The Moon and Stars
Pairing: Gerard Way x Reader
Summary: Kinktober Day Fifteen: Overstimulation
Warnings: NSFW content
Tags: oral sex, dacryphilia, hurt/comfort, sub!gerard, praise kink, gender-neutral reader
Word Count: 4125
A/N: Woo! Kinktober is officially over! I almost gave this a Moon Song title but decided to save that for my many unwritten Frank angst fics. Anyway, thank you to @/mcrredacted’s anons for fueling this fic. Enjoy!
There were many things that Gerard didn’t understand.
He didn’t understand calculus or quantum physics. He didn’t know how he got here, or how trees and people were formed from hydrogen and dust. More than anything though, he didn’t understand you.
Sure, he could grasp base-level information about you. You were pretty and sarcastic, and you never made him feel stupid. The confusing part though, was why you liked him so much.
Sometimes he’d catch you staring. It wasn’t intimidating, but rather softening, making him melt as you gazed at him wondrously. He’d lay his head in your lap, watching old cartoons on Friday nights, and your hands would comb through his hair, occasionally pausing to hold his cheek. And he would look up at you, all innocent and sweet, curious at first before sending you a soft smile. For as much as he loved you, sometimes he thought you loved him more—even if he’d never admit it.
I mean, you told him that all the time. How much you loved him, how pretty he was, how happy you were that he was yours. You’d mark up his neck with lipstick kisses and he would get all flushed and whiny, pouting until you kissed his lips. Kissing would ultimately spin into heated make-out sessions with Gerard in your lap, rutting against your thigh and whimpering until he came in his pants. Sweet shame would boil up in his stomach, and he’d burn and look away, mortified by his own actions. But even still, you found him precious, your lips moving slowly against his before helping him change. And no matter how many times it happened, he could never understand it.
That didn’t mean it stopped though. Even if Gerard didn’t find himself worthy of your attention and love, you still treated him with the same tenderness. It wasn’t like he didn’t want it, he just didn’t think he deserved it—especially today.
He’d been off virtually the entire day, and you couldn’t figure out why. Even if the reason wasn’t a necessity, it would help to know why he was being so quiet, shutting himself away and hardly leaving the basement. Typically, when you’d come over, you’d hang around the living room or walk up to the gas station. But today, you’d simply hung around in his bed, Gerard hardly moving as you watched some kitschy horror movie. Occasionally, you’d glance over at him, kissing the seemingly-permanent frown on his face. It didn’t do much, only winning you a tight-lipped smile before it returned.
You had to get to the bottom of this, or at least find a way to help. After another round of silence and loving pecks, you knew you were getting nowhere. With a sigh, you slumped against his wall. “Baby, what’s wrong?”
Gerard paused as you spoke, mulling over his response. He never wanted to worry you, and this really wasn’t important anyway. He sighed too but shrugged instead of answering. You thought for a moment, torn between pulling the truth from him and leaving him alone. After a moment, you chose the former, deciding that it was worth one more try.
“Gerard,” you tried again, your voice soft and genuine. “What’s the matter?”
His eyes stayed glued on the television, distracting himself with grizzly murders while the truth came out. “I’m not enough for you.”
The way he said it made you freeze, slightly shocked by his response. He sounded as if he believed it, and he gave himself a mental beatdown as he spared you a glance. You looked so heartbroken, caught off guard by his response as you rolled towards him.
“Oh, baby,” you frowned, tentatively reaching toward him. “Who said that?”
Meekly, he cuddled into your chest, moving for the first time in an hour to bury his head in your neck. His breath on your skin sent shivers down your spine, but you remained placid while you carded through his hair.
“Me,” he pouted, sighing with a hint of embarrassment. “I just—why? Why do you love me?”
Dumbfounded, you gave a vague response. “Why wouldn’t I love you?”
“That’s not an answer.”
You smiled softly, knowing how flustered he would get over an explanation. While you stroked his hair, your eyes fell shut, satisfied by the neediness in his tone. “You really want to know?” you asked, and you could feel him nod against you. “Because you’re sweet and caring, and you’re so good to me. You’re the prettiest boy I’ve ever seen, you know that?”
He blushed, but he still wasn’t content with your answer. “There are lots of pretty boys. Why me?”
“Do you want me to show you?”
Naively, he nodded, sitting up with intrigue. “Good boy,” you cooed, stroking his hair while he waited to be kissed.
