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Joker Out, Paris (Café de la danse) 22.3.2024

I arrived at the venue around 14ish, and was third to last in the EE queue. However queueing is part of the party! I exchanged sooo many bracelets and met amazing people, some of which I just met that day, some I knew from Discord or tumblr or earlier gigs, couldn't have been happier. Got selfies with Bojan and Jan?? Hug from Bojan??? HELLO. That would never happen in Finland. I described his hug as jämäkkä and turvallinen, which roughly translates to sturdy and safe.

Some of the bracelets I made for the concert!

Met someone in the queue who had hawk's eyes and who encouraged me to go and ask for a selfie with Jan, and later on she spotted Bojan on the street 100 m before everyone else did. I had a chance to give Bojan 3 2 ananaslonkero -bracelet that I'd made, with a tiny drink charm. If the main joke in fandoms is that a hug from your blorbo would cure you? well it's true. Getting a hug from Bojan removed some stiffness between my shoulder blades that I didn't even know was there. It was literally easier to breathe after the encounter. I also kept vigorously shaking for 3-5 minutes afterwards, so much that some people asked if I'm ok. Just released years worth of trauma ig. Also LOTS of happy hand stims throughout the day, my autism was showing lol.

Jan was outdoors SMOKING!!! And Bojan had charmingly dirty hair! He was taller than I had thought.

ANYways the gig !! I ended up on Jance side, which was nice as I was on Kris' side in Helsinki. Whole stage was about as wide as K-18 section at Kultsa, and I think they suit better on smaller stages.

We got Vem da Gres and Gola in soundcheck! I was wearing Vem da gres -bracelet that I got in Helsinki a few weeks ago and thought about that person for a few seconds!

Gola was ok. Bojan got disney mickey ears, and he was wearing my 3 2 ananaslonkero bracelet. Bojan also got a maca plushie that he was NOT scared of, he even made it fly.

Kris left the stage as soon as the last notes of Gola were over, other boys stayed jamming in accelerating speed for couple of more minutes. I showed them my UM sign that only read "I want to sing UMAZAN" at that point. :')

20h02 was ok, didn't connect with their music at all though. JC Stewart seemed a bit sick, but sounded good nevertheless. Finished my sign.

They started with Katrina and Bele Sanje, and people were singing even guitar riffs along. Dopamin hit like dopamine followed by Ne bi smel, Nace was staring at me several times during those songs.

Liinu's superb edit of staring sc Nace and struggling Kris and Arcti's edit about Jan's forgotten library books made my day

People were already singing along to Sta bih ja, and Bojan was sooo happy (and sweaty. We were all very sweaty, the concert hall was ridiculously warm.). Kris disappeared for a moment in the beginning of Sta bih ja, and Bojan looked like a lost puppy (wait, where is kris?? about 5-10 seconds into sta bih ja). Bojan said Kris didn't like how Jan played the riff and that's why he left the stage :P. Jan flipped a bird to him.

Decibels raised by about 20 when they played Ona and Demoni. Turns out they might be the easiest to sing along for absolutely everyone, not just for people who speak Finnish. Bojan looked me directly into eyes during second verse of Demoni for several seconds, and I felt so seen (in a good way). EE was definitely worth its price.

In Helsinki I felt like the setlist was over before it even started, but in Paris it felt more like we were really dancing and playing until the stars fade. I think it had something to do with how much they interacted with each other and with the public during each song. In Helsinki they seemed like they had forgotten how to be on stage, and there was just TOO MUCH SPACE, whereas Paris had Nordic Tour energy.

They all moved a LOT on stage!! Kris was on jance side several times! Nace had a mating dance thingy going on with Kris at least twice, Jan once. Jan interacted with the public on Kris's side a few times. Bojan almost run into Kris at one point - no wonder he caressed Kris's arm to let him know he's there before grapping his hips?? and dancing behind him??? during Behind those eyes. It's cafe de la danse after all.

Def thinking "THIS is how we'll trend on tumblr tonight" right after the famous dance

Everybody's waiting and soooooo many people raised hands when Bojan asked in his spiel before the song if anyone here suffers from panic or anxiety attacks, and I think it made everyone feel less alone. He sang I'm the problem it's me -line to make things a bit lighter before proceeding to the song.

We got Omamljeno Telo and I felt SOOOO HAPPY (but also sad for Moonu) but also SOOOO HAPPY it was on the setlist, I think I screamed VITTU JES on top of my lungs (manifesting it for Ruisrock huh). Famous water spray on Jan during OT, and it shows I've grown old, because instead of "yeeeess I want Bojan's spit on me" I went "rat disease, why am I not wearing a mask".

Everyone sang along during CD, not in French though even if there was a fanproject French translation published a whole 28 hours before(....). Plastika hit like a hammer once again, but I think I was already waiting and stressing for UM, so I didn't mosh for example. Which, good idea, because my neck was soooo sore after Helsinki.

Bojan announced the karaoke song, and asked which versions we have today. He saw my sign, asked "Slovenian version?", to which I "said" (from 4th row on Jan+Nace side) Finnish version, and he heard it and corrected himself and said perfect. I was not afraid at all even if I knew I'm probs going to sing in front of about 500 people in 5ish minutes???? How??? I'm usually a ball of anxiety but here I was just proud and excited to sing my version of it.

I loved the Bretogne/French version (I've still no idea what were the words, but it rhymed super well and she sang well, but that was def NOT paris region French), cringed at some of the "translations" because they did not fit the lines and did not rhyme, sang along to Slovenian versions in Finnish, felt bad for one of them as the karaoke singer started at the wrong moment and Bojan spent most of their special moment trying to orchestrate the band.

When Bojan approached with "I think we still have a Slovenian version, OH NO, A FINNISH VERSION" I chortled, and felt the last bits of nervousness disappear. (Cue "some boat, titanic, oh no".) I had my ACTUALLY finger pointing moment, which, on point with my personality, telling him it's a hybrid version. I don't know what he meant with SUOMI SAA, but it was NOT full-on Suomi SAATANA, that much is certain. I quite like the idea/interpretation he was making a pun with SAA(tan)Are you ready? But who knows. Sad about missed chance to answer "ArE YoU???" now that I think about it, but at least I wasn't the only one who failed the moment :') . Speaking of cursewords though, a histronic youngster next to me did shout vittu though! I loved my spot but she was super annoying throughout the evening.

