#until WELL into adulthood

[obstinatecondolement]

My sister was saying "You should write that idea for a novel about [REDACTED] that you had a while ago for NaNo. I think that could be really fun" and I was like oh yeah! I remember we got a kick out of that one. And then, after a pause, had be like... could you remind me what the plot was again? Because litearlly all I could remember was that it had been funny At The Time and involved [REDACTED].

It was like when my mum reads a book and strongly recommends it to me the day after she finishes it, but can't remember any of the characters names or what happened, but it was definitely very good and I should read it so we can talk about it!

Except this was a story I made up myself and devoted not an insignificant amount of thought to, and then never committed any of what I came up with to the page because it was still early stages and I would "remember" what my initial ideas were 🙄

#fortunately my sister did remember enough that it kickstarted my brain and I remembered #but jesus christ... #how many perfectly good ideas have I squandered because I didn't think I would forget about them? #it's one thing not ever writing stuff I had ideas for because of y'know *gestures towards my general inability to follow through on things* #but actually forgetting ideas entirely feels much worse #I miss having an eidetic memory :( #but also I kind of wish I'd never had it because I never developed the habit of writing things down to remember them #until WELL into adulthood #because I'd ever needed to for most of my life #I just remembered every single word I had ever read or heard and almost every idea I'd given more than passing thought to in perfect detail #as a child I'd get so angry about people getting single words of quotations wrong or misremembering minute details of conversations we'd ha #because I *did not understand* that they weren't just being sloppy and inexact #and that they really couldn't remember things the same way I could #I really did not understand that other people experienced the world differently to me at that age #when they contradicted what I believed to be universal truths I thought they were trying to upset me or make me feel bad about myself #like when my friend agreed with my parents that apple juice was nicer than orange juice (when no one could *really* believe that) #I fully felt that as a betrayal #and thought she was implicitly co-signing my parents to hurt me #and that the subtext of the criticism was that I was evil and self indulgent for not resisting the wicked temptations of orange juice #and never even trying to be virtuous and subject myself to apple juice #which was obviously not as nice but was the more moral and 'healthy' (which was the same things as moral) choice #oh christ this has gotten away from me... #I hate being triggered by dumb bullshit that brings me back to weird esoteric traumas from my youth #can I please stop being triggered by such embarrassingly trivial bullshit for five minutes???

[duusheen]

we made each other happy, Jay

#ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 legacy challenge #ts4 screenshots #it buuuuurrrrrnnnnssssss #you stupid pixel jay pollock what have you DONE to my baby miracle 😩😩😩 #Lindsay was right #jk he's not an ass just... well that's life i guess #mir looks so young and she is! but she doesn't look like a mom of three at all :'( #btw i love/hate this post omg idk why #it took me ALL FKING DAY #and i hate it #but i love it #😕😕 #let's see if these two can survive until adulthood 👀 #pollock legacy #gen4 #miracle holm #brisa pollock #luna pollock

[lobotomyladylives]

I think bpd is a bullshit stigmatizing label thrown at women to pathologize what is very obviously a response to prolonged childhood trauma and would be better labeled as C-PTSD. that being said my god I am bpd as fuck

#my sister just snapped at me bc i said i dont want to do a ton of physical labor for the job she signed me up for which apparently does i #in fact involve a lot of it. and her being mad for even that moment sent me spiraling so badly & i had the reaction i often do where #i start hating both her & myself terribly & want to isolate forever #i think she hates her new job & is taking it out on me but it doesnt matter bc i cant handle being yelled at #and the fact thst it took me till adulthood to realize thats bc i associate it with my father is crazy. yeah its just the cptsd like #everything else. and whats nutso is how i continue to think my trauma Wasnt Bad Enough for ptsd . #just bc he didnt beat the shit out of or molest me i feel like i dont even have a right to be this fucked up #not that it was only him. being bullied at school really did not help. i guess now that i think about it the problem is that until #i was a teenager i literally did not feel emotionally secure anywhere. home or school. always the ticking of a bomb in the bg #the inevitable moment my dad blew up over nothing or i overheard my peers talking about what a freak i was #i dont know why it still hurts to think about. im so far removed from it my life now couldnt be more different #well thats the stupid fucking thing about childhood isnt it. those are your very first experiences with the world & other ppl #i do know my view of romantic relationships was irrevocably poisoned by my parents & that is never going to be undone. so cool

[feluka]

if you've been silently in gay love with your friend but never allowed to want anything more do not watch good omens it will ruin your life

#bro i started having DREAMS again about her. it's been OVER A FUCKING DECADE #i'm so mad lmao i was doing so well i thought i was completely over her shdhdhdj #yeah it wasn't 6000 years like the show but it was from age 4 until adulthood. which counts as an 'eternity' for us humans.

