#then i told my brain to shut up

[adharastarlight]

casually seeing that the author of my favourite fic is MY MUTUAL ON HERE!?!?! how long has this been a thing!?!?! i died btw, just kinda squealed into a pillow and had to collect myself (i still havent collected myself)

@thebibutterflyao3 HUH!?! also youre still my sunshine controls a large section of my brain js-

#contemplated for a good few minutes whether tagging was too much of a scary thing #then i told my brain to shut up #anyways #im screaming #fucking screaming #oh oh also yes yes i recommend youre still my sunshine with my entire heart and soul #idk how to tag this #im just busy screaming #so ill leave this here #but anywaysss #fanfic rec #ig? sorta- #its in there somewhere within my screaming

[random-human-being2311]

whoopsies sorry there I accidentally revealed how much I obsessively care about my interests, very cringe I apologise it'll never happen again

can we all just ignore that and pretend that it never happened?

#doctor who #queen band #the beatles #six idiots #good omens #classic who #/hj because no it's NOT very cringe I DON'T apologise it WILL happen again but also my brain tells me this on a daily basis and I hate it #as much as my friends reassure me that they care about hearing about my special interests/hyperfixations #being told repeatedly to shut up and let everyone else speak and notice and stop when youre going on about something too much has its toll #that one's ramblings #wait a sec how did I not include nu who #nu who #bbc ghosts #yonderland

[theswordnthepen]

Stede “I’d been gut-stabbed and he happened upon the ship I was bleeding out on” Bonnet

Edward “what if I told you none of it was accidental” Teach

#allie shut the fuck up #ofmd #our flag means death #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #otp: you wear fine things well #ed: what if I told you I’m a mastermind? #this joke has definitely been made before #but if I didn’t post it my brain was never gonna move past it

[crushedsweets]

oh the desire . . . and longing . . . and the ache. . . .

#i love crp so bad #i know im ridiculous and change so much and my au is so specific in ways that arent canon but thats what i love about it #im sorry i cant shut up about how much i love this fandom LMFAOOOO #my gf told me i should get back into crocheting and i said i ccant im too focused on creepypasta. then she said i could make crp plushies #i felt like my brain imploded in that moment #chatterbox #this is so bad how do i get anything done in this condition

[crybaby-bkg]

Physical therapist AU that popped up into my mind yesterday and I can’t stop thinking about them!!!!

Bakugou as the physical therapist that most people are kind of scared of. He doesn’t get that many clients, only because his methods are a little harsh and his words are a little mean, but it’s only because he wants the best for you and your body. He focuses solely on your upper body and arms, for when you have pains or surgeries. He’s such an ass, likes to pick up 20 pound weights and show you how to do your exercise, tuts at you when you complain that your two pound weights are too heavy. But on the days when he really sees you struggling, his voice is a lot kinder, and he’ll give you the one pound weights when he sees your arms shaking a little. But the next appointment, you won’t be able to slack off!

Kiri as the lower body and legs physical therapist in the studio. He’s all cheery and bright when he sees you, is a little imposing with the eye contact whenever he explains each and every muscle in your calf and how it aids you and why it hurts when you run without warming up first. He’s just so big, doesn’t realize his size when he climbs up on the tables with you so that he can bend and twist your leg every which way to show you how it should feel. You hate to disappoint him, watch that bottom lip puff out when you admit that you haven’t done your exercises the way you were supposed to. He must hang out with Bakugou too much, because he goes just a little harder on you those days.

Deku who focuses on the whole body. He’s much like Kiri, with his big green eyes staring holes into your soul as he over explains where the soreness in your flank comes from. His hands are big and soft when they guide you into the right position he wants to put you in, his voice soft. Always whispers a drawn out ‘goooood job’ whenever you can do something he’s instructed you without any hiccups. He turns beet red whenever he realizes how his hands have found themselves in a compromising position on your body, just gets so caught up in guiding you, and it’s the most adorable thing ever.

Denki as the therapist who focuses solely on hands. He’s amazing with his fingers, all long and slender and pretty. He talks your head off when you come in after surgery on your pinky and middle finger, and you can’t help but find it endearing. He shows you how to do your exercises and routines, all pretty smiles and golden eyes that you can’t help but admire with a sweet sigh when you stare at him. He also buys his own lotion to massage into your hands, and coos about how soft they are and how good they smell after, embarrassing you whenever he holds your wrists up for other passersby’s to smell.

