#sanity talks a lot

[fallintosanity]

calling all US-based renters

I just spotted a VERY interesting request for public comments from the FTC: 

The Federal Trade Commission and the Consumer Financial Protection Bureau invite interested individuals to submit comments about background screening issues affecting individuals who seek rental housing in the United States. Tenants, prospective tenants, tenants’ rights and housing advocacy groups, industry participants (including property managers, commercial landlords, individual landlords, and consumer reporting agencies that develop credit and tenant screening reports used by landlords and property managers to screen prospective tenants), other members of the public, and government agencies are encouraged to provide comments and information about the use of credit reports, credit scores, and criminal and civil (including eviction) public records in tenant screening; the use of algorithms in making tenant screening decisions; the use of tenant screening recommendation products developed, marketed, or sold by consumer reporting agencies; and other tenant screening issues.

The full document (pdf) also includes a series of questions about “unique impacts on historically underserved populations, such as Black,  Indigenous, and people of color; the LGBTQI+ community (especially trans and gender nonconforming individuals); military service members; immigrants; public housing voucher recipients; renters with disabilities; or others”

If you have Opinions on this, drop a comment by May 30th, 2023: 

https://www.regulations.gov/document/FTC-2023-0024-0002

#sanity talks a lot #psa #social commentary #politics #sort of #also please share this with any other renters you know #reblog repost whatever idc #the current FTC is VERY effective #and VERY determined #help 'em crack down on shitty landlord business practices

[samberrybay]

I saw someone talking about Cale not being innocent with relationships, which i agree with, so wanna also add my personal opinion on this rather interesting matter+a bit on his trauma!

Cale loved reading novels and comics, so he probably read some romance or smut among the way too. As we know, he is a quite curious person, thus i doubt he wouldn't be interested in it at least for a bit.

He also recognizes relationship stuff overall! Like for example in Korean arc with Kim Min Ah and Bae Puh Rum. They weren't a couple yet, however Cale noticed vibes around them so there is also a comment about them looking good together. Even if it was more of a "Ah, they were lovely-dovely since then", it is still a realization.

As a result, if we push back the idea of Cale being aroace, he isn't innocent! Cale knows enough to understand romance, sex, flirting and all that jazz on a basic level.

Here is the thing, right?

When literally anything relared to emotions or relationships, both platonic and romantic, includes HIM in the equations, Cale suddenly becomes a fool.

An obvious, absolutely traumatized and with little to no self-awareness fool.

Cale literally degrades himself and his feelings or emotions on a daily basis, guys, i don't think this depressed man is able to comprehend that people actually just enjoy his sole presence alone.

Again, the problem here not in Cale not realizing/recognizing that kind of stuff (what basically innocence implies), but in Cale not thinking that someone can like him or be into him.

People don't give enough credit to how severe his self-hatred, that was builded for tens of years and supported by hearing others hate him, is.

It absolutely distorted Cale's view of himself.

As Kim Rok Soo? Well, he was always average looking, the scars made him look even worse.

As Cale? Well, he might look better now, but his personality still trash, he is selfish and not emotional overall.

If nothing above works? Well, his self made inner image of a "Bad person" always does!

He wouldn't ever believe that someone can love him romanticly.

Because why? Why him?

He is absolutely disoriented when people show their care for him nowadays. In the novel it plays of as the silly moments of obvious Cale, but if you think about that?

It just Cale honestly not understanding why they care for HIM.

This is not about innocence. Not at all.

It is about a man who cannot love himself and as a result doubting everyone's love for him.

#i saw some twitter post abt Cale not being innocent and wanted to talk about my own vision #no hate to the op tho i respect their opinion as well #but like #Cale Henituse holds so much trauma #this is actually insane and so fucked up #i can deep dive into his trauma read a lot of different opinions and there is always gonna be something more to it #this man's sanity hold on pure spite atp #tcf #trash of the count's family #lcf #lout of the count’s family #cale henituse #tcf cale #lcf cale #kim rok soo #kim roksu #tcf novel #lcf novel

[moeblob]

You know, I'm sorry for another story time but my life has been very stressed lately and today I got a huge boost. SO.

As some of you may know, I moved states at the end of July and have been here since August 1st basically. Social anxiety is a struggle but I'm making it. And there's this easy to reach by walking convenience store and almost every time I walk there I walk past a gem store. And I think to myself almost every single time "I love the store has a bouncer". I didn't say anything to him at first! But one day I got brave and proceeded to make an absolute FOOL of myself as I am on my way back from buying some sodas and ask him "are you like the store bouncer?"

