#she should have a name i feel bad

[thwackk]

panel redraw + the captains meet and go to the mall.

#my art lol #shitpost!! #captain america #fem captain america #steve rogers #eve rogers #she should have a name i feel bad #whatever universe this is im creating its the most self indulgent shit ive ever done #anyway. #marvel #the tonys witness i guess. im not tagging them it’s not abt them #😒 <- bitter

[bitchfitch]

MOTHER FUCKER SPOTTED T POSING. GAY SHIT IM GOING TO HAVE TO BANISH THE CHILD FOR TO ENSUE.

#totk spoilers #also can i just say how Fucking Scared i was that they were just retconning the champions out of existence?? #the divine beasts are gone and the story is going out of its way to avoid mentioning them or their pilots. #Miphas spring was the first time i found Any direct mention of them. #its an Area name. #Daruk and Revali may as well not have existed. #like. I didn't stop to talk to a lot of npcs bx i couldn't be fucked to do so #but Man. #It feels like they should have been mentioned in the main story at Some point #I straight up couldn't sleeo last night bc i was so worried theyd just fucking #Unexisted my second favorite character in this entire franchise. #Like i know Mipha isnt anything special by loz princess standards but i just love her ok. #i love her aesthetic #and seeing her statue was replaced in the domain was a bad feeling because like. that basically confirmed it for me that the game #was just going to pretend she never existed #which it still is but the spring having this name Helps. its a bandaid on a gunshot wound

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[figs-oliomedley]

The biggest thing keeping me rooting for Skailor in canon is the way she makes Kai crumple like a leaf

he literally burns himself with his own fire when talking to her oh my god

#how do you spell the ship name #he's such a confident flirt with any other girl but around her he just disintegrates #they are very cute and I love them both but there are like no big interactions between them #*since season 4 #and Skylor has like no character development or quirky things #shush I've seen crystalized don't @ me I want more #really hope she forces her way into the main characters the way Pixal did #a blind puppy in hell would do a better job at drawing Kai's hair #I have no idea what I'm doing when it goes to that lol #I'm also bad at drawing fire could you tell #Kai's emotions making his fire hotter should totally be explored more #except how would you do that #oh man this fire feels hotter than the other fires #they should totally change the fire's color like I've seen in all that fanart #really proud of the smear frame I drew #ninjago #kai smith #skylor chen #kai x skylor #canon ship #proud of this one #digital sketch #my stuff #I kinda wanna rewatch Season 4 again #FOR THE SIXTH TIME #lol

[hypnag0g]

doodlin my houseplants. top sketches are me desperately trying to figure out how to capture my older raven zz's resilience + my Corkscrew Albuca's dormancy/active states. not sold on the scientist vibes just yet, but we're still in the early stages. bottom image is my beloved Bogos Binted, the first raven zz i ever got (via the lovely and generous @clarenecessities )

#my art #365 #gorgon freeman #bogos binted #it feels weird tagging them with my oc: tag scheme since. theyre my plants #so theyre just getting a basic tag #my busted zz still doesnt have a name a year into me owning her bc ill be real. didnt think she would survive her first month here #but she's a fighter! #my corkscrew albuca also doesnt have a name but mostly because i am bad at naming plants #hence bogos binted. i asked clare and thats what she said i should name her

[sonofshu]

ㅤ

#Most of you don't know #I was talking about one particular person in my system #And I feel really bad about it #I needed to protect her #And I'm the one who's attacking her #Her name is cadence #And she's a fucking child #I'm so so sorry to her #But no matter how many sorries I say it's never going to make up #I shouldn't be trusted with her #I shouldn't be trusted with myself #But I'm the last person who can take care of her #So I'll apologize and we'll have a nice long talk #I'm an awful person for doing this #I fucking knew that I can't help people and that I only hurt #I'll try to not be a lost cause #I'm sorry to everyone who cares about us #You shouldn't've seen us like this #I'll be a good person I promise #I've already done too much #You all shouldn't worry #I'm so sorry to everyone #And especially sorry to my partners #You all have been too good to me #Thank you all #For everything #I'll protect her from now on #If I get a better grasp on what's happening in the system #It should be better #Thank you and I'm sorry

