#the grief in this movie is just so

[hbfengxi]

you don’t get it. you don’t get it. i will always think about how shuri all but ran to the ancestral plane, despite not believing in it. how, despite her misgivings, it was a chance to see her mother or brother again;

and i will always think about how she met killmonger instead: someone she deemed an enemy and a threat to those she loved and stood for. always separate and far away, always just a warning—look, this is the wrong path. you should never take it.

and how killmonger convinced her that they were the same. you chose me.

i will always think about shuri after, waking up on that cold metal slab, now hollow in a way no one else will ever be able to comprehend;

how, as she stood up, her loss finally seemed real to her, because even in a place where her wishes to see her family could have been granted, they weren’t. they didn’t come. to her, they chose not to, and so a man like killmonger guided her into her first breaths as the Black Panther instead.

i will always think about how broken by grief she sounded, and angry, and most of all, above all, so utterly alone:

“I saw no one Nakia! I SAW NO ONE! Why did they not show up? Why did they abandon me?”

#the grief in this movie is just so #WELL DONE #black panther #black panther wakanda forever #shuri #erik killmonger #Nakia #black panther wakanda forever spoilers #queen ramonda #marvel meta #mcu phase 4 #grief #t’challa #n’jadaka #ramblings

[upsidedog]

god the scene in season one where jonathan comes home to joyce and lonnie on the couch drinking together is harrowing. it makes me want to cry just thinking about it, your brother is dead, your mom is horrible mental state and is now also introducing your abusive father back into your house. what a fucking nightmare.

#i think it’s unproductive to try to determine whether joyce is a fully ‘good’ or ‘bad’ mother especially without acknowledging the #intricacies of grief or abuse or how victims go back to their abusers or how your son is stuck in a hell dimension but i think it’s obvious #she was at least being a bad parent to jonathan all of season one he was absolutely put through the ringer and joyce even temporarily #letting lonnie back in is just the cherry on top #anyway season one is sooooooo damn good it’s so fucking good it’s actually a good show in season one #i adore the funeral scene where dustin goes ‘wait till will hears jennifer hayes cried at his funeral!’ so cute so funny #and nancy. NANCY. the angels wept! #the scene where steve tries to get her to go to the movies vs the first ep… she is not a frivolous high school girl anymore. that can’t be #her life

[coveredinsun]

i love watching the behind the scenes bits because of the insight it gives you. the death scene was TWENTY EIGHT PAGES LONG in the script and boy did it feel like it. one of the producers mentioned how they “never wanted to take the cameras off the kids because then it’s kind of like.. letting them off the hook” and my writer brain found that supremely gratifying. the complete lack of ‘downtime’ from tom’s call to the press conference forced you to feel some of the tension the siblings did, and it did NOT give you a break because they didn’t get a break. it yanked you in unexpectedly and didn’t let you go for almost a full half hour. it was so masterful and i expect emmys all around <3

#sorry im just rambling #1917 is one of my fav movies i LOVEEEEEE when events happen in real time #that death scene yanked you in and didn’t let you go for almost a full half hour. and for that its one of my fav death scene i’ve ever seen #the real time grief + lack of communication + lack of seeing logan #and the way you think its a sick joke at first and then it dawns on you that its not. god that was done so well #succession spoilers #succession

[pitske]

ROTZBACKE! HAKENZAHN! OI! OI! OI!

#I know some people will disagree with me here and that is totally okay : #I grew up watching httyd and I absolutely prefer the german version over the og (which doesn't happen often) #I think it is so undeniably better in my opinion because it 1) is what I am used to #and 2) because I'm a northern german and the way they talk seems so close to home its just nice- #um's auf gut deutsch zu sagen: die hamburgern so schön /lh #of course in my family we mostly speak like that for emphasis or whatever but I JUST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I LOVE IT SO MUCH #I can speak along with the movie in its entirety in german I just-only piece of media that had more of an impact on my life than Undertale #I will say I am sadly not a third movie enjoyer. I'm sorry I just didn't like it very much but I respect the people who do #I also have only watched it once while I've watched rtte like... idk 3 times? #also finally getting to the drawing- I LOVE SNOTLOUT AND HOOKFANG SO MUCCH #also Rotzbacke's Synchronsprecher is just so damn funny- #oh btw Planzin and Tectco watched me go through the five stages of grief when I realized the reason why angel dust sounded so familiar #in the german dub was because the voice actor is the same guy who voice acts fishlegs in german #pitske’s art #pitskederdoenerhaendler #so much shit going down guys I need to draw the entire dragon rider crew #httyd fanart #httyd #snotlout #snotlout jorgenson #hookfang #how to train your dragon

