your favorite pastel mini dress, the knee high stockings with satin bows were the cherry on top set the look. jungkook gets bored super easily, his mind will draw attention elsewhere in a split second and usually that ends up with bothering you as much as possible. he’d sneak quick little kisses here and there, play with your thighs, basically keeping his hands anywhere but to himself. that’s when he started tickling you for no absolute reason, he loved hearing your high-pitched squeals—it was pure serotonin to him, he needed more to brighten his day.

“koo!” you cry, “please!” your shaky hands fumble with the brush in attempt to playfully hit him with it. sigh, you just wanna do your makeup in peace. “l-leavee me alone!” it sounded nowhere near threatening coming from you, there was not a scary bone in your body whatsoever. “like i’ll ever do that peaches, you’re my babyy,” he chimes, glittering you with sweet endearing compliments “you shouldn’t be so stinkin’ cute! wanna eat you.” when he pretends to bite your ear this only makes the uncontrollable laughter continue, and by now you’re never going to finish this makeup in time. “i really need.. t-to get goin’ ssoon!” there was no indication what the time was currently but you know you’ve wasted enough that you were going to be running late meeting your friends. “mmm..but i don’t want you to go, stay here!” jungkook finally caves in with stopping the tickles (only for now) but gets all mopey about you leaving him.

“eeek, i’m free!” you graciously cheer now that you can go back to what you’re doing. “so handsy today, maybe it’s the strawberry lotion..” “ah, so that’s what it is?” he asks, “was wonderin’ why you smelled like strawberry shortcake.” “mhm, i know you like that one.” you grab your eyeshadow brush to dip it in your fav dior palette, choosing a pretty peach color to add to your eyelid, then apply silver glitter on top to make it pop. “who you looking all cute for like this anyway, huh? i won’t be able to protect you from all the pervs staring at what’s mine!” god he can be so overly dramatic at times, always wanting to keep you inside so no one can even look at you. of course he doesn’t do it in a toxic way but he gets jealous real easily and never let’s go of your hand when out in public—he just feels so lucky to have stumbled upon someone like you, cute, smart, funny, sexy, kind, all in one.

lush pink lips trail down to your shoulders, the slightest touch leaving you with goosebumps as he’s still hugging your waist firmly in his embrace. “ugh…don’t want you to go.” jungkook murmurs against you, gliding his hands up and down your body, he sounded so sad and it didn’t help that you could see him pouting through the mirror. “i won’t be out for long, i’ll be back before you know it kookie!” he still didn’t sound convinced. he was very selfish with you, he wants you all to himself most of the time so whenever you go hang out with friends he makes it such a big production. “you’re so beautiful baby,” he coos, “my cute little princess.” his veiny hands shift underneath the hem of your dress, caressing your plump, ample thighs. more delicate kisses are planted up your neck, he’s become increasingly quiet now—focusing solely on this moment of cherishing you. he might’ve gotten a bit too comfortable as one of his hands traveled up to fondle your breasts, not even realizing until you said something.

“was last night not enough for you?” you giggle, reaching for your lipstick. “no” he simply replied, “i need you 24/7.” “all day, every day.” he was too precious, you wanted to put him in your pocket forever. you moved ever so slightly in his bond, noticing the familiar feeling of his bulge against your clothed heat. just that tiny bit of movement was enough to get you flustered. you hadn’t sensed his overt horniness until now—just bathing in his warmth and letting his desires roam free, you didn’t think he’d actually get turned on by all of this. then again, this is jungkook we’re talking about, he’ll get horny just by seeing your ankle. “mmph…want you baby.” his pleas are so adorable to you, but you’re already short on time so you had to hurry soon. jungkook rocks his hips into you, sliding his fingertips down your sides while nipping at your neck. “we gotta make it quick though..” you whisper softly, grinding against him to match his lazy movement. “you have my word princess.” he steers your hips in place to keep you exactly where he wants, steadily running his hands over your exposed skin. the tent in his pants only grew as you kept rubbing your ass on him, he’s simply going to jizz himself if it continues like this.

“fuck, can’t take anymore. want to feel youu.” he whines immaturely, never able to contain any patience within. “better hurry then.” you remind him of the time crunch, with that answer he wastes not another second to pull it out of his sweatpants—sliding your panties aside and slipping in with ease. your body’s become so accustomed to him that you don’t need foreplay half the time. once he’s fully settled in he stays motionless for a while, letting you adjust to his thickness. several fleeting kisses saturate your back, leading them up to your neck once more to leave small love bites. you’re unsure of why he still hasn’t moved yet but you don’t question it, you’re enjoying the moment you two are sharing. it didn’t really feel like you were being sexual with him; more so a passionate intimate bonding that runs deeper than just sex. jungkook loves you intensely and you can feel it in every fibre of his being. the way he holds you, kisses you, pampers you, makes sure you feel like the most beautiful girl in the universe to him. he was so yours. “we don’t even need to fuck, i can stay like this baby.” he rests his head on your shoulder, drinking in the sweetness of your strawberry fragrance. “okay.” you smile, the feeling of him pulsating inside emits a glowing sensation. “as you wish my love.”

#jungkook x reader #jungkook fluff #jungkook smut #jeon jungkook smut #jungkook x f reader #bts smut #jungkook x female reader #jungkook imagine #jeon jungkook imagines #jungkook x you