The Finnish version is in the beginning of this one, and the Arabic version right after Finnish version is AMAZING. The French version is on the first part, as well as Bojan going "uuu Finnish version? perfect".

Started in Slovene, which made him have a Ok?? face, but when I switched to my own Finnish version that rhymes with the Slovene version, he raised his brows and seemed so impressed that I just nodded to him, sending telepath(et)ic messages that yes, our languages match and rhyme, about time you collaborate with Jere. I think he remembered I asked for a hug in the afternoon, because he did not hug everyone during karaoke. Afternoon hug was better btw.

I love his little surprised smile right when I finish the first Finnish line on this one

I usually think quite a lot about how other people perceive me, but now I didn't give a single fuck, just enjoyed being the main character for 20 seconds, having this interaction with my blorbo. Forever grateful for the 4 different angles I received from friends I made in the queue, and 1 from a random guy who asked me after the concert if I'd like to receive a video he took of me singing. Even Vita was filming the whole thing with her big light + camera + phone ensemble. I often sing in my car, and even IMAGINING i'm singing karaoke makes my voice suddenly tiny and weak and compressed, so I'm overflowingly glad it went this well, you have no idea even if I've just bragged about it for 4 paragraphs.

I later realised I was the only one who didn't hold the mic themself, this is a clear example how I objectify the boys, seeing Bojan just as a mic stand.🫣😵‍💫

I got fluent Kiitos from Bojan, that guy needs to move to Finland he speaks Finnish so well. Also LMAO I forgot to sniff him in the afternoon, now I'm praying the snifff I took after karaoke wasn't too evident and doesn't show on Vita's video……….. Jere is wrong, Bojan does not smell like shit, but there were no parfume smell either? He just smells like nothing in a pleasant, pheromone rich way lol.

my translation: Sanje so tvojega okusa Aamuihin taas tuoksusi Neula ei haarukassa Sieluni on hukassa Etsimässä tietään luoksesi

I haven't figured how to translate the first line. I've been playing with "Makus' on tarrannut uniini", but it does not rhyme with the og well enough. Otherwise super proud of my version. Neula and haarukka are parts of compass, basically saying the compass is layed on the map the wrong way. 🧭

This is how small the place was??? I was in 3/4th row, and the hat guy in the right corner was right behind me during the concert so the club truly was tiny.

Apparently bubbles were not allowed on stage in Cafe de la danse? But some people had brought their own so we had bubbles anyway.

Jure exchanged his drumstick to a breadstick. I laughed because a) it was a clever pun and b) such a stereotypically French thing to bring a BAGUETTE wrapped in a napkin to a concert. Also no wonder boys are always sick, I don't even want to know how many people touched that bread before it was on stage.

Life is pain (in mouths)

We waited for the boys after the concert outside the venue in the rain, and they walked past quite quickly. Bojan stayed for 30 seconds to take a group selfie. <3

Honestly so happy I traveled there and met amazing people and surpassed myself on so many levels.

I feel like 2004 again, because that's when I last made a post this long on livejournal and also when I last was this hyped about a group.

I loved band's AMAZING OUTFITS in Café de la danse, everyone had some idrija lace on them, and I'm afraid my next special interest will be bobbin lace.

#joker out #cafe de la danse #my concerts #sys tour #umazane misli #bojan cvjetićanin #kris guštin #nace jordan #jan peteh #jure maček #metrijormaus

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entomoblog · 5 months

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Ce ver produit une mini copie de lui-même pour l’envoyer se reproduire

See on Scoop.it - EntomoNews

Dans l'une des plus étranges méthodes de reproduction, ce minuscule ver de mer japonais fait pousser un "mini-moi" à son extrémité arrière, qu'il déploie ensuite pour pouvoir nager seul à la recherche d'une queue autonome similaire du sexe opposé afin de frayer avec elle, ce qui est appelé “reproduction asexuée par bourgeonnement”. Le ver, quant à lui, en fera pousser une autre, qu'il déploiera pour s'accoupler

Guru Med | 25 Nov 2023

L’étude publiée dans Scientific Reports : Morphological, histological and gene-expression analyses on stolonization in the Japanese Green Syllid, Megasyllis nipponica (Annelida, Syllidae) et présentée sur le site de l’Université de Tokyo : This sea worm’s butt swims away, and now scientists know how.

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Traduction d'extraits via DeepL

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... comme il est bien connu que chez les arthropodes, deux facteurs endocriniens majeurs, à savoir les hormones juvéniles (sesquiterpénoïdes) et l'ecdysone, jouent un rôle important dans le développement et la reproduction 30,31, les gènes liés à ces facteurs ont également été étudiés dans le cadre de cette étude.

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Contrôle hormonal de la stolonisation

Il est généralement connu que l'hormone juvénile (JH) et l'ecdysone sont impliquées dans la mue et la métamorphose chez les arthropodes 30,31, en outre, ces facteurs sont également responsables de la reproduction dans de nombreux cas55. Par conséquent, nous avons émis l'hypothèse qu'ils pourraient également être impliqués dans la stolonisation, de sorte que les profils d'expression des gènes impliqués dans les voies ascendantes et descendantes de ces voies ont également été étudiés dans cette étude (Fig. 6b). Les résultats montrent que FAMeT, l'une des synthases de l'hormone juvénile, était principalement exprimée dans la moitié antérieure du corps, atteignait son maximum au stade 3 et diminuait par la suite, ce qui suggère que la voie JH est impliquée dans la stolonisation. En ce qui concerne les facteurs en aval de la JH, alors que les mâles n'ont pas montré de changements d'expression significatifs, chez les femelles, Krh1 a été progressivement régulé à la hausse vers le stade 5, après le pic de FAMeT. Cette relation épistatique est similaire à celle des insectes 30,31.

Références

30. Riddiford, L. M. How does juvenile hormone control insect metamorphosis and reproduction?. Gen. Comp. Endocrinol. 179, 477–484 (2012).