You couldn’t leave him waiting like that, so you tilted his chin up and pressed your lips to his, receiving a happy hum from Gerard. He liked kisses—the domesticity and how he could get them any time. It wasn’t like you could drop to your knees and give him head on the subway, but you could hold his hand and kiss his cheeks until he blushed instead. Your lips were soft and moved fluidly against his own, and your hand unfurled to cradle his cheek. You treated him with such fragility and care that he could’ve cried, and his heart practically swelled as you licked at his lower lip.
His lips parted, but you pulled away, letting him whine and catch his breath. “See? You’re my sweet boy, aren’t you?” you breathed, caressing his cheek while your other hand traced circles on his waist.
“Mhm,” he hummed, leaning in again.
Much to his dismay, you pulled back. A sly grin decorated your features, “Say it. Tell me you’re my sweet boy.”
A crimson blush coated his cheeks, and he wiggled in your lap. “I’m your sweet boy.”
Your smile only grew, but he bit back a sheepish groan. “See? You’re such a good boy.”
Again, you kissed him, but this one held more passion. He responded with more certainty, finally grasping where your head was at when your hand slipped beneath his shirt. Gerard was going to learn how much you loved him, and he was already starting to believe it.
You gave into your own urges, tugging his hair while you kissed him, relishing in the surprised moan that tumbled out. Gerard always sounded so pretty in pain, as shameful as it was to admit. Tears would well in his eyes, threatening to spill over final straws, and you were always there to wipe them away. But god, did he look pretty when they streamed down his face, his chest heaving and cheeks pink, near-silent whimpers cracking through sobs. It was his vulnerability that got you going, and you wanted it now, too. Not over spilled milk, but something better.
He initiated the next few kisses, eliciting soft laughs from you as he chased after your lips, desperate for your touch. “Be patient, baby,” you told him, brushing your lips against his.
Aside from a hopeless whine, Gerard complied, letting you hold his jaw and slip your tongue past his lips. It swirled against his, easy and slow until you pulled away with his lower lip between your teeth. The gentle tug had him moaning again, and you swept your tongue across his lip once more, soothing the soft nip. “You sound so pretty,” you murmured, returning your hands to his hips. “My pretty boy.”
Gerard warmed up at your nicknames, melting in your arms while you caressed his skin. Your hands lingered on his stomach for a moment, tracing over his hip bones and the curve of his waist, and you had to pull away.
“God, look at you,” you said again, lifting the hem of his shirt. “You’re so beautiful.”
The subtle peek beneath his clothes gave you a familiar rush, an eclectic mix of love and lust. You kissed him one more time, warm and slow, etching the taste of your tongue into his memory forever. He was still slightly pink, shifting in your lap as he grew hard beneath his pajama pants. You knew what you had to do, pulling away gently with a final kiss to his cheek.
Slowly, you brought your lips to his ear, ghosting it as you whispered a request. “Lay back against the pillows for me, okay?”
Gerard nodded, reluctantly climbing from your lap and laying flush against the mattress. Curiosity and need swam in his eyes, and he shifted impatiently while he waited to be touched. You paused for a moment to study him, letting your eyes wander across his figure. Even in simple tees and Star Wars pajamas, he was the prettiest boy you’d ever seen.
Sat at the end of his bed, you spread his legs and settled between them. It was a temporary position, meant for nothing more than stripping him, but Gerard still burned as you ran your hands along his thighs. Anticipation surged through him, and your fingertips danced towards his hips, briefly passing the bulge in his pants, to which he gave a sharp inhale.
“Be patient, baby,” you told him. “Be my good boy.”
He whined high in his throat, something pathetic and weak, fueling your desire to break him. One of your hands lifted his shirt up, the other splayed across his belly as you smoothed over it. “Pretty,” you hummed, his skin soft beneath your palm.
“No,” he frowned, crossing his arms over his chest.
”Yes,” you nodded, placing your hands on his, waiting for them to unfold. “You’re pretty.”
Hesitantly, he pulled his hands away, not without a loving squeeze from you though. Gerard had always been insecure about his body, but you made it your mission to build his comfort. He was beautiful, and he deserved to feel that way. With lingering reluctance, he let you lift up his shirt, hiking it over his head. Your gaze stayed locked on him before gliding down to his chest, porcelain and pale. Carefully, you leaned down to kiss him, catching his lips between yours.
You were always fluent, lips moving languidly while your hand stroked his hip, using the other for stability. Slow kisses grew deeper, and a softer sort of passion hung in the air as they lingered lower. Down his neck and across his collarbones, now spotted in a light rouge, until you were kissing down his sternum. He could feel his insecurities melting away as you scattered light pecks across his stomach, humming sweet words simultaneously. Then came a tug at his pajama pants and the sound of his hitching breath, signifying your real intentions.
