#then a shitton of stuff happens on tumblr

[mona-liar]

#First the first gay couple in german parliament from the fucking christian conservatives #then a shitton of stuff happens on tumblr #shitton of music gets released #and now Kosto is officially switching to pairs???? #bro what is happening??? #is she switching nationalities too????

[fiannalover]

Given how die girlies of Tumblr (gender neutral) (myself included) eat up posts that are just someone listing a shitton of stuff that happened to a character/in a franchise in a vaguely comedic way, I regretfully have to concede Homer may have been onto something with that Catalogue of Ships

#fian rambles #ok to reblog #homer #the iliad #greek mythology #homer would have done numbers #ancient greeks cracking up and hollering by the time of #Epistrophius #LMAO EPISTROPHIUS is here

[omegalomania]

every single time without fail theres some kind of nonsensical no-stakes "fall out boy vs my chemical romance" smackdown on tumblr dot hell theres always this little nest of fans who scream and cry and go "we shouldnt pit them against each other we are friends and cousins and holding hands!!!" and it always makes me think of how this wretched webbed site was circa 2015. some of you werent active at the time so ill tell you what that was like.

abap-era fandom was like an absolute bloodbath in the worst possible ways because that's when bandom on tumblr was like still at its peak but thats also when twenty one pilots was getting enormous so we had racists swarming out of the woodwork and a lot of people who didnt want to admit they were racist and all that fun stuff. and i just really really really remember quite vividly the way that pete was building up hype for the boys of zummer tour by saying "you are NOT gonna expect who we go touring with" and ofc everyone started theorizing and going wild and pulling out whatever big name they could think of. blink-182 was one of the big ones but the other really really big one i remember was everyone saying "oh my chemical romance is gonna reform and they're gonna tour with my chem!!!" you know, my chemical romance, the band that was broken up for 2 years at this point, the band that wasn't a band anymore.

anyway they announce the boys of zummer tour with wiz khalifa and naturally, again, the racists come crawling out of whatever anal cavities theyd been sleeping in to be like MUH MUH MUH fob is touring with a rAPPER UGH can i SKIP wiz's set i don't feel SAFE in that CROWD and it was, you know, generally disgusting shit coming out of the fob fandom but on top of that we had inexplicably rly salty my chem fans ALSO piling on the racism because they built up the hype for this magical reformation that wasnt going to happen and had no indication of happening. so imagine if you will, what was roughly the equivalent of if you were trying to clean a shitton of nuclear waste out of your house that was corroding everything and making the entire place Uninhabitable and then out of nowhere your neighbors decided that that they were going to start bailing in more garbage through the window like they were absolutely fucking stone cold determined to make your home the goddamn elephants foot forcing you to deal with THAT in addition to all the other, preexisting garbage you were already struggling to deal with.

so yes, you know, sure. our bands both got big at the same time and the scene didnt fucking like them and all they had was each other at the start. and, sure, our fandoms are cousins or family or whatever because of that. but you know, that doesnt mean i want to deal with the racist cousin coming around every so often actually. maybe i dont want to hang out with the racist cousin. maybe im going to tell the racist cousin to fuck off and stop coming around unless they feel up to cleaning up their act. maybe i dont like the racist cousin, and im tired of making allowances for them.

#*making poasts #you can rb this if you want i really dont care #ive dealt w a lot from these people and this was....i think the first real interaction i had w the my chem fanbase #delighted to announce that everything ive seen since has absolutely lived up to that. stay classy folks!

[emberphantom]

how long have you been a fan of iasip and how long on sunnyblr? do you know who here has been around for a long time? how has the fandom developed and changed from your perspective? has it always been so reddit-oriented? what have the main opinions (general consensus kinda shit) been in your eyes? were you into macdennis right from the start? did the fandom always follow rcg so closely or is that only after the podcast? sorry for asking so much, just interested in the history of this space

Step into my office Anon. Let me regale you the tale of Sunnyblr from the days of yore. Or whatever.

Me personally, I started watching Sunny in late summer 2019 (tragically I had just missed the fake MacDennis script panic of July 2019). My friends had it on when I went to their house and we didn't have anything else to do, so we just watched like a shitton of episodes that day and I was like hold fuck on this scratches something in my brain. I didn't start poking around on the Sunny side of tumblr until possibly a week later? I think. Basically in my skipping around Sunny episodes I was starting to pick up the vibes Mac and Dennis were putting down and as a joke I was like hmm what if I just take a look at the ao3 tag ahaha jk unless. And that was the beginning of the end. I'm not sure if I checked out the Sunny tag on tumblr first or the MacDennis tag but literally at that time it didn't matter. Sunnyblr was essentially MacDennisblr. Tumblr didn't get me into MacDennis but it definitely accelerated my hyperfixation with them This was all pre-s14 at this point for reference.

Honestly, not many people remain from that time or even before. I remember some folks I had followed reminiscing about post-s12, wondering if Dennis was coming back, or if he turned into the bar. Idk man I'm so glad I didn't have to deal with not knowing if Dennis was coming back like that would've been too much for me.

But 2019 Sunnyblr, and this may just be the nostalgia talking, but man it was magical. The gif sets, the meta breakdowns of episodes, the macdennis posts--god we were eating GOOD. It felt like one giant group chat in the best way. And then The Gang Gets Romantic happens an we were absolutely FERAL. Okay? Like picture Nov 5th but on a way smaller scale. But that was the energy, okay?