31. Miyakawa, H., Sato, T., Song, Y., Tollefsen, K. E. & Iguchi, T. Ecdysteroid and juvenile hormone biosynthesis, receptors and their signaling in the freshwater microcrustacean Daphnia. J. Steroid Biochem. Mol. Biol. 184, 62–68 (2018).

55. Roy, S. et al. Regulatory pathways controlling female insect reproduction. Ann. Rev. Entomol. 63, 489–511 (2018).

Bernadette Cassel's insight:

https://www.scoop.it/topic/entomonews?q=ecdysone

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papusadrianus · 6 months

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in the morning of november sixth

as i drive to my classes, two of my favourite things to enjoy is the feeling of my coffee hitting the back of my throat as i drive back up after a stop, and listening to indie songs on my dinky stereo.

i enjoy my coffee with two half and halfs, nothing more, so now let's get into today's queue:

colombian indie rock, really very good, it's a shame they broke up. this album has some great variety, they manage to touch on cowpunk, surf music, power pop and alternative rock across this release. in 25 minutes they store 10 excellent indie songs, so there's no reason not to check them out.

spanish twee pop, *the* spanish twee pop band to check out. a delightful mixture of josef k and young marble giants here. petite drumming, sweet and sour guitars, fun and odd bass and jone's soft and lilting voice create a wonderfully comforting and beachy feeling to enjoy. 17 minutes of sunny fun.

buen provecho!

#spanish indie #colombian indie #indie music #indie pop #indie rock #las yumbeñas #aventuras de kirlian #Bandcamp #Spotify

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vava1701 · 7 months

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Passages mercredi 4 octobre- 8h

Un peu froid Seulement 1 étudiant café + gourde eau écoute musique en attendant d’aller prendre son vélo (jeune blond grand) 8h15 : personne 8h22 : étudiant casque vélo café dans sa gourde (chemise fleurs, brun, lunettes, sac dure pour vélo) est parti direct

MUSIQUE Apprendre à aimer - Ambiance calme matinale nostalgique

8h34 : 1 H 50 ans badge epfl, lunettes, cheveux noirs courts café + croissant fourré au chocolat table 11 - sur son téléphone 8h36 : 1 F 35 ans chignons gros pull et pantalon large tout noir café repart direct 8h38: 3 H 30 ans (1 chauve, 1 cheveux noirs, 1 brun) croissant et 2 tresse repartent direct

MUSIQUE Tout savoir ,Adé - joyeux mais ambiance ‘essaie de se réveiller’ ,

8h44 : 1 ET petite sweat noir jean cheveux bruns moyen longs libres, sac de rands, croissant petit café table 10 - travail sur ordi 8h47 : 1 H 30 ans longue barbe foncée et chauve, boucle d’oreille pantalon ouvrier et teeshirt brun, café pain au chocolat table 1 au bout (attend des gens?) 8h50 : 1 H pantalon ouvrier rejoint le premier cheveux noirs bouclés polaire sans rien prendre 1 H lunette petite polaire noire jean barbe blanche taillée longue, boucle d’oreille café très sucré 40 ans les rejoint 1 H pantalon ouvrier cheveux bouclés pain au chocolat les rejoint 8h59 : 1 homme 50 ans cheveux longs blanc frisés en queue de cheval basse, petit café, polaire grise ouverte tee shirt noir et jean va dehors 1 H 30 ans lunettes, café, gros sac noir + banane, verte brune, jean, cheveux courts bouclés et barbe assez courte + pain au chocolat table 13 et finalement table 5 avec + H 40 ans petit, polaire en tricot? Croissant et café, sac à a dos bleu 1 H croissant, casque de vélo, parti direct, lunettes de soleil 2 ET H tresse, sweat jean petite moustache pr 1 1 ET F pain au choc part direct tresse tee shirt blanc jean 1 H grand 30 and chauve café pantalon ouvrier croissant et collier de barbe 9h04 : 2 ET F pull jean, Café chignon bas brun basket blanche, et l’autre cheveux un peu longs libres lunettes tee shirt jean large mais serré en bas, chocolat chaud 2 H 30 ans lunettes vertes fluo, cafés et l,’autre chemise bleue serrée table 5 1 H 55 ans chauve, salopette ouvrier, café, rejoint les autres 2 ouvriers de plus, 1 grand casquette croissant, autre petite cheveux bouclés croissant table 18 3 ET F 1 tresse blonde arrière, 1 bouclé brun, 1 carré court, toutes jeans, polaire teee shirt, croissant 2 H presque chauve polaire bleue pantalon large café, autre lunettes pull rouge pantalon en toile noir à motifs carrés repart direct 1H 45 ans chemise bleue, croisant lunettes, café + 1 F 55 ans petite ronde gilet et châle, pantacourt café dans sa propre tasse + muffin nature, table 13 1 H 40 ans, viennoiseries dans un sac, gros ac a dos rose, gilet jean lunette, cheveux courts, petite moustache table 11 1 H café pain au chocolat sweat bleu rejoint table 13 1 F cheveux mi longs polaire jean large café et pain au chocolat, badge epflr rejoint table 13 1H 45 ans, chauve lunette de vue sur la tête, pantacourt polaire ouverte tee shirt rouge café sucré 2 H 30 ans cheveux longs blonds en chignon les deux, 1 pantacourt et polaire, l,’autre tee shirt rose et jean, café + 1 H roux lunettes polaire pantalon brun rejoignent table 13 SONNERIE 9h15 - plus calme 9h19: 1 H 55ans lunettes polo bleu jean, pain au chocolat, petit café table 5 9h22 : 1 F 50 ans chignon bas tee shirt rose rentré dans pantalon beige, pain au chocolat et bouteille d’eau, rejoint table 13 1 F ET sac a dos gros turquoise blonde court en demi queue de cheval, pull et salopette, polaire dans les bras, lunettes rondes, éclair au café repart direct 2 H 55 ans, prof Signals , polaire bordeaux et pull noir, jeans, petit cafés, table 3 1 H 30 ans k way vert, tarte et café rejoint table 13 1 ET H grand pantacourt orange veste bleu cheveux bouclés rejoint une fille pr bosser table 10 9h35 : 2 H 35 ans table 1 café et pomme 1 rond polaire grise l’autre tee shirt gris foncé+ 1 F 50 ans jus d’orange et croissante + 1 H 30 ans café croissant + 1 H 50 ans chemise verre d’eau + 1 F 30 ans blonde pull verte jus d’orange + 1 H 50 ans chauve pull bleu 2 F 45 ans, 1 cheveux courts bruns pull bleu, autre blonde queue de cheval basse , chocolat chaud et café rejoignent table 1 2 H ET ont déjà des bouteilles d’eau aromatisées fraises, tee shirt et casque musique au cou, table 19 1 H 50 ans petit café polo gris rouge lunettes paye avec un bon?? Rejoint table 1 1 ET H prend rien et vient lire un manga sur tablette table 11 9h43: 1 ET H Master SV cheveux long brun en chignon veste noir sur sweat violet café matte industriel et brownie repart direct 2 H 35 ans sac jaune veste beige et jean, café, autre cheveux long bouclés libres sac a bandoulière , tarte

