#wanted to do the same but with zero

[randomlyfallen]

My favorite magma drawings with friends <3

#megaman x #megaman #rockman x #rockman #zero megaman x #megaman x zero #megaman roll #saw the fashion trend with shadow and tiktok #wanted to do the same but with zero #also another instance of discord whispering in my ear #they reccomended emo roll #who am i to deny their requests

[aalghul]

once again thinking about jason as duke’s robin. he’s ~4 years younger than jason, and that’s puts him at 8-12 during Jason’s time as robin. that’s prime time to get attached to your local kid vigilante before your own life goes downhill.

and if we try to keep duke’s meeting with bruce in zero year + duke’s age (so he can remember the meeting and hold that conversation with bruce), he has to be around 8. if he starts following batman through the news at that time because of the mess that just happened, the robin he sees is probably jason. I’ve literally connected the dots

#we are not of course keeping zero year itself. what a mess. #maybe smth very similar so it’s still the riddler causing mass chaos! #the titans so we actually keep the no robin physically present in the story part the same #look. if we want zero year convo we need to give bruce a robin at the time. it could be 17-18yr old who’s not even in gotham bc he’s with #by time tim shows up he’s already attached to jason #and then steph’s robin suddenly for a bit but only for a bit. and then tim comes back but he’s in bludhaven for a while #i do think duke would think steph is really cool tho. and they reasonably couldve met as civilians #and then duke’s busy bouncing around foster homes the streets and looking for his parents #i wanted to talk about how much i love it and the tags are just be working out a timeline for post crisis events & post flashpoint ones (an #some of duke’s important events are related to things which are no longer canon. such is life. let’s do our best based on ages) #duke thomas #jason todd

[gunstellations]

double trouble

#detroit become human #rk1700 #the boys....baby boys....woobies... #listen i just think nines would have such an overprotective streak for connor.. #he protecc and he want to attacc. connor will teach him well #my favourite headcanon is nines quietly admiring the hell out of connor and learning from him and his mistakes as well #choosing the most optimal way to exist within society. hes so impressed with connor who is bumbling terribly but doing his best #connor has the experience and higher social relations but nines is much quicker to catch on #they both admire each other and are pushed forward by each others existance and improvement #ive seen a few fanfics where they have that dynamic and its my favourite #they work so sweetly in a brotherly bond it warms my heart (though i am a shameless rk1700 enjoyer) #anyway thats enough rambling #i wish there was a dbh fandom still #im just throwing up doodles now with no thought of making any solid pieces yet #my art #dbh #rk900 #connor detroit become human #also i know theres zero consistency with the art style and keeping them looking the same but fuck that i dont have the patience rn #also also lmao i just noticed but the top one looks like hes trying to kiss connor but no that was a continuation of bottom left sjdjfjdj #feel free to interpret it any way yoy want hajdjfjfjd

[dianagj-art]

Should I start posting this even when I have very few pages done and wanted to have at least all of the "Mystic Mayhem" events covered first?

yeah sure, enjoy the gif

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EDIT! now all animatied panels have a thick black outline so no one misses them!

#rottmnt #rottmnt separated au #separated leo au #separated leo au comic #rottmnt fanart #i still dont have a name for this au #might keep calling it separated leo au xd #i was undecided between doing animatics or a comic for this and settled on comic with littles bits of animation #also with zero effort on BGs #Im not gonna do ALL the episode. i do skip over parts of the story so you have to conect the dots between updates sometimes #and asume things that happen on the series also are happening even when i dont show it #eiter bc i though it would play out exactly the same so it doesnt add anything to the AU or just bc i didnt want to draw that #THIS IS A LOW EFFORT AU! #dg art #dg fanart #dg comics #dg animated

[mattodore]

finally opening the sims so corn can make a friend—so long as he keeps his fangs to himself. she doesn't want her blood drained, corn 🫵 @squea