But then, tragedy struck in the form of Dee Day. That, for me was kinda the beginning of the end of that version of Sunnyblr. A lot of people were pissed. The glass shelves we had propped RCG and Megan Ganz up on had shattered. A decent amount of people left right then and there. But those who stayed were holding out for something -- a better apology from them regarding the brownface for one. And that...didn't happen (I don't want to speak more on this bc like...look I'll be real with you, I stuck my head in the sand on this one. But people had a right to be hurt by that episode and to this day I haven't rewatched it since it aired). But we trudged along. Bc it's "satire" and these are "bad people" and we are DEF getting canon MacDennis okay they are going to KISS on the MOUTH in BIG MO.

....and then they didn't. Clown shoes squeaking.

Okay trying to get this back on track...

As far as reddit goes, that's always just been the "dudebro" place for Sunny. Sometimes they make valid points and our braincells align and that warrants someone posting it here to discuss.

I feel like the general opinions kinda feel the same to me? Mac and Dennis are endgame, Archie. Dennis is bastardman but also baby. Charlie poor little meow meow. I do have to say...I feel like some stuff used to feel a bit more...grounded than it does now?? If that makes sense? Like idk man people were out here writing academic prose to describe the meta in Clip Show. And I do feel like that vibe's kinda gone. But it's not a bad thing. It's just different. Like it's more unhinged but hey we're still having fun so who cares?

Uh what else? Oh yeah so the RCG stuff. Like I said before, there was a point where Sunnyblr propped them up and we got reality checked real quick, okay? They went from being UnProblematic Kings ™ to Rob posting copaganda on his IG at the height of the George Floyd protests in June of 2020. That happening after all the shit with Dee Day was basically a powder keg. And that's honestly when Sunnyblr as I knew it, really died.

I think the podcast has def shoved them back into a more favorable light in the fandom's eyes. Speaking for myself, I never stopped stanning Glenn but Rob and Charlie and Kait were on thin fucking ice (maybe not Charlie so much but def Rob and Kait--actually mostly Rob). I think RCG have to be prevalent in the fandom as much as the characters do bc they're so close to them and the show like this IS their show y'know?

That's...all I can really think of. Like I said, not many people remain from those days. I can think of maybe a handful off the top of my head but I wouldn't consider them nearly as active as they were regarding Sunny when I joined. We're still moots but that's bc we like each other beyond the MacDennis of it all.

Sorry this is so long too lmfao. Like Sunnyblr was such a huge part of my life during that time so I guess I got shit to say. I also for real in no way consider myself the end all be all expert on this either. Like in no way am I the sole authority on Sunnyblr history. This is based on stuff I experienced and picked up on from other's posts from before my time. Anybody can chime in with their own opinions and shit. Correct me too. Idc.

Uh yeah. So I guess that's what you missed on Glee. Or Sunnyblr. The end? I hope that helped (for real).

#allison answers shit #sunny asks #sunny #macdennis #long post

[techno-in-a-boat]

HEY YOU

YES YOU

GO WATCH ROSHAMBO

if that wasn't convincing enough please stay for a minute to listen to all the reasons you should.

First off. what the fuck is a roshambo, you may be asking.

A roshambo is another name for rock, paper, sissors. In this case Roshambo, or roshambogames, is a minecraft youtuber.

What does he post?

Minecraft content! He does partly Lifesteal (elaborated on in the nxt bit) and just. general minecraft things. Usually with other servers he doesnt post regularly about.

Whats a lifesteal?

Its a minecraft server where when you kill people you steal a heart. Cue antics.

Read more about it here

How often does Ro upload?

From what it seems about 3ish months between uploads give or take. So its about. mid length wait times between videos. not too bad.

What are the videos like?

Theyre all. kinda structured like english papers imo. They're usually going over a single event and have EXTREMELY clear beginning/middle/end stuff. like you can plot this stuff out on those plot diagrams with ease. Theres two parts to the voicing, future ro (the voice over during editing that goes 'but he didnt know what was about to happen' and stuff like that.) and actual voicechat footage from the game. standard stuff. Typical Ro video activities are: doing something ridiculously grindy/needs a shitton of setup and the setup is like. most of the video. "and then.. i lost everything". Ro talking abotu how he had a test the next day but he did not sleep nor study for it because he needs to do minecraft. and other such things. its quite lovely

How often does he steam?

According to my sources (crowdsourced off tumblr) infrequently

What are his streams like?

(thanks to @/aroaceacacia and @/pendelphine for giving your insight to his streams through tumblr tags)

apparently highly Goofy and Silly. there is kpop music. why is there kpop music. who is letting this happen. how is he not getting copyright striked. it is silly messing around time and ro has all the fun silly shit imaginable. From the one vod i watched the vibes of the silly goofy streams are. VERY different to the vibes of the yt videos. he apparently also does non silly streams that are closer to the yt videos but theyre . rare.

What if Ro good at in game?

He grinds. he builds big ass elaborate traps. Hes turned spawn to obsidian once. Not afraid to gaslight gatekeep girlboss. Mostly just the fucking intense recource gathering and traps. like jfc man what the fuck. hes also gotten rid of the end that one time. yeah dont worry about it

Where can I go watch this awesome amazing youtuber?

Yt Channel

Lifesteal Playlist

Should I watch Roshambo?

Absolutely

Can we get a bonus Roshambo drawing?