[euphoricfilter]

cry for help? probably. or advice even 🚶‍♀️because sometimes i hate having a funky lil brain

the girl in the room next to mine (who i think we’re friends? because we went to a cafe together on sunday??) knocked on the door, and i think it was probably her friend with her— and i’ve been in bed all day so like i’m half in my pjs, probably looking a little worse for wear, and she asked me if i was sleeping, and i said no. and when she asked me what i was doing my brain short circuited, idk why because literally i was just on tiktok so i told her that, and she said oh okay and that she’ll leave me to it. and idk if i was meant to ask if they wanted to come in even though i don’t know the other girl? or??? ARG i don’t know 😭 and now i can’t stop thinking about it even though they probably don’t care and like ???????? i give up, i feel like i did something wrong

and i’m like scared to message her and be like hey btw i have chronic anxiety and i feel bad about earlier, say hi to your friend for me 🕺 and like feel free to knock on the door whenever

#i haven’t really been in for the last couple of days #because my mum left this morning to fly home #so for the first time since i moved in i’m actually like here during the day #and i haven’t seen her for 2 days maybe? #and we met in the kitchen earlier and we kinda talked #but like i’m not really that good at small talk so i feel like i wasn’t giving enough? #and i felt bad about that #and now this #i feel so bad #and like i can’t stop replaying it in my head #i should have like said hi at least to the other girl #or asked for her name? #i don’t know 😭 #im gonna cry about it probably #what if she was gonna ask me to go to her room? #now i feel bad

[xxlethal-lunaxx]

If anyone relates to this even just a little bit, then I'm so sorry.

#• luna lavinchi speaking • #living with cptsd #cptsd vent #complex ptsd #diet culture trauma #monsters inside me #toxic health culture #ex vegitarian/vegan #emotional flashbacks #health documentaries #dark side of veganism #i should have never been forced to watch these as a child..my mind wasn't ready to understand the information nor tell what was real or not #-i cant try sushi or even think about fish without feeling physically sick and dizzy. i haven't had McDonald's since i was like 6ish years- #-old..i never wanted to share this information but i need to vent. I feel embarrassed and rude for not liking a food chain that most of the #-population does. Smelling or seeing McDonald's makes me wanna puke so bad because of everything those documentaries would say. #I will never be able to eat McDonald's in my life because of how sick and terrified i feel when thinking about the food even the drinks- #-scare the shit out of me. I'm so pissed that I'm triggered. All of the sudden i smell something in the house that smells like McDonald's- #-then the memories come flooding back and i feel like puking so back so i cant even eat dinner. i know this may seem stupid but i am- #-genuinly scared. Im tired of this shit and tired of feeling alone in this. #(anyway sorry. if you read my vent then i appreciate you) #tw food talk #tw diet culture #tw vent in tags #(dont even get me started on parasites cause thats a whole fucking trauma itself. damn it i hate it all. i hate it so much) #(also note: my therapist made me feel so validated weeks ago when i told her during my session that i was traumatized by monsters inside me- #-she literally knew the name of the show before i could even say its name. and she said she also cant watch it and that she saw it as an- #-adult who doesn't have ocd. so she told me she can't even imagine how terrified i was to watch it as a child who was developing ocd.- #-therapist W)

[deoidesign]

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#vent #man I need to scream about this so bad... #so just like ignore the tags if you dont wanna see me venting about the abuse and ableism and biphobia my bf and i are facing #A year ago me and my bf moved out together #for reference we were 24 and 25 at the time and wed been dating 8 years #my bfs parents absolutely flipped out. like complete meltdown #his mom called me and yelled at me calling me all kinds of names and saying she thinks im manipulating her son #screaming at me and anything I said just made her get more mad #His dad also hid his keys so me and my sister had to drive him to work #she called my parents too to try and have them break us up #which just made my parents say my boyfriend is welcome to stay with us if he feels unsafe #which ive never heard them offer to someone so it was BAD bad #well we moved out anyways and my bf has been way happier and healthier since leaving his parents #well new year comes around and they call him and have this huge conversation about how theyve realized they were wrong #and how they want to apologize to me and how theyre proud of him and they think he did the right thing #well my bf finally agrees to talk to them again after a year of no contact so he and his mom go to lunch #and immediately his mom says actually no i dont want to apologize to deo #she's weird and her art is weird and I dont like her #and i think she's taking advantage of you because she cant drive #she insulted my family and said he should break up with me because I'm disabled #she said i have no right to draw gay people and that it's weird I write gay stories #just. incredibly mean. #and the worst bit is that she's abusing my bf like this in my name #saying she wouldnt be like this if i were different. a different girl or a different person or less 'weird' #its been horrible and I'm so tired. at least we're moving again so she wont know where we live #a year of this shit man #delete later #sorry to the people who already know about this I'm just really struggling with it and having a hard time moving past it

