#school is just overstimulating

[aethlingg]

ohhh my god i am so emotionally exhausted i wanna crawl into a hole im so stressed

#its not like. normal stressed either #im buying things for prom but constantly feeling guilty for my mom spending money for me #my laptop runs like shit and its making me be unable to do things that make me happy #school is just overstimulating #im not sleeping well #im avoiding someone at school who i accidentally ghosted for like two weeks #im constantly living in fear of having to drive #im realizing that walking home from the bus stop isnt very safe and stresses me out #AHHHHH

[lornasaurusrex]

I miss you Lorna… this is such a mess

This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope you’re all doing well!! I’m sorry to see nothing has improved.

I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. 💕

Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.

The video is still on YT.

#Anywayyyyy #The fandom added a whole lot more C to my C-PTSD #So a nice random message every few months instead of a freshly posted death wish is LOVELY. #Don’t fret. On meds and therapied but fresh tf out of money from it so @ L and H… lornasaurusrexx at g*ail is the PayPal if ur bored 🙃 #I hate to be like this but protect your hearts. They’ll never be able to look out for you guys and they feed these trolls ammo for snacks #and it seems to have only gotten worse. Gotta keep them hets hetbaited for their money whilst actively encouraging them to bully yall? Why? #STILL!? At this point it feels like they’ve both chosen that path deliberately now and I find it quite gross. but I’m also very far removed #So don’t worry about my opinions. Keep trusting your own intuition!!! You all see it. I love you guys and your beautiful hearts and empathy #But I hope they can sleep at night knowing the absolute fucking genuine WRECKAGE they left across the Big Gay War generation/era of Larries #Don’t worry guys I’m just as dramatic as ever. None of this has anything to do with them coming out or anything. Just how we were treated. #But trust I fuckin mean that shit from the deepest darkest pit of my Demon Larrie™️ heart. They encouraged this. 🤷🏼‍♀️ #Anyone who cares about my actual life updates: I’m a school nurse now and will be working at a bougie summer camp over break #Had a surgery I needed. Got new tattoos and piercings. In a happy and healthy relationship with the best dude for almost a year now. #OH and I went to New Zealand last year with Prettytruthsandlies!!!! We made a pact back in our Big Gay War/college days to go. And we DID!! #I got overstimulated and overfed and puked in Hobbiton. 🤣 (It was the best time of my LIFE GENUINELY🥰🥰🥰🥰🥹🥹🥹) #Okay BYE LOVE YOU GUYS #There are better and more humane ways to maintain a closet ..like literally STFU entirely. Ignoring it and not exploiting a kid is FREE #🇵🇸

[mitoad]

got an official diagnoisis for autism today . i dont know how to feel ab this i mean i already knew but like ???????????? its wweird now i put a name to the face

#like uhhhh shiver me timbers #anyways idc but it does explain a lot #like when i got so overstimulated at school that i literally just didnt speak for a full year 😭😭 shit was WILD #🍵 mito's rambles°｡ ⋆⸜ #autism #actually autistic #autism spectrum disorder #semiverbal #altverbal

[non-un-topo]

Talking to my sister can be one of the most aggravating experiences

#just allowing myself a few moments of self-pity today #because i'm a little overstimulated/sick of people talking AT me #i have begun to notice that i'm never asked anything... not a single thing. no questions about my life or interests or how school is going #no questions about my partner or our anniversary and no acknowledgement of the big haircut i just got #no questions about my BIL's wedding. none about my health. #every day it's just people talking AT me. kind of tired at the moment... #and this is made worse by my sister's holier-than-thou attitude about literally the smallest and most insignificant things #like washing clothes? and cooking rice?? idk she talks like a housewife now. #and i get to listen to her complain about her 35 year old boyfriend and not say ONE kind thing for 2 hours straight #not a single question for me. not a single nice thing. and i'm talked over constantly #it's not like i don't raise my voice or speak my mind lol #it's just that. between my family and my partner's family. it feels like no one knows just how smart i am and how much fun i can be. #my partner is perfect in so many ways. my best friend and the kindest and most compassionate person i know. #but i really could brag and boast like my sister does over absolutely nothing. because i have actual achievements. but i don't #because who does that lol. fucking annoying and rude people. #maybe my family just thinks i'm okay and so they never ask me anything or call me. ever. #but see.... i don't talk to them because i want advice or help or money. i talk to them because they're my family #and i would very much like to feel cherished and loved by them #/ end angst and self-pity boo hoo