Of Course!!!

(Apart of @pacificseaotter 's lifesteal propaganda project)

#lifesteal #roshambo #roshambogames #lifesteal propaganda project

[maryellencarter]

So I've been tussling with how to write this post for some time now.

Uh, the background good news first? I appear to have worked almost an entire pay period and also March is a three paycheck month, so I'm making some very solid progress on getting caught up on my bills, and it seems like this might even continue. I know I tend to be more optimistic than is usually warranted, but 70 hours in my time clock when working all my scheduled hours would put me at 72 is pretty damn impressive, especially compared to how I've been doing for a really long time.

So then I was poking around and trying to figure out what one even does with disposable income. I've been going to a knitting group at a local yarn shop recently (I forget if I mentioned here but a friend was able to get me some KN95 masks and some helpful information about transmission rates so I can socialize safely again! This is probably a big factor in me being less depressed and more worky again also), but I don't really enjoy owning yarn I don't have A Plan for, so right now I've got a cable sweater for Leia, a fancy silk lace scarf, a puffy hexagon blanket, and a crochet baby blanket going, and I just really don't want any more yarn until I finish with one or two of these projects.

Recently, though, as y'all have probably seen, there was an announcement going around about the American Girl doll brand announcing a pair of 1999-themed Historical Character dolls. Because Tumblr is the "we are getting old" website at this point, there were Noises. (They have a Pizza Hut "Book-It" reading program playset. I have never been smacked in the face with nostalgia so hard in my entire life.)

As some of y'all may also remember, I used to have a whole collection of American Girl dolls and furniture and whatnot, because I was trying to do the whole "believe you can be safe and stable now and have the things you were never allowed to have as a kid" thing with a reasonable part of the money I'd inherited from my then recently deceased grandmother (a lovely human being, and by extreme genetic good luck the relative I take after physically, so that I don't have to deal with the whole "growing up to look exactly like my abuser" thing that some people have to suffer through). Then the 2016 election happened, I had a horrible depressive spiral, was unable to work, sold 90% of my collection to pay the rent, eventually became homeless anyway, and lost the other 10% by trusting the wrong person to keep my stuff safe when I had no other options.

ANYWAY! Not the point. The point is that I started poking my nose back into the American Girl website, and then the wiki in order to try to figure out what all I'd missed, and I'm kind of being like "hey, I could hypothetically afford some of this stuff again now".

(I personally find it hilarious that the brand is trying to walk a line between "Addressing trans and nonbinary identities in our helpful book on puberty for preteens? Sure, we'll do that, we're progressive! Also did you say Harry Potter collaboration? That's a license to basically print money from customers who are nostalgic for the same era we were most popular in, let's do this", which is exactly the kind of seesawing I expect from Disney -- who owns American Girl via Mattel.)

So *anyway*, and this is the part of this post I'm really struggling with: I also used to be heavily involved in the part of the American Girl adult collectors fandom that describes itself as "queer-friendly and socially conscious". That part of the fandom runs the wiki (which is an extremely useful and well-constructed resource). I don't know who-all from those days may still follow me on Tumblr, and I'm actually not looking to cause drama, just sort of thinking out loud as I so often do on the tunglrs, but after five years away from the fandom and having poked my nose back in, I'm running into a royal shitton of memories (and a little new information) that's making me go "Holy fuck, this place was *incredibly* toxic, no wonder I got utterly burned out on trying to interact with the dolls and items the way they demanded everybody should. No wonder I still feel like I'm walking on eggshells to even say anything or post a picture related to this fandom."

So. Let's be real. I'm saying "the way they demanded". It's one person, backed up by other mods who don't create their own separate demands. This particular section of the fandom is ruled with an iron fist by one self-described Angry Black Woman who... the very kindest way I can find to describe it is, she's a walking talking demonstration of how you cannot create a single safe space that's safe for everyone. I made a post several years ago that went a little bit viral, where I pointed out that being uncomfortable with a very verbally aggressive black authority figure can actually be because of the "very verbally aggressive authority figure" part, say if you're a survivor of emotional abuse *koff koff*, and doesn't have to mean you're "uncomfortable with black anger" Because You're Racist. That post was a direct reaction to multiple instances of seeing this person tell people "you're pushing back against me being verbally abusive, that's a racist action on your part".

That's the kindest, most nonconfrontational way I can come up with to talk about the situation. Less tactfully, after going to look over the forum rules for this subsection of the fandom -- hoping to realize I'd just been an extremely sensitive tortellini at the time and they weren't that bad, because I know I was an extremely sensitive tortellini in other matters -- in actual fact, I've been reminded very loudly that these rules are a 13k essay on topics such as You Must Be Okay With Verbal/Emotional Abuse If It's Directed At You By People Of Color, All Cultures Of Color Are Closed Cultures Now (So Don't You Dare Put This Black Doll's Clothes On Any Other Doll), and the real kicker for me, Only Selected Queer Identities Are Suitable For Public Discussion (subsection We're Redefining Queerness To Exclude Polyamory, new since I was last here, with sub-subsection Oops We Didn't Mean To Exclude Asexuals Only Those Icky Cishets, and fun guessing game Are We Excluding Aromantics Or Did We Just Forget They Exist, Ask And See If You Get Banned).

