#they all gave me ick

[rowanhoney]

sometimes I feel I’m perceived as this strange imitator after having changed my name to the more Spanish version but also so much of what I love about myself and the things I take deepest pleasure in are related to my Spanish heritage and influenced upbringing and so really it feels only right actually

#i Also use a then anglicised nickname lol so #also I’ve joked abt my old name with people and they say stuff like yeh…. that is such a horsey name #or girls with that name are annoying #or bullies or idk #and I’m like legit fr ik so many people w that name and I felt so different #they all gave me ick #and a lot of ppl agree my name suits me 🥰 #also glad my surname is different because it literally looked like a fake name #and it was so Irish and ridiculous #still very much on the pro changing ur name train if ur name is not representative of who u are ! #best thing I’ve ever done

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Randomly thinking about “tolerate it” (narrator voice: it was not random) and how under the cloak of fiction it is ostensibly inspired by works like “Rebecca” (which Taylor said she read during the 2020 lockdowns I believe?), with the line of “you’re so much older and wiser” indicating that the speaker is significantly younger and inexperienced compared to the person she’s speaking to and a pretty direct reference to the plot of the book.

But I saw something somewhere once that stuck with me about how it might not be referring to relative age between the characters but chronological age as in the passage of time in a relationship. And that made me think about how in a contemporary context, it might not necessarily be referencing an actual age gap between the two characters, but rather a sarcastic or cynical response to the man’s claims that he has matured (“you’re so much older and wiser [than you were before/than you were when we met/etc.]”), which then made me think about that line in relation to the woman. And that it could be taken like, “you act like you’ve matured so much in our time together and like you know everything, while I’m supposedly still stuck as the girl I was when we first met.”

Which then made me think of the “right where you left me” of it all and did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen time went on for everyone else she won’t know it and the bit in Miss Americana where she talks about how celebrities get frozen at the age at which they got famous, and how she’s had to play catch up in a lot of ways not just in her emotional growth but kind of in general. (Which also made me wonder if she’s ever been called out for immaturity/lack of curiosity/lack of education about things in her life…)

Which then made me think about the rest of the song, and @taylortruther’s posts yesterday about “seven” and “Daylight” and the way Taylor idealizes her youth yet contrasts it with an almost sinister reality in its wake, and the line, “I sit by the door like I’m just a kid,” because the discussion raised that her relationship let her recapture some of the childlike joy and wonder she’d lost. So this line is a double-edged sword: the speaker sits by the door with childlike hope that the person will come home and cherish her, but on the darker side, feels like the child dealing with the monsters she doesn’t have names for yet and the feelings of isolation she felt as she aged.

I’m not saying the song is necessarily autobiographical; like most of the songs on folkmore, it’s clearly a fictionalized story based on media she’d consumed and created, but we know a lot of the fictional songs were infused with her own feelings and experiences and… This idea swirling in my head picked up steam and now I kind of can’t stop thinking about it. Sorry but I’m a little obsessed now.

Like maybe it might start to shed light on why she identified so strongly with the novel in the first place…

#the third eye has been opened #😵‍💫 #like tolerate it was always a difficult song #even when we learned it was based on Rebecca it obviously took on new meaning post-joever #and especially in light of ttpd #but the thought spiral i went on last night when i started thinking about all these connections #and the evermore of it all #I’m Charlie at the conspiracy board again #writing letters addressed to the fire #me thinking too hard about Taylor lyrics #evermore my beloved #tolerate it #i kinda gave myself the ick with all this 😵‍💫 #because of the ttpd of it all coming up #and i feel like i remember interviews where Taylor said joe was so well-read especially about like world events and politics and stuff #and supported her when she wanted to start speaking up (not getting into that) #but just based on ~vibes now I wonder if that was like a sore point too at some point #which again i have no proof of but just like… experience with pretentious millennial art bros lol #oh man oh man oh man #this feels like some sort of huge revelation at 1:00 am #when i started writing this lol #eta: when I queued this in the middle of the night i didn't see all the excellent discussion about the seven/folklore posts #so all of you who have been posting about them this morning consider yourselves tagged too!

[tojisun]

im all for simping for masked men and their physical builds but i do want to educate to not simp for the terminator guy because he is in fact a predator!!!

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTLDHp4yG/

oh thank you so much for letting me know! idk this guy as i have only seen him in my pinterest so i apologize for my oversight. i deleted my ramble about how his build is so ghost coded!!