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 cas #my sims #her name is eva rosdiana she's an ecologist and a vegetarian and a metal music enjoyer #i have zero maxis clothes or eyes tho so amber please maxis her all up as needed 🧎 #wasn't going to publically post the sim i made for corn's save originally but i liked her a lot and wanted to mess around w/ editing again #think i found a way to edit (for cas pics at least) that i really enjoy doing and love the look of. but yeah... pretty girl <3 #she uses the same nose preset that i use for imani so i'm looking at her and then i'm looking at imani like do they look too similar..... #listen... dfjkhfkjhn i just think imani is so so pretty so who can really blame me if i accidentally made a sim that looks v similar to her #...i haven't gotten her trays ready yet bc i wanted to go back in game tomorrow and give her simple outfits for the other categories #maybe i'll download some maxis clothes first... idk. anyway... i haven't slept soooo dkghknh gn

[utilitycaster]

You know what's interesting to me? For all people keep claiming at every juncture that perhaps Bells Hells will come around on the gods and see the harm they do (which, as discussed extensively, is, half the time, simply not intervening) not only have they never done so, but also they never quite cross the line into saying the party should join the Ruby Vanguard or aid them - and indeed, they defend against it - so what does this achieve? It feels like they're asking for a story in which the party stands idly by, which isn't much of a story nor, if I may connect this briefly to the real world, a political stance anyone should be proud of.

That's honestly the frustration with the gods and the "what if the Vanguard has a point" conversations in-game. What do we do then? Do we allow the organization that will murder anyone for pretty much any reason that loosely ties into their goals run rampant? The group that (perhaps unwittingly, but then again, Otohan's blades had that poison) disrupted magic world-wide, and caused people who had the misfortune to live at nexus points to be teleported (most, as commoners, without means of return). While also fomenting worldwide unrest?

Those were the arguments before the trip to Ruidus; with the reveal of the Vanguard's goals to invade Exandria, the situation becomes even more dire. Do you let the Imperium take over the planet?

And do the arguments against the gods even hold up? If Ludinus is so angry at them for the Calamity, what does it say that he destroyed Western Wildemount's first post-Calamity society for entirely selfish means? (What does it say about the validity of vengeance as a motivator?) What does it say that Laudna told Imogen she could always just live in a cottage quietly without issue before the solstice even happened? (Would this still be true if the Imperium controls the world?) What does it say that when faced with a furious, grieving party and the daughter she keeps telling herself was her reason for all of this, Liliana can't provide an answer to the question of what the gods have done other than that their followers will retaliate...for, you know, the Vanguard's endless list of murders. (That is how the Vanguard and Imperium tend to think, huh? "How dare your face get in the way of my boot; how dare you hit me back when I strike you.") She can't even provide a positive answer - why is Predathos better - other than "I feel it", even though Imogen and Fearne know firsthand that Predathos can provide artificial feelings of elation. Given all the harm Ludinus has done in pursuit, why isn't the conclusion "the gods should have crashed Aeor in such a way that the tech was unrecoverable?"

Even as early as the first real discussion on what the party should do, the fandom always stopped short of saying "no, Imogen's right, they should join up with the people who killed half the party," it was always "no, she didn't really mean it, she just was trying to connect with her mother." Well, she's connected with her mother, and at this point the party doesn't even care about the gods particularly (their only divinely-connected party member having died to prevent the Vanguard from killing all of them). So they will stop the Vanguard; as Ashton says, the means are unforgiveable. As Laudna says, it's not safe to bet on Predathos's apathy. As Imogen says, she's done running; the voice that she used to think of as a lifeline belongs to someone she doesn't trust. So I guess my question is: if they're stopping the people who are trying to kill the gods (and defense of the gods isn't remotely their personal motivation)...do you think the next phase of the campaign is Bells Hells personally killing the gods? Reconstructing the Aeor tech and hoping none of their allies notice? How does this end? Does your ideology ever get enacted? Or is this entirely moot and pointless and the story ends with Bells Hells saying "well, I'm really glad we stopped the people who [insert list of Vanguard atrocities from above]; none of us follow the gods or plan to, but honestly, the status quo we return to is preferable to whatever nightmare Ludinus had concocted in his violent quest for power and revenge"?

