#self rant

[antibiscottiiii]

tw: intense meanspo (inner dialogue to myself)

ok.. so your average. you at that middle weight where people don’t think your fat, but you still have a muffin top and your thighs are barely a gap. i mean yea you could eat normally now… but why? you’ve already lost so much weight why stop here? you can go further, actually you can literally do whatever you want. you could peat, and tell yourself “it wont make me gain weight if it’s just once” but it will… you’ll get used to it. a cycle. yea this week it’s just one, but next week it’s twice, then 3 times, then everyday your eating 900+cals and gaining weight like a pig on steroids, because without ed, that what you are. so keep going, push yourself until your truly happy.

as a great girl once said “there’s nothing worse in life than being average”

#mean$p0 #m34nsp0 #4norex1a #4nam1a #th1n$po #tw ed #tw ed relapse #ed diet #ed thoughts #tw ed not sheeran #tw ed vent #bingepurge #ed motivation #ed rant #ed tips #m34nspo #self rant #sw33tsp0 #me@nsp0 #meanspø #m3alspo

[sharkyy599]

So…

Does anyone actually care for Octavius orrr….??

I mean seriously, he’s an OG! I think he was a character before I created the sharkees but for something completely different. I know all he wears is that stupid tank top but all my other characters have basic outfits, too-

Just to be clear, I’m speaking to myself. Like bruh, why don’t you draw him more?

I have no idea girl. Probably because I’m frustrated with how I draw tentacles 🐙

#Octavius Kenji Squishy #octopus character #self rant #digital drawing #ocs #oc art #sharkees official by bi lobster

[lazyheartcomputer]

For those who are still confused by what happened last week, talk. And for those who still hate studio bridge for a damn reason… DEAL WITH IT!

#yugioh go rush #imma defend myself after this whole theory drama #y’all can’t understand how much go rush impacted my whole entire existence! #yes girl boss is gonna become otes but i felt betrayed and hurt #just deal with it for once in your motherfucking lives #and especially goes to the manga that had some you know what service because thats what im here for! #because if you don't deal with it and when season 3 drops im sorry #you will be perminatly blocked and kicked out from the house of memes #no second chances #i mean it #self rant

[bridgyrose]

As a trans woman, there are days where I wish I could pass with less effort and a lot of that just comes from hangups with my own body. I have never really looked feminine and while estrogen has helped, over the last seven years, it hasn't been much progress. I still see the boyishness in my reflection, still see how my body tries to hold onto any semblance of having been a guy when I try to work out to slim down, and dresses and skirts still don't seem to fit me right even when I tuck.

Passing for me requires effort. I have to work on my voice for me to feel comfortable, I wear corsets to try to give myself a bit more of a feminine figure so I can feel happier, wear a bit of makeup and fiddle with my hair until I van hide the boyishness for me. And the only reason I care to pass is for myself. I'm lucky I work a job where no one notices or cares that I'm trans. But god do I wish it was easier to pass.

#self rant #venting

[sharlmbracta]

when you think about it plankton's screams of "i went to college!!" is so so real and depressing

-as well as the overzealous quirky gogetter demeanor of spongebob who is manipulated into overwork and underpay by mr krabs also catering to his over-perfectionism in his job but like a mask and when the underneath comes overboard it often rather spills out as unwanted obnoxiousness trying to get it together but he can't he knows it (it's himself) he knows it better than anyone else *because* it's himself and there's always the underlying anxiousness / he tell no one ofc but every day he's so, so grateful that no one talks down to him talking pretty as if he needs to be talked down like a child and instead very much treats him like a normal being a normal person and every time he fears himself slip up he covers himself more with face maybe faux of positivity / everyone except for

squidward and mrs puff (more intially than later on, some days it's better than others) no he doesn't blame them (he does never) but he's afraid every time and it feels like it's peeling him off and over and that's why he tries to appeal to them so much but of course. it doesn't work because standards. eventually he learns how to deal with it but it still hurts. it's not their fault he's so obnoxious, he thinks, he knows, he feels the guilt towards them every time & messing up even further every time he tries. so suck it up, he does, he knows that wallowing in those guilts only makes his conditions worse.

So he just holds on to dear to those that keeps his shreds of sanity the lifeline alive, he learned to survive. appreciating the mundane (every bit of it that he can), the amusing antics of plankton and mr krab's rivalry and enthusiastically going along with it (it helps him take his mind off of himself) the little trickles of knowing care from his friends here and there he finds keeping closure cherishing (& saving them to remember to physical objects such as little pebbles and stuffed animals on the time intervals he also finds the spark of breath to keep him stable), all the little pep talks to keep himself standing, being able to easily brush off the angry comments of the customers (bc their shits are nothing compared to whenever the waters too heavy for even him to be kept held under and the sinking hole quells up from his throat to log his eyes to his suffocation and he sinks below the surface) and they don't really get onto his nerves no matter their attempts to do so ( most of the time)

(when all the antics go overboard he's grateful that squidward always manage to pull him back down he learns)

he ties himself to everything he holds dear he makes sure to secure all the ends of the ropes a firm pictures make it into almost permanent visions in his mind for when he fall he'll be firmly nestled in the safety net he built - all the strands he've chosen weaved and put up by himself

he will never let himself lose that part of his mind

(because he knows what will happen when it do break again)

#spongebob #plankton #uhhhhh oof kinda #self rant #long post #i did not expect this to happen #character #analysis #it just happened #literally #brain dump

[notanodinarygirl]

Alright! It's about time I speak about this!!