They weren’t malicious, but rather salacious, a deep desire for him growing in the pit of your stomach. A mere glimpse at him triggered an onslaught of filthy ideas, and Gerard lay oblivious to your plan.
“Will you be good for me?” you asked, gentle and encouraging.
He nodded, “Mhm.”
It was soft and sure, a small smile tugging at his lips. He expected something innocent–a peaceful blowjob and a few affirmations, but he was painfully wrong. Neither of those would set in long-term, and he’d continue to look down on himself unless you did something memorable. Gerard deserved the moon and stars, and if you couldn’t give them to him, you’d make sure he saw them.
Beaming back, you slid off his pants, revealing his hard-on beneath them. A small wet spot had begun to form, his boxers stained with arousal. Shamefully, Gerard looked away, mumbling an apology. He had been grinding against you earlier, sitting in your lap and shifting suggestively, so it wasn’t much of a surprise. Instead of acknowledging his embarrassment, you positioned yourself on his mattress, stroking his thighs while you kissed him through the fabric.
They were nothing like the kisses you had given him earlier, soft traded in for sultry. They were hot and open-mouthed, and he bit his lip to prevent a quiet cry. Gerard was always so sensitive, and just the pressure of your tongue through his boxers made him writhe. Your hands toyed with his waistband, fiddling with the fabric as you continued to caress his hips. After a quick–and apologetic–buck, you caved and stripped him.
With anyone else, he would’ve felt self-conscious and embarrassed, covering himself up and swallowing his shame, but you were different. You looked at him like he was made of glass, some pretty china doll meant to be admired rather than touched. Thankfully, you didn’t believe in the second part, even if you paused to stare up at him. It usually made him flustered when you gazed at him like that, and he’d turn away with a crimson blush, whining at you not to stare so blatantly. Now, he appreciated it, going weak while you watched and touched him with fragility.
“My beautiful boy,” you soothed, nipping at the inside of his thighs while his hips threatened to thrust. “I know, baby.”
God, he wanted to move so fucking bad, but he wanted to be good. He wanted to be your good boy, patient and demure, and far less needy. He couldn’t help it though, letting his hips give a soft jerk while you sucked kisses onto his thighs. Your hands held him down, pinning his hips to the bed when your tongue soothed each bite, promising pretty marks that you’d tease him for tomorrow. He never really minded though, simply accepting them as a reminder that you were there. And here you were again, mere inches from his cock, and yet you abstained from touching him.
It wasn’t like you didn’t want to–you were playing a game. He could whine and beg all he wanted, but the power was in your hands. Soon after the first round of pleas, he’d be begging for a different reason.
“You remember our colors, right?” you asked seriously, and Gerard could feel his heart pause.
He swallowed hard, turned on at the idea of something rougher than this. “Yes.”
“Good boy,” you praised, narrowly missing his cock as you swapped sides.
A soft whimper slipped out, but you ignored it, mimicking your earlier behavior with wet kisses and pretty bruises. Gerard could barely wait in grocery store lines, so he’d surely break soon. It was ironic, really, how he was trying to avoid begging for you, even if it was your goal. His strength was being tested, but you could play this game a whole lot longer than he could.
When he finally broke, it came in the form of a whimper and bucking hips. “Please,” he cried softly, searching the air for friction while you neglected his cock.
He was already panting, having lost his shame a minute ago, and since spent his time jerking his hips. Like a good boy, his hands were balled into fists to avoid getting himself off. At least he had that going for him. Satisfaction had never tasted so sweet, and you swelled with pride as he squirmed on the bed.
“Please what, baby?” you asked innocently, letting your fingers trail towards his cock.
He looked at you with pleading eyes, wanting–no, needing–you. Your hands, mouth, anything to relieve the incessant ache. “Please touch me,” he begged, practically crying at your resistance.
“You can wait a little longer, right?” you asked, and to your surprise, he shook his head.
Gerard let out a dry sob, but he wanted to make you proud. Despite himself, he nodded. “I can wait.”
And so it began again. The light touches ghosting over his skin, sucking hickeys onto his hips and thighs until he looked like a leopard. Your tongue was so close to his cock, but still so far as you traced over each bite. Finally, your lips brushed over the head, and your tongue dipped out again. This time, it wasn’t to soothe a hickey but to clean up the pre-cum smeared across his cock.