#i've got a lot to do today so I think I'm done posting but #cr spoilers #i called that this particular cohort of fans had empathy only for those like them and were terrified of player agency like. 18 mos ago #and i have never been proven wrong. zero analysis just a constant demand that everyone coddle their feelings and confirm their biases #literally will straight up fabricate lore and cry you're disrespecting a pretend person for not including it in your considerations #absolutely SHIT understanding of actual lore. utter incapacity to follow a logical throughline to its conclusion #it's like. wow. wonder why you're so focused on hypocrisy and you overreact to the word selfish #the reason they hate or fear orym (they say they don't...but that just means they want him to go to a reeducation camp instead of die) #is bc i think they are truly terrified of the idea that people can not just hold opinions that are against theirs but stand fast by them #easier to stan the villain because then they die and you can feel wronged and betrayed and wallow in a sense of continual victimhood #than to like a character who might last long enough to call you the idiot and asshole that you are #but it's also funny bc literally if orym weren't there in the latest convo the conclusion is the same. #ashton's had the same opinion of the vanguard the whole time (and it's not positive) but that's not under scrutiny #probably bc it doesn't allow people to be ghoulish in the most cringeworthy way possible

[myuiis]

I just KNOW that gen zero flashback is going to give us some of the most delicious, doomed by the narrative found family in fiction. just trust that ptj is going to take whatever drugs he was on when he wrote Jake Kim arc and he will COOK

#lookism #lookism manhwa #I just KNOW that the fist gang are going to get me so attached to them #I’m so excited fr #but at the same time I’m not at all ready for the angst #it’d be really funny if ptj pulled a fast one on us and just didn’t do a flashback at all #but I want gen zero crumbs so bad you don’t understand

[annalrk-art]

akane in one of her concept outfits for @999week

#999 week #zero escape #akane kurashiki #nine hours nine persons nine doors #my art #2023 art #i was gonna do the same for clover but i didn't have the energy #also yeah this specific concept outfit also has her with short hair but i wanted to keep her iconic side bun

[makotonaegiunderstander]

something I’ve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I don’t think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldn’t have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasn’t because he didn’t feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone else’s. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldn’t allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasn’t, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isn’t immune to feeling despair, he’s just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think that’s why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous ‘oh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind it’ or ‘he can do better than that. he’s so weak’ or ‘come on, there’s no way he’d fall into despair, he’s the Ultimate Hope!’ This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didn’t feel despair the same way ‘normal people’ did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasn’t doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he just… was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more ‘gung-ho’ about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junko’s unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesn’t all rest on Makoto, he’s just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, it’s clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.

“But… this world is so huge, and we’re so small. What can we do…? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!”

#makoto naegi #Danganronpa character analysis #Danganronpa #danganronpa thh #danganronpa future arc #I fucking love Makoto Naegi man. #I think there’s a fine line of nuance to Makoto that’s easy to miss bc he doesn’t really make it known #he’s not a pushover and he’s not overpowered. he’s a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said #he’s an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but he’s also just a normal guy who’s optimistic and (un)lucky #he isn’t invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did #if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. he’s compassionate to some of the worst people in the world. #he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything she’s done #and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend. #I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more he’s come to actually hate her though #post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do #it means you have zero respect for the person you’re referring to #and he speaks about her with some venom he doesn’t use for anyone else in the future arc #he’s not incapable of feeling negative emotions #I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didn’t refuse #and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like he’s either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick who’s so delicate #and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable. #honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually #I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself #that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally can’t be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels #it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it #it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic #anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for #the most fundamental thing about him is that he’s normal and that’s ok! that’s what helps him rise!