[susiephone]

childhood was just a long series of adults being like "don't judge a book by its cover!" and "treat others the way you want to be treated!" and then turning around and making the wildest snap judgments about people based on TINY amounts of information and expecting you to agree

#just remembered when i was like 12 and i was with a friend and her grandma #and i mentioned another friend and how she was already counting the days until she could go to college #and my friend's grandma was like 'well she sounds like a spoiled brat' and i was like UM?? HELLO?? #like slow your roll granny you have not even MET this girl #you know a grand total of one thing about her #and like?? for all she knew my friend's parents could've been abusive or something?? #they weren't to be clear. my friend just really wanted to skip to adulthood. #which is like. a normal ass thing for a 12 year old to want?? to be independent and grown up?? #also being 12 - 17 sucks of course everyone looks forward to what comes after #this was nearly 15 years ago and i am still lowkey mad about how quickly my friend's grandma (who was otherwise a nice woman) #just immediately decided my friend was ungrateful and spoiled #AGAIN. HAD NOT EVEN MET HER.

[jazz-kitty]

an undisclosed amount of time into the past

#pokemon reborn #elias hazel #solaris alcantara #phoenix alcantara #jazzart #BTW elias was lying when he said that he only met solaris well into his miserable adulthood #because i forgot about it until now and it's awkward if i draw them chatting while solaris is like. 9.

[countess-of-edessa]

baked a cake from scratch, fed the dogs and the father, cleaned the kitchen, wrapped christmas presents. wearing a beige sweaterdress and black ballet flats, hair in bun. reading a profile on hilaria baldwin…the cottagecore tradwife in me is winning i fear

#im being sarcastic but honestly though i keep having the creeping and uncharitable thought of like. i don’t think this is quite as hard as #my mother has always made it seem. and my father is literally zero help and she works really hard but also there was always the not-always- #unspoken implication that the reason the house was always kind of messy and disorganized and everything was kind of chaotic and accompanied #by a distinct sense of overwhelm was because of my sister and I #either our stuff or our actions or the fact that taking care of us took up too much time she could devote to other stuff #but neither my sister nor i live at home full time anymore and when we do at least i am objectively more helpful than anything else #so im like okay well that wasn’t it then #and like i also get that everyone thinks they could do better until THEY get married and have kids and then you see #but the backlash against the pressure for everything to be picture perfect has turned into (imo) a general “relatable” idea that #adulthood and especially marriage and parenthood is nothing but a slide into complacency and chaos forever and like. i just don’t agree wit #that. obviously you cannot live as you did as a single person or a non parent but the prevailing image of parenthood i see advertised as #“realistic” is one where everyone is constantly exhausted unhappy and living in filth #i See a question from a woman asking how to SURVIVE nine whole days of winter break with her children. SURVIVE? wtf? #i do think parents of today spend too much time with their children and that’s part of the issue but also like. i cannot believe that #everything is as thoroughly and completely awful as it is pretty much always portrayed nowadays #and how i see it reflected at me. and this isn’t like a housewives don’t work aaaa thing because no. #but like. when i see people being like you can’t expect your sahm to get the laundry done OR dinner made OR the house clean on a consistent #basis EVER i am kind of like…..but literally what are you doing then if none of those things?? #cause unless you homeschool or have literal infants (whole different ballgame) then like…what are you doing #maybe an unpopular opinion but I think a lot of women are bad at being housewives. because it is a skill that women used to study and learn #and now it’s not but it’s still the most important job in society #so we took away all the instruction manuals for the backbone of society and now who comes the closest to approximating an educational resou #? influencers. which is horrible because any person you are taking advice from on Instagram is someone with a public Instagram account #which automatically makes them odd and untrustworthy and not someone at least I would want to emulate. #my mother doesn’t apply to this she is a great homemaker her issues are (1) time management (2) fatigue (3) starts too many projects #but i digress #i suppose i shouldn’t say that I reject the idea children turn your life to chaos because I don’t. but I do reject the idea that #the chaos of parenthood sentences everyone to a perpetual state of overwhelm and reactivity #that simply has never been the case for people in any time period before now even when raising children and the daily business of living wa #far more labor intensive

[the-furies]

shit we did not have time for in The Past:

having pets

eating candy and other snacks but primarily Candy

Sleeping In

lotcherslly just chilling

shit we Routinely Do now in This Life:

All Of The Above And Then Some !!!!

