I think visual kei is the longest obsession I’ve ever had. It took me 11 years to finally be chill about it. xD I’ve reached a point that I don’t care much about the scene, never seeing them live, missing releases like...this year I’ve managed to slowly detach.
Ever since I was a little girl, my favorite musicians were my life. They gave me a voice, a purpose and a dream. I wasn’t a casual listener, I was the kind of girl who needed to see them as much as possible, listen to music like 6 hours a day, if not more, my walls were always full of pictures of them, I always talked about them...they were my life. And even after getting into visual kei, I didn’t drop any of my previous favorites, I just wasn’t as focused on them as before. With previous artists I felt my enthusiasm was fullfilling and healthy, an energy boost, an inspiration, a place where I felt understood. It was sth I loved, people I loved etc. (and if you are one of those who think you have to know sb very well to love them, get the fuck out of my blog, I know what I felt and if a person can hate sb at first sight, they can love at first sight too. Yes maybe what I loved was 90% illusion, but I believe 10% was actually real cause, no matter how much a person likes to appear perfect and always friendly etc, cracks will always be there). Anyway visual kei felt like more than that to the point I really thought it was destiny to actually work with them (cause I’ve always wanted to work with my favorite artists, I just switched from wanting to go to the USA to Japan after a while being a fan). And you know what, it was fun as long as it lasted. It took me out of the dark, pulled blades away from my wrists, it kept me sane, lead to writing 2 and a half books, it lead to finally getting my hands on photoshop and honestly becoming a better person. But yeah those things aside, I realized that the goal-part was another lie I built to feel I belonged. In reality, it was another lesson in life which, once I got it, it had to go.
I’m closing 30 and I have not much passion for art or music anymore. It was painful forcing myself understand my dreams were silly, but the peace I feel now makes me think I finally made it. I can now look at their photos of the past with nostalgia and not feeling like I failed, cause it was never for me in the first place. I kept seeing people travelling there and being able to see them and, some even got chances to work with them, so I wondered wtf I was doing wrong. It was eating me alive and I desperately wanted sth to work but well...it’s all gone now. ^^
Currently I don’t have any goals but I know some old stuff came back. As a child, besides trying every artform I could get my hands on while listening to music, I also played a lot of games. We had 3 drawers and 1 cupboard full of videogames at home and I feel like I am slowly getting back to that. I limit myself only to genshin now, for sure, but I watch more playthroughs again of games I don’t have and maybe soon I will try getting a console to try more stuff, who knows. I also started watching anime again, which I had stopped for a few years.
Oh well, regardless of what the future holds, I am thankful to all those people who dared chase their dreams and inspired me do the same, my lovely musicians, even if I eventually got nowhere, and I will keep listening to their songs from time to time. And posting their pics cause nostalgia. My only complaint is that I spent the past 10 years of my life being upset that I lived in a house that didn’t allow me have posters on my walls (fucking humidity and mold ye see) and now that I can and my room is healthier, I have nobody I want on my walls. xD I will fill it with Genshin and anime characters xD.
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Shez saying that to Ashe has all the feel of a murderer telling a victim they're about to kill "why do you resist me? Do you want me to feel bad for trying to kill you? Why you gotta make me uncomfortable for doing bad things? I just wanna get away with it." Seriously. Yes, Lonato absolutely should live with it for the rest of his life. Thankfully he doesn't have to: because Lonato rightfully dies being stupid in AG and in all of 3H too. Let's see him live with that - oops he's already dead.
U RITE THO
Like yeah if a person kills their own child they damn well deserve to live with that. I could understand if the kid was like, a mass murderer or something and a really horrible person and the parent felt like they had do it or something. It would be complicated and all, but I can also guarantee they would be living with that for the rest of their life too.
And like, it’s not even Lonato who brings it up. He doesn’t say anything about it and instead actually says to forgive him because he couldn’t bear losing another son. While it’s not the best thing to be saying considering he was the one who caused what was happening, it was more than he said in Houses. Instead it’s Shez, who doesn’t know jack shit about what’s actually going on or their history or anything. Just some random mercenary who is fighting against Ashe’s homeland and guilt trips him.
I really don’t like SB Shez because they’re just... awful sometimes. I don’t think it’s being kind or anything like that to spare someone’s life or act like you’re being just by putting someone in that position. Lonato already put Ashe in a bad spot, but it’s like Shez just heaped onto it.
When it comes to Lonato supporting the Empire, he made his decision and Ashe made his and imo Shez just butts in to say some of the worst shit. It’s not Shez or anyone else’s business what they decide to do. Lonato didn’t actually specifically attack Ashe, and in fact he might not have. Maybe Ashe could’ve died fighting the Empire and not Lonato specifically, but that still wouldn’t have been Lonato who did it with his own hands. For Shez to butt in with that shit was literally nothing more than a manipulation tactic and I don’t like that they use stuff like that to make Shez seem like a good guy in SB because it “saved Ashe’s life”.
