#she can't live a human life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis]

the thing is. once bella goes to volterra it’s over. she will always become a vampire. she doesn’t have a choice--she has a choice about how, maybe, and when, but only within bounds, (and only if she’s willing to give up a normal life and go on the run anyways), and her story will always end the same way. of course she’s going to pick edward, she might as well have an illusion that she’s doing it out of love!!!

twilight is a horror story

#i am a fool and a buffoon who tried to write a 'bella runs away at the wedding' fic #and i have been slamming my head against the impenetrable wall that is the volturi deal for months #so i'm thinking a lot abt this #hmm. #also it doesn't fucking help that edward keeps trying to convince her she DOES have a choice #like. eclipse is (allegedly. loosely. in a very poorly executed way.) abt bella making the choice #& dealing with its consequences #but she doesn't have a choice!!!!!!! #she can't live a human life!!!!!!!!!!!!! #that's how new moon ends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and everyone in eclipse just ignores that?!

[doverstar]

actually I love Tentoo and he is the Doctor and it was the only ending for Rose that worked and it is a huge gift to be able to have the man she loves grow old with her, they were always heading for that, y'all be quiet. I 100% understand the angst but it's okay, they're okay, good ending-

#did you want her to...not end up with the doctor? #she ended up with the doctor. she ended up with the doctor and they get to AGE together #they get to have a real honest relationship the way they both always genuinely wanted #it's hard that the full time lord version has to carry on without her but that is the way that character's story ALWAYS goes #the doctor does not get to keep ANYONE. it would be a different show if he did #meanwhile there is a version of that same face of his - the one that was MADE for love? particularly born out of love for ROSE? the one 1/2 #2/2 that always wanted a FAMILY? and stability? and a normal life? the tenth doctor longed for that specifically because of rose #now he gets to have it AND be part-human so he doesn't have to watch her get old. he gets old WITH HER #and they're canonically growing their own Tardis so you don't even have to be sad that they're not adventuring in time and space as usual #because they ARE. it's the kindest ending for either character. and if the full time lord hadn't left without either of them- #-he would have had to lose them eventually. lose Rose because she's human? hello? painful? but instead he was selfless and left her- #-with a proper happy ending. which she CHOSE to have so you can't be like “he tricked her!” she chose to kiss one of them and it was Tentoo #they are the same man. Rose won in this scenario. #and I GET IT I am with Billie Piper I think it will always feel a little off that she was left with Tentoo and not the full time lord #I understand. it still makes me a little sad. but I know it's a good ending writing-wise. really the ONLY ending. #yes I know about the popular idea of Immortal!Rose or Bad Wolf Rose or whatever and that's cute and all BUT - it's not a GOOD thing #it's not PREFERABLE to be immortal. Rose doesn't want to live forever. she wants to be with the man she LOVES forever. #she doesn't want to not die or adventure for all time. she wants to be there to hold his hand. and when Tentoo is born she gets THAT! #Immortal!Rose is tragic. the Doctor would not wish the burden of immortality on the woman he loves HELLO #anyway #I ship timepetals. that includes Tentoo/Rose. because he is the doctor #so there #I have more thoughts on Tentoo specifically but I digress #maybe if provoked in an Ask or something idk #doctorrose #timepetals #opinion piece #tenrose #tentoo #handy

[hydrachea]

The primordial sea is going to have NOTHING on the flood that's gonna hit fontaine from Neuvi's crying once Furina dies now that she's mortal tbh

And he won't be the only one crying but honestly? This poor girl has been putting on a constant act for almost 500 years, saw generation after generation come and go, and outlived everyone she could have grown close to except for him - and he was born a long-lived species, she's ever only been human. He loves her greatly and he'll feel her absence every moment once she's gone, but as much as I'd like to say he'll find some way to make her immortal (it's not like he has to play by Celestia's rules, or anyone's) I don't think he'd want to deprive her of her well-earned rest.

So I imagine once that day comes, the rains will be heavy and the sky won't clear for a long time indeed.