I... genuinely didn't mean to go on that long. But this is exactly why I'm making this post. Because I have a *lot* of trauma from trying to figure out what's actually racist or offensive and what's not, while being in a community where anything the main mod doesn't like can suddenly be declared an offense against social justice, and if you ever step on her toes, you're likely to be relegated to the ranks of the damned (aka the white Christian mommybloggers who own more than six white dolls or less than 50% dolls of color). And as probably all of you know, I do a lot of thinking out loud about trauma. Which is a PROBLEM, because this person definitely still follows me here (I don't know who else from the fandom does), and Tumblr blocks don't keep people from seeing your posts, only interacting with them.

So. Uh. There's probably going to be... more of this. I'm making this post now because I'm almost done sewing a doll skirt, I want to show it off here, and I'm also having a really nasty anxiety attack over how this person is definitely going to metaphorically rip it to shreds in the dedicated forum thread for mocking homemade doll clothes (mostly from Etsy) that don't live up to her exacting standards of Historically Accurate Doll Costuming. (The skirt is gathered instead of using 1800s-style "cartridge pleats"! The horror!)

Yeah. So. Um. I guess... if you follow me from when I was last in AG doll fandom, here's where I stand, at least right now. I'm not going to name any names, but you likely know who I'm talking about. I'm not going to go after anybody or cause trouble on their blog, but I'm not going to pull any punches when I'm talking about the ways they and their policies have made me feel unsafe in the fandom. And I'm not going to follow their byzantine rules based on the concept that a single doll can only have one ethnicity and one backstory. A doll, in its essence, is a shapeshifter the way a character actor is a shapeshifter, and not all of us want to create 50+ fixed individual characters that can't wear each other's clothes.

If you can't live with any of that, feel free to go commiserate with each other. I'm not planning to go back to the forum, so don't worry that I'll see anything you say there. (I'm not even planning to publish the rules publicly, since they're not viewable when logged out, although they are a trip and a half to read without the context of the dramas that shaped them.)

If you're scared what will happen to your standing in the fandom if you like my posts or keep following me, though... maybe that's a place to start thinking.

#american girl #yeah i'm tagging it #i'm not turning off reblogs either #we'll see if anybody cares

[macarensesangles]

tumblrs search feature is so shit garbage i was trying to find a post i made a while back about emet osdd but i can’t find it. i know i said something about the level of amnesia he experiences but i can’t remember now bc it was ages ago 🙄

anyway i BELIEVE i said that although 1a usually is accompanied by amnesia i don’t think emet has much, if any. i definitely feel like he’s got autobiographical gaps that being Fucking Immortal probably don’t help, but bc he comes from like, a people for whom it’s normal to be immortal, i think it’s not necessarily like That Trope so much as the amount of time just gives him a shitton more opportunities to forget things.

mostly i just struggle to imagine him having the kind of day to day confusion i do, like when it comes to keeping track of both important things and mundane “what’s happening?” stuff i see him as functioning pretty well with that, especially given all the like, evil irons he has to keep in the fire, so to speak.

and also [selfshipper voice] if i were to think he had the kind of issues with amnesia i do that would upset me a lot. both in the sense of like, i do not want him to suffer that way, and because then he would not be in a position to help Me about it, which is a little more selfish.

and generally like. mär and emet are both traumatized & it’s part of why they feel like people i “click” with in a selfship sense, like there’s this understanding of how they think and feel, but certain stuff is like, it just upsets me very badly to imagine they’d have it in common with me so i can’t really touch that. like the idea of emet having had cruel or abusive parents makes me wanna jump in a river i Cannot stand it. with mär it’s canon that he was hurt as a kid so it’s less stressful for me to think of bc it’s like Well it is canon already but idk. not knowing anything about emet’s childhood makes it where like, i can imagine he got a good one and deciding otherwise feels like “choosing” to “let” something bad happen to him, and also kinda breaks my heart to think of when it’s not something that’s already set in stone

#REALLY RAMBLED HERE #edit also i do realize upon reflection that autobiographical gaps Are pretty significant in and of themselves #im so used to them i constantly forget that that’s like. A big fucking deal #like i kind of minimized it here without thinking but that’s very significant on its own

[captaingondolin]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💖

The tumblr inbox doesn’t do dates, but my email notifications do and this ask has been sitting here since June 2022. This is just who I am as a fandom person.

I’m limiting myself to English fics because some of my faves are niche stuff and if we throw Italian into the mix no one can even open the link to go ponder what’s wrong with me.

Now that the gods are gone. When I go feral over Ben Kenobi (and the mere suggestion of older Cody with a hint of white in his hair and- ok, back on track) and say I love old men, it’s serious, I mean it. Do you know Death Note? Okay, so the dad of mr serial killer boy, and the father-figure/butler of mr detective boy, right, what if they both survived the blood bath with a shitton of trauma to deal with, and while healing they fell a little bit in love? This fic is thick like a milkshake, every single sentence takes a bit of canon and unravels it to my liking.