The man looks at me and smiles and gives a little chuckle and says pretty much yeah? And then I say more awkward things and then promptly leave feeling very embarrassed. I purposefully AVOID that lil corner for a couple days and then finally feel brave enough to walk by cause it's ... like. Literally right by my destination. Man isn't even outside that day and I think phew! I can't be creepy if I can't talk to him!

BUT THEN I SEE THAT HE IS DIRECTLY INSIDE CHATTING TO A WORKER. And he sees me. And smiles and stops whatever conversation he's having and exits the store to say hi. (I am definitely beaming, like a normal person, because I apparently am NOT creepy enough to this man more than a foot taller than me who could easily kick my ass if he wanted) So we just chat. For maybe ten minutes? It's very nice! We have a Very Normal Conversation! I feel better about the first interaction because I had a second interaction.

So now............ today. I am once again wandering around and on my way to lunch when I pass the gem store and I'm like "hello again!" to the gem store bouncer. We begin to chat again and he mentions a pendant they recently appraised that he likes and I, thinking this entire time that the store was ONLY appointment only and I would never be allowed inside, am casually mentioning "yeah, I was born in June and we have three birthstones and like.... none of them are dark enough for me. I mean there's pearl which I'm not a fan of and then moonstone and another." And so he's saying they have a sheet inside to show birthstones so we walk in together to find out the mysterious third stone.

And the sheet only shows pearls. And I'm like "this is a crime against June babies" and then I somehow start talking to one of the female workers and I'm saying "yeah I just kinda like walking by here and seeing the bouncer" and she looks at him and is like "oh I like that." and I admit I have no other idea what to refer to him as (I don't know his name at this point anyway) and she's like "most often security guard."

Ah. Yes. Like a normal person would think. Security. Yes. Not "gem store bouncer". She then leaves to grab a coffee from across the street and I leave with the bouncer and somehow we get into talking about wearing mostly black and how he's pretty goth and then I mentioned a sweatshirt my aunt sent me once saying "I'm only wearing black until they come out with something darker" and he grins and says it's a life motto. Then the woman returns with her coffee and he tells me to tell her what I said, so I repeat it and she looks me dead in the eye and says "that was made for me. Also I love that you called him a bouncer it's hilarious".

I now observe that he (all black suit black shirt black tie) and her (black sweater with black/white striped pants n black shoes) are indeed somehow the gem store goth club. And then she heads back in and he says he's sorry they don't have any cookies to offer me, they normally have cookies in the back for employees, and I'm like "ah no it's fine thank you".

And then I left feeling like I was somehow allowed to join the Cool Goth Club at the gem store.

Anyway, sup, my new favorite person is the goth bouncer at the gem store and he makes me smile so much when I see him.

#moe talks a lot #not art #as a life update otherwise i am struggling but i am doing a LITTLE better and might actually finally be able to open comms like i planned #even if its already 9 days past when i wanted to open them.... i might be able to open some soon #it will probably not be a whole lot of slots and i apologize but while i need money i also need sanity o7 #long post #look guys im sorry i just think it is very cool that i somehow earned the amusement of a jewel seller by referring to the security man #as a bouncer because thats exactly what he strikes me as ! #i say as someone who has never been to a bar or club and only know bouncers from crime shows #but it amused the cool goth seller inside and the goth bouncer is also amused so im winning here

[reploidbuddy]

I’ve seen some people headcanon Espio as having a darker past pre-Chaotix involving needing to kill people and my mind just went:

Espio, somberly, almost as a confession: I’ve killed people before, Silver.

Silver, who lived in an unlivable apocalypse: Wha– yeah?? So did I??? Wha– Huh????

#He’s genuinely confused #He had to do a lot of awful things to just survive and didn't get to stop and think of it yet/prefers not to for his own sanity #silver the hedgehog #espio the chameleon #espilver #they just talk on the balcony..... very dramatic and somber..... the moonlight shines giving the impression of an intimate moment...... #...and then this happens #rambling

[lloydfrontera]

so i was crying about javier always greeting lloyd with "it's been a while master lloyd" regardless of how long it's been since they last talked, about lloyd telling him they're gonna be mistaken for the cowherd and the weaver girl if someone hears javier say that to him and lloyd knowing exactly how long it's been since he and javier met in person, down to the very day, "107 years, 7 months and 17 days". as one does. and then i got curious about whether there was any significance to the fact there's so many sevens in that number and i-

right. yeah cool that's. that's really. such. such a funny coincidence. yeah. really swell. what. what are the chances of that uh.