Shinsou works primarily with feet and ankles, and he’s damn good at it. He always has a bored little look on his face, and you’re scared he might be too rough, but he’s the complete opposite. Asks you intermittently, does this hurt? is the pain right here? should I add more pressure? And he doesn’t huff when you complain about his hands being too rough. He does give you a stern talking to though when he doesn’t see any progression because you haven’t been keeping up with at home maintenance. But on those days, he also offers up heat with the electro therapy treatment, because he knows you prefer it over the ice.

Todoroki as the additional chiropractor there???? His monotonous voice gives no indication when he’s going to basically separate your spine from your flesh, but you can always see his little hint of a smile when you scream a little. And delinquent turned front desk worker Dabi???? who only works there because his annoying brother got him job, but he doesn’t mind it because he gets to flirt with the patients before they’re whisked off to the back.

#is this entirely based off my experience when I went in high school????? absolutely #lmfao it was such a fun experience #my main therapist is literally bkg in a nutshell #HE WAS KNOWN AS THE OFFICE BULLY AND EVERYTHING AHDHDJDJDJFJ #he was so fucking funny and mean like hello i couldn’t believe I liked him so much #he also told me a story of when he mushed his friends kid onto the floor bc the kid wouldn’t shut up 😭 #literally an asshole but he was also very sweet and caring which I loved lol he would always have all of us laughing #anyway this was inspired when I was getting a massage yesterday lol it felt so good but I couldn’t turn my brain off and thot of this #I kinda wanna write a series of this but would it not get repetitive???? #idk but I will still put it in the drafts lol #tw: surgery #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬 #kirishima treats! 🍬 #deku treats! 🍬 #denki treats! 🍬 #shinsou treats! 🍬 #todoroki treats! 🍬 #dabi treats! 🍬

[andtosaturn]

bolting upright in bed at 12:44am: betty is about danny and sandy from grease

#plus i saw you dance with HER (cha-cha at the national bandstand) #if i showed up at your party slash graduation carnival would you have me would you want me #would you trust me if i told you it was(nt) just a summer thing IM ONLY SEVENTEEN I DONT KNOW ANGTHING BUT I KNOW I MISS YOUUUUU #STANDING IN YOUR (RYDELL) CARDIGAN #KISSING IN MY CAR AGAIN (AT THE DRIVE-INS) #maybe i have seen two versions of grease in 48 hours and my brain doesn't work anymore but i think i made some points here. court adjourned #shut up claire

[kazzmatazzz]

my dad, completely unaware he's about to be hit with my hyperfixation beam: haha look it's a dodge challenger, what an ugly color tho

me, sleep deprived and thus incapable of not yapping: ...you wanna know who ELSE has a dodge challenger with ugly colors?

#cobra kai #johnny lawrence #me having a conversation with anyone: how can i make this about cobra kai #i can and will connect everything back to my hyperfixations #i told him about the car #and then told him about everything leading up to him getting the car #and then told him about kreese coming back #and johnny putting the kids in a cement mixer #basically told him about everything i've seen up to this point #when i am sleep deprived #i will yap about anything and everything #my usual brain filter is shut OFF #also the challenger we saw was lime green #it was awful #also also i'm sorry to anyone who actually likes the cobra kai painted challenger #i just think it looks. so bad #esp since it looked BEAUTIFUL before #but something something symbolism #johnny's signature color being painted over by cobra kai's colors due to kreese's returning influence on his life #or something #idk i'm sleep deprived and rambling

[nihiltism]

realtalk you guys probably dont need to know about but i know like zero weirdromantic people in real life, i think my cuddlebuddy might still be in love with me but also i dont think i mind at all. my default un-filtered way of showing affection to close friends Is near impossible to differentiate from romantic affection and i dont mind being treated with affection that is probably romantic as long as the other party doesn't expect romantic love or exclusivity from me, or lead anybody outside of us to make assumptions on our relationship. and like. i doubt they care since what i do is so close to romantic anyway. its not really leading anybody on if we've talked about it