Gerard mewled as your tongue dipped along the slit, gliding your tongue across him and dribbling saliva down his cock. Everything had increased tenfold, and he was already crumbling while you kissed his skin. Your hands had wrapped around him, holding his cock like a fucking prize while your tongue worked at the tip. Gerard was a prize–a gift, an angel, and putty in your hands as you sucked him off.
The basement was chilly, but your mouth was warm, giving him goosebumps as you flattened your tongue against him. Periodically, you’d pause, twisting your hands around him while praise flowed from your lips.
“You’re so fucking pretty, baby,” you said, kissing the tip for good measure. “Got such a pretty cock.”
Gerard moaned at your vulgarity, and his hips jumped as your lips wrapped around the head. He couldn’t understand how you could say things like that–words that would turn him red in a voice so sweet. It was a clashing combo, but it had him moaning and begging for more, babbling indecipherable pleas as you slid his cock into your mouth.
“Oh fuck,” he whined, grabbing for your hand. “Please, fuck.”
He was so sweet like this, begging to hold your hand with his cock in your mouth, and you complied. With your hands interlocked, you let him settle on your tongue, heavy and thick as he slid further into your mouth. In turn, he continued to moan, quiet and pretty while you bobbed your head. He was already breaking beneath you, certain that he couldn’t take any teasing as you pulled off. Another weak cry broke through the air, Gerard expecting more waiting, but you wrecked that idea real quick.
Swirling your tongue around his tip, you jerked him off, listening to his moans get progressively louder. Thankfully, he tried to invite you over when his parents were at work, otherwise, you’d have a lot of explaining to do. Gradually, his hips thrust more, until he was doing nearly all the work himself. The most you could do was match his pace, squeezing his hand tight before letting go, and pressing his hips to the bed.
“Please let me come, please,” Gerard begged, on the brink of tears as your cheeks hollowed.
Before you could give him any indication, he had tossed the idea of permission aside, coming down your throat with a harsh buck of his hips. “Sorry,” he managed, his voice broken as he tried to catch his breath.
You came off slowly, certain that you looked a mess as you glanced up at him. “Good boy,” you said again, stroking his thighs gently.
Gerard was completely spent, tired after the teasing, and more so after coming. But when you looked up at him with hopeful eyes, looking so beautiful and apt to please, asking him “Color?” he couldn’t help but say, “Green.”
As the word left his lips, he already knew he was in trouble, but you didn’t let on right away. Sometimes you cleaned him off after–it couldn’t be more than that, right? It seemed like the right assumption as you stuck your tongue out, gliding over his cock. He was already going soft, melting into his mattress while you licked him clean. It was dirty, but sweet, Gerard reaching out his hand to pet your hair as if he wasn’t just begging for you.
“We’re not done yet.”
He hummed, looking up tiredly, spotting you in the same position between his legs. “What do you mean?”
“Can you be good for me?” you asked, and he nodded.
It was enough, and you started stroking him again before he could go totally soft. Now, Gerard was stuck in the middle, trying to get over his first orgasm while handling the oncoming second, not to mention the ridiculous sensitivity that was plaguing him. There was this odd sort of gray area in between, and that’s where you had left him. He couldn’t do much other than whine and curse, reaching blindly for anything that could keep him stable, only to fall flat and cling to bedsheets.
He could feel himself shaking slightly, and as embarrassing as it was, you were still sucking his dick. There was no shot in hell that he wouldn’t be shaking, sinking his teeth into his bottom lip while you put your mouth on him again. Who fucking knew that someone who spoke so pretty could suck dick like that?
Gerard quickly decided that he was not cut out for this, but like hell would the word red leave his throat. Not when you were mouthing at his cock like that, restarting with wet kisses that trailed down to the base, flattening your tongue on the underside of it as if he wasn’t slick enough.
“Shit, fuck,” he cursed, his legs shaking as his hips bucked off the bed. “Please.”
Gerard didn’t even know what he was begging for at this point, too caught up in how your tongue felt on him to care. Everything he said came out as a whine, and it went straight to your stomach, twisting in knots as he begged for something. He was convinced he could handle it, his knuckles blanching as he clutched his sheets, only to let out a sob as your lips wrapped around him.
Before he knew it, he was down your throat again, and your tongue was sliding on the underside of his cock. He could hardly think, grasping for something to say, something other than a curse or plea, but your tongue was flicking and swirling and he could barely breathe. As it turns out, the only thing he could do was cry.