Nothing but Gold. Thrawn/Padmé I wrote for a rarepair exchange. It’s the power couple we need more of. It’s canon divergence from the end of Thrawn: Alliances, with Anakin prisoner and Padmé taking Thrawn to the Republic... and severely fucking with Palpatine’s plans in doing so. Thrawn doesn’t even understand Basic, but he damn well sees Palps is a shady bitch. Padmé gets really angry. Pals, when I tell you I plotted this fic. This never happens. It was hard work and I enjoyed every minute of it. I remember going to the library to write at one point. There’s a kickass playlist to go with it, too. 

with your scars and your lonely heart. you ever fall head over heels for two minor villains in an 80s shonen anime and they take over your life? No? Well. These two have been to hell and back together, and I mean literally, hell. And their relationship just. it does things to my poor heart. They are terrible people (right until they stop and get some actual redemption going in the background), but they are always, always in each other’s corner. And I have loved them for, uuuh, numbers are hard, but coming up on half my life at this point. Anyway, this is a fic in which one of them is the reincarnation of a Greek god(dess) - and their canon already has plenty of Greek gods.

Hated You from Hello. The Force works in mysterious ways and I fell in love with Corran Horn, and also fell into shipping him with Tycho Celchu (heroic, emotionally scarred, total Gondolin Catnip). They would totally hatefuck in canon, but I decided to make them hatefuck in a canon divergence, because why the hell not.

a Certain Fic We Shan’t Name with too much of my ID to be on my main account. iykyk

a friend of the devil is a friend of mine. what if you’re like a Padawan and your Master is an evil sack of dicks, but he’s good to you. And then he dies doing a single heroic thing, and you’re left adrift and without a role since you never completed your training? Except this is Saint Seiya, so it’s not called Padawan, but like. what if. Master-Learner bond and complex feelings and child soldiers (in that “media for kids that has kid protagonists fighting” way, but then you take the concept for a spin and write fics trying to reconcile them to their actual ages) (and this is cheating my own damn parameters a bit but the Italian version of this is better)

#my tag #gondolin talks #too much saint seiya for a star wars blog #but like #at this point saint seiya might be written into my genetic code #anyway #we all know what is my guilty pleasure #and like #there isn't even a single codywan linked here........ #so make your own conclusions #ask

[yellowocaballero]

The newest chapter of good luck Jake makes me feel like I've chewed stained glass, it's so pretty but I am bleeding. Honestly Jake's whole arc this fic reminds of that quote that's like: there's a period when you've gone wrong but continue. sometimes theres a luxurious amount of time before anything bad happens. Honestly that's the vibe for the whole system and I am so deeply excited and dreading watching that moment arrive because it is looming the goddamn horizon. ＞︿＜ 💜💜💜

Yes hello getting back to your comment has been on the to-do list jkalsdfj. I think I got halfway through and then got lost in my thoughts and then decided to save all of us the horror of another essay in the comment section.

But thank you for the insanely lovely comments & for the ask! Looking back at my Tumblr promos for my fic I noticed that my favorite chapter is usually the second-to-last chapter, since that's where shit normally hits the fan emotionally. The last chapter is where shit tends to hit the fan plot-wise. The last chapter actually does a shitton of wrap-up character work, because I realized that I had to wrap up emotional arcs from two stories/120k words, but it's all pretty positive stuff. Jake's had His Big Realization, and we just have to see what he does with it. It's a happy ending this time! I think it's probably a sign of how weird this story was that the central relationship of the story and the relationship that has to be 'solved' and put to rest at the end is a one where the both parties do not exchange a single word the ENTIRE story. I think I pulled it off though. Maybe.

I think there are certain kinds of people who continuously and persistently create their own problems. Marc is one of those people, except he also has other magical problems. People who have extremely maladaptive coping mechanisms for life struggles will continue to wreck things until they hammer out those shitty behaviors. And the fictional satisfaction about this, I think, is that irl these shitty behaviors can be so constant and low level that they can just go unchecked for years, and they persist for an insanely long time. In fiction I can do things like "force a confrontation" and "have a guy's friends walk in on him murdering someone" and "have the Avengers hold an intervention" that bring these behaviors to the crisis point and force the main character into a catalyst moment where they have to make a life-changing choice. In fiction this causes an upswing where they get better, in life you just kinda tend to struggle along.

That's part of why the premise of the first fic was Marc having a relapse. It happens. I guess you really have to thank Jake - if it wasn't for his extremely loud and attention seeking behavior, then Good Luck, Jake! would have been nothing more than Marc's very bad depressive episode just struggling along. Maybe the other joy of fiction is that in real life life just always goes on and things go back to normal no matter how wrecked up you are inside. In fiction your bad thing is exemplified through a cabbie that repeatedly murders people until somebody gives you emotional attention. Thanks for the comments & the ask & tolerating the off-topic answer!

#my writing #god i want to respond to your other comments rn bc there's SO MUCH to say but i have to practice this presentation #sentences you say while you're in a class but sentences you also have to say when you're teaching it #god this week's been a fuck #sometimes terrible tragedies happen at work and you and your coworkers are insanely depressed about it #so you awkwardly sit in silence before pivoting to the next thing you have to do because we're busy and we still have a job to do #you just gotta take things as they happen & then stop thinking about it and pretend it never happened I guess. #my method. #oof back to work

[cloudeling]

also somewhat unrelated but ive been thinking abt like. me complaining abt irl stuff here vs stuff thats happened irl where x and y ppl will have a fight and then x will go on tiktok and post stuff thats very misleading & garner a whole bunch of sympathy and then theres this whole group of ppl that hate y and rlly its kinda weird how common this is with my friendgroup actually. but the point is my main thing when i hear abt that is always that x is being rlly fucking immature. so ive been thinking abt like. the difference between posting that stuff on tiktok where a whole shitton of ppl you know irl can see it vs me posting it on tumblr where absolutely nobody i know irl knows its me. and like theres also a point abt the fact that they r lying and twisting things to make them seem more sympathetic or whtever but i also think like. the internet is kinda nice for complaining abt stuff without worrying that ppl you know irl will see it. also this has nothing to do with anything but i have to be so fucking careful to not abbreviate in real life when im speajing out loud ahfjdjd. also its a lot harder for you guys to confirm im not lying which is. idk . definitely adds another layer to this whole. debate im having w myself

#rambles #idk if this makes sense at all actually but!