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #tged spoilers #cpsm spoilers #lloyd frontera #javier asrahan #llojavi #this is. quality queerbait. like genuinely. been a while since i've had this level of plausible deniability in my ships. #it's good to practice literary analysis but absolutely terrible for the sanity lmaoooo #could it be a coincidence. yes. do i think it is. well that's the question isn't it. #it's just. different enough that bk moon could claim innocence. but it's close enough to make me go feral. #which is exactly how good queerbait should be imo

[theoryofwhatnow]

crafting the game

(this has been in my drafts for ages)

#i've been thinking about the boys game a lot. #the event at the end of the movie that most of us first recognized as the cycle #(or at least most of whom i've interacted with after first finishing the film) #I'm gonna be honest this all started because i was making an edit #but that's neither here nor there. #Essentially i was confused about *the game* #and was wondering whether nigel won or lost before i realized i was looking at it all wrong #duh #Nigel was talking about the creation of the game that he would contribute to #not how it's played #which only became glaringly obvious to me after i'd sat there with my thoughts for almost a half hour #(give me a break i'm not stupid i've just had a rough few weeks) #Everybody played their part perfectly the schools order begins to fall apart #(alex headmaster's son leaves. nigel grandmaster's son dead alongside his parents. etc.) #the valiant hero forsakes the religious organization (McKenzie) #and everyone else takes their place unknowingly simply through existing. #Alex finds another boy and so it begins. #Finally out of death grief suffering and ruined sanity; the game starts but we don't ever see it. #start with a Jack and then fabricate the game #like minds #nigel colbie #alex forbes #murderous intent

[jammyjams1910]

Question for all fellow artist frens

Can somebody PLS tell me why we put hours, days, so much time and effort into our art, yet we only get a few notes

Yet some posts here only have 1 or 2 sentences in this font and get SO MANY notes

WHAT ARE WE MISSING?? XD

#small rant #artists on tumblr #calling all artists #😭🙏 #this isn't supposed to be personal against anyone #this just confuses me a LOT #jammyjams talks #jammyjams spills the tea #jammyjams loses their sanity

[arolesbianism]

Some very lazy concept doodles for my swap au Wendy

#keese draws #don’t starve together #dst #dst Wendy #wendy carter #I need to make a tag for this au but I’m lazy #anyways sorry if the scribbles are incomprehensive idk what I was on abt either tbh #well ok most of it is just mechanics I’ve talked abt before but yknow #oh and the bottom right doodle is abt how wickerbottom’s wereghost form performs the haunt action on hauntable objects with higher chances #of whatever effects meaning that given enough trees technically you could use her for living log farming #and due to wendy’s fuel mechanic living logs are quite valuable since they’re one of the few things that effect sanity when burned #they also slow sanity drain significantly when burned which is nice for the guy who doesn’t have a lot of sanity options #wurts are also a good living log soruce but I didn’t want to design her rn so rip wurt #she’s a lil baby tree guard sorta #well she basically just Is a tree guard but with a irredecent gem in her head #webber created her because he was lonely rip #he also was the one who accidentally got wendy killed and then made wendy robot body #wendy predictably has a lot of angsting to do abt that especially since it came with significant memory loss #and abby doesn’t die in this au so she’s also there and is deep in denial lol

[merlinmerlot]

i finally finished bg3

and it only took me [looks at steam]

SIX HUNDRED HOURS

#merlin.txt #w/ the new computer the rest of act 3 went by super quickly #honestly i dont think my computer and my sanity would have survived all those cutscenes #ANYWAYS initial thoughts: #cried like a baby. ending credits songs really really good. i can't WAIT to start a new playthru. HOWEVER: #oh my god the ending felt so fucking rushed. i was expecting like a typical rpg ending slideshow at LEAST but nothing??? #like you only get One cutscene with your romanced partner (a short one too) but i don't get to see what everyone else is doing??? hello?? #gale is literally like 'lets celebrate' and we don't get to see the celebration??? or at the very least a chance to talk to everyone again #like in act 1 and 2???? #imo i think the most satisfying one was lae'zels. god i love her #also act 3 is hella buggy especially towards the end. a lot of broken dialogue. but ah well #OK NOW SPOILER THOUGHTS SAMMIE DONT LOOK: #the game Really wants you to turn illithid but i ended up just letting karlach do it ... i felt bad .. but like #i found the arc of my tav like. getting So close to going full power hungry and martyr and hero only to finally be humbled like - #'you dont have to always play hero' was really interesting. like doing that and then hearing the post credits 'the power' song. gshldgksmal #guy who is soo miserable abt the fact that all their cool illithid powers are now gone. has to go back to being normal #ALSO. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE ENDING AST SCENE. HELLO? #HIM RUNNING AWAY FROM THE SUN. IT BEING COMPLETELY PLAYED FOR LAUGHS. SO MEAN #any other time i may have laughed but the fact that you dont really get epilogues made that Really sting. #THE FACT THAT THE COMPANIONS ARE NOT EVEN NICE ABOUT IT??????