And so there he was, biting back tears while you bobbed on his cock for the second time, trying to pull another orgasm from his overstimulated body. At the sight of his watery eyes, you pulled off, concerned.
“Are you okay?” you asked, and he nodded quicker this time. “Give me a color, baby.”
Gerard couldn’t have responded faster, blurting out, “Green! Please, green.”
As you anticipated, the tears began to fall, streaming down his flushed cheeks. “Oh, my pretty boy,” you told him, still stroking him gently. “Just one more, ‘kay?”
He sniffled, “Okay.”
Before he could learn to breathe again, he was back in your mouth, feeling like he would die before coming again. Everything felt like it was on fire, and yet he still wanted more, crying and begging for you, spilling tears and intelligible pleas while you took him deeper. Like fucking hell was he going to last any longer, diminished to a sobbing mess while you jerked him off.
“Look at you,” you moaned, pulling off for a moment. “Look how good you’re being for me.”
Again, he cried, still sniffling as he wiped at his tear-stained cheeks. He could feel everything, everywhere, from his head to his toes, moaning as your tongue swirled around him. You knew when he was close–he would tighten up with his head thrown back, arched off the bed as he searched eagerly for something to tether him. There was nothing like that now though, and he clung weakly to his comforter while you pumped his cock.
“Please,” he sobbed pathetically. “Please let me come, please, I’ll be good.”
You locked eyes with him, “Be a good boy, then. Come for me.”
Never had Gerard heard anything more angelic, looking at you like a godsend as he cried brokenly. All the tension in his body seemed to cease, turning into waves of aftershock and incessant shaking. His legs fucking hurt; in fact, his entire body hurt, sore and amazing. The pain had gradually blurred into pleasure, painting him in serenity as he lay against the pillows, desperately trying to catch his breath.
His chest heaved as you made your way up the bed, kissing him gently as your thumbs wiped away his tears. Gerard barely had the energy to kiss back, and his breath shook from racking sobs.
“Pretty boy,” you hummed, kissing away his tears. “You did so well.”
Despite his exhaustion, he gave you a sweet smile, rolling over to rest his head on your chest. You embraced him as he settled, stroking his hair as a few remaining tears fell from his eyes. “I love you,” you reminded him, and he went soft all over again.
“I love you too,” he told you, cuddling closer.
You knew you didn’t have to tell him how much–he already knew. All the words in the dictionary couldn’t encapsulate it anyway, so you held him a little closer instead. He would certainly need a shower before his parents got home, but for now, he could rest in your arms, finally starting to understand.
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Where Does Consciousness Come From?
(This is Part 2 of a three part series on consciousness. Part 1 is here. Part 3 is here.
A 25 year bet was settled last week when two rival scientific explanations for consciousness - Global Workspace Theory (GWT) and Integrated Information Theory (IIT) - both failed to discover any neuronal correlates of consciousness (NCC) in the human brain. Neuroscientist Cristof Koch and philosopher David Chalmers agreed that neuroscience can't yet explain how our brains produce consciousness.
I say "yet" because it is an article of faith among the disciples of Richard Dawkins and Daniel Dennett that consciousness (if it exists at all) will eventually be shown to be a mere illusion or "epiphenomenon" generated by biochemical activity in our brains. They argue that the mind is only what the brain does, so consciousness ceases when the brain dies. They dismiss as pseudoscientific "woo" fantasy any notion that consciousness might survive the physical death of the brain.
(source: @myjetpack)
Materialist neo-Darwinism appears to enjoy broad support across the physical and biological sciences, in medicine, and from science popularizers like Neil DeGrasse Tyson and Carl Sagan. It can fairly be called the orthodox scientific view.
And yet, we see from the results of the wager that the origins of consciousness remain an open question. It is considered one of the greatest unsolved problems in science. Thus far, scientific orthodoxy has gotten us exactly...nowhere.
What is it Like to be a Bat?
Enter Thomas Nagel, a marquee name in the philosophy of mind and cognitive science. In 1974 Nagel published the widely influential essay "What is it Like to be a Bat?" in which he argued that there's a lot more to being a bat than just hanging around upside down in the dark. Bats perceive their world thru echo location. Nothing in human experience prepares us for what that must be like: bats don't "see" their homes because they're in pitch darkness, nor do they "feel" their way along in the dark because they're flying thru the air. We can speculate, but we humans don't have a clue what it feels like to be a bat. And yet, science knows a great deal about bat brains.