[velvetluster]

I get to see her tomorrow!! Ahhhh. Her flight got delayed, which is darned unfortunate for a variety of reasons. But even though it caused a little annoyance on her end, and a little on mine, it's okay. Just pushes us back two hours.

Looking at a new time of noon. So...13:30 left. Goodness.

I am so damn starving for her. I thought it was bad three weeks ago when we were coming back from Dallas, but this is a new level of frenzy. And I am just so, SO excited. Got my collar, got my harness, got a personalized paddle on the way in a few weeks, and other fun little surprises that she doesn't know about quite yet. Hehe.

And I've just been fucking HORNY on this blog too. I dunno what has come over me; usually when I'm visiting my parents I'm too annoyed to properly get aroused. This is the second time I've visited my parents since we've been together, and the last time I was in a MAJOR funk. From 2019 to 2021 when I lived here, I was in a funk too. It's not good, it's not healthy for me here.

But damn it if this visit doesn't have me in a seriously better headspace overall than ever before. And I have her to thank for so much of it.

Sigh. Y'all. Twice this week I've been in the middle of texting messages to her and just got too damn overwhelmed to even finish and had to come before hand. THAT has never happened before; usually I have even a modicum of self-control; but not this time. Sent her one video of touching myself last night, too, which was most sweetly (and hornily) received this morning. We've interspersed a metric shitton of sweet talking and serious talk with sexting (the three S's!) and all have been just cherries on top of lovely ice cream.

Goodness, I'm a lot crazy about her.

And damn have I ever been leaning hard into my subbiness lately. Blame tumblr, blame my followers for making stuff crash my dash (lol), blame her for being so damn fucking sexy and obedience-causing, but GOD I want to just be her pretty little puppy so often now. It was always there, but the need is heavier now. I'm all about anything with her, sharing myself in ways I never knew I could. She was at dinner with her family tonight (save for me), and I let her know about how I want to be underneath the table eating her out. And despite not being a super far-fetched fantasy, it's never one I've considered before (I haven't even though of her under the table sucking me off much either). But I do want that. I want to pleasure her in every way I can, and then some.

This week (and this app) reminded me of the sex appeal of hentai (still surprised at that), tickling, and pet play. Of how obsessed with her I am. Of the neediness that surges through my body so violently it could rip me asunder. I want her, I need her...oh baby oh baby. Heheh. 10TIHAY reference aside, it remains a most potent and correct statement.

Sigh. Sitting here watching a shitty Fast and Furious movie with my parents and just wanting my hand in her pants and my lips on her neck. So soon, my love. So soon.

Biggest kisses, warmest hugs, firmest ass grips, and all the "I love you's" in the world.

#J's thoughts #pinning this until i get her in my arms #So. SOON. #unpinning it now #had the best weekend ever!!! #🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[sunieepo]

im losing so many followers for posting mp100. farewell cowards

#this happens every time i reblog a shitton of stuff from a new thing #ksdjglsdjgskl #i feel like by now ppl should just expect me to do this and just mute me already #oh wait tumblr doesnt have a native mute function does it. #rip #sunie posts

[simptasia]

i’m simptasia on twitter as well

#it's 99% dbh stuff #but i think like my tumblr it'll branch out more #like when i started tumblr i was mostly doing doctor who stuff #and as interests (special or otherwise) happen things branch out #like right now i've developed a special interest for the borderlands franchise #i mean more than i already was #cuz im like. playing it now #:)))) #i got over 60 followers on twitter now #what amazes me is that #i have almost 2000 followers on tumblr #thats actually a shitton of people #(and i block pornbots so they're all real people too. wowee)

[olderthannetfic]

oh my god, i just found some twitter lunatic saying that "toby fox should be accountable for child sexual abuse" because he enabled undertale's protagonist to sexually flirt with monsters.

jesus fucking christ, what the fuck is gen z doing? like, they're trying to pretend that they weren't horny as 12-year-olds?

"protect the chilluns" just means "burn all discussion of teen sexuality and silly playful stuff".

in fact, it means "aggressively deny reality and burn anyone who even acknowledges human sexual development".

i hate being gen z, i hate being a teenager, and i hate moral panics. the saddest thing is that i'm literally ace, like, i'm a joyless fuck without a sex drive, yet even i can see how ridiculously sex-negative the world has become since the bullshit daycare panic.

if i ever become a proper writer, i'll totally include graphically detailed scenes of sexual assault, just to piss off the masses.

god, my sanity decreases every time my eyes are accidentally acquainted with a twitter post.

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Fear and hate of one's own impulses seem to be a big motivator. So is genuinely not getting that other people were horny when oneself was not.

(I also frankly think that a lot of people are sex repulsed the way that happens from trauma and are not getting that this is different from being asexual, sex repulsed or otherwise, and they're projecting their trauma all over everything.)