#toots-senpai #ask #watching the video gave me an ick actually #watching the video gave me a scare!! im all up for wanting whoever you want as a partner #but the emphasis on the woman’s chastity was so… upsettng

[ihatecispeople]

some people talk about misdirected transmisogynistic violence on cis women as a tradegy only because it hit the wrong target

#not all! but i saw someone say transphobic laws 'primarily affect afab women' which definitely gave me the ick

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

i love the voice acting for both hunter and willow in the willow park depression arc. she’s having a panic attack and hunter delivers his lines like “i feel the exact way, but i know what youre saying about yourself isn’t true, and im only now realizing how this kind of thinking hurts.” nice to see how hunter is getting more used to showing his emotions and crying after spending time in the human realm. and its nice to show him passing that to willow.

#toh #the owl house #for the future #hunter toh #hunter noceda #willow park #their friendship is so important to me #their friendship with gus is also so important to me #the shipping though is ick and i stand by it #at least now they gave willow a reason to like him back but it still needed more buildup #if they didnt have enough time to fit in a good huntlow romance subplot then they should have just cut it out #my point is idc if they get married in the finale i will write a fic where they get divorced if they do #just like how idc if odalador got divorced bc of odalias character assassination i will write a fic where they get couples therapy #oh also ppl were saying everyone in the hexsquad has witnessed a signature hunter mental breakdown except for willow #and that when willow witnesses one thats when the huntlow ship will happen #its good they did it like that willow already plays mother to all her friends #if youre gonna make these two date dont make willow the sole emotional support #hunter needs to witness a signature WILLOW mental breakdown #after all these mental breakdowns hunter is finally ready to handle someone else's mental breakdown for once #gus in labyrinth runners doesnt count #'i know how it feels to want to believe in something just like how you want to believe youre dumb or whatever' hunter sweetie wtf is that #here it's much more effective

[juniemoe]

people saying that shit like "i would have been heartbroken if couldn't romance male character x with a female character" makes me so uncomfortable GOD. it reminds me so much of the straight women being "disappointed" that dorian pavus was a gay man and couldn't romance him with their thinly veiled self insert.

just create a fucking male oc for once, it's not that fucking hard

#anyway this was brought to you by a popular if author making all their romances available for all genders which is fine i guess? #it's their game and character #they way they said in the post that the decision was influenced by that they would have been heartbroken if astarion was gay #and they couldn't romance him with a woman gave me major ick though #💬 chatter

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

Ugh my heart 💔 I got the basically unavoidable Astarion confession scene and he was so genuinely grateful 🥺 how could I turn him down or just be friends? 😩😭

(Wtf am I gonna do about Gale, I was supposed to romance him instead lol)

I'm a dirty save scummer tho and reloaded to see everything he says (i'm obsessed and need to understand how he thinks) but WE NEED TO TALK about some of the awful ways you can navigate that convo, wtf Larian lol

#bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #dont hug him or make him sleep with you right after that wtf!!! #what kind of awful oc...!! lol #the hug isn't as bad ofc but like... come on. we were just discussing body autonomy?? lol #and consent! he deserves a hug but he's not Karlach who said multiple times she wants one #give the man some space and let him choose!! #Astarion #ugh this ship is gonna be so good i can already tell #i couldn't even watch the sex scene if you go that route - truly gave me the ick #but i'll watch it later after i get there naturally to better understand him & see all potential reactions lol #i do love that you can ask to kiss him when you're locked in - like yes girl work on that consent together 👏 #ugh i am in too deep in Astarion hell #but i love it

[blightedhamster]

im BEGGING indie devs, especially in the vn/if category,please let your mcs have a brain and be competent, i promise it wont make ur ocs less cool, they can still do badass shit, but im tired of being dragged around w/o having any agency

#im playing this vn rn and literally every character is getting on my nerves cuz they are obsessed w one upping the mc every turn they get #and im supposed to romance one of these ppl and they all gave me the ick in less than 3 lines of dialogues bc of that #i get that ppl love their character and want them to seem competent and badass but you should balance it #let the mc be more skilled than them sometimes may be even let the mc outplay them #there is a good thread on the cog forums and they are right these doormat mcs are a fucking nightmare #cant wait for this trend to die ngl

[al-ghvl]

mm - anthony “I know I am imperfect, but I will humble myself before you because I cannot imagine my life without you.” bridgerton vs. nikolai “I would give you a crown if I could. I would show you the world from the prow of a ship. I would choose you, Zoya. As my general, as my friend, as my bride.” lantsov