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kiirex · 7 months

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Le Billard

Alors que K et F jouaient au billard est arrivé un certain Y. Il était métisse d'un mélange Marocain, Tunisien et Breton ressemblant forcement à Edouardo Picasso (mais pas pour son membre apparement). Il nous salua et pris une queue de billard. Il dit : à la prochaine parti je me met avec K. Mais K avait déjà repérer que Y ne voulait que montrer sa supériorité envers F.

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cyarskaren52 · 9 months

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Hip hop and Christmas music makes one holly jolly holiday

Don't be a Grinch, yo.

Yes, we know that holiday song lists are the most predictable mid-December tradition online. So what? It's Christmastime, fam--lighten up, drink up some eggnog, cuddle under some mistletoe and throw on some music. There are holiday rap songs for every mood, if you want to entertain the kids, if you want to get inappropriate with friends, if you want some quiet, cozy time with that special someone--or if you just want something real as hell.

It's Christmas, so you know you're going to need some background music. You know the drill: this ain't really going to be anything that changes Christmas as you know it, but these are rap Christmas classics. You have to queue this playlist up. We got you.

#26

[BONUS SONG] "HANUKKAH SONG 2.0" - NISSIM BLACK AND KOSHA DILLZ

#25

"XMAS BLUES" - BIG TYME

#24

"CHRISTMAS IN THE GHETTO" - MASTER P FEAT. C-MURDER

#23

"IT'S THE HOLIDAZE" - WESTSIDE CONNECTION

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"IF I WAS SANTA CLAUS" - ATMOSPHERE

#21

"BALLIN' ON CHRISTMAS" - JIM JONES

#20

"DANA DANE IS COMING TO TOWN" - DANA DANE

#19

"THE CHRISTMAS SONG" - DAVID BANNER

#18

"LET THE JINGLE BELLS ROCK" - SWEET TEE

#17

"A CHRISTMAS FUCKING MIRACLE" - RUN THE JEWELS

#16

"GHOSTFACE X-MAS" - GHOSTFACE KILLAH

#15

"DECK DA CLUB" - YING YANG TWINS

#14

"ALL I REALLY WANT FOR CHRISTMAS" - LIL JON FEAT. KOOL AID MAN

#13

"SANTA'S RAP" - TREACHEROUS THREE

#12

"HOW SEAN PRICE STOLE CHRISTMAS" - SEAN PRICE

#11

"CHRISTMAS IS..." - RUN-D.M.C.

#10

"MERRY MUTHAFUCKIN' CHRISTMAS" - EAZY E

"JINGLE BALES" - GUCCI MANE

"SANTA BABY" - REV. RUN

"MILLIE PULLED A PISTOL ON SANTA" - DE LA SOUL

"WHAT YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?" - K-NOCK, QUAD CITY DJS, AND THE 69 BOYZ

"SLEIGH RIDE" - TLC

"SANTA CLAUS COME STRAIGHT TO THE GHETTO" - SNOOP DOGGY DOGG

"PLAYER'S BALL" (CHRISTMAS MIX) - OUTKAST

"CHRISTMAS IN HOLLIS" - RUN-D.M.C.

"CHRISTMAS RAPPIN'" - KURTIS BLOW

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#hip hop 50 #today in hip hop history #todayinhiphophistory #hiphop #hip-hop #hip hop #hip hop music #hip hop history #hip hop culture #music #history #music history #television #rap #rapper #emcee #mc

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christophe76460 · 1 year

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Dieu a mis un potentiel en vous, ne vous sous-estimez pas !

L'Eternel fera de toi la tête et non la queue, tu seras toujours en haut et tu ne seras jamais en bas… Deutéronome 28.13

Dans le livre de la Genèse nous voyons comment Dieu a créé les cieux et la terre. Notre Dieu est le Dieu de la création !

Dieu a aussi donné à l’homme d’être créatif. Il peut nous aider à libérer notre créativité. Tant de choses restent à inventer et à réaliser. L'esprit de Dieu en nous nous inspirera des idées célestes qui seront une source de bénédiction pour nous, nos proches et même pour notre société.

Dieu a inspiré Noé pour la construction d’une arche, certainement la première arche. Il lui a révélé les dimensions, l'a aidé à construire dans les moindres détails. Ce fut la même chose pour Moïse avec le Tabernacle et Salomon lorsqu'il bâtit le premier temple.

Vous pouvez être un innovateur, un pionnier dans votre domaine, un visionnaire en Christ. Le Royaume des cieux ne consiste pas seulement à prier pour les malades, chasser les démons etc... Nous avons l'Esprit de vie en nous, un esprit de créativité...

Dieu a mis un potentiel en vous, ne vous sous-estimez pas !