[maiaacchiato]

thinking thoughts

#mia's ramblings #thinking abt that one time i was so uncomfortable with my friend's pda thing that i left them behind at the koi pond #like i literally just. stood up. started walking away #i still have no idea why it made me uncomfortable and even now just thinking about it makes me sick #for some reason idrk #also thinking about those times where i was so mentally exhausted from everything that i didnt have the energy to stand up so i just #didnt go to school #obviously i told people i was “sick” or “masakit pakiramdam ko” etc which i mean #its a half truth? atleast ??? #and thinking about how i just want to avoid Her bc i do Not want to be dealing with their relationship problems at 6am but yk #the moment she starts up conversation i just #put those thoughts at the back of my head and pretend like im not fucking tired of her bullshit #i could be so. mentally drained. to the point that i just avoid everyone by going to coop on my own or going to 7-11 just to Breathe #but the moment someone talks to me like jack or salve or heck even kui my brain just. forces itself to act “normal” and by normal i mean no #-mentally drained yk? #like the moment literally anyone starts talking to me the thoughts of being mentally tired just get pushed back and idrk how to tell people #-that im mentally exhausted without sounding rude so i just #let my brain just bottle it up until im so tired mentally that i literally cannot function #i think its called being overstimulated? yea #which yeah basically this shit happens every. day. until my brain just goes nope youre shutting down no school for today also youre getting #-a fever too #which like??? idk why it happens??? #and its not like i dont want to talk to them either #like #obviously i do #but talking to anyone when im like this makes it feel like an obligation #which fucking sucks because i dont like being obligated to do stuff i just want to do it because well #i want to?? #and i feel bad for peewee bc usually he'll talk to me when im at my limit so my responses are very short and yea #this is why i always say 'im tired' whenever people ask how im doing

[s1lv3r-4rt]

what makes jōno more... likable? relatable? is the fact that so many people, including myself, can relate to his constant overstimulation from his heightened senses. he can hear everyone's heartbeats and pulses and breathing and he can hear the faintest wind against a leaf and thunder rattles his fucking eardrums. and he can't do anything about it. he's stuck just... suffering through life because he has to. and i have to. and i bet you have to. but we have the relief of noise-canceling headphones/ear plugs and we can sit alone in a room in silence, but jōno fucking saigiku can hear the building settling around him and he can hear people whispering three rooms over and he can't do anything about it.

#bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd jouno #bsd jouno saigiku #bungou stray dogs jouno #jouno saigiku #tw mentions of overstimulation #also a naughty word #but this is kinda just a vent #because high school sucks ass #hes one of my favorites #because he has lore #interesting lore #all of the actual hunting dogs do #but jōno is vague and its in an interesting way #saigiku jōno #jōno saigiku #saigiku jouno

[beaniebuddyhusky]

🗣️ EAT. SLEEP. GAME. REPEAT. - FRANCIS 🐾

#p: francis #plushie #plushblr #he's playing totk with me. He WOULD own that shirt. 4th grader with a dream of playing video games every day. If he behaves in school ALL mo #nth he gets to choose ONE new game. He's having behavioral issues at school but is genuinely trying. He just plays rough and is wiggly and #overstimulated. But is very interested in gaming and how to make games and the sciences of it all! So his parents try to nurture that!

[beelzzzebub]

three months until i get to go back to school. i can deal with three months.

#boink #it's been two weeks and it's already just so taxing #like school is stressful too but at least it's sort of self contained #at least i'm somewhat in control of things #i know i'm not really an adult yet #but the last two semesters of relative independence #well i appreciated being able to just do things #like being able to decide when to eat #going places without having to wait to get approval first #like obviously i had a rough school year #but at least the consequences and events were organic #like i could fuck up my classes without having to come home to people getting mad at me for arbitrary things #like my mom just got mad at me bc i knocked on the bathroom door to loud #i'm anxious atm bc the house fan is on and the noise stresses me out so maybe i did knock too loud idk #but anyway she comes into my room and starts freaking out about anger management issues #which yeah honestly true enough #but like. not about this? #i am just overstimulated fam #i wasn't angry and i didn't even interact with anyone before i got shit for wanting to close my door and calm down a little #so anyway #stuff like that #little decisions and motions and things #i just prefer being on my own ig