#kudos also of course to ‘you are the BANE of my existence and the object of all my desires’ and #‘because i am greedy of the sight of you / because the prospect of facing this war - this loss - without you fills me with fear / because #i find i don’t want to fight for a future if i can’t find a way to make a future with you’ #is this a good time to also admit that the reason i still hold zoyalai on a higher pedestal is because book kanthony gave me the ick #my kos and row ebook copies are highlighted as FUCK but tvwlm no longer exists in my library bc i deleted it 💀 #kanthony #zoyalai #kate sharma #anthony bridgerton #zoya nazyalensky #nikolai lantsov

[fluffyprettykitty]

annoyin when estranged family members are trynna connect with you on social media like you got the snip for a reason

#selene's musings #i think that they thought over the years i would have mellowed #but honestly i want nothing to do with them at all #like zero association if possible #liiiike they treated me as if i was a stupid for so long #im not big on reconcilation #im not empathetic at all #you're gonna never need your extented family ever ever ever #i remember zero positive interactions #and i have nothing to offer at all #it gave me such an ick and i had such a nice day shopping today #anyway #personal tw

[stillcominback]

✨back by popular demand✨

#it’s me i’m back from my dallas trip!! #photos to come maYBE #it was truly chaotic and wild (joseph quinn’s handlers were legit the worst in the world but anYWAY) #it was fun! good memories! and a much-needed break! #now back to the regular slog until my next con/little trip in july! #missed you all and hope you’re doing okay! 💞💞💞💞 #but like met jon bernthal 🥰 charlie cox 🥰 gabriel luna 🥰 jodi benson 🥰 grace van dien #and joseph quinn of course!!! he’s so cute and lovely but they overbook him to deATH and his handlers were horrible so the experience #was just not great 🫠🫠🫠 not joseph’s fault! he was so lovely but yeah ick #BUT!! all the others were SO BEYOND lovely — gabriel is maybe one of the most wonderful people i’ve met #he remembers people BY NAME and like went into his line to talk to people and thank them??? #also he’s SO DAMN CUTE JFC i was literally swooning #he called me ‘sweetheart’ multiple times and my friend and i ‘cutie patooties’ like — #💍💍💍💍 #also i got to hug charlie cox twice and it was VERY HEALING 😭💞 #and we gave grace matching cutie bead ‘friendship bracelets’ to match ours we bought there from an artist/vendor #and we all just high pitch girl squealed like she’s literally so cute wtf (and i think she wore them the next day too 🥹😭) #ANYWAY gonna chill (be on discord and stuff!) and mentally prepare for work tomorrow #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[flesh-eater-girl]

a while back i became mutuals with someone who i had followed for a very long time

coincidentally, after they followed me, they started going by the same oddball not-at-all-common name as me

hm

#🌙 thoughts. #we are not at all mutuals anymore #maybe im just traumatized by 2016 tumblr roleplay discourse #but idk it just gave me the ick real fast

[pioponii]

MATSUKAZE LEAST FAVORITE CHARACTER 🚔

#DOG WTF U WERE SUPPOSED TO BE CHILL #WHYD HE DO THAT #so erm i may have n eensie weensie problem w mischaracterization bc i generally saw him as a loser who broods all day #watching him talk to ginro gave me the ick........ #like we're better than this........ #kicking kohaku and kirisame was NOT okay #BAD DOG #hashtag feminism...... #dr stone #dcst #kohaku #drst matsukaze

[shallanspren]

the absolute whiplash i have going from the excellent writing of flamefall to...whatever the fuck is going on in f.ourth wi.ng though.

#flamefall actually exploring all sides of a revolution #with a dragon school that makes sense #and then u have 4th wing which...the author doesn't seem to understand military structure #despite being a military wife???? #also rebecca yarrows called her husband 'kiddo' in the book dedication and i'm not over the Ick it gave me #also violet is just stupid and a terrible protagonist #i want annie to beat her up #i would quit the book but i promised a friend i would read it and give my Thoughts

[buglover3000]

as a young short person I was indoctrinated into wanting the tall guy x short girl thing. I begged for a 6’4 boyfriend. now the idea of a man having to bend down like knees bent head bent to kiss me makes me want to scream in agony

#it gave me the ick im good with a decently sized man thank u #I do love a tall woman tho #the idea he’s going to just see the top of my head #I am pretty sure this all stemmed from the upsurgence in im so small and little and he’s so huge and big in books #like ali hazelwood has permanently scarred my brain forever