#pk;m electrochemistry🔴 #sorry I'm just like losing my shit rn over the concept of airheads xtremes. thes ebitches r sooo good #i would kill for an endless supply of them. omg #we're trying to put the pieces together from The Past and what I gather everyone aside from Vol wasn't... Around. #for the later half of things #and by Not Around I don't mean we didn't exist. no. we did. but. Harry uh. 😃. well he certainly.! #so for a LONGGGGGG PERIODDDD up until THE INCIDENT™ it was just him and Vol #and Vol is all work no play (or. *was*. vol's lightened up a ton now) soooooOOOOOO. barely any *fun* to have been had in that period!! #from what I understand (and what bits Vol felt comfortable sharing) very very basically it was like #1. Childhood! cool decent aside from the horrors (deaths. and polio.) #Oh never mind ut was all horrors i forgot the first Skills that formed. disregard! horrors all around #2. teens! no memories here. 😃👍. #3. Young adulthood! Things were looking up! And then the First incident happened. Whoops! that's where i fully formed! #4. 3 year period with just harry and Vol. all the RCM shit. etc. y'know. The Horrors² #5. *THE INCIDENT*. the catalyst to it all. and then everyone else got access to front again! some ups and downs! #but my point is!!!!!! #BARELY ANY FUCKING CANDY IN ANY OF THAT???? A CRIME I SAY. #the ice cream trucks r starting to pop up in our neighborhood si the next time we have Cash. i will INDULGE. IN S W E E T S. #but for now..... airheads xtremes will do #and also grape sour patch kids but those r reserved for esprit and y'know what i respect that

[fettery-fetterie]

KICKING AND PUNCHING AND SHAKING AND CRYING CROW IN TRASSSSSSH

#echoes of the fettered #do you remember how i said crow in trash has a very specific level of sensuality/passionality for me #well i am. i am well i might have. fucked #like a couple days i just thought 'hehe what if hlev was gay' #and likw. ywah fun and games #until it isn't #because #like. do you understand what im trying to say #like. crow in trash to me sounds like....the transition from child to adulthood - teenhood included #with all the implications to it. like 'oh i gotta worry about money now' - 'oh i gotta worry about spending my time evenly between my loved #ones and my work and my hobbies' #'oh.' #DO YOU UNDERSTAND #DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW CROW IN TRASH IS MAKING ME FEEL LIKE #scratching my face i cannot do this anymore #perceptive little crow

[elfindreams]

I am a normal person with a job and various normal hobbies but also if you sliced open my brain you would find a region which has existed for years and is singularly dedicated to storing my needlessly overspecific post-OOT / MM Zelda headcanons covering the span of several in-universe decades and in fact aren’t headcanons because they are all completely correct and accurate and ~thematic~

#okay so canon strongly suggests that TP Link is a descendant of OOT Link but I dislike the trope of biology/bloodlines = magic destiny #also OOT Link was raised by a talking tree and literally never even met an adult until he was like. eleven. #therefore dude has no attachment to the concept of marriage or a ✨nuclear family✨ and by the time he grows into adulthood again #he gives like. negative fucks about anything. he’s paid his dues to the world man. #therefore he ends up in some kind of polycule thing + raises a bunch of kids some of whom are maybe ‘’his’’ but several are adopted orphans #so like. inherited generational Stuff is going on and he’s a parent in every way that matters but as far as biological ancestry: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #he obsessively teaches them all the survival skills he knows but is super lax in most other respects #(no sword training tho bc he didn’t want them to HAVE to know and then by the time he was maybe ready he physically couldn’t anymore) #and is thrilled to see them turn all rowdy and rebellious bc he feels like his life would’ve gone better if he’d been that way as a kid #in the same way that Link was somewhat modeled after Peter Pan (or really one of the lost boys to be more accurate) #the kids end up akin to Robin Hood and the outlaws especially after Link dies at a fairly young age bc they’re quite reasonably like #‘’hey fuck you queen Zelda you ruined our dad’s life fuck off fuck offffffffff’’ #(cue them being derisively called a wolf pack—foreshadowing the whole Assigned Wolf Fursona at Death thing lmfao) #this ends up being extremely relevant to 1.) what happened to the actual ocarina of time between MM and TP #2.) Ordona becoming a semi-independent province within that timespan as well #but BEFORE ALL THAT HAPPENS so like relations between Hyrule and the Gerudo people are like. Very Poor at this point. for many reasons. #so by the time zelda actually becomes the ruling queen—

[maneslion2]

After reading the wiki and playing the game, I'm 100% convinced Max Brinly has undiagnosed ADHD.

#As someone who didn't get diagnosed with ADHD until they were well into adulthood I relate very strongly #max brinly #max the quarry #the quarry #adhd

[synonymroll648]

we’ve all heard about della and alden’s wedding, but what kind of waves would dellivvy’s wedding cause?