#i kind of enjoy the feeling of having a friend be in love with me if they dont expect anything of me about it honestly #realistically this person is a Very close friend i would not have any qualms with more cuddles or kissing them or #hell even The Other Stuff Couples Do (demon in my brain saying to not say it openly) if they wanted #but i am not attracted to them and i have told them as much and it seems fine #so i guess the thing is more 'how do i ask this person if i can kiss them and whatever but like platonically though' #vee shut up #idk i love incredibly abnormal friendships everybody should have more incredibly abnormal friendships #also the worst that could come out of this is me falling for them which honestly would not be a problem #it all works out i think #i am also just like #incredibly touch starved so this isnt just a 'if they want to treat me like this they can' #i do want to initiate but not in a romantic context which is my main hangup honestly #im still doing pretty good though im marginally winning at the fuck amatonormativity game

[kavehater]

AAAH I have a mutual who’s 18 and he sorta kinda is flirting with this one guy who is a minor as a joke of course ( to which a concerned anon said that it’s weird ) but I can’t help but flashback to er*s

#granted the er*s situation was thoroughly complex and the reason she did those things was her copism with not being able to pull ( LLLLLLL ) #and ik that guy doesn’t mean any harm etc etc he’s not messed up like some ppl #BUT I DUNNO STILL #sobbing #they’re pretty sweet so #hes* #OH AND HES IRAQI TOO I LEGIT COULDNT BELIEVE THAT #dora daily #lowkey kinda sorta sad that a whole anon was more concerned than ppl i knew and who knew my age #and freely saw it happen so readily #and everyone else on that blog #genuinely and utterly disappointed #it’s always protect minors until the minors need protecting goddamn #this is especially directed at rhy yeah I’m not censoring that #🤷‍♀️ #too busy simping over minor characters who don’t have a time skip in canon and aging them up then complaining about it when ppl call out #the brain deadery of that behaviour #girl pls #you did not care about minors from the beginning literally bye #e[redacted] literally ruined my brain chemistry to say the least I will never go into how what she did absolutely muddled my brain never #told anyone and I don’t think I can ever tell someone ever #not to mention practically hyperventilating being unable to breath literally going into madness and ppl think that I’m overreacting and #telling me to shut up about it and blaming me for the situation as if I wanted any of this #lmaolmaolmao #all that and I was expected to do uni girl byeeee I need a good century to recover at least ☠️ #the only thing I DID want is friends but clearly that was a hard ask when ppl can get friends just by existing on this god forsaken app #atp I don’t even know what to say literally just wth #yall say mdni with your dumbass banners and decorate it like something special when yall are the ones to keep from minors you disgusting #wastes of clean oxygen 😭 mdni my foot gross ass adults should’ve never trusted them #the way I’d give them therapy to their complex traumas ☠️ imagine relying on a minor for therapy

[forestofsprites]

i've taken to writing with the curtains shut and all lights turned off save for my little desk-lamp, no matter the time of day!!! and despite teetering on the verge of vampirism, i've got to say it is rather successful in forcing me to focus!!!

#i don't know if it's the fact that i'm creating a space and routine- ie this is now the writing zone- or if it's just me shutting out #sensory input. most likely a combination of both #but as much as it's fucking my internal clock up- i'm sort of mainly getting shit done ! #i'm working on my thesis proposal #and am doing that by working backwards . #annotated bibliography is now complete #so i need to write the actual proposal #which i do have all the information for in another document #it's just... taking that info. making it comprehensible and nice to look at it and all flow-y and organized #and truth be told. my brain is not switched on for that today!!! but i reallyyyy need her to be!!!! babygirl!

[delsinsfire]

me when my video game love interest agrees with me: it's important to be steadfast. to stand by your convictions and not let anything sway you. defend your morals!!

me when my video game love interest disagrees with me: it's important to be flexible. don't cling to your own opinions, consider other views as well. no morals are absolute!

#astarion told me to eat brain worms and so i did #astarion wanted me to pick the mean dialogue option and so i did #guess this isn't gonna be my goody two shoes run after all #shut up lea

[todayisafridaynight]

would it be okay if u told me why u like aoki😭/gen😭😭😭😭BEEN TRYNA LIKE HIM FOR SO LONG I JUST CANTT but i love ur art so much so i still consume it otherwise lol

i liked tohru adachi in high school and tbh i think that alone is enough of an explanation for why i ended up liking aoki