I completely agree AI is cool and everything and AI tools like chatgpt and everything help with homework and projects. But I totally disagree on completely depending on it!!

Honestly, I have used chatgpt only twice or thrice for a speech I had to give in school. I never had and I think never plan on using chatgpt for projects.

Why? I love researching about what I am going to write in my projects or home works. I love to know the history about it, doesn’t matter if it's never going to be useful in my life! I need to the know the background of the stuff that I am going to write because that's where the fun is! To know about how, why, when and where? To find out about the culture, the thinking behind the experiments, the mysteries and the legacies!

Also, AI arts are cool but they are even more creepier. This way books will no longer print illustrations by humans but AI generated art?? I am horrified by the thought of it.

And I just got to know about the use of AI voice in video games!! Like seriously??? One of the main reasons pov games are fun Is because of the narrations and voice actors!! You feel like your truly there, present in the game with people and not AI chatbots generating voice!!

I am 100 percent sure that one day when the AI takes over the world, these stupid people with the mentality that they are smart because they use AI tools are going to be the reason behind it.

To conclude, I don't mind using AI tools but I am definitely against completely depending on it or replacing humans with it.

#anti ai #self rant #voice actors #voice acting #ai art

[nightfurylover31]

Yeah, sorry. I'm one of those people who doesn't care how attractive someone is. If they have a bad personality, I don't like them.

#yugioh go rush #self rant

[devilslxd]

I fucking hate anxiety, why do I have to be scared of sleeping? Like really, sleep??? Its almost midnight, and I didn't sleep last night either ;-; god sorry im ranting, just you know really tired

#self rant

[sheriiam]

Somebody pls motivate me to make some draft sherliam posts so that I put them on queue before my voyage

#self rant

[averagewheatley]

i have got to stop deleting my art posts when i get insecure about my art. i like to draw for me but i want to draw for other people too and i want to content create but ive been so engrossed by numbers and engagement that it's become a problem. it really has!

i wish icould feel comfortable posting my art! even some engagement is good engagement! a few people liking my art is better than no people liking my art, and I kind of keep forgetting that. had this issue for years tho lol

#self rant #wheaters ooc

[voidex]

I'm so fucking happy my biopsy came back negative for cancer. Been anxious for weeks over this. Hoping my year continues to have good signs like this.

#self rant #ignore if you want #just needed to express myself

[stormkobra-5]

Guys. It is soooooo hard to look people in the eye while talking to them. Idk why just. Sometimes it’s doable. I can force myself to. 99% of the time tho it just feels too fucking intense. Too much contact. People think I’m weird but eye contact and touch (such as a handshake, brushing by someone, even just grazing fingers when taking something from someone) are big fucking no-nos and IDK WHY EVEN. JUST. THAT’S ME IG.

#stormkobra 5 ramblings #self rant

[strangers-in-life]

I know a lot ppl hate girls for being able to eat what ever they want and not really gaining weight. And I confess I am one of these girls, yes. BUT - and that’s what makes me feel disgusting about myself - everything unhealthy I eat turns into f4tty organs inside me. So instead of being able to see it in the mirror it sits inside the head of my brain that on the inside I am an d1sgust1ng peace of f4tty sh1t organs. And YES, I got that confirmed through an appointment with a medical ultrasound.

#thoughts #vent tag #tw ed rant #ed vent #tw disordered eating #tw eating issues #self rant #tw 3d vent #too f4t #my insides d1sgust me #hate my life

[knamil]

I finished thumbnailing last night. 76 pages. 3 done so 73 to go. Felt pretty good.

Woke up this morning wondering if it the story was "enough."

Like does the story itself evoke what I wanted.

The story is 6k words as prose (not script). It's not SUPPOSED to be much or it would be fucking hundreds of pages in a comic. And now writer brain is like weeeell don't you want to explore the -

No. Stupid. This is why you didn't write something new for this project. Because when you start writing you can't shut the fuck up. It's fine. GAWDDDDD.

#self rant #anyway #knamil tries to make comics

[theosb0rnway]

So I'm currently watching The Flash

I started it a year ago, then left it and came back because

I hated Barry Allen so much

And then I looked at myself and realized I do all the things that he does, all the things I hate about him.

I see myself in Cisco and I love Cisco, but then I realized that I see everything Cisco does in a positive light

Long story short

I think I hate Barry Allen so much because I hate myself.

He has to make difficult choices that make people hate him? Me. Living separate lives because I have to keep parts of my identity secret and it gets harder to do as it goes on? Me. Disappointing family members because I'm forgetful and late a lot? Me.

Yeah, I definitely had to take a closer look at my judgements this week.

#The Flash #Barry Allen #Cisco Ramon #Self rant #Oz Talks

[sharlmbracta]

every single day every single hour my brain is torn between feverishly daydreaming and working itself to shit hell for schedules and exams and homework and there is NO spare space/time outside of that

#self rant #rant #brain dump #i already died thank you no thank you #ahahah