Christian K

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kylo-wrecked · 2 months

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Ash, Snow, or Moonlight, Li-Young Lee {final stanza}

#inspo #poetry #li young lee #queue de la k

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oldgooddaysoldgooddays · 1 year

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Enormous tax bill from the IRS and a sigh of relief re: not attending Art Basel Miami Beach 2022. I get my gossip pre-masticated from K and J on the ground, and I reminisce a little about 2018 when I was there and the humidity I was promised dissipated and all that remained was a huge line for KAWS editions I paint without much joie de vivre and this nagging guilt begins to swallow me whole, some sense of duty to J and texting him and taking his calls. It's a strange emotional tinnitus, being projected onto by another person. It makes me want to throw up, and though I hate to ruin the fantasy so soon - as opposed to in 4 months when we eat an awkward meal at Odeon - I resolve to text him a sort of farewell. I draft it in the pharmacy queue, as a YouTube video plays of a man who reveals that Drake is terrible at keeping time while recording. As an ostensible reply to his earlier message "Made it past 3pm. I’ve been waiting since last night to say hi today", it's a brutal retort. The fact is he's kind of bad listener, so I must be clear. He doesn't respond, and has not responded at time of writing. When I open my tax bill I feel a pang of regret, a sexually-charged phone call would be the perfect distraction. I can't keep using men as over the counter drugs. I feel like a sociopath. I click on another Louis Theroux documentary, this time about a hospital in LA that is famous for keeping patients alive for too long despite glaring evidence it's not going to work. A man being eaten alive by both leukaemia and the aggressive treatment for his leukaemia looks vacantly at his girlfriend. "He's a fighter", says the doctor. You hear a lot of this. So vulgar, my British family would say, this insistence on being alive. All that hyperbole to soften the blow of an eye-watering medical bill. It's different over there. Everybody I'm related to practically has DNR orders pinned to their chest. I've even been made to promise my mother euthanasia if she shows even the slightest sign of dementia. Are we cynics, or realists? Is it British to refuse a second round of chemo, humbly admit defeat, then die armed with the solace of knowing you didn't "waste any resources"? And maybe I'm not 100% okay, despite the fact a song comes out of me like a sneeze, one I'm actually excited about. I decide to move large sums of money around, trying to find an account the IRS online payment system won't turn its nose up at, to no avail. I then find my money is trapped, seemingly irreversibly, in a credit card account. Who knew credit cards were financial culs de sac? (Probably everybody but me). I spend til 2am panicking on the phone to different late night bank staff, and learn that these are a kinder lot than those on the phones at noon. Still they can't seem to get me my own money back, sent from my own account to my own other account. Who is the sender, they ask. Me. Who is the recipient, also me. Eventually falling asleep, I wonder whether Natwest think I'm self involved

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soracities · 3 years

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[She ]was dying in a way, dying faster than the eye could see. This is perhaps what made [her] such a feast for the fantasies of others.

Yelena Moskovich, The Natashas

#lit #quotes #prose #yelena moskovich #the natashas #l'inconnue de la seine #k&l #reading #contemporary lit #m #x #all the world's a queue

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antonivs · 4 years

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give me angst, give me andrés surviving and reaching out to martín because he realises he can't die without ever seeing him again. give me angry martín at first, an apology from andrés and them going back to live together after. i want andrés still trying to hide the fact that he's ill because he doesn't want martín to pity him, they have so little time left. i want martin to find out because andrés can't hide the tremors anymore. and finally, i want andrés to show his vulnerable side to martín and martín comforting him and holding him like it's their last day on earth.

#after this idk #i don't wanna go on or i'm gonna k word myself #i promise my next post is gonna be all fluff and happy martín #ok after this martín tells andrés how stupid he is #he gets in touch with sergio and they manage to find the best clinic in the world #and andrés is cured #the end #berlermo #palermo x berlin #palermo #berlin #martín berrote #andrés de fonollosa #rodrigo de la serna #pedro alonso #la casa de papel #money heist #the queue is strong with this one

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[ID: The “Friendship ended with” meme edited to say “parentship ended with yodito now gon freecss is my only son.”

Gon Freecss, from Hunter x Hunter is edited onto the image on the face of the right person in the original meme. In the two spaces of the bottom corners of the image, Grogu from The Mandalorian is edited there with a green “x” marked over his body. end ID]

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Get In Moses Edition | 2.13.21

Secret Radio | 2.13.21 | Hear it here.

art by Paige, liner notes mostly by Evan, *means Paige

1. Chantal Goya - “Tu m’as trop menti”

From the movie “Masculin feminin,” a DVD we borrowed from Tim. This is the film where Godard was whispering the lines into a headset of the actor, so they were learning their lines literally as they were saying them. This is the opening song. Not particularly Valentine’s Day, in that it’s about lying too much… but still there’s a dissatisfaction that is undeniably a part of French romance.

2. Human League - “(Keep Feeling) Fascination”

Such a square song! But the keys hook is so immortally beautiful, with its crucial warble. The rest of the song is sweetly and innocently ‘80s. It reminds me of being in art class in high school, fully participating in the aesthetic crimes of the era.

3. Marijata - “Break Through” - “Afro-Beat Airways”

Analog Africa is just now releasing a repress of this long sold-out collection. I’d listened to it before, but I guess that was before I knew about Marijata (thanks again, Jeffrey!) because it was a shock to discover a track by one of our very favorite Ghanaian discoveries. So far as I knew, Marijata only released one album of four songs — which is fantastic — and then eventually started backing a guy named Pat Thomas. Those records, unfortunately, are nowhere near as vital and fascinating as their own record. So finding this song was a welcome revelation! I should also say that, no surprise, the whole collection is a banger from front to back, and will definitely show up again on the show.

4. Philippe Katerine (avec Gérard Depardieu) - “Blond”

This strange guy is a kind of joker songwriter in French pop, as far as I can tell. This song is all about what one can get away with if one is blond. He’s a really fascinating character, a tiny bit like Beck maybe, in the sense that he seems to have made a successful career of taking unexpected directions. He’s also an actor, working with Claire Denis (!), Jonathan Demme and Gille Lellouche among many others. He was also in “Gainsbourg - A Heroic Life,” which is an excellent movie that we highly recommend. (We had no idea who he was when we saw it at the St. Louis Film Festival.) Also, he appears to be married to Gérard Depardieu’s daughter, which would seem to explain this particular guest star.