#anon #ask #answer #you make me sad now but you're right #i did wonder if he'd try to find some way to make her live for as long as he does #it's a popular trope in fanfic especially in this fandom #but he'd see it as too cruel #a curse of immortality is what she's been forced to endure all this time #she finally gets to live her life as a normal human woman #and that includes eventually dying at last #and that too is something she's earned #making her immortal because he can't bear to lose her would just be putting his own wishes before her own #it'd be selfish #neuvillette is anything but #genshin #genshin spoilers #neuvifuri

[dein0nychus]

can not believe i have to put this out there but: being concerned for the welfare of an animal who has a condition that frequently leads to a slow, painful death is not ableism. its uh. basic animal husbandry

#humans can make informed decisions about their bodies. humans can decide how they want to be helped. humans can decide if they WANT to be #animals can't advocate for themselves and their health #the two-faced calf can't look at her caretakers and say 'im in pain. i can't breathe. my organs are failing.' #so it is up to humans to pay attention to animal health and to make the best decision to cause them the least pain and suffering #forcing an animal thats suffering to live is cruel #plain and simple #perhaps deux face will be a miracle case like frank and louie and live a long healthy life #but she may also be in pain and is more likely to suffer and die before she gets too old

[transgenderfivepebbles]

library of ruina beef stew scene. reblog if you agree

#ramblings #library of ruina #im going to sound so deranged when i say this but it means everything to me #it's about sharing something special to you with someone else!! it's about opening someone's eyes to a joy they've never known!! #it's about expressing your care for them by giving them a little piece of your world!! it's about the intrinsic human bond of sharing food! #and sure maybe angela can't taste any of it but she wants to experience that part of how humans live #and she's glad to take roland up on his offer to do it with him #sharing a simple yet important delight of human life with someone who's never had the chance to have a human life #roland and angela truly the characters ever.

[betelgeusing]

marty hart's cyclical return to praising family as THE thing that keeps a man grounded, stable, and happy (specifically in pointing out that rust DOESN'T have a family) even as flashbacks show him spiraling into jealous macho violence as he lies to, mistreats, and destroys his family over the course of multiple affairs (by which he deliberately steps outside of and away from his family despite his wife's best efforts to get him to reconnect and step up to be the family man he sees himself as)

vs

rust cohle's repeated excoriations of the idea of individuality and personhood and the stupid self-centeredness and entitlement that comes with saying "I, a human being, matter to the universe, and the things I do matter", an ideology he carries for years and waxes poetic on for his interviewers as late as 2012, even as he obsessively works himself to the bone to get justice and resolution for the victims he's assigned and ultimately to protect children from the powerful and dangerous people who want to brutalize them

#true detective #so what if it all goes back to Melville and Milch. every great character spins against the way he drives #I know this is the point of their characters I know other people have said it before and better #but I go through it every time and this time Marty is hitting me extra hard. bc with Rust it's basically screaming in your face #Rust says humanity (without exception) is stupid selfish and vain and we're fools to convince ourself our actions matter #he then proceeds to take a job where everything he does matters SO MUCH. and to CARE about that job deeply and obsessively #but Marty... I've really noticed this time how Maggie calls him a coward multiple times in her efforts to pull him back to his family #and she's right because he's too much of a coward to face that gaining the sainted ''family'' hasn't fixed him! #it hasn't made him stop wanting to fuck other women #it hasn't made him the household hero the perfect father and husband the savior of the women in his life #he thought it would and when it doesn't live up to the fantasy he checks out completely #and even in 2012 when his marriage has fallen apart! he still lauds marriage and family as the thing that makes a man good! #despite all the evidence in front of him that he became WORSE after becoming a husband and father. he can't let the ideal go #he has good intentions at his core but he's obsessed with the idea of being a good ol boy and a family man #he shits on Rust for being isolated because he's scared to face the idea that he-- Marty-- would have done less damage on his own #sorry for the tag novel they make me want to bite. and knock their stupid empty heads together really hard #btw this show would be 75% less effective if they had not filmed on location. big brain move thank God for the TD S1 location scouts