[atthebell]

these are not new limits but i will repeat them anyway; please do not make suicide jokes on my posts and do not reblog my posts onto nsfw blogs. similarly do not leave insanely horny tags on my clips and photosets please and thank you. i do not want to deal with that in my notes and y'all should be mature enough to know not to pull that on someone who has not asked for it

#bell.txt #these shouldn't need reminders and yet #like talking about someone being hot is fine!!! i don't care about that!!! #i do care when you list out every single thing you want to do to them on my fucking post #relatedly i have gone through and blocked a lot of blogs for the sake of my own sanity #peace and love. knock it off

[fallintosanity]

can I ask why you stopped working on the ff15/ff7 crossover fic? writer’s block? fell out of love with the source material? should we consider it definitively on permanent hiatus/abandoned? or is it one of those things where someday there might be a renewed spark?

The short answer is, it was a lot of things coming to a head at once.

The long answer is, I was dealing with a lot of major IRL stressors over several years which rapidly sapped all my time and energy, not just for writing but also for things like playing OG FFVII and Remake, replaying FFXV, and participating in fandom. Episode: Ardyn came out during the worst and most stressful part of all that, and for Reasons, it made some of the IRL stuff worse, so I started avoiding most FFXV content. I leaned heavily into FFVII Remake for a bit, but even it could only do so much.

So: a lot of things coming to a head all at once. Between the fandom stuff and the IRL stuff, I very literally stopped being able to write - not just for either Providence or What Stays and What Fades, but at all.

All that said, I'm not ready to abandon either Providence or What Stays and What Fades. "On hiatus" is probably a better status. I'm holding out hope that playing FFVII Rebirth when it comes out will help get my brain back into the FF fandom space. If so, and if I've recovered enough to be able to write again, I want to at least try to work on Providence some more.

I don't want to make promises I'm not sure I'm capable of keeping, though, so the only thing I can actually promise you is that if I do decide to abandon either fic, I'll update their AO3 notes and announce it here.

#sanity talks a lot #my life #sorry it took so long #it's hard to talk about #i'm glad you asked though #bc i've wanted for a while to say something about all this #but couldn't figure out how #so thank you

[butchez]

tumblr staff are so fucking delusional nobody wants to use your dumbshit streaming service 😭 this COULD NOT have been made any clearer in the last nine months since they rolled it out

AKECHI COMPILATION

#ik the standard excuse tumblr defenders make for staff is that all the dumb stuff is from like executives or whatever #which generally isnt true considering how often staff defend a lot of the changes and make fun of people who complain #but tumblr live HAS to be from some disconnected executive like staff cant be this idiotic ... #the way this website is being run is making me lose sanity i cant tell anymore #jude talks #edit: akechi compilation added to discourage rbs from strangers idk how u guys found this post #edit edit i use the word discourage instead of stop for a reason. ik you can turn off rbs but i dont want to. look at my images boy

[lordgrimwing]

for the WIP folder game: I love your Old Gods AU and would really like to hear more about what you have planned for it!

uh, plans... my plans? for an au? I don't have any plans ever (i say, like a lier)

So currently I'm trying to work on a plot point that revolves around Celegorm and it's kind of his swan song for the series, if you will. As has been seeded out in some stories, Celegorm goes haring off to hunt down Eol and get revenge for what he did to Aredhel (who Celegorm is very in love with and no you can't change my mind about it). Unfortunately, leaving his family's protections behind and having a lot of dark thoughts along the way is not good for him, and the Entity (already connected to him due to a childhood encounter) starts worming It's way into him.

As you might imagine, things don't go great when he eventually comes home. Beyond the Entity's growing influence over him, he's seen and done a lot of things that are at odds with how he was raised, and he doesn't want to go back to who he used to me. One of my C+C week stories is set during this period and I love that it's setting up how wrong things feel when Celegorm comes back. Something that isn't explicitly said in that story (figured I can reveal it now) is that Celegorm has started killing small animals for fun.