#snap chats #haha see i told you last post's tags were relevant #anyway vLKVJEVLKAEJVLKJ IM CRYING ANON youre so funny. this is the funniest ask i coulda got thank you so much #i dont know why i like him either <- yes i do #fine lets get Real Talk about it #well first off all i thought he looked hot rolling out the elevator and i was playing the eng dub and i think his voice sounds hot there #and thats like. not athing that happens to me ever <- literally thought sawashiro was hot two frames into the game but anyway #i like politician characters. or characters that are in a position of power ESPECIALLY if they have to act like they dont suck balls #like i very much love the idea of the power of charisma and that type of thing not to mention the 'strategizing' as aoki puts it #that comes with politics. LIKE HE SUCKS DONT GET IT TWISTED HE SUCKS BUT //shrug emoji// #like its why i love the mine rggo stories i like seeing mine's thought process and how he uses his intelligence #smart's sexy to me idk what to tell you but moving on #its fun watching him lose his cool too ESP IN HIS FIGHT LMAO HE STOMPIN HIS FOOT LIKE A TODDLER SHUT UP #i also really love the arakawa family in general and thinking of aoki's relationship with each of them makes my brain explode #especially him and sawashiro that shit is painful to watch and i love it so much #i also thought him going from goth to republican was the funniest shit in the world like i howled at that AND i was distraught #aokis so interesting to me from the notion that he IS loved by his family but he has so much hatred for himself it eats him up #and as a result he cant be happy no matter what he does- how hes constantly seeking validation even if it's nothing meaningful #his lil. Dog-Eat-Dog world world belief to ichi also appealed to my edgy depressed high schooler brain. sorry. #his speech at the lockers also got to me. unfortunately. sorry everyone i empathized too hard it got too real it wasnt funny anymore #like as much as i complain bout the very end the ending is what solidified me liking aoki if not also cause of ichi's impact in those scene #plus... analyzing him and the environment around him is so much fun too.... #idk reasons for why i like aoki also boil down to personal reasons. he still sucks tho so i cant be upset when people hate him LOL #i probably have more reasons or could elaborate more i love rambling but i mean. who really wants to read all that 💀💀 #maybe for a character that WASNT the worst but. aoki is so LMAO #thank you for loving my art regardless :) im sorry i have to be attached to the worst guys ever

[maiaacchiato]

thinking thoughts

#mia's ramblings #thinking abt that one time i was so uncomfortable with my friend's pda thing that i left them behind at the koi pond #like i literally just. stood up. started walking away #i still have no idea why it made me uncomfortable and even now just thinking about it makes me sick #for some reason idrk #also thinking about those times where i was so mentally exhausted from everything that i didnt have the energy to stand up so i just #didnt go to school #obviously i told people i was “sick” or “masakit pakiramdam ko” etc which i mean #its a half truth? atleast ??? #and thinking about how i just want to avoid Her bc i do Not want to be dealing with their relationship problems at 6am but yk #the moment she starts up conversation i just #put those thoughts at the back of my head and pretend like im not fucking tired of her bullshit #i could be so. mentally drained. to the point that i just avoid everyone by going to coop on my own or going to 7-11 just to Breathe #but the moment someone talks to me like jack or salve or heck even kui my brain just. forces itself to act “normal” and by normal i mean no #-mentally drained yk? #like the moment literally anyone starts talking to me the thoughts of being mentally tired just get pushed back and idrk how to tell people #-that im mentally exhausted without sounding rude so i just #let my brain just bottle it up until im so tired mentally that i literally cannot function #i think its called being overstimulated? yea #which yeah basically this shit happens every. day. until my brain just goes nope youre shutting down no school for today also youre getting #-a fever too #which like??? idk why it happens??? #and its not like i dont want to talk to them either #like #obviously i do #but talking to anyone when im like this makes it feel like an obligation #which fucking sucks because i dont like being obligated to do stuff i just want to do it because well #i want to?? #and i feel bad for peewee bc usually he'll talk to me when im at my limit so my responses are very short and yea #this is why i always say 'im tired' whenever people ask how im doing

[shalegas34]

just got a prescription for drugs i had to sign for at the pharmacy. lets fucking go

#i had my specialist appointment today and i was DREADING it. everything was going wrong #the bus didn’t come. i didn’t have food. the doc was running an hour behind #by the time i got there i was half starved having a mild anxiety attack #but then she pulled out my ultrasound results and it showed fucking adenomyosis which means i likely have endometriosis too #let me tell you boys i almost started crying in there #after years of doctors telling me to suck it up & stop being a pussy i have actual proof that i’m not just being a pussy. CRYING #also the specialist told me my gp put me on estrogen for no reason (what i needed was progesterone) and i was so mad bc #that shit gave me feminising features i did not want and which are now irreversible #aside from not actually solving the problem… #anyway i’ve now got paperwork for surgery and different kind of progesterone pill plus the insane ass painkillers i had to sign for #i’m very happy with how that went. we are winning today boys #i feel bad for her bc i was so overwhelmed when she was flinging info at my starved brain at the speed of light #i kinda just shut down & was acting like a corpse in there. i must’ve looked really rude lol #it took me the hour’s walk back into town (was not taking the bus again 😂) to process everything #life