[aq2003]

series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems

#dr who #i am being so honest when i say ten should have gotten on his knees and begged for simm!master's life #they should have framed the bit between him and martha's mom so different #like yes it is 10000% in character that the doctor with his bleeding heart and loneliness wouldn't want to kill him #even after everything that happened. because he's the only person he has left. 'i forgive you' was PERFECT. #but literally anyone else that suffered from what the master did. Deserves to rip him to shreds. so very obviously #and like i know.i KNOW that i am watching the 'funny immortal alien saves people through time and space' show #but i actually despise the doctor being framed as like an all powerful savior. or treated like one. even for a little bit. is Annoying #the first part of the series 3 finale having martha be humanity's last hope was SO GOOD bc it like kind of set her up as like #having to grapple with all that responsibility and attention like the doctor does. everyone's lives are in her hands. so crunchy #but when it like slides into 'everyone pls believe in our specialest boy in the world The Doctor <3' it just. falls flat #i feel like with a couple tweaks here and there in the execution and like actual fuckinnn people of color in the writer's room #series 3 would be PEAK media. but as it is it's just. falling short. #i do really appreciate martha deciding to leave ten on her own though. first of all. qpp down. second of all #she's realized that she can't keep traveling with him. bc (as i mentioned) hes someone who simultaneously needs saving #and refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. Yes im fucking ignoring the unrequited romance angle i think #it does a gigantic disservice to martha's character if u boil her down to that. fight me i dont care if that was the authorial intent #martha in the end is too kind to ten and ten keeps making her watch his meandering path of self destruction. toxic doomed qprism to ME. #anyway fuck. idk man series 2 consensus was that im dead inside and series 3 consensus is that the version i have of it in my head is peak #series 2 is better but i think because of my ten martha insanity i actually enjoyed watching series 3 more than series 2. #even if i got mad at it more than any other season. i think something is wrong with me. um. lmao #ten and martha #10 era

[everybodyknows-everybodydies]

in trying to figure out how to process/think about elven aging I did come down on the side of childhood/adolescence being equivalent to humans' in terms of length and development, which means that in perspective elves likely consider physical childhood an almost negligible period of time. (the realization that you are a quarter of a century old is much different when that's a quarter of your lifespan than it is when it's a tenth or less of your lifespan!) however I would love to see someone more mathematically-inclined with a take on aging that works more telescopically (reverse telescopically?), wherein life stages all around are drawn out to scale... ex: an elf child might be chronologically twenty years old but physically and mentally equivalent to, like, a ten-year-old human... idk I just think it could be really interesting to see. human now fifty years old established in their career no longer really peers with the fifty-year-old elf who went to school with them because the elf is still basically a teenager.

#Mouse talks! #I think young adulthood/middle age/seniority obviously must be drawn out correspondingly #do not misinterpret I do NOT want a Chibs 'this is a 900 year old eight-year-old!' situation. please. #just thinking about what it would mean to have the stages of life where you've never known independence be elongated also... #like. imagine. elf child raised by humans. their childhood could be their parents' entire lives #decided against this however entirely because I have Vakka-Ei as middle-aged already when she gets Hallie and have also established #that she's very much not dead by the time Hallie is on the cusp of adulthood bdjgjdkg so NORMAL CHILDHOOD LENGTH I REQUIRE #ANYWAY brain would not let me sleep until I expressed these thoughts! chucking them out here so I can go embrace unconsciousness!! #if there's a typo it's because I already took my glasses off and can't be bothered to put them back on sorry we're not addressing it

[tenitchyfingers]

still not over the end of Barry

#did anyone notice perhaps #i don't know what to do with my life #this shit is hitting harder than i thought it would #and i don't even know what to do about it #generally i'd write fanfiction but i don't have ships here #and i have no notes #i don't want the story to go in another direction #and the original is just perfect as it is #no need to add or change anything #but it also breaks my heart genuinely #fundamentally Barry Berkman is a flawed man who had so much potential to be a good person #and in multiple instances he showed he was always capable of actual love for another human being #hell the bit where he gets Sally after she killed that guy #and told her 'you didn't do this i did - say barry berkman did this' even though he didn't #because the reasoning is 'i'm already broken and a goner & i don't want you to become like me' #what is that if not selfless love #barry hbo #and in many ways i really relate to the feeling of being fundamentally broken #i'm not a murderer but i've felt broken and completely alone so often - matter of fact that's how i live my life #so i can't help it - i'll never resist empathizing with a broken soul #when the world's kicked the shit out of you enough you get it