[boomerang109]

i came home, panicked about one thing, and my toilet was leaking. bathroom floor is covered in water and brown particles. oddly, this has not improved my mood

#i just want to be a child again. i understand being a child was also miserable I am not glorifying my childhood #i was in pain and sad and lonely #BUT I WAS SAFE AND CARED FOR AND I NEVER QUESTIONED THAT no matter how much pain I was in #what I wouldn’t give for everything to hurt because I was so overstimulated by school and being bullied #being a kid had such clear cause and effect. being an adult is just…I am guilty and I want to cry everytime I think about the fact that I’m #here. i miss something that never existed and I’m the only one who is trying to remember a person who never existed but is important to me #(cause it’s me—I’m the only one who cares about preserving my childhood. my parents don’t give a damn. they were so busy surviving they #don’t remember it or care either) #why the fuck am I getting emails about a pizza party we didn’t ask for were an actual club now we don’t need your planned events fuck off #the way I was about to brag about our club name by just name dropping my school which would then make it so easy to find me holy shit my #internet safety is getting lax 🙈 #boom’s bad days #omg I just got reccommended ‘boom blogs high’ what if I got high I would feel so much better #i keep just coping sober cause like. not relying on substances. but I don’t actually have skills rn to improve my issues so like. substances #are more helpful tbh 🙈

[analogboii]

got a fucking group of chucklefucks in my lobby rn just standing around and eating like this is their damn living room. they all posted up by the patio door, and just...standing around like huh??? sirs, this is a fucking lobby sit your ass down and have a table convo like normal fucking people.

theres like three families and they all know each other apparently. just shouting at each other, their kids listening to their shows on their phones as loud as itll go, just taking up all the space in the lobby.

not to mention, my driver had his book on a table with his backpack and tje people just SAT THEIR SHIT DOWN IN TOP OF EVERYTHING?? LIKE THERES OTHER PLACES??? AND YOURE NOT EVEN USING THE TABLE????

#im currently in the walk in having a menty b bc oh my god im so overstimulated #theyre fuking SCREAMING just to talk to each other #like im in the fucking back right now and can hear every word to every conversation #self entitled white people that peaked in high school stay out of my lobby challege #oh my god ive turned into mr mosby

[bittyfromquotev]

I wish my body would let me cry. I hate everything. I’m tired. Everything is loud. I’m nauseous, and looking at things makes it worse but I can’t help it. My stomach hurts and I’m hungry.

I want it to stop.

#vent #slight vent #from the bitty jar #q is dead #idk if this is autism paired with periods or just my hormones trying to kill me #I brought my tiny Bible to school because I felt like it and I probably won’t read it because of how overstimulated I am #also the letters are small #please help #i hate everything #menstruation #periods #cw vent #help me

[jaarijani]

letting you all know im not gonna be drawing anything tonight, feeling real bad and im probably gonna go to bed early

#i hope its a fun one though #lets see if my curiosity can handle not looking at of immediately for once #just feeling really blue tonight for no reason whatsoever #maybe bc i was really overwhelmed and overstimulated at school today with the renovations going on idk #i do really enjoy doing these doodles for you all!! but im just not up to it tonight

[pepprs]

discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment

#purrs #i went to a clothing store today to try to get new work shoes and pants bc the one pair i have of each literally have holes in them and are #falling the fuck apart on my body and it was a HORRIBLE experience largely bc i think everybody in town was out shopping for back to school #so it was super crowded and there were lots of screaming kids and it was extremely stressful + my dad got into a mini car accident while i w #was in the store (he was / is completely fine thankfully but the car is not which is so awesome 😍😍😍😍😍) and i was just so stressed and #overstimulated but also like… nothing fits me bc im so short lol. but anyway it was so horrible i was on the verge of starting to cry in the #store and then i came home empty handed and my mom got super pissed at me for… needing to go to the store / being the reason we were out lol #and then finding miah pie and her videos are all about making trips to the store SO much fun and buying little treats and saying yessir and #OHHHHHH MYYYYY and just finding the joy in smth that can be so stressful and unpleasant… it makes me want to cry happy and sad tears at the #same time like i want that soooo bad and i can’t do it fully yet but i want it. need it. fuck my stupid baka life #anyways im gonna start saying the stuff she says just to make myself feel better even when im not at a store. yessir! OHHHHHH MYYYYYY. #acquired. don’t mind if i diddly dooooo! #also btw i am not a dependent except for the ways i am a dependent. hope that helps 🫶🏻 #the problem is really that i don’t have a car or a license and also that my mom throws a fit every time i need / want to get driving #practice bc it’s never a good time so. lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 me doing drivers ed this summer was a fucking joke i forget literally everything i #learned and have only been behind the wheel 3 times and none of them have actually counted bc im just developing basic motor skills #(literally). fmlllll im never getting out of here who am i kidding 🤪 #delete later