[theoryofwhatnow]

crafting the game

(this has been in my drafts for ages)

#i've been thinking about the boys game a lot. #the event at the end of the movie that most of us first recognized as the cycle #(or at least most of whom i've interacted with after first finishing the film) #I'm gonna be honest this all started because i was making an edit #but that's neither here nor there. #Essentially i was confused about *the game* #and was wondering whether nigel won or lost before i realized i was looking at it all wrong #duh #Nigel was talking about the creation of the game that he would contribute to #not how it's played #which only became glaringly obvious to me after i'd sat there with my thoughts for almost a half hour #(give me a break i'm not stupid i've just had a rough few weeks) #Everybody played their part perfectly the schools order begins to fall apart #(alex headmaster's son leaves. nigel grandmaster's son dead alongside his parents. etc.) #the valiant hero forsakes the religious organization (McKenzie) #and everyone else takes their place unknowingly simply through existing. #Alex finds another boy and so it begins. #Finally out of death grief suffering and ruined sanity; the game starts but we don't ever see it. #start with a Jack and then fabricate the game #like minds #nigel colbie #alex forbes #murderous intent

[torments-my-obelisk]

DSOD is such a funny movie. Kaiba comes on screen in his giant fucking space station molded into his company logo and I just laughed. He’s so dramatic. He misses his rival and is so obsessed with getting some closure for once in his goddamn life that he spent well over a billion dollars to excavate a cursed puzzle and build a space elevator to the afterlife but the minute anyone says anything about ‘hey maybe that’s a little unhealthy’ he’s snapping and snarling and telling them to fuck off. Except the cube guy. He’s has a duel disk and is also full of unprocessed grief so he can stay. Yugi Moto looks them dead in the eye and says “first of all, I’m only here because you both blackmailed me. Secondly, fuck you both for that, by the way. Thirdly, I’m gonna kick your ass”. Card games ensue, meanwhile Yugi tries his absolute best to show Kaiba the pharaoh is gone and maybe he needs to spend some time reflecting on his emotions and yes the invitation is still open to talk about Him BUT THEN THE NARRATIVE PROVED KAIBA RIGHT?!! AND THE PHARAOH COMES BACK AND YUGI HAS TO LOOK KAIBA IN THE EYE AND TELL HIM THAT HES SORRY FOR DOUBTING HIM?? WHAT. What Kaiba takes from all this is that a) his horrid coping mechanisms work after all, b) if he just fucks around enough and spends all his money he really can be king of the world and c) the best option is definitely to finish that space elevator and fucking. Go to the afterlife I guess. To duel his “hated rival” or whatever. Fuck off

#dsod #seto kaiba #dark side of dimensions #yugioh #yugioh duel monsters #ygo dm #ygo #I just rewatched this movie and it really is the story of kaiba failing to deal with loss #making it everyone’s problem #and eventually he made it so much of a problem that even atem had to come back and be like ‘for fucks sake kaiba if you’re going to be #‘such a bitch about it FINE.’ #and like the plana’s power being taken away once the pharaoh is resurrected means that kaiba putting the Millenium puzzle back together #to see atem again inadvertently saved the day #like holy shit the entire narrative really was shaped around letting him be insane while yugi is the most normal person ever in comparison #hmm also diva and kaiba’s grief being juxtaposed… hmmm #dsod is such a movie #and I just remembered he literally COUKD HAVE DIED AND LEFT MOKUBA IN CHARGE?? HELLO #thank god for the kaiba/yugi in space illustration takahashi did bc leaving things off with the end of dsod is just. #not great. except for prideshippers I guess 😭

[mothirl]

Feeling normal and then I'm forced to remember all the parallels of Jones hall and Augie Steenbeck and I immediately crumble into the dirt, to be reclaimed by the earth.

#when they both hurt themselves on purpose to give them an excuse to why their hearts are beating so fast. fuck #i need to be sedated #i need to be put down #augie becomes just a reflection of how jones feels #in grief #he becomes that character #felt so hard as an actor #this probably isnt actually the proper interpretation of the movie but its MINE #wes anderson the man you are #jason schwartzman #augie steenbeck #jones hall #asteroid city

[spiteless-xo]

i've spent the past couple days outlining a couple different long-fic ideas so i have something to build off on when i go on christmas holidays and the reiner/reader fic i have plotted feels like a hallmark movie 💀💀

#big city girl goes back to her small town for a funeral and reconnects with her high school sweetheart #who just so happens to be the community organizer and local project coordinator #and reader's current job as (some corporate bs) becomes a valuable asset in helping reiner with a big community event #strong themes of grief and the transformative power of shared experiences in healing #blah blah blah oh and it's christmas #there's probably 30 hallmark movies with this exact plot #although im suffering from writers block i've been outlining like crazy #ive written four whole fics in point form!! start to finish!! plus themes and foreshadowing!! #i just gotta turn these bullet points into chapters 💀

[mayzi33]

I did it.