[twilightarcade]

i still can't believe she said that shit to me

#wordstag #she KNOWS I can't get behind that stuff ! She's met me yeah ? #tthen she has the audacity to say it's not that deep. Like yeah; saying that all of humanity is inherently evil and wouldn't #accomplish anything if it weren't for their lives hanging over their heads isn't that deep. Average Tuesday type conversation. #'if you were an apple farmer wouldn't you want to hoard your apples?' BUT FOR WHAT?? WHERE DOES THAT GREED GET YOU. WHY IS THE AVERAGE #PERSON IN YOUR MIND INHERENTLY GREEDY. Like ohhh if everything was free nothing would get done because people need motivation #like shit isn't getting done as it is now. You want to be a music teacher. You can't because of money. Why isn't this an obvious solution #like . I know you can't just go welp everything is free now; have fun. I know you can't destroy all of modern economics like that. #but why is a hypothetical magical world where we do that bad. What did the human race do before capitalism? Just roll over and die? #there was still art. There's always art. There's always going to be someone who wants to do something with their life that can't #because of MONEY. Like everything is so focused on money [coughing at the art industry] why can't it just be . #^^^^ anyway context I was talking 2 someone (that I know . Like really well ) and proposed just #getting rid of money forever . Because fhey wanted to be a teacher but couldn't bc money #and this was like . The most preposterous thing to them. Why would people do anything if not for money etcetc #even went as far as 'humans are inherently evil' which wooooaaaaah slow down there buddy . #you're letting your christian show. Or whateevr. Idk just not an idea I can personally get behind #then she goes 'it'snotbthat deep' like she didn't just imply something about the entirety of the human population. Or something. #like if humans are so evil jsut kill us now or something .

[that-love-is-all-there-is]

animism just makes sense to me

#I don't believe we live in a dead universe #where most things have no spirit #no life or whatever energy #I have a doll that is almost old as me #and she is imbued with the spirit of all the love she's been given and has given #and has a powerful spiritual energy about her #and that's a human made object #I don't have all the language for it yet but I can't abandon this because it is in my bones

[ennobaka]

.

#just unloaded on my friend about how i'm a hyprocite bc i don't believe in fate or gods #and that human have free wills #but whenever shit goes bad or life becomes unbearable i would blame it on gods or fate or whatever #and she told me i could think it because the thought doesn't harm anyone and like #actively rewriting my brain chemistry right now #fishtalks #great meltdown of 2023 #thank friend who live so far away and whom i can't hang out with anymore

[egglygreg]

Currently at war with my elderly ex-stray cat, who after a few weeks of staying in her spot on the bed (bed's a double, her spot is on the bottom left) she's suddenly decided she wants to sit on or against me because I'm warm (I literally put a hot pod in her spot and a corner of the heat blanket). She cannot sleep on my side, because I have cfs and it's painful and causes cramps if she sits on me or stops me from being able to move.

AND she gets pissed at me if I move and hisses and tries to bite if I pick her up to move her!

#if I'm honest I'm getting pretty annoyed because it does hurt #Honey you literally lived outside your entire life and STILL insist on going outside in the cold sometimes and sleepng under a bush #why are you like this #admittedly I think we're both kinda grumpy and in pain but it's my bed and I'm already letting her sleep on it #even though I hate having my door open and I'm a bit allergic to her #she's decidedly not a grateful animal #she's become extremely demanding the last 2 weeks about wanting treats and human food and refusing to eat hers #because it's not as tasty #you can't live on cheese Honey #cats #animals #my pets

[e-louise-bates]

I am coming up against a brick wall here in my world-building, and could use some assistance from my imaginative friends!

In the world of Whitney & Davies, magic exists as part of the natural world, but only accessible to some, so magicians can affect anything in nature (but tend not to do much that affects other humans, as that can lead to dangerous temptations to play God), but not anything synthetic. Magicians also tend to have an affinity to one type or category of magic over another, or at least choose one particular field over another during their apprenticeship or journeyman years. Some of the categories I've explored or touched upon already in the series are:

Magic-finders, people who can sense magic being used in their vicinity and identify who is using it. Do not have to have to be magical themselves.

Healers

Weather magicians

Governesses, tutors, teachers

Craftsmen

Farmers

Defense of Britain’s borders

Scientists

(You also have roles like governor, intelligence agent, police, etc--magical civil service, I guess you'd say--but those are more a matter of personality rather than a particular magical aptitude.)