[kkujo]

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#seeing weird t //rf takes abt surrogacy is so. 😨 'you can't pay to use a woman's body!!!!' ok first of all that is. Not how it works. #like. obviously in some situations people choose to be a surrogate as a last resort which is absolutely not good #but i really really really hate this black and white mentality these people get where if it's bad sometimes it's labelled Bad #some ppl genuinely choose to be surrogates bc they enjoy the process of pregnancy & helping people achieve their dream of starting a family #'surrogacy should be illegal' do you realise how fucking insane you sound? #forcing women into surrogacy should be illegal sure. but can we like. focus on making a society where women don't feel forced into that. #rather than ruling it out and labelling it bad overall when it's so much more nuanced than that??? it's really really weird? #if a woman knows the risks of pregnancy but genuinely wants to experience it to allow someone else to have a child?? #that's? their choice? #the least f*minist thing you can possibly do is say hey actually it shouldn't be allowed for women to do that w their body #like you do realise that sounds fucking crazy right #and then the whole 'they only 'enjoy' it bc they've been conditioned to think that blah blah blah GOD do you HEAR YOURSELF... #why are you acting like all women are immature children incapable of making informed decisions. #in the name of f*minism too like you must realise how patronising it is. #'she THINKS she wants it but no one wants that!!!' or maybe you just don't understand that different ppl feel differently abt stuff. #if YOU don't want to be a surrogate then don't 😭 it's no one's place to tell anyone what they want. #and for those with fertility issues etc etc who can't have their own children biologically it's such an immense kindness & blessing #to have someone willing to carry a child for you. like it's really incredible that people choose to do that #and undermining it by acting like they've been groomed into it by the patriarchy...... hello. #anyway rant over it's just such a weird take and not what i expected to see today #'just adopt' yes adoption is super important and there are so many kids who need homes but. it's also an extremely lengthy process #and rlly difficult sometimes too #& if a couple wants their own biological child that's their choice yk as long as everyone involved is ok w it ur opinion does not matter😭

[yuridovewing]

IIII think I may go the "change Tigerheart's name entirely" route for my au tbh.

#i knowww there's interesting stuff about maybe tawny wishing to redeem the name and their kin #or maybe even naming her son after the good parts of her dad that she fondly remembered #and then the second tigerstar having ideals that are so incredibly different from the first tigerstar #but like. its fucking confusing man skldfjklsdfjldsfjdlfjdlsjfldsfjldsfsd #you cant do this to me erin hunter. you cant make these guys look exactly the same and have the same relatives #and have the exact same name and then lampshade how ''similar'' they are #its just. man. it sucks im sorry #i kinda want to name her swiftheart instead after swiftpaw #or lynxheart cause thats cute. after lynxkit (swift/tawnys deceased sibling) #like its an interesting idea and i like the idea of reclaiming a name but it just makes things messier than they should be #especially since the erins dont actually seem to think tigerheartstar is a subversion of the original tigerstar #also while tawny definitely has conflicting feelings on her father in razorverse i dont think she'd name a kid after him #that one moment i read in tawnypelts clan where she holds his name over his head leaves a bad taste in my mouth honestly #and it just makes me want to cut any notion of ''she did it to redeem the name or honor what she liked about her father'' out

[skeletons-in-ur-closet]

its just not fair that my mom has to be completely dependent on me 100% when im barely 20 years old

#vent in the tags if u dont wanan read #its not FAIRRRR dude #for context my mom has literally never had a job. ever in her life. she met my dad shortly after hs and she was completely dependent on him #now hes gone and she has literally nothing to her name (my dad didnt have a lot put away) so now shes dependent on me n my brother #but its just not fair bc she had literally 30 years to get her life together and she just??? chose not to??? #now suddenly im responsible for all her bad decisions while she gets to coast her way through life like she ALWAYS HAS??? #she wasnt even a good mother to me yet i gotta bend over backwards to accommodate to her feelings??? #we've gotten into so many arguments about this and shes always like 'ur making me feel guilty :(' YOU SHOULD BE!!!! #it just baffles me that she HAD so so so many opportunities to get her shit together and she just never ever took them #how is she not embarrassed #and shes constantly calling me lazy...mf i am a full time college student and work 30+ hours a week to pay YOUR BILLS #i dont even know what to do bc we have an actively bad relationship but i dont wanna throw her out