- The Texas Room - “Cielito Lindo”

Several years ago, a producer in St. Louis put together the amazing album known as “The Texas Room,” which brought together immigrants from all over the world who currently lived in St. Louis. That meant Bosnians, Cameroonians, Mexicans, and native-born Americans… including Andy Garces, a fellow Paige went to high school with — His mom was Paige’s voice teacher as a matter of fact — who recorded this strange and excellent version of “Cielito Lindo.” The release party for the album was one of the greatest nights we spent in that or any city, dancing our faces off to all kinds of music. At one point the Bosnians got so excited they took over the room, shouting along and hoisting up their guy in the air. Basil Kincaid did the art for the album, and I think that’s the night we finally met. We have one of his collages on our studio wall right now — right over there!

5. The Modern Lovers - “I’m Straight” *

When we got the current SK van (circa 2015) we were super excited because we could finally bring out other musicians on the road and we could also have folks from other bands that we were out with jump in the van with us for a stretch. That February we were on tour with Jamaican Queens, and our friend Andy Kahn came out with us to play guitar. Not only is Andy a rad musician and great guy to be around, but he was an excellent road DJ. Somehow I made it to 30 without getting into The Modern Lovers (I know, crazy!) Andy has great taste and had a well appointed iPod so he was the official van DJ pretty much right away. He put on this record one day and I just lost it. The thing is, after that I was like “Play ‘Roadrunner’ again!” all the time. When I hear this record I still think of that tour. Andy in the back seat DJing, Ben and Erik jumping in the van to come with to Baltimore, graduating to “truck” in the Holland Tunnel queue, so much snow, host Bentley, “Go cats?”, Aaaaaahhhhh!

6. Frances Carroll & the Coquettes - “Coquette / When I Swing My Stick / Jitterbug Stomp”

I think we learned about this band last year, when Coquettes drummer Viola Smith died at 107 years old (in Costa Mesa, not Silverlake, Paige would like you to know — her bad). The video link below is highly recommended — the whole band swings hard, and the interaction between them and Frances Carroll is well worth the watch. They were considered a curiosity at the time, being an all-female band, and man they could play. Viola Smith in particular had an insanely long career, playing from the 1920s straight through into 2019! She played with Ella Fitzgerald and Chick Webb, and in the original Broadway production of “Cabaret.” Her particular innovation was having two toms at shoulder height, on either side of her head, which she would roll and ricochet shots off. Very cool style, never copied.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFDD_NxtKZ4

7. Pierre Sandwidi - “Boy Cuisinier”

Born Bad Records is one of the world’s coolest record labels, with a huge array of vintage discoveries as well as African albums as well as contemporary pop and noise bands. “Boy Cuisinier” is off Pierre Sandwidi’s album with them. It bears some definite relation to Francis Bebey but takes its own turns just as often. Sandwidi hails from Burkina Faso, known as the Upper Volta when he was growing up. We’re just now learning about him and his scene — I confess I didn’t even know Upper Volta was African; I thought it was Slavic — so I wouldn’t be surprised if some more Voltaic music shows up here soon.

8. Evan Sult avec Tracy Brubeck - “The Cats Won’t Stay In”

Paige’s mom Tracy called while we were in the middle of the show, and they paused to have a conversation about, you know, whatever — the snowstorms, the neighbors, the news. She was on speakerphone so that we could all talk, and eventually I just started taking notes as fast as I could. This is the result. I find it fascinating. That’s Paige singing lead on the Marty Robbins tune.

9. Kil Monnower Alimunna, Grup Hindustanbul - “Tadap Tadap”

Years ago I saw the movie “Monsoon Wedding” by the director Mira Nair. It really stuck with me, particularly the gorgeous opening credits in maroon and orange and sky blue. I was trying to tell Paige about that sequence, so just in case we could catch a glimpse of those colors, we watched the trailer. This song is the soundtrack to the trailer. It’s really an amazing track — so Indian, of course, but with definite Western points of contact, like when it goes to the major chords unexpectedly in the post-chorus, which sounds practically American. And the final outro minute or so is full of delayed, reverbed vocals in a psychedelic style, til it reaches the strange and intoxicating sound that he makes with his voice as the song fades into the distance.

- Martial Solal “New York Herald Tribune” - “A bout de souffle” soundtrack

10. Gillian Hills - “Tut Tut Tut Tut”

Gillian Hills, probably more famous for “Zou Bisou Bisou.” This track is great, listen for those syrupy slides and harmonies. I just learned that she is English, and the music video for this song is definitely shot in Angleterre. Full of famous red phone booths (now famous little free libraries.) When we were doing this week’s show I asked Evan “Is this song too obvious?” He said no, it wasn’t too obvious. If you know why I’m asking, then you know. So is it?

11. Jacques Dutronc “La Compapade”

We’ve been into Jacques Dutronc for many years now, because he’s a brilliant French songwriter and composer. But this one track has been a baffler for many years now. It shows up out of nowhere and sounds like… what? What the hell IS that? Is it African? It sounds African, but — is it? Is it just some strange lark on his part? Paige was apprehensive about playing it on the show, even though we both really enjoy it, because we couldn’t tell if it was somehow demeaning to someone. But eventually I argued that we don’t know what the hell most of the singers are saying in the songs we play, or which cultural taboos they’re transgressing, and the same is true in this case. If it is somehow offensive to anyone, I hope it’s clear that wasn’t our intention. But… I don’t know. I don’t think it is. I think it just comes from a cultural heritage and context that is French in a way Americans cannot understand or appreciate. In any case, it’s an amazing performance and recording!

12. K. Frimpong & His Cubanos Fiestas - Me Da A Ɔnnda”

Research into African rock and styles eventually brought us to K. Frimpong and His Cubanos Fiestas, which has turned out to be a satisfying step into the Ghanaian highlife/Cuban scene. I love the keyboard hooks in this one and the way the patterns just roll on and on with each other like a river, in no hurry but pulled forward by their own currents. He was also a visual artist — his art appeared on the cover of last episode’s Nyame Bekyere album. This was also the first time I’ve encountered the character “Ɔ” in the wild. I have zero idea how it is pronounced.