I know it might seem bias to say that I feel like Shez in AG is the most humane, but like... that’s just how it is? My feelings about certain things, particularly in this FE universe, have a lot to do with violence, humane behavior and how people are treated both fairly and unfairly. The reason I lean toward Faerghus in the first place has everything to do with those things and I don’t say that Faerghus Shez is the best Shez out of an existing bias, but because Empire Shez is just... an awful person. Leicester Shez just doesn’t seem to give a fuck about anything in particular and doesn’t seem to have any emotional attachment to anyone and isn’t quite horrible but doesn’t give a fuck about other people either. Like you said, SB Shez just reads to me like a killer about to murder someone and act like they’re the bad person for not wanting to die.
If Lonato did in fact make the decision to kill his own son with his own hands, then yes, he should live with that for the rest of his life. He shouldn’t make that decision lightly in the first place if he was going to at all, but it would also be bullshit if he killed Ashe and then was like “but it’s not MY fault. It’s HIS fault for attacking me”. But of course, it’s not even Lonato who said or did anything here. It was Shez fucking with Ashe’s emotions and making him feel bad for defending his homeland while still grappling with his feelings of being betrayed by his own father.
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sonic the hedgehog tumblr dashboard simulator
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got held up in traffic today cause some noob couldnt drive the fucking loop-de-loop. lmfao fucking coward
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ok but robotnik's kind of a dilf tho
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he's literally a war criminal can we NOT do this tumblr
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@wispgender dont u literally simp for nominatus like who is one to talk
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NOMINATUS ISN'T REAL????
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that you know of
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what
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saw sonic the hedgehog irl once. he showed up at my village, released 30 feral pickys in the town hall, paid the ice cream vendor roughly a thousand rings for a single chili dog, told me not to waste my life worrying about the little things, and then caused a fucking tornado
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ok and??? you're not special
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THIS WAS A PERSONAL POST GO AWAAAAY
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sucks that sticks the badger hates all technology you know she would do NUMBERS on here
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being an islander be like "are those the kind of eggsplosions i should worry about or the kind of eggsplosions that are gonna repair our crops, fix the economy, and bring my dead grandma back to life"
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being a continenter be like "oh great what primordial diety has risen from the grave to block traffic and fight a 15yo today"
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being a chao be like "chao chao chao chao chao"
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you said it my mans
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hold on if sonic the hedgehog is jewish then how is he santa claus
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dont question him
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hey guys real question are human/mobian relationships problematic
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op is about to start the anthro church schism of the fifteenth year all over again
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ok but in all seriousness did your mom never teach you that part of history
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someone doesn't know about the united federations public school system
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what the fuck is a public school
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are we gonna talk about op's chaos radiation fetish
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OP'S WHAT NOW
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ok but am i the only one who thinks that the public school system would be a good idea if handled right? like i know it's traditional to learn from your parents and then experience the world on our own from the ages of 7-13 but like combining all our knowledge and learning together doesnt seem like a bad idea
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bitch that's what the internet is for
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yeah where else am i gonna learn to make infinite chaos emeralds
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"infinite chaos emeralds" that's called the phantom ruby
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everybody on this site has brain damage
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yeah. from the radiation
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caught this today
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if anything happens to this blog i genuinely hope eggman blows us all up as punishment
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Hey guys! Sorry to do this again but rent's a little tight this month :( If we've ever solved a case for you guys or made you guys smile, please consider sending a ko-fi our way! we just need a few rings to get through the month <3
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do we ever talk about that time the sky turned blood-red and shadow the hedgehog's demon dad descended from on high to murder us all and we only barely survived
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shadow fixed it it's fine
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yeah that was like twelve apocalypses ago move on
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kinda wanted to bang black doom tbh
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THE DEVIL???? FROM THE BIBLE????
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yeah. move over gayboy i'm boutta be shadow's new dad
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starting a conspiracy that time hasnt moved since 2006
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why the fuck was i shadowbanned after posting this
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tfw you finally save up enough rings for ice cream and you go outside and get hit by swatbot pieces and the rings just go fuckin everywhere
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so did y'all see that genesis wave or was it just me
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the virgin tweeter "if you use a bad word in the same tweet as the word 'cream' you get obliterated off the site" vs this chad site of "i want to put knuckles back in a microwave"
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BACK????
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ok posting my first fanart to this site pls be nice! <3
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why does tails look like he's always about to say "it fucken WIMDY"
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Hello, @emeraldfwuitgummy!
I actually quote that image on a constant basis! Sonic thinks it's hilarious every time. He's quite the fan of memes, and it's nice to get a laugh out of him!
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SO WAS ANYONE GOING TO TELL ME THAT TAILS WAS ON THIS FUCKING SITE OR--
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do. do you not know he created tailblr. dude it's in the name lmao
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he
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didn't eggman invent this site???
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THE EGG ABANDONED SCRAMBLR IN ITS TIME OF NEED AND THE FOX RAISED US FROM THE ASHES. YOU WILL NOT DISRESPECT HIM
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Hello, @milfwisp and @veganswatbot!
Very good question! This site was Eggman's until I ate his bones. Thank you for engaging! :D
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what's not clicking
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