[thedeadthree]

ADDA (pathfinder kingmaker) // ZOYA (pathfinder wotr)

VIKTORIYA (cp2077) // FALKA (dnd/bg3)

BELLONA (m*cu/the sandman) // PRIYA (ofna)

the lovelies @chuckhansen and @blackreaches tagged me to make a couple of the girlies in this cutest picrew! ty so much! (and saw @roofgeese do this too!)

TAGGING: @griffin-wood, @risingsh0t, @leviiackrman, @shellibisshe, @florbelles, @queennymeria, @dihardys, @arklay, @multiverse-of-themind, @aartyom, @swordcoasts, @virassan, @adelaidedrubman, @jackiesarch, @yennas, @belorage, @jacobseed, @rosebarsoap, @trvelyans, @celticwoman, @loriane-elmuerto, @shadowglens, @aceghosts and you!

#oc: adda de trastamara #oc: zoya de tancarville #editing to change her tag ✨🥺 for her new name! #oc: viktoriya vays #oc: falka #oc: bellona bancroft #oc: priya selesnick #leg.tagged #leg.ocs #t: picrews #five more days and i get to meet my unhinged dhampir girlie aemma 🖤😵‍💫 FIVE MORE DAYS #(the *shock* that yours truly is wishing yo play a dhampir sisjshhsj ✨🥴🥀) #fantasy and autumn energy with vika peppered in bc i missed her! and i finished cyberpunk recently! 🖤🤧 #tis the season which means it is time to reunite with my baby priya and read a beloved fall if 🖤😌 #she KNOWS this is a cult she can feel it ✨🥴 but if elliott is there than maybe it’s not so bad skjsjxhx #adda in her endgame knowing she’s adored by the masses annhilated her enemies and married her beloved 💫 she wins! as she should! #bella my DARLING when is she not going through it ✨🤧 #falka in dealing with the nonsense of the parasite worm in her head.. meanwhile her home is having a succession crisis and she’s the heir ✨🥴 #SHE DOESNT HAVE TIME FOR THIS..! #i dont have much on aemma rn but what i DO know is she was royalty! a vampire heiress! until she was suspected and ultimately banished for #supposedly k*lling her mother ✨🤧 (her mother was VERY ill but her father in his grief blamed her death on his daughter ✨😠) #but it’s okay! she’ll likely become a lich.. k*ll him and take his throne! it’s fine! unhinged darling girl! #i think? i like her as either a bloodmage or a possessed oracle? #parent death mention #just in case! #aemma is her middle name and tancarville is her mothers maiden name! and what she went with after her banishment! it’s a pseudo name! #i haven’t figured out her real name yet. ✨😵‍💫

[sadrockandwaltzes]

That was Then, This is NOW

AHHHHHHHHHH

ASPEEPS!!! I JUST FOUND OUT THAT THAT WAS THEN THIS IS NOW (TWTTIN <- awful acronym I know) HAS A MOVIE!!!

I know what you're saying. "But [insert name], I don't even know what book you're talking about. Why should I care?" Well I'll tell you why you should care. Y'all've read The Outsiders, haven't you?? It's only The Outsiders more depressing sequel!! Like c'mon. We're all about the angst!!

*and also I totally forgot they were foster brother and not just friends chilling under the same roof (tbf they were friends long before he joined their family) but.. the bromance.. I just need some people, preferably like mindedly gay minded people to read the book, watch the movie etc, and discuss it with me. For my peace of mind.

[and for that very small number of people who have read Peace Breaks Out *cough you know who you are cough* it's basically the equivalent! ASP and Outsiders were the popular ones, they were angsty, about teens for teens before YA was a real reading section, had gay controversies (for different reasons of course XD), and ended on slightly hopeful notes (you may disagree, but I think Gene found peace or something akin to it, maybe self forgiveness at the end of the book). NOW THE SEQUELS. Very disheartening defeatist messages. Everything is irreparably broken and I don't know how to go on but I can't die. Everyone can be monsters so there is no point having faith in humanity. Etc. (Yeesh.) SO GOOD. and they both have the obligatory reference to book 1 which I love.