I think you've hit the nail on the head regarding twitter: It's not that all of gen z genuinely has sex negative, out-of-touch-with-reality values any more than my generation was all sex positive. The difference is that the internet is an ever bigger part of our lives, the big sites are significantly more skillful in fucking us over than in the past, and we're ever worse at setting boundaries for those sites.

The biggest generation gap, IMO, is that gen Z is very bad at recognizing toxic social media usage and cutting back for one's own mental health. A lot of older people have taken various social media breaks in their lives, often for an illness, a job, grad school, children, etc. A lot of us have old friends on multiple platforms. I'm missing out on quite a bit of current fandom by refusing to go to twitter with most of the people I once knew on LJ, but 1. I have a shitton of friends elsewhere and 2. fuck twitter, life's too short.

I'm not sure including scenes just to piss off the masses is a great move though. Plenty of old dude writers already do things to torment anyone they view as a "snowflake". It's not really edgy given how common it is. You could just as well put graphic gay sex in every book to piss off "the masses", and I guarantee some other version of those masses would be very upset with you.

My advice is to hang out on reddit for a while. It can be a welcome break from tumblr-style stupid and also a good reminder of how many equally asinine but totally different attitudes exist in other segments of fandom.

[excalibent]

About SquigglyDigg

I still don’t get it.

It’s difficult to really vocalize my feelings on the issue because they’re all kinda crossed. Like, people are touting certain posts of hers like they’re proof that she’s a terrible person or whatever, screenshots and shit of her political takes, but, like...hey. Guys. Have some of y’all ever once interacted with someone who doesn’t agree with you politically?

In the real world. Face-to-face. If you met Squiggly (fuckin’, fine, someone like Squiggly) in the street, would you look them in the face and start ranting about all the shit they’ve done and said to make you feel upset?

I’ve been trying to parse out what the fuck happened there for years, at this point, and it still doesn’t really make sense to me. Like, a lot of the shit she caught (and apparently, is still catching) flak for is just...Republican. You know? Like, conservative beliefs that a lot of Republicans share. I don’t like the party myself, but I know a good number of people who would consider themselves Republicans and I’m starting to think that just, at some point, saying ‘alright, I guess the argument ends here’ never registered for some people.

Part of it is definitely just how Tumblr operates. You essentially curate your own content, and if you don’t like someone’s opinions, you just stop following them - which means that there’s a lot of people who exclusively get info and opinions totally counter to conservative ideologies, and believe that this information is not only right, but it’s also the only right anyone should be allowed to believe in.

Let’s get specific.

I, personally, unfollowed SquigglyDigg because of what seems to be anti-vaccination sentiment that’s showing up on her blog just recently. I believe in the vaccine, I believe it is necessary, and I certainly believe that claiming that it’s harmful in any sense is harmful to society at large.

So there’s something about the vaccine, or how it’s being handled, or something about the vaccination card they give you that just rubs her the wrong way. I have no specifics, don’t presume that she’ll give them to you, either, and for fuck’s sake, don’t harass her about it, because it just occurred to me that some of you spineless fucks actually think that sending death threats to people on the internet is a good way to handle shit.

But, back to the point - she doesn’t like something about the vaccine and the particular post I saw seems to equate the vaccine card to the star that Jewish people were forced to wear during the Holocaust.

The internet allows for accumulate opinion like this. It just happens - but I believe that’s because the internet is predisposed to radicalization. What about someone I meet in the real world?

All of my coworkers are antivaxxers. They refuse to get it for various reasons, none of which I think are good or even valid.

Okay. What now?

Everyone around me is pretty conservative in general. I can’t opt for a more agreeable experience by ‘unfollowing’ anyone, because they’re still going to be there every day I come in for work. Hell, I can’t even get them to agree with me.

I’ve always hated the phrase ‘agree to disagree’ because it leaves a lot of loose ends in terms of the argument it pertains to, but what else can I do? I’m sure as hell not going to go to my boss and go ‘hey x coworker is republican please do something about it’. For one, they can’t do anything about it, and for two, even if they could, I don’t think I could ethically prescribe to whatever method of political pruning they might be employing to ‘solve’ the disagreement.

So that’s the whole ‘But she’s conservative!’ side of it. So what. I know a shitton of conservatives who are actually very nice people and it’s just not a problem.

Then, of course, there’s the other...stuff. Can’t even really dig into all of it, but...I don’t know, man, it just looks like regular fandom drama bullshit to me, and the only reason Squiggly caught so much shit for it was because she was a big target who was only tangentially involved in some of those situations.

And just in case some of you didn’t notice that little bit in the middle - for god’s sake, do not harass her. If you got fucking pilloried for your political beliefs because of an opinion you had on a goddamn kid’s movie, I can guarantee you that you’d dig your heels in through the crust of the Earth and start taking active measures to build up a wall around yourself to get people to quit fucking doing it.

“But I wouldn’t-” You would. You absolutely would, if not from the beginning, then from the moment that people started dragging up everything they could find that would help them feel more comfortable or sure in disliking you, every little mistake or irrational slip of the tongue that they could possibly dig up.

Don’t. Fucking. Do it.