In his 2012 book Mind and Cosmos Nagel argues that the materialist neo-Darwinist conception of reality is almost certainly false, with far-reaching implications for evolution and quantum physics. He is incredulous at the just-so story that Dawkins, Dennett, et. al. are expecting us to swallow:
It is prima facie highly implausible that life as we know it is the result of a sequence of physical accidents together with the mechanism of natural selection. We are expected to abandon this naive response, not in favor of a fully worked out physical/chemical explanation but in favor of an alternative that is really a schema for explanation, supported by some examples. What is lacking, to my knowledge, is a credible argument that the story has a nonnegligible probability of being true.
However, Nagel is no sock puppet for religion, as some of his materialist critics have insinuated. In fact, he is an atheist:
I do not find theism any more credible than materialism as a comprehensive world view. My interest is in the territory between them. I believe that these two radically opposed conceptions cannot exhaust the possibilities.
Back to the Drawing Board
So if consciousness doesn't come from the brain, then where does it come from?
In Nagel's estimation it's high time science started looking for alternative explanations instead of continuing to double down on materialist neo-Darwinism, which by now has had ample time to put up or shut up (Karl Popper called these breezy we'll-solve-it-someday assurances "promissory materialism".) Nagel critiques the three basic approaches that materialists have pursued thus far:
Treat consciousness as a black box, and infer what might lurk inside the box by carefully observing its behavior from the outside. This is the behaviorist approach, whose sterility was so evident by the late 1960s that it sparked the cognitive revolution in psychology.
Systematically trace all mental events to physical counterparts "somewhere" in the brain. This is the approach that GWT and IIT take, using medical techniques like functional MRI to observe the brain as we carry out various activities. One of the problems with this approach is brain plasticity, the ability of the brain to rewire itself (e.g., after a stroke); plasticity makes it difficult to pin down exactly where in the brain mental events occur (to say nothing about how the brain pulls off the plasticity trick in the first place.) Another problem is that mental activities can interact and overlap, such as when we drive a car and talk on the phone at the same time. Sometimes we can multitask, and sometimes we can't. Where do those complex interactions play out in the brain? What about things produced by the brain itself but not experienced by the senses like imagination, the placebo effect and hallucinations? And finally, there is a world of difference between images from fMRI and the actual, subjective, first-person experiences we have when performing those tasks. They're just not the same. I'll have much more to say about this approach to consciousness research in Part 3 of this series.
Deny that there is any such thing as consciousness - this is eliminative materialism aka illusionism, whose most prominent proponent is Dennett. But if we buy into this, why should we stop at questioning our own consciousness? Why don't we just deny that anything exists at all, and go full-on nihilist atheist? Philosopher Galen Strawson called illusionism "the silliest claim ever made" while philosopher John Searle called it an "intellectual pathology." (Plus which, when you get down into the weeds of eliminative materialism, you find that it's just reheated behaviorism anyway.)
Nagel believes these materialist accounts are all incomplete because each in its own way fails to explain the familiar first-person experience of being alive and conscious. But even setting that aside, he points out a further problem for the neo-Darwinists.
Why Did Consciousness Evolve?
In its own way, materialist Neo-Darwinism is a "theory of everything" in so far as biology goes. As such, it must be able to explain why consciousness evolved in the first place.
It's quite plausible that natural selection could have produced organisms that adapt and reproduce without being conscious. We can imagine robot-like zombies that carry out a series of evolved instructions and reproduce without ever having experiencing first-person subjective consciousness, like little automatons. And yet, we are conscious. Why? What evolutionary purpose could first-person awareness have served?
A standard materialist explanation is that consciousness emerged as a byproduct of evolution (a "spandrel" as Steven Jay Gould called it) rather like junk DNA. If we are not satisfied with the just-so story that the mental comes as a free bonus to the physical, then we will have to look for our answers elsewhere.
Opening the Window on Consciousness
We landed in this situation because science has sought to explain nature entirely in physical terms, without invoking theism. It has been spectacularly successful - particularly in the physical sciences - but the cost has been excluding consciousness along with the gods. Eventually this exclusion was bound to be challenged. We cannot have a complete picture of the world without understanding our own consciousness that makes that picture possible. If consciousness isn't generated by the brain, the implications for evolution and quantum physics will be far-reaching. (Nagel, 2012)
In the concluding part of this series we'll take a fresh look at the medical evidence for certain so-called 'paranormal' phenomena. These have been systematically excluded from mainstream scientific consideration because, if they proved true, they would undercut materialist explanations of consciousness. What do medical anomalies like Near-Death Experiences and Terminal Lucidity imply about the nature of consciousness?
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