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

many years ago someone complimented me on how sincerely i wished my ex well after a break up and i did mean it at the time but im truly not that bitch anymore i hope his nose is stuffy the rest of his life tbqph

#op #this is a diary post ill be real #theres a little heart shaped lock on it and everything #when i hear songs about fatherhood i no longer grieve the relationship i never got to have with my father #i only grow deeply enraged with my ex that he forced that same pain on my child when he literally could have bounced AT ANY TIME #but no he waited until immediately afterwards LMFAO #king of shit timing #call me a bitter baby momma all you want #i am #and ill stay bitter until my child is old enough to work through it themself in therapy #which he will be paying for #men will see women with trauma and promise before god that he will break the cycle then be like ''ctrl+c ctrl+v'' #EDIT I do want to be clear tho he’s no deadbeat whatsoever #he pays and he’s present (12/30 days but it’s not zero at least) #he’s just also… free. he doesn’t have to deal with being a parent #he gets the sometimes and I have the always #and it burns when he promised me we would both have the always #that we would be a team #we’re not a team #I’m sponsored #and it kills me #and if there were a deity who listened I would pray to them that it does not kill my baby #not the way it killed me a thousand different ways when I realized my father was never interested in being one #not when it was hard #not when it was inconvenient #not when it was always

[yorshie]

Pea Brained Bounce House time. Was thinking about the earlier Mikey bit. Then I started thinking about Warm Coded. And then:

Raph’s got like. This thing, when you’re working out with him. He uses the cover of coaching you to stare.

It’s not until he’s got you doing chairs against the concrete wall, and you look up in pleading askance on how much longer you’ve gotta hold the position, that you finally catch the way his attention is trained on the swell of your stomach. The uncanny focus of his gaze on your thighs as the muscles start to tremble and seize up.

Raph likes to stare.

#……. hm. is this gonna be a blood orange fic? #are they gonna converge? #looks at the blurple fic I’m already planning. fuck. this might be a blood orange fic #but how would that even work? #Mikey is so much harder to set a boundary with than Leo and Donnie #and what about my head canon of Mikey sneaking into Raph’s bed during nightmares? #I could just see. raph wakes up and readers all against him all warm and cuddly #he goes for the sleepy morning action #but his hand knocks against Mikey’s shell and there’s like the awful dawning realization that his little bro is cock blocking him #cue Mikey waking up cuz you smell all warm and he wants action too #only for the same realization to have th both going >:[ at each other #raph gets up like fuck this I’ll be a good boyfriend I’ll go get breakfast. you want pastries doll? I'll get you fucking pastries #and Mikey’s like fuck that I’ll be a better boyfriend I’m gonna go make homemade juice #and then reader is like. wtf where are my cuddly buddies? Why is everyone so pissy this fine morning? #<- zero clue they are in the middle of a pissing contest #goes to take a morning shower and gets interrupted cuz Mikey doubles back #youngest sibling gotta take advantage of the older one being out and all that #I could just see him all annoyed halfway to the Kitchen before going *wtf am I doing* and backtracking to corner reader in the bathroom #raph drags reader back in his room and closes the door in mikey's face when he gets back with pastries #cuz personal space (nest) privileges and it was cold outside and damn it he's was a good boyfriend he deserves cuddle time #also he didn't get mikey any pastries #proceeds to show reader there's more than one way to enjoy a pastry #……… have to think about this one actually plot poly is hard #raccoon rambles