Anyway, I have two characters who have come upon me, both with a mild magical aptitude. I know that I want one at least to be a naturalist, but I can't quite figure out how one would be a magical naturalist. Maybe simply being more deeply attuned to the rhythms of the natural world than a non-magical naturalist?

I was going to have both of them have a bent that way, but now I'm wondering about having the other be a magical craftsperson. I touched on one option there in Glamours and Gunshots with Helen being a magical fashion designer, using her magic to work with natural fibers in creating clothes that can change color based on one's mood (yes, I cribbed that from the mood rings popular in my youth), or have pockets that can hold almost anything without altering the line of the clothing, or dresses that can fold impossibly tiny for packing and never need wrinkling, or ... well, I'm not telling you the big one because that's kind of fun to read about for yourself in G&G. I'm trying to come up with something similar for other types of magical craftsmanship, and not thinking of anything particularly brilliant.

So here is what I need for suggestions:

How could one have a particularly magical affinity to nature that would enhance one's calling as a naturalist;

and

What sort of craft could use magic to make it more creative, and in what way?

#adventures in writing #whitney and davies #I am supposed to be writing book 4 #but I have been getting more and more frustrated with my general poor health affecting my ability to function #both creatively and as a normal human being #and lo #I am now writing a story with a heroine who does not have any particular illness #but general lethargy and weariness that she can't overcome #and is trying to figure out how to live a good life despite it #and a hero who is there for her without ever trying to save her from her poor health #it is very cathartic #but now I'm running up against logistical difficulties #anyone who makes a suggestion will be thanked in the acknowledgements!

[theophagie-remade]

"Not actually out but also no one who sees me doesn't think that there's something going on" is a fun state to be in

#not out *except to my two friends. partially. but in general y'know #it's generally a very negative thing and something that frustrates me and makes me feel awful etc etc etc especially because i'm very #limited in what i can do/wear/etc as it is and this. suspension. is incredibly annoying #but every so often i try to look at the funny side. even though there's quite a lot of frustration in there too #(--_--) #mytext #like. fuck me for having so many issues with my mother but it is what it is. and idk i cannot even begin to imagine living your life #without ever questioning things like ''common sense'' or the reasoning behind ''how things are'' #and without getting into the sexuality bit (she thinks that i'm a lesbian but still clings in terror to the hope that i'm not. that's it) #one of our most common convos is ''women shouldn't [x]'' ''who decided that women shouldn't >x]?'' ''*evades the question*'' #and it drives me craaazy craaaaaazyyyyy. ''have you ever once in your life not assumed that you were an inherently inferior human?'' ''no'' #and that's one half of it the other half of it is me being constantly forced into these pointless arguments when i'm just doing whatever #and want to be whoever. like idgaf that you can't possibly begin to imagine gender being anything but Pussy Girl Pink and Dick Boy Blue #but let me live my life at least #i think if i one day straight up told her that my not so strong connection to womanhood partially if not mainly has to do with me being #okay with lesbians being attracted to me than it has with whatever else she would explode #on that matter it's a shame that uoma isn't one of the fun slurs that got/are getting reclaimed but instead kinda disappeared and wasn't #that common to begin with overall because coincidentally i like it a lot ^_^ <3

[i-am-become-a-name]

solidified my seven and ace playlist, and it is lying on the floor and staring at the ceiling while listening to nothing but the amazing devil's welly boots for three straight hours. the lying on the floor staring into the void bit is a mandatory part of the experience.

#i read a short trip last night. a seven and ace christmas one. where she wants so desperately the concept of a hallmark christmas because #it is what she never experienced at home. but she can't express that to the doctor and they're jumping around in time but only ever landing #on the 24th of December. #but what really got me. what lead to me lying on the floor trying not to cry was seven gave ace a package and you don't find out what it is #it doesn't matter. but the tag says 'to ace. my beacon of humanity ' #she fcks up. she fcks up so badly and it gives hope to people who are dying and have no prospects of life. and it's breaking her heart #she's begging the doctor to help them because they're ripping apart their lives to follow her story and they're going to die even faster #because of her. and the doctor still. he still calls her his beacon of humanity..... #i'm not coping....... #random #anyway i read a lot of Christmas stories last night for some god knows why reason. just vibing through the short trips. #(i read the NZ based one it's hilarious because it's mum's hometown.)