Anyway, things are going to progress and he's going to do something Really Bad in town. The family finds out, Feanor and he have a fight about his behavior, then he takes his horse and favorite dog (Huan, of course) and leaves. Without any defenses against the Entity, It consumes him.

And, well, that's kind of the end of him being an active character in the series. Astute readers will mark that he comes back to the family but thanks to time enthralled to the Entity, he isn't really doing much any more.

Fun fact (that might never get in a story): Huan leaves Celegorm and becomes Legolas's pet!

Not fun fact: Celegorm eats his horse.

#cw: animal death #i say 'trying to work on' because there's a lot of darkness and sadness involved and sometimes i don't have it in me to write that #don't worry the sad stories will be spaced apart by happy stories for my sanity #so it's a struggle #i love talking about my aus! #old gods au #celegorm #the void answers #grimwing gripes

[akai-anna]

Hello to Everyone on this Beautiful day, my brain is full of Kudou Shinichi and his cute little nose, his soft features, BIG PRETTY EYES, and the very fact that his looks he mostly inherited from Yukiko.

#la junk talks #detective conan #meitantei conan #kudou shinichi #the detective gremlin #yes i spent the past hour looking through the manga to find good shots from all of the kudou family #and comparing them #bc while the thought has been in my head for a long time i never actually backed it with evidence #and now i HAVE FCKIN EVIDENCE #this is what sanity looks like... wait no #this is what INSANITY looks like. #sanity is overrated anyways it's time to simp over fictional characters #anyways have a good day #i'm the ''no thoughts head empty'' meme #but like. ''only one thought'' instead of none #and this is the only thought clattering around in my head currently #thank you very much pls proceed with your day like a normally functioning human being #notes on shinichi's looks: yuusaku's hair and eyebrows #while his face and eyes in general are more of yukikos #and yukiko is also super expressive with her face which shinichi also does a lot #tho yuusaku's gremlin look is still there #i'M done a swear i'M DONE

[d-d-disgusting]

(How to communicate a 'this is a freak who would lick their own blood off of the cement after they had the shit beat out of them' vibe without having to add several additional visuals to their ref-)

#ooc #The saddest thing about the ref is that 2 of the 3 main poses are drawn symmetrically in basic upright poses for the sake of #my sanity. But that sacrifices a lot of the ability to communicate personality #Also hi tumblr sorry this is less of an rp blog rn and more of a Talking About My Creature blog for the last Big While

[wenjunehui]

you 🤝 me: We Need To Eat Lee Felix ASAP

but also [deranged screaming] this is my first comeback with them as a stay and i'm going to go insane because EVERYTHING about this comeback will not let me live like ?????????????? please stop for my sanity despite having none in the first place

my first comeback was noeasy (? somewhere around there) so i've been around awhile but it's always been like. oh yeah those men hot but anyway what about jun. i had bigger and better things to focus on so i didnt really try to get super into them 😔 and it took me the LONGEST time to choose a bias bc i just liked them so casually and i wasn't super attached to any of them (and also my ex friend was crazyyy about hyunjin so i was like damn ok girl u can have him chill ! she almost put a hole in her tv once watching the red lights mv but that's a whole nother thing). then by the time oddinary came out i had watched a little more and knew them a little better (lots of chan/felix compilations in my youtube history bc theyre so silly together little guys) and i was like okay yeah its official. that dude is My Man. he's just so auuuurghhhhh grrrrr bark bark bark i love him but at first i just picked him bc i liked him the best even tho i still didn't know that much about them. and then like for some reason in the last couple months something just clicked and i've been feral deranged foaming at the mouth over him ever since like idk what happened but one day out of the blue i woke up and i was like. must eat him must eat him must eat him i need that man carnally viscerally desperately. i have probably read every single felix fic on this app in the last week i've literally just been scrolling thru the felix fluff/smut/etc tags every night for hours like i am down BAD. definitely not more that svt and definitely not ult status yet but like. he is climbing the charts i fear he is getting closer (svt pun). also a friend from the kpop club at my school recently dropped her skz collection and gave me like 6 felix photocards and i was like well fuck now i need MORE of him and so then i bought all their recent albums and my wallet is very unhappy about that but serotonin part of brain is very happy about that. silly little man cards make happy chemical go brr

#💌 asks #💬 xan #probably bc ive been talking to rain petrichor-han a lot and she is a fellow felix enjoyer so weve been bonding <3 #it may have triggered my burst of feralness who knows #also love that this is my main and only like 20 ppl follow this blog so i can type enormous paragraphs and no one gives a fuck LMAO #anyways i understand u. sanity levels at an all time low as of late