13. They Might Be Giants - “Birdhouse In Your Soul”

“Not to put too fine a point on it / Say I’m the only bee on your bonnet / Make a little birdhouse in your soul.” I remember when I first realized that was a feeling I was feeling — hoping to build a birdhouse in the soul of another, to be inside one another in a little protected place. The rest of the song is a nerd-rock dream palace I love as much as any other nerd, but the chorus is where I discovered an emotion I hadn’t suspected was there when I first heard and fell for this song and this band in high school (thanks, Jeremy Peterson!).

Paige adds: This song is blowing my mind. I don’t like writing lyrics, my ratio of melodies and harmonies to lyrics way out of whack. Evan brought this song back into our lives this week when Sleepy Kitty was asked what our favorite love songs are on a real radio show. We’ve been listening to it a bunch since Thursday and damn, these lyrics are good. It’s really reminding me that you can write about ANY.THING. Blue Canary in the freakin’ outlet by the light switch. Looking at the lighthouse picture. It’s a clinic. I learned something, and I can go home.

On the original topic, I love thinking of this as a love song. If you hear a love song, it’s a love song. It’s a love song.

14. Sleepy Kitty - “Tu veux ou tu veux pas” *

I took two years of French in high school and missed out junior and senior year because of a scheduling lulu that made 3rd and 4th year French conflict with advanced painting which was the primary reason I was taking French in the first place. I’m still not over it. Years later, I’m at Electropolis (in my memory) and I hear this Brigitte Bardot song on Tim’s excellent sound system and I can understand…most?…some…of it! I fell in love with this song and with French again and started stumbling, scrabbling at it again. We started working up this cover. Thank you Suzie Gilb for helping with the pronunciation. We did a 7” of this song and it’s a rare SK track with me playing trombone on it.

15. The Velvet Underground - “I Love You” *

I don’t really have much to say about this track except that it reminds me of flying to Germany because I got the 5 Disc set with all the extras on it a few days before leaving for a high school foreign exchange program. I was so happy to have those discs to absorb on the long flight, and come to think of it, it really inflected the whole trip.

16. Secret Song - “African Scream Contest”

The genesis of our love for African rock/funk/whatever (if for a moment we don’t count the profoundly influential “Graceland”) is the immortal collection “Legends of Benin,” put out by Analog Africa. As soon as we dug further for our favorites from that collection, we found “African Scream Contest” vols 1 and 2. I was drawn to the second one because it had a killer track by our hero Antoine Dougbé, but eventually spent as much time with the first volume. Both are absolutely fantastic. Part of what I love so much about them is learning how much of an impact James Brown and his band had on African music, which is super apparent throughout these collections and especially this track. The drums and the grunts and the hard stops and the horn blasts — it’s all there.

One of the finest elements of these records is the hidden track at the end, tucked five or so minutes back from the last song. These are often some of the hottest tracks on the album, well worth the wait, and this mystery song is no exception. Unfortunately, though, that means we don’t know who made this track or what it’s called. Oh well — that only makes it cooler!

- Adrian from Brooklyn

17. The Beatles - “Dizzy Miss Lizzy”

We watched “The Beatles: Eight Days a Week” recently (totally worth a watch), and we were struck all over again by how insane their lives must have been at that time. Yes fame, yes sudden fortune, yes global supremacy, yes yes yes — the thing that I can’t get over is the shrieking, and how it wasn’t just present at their shows, it was EVERYWHERE THEY WENT, AT ALL TIMES ON ALL DAYS, EVERY SECOND THEY WERE OUTSIDE. How completely unsettling that must have been, to be the center of that howl, day after day, year after year.

18. The Fall - “Sing! Harpy”

Dedicated to Adrian from Brooklyn and all those young women and men losing their minds over the Beatles so completely that all they could do was shriek, even at shows where the crowd’s sound completely obliterated the sound of the band they so desperately loved and came to hear.

(This is also some of my favorite violin playing in any rock music, right up there with “Boys Keep Swinging” and The Ex’s “State of Shock.” I would LOVE to work with a violinist in this mode.)

19. T.P. Orchestre Poly-Rythmo - “Gnon a Gnon Wa”

So intense! That constant chord strike throughout the song is a kind of high-note drone that we find ourselves drawn to. It kind of reminds me of the sound of a casino, where you walk in and all of the machines are chiming the same note, promising to just take your mind away and keep it safe until you need it again.

- Tommy Guerrero - “El Camino Negro” - “Road to Nowhere”

20. Black Dragons de Porto Novo - “Se Djro” What a slinky number! I love how spare the instrumentation is, but how much power is contained in that one guitar part. This is side A of a 7” put out on Albarika Store, the label that T.P. Orchestre called home for many albums.

21. Helen Nkume and Her Young Timers - “Time” This is (so far) the closest we’ve gotten to reggae on WBFF. I know nothing about the band or the music other than their fantastic name and sound — oh, and the fact that she is known elsewhere as Prophetess Helen Nkume. She appears to be Nigerian, or anyway her record label is. I love the guitar hook on this song, it just sneaks in and steals the show.

22. Anne Sylvestre - “Les Gens Qui Doutent”

23. Parvati Khan - “Jimmi Jimmi Jimmi Aaja Aaja Aaja Re Mere” A lucky find! Someone in one of my Facebook groups posted a video from this album, so I took note and returned later to check it out. This is from an Indian movie called “I’m a Disco Dancer” that looks like a real kooky thrill. The actors appear to have only the vaguest sense of what “disco” might be — or what a guitar might be, for that matter. It kind of looks like someone saw a single photo of a disco night and extrapolated a whole movie from it. Nonetheless, Parvati Khan is entrancing in the song and in the video, and we HAVE to see this movie, with or without subtitles. The smoldering look alone really requires investigation:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUdJQSUcK_Y

24. Nancy Sit - “Love Potion #9” * One thing I’ve always known about Evan is that he doesn’t like the song “Love Potion #9.” When we stumbled across this, I thought it was awesome but I didn’t want to make Evan listen to a song he doesn’t like on Valentine’s Day! Evan says this song has little to do with “Love Potion #9” which makes me wonder, Evan, what’s the part you don’t like about “Love Potion #9”?