So to summarize:

- I’m pretty sure SquigglyDigg is just conservative, guys

- That’s not a bad thing, just in case I have to reiterate

- Petty fandom RP bullshit? Get in line, it’s literally fucking everywhere

- Why did it take me so long to figure this out? It didn’t because I’m still parsing through it all (because believe it or not I can agree to disagree but I’ll still have reservations about it because it’s fucking politics, people, it’s a goddamn minefield) but what I know for sure is that the shitstorm that erupted around her was not remotely warranted and you people need to fucking cool it

#SquigglyDigg #this is the Rant Grumps thing all over again #some person had a fucking vendetta #and decided to see if they could sink the boat if they rocked it hard enough

[wtf-triassic]

WHY THE TRIASSIC????

What the FUCK is so WEIRD about the Triassic?

Well I will TELL YOU! 

Okay so first of all, the Triassic is SUPER DUPER OLD. In the grand scheme of the Earth, sure, it happened relatively recently, but working on the scale of the entire geologic time span of the Earth’s existence is not exactly fair: 

I mean, animals that we can recognize today didn’t show up until that line in the Phanerozoic (Hadean is the oldest stuff), so like, it’s smack dab in the middle of THAT 

Look, basically, here’s what happened: 

- The earth Formed. Life Appeared. Chaos reigned (4,600 million years ago until 4,000 million years ago) 

- Life began to become more complex. Some life began to stick its blueprints inside of pockets so they’d be safer. They then swallowed other life forms that were better at getting energy, but kept them around like a buddy inside of them. Some of these guys could make a shitton of oxygen. This made the earth cool and a lot of shit die out super duper quickly. Extinction rate unknown. (4,000 million years ago until 2,500 million years ago) 

- Climate change and fluctuating oceans allow life to start to group up together into SuperLife aka Multicellular Things. These multicellular things got more and more complicated. Some became animals and started moving around a lot. Some plants went on land. Some things were super weird looking and mysterious. LOTS of experimentation by life. Things start to change and a lot of these early experiments go extinct. Extinction rate unknown. (2,500 million years ago until 541 million years ago) 

- Animals can suddenly burrow underground and go absolutely apeshit and diversify faster than you can say “wait a second whAT THE FUCK IS THAT”. Ice Age causes Death, 85% of species die out. (541-444 million years ago) 

- Fish suddenly have a chance to be weird too and some of them decide, what the heck, let’s crawl onto land. Why not, right? Some other animals decide to join them. Plants make everything super cold, 75% of all species die out. (444-359 mya) 

- Land-vertebrates start to diversify. They try out a lot of new things, but there aren’t a lot of them yet. So there’s still a lot of experimentation in body plans. Mammal-relatives are actually some of the most diverse ones. Reptiles are fairly rare. A GIANT MASS EXTINCTION CAUSED BY A GIANT LAVA FIELD EXPLODING KILLS ~95% OF LIFE ON EARTH. (359-252 mya)

- NEW animals get to try to diversify and do lots of crazy shit in the wake of SO MANY JOBS IN THE ENVIRONMENT GETTING CLEARED OUT. Reptiles diversify so fast you don’t know what the heck is happening. Other animals also take this opportunity to do new and weird shit. VOLCANOS EXPLODE, KILL ~80% OF LIFE (252-201 mya) 

- Dinosaurs finally get to do fun things now that other reptiles are no longer being weird. Modern life starts to show up. (201 mya-today). 

BASICALLY: 

- Land Animals had only just started to diversify and try out new funky things with their bodies in order to cope with the challenges of terrestrial life 

- Then a giant mass extinction killed everything. Mass exinctions are bad news for a lot of shit that’s specialized for the environment that’s been destroyed, BUT it allows things that make it through to have a chance to try out new shit to fill all those empty jobs in the environment 

- So, generalist reptiles, who hadn’t had a chance to do jack diddly squat before, now suddenly had the whole planet to play with. And the other animals around them, from mammal-cousins to amphibians to fish to insects to other invertebrates, also got to try out some new stuff in this new world 

- AND THEN ANOTHER MASS EXTINCTION HAPPENED RIGHT AFTER THAT RESET THE CLOCK AGAIN

This means that the TRIASSIC has some of THE MOST UNIQUE ANIMALS TO HAVE EVER EVOLVED IN EARTH’S HISTORY. Experiments were tried, rapidly, and MANY were lost RIGHT AWAY. It’s not like the life that evolved after that, which was honestly similar to what we see today - or those that evolved after the end-Cretaceous extinction, which was even more like today. These were weirdos that appeared and were wiped out before they could continue on to today 

And, because this was a rapid evolutionary period, we see the starts of many of today’s modern groups of animals, and they’re super weird, too! 

Honestly, the only weirder period in Earth’s history is the Cambrian Explosion, when animals first started doing anything notable at all 

On top of THAT, the ENTIRE EARTH was ONE GIANT SUPERCONTINENT called Pangea! Everyone could go everywhere! There were no terrestrial barriers to movement! So many creatures spread all over the globe. It was a HOTSPOT of biodiversity and a major turning point in Earth’s History

But, because the dinosaurs that evolved in the Triassic were kind of Meh, it doesn’t get enough press!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

So, we’re going to cover the Weird and Wonderful animals of the Triassic - we have a carefully curated list of Weirdos ready to take Tumblr by storm, and we hope you’ll enjoy learning about these amazing animals right along with us! You’ll have to wait till tomorrow to see them, though - don’t want to give away the surprises! 

GET! PUMPED! 

IT’S TRIASSIC TIME!

#Triassic #Palaeoblr #Dinosaurs #Prehistoric Life #Animals #Reptiles #Triassic Madness #Triassic March Madness #History of Life #Evolution #Paleontology