[ilkkawhat]

My dude (gender neutral), you are absolutely not annoying. You light up my fucking day with your gifsets. You're the GOAT

thank you! 💜💜 i am feeling a little less annoying now lol

#i'm hoping my brain is nicer to me today #i was thinking about it yesterday #how like this insecurity just sorta stems from childhood #being told to shut up #not directly but in other ways of people saying or doing things #and i think that's what keeps me on tumblr is that i have a much better support system #and also people who share the same interests lol

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Boruto things that made me lose my mind (ep 94-119):

I like how none of the kids from the original naruto teams are friends as adults lmao

Chocho: how could my mom love my dad? It has to be his ravenous appetite

Kakashi @ sasuke: lol u r so bad at bonding with ur daughter *proceeds to give him terrible advice*

Kakashi telling sasuke how to interact with his daughter: use a soft and loving voice. When you talk to naruto- (ok stop, let's appreciate your line of throught right there)

Sasuke @ sarada: I wanted to be hokage once (and babygirl that was one of your top 10 most fucking batshit insane moments)

OK the cursed marks apparently use genetic manipulation, which is odd and really interesting. I assume it works like a virus, inserting and expressing foreign... demonic? DNA. Weird.

Why are all anime scientists evil?

Karin: time to torch all these cursed geese 🔥 Sarada: no, stand back, I'll do it myself 😠

The more they say Karin is not sarada's mother, the less I believe it

...a goose they said was genetically incapable of flying flew away... fucking what? Just tying hard in exactly the same way as everyone else is not how you overcome genetic disadvantages like that????

Why all this moralizing abt kindness toward animals? This is a show where kids beat the shit out of eachother and murder ppl. Can we focus on not doing that maybe???

Orochimaru: hm looks like mitsuki is becoming too gay, we may have to delete all his memories 😔

Kakashi: why dont u wanna believe in ghosts? Mirai: if ghosts are real, why hasn't my dad visited me? (Hey kakashi, this would b a good time to tell her abt the time u spent literally dead? No? Ok cool)

THE CULT OF JASHIN?! HAHAHA. Losers.

Why tf do they even hold the chunin exams? Just promote ppl based on merit like they literally just did with shikadai??? (Historically its bc ppl like watching death matches)

The commercialization of the shinobi within the village makes me wanna spit and bite

Houki abt kakashi: the one who nourished lord 7th 😤 (is that really true tho? I mean he did his best but team 7 was a clusterfuck)

Konohamaru: there is no shortcut to becoming hokage! (Yeah sure but there is huge favoritism toward those trained by the previous hokage...)

Boruto: people aren't in love unless they overtly say it (I love to image this is how Boruto sees how ppl feel abt everything and that's y he's so loud and blunt abt things)

Random village: we stave off a demon by joining two bloodlines in an act of incest ✌️

Konohamaru, casually: my grandpa died by entering a deal with an entity beyond human comprehension 🤷‍♂️

#back on my naruto bullshit 🤪 #i just lost my mind at the hot springs thing and rage quit. it just makes me furious on so many levels #bc they obviously arent training the shinobi correctly???? like they dont seem to do any field training??? hello??? #i dont understand. also why has no one sat down with mirai and been like: let me tell u abt ur dad #its bc no ones friends anymore so no one ever sees her so shes like idk jack abt my dad lil #whatever. also in ep120 himawari @ boruto is like: Grandpa is gonna b mad abt u not camping with us #and all i could think was: aw hima fuck ur grandpa!!! bc i have successi0n brain lmao #anyway this was a lotta bullshit in these episodes #i think a lot was supposed to b fan service but it just made me mad hahaha get back to the plot pls #i get so mad at the characters and then boruto comes back onscreen and im like: oh there u r my son #and that is not the reaction i anticipated when i started this show lol. i cannot deny i am a boruto apologist #boruto #naruto #naruto ramblings #i cut out everytime i told one of the kids to shut the fuck up bc it was a lot