#guys scream at me in reblogs or asks or whatever about this. PLEASE #DELLIVVY IS SO SPECIAL TO ME #DELLA DESERVES TO DIVORCE ALDEN AND HAVE A SLOWBURN ARC W/ LIVVY #WHERE THEY RAISE BIANA AND FITZ TOGETHER #AND BECOME EACH OTHER'S CLOSEST CONFIDANTS #BUT SPEND YEARS LIKE 'OH YEAH THIS IS COMPLETELY PLATONIC LMAO' #BEFORE FINALLY GETTING TOGETHER AND THEN SPENDING A FEW DECADES AS JUST GIRLFRIENDS BEFORE GETTING MARRIED #THEY DESERVE /THAT/ KIND OF SLOWBURN ARC #also della is bi but doesn't get the chance to figure it all out until she's well into adulthood after divorcing alden. i said what i said #dellivvy #della vacker #livvy sonden #kotlc vackers #kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #also would they both wear dresses or would one of them wear a suit or would they both wears suits or...? #i need answers #/hj

[princessmo]

i need someone to love me romantically pretty damn soon >:/

#i know it's normal for lesbians to like. not have relationships until theyre well into adulthood #BUT I'M LONELY NOW! #sure i'll be lonelier when i'm 30 if i even make it that far but god! can't a girl be a little impatient!

[sysig]

I thought I was done being feral about Tamagotchis but no, it was just a lull

#I was already interested in getting a Gotchi for the past couple months and then KKClue dropped that video (praise be) #And Then I learned that there was a cheap way of purchasing legit Japanese Gotchis?? I may uh. Have. Purchased a few #I never really had That Moment as a kid or teen of being impulsive with money - I'd either save it up and get one big thing #Or I'd buy little things until I eventually ran out - and that habit has kinda continued into adulthood lol #Nowadays the one big thing is usually something like a new computer when my old one dies but it certainly is a big thing lol #And I like getting little things like my puzzle cubes <3 But I'm fairly miserly! #Well. Until. #I've finally hit The Phase of impulsive purchases because of a perfect storm of Things Happening lol #I first wrote down that I wanted to start looking for Tamagotchis in March of this year and I was going about it rather casually to start #Just looking around Big Box stores to check pricing - then various toy and vintage stores to see if they had stock #Most of them didn't but I did get in some delightful networking :D I want to go back and continue! #I finally broke down a week ago and checked Amazon for the ''custom'' shell designs because I like the galaxy one hehe #And then - that accursed video (affectionate) #I may have watched it five times so far lol and then actually bit the bullet and checked out the sponsor and Fucking Hell #I can never get into gambling this does absolutely wack shit to my brain it's only half about the Gotchis themselves anymore #That said I am very excited for my Mesutchi to arrive! I really want to get an Osutchi to go with her and a Gen 1 and and and #I want to collect all the Angelgotchs so bad you don't understand I Must Have them in all the colours it's very important #I'm even considering doing some kind of Project with them once they arrive I don't know it's just all so exciting #I'm feeling very normal #Oh yeah and barely related other than IRL silliness - I finally got a haircut! :D #It'll take a bit for my sona to update but it was today! All sorts of things haha

[monky]

I don’t miss having braces but I love seeing adults with braces it’s endearing

#tbh I’m not even sure if most kids handle the responsibility/upkeep of braces well if u can wait until adulthood it’s prob better

[dirt-str1der]

Ocs can be so special and not reflective of yourself in any way

#Listen to my problems #just remembered that yancy has night terrors well into adulthood and he lives alone in a big house because his parents didnt want to move to #central city with him. and he doesnt sleep until he has to he stays awake in his kitchen drinking beer and crying sometimes just because #and when veronica moved in she would sleep on the sofa and take care of him at night ... (veronica has nightmares sometimes too...) #she had a major freakout about her missing eye and shes still steeped in paranoia that theyre gonna find her (unspecified they) #she doesnt like touching people much but she hugs him and only him and lets him give her silly nicknames .. x #and sol .. then sol came home with yancy ... and sol came into yancys room (yancy likes him a lot ...) and they would hold each other at #night simply because theyre both warm bodies #yancy doesnt know that hes just a machine .. sol was so much more to him. before he was gears and wires he was yancys friend ... #yancy is Callous about the wires. he forgets sometimes he loves machines but more than that he loves sol ... you see .... he is a cool #machine but theyre best friends they like each other .. #hes yancys bodyguard he takes care of him throughout the day and throughout the night #person by person yancys big house starts to fill up .. #just realised something funny. sol and grace are from the same hitman agency. sol choked yancy out and tried to break his neck before he #hired him and grace was invited to come over by sol and as soon as she stepped into the house she was chased around with a knife by veronica #like both of them tried to kill their special one thats really funny #i say special one because sol is yancys special one but grace and vero are literally just girlfriends who have sex