Evan adds: I honestly can’t remember what my issue with this song was. I swear, it was like… it was around the time of “Melt With You,” which I also found inexplicably irritating (and still do). I suspect now that there was an inept cover version that first steered me wrong… but luckily there’s a strange Chinese version to steer me right again! Oh life.

- Michel Legrand - “Solange’s Song (Instrumental)” - “The Young Ladies of Rocheforte”

25. The Velvet Underground - “I’ll Be Your Mirror” * This is the song that I said was the best love song of the western world on the real radio. I think it’s so beautiful and so adult. I don’t even know if I would have thought of this as love song a few years ago. When first got into the V.U. I thought it was a pretty song – a neat song, but I didn’t really know what it meant, what it could mean. What’s funny is when I think of this song, I have a Lou Reed version in my head – his voice, the harmonies. When I revisited the Max’s Kansas City live version (which as far as I know is the only one besides other more recent live versions and surely what I’m thinking of?) I realized that the version in my head is essentially that one but cleaned up, remastered, different EQ, and as far as I know entirely imagined.

Evan adds: (Paige has been playing this song recently around the apartment. I don’t even have to tell you how lovely it is.)

*p.s. If you want to hear the piece about musicians talking about favorite love songs on KWMU it’s here: https://news.stlpublicradio.org/show/st-louis-on-the-air/2021-02-11/listen-love-songs-to-keep-you-warm-on-cold-winter-nights

Super fun getting to talk about this stuff and in such good company!

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Dieu a mis un potentiel en vous, ne vous sous-estimez pas !

L'Eternel fera de toi la tête et non la queue, tu seras toujours en haut et tu ne seras jamais en bas… Deutéronome 28.13

Dans le livre de la Genèse nous voyons comment Dieu a créé les cieux et la terre. Notre Dieu est le Dieu de la création !

Dieu a mis un potentiel en vous, ne vous sous-estimez pas !

Christian K

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leafromtree-blog · 3 years

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La liberté

Joseph était libre. Sa conscience n’avait plus de prise sur lui. Chaque geste qu’il effectuait, il l’effectuait avec calme, sans aucun doute, et avec sérénité. Difficile de dire ce qui avait eu un tel effet sur lui. Était-ce ses séances chez l’hypnotiseur, qui lui avait permis de surpasser ses peurs profondément enfouies, comme celle de la folie ? Ou était-ce simplement ces promenades dans les bois, en écoutant la rivière pendant de longues minutes sans penser… sans se sentir tenu de « faire » des choses ? Ce matin aussi, il avait échappé à cette nécessité : il avait médité pendant des heures au lit. Il ne s’était levé finalement qu’à 13h. Mais en pleine forme. Autrefois, il n’aurait pas osé. Trop de voix l’en auraient empêché dans sa tête : « un fainéant » « pas très sportif » « il doit être malade pour rester au lit comme ça » « ou alors sacrément bizarre ». Il n’aurait pas été à la hauteur de ses amis auxquels il se mesurait : Enzo, sportif. Juliette, enthousiaste. Charles, sérieux. Et maintenant, il riait à grand cœur, oh oui il riait ! Tout cela n’était qu’une vaste supercherie, un piège de son esprit dont il était heureux d’avoir échappé. Il riait d’avoir été assez malin pour ne pas se mordre la queue ! Cela étant, un sentiment subsistait, dont il n’avait pas encore réussi à se débarrasser : le sentiment peut-être qu’il manquait quelque chose, qu’il ne faisait pas ce qu’il devrait faire. En fait, si, même ça, il s’en défaisait progressivement. En effet, il avait trouvé un moyen de prendre chaque choix avec assurance. Il s’agissait simplement de croire à l’hypothèse du multivers. Ou plutôt, l’interprétation qu’il s’en était fait en lisant les livres de Philip K. Dick. Voilà l’hypothèse : il existe une infinité d’univers, autant d’univers que de choix possibles. Ainsi, chaque choix a été fait dans un des univers. Donc, qu’il prenne une décision ou une autre, cela revenait au même, car l’autre décision aurait été prise dans un autre univers. Ainsi, à chaque décision, il peut être assuré que l’alternative a été prise par un autre « lui » dans un autre « univers », mais que sa destinée actuelle était de prendre l’autre décision. C’était donc ainsi, il n’avait plus à s’en soucier. Peut-être que dans une autre vie, il était écrivain, ou qu’il gravissait des montagnes, qu’il était un excellent amant ou qu’il aidait ses frères à aller mieux. Mais dans cette vie, il était écrivain de promotions pour une maison d’édition, écrivain amateur à ses heures perdues, il aimait se promener, faire du théâtre, il faisait très bien l’amour, méditait, écoutait les oiseaux et le chant du monde qui jaillit de la rivière, il savait que le temps n’existe pas…

Il est compatissant, aimant, bienveillant, il a un projet : être une bonne personne, la meilleure manière pour lui de faire de ce monde un endroit un peu meilleur car il sait aussi qu’il n’est pas réel en tant qu’ego, qu’il n’est qu’une partie du tout, du monde, et donc que chaque personne fait partie de ce tout, chaque animal et chaque plante aussi, chaque pierre contribue à l’infinie Vie (atman), et donc en agissant avec bienveillance envers les autres et le monde, il agit avec respect avec soi-même. Il sait aussi que rien n’est vraiment important, que tout ce qui est là aujourd’hui sur terre a toujours été là, et qu’il n’y a ni bien ni mal, mais cela ne l’empêche pas d’être une bonne personne et d’aider à des causes qui lui semblent justes car c’est ainsi qu’il s’épanouit et qu’il a le sentiment que c’est ce qui fait vivre le monde, cette lumière désintéressée, cette écoute active des autres, cette tendresse, car il l’a gouté sur les lèvres des femmes, en caressant la courbe de leur dos, avec la même sensualité qu’il a pu toucher de la main la mousse d’un arbre, frotter sa main le long de son tronc et jusque ses racines, émerveillé de la grandeur d’un tel être, pendant que la rivière chantait l’éternité et l’encerclait de bas en haut, et qu’il sentait véritablement l’infinité en lui

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