[timeloopedd]

more old things i found

#he gets his own tag because he has a place in my heart <3 #sorry for drawing those two all sweetsy and cutesits #i think now i have a slightly better idea of how they are? (slightly. probably not entirely. still haven’t finished dsaf 2…) #for now though. i guess my best excuse is that the dave and jack i draw have some sort of magnets in them that has them standing close #i need to draw violent homoeroticism with them!!!! #i just want to be able to enjoy doomed toxic relationships okay #but also at the same time #some part of me just wants to draw them all happy even though that does not happen and never will. #yeah. the ooc drawings i make are just me coping over the two endings i know of (vaguely. i’ve only gathered context clues from posts) #(and the oh so trustable wikia/sarcasm (it is not trustable do not look at wikia for facts anymore)) #blood #cw blood #cw bl00d #<- is that actually the trigger warning tag for blood? is it supposed to be censored with zeroes instead of Os ? #atsv #the spot #dsaf #davesport #forgot that tag

[mishy-mashy]

Julius is just a Hard Knock Life orphan on a path called Julius's Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Day

#hes so optimistic that i know i cant be that forward-looking #i say that as an optimist #dude's parents died and he thinks he just has to keep moving doing his best and such #he had his name eaten and just keeps a journal so he can grow from the experience #his parents are dead his life was upheaved and considering the flash flood a lot of his friends probably died too #and he consistently makes terrible first impressions because of misunderstandings #with joshua ferris subaru and even reinhard calls him out on it #but hes still. forward looking? with his life id ask WHY #an optimist full of insecurities that nonetheless wants to become a better version of himself than yesterday #that wants others to grow #that wants to be someone who can respect his parents' sacrifice #and is willing to play the villain without ever explaining himself to save his own image #id think his mental fortitude is off the charts #rezero #re zero #re:zero #julius juukulius #little orphan boy living a goodly hard life #i can understand it but at the same time its incomprehensible and i dont know how to put it into words #life keeps kicking him #like footeball #and ottos the kicker right now #ITS A HARD KNOCK LIFE FOR US-

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[cws: drugging, SA and SA apologia, fantasy racism/ableism, forced institutionalization.]

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i know i never shut up about it but god i am still just. So Salty about how the show handles the dynamic between mayor jones and pericles for many reasons, and one of the biggest is that there are really strong overtones here of sexual assault.

a character who already brings to mind the Slimy, Shady Cis White Guy with Buried Allegations archetype:

takes advantage of the trust of someone who's doing something with him in secret--

(which will get that person in a disproportionate amount of trouble compared to him, if they're discovered)

--to catch him off guard so he can grab him, drug him, and do violent things to his body while he's unconscious; scars him for life in a way that is disabling and should cause a lot of ongoing suffering, which, like many other things that should have a strong negative impact on him physically or psychologically, the writers ignore; and dumps him there alone to discover what's been done to him when he wakes up.

specifically, he does this to someone from a marginalized group that's highly unlikely to be believed if they tell anyone what he did--and going by the fact that mayor jones never got in any trouble until present day, he wasn't.

goes out of the way to ruin the life of the victim and discredit him as thoroughly as possible, because he's a loose end and he needs to shut him up.

flees the scene and gets away scot free with this for twenty years, has a successful privileged career and is considered a pillar of the community in the meantime.

when his dirty secret, which he's been paranoid about finally facing consequences for after the victim has recently become a risk again, is discovered, it's a huge career-ending scandal.

is redeemed by the end, while his victim goes on to be the Monstrous Irredeemable Pure Evil Main Villain and also sexually abuse someone himself, which is played as horrific and traumatizing (as it should be).

more specifically, is portrayed as showing redeeming, heroic anti-villain qualities by backhanding the victim into a wall as hard as he can in present day.