I finished the warden and the wolf king.

#i'm crying #i don't remember when a book or a series or a movie has ever made me feel this way #i have so much to say but my brain isn't working right now #i gonna post a long ass rant after this i promise #just let me grief first #literally... #the wingfeather saga #the warden and the wolf king

[pollyna]

They, he and Ice and sometimes Slider too, used to spend hours watching Bradley play around their little garden. He was five, then ten, fifteen and crying over some girl and then some body and then he was eighteen. Then they stopped spending all that time outside because Bradley wasn't around anymore and Maverick was back on a jet far far away to not deal with all the bullshit but still find the way to make peace with what he did.

It's not a garden but a beach, Bradley passed his twentieth birthday by a decade and only Slider is there with him. Some days they laugh about the Daggers and somedays they leave before Penny can send their drink out because, sometimes, Bradley says or moves his head in a certain way and both of them can see Goose and Ice in him so much it's like having them there. Mav knows, and Slider does too, that Bradley is more than just them and sometimes it does good to remember about it and sometimes it only helps as a reminder of what, who, they lost.

#sad hour prompt #empty chairs at empty tables and all the space you left behind #pete maverick mitchell #ron slider kerner #bradley rooster bradshaw (mentioned) #they know it's not just just ice or goose there but sometimes is so easy to forget for an instant #about grief and learning how to deal with it #dead tom iceman kazansky #dead nick goose bradshaw #icemav #hint of sloose #(but only if you want to see it) #post movie #top gun: maverick #otp: i heard from the heavens that clouds have been grey #idk in which english this stuff is written so the grammar is probably pretty bad 🌈

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#genuine question which may sound stupid #bc i always experience this i thought maybe it was universal #but if you watch or listen to something sad do you also get immensely sad? #like... as if all your sadness of your entire life comes flooding back? #not just 'oh this movie is sad' but like. oh yeah there's my old friend depression. she is def still there #like i can be doing so fine all week and then it's like a shadow falls over me reminding me of what is always always lurking #anyways. that's why i don't often indulge in sad media :) #my posts #i explained it poorly and also this was caused by fellow travelers :) #queer grief might be the worst of all

[hag-lad]

God I love RRR 😭

#I’ve never loved a movie so much in my life #it rewired my brain #I think all the time about the fact that my mother passed away like two weeks before RRR was released #so there was no way she could ever have seen or shared it with me #and while that fills me with more sadness than I can even describe #it also positions this movie in a very unique and bittersweet place for me emotionally #it was the thing that pulled me out of my catatonic grief-induced depression #it was the thing that made my life bigger around the grief #it was the first profound moment of joy I had in this new life I’m trying to live without her #anyway I just have a lot of feelings #rrr my beloved

[stuckasmain]

Anyways, thinking about how the musical perfectly translates Christian’s narration into a much more direct way. In the film he has a degree of separation, we first see him in the depths of his despair, we see the aftermath first. The narration is explained by it being his typewriting rather than to the audience itself. On stage you could technically do that, have him start at a desk or so forth but I like what they chose to do. We fall in love with a time and place, with a girl, alongside him.

The musical does follow the same “back in time” idea but to a greater extent. Instead of a screen edit we see Christian literally start the story by raising its title and setting the stage. (Some actors even have him sigh or prepare himself before hand further showing this). There’s a dazzling and mind boggling introduction only for him to stop it- go back to what he sees to be the beginning then directly jump in time again back to Satine’s introduction.

Here he jumps in and out of the story so seemlessly you sort of forget this is being told to you after it had all happened. Christian falls so easily back into the roll of himself, so wrapped in it all that he still has tears or a smile on his face as he talks to the audience.

It’s not a story being told it’s jumping back in time itself- he’s reliving it. It is a self inflicted time loop, no matter what way he tells the story- on paper, in song, or his memory. It won’t change. It may not be a literal time loop but it’s certainly someone settling back so easily into the role. Christian is so much a part of the story that it rattles him to the core when it ends and he has to find some semblance of explanation- he still struggles to end the show. To stop writing. It’s like she’s gone again, there’s nothing left to tell and suddenly there’s no more Satine.

The musical may not start at the end but it certainly does allow that Christian to poke through. When Satine is introduced you see that look in his eye, you see that joy when he explains meeting Toulouse and Santiago. Again the seamless narrator to player in the play. Love.