[1000mooshrooms]

BRO I AM FUCKING GOING THROUGH IT I CANNOT ANYMORE CHRIST ON A STICK

#I HAVE HW THAT I DO NOT UNDERSTAND NOR HAVE THE MENTAL ENERGY TO FIGURE OUT WITH EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON #I HAD BLOOSD DRAWN THE OTHER DAY AND SURGERY IN A MONTH #SCHOOL IS SO OVERWHELMING AND OVERSTIMULATING #AND IM ON MY FUCKING PERIOD #AGGGGGGGGGH #vent post #but not really #im fine dw #just bitching and moaning

[thmollusk]

me and my autism vs. the aba therapy supporting autism and disability awareness hr person at my work who will win

#tape.text #she gave the WORSTTTT speech during training about how to support ‘people with autism’ #(she said autistic people prefer person first language which. no we don’t man where’ve you been #she used to work aba for five years before this job #i brought up that a girl at camp has a lot of autistic behaviors and was wondering if she has paperwork #because i remember being a little undiagnosed girl and struggling so bad in school #and she email me back like ‘ok i talked to mom and dad and dad is going to be her aide at camp now ☺️’ #NO!!!!!!!! she doesn’t need an aide what the fuck it’s summer camp 😭😭😭 #if she’s overstimulated we give her something else and give her time to herself #when i brought up the girls behaviors my boss said the hr lady would come in and observe her and THEN talk with parents if she saw something #she IMMEDIATELY ratted us out bro 😭😭😭 #i even said in my email that in the school year i’m a full time 1:1 in an autism based classroom like I KNOW WHAT IM DOING MAN 😭😭 #i’m just so fed up. what do i have to do to take this lady’s job because i would do it better

[toytulini]

god that "morning people are an oppressive class" post annoys me in some way i cant. quite. ugh

#toy txt post #it doesnt feel quite right to me........... #maybe im just a Morning Person. lol. lmao even #idk how much that is true vs in high school i felt very much like a morning person bc #i was taking my adderall with coffee and then it would all wear off right at the end of the day and id crash soooo hard and have like. #anxiety attacks every night and just be generally overstimulated and irritable as hell #which is mostly managed now by me trying to be smarter about caffeine consumption (amount + when) and on a lower dose of adderall #but it does feel like a lot of that shit mentioned would be adequately covered by like. being able to take time off work to go to the #doctor etc. idk #im half joking these days when i ID as a morning person but legally none of you are allowed to get up my ass about it🔪 #bc of the nocturnal bullshit i pulled on second shift for like 3yrs after everything around me decided to start closing early after the #pandemic hit even tho theyve re lifted every other miniscule precaution they ever enforced #probably bc no one wants to work night shift at the grocery store for like 12$ an hour. fucking offer better pay idiots #god even when i was a package handler working the super inconvenient hours of 3am-like. 9. 10am(inconvenient my ass that was ideal hours.) #the main reasons ppl left for other jobs: hours suck and they got offered better pay. they cant adjust the hours. so they shouldve #increased the pay to retain. and maybe have more structured start and end times that were less up in the air #like all the drivers leave at 9am so if theres anything left on the truck thatll be for tomorrow. since that fuckin happened anyway. idk. #honestly wouldve been more important to me to have consistent start times cos thats one of the things that pissed me off about that job was #like youd go in and before you left youd have to ask what the start time would be tomorrow cos they kept jumping all over the place by like #15min increments and like its once thing to do it on occasion to try to deal with like Bad Weather but it was like fucking Daily #and sometimes theyd write it on the little whiteboard. but sometimes they wouldnt. and sometimes theyd write it on the little whiteboard #and leave it up there forget to erase it and it would still be there but they told you as you walked out actually its not 4:30 tmrrw its 3 #idk. i know the main real reason i miss it is cause it was part time and the day ended at like 9am usually