me: hm. yeah fuck this

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #professor pericles #fred jones sr. #SDMItag #SDMIcrit tag #the crit files #cws in post #like. jesus christ dude. #i'm guessing there's probably been You Can't Like Mayor Jones He's Abusive discourse before; i don't want to contribute to it or anything #no shade to mayor jones enjoyers y'all have fun #but holy shit i do not like this man lmfao #this isn't even getting into the fact that it is extremely easy to read pericles as a victim of *other* SA both metaphorical and literal #(metaphorical: the entity groomed him his entire life) #(literal: the creators intentionally made reference with him; onscreen; to Inappropriate Handling that happens to parrots in real life) #(he comes from a world where people assume there is zero difference between him and an animal; and would probably touch him the same way) #(no one would have *recognized* it was inappropriate and there is not a chance in hell he would have been allowed to say stop) #(many many MANY things about his character immediately make sense with that reading whether the writers thought it through that far or not) #(which i have a Whole Post planned to go into; but this bit was enough of a detour that i felt like it should just be its own post lmao) #also re: scarred for life and ongoing suffering + disability as a result: on a literal level a scar like that would hurt like a *bitch* #especially with the complete lack of medical care it seems to have gotten; going by how it looks. it would be a huge source of chronic pain #on a not-literal level: boy howdy what a metaphor! #anyway yeah i would say this is roughly equivalent to if they'd had ricky finally get free from the snakes after twenty years #had him go into a Scary Evil Villain Spiral after while completely ignoring how horrifying it was or the trauma it'd have caused him #had pericles gloat about having pulled off injecting the snakes; and say he should have lived 'the rest of his miserable life' that way #and not only had no one go 'wtf' at any of that but given him a Redeeming Moment where he incapacitates ricky with venom again #and also tried to frame ricky as deserving the snakes/having done it to himself because he Did Bad Things while looking for the treasure #and also had him abuse someone partly in reaction to them mocking him over the snakes; and saying that being tortured and abused with them #for twenty years makes him unfit to be anything but subordinate. on a watsonian level ricky's standing up for himself against abuse but jfc #don't get me wrong there are definitely still differences in their dynamics but yeah i am not happy about it lmfao

[katierosefun]

y'know, i do think that actors are probably the closest that humans will ever get to a shapeshifter because sometimes i'll go through an actor's filmography and be totally taken aback by the sheer range of roles they've played and how violently dissimilar one role is from the other, so much so to the point that i'll literally forget that they played someone else and oh my god

#caroline talks #this is about me going from watching good omens to masters of sex btw #like i genuinely forgot that michael sheen has also played aziraphale #because even though YES same face and sometimes. in little flashes. the same expression #but also SO different that i literally forgot that wait aziraphale and bill masters is played by the same man. WHAT #i mean. it does also help that like. michael sheen's adopted some kind of american accent #and bill masters as a character is so . . . . #the real william masters leaves an incredibly sour taste in my mouth #but i watched the episode 'fight' and like. i was so. like. okay that was. ActingTM #because the entire episode is michael sheen and lizzy caplan's characters #talking about their sadder moments and it's like. all of that is said with zero music #the faint audio from the boxing match playing on a tv #but largely their voices. just quiet. and the emotions that flicker over their faces #and i was just. like. that was a truly breathtaking performance #where you are LITERALLY hanging onto every single word that the actors are saying #and you are hanging onto every single microexpression that passes across the actors' faces #and for two seconds you forget that they're characters and instead you feel like you're sitting in the hotel room with them #listening to someone you care about deeply (and you don't want to care about them but oh god you do!) spill their darkest secrets #and godddd that's. GGHGHGHUGHGH

[dionysus-complex]

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#also i'm in this weird place with the vision issues and eye strain headaches where the medical anxiety in me is like 'should i go to the er' #because there is a small but non-zero chance that it could indicate a serious neurological concern #but at the same time i don't want to bother er docs if it truly is just 'stop reading pdfs and looking at your phone all the goddamn time' #but it doesn't help that one time i had chest pain and didn't go to the er for several days b/c i was like 'i'm 20 and healthy so i'm fine' #turned out i had a spontaenous pneumothorax that had developed into a tension pneumo and they had to do an emergency chest tube #so since then i'm always like. maybe i should be concerned when concerning symptoms happen #my pcp did make a referral to a neurologist just in case but they can't get me in for almost 2 months if it's not an emergency situation #having a body is exhausting