So to summarize. We have a discord. (We will have a discord I should say). We have internet (obviously). What prevent us from expanding our gloomy horizons???

#Go and read it!!! #and the outsiders if you haven't read that #movie wasn't too bad either #But obviously not as good as the book #would love to discuss with y'all #and either watch the movie together or more like ly all on our own but then discuss #I hope the movie doesn't suck #should I read SEH's other stuff? They all have such similar plots and themes. It's a bit of a turn off #but she is a good writer #and they say write what you know #and what better way for me to learn about the 60s (or her small town to be exact) then by reading all her books??? #Also unrelated but how do y'all feel about the label Devonians? Aspeeps is a joke obviously (can't exactly say it in serious discussions) #So I just feel like (especially if you guys go and read his other books. As you should) it'll be a great name. #I don't know maybe that's just me. Thoughts? #A separate peace #That was then this is now

[girlyliondragon]

I DID NOT JUST SEE LIZBERT X FILBO SHIP SHIT ON AO3.....

I THOUGHT WE STOPPED THESE PEOPLE HOLY SHIT

They made her CHEAT with EGGABELL too?? What the FUCK and why is that here????!

#Bugsnax #ANYWAYS IF YOU SHIP THAT GTFO YOU FREAK #I don't care if people don't like me saying this Lizbert is his SISTER FIGURE and she is JUST HIS FRIEND NOT FWBS #why do people want to ship them so badly??? Lizbert is gay ffs! #AND they make her feel like shit for being with Eggabell as if she even liked Filbo more than platonic????? #Lizbert is not a cheater!! She's not a fucking cheater why would that person do that or write or post something like that???!!! #She would not cheat with Eggabell she loves Eggabell geuinely and Filbo is JUST a brother to her GOD #as if Lizbert and Eggabell weren't together FIRST. Let canon strictly platonic childhood friends stay that way! #Anyways I muted that person thank you AO3 for that function I do not want to see freaks like that in my sight #I don't even know if I should tag this because people have gotten on my ass for ship shit as is #even though we literally got on someone's @ss for doing this before #this one was literally a 2 year ago problem WHY IS IT RETURNING #This fandom really wants Liz to be a scumbag so bad they have to make sh!t up now. There I said it! Cheaters are scumbags. she is not #it would be so great if people can stop being weirdos about LizEgg in general. it's always SPECIFICALLY them too! Never any of the others! #If you want the person's name to mute then feel free to ask (Even if it's on the front fucking page of the tag *RETCHES*) #but if you're just gonna tell me to let people do whatever they want even if it's fucking wrong. Then piss off #I'd LOVE for anyone that genuinely defends that ship to stay away from me. Reminder We've been here before and dealt with it so wtf???

[sugarsugarmp3]

i turn 21 on monday and i just know im not going to enjoy this weekend at all...

#BIG vent in tags #the last two months have been honestly some of the worst of my life i am always always thinking about this rly shitty thing happened #and now i have to go home for my birthday weekend which i know i should be happy about and it is a good thing #but i just really dont want to go and i feel like a bad person for feeling that way #im doing better than someone i know and i need to go home and be there for them #i wanted to be in my apartment and relax with my friends #ive had 4 midterms this week and i am just exhausted with everything #and its not like it being my brithday will make my weekend bc thats literally impossible #and i feel so shitty about feeling this way bc im not the one who needs help right now and my bday shouldnt even be a priority in my family #bc we have bigger problems rn #but i still wish it was better. plus today sucked #i just am always awkward with people and i wish i was better at social stuff and ive felt rly lonely bc i only hve a few good friends #and trying to make friends is so impossible bc it seems like i keep doing the wrong thing and not being able to vibe with people #rn im just thankful for labs bc having constant lab partners are the only social interactions i get in almost all my classes #this girls would sit next to me in genetics and we would talk but i hvent seen them in a few weeks and i dont know their names #and im not great with faces so i cant even go up to them if i see them and i wouldnt even know what to say if i did #i see the same people in my classes but im sure they think im weird bc ive never talked with them but i always accidentally make eye contac #and one girl in 4/5 of my classes i sometimes talk with but i dont even know if she likes me and i acciendetnally made eye contact with her #while waiting for a lecture to start but then made no attemot to talk to her bc i thought itd be awkward and she probably thought i was #ignoring her #its just this week. its been so so shitty i dont know how to change thus