#this is the first of a lot of deep dive posts coming #I hope this makes even a remote bit of sense I just love him so much #and this show #moulin rouge #moulin rouge! #moulin rouge movie #moulin rouge musical #moulin rouge broadway #moulin rouge tour #christian moulin rouge #character study #time loop #ramble #meta #grief #active narrator #satine moulin rouge #christian x satine

[designernishiki]

as much as a i understand and respect ace kiryu truthers, i really feel like kiryu is the type to really take the idea to heart that sex is something vulnerable and meaningful and thus reserved for someone completely trusted and special to him– someone who feels right. after years and years he’s still never legitimately voluntarily slept with someone, always tries to turn women away or is at least apathetic when they try to get physical with him, never feels that deep and specific bond with a woman– nothing compared to some of his bonds with other men throughout his life. and maybe, hopefully, one day it’ll hit him that there’s a pretty big, glaring reason why no women have ever felt “right” to him.

#I’ve become a pretty devout gay kiryu trigger at this point #it just. makes the most narrative sense / is the most narratively interesting / explains So Much #kiryu #yakuza #kazuma kiryu #honest to god though it’s. the most realistic way of explaining why he jumps to the assumption that he must date or kiss a woman or whatever #as soon as possible with little to no room to actually fall for one #with yumi he’s literally in the classic comp het situation of ‘well someone told me I’m in love with her so I guess I’m in love with her’ #no deeper thought no proof of falling for her etc #sayama’s more convincing and they start out actually building a dynamic that could end up being romantic maybe- but then they fucking jump #the gun and have kiryu randomly kiss her like something he saw in a movie instead of. you know. talking about things first. or anything. #partly because they’re in a life or death situation and are essentially pushed together via traumabonding #and that’s Extreme when it comes to the end of kiwami 2. honestly that makeout scene was just. really weird and uncomfortable. for multiple #reasons. I mean for one he says something like ‘I’m sure she (haruka)’ll understand’ in between the making out in reference to him not #even trying to get further from the bomb or anything #and just lowkey choosing to kill himself (disturbingly similarly to nishiki mind you) like uh kiryu did you forget that haruka. literally #lost her mother in an extremely similar situation. in front of her. and nearly lost you at the same time. kiryu’s personality is Not one to #just shrug off something like that- either he was purposefully choosing to kill himself because he felt like a failure and that haruka would #genuinely be better off without him Or the writing there was INSANELY out of character as to make him seem more focused on the supposed #Romeo and Juliet tragic romance situation than saving his daughter the grief of losing EVERYONE CLOSE TO HER and reliving the worst night of #her fucking Life #god if anything the ending of yk2 just screams ‘this relationship would not work out under normal circumstances and both of them are just #clinging onto whatever’s closest out of desperation and need for any kind of emotional catharsis available’ #if you can compare a pairing to romeo and juliet . it’s probably not #a pairing that’s meant to be #sorry im going off on a huge tangent about how weird the ending of yk2 was to me uhhh anyway I could write a video essay on why kiryu being #gay is the most realistic and interesting interpretation of him possible . send tweet

[fellhellion]

gwen only being at spider society for a couple months and saying she voted against the go home machine is so fucking funny to me because like hkdjshfjkd holy shit were they individually hauling villains home before this lmao

#also im sorry but IM SO CONFUSED AS TO WHAT GWEN IS SUPPOSED TO BE MORALLY OBJECTING TO LMAO #i think its just a bit of wonky writing and its a blink and u miss it scene so who cares #but also fdkjsfhkjdshjk god SO funny that this movie is willing to try cast the go home machine #in an unsettling light but isnt interested in looking at the emotionally understandable and morally grey action of miguel #stepping into another man's shadow #<- like i get WHY. tonally what youre supposed to take away from miguel retelling that story is the weight of his guilt and grief #and thus the reason why this character is so terrified of these consequences again but kjfhsdkj god #tunes talks spiderverse

[dont-justdont]

currently listening to the director's commentary on iwtv (1994) and whatever the hell do you mean we were robbed from a confession scene???? now supposedly, after louis shows claudia where he found her and drank her blood, he wonders the city, stumbles into a church, CONFESSES AND THEN KILLS THE PRIEST IN BLOODLUST ON THE ALTAR AND IT WAS CUT OUT?!?!?!

we have all been ROBBED and i wish to see the footage i will give away both of my kidneys to see it pleeeease

#i- i swear to god i need this #like what in the absolute fuck to you mean there was a confession scene in one of my favourite movies and it was just cut out????? #“because there's only so much grief we can show relating to one character” NO BITCH SHOW ME MORE #GIVE ME MORE #DROWN ME IN IT #i want it i need it GIVE IT TO ME #iwtv #interview with the vampire #iwtv 1994 #louis de la pointe du lac #confession scenes