#wanted to take the bus at 8 but I remembered that the middle schoolers of the entire valley will also be on that bus so I‘m sitting that one

[abba-enthusiast]

Taking the bus in the morning is one of the bravest thing a girl can do

#wanted to take the bus at 8 but I remembered that the middle schoolers of the entire valley will also be on that bus so I‘m sitting that one #out and I‘m taking the next bus #because I am brave. but I am not 50-middle-schoolers-on-a-bus-at-8-in-the-morning-brave 😔 #call me a coward but I value my sanity #(<- me enteribg my ‚today‘s youth yada yadda ya‘ era)

[zoppzoop]

3 and 27:))

Hello ma'am! Ily and imy!!!! I hope you're doing good!!

03: Do you regret anything?

Seriously speaking, not getting studying done sooner because of procrastination. And also not having talked to my parents about architecture sooner. I literally started thinking about it seriously day before yesterday after talking to mom and dad. But ehh i just gotta study hared now.

And non-seriously, not taking the chance and going to the stationery with dad to buy stuff lmao

I went with mom and got just one fineliner pen.

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Tbh yes and twice. Or maybe thrice? Four times??? idk if one of them was a hearbreak or actually just a prank.

Anyways buckle the fuck up we're in for a story time and this is gonna be a stupid ride

Okay, first the 'prank' (now that i think about it it was definitely not a prank). i was in the 7th grade and this one dude from my class came up to me while i was boarding the bus to go home and handed me a piece of paper. And im here confused as to what the f u c k? The dude was kinda like in the competition for the top rank in class (we were very competetive, there were like 5 of us) so i was just confused. I got in the bus and opened the paper. And it had a bunch of stuffs that i dint bother reading because the first thing my eyes landed on was 'will you be the annabeth to my percy?' And (yes i was a huge pjo fan that the time) i got out of the bus and literally yote the paper in the trash (cruel, yes i know. But listen. The dude used to tease me by literally shipping me with another classmate (thats also another story) and GOD that was so fucking ａｎｎｏｙｉｎｇso yes i was angry. And i legit didnt like any of the people in my class. All of them were just,,,, nah. Sobyea next day he asked me 'so?' And i said ',,,so what??' And he's like 'whats your reply?' And i straight up said 'uh i threw the paper' and he just turned around and left.

And then we became enemies-ish and literally fought hand-to-hand once (i was kicking so hand to foot i guess?) But ye that happened. And then a bunch of more stuff happened and by the time my dad was gonna get a promotional transfer to another place half the class became like one big group of friends and we became pretty good friends in the end.

Now lets talk about the dude who i got shipped with. I got teased for a whole year and like we were all pretty good friends right? So i didnt mind it in the beginning but then it got too overwhelming in the middle and it literally made me hate every single one of them. But then it got subdued and we decided we'll maybe date? And we didnt exactly say that out loud but he used to walk me to my bus (okay so the bus system at my old schoom was like a few buses were inside the campus and a few were outside. His was inside and mine out, so he used to walk me there. And then one day he said lets hold hands (and we did it was cute and we held hands and walked to my bus for like 2-3 days but then had to stop bc people started teasing us, we didnt end it on bitter terms btw. He used to have like taekwondo practice int he last period and we usually had english then so while going to the buses i used to give him my notes for the day.)

And like a few days later we realised that sure this is nice but he was gonna move schools soon and i legit wasnt that interested in relationships at the time so we 'ended' whatever that was. And on his last day when he dropped me off to my bus he asked me if i had a phone so we could keep in touch and i didnt have it so i said no and he was like 'hmm okay, bye take care' and left. And then his best friend stayed behind and jokingly said 'ah you broke his heart'

Yea okay two down two to go.

Third dude was in my bus and in my class and the friend group which was made up of half the class and wow i feel bad about everything w/ everyone now lmao

Anyways this was in 8th grade. So we were pretty good friends because we were in the same bus and class for the past 3 years now and considering my dad's profession thats a long time in the same place (its usually just one year) and ye so we were pretty close. Everyone in the bus used to olay team up games like charades and stuff

(ah shit i remember a fifth one in the colony damn i hate this)

Anyways number three, so we used to talk a lot. I'd gotten instagram by this time for art stuff so we talked there a lot. Like we sent each other memes and he got my weird and cursed meme shit and also got into anime and bts a bit to understand what the fuck i was saying. And he used to get teased because middle schoolers and junior highschoolers are stupid kids in those terms so ye there was a lot of teasibg which i tried to instantly shoot down because i didnt want a 7th grade repeat when there were chances of dad getting transfered soon coz i want good memories of the place y'know? So ye that happened. And i found out last year (in 11th grade and after dad got the transfer (i started 10th grade after the transfer) and apparently he got teased because he did actually like me and me shooting all that stuff down was literally just a rejection itself so that happened.

And number 4 was a similar thing but way more stressy because last year some random dude hit me up on Instagram and im here confused as to what the fuck? Ｗｈｏｍｓｔ？ and he says he's a friend of the first dude, second dude and the fourth dude (all of them are in the same coaching institute and 1,2 and 4 were also in my class in the past right. They were 3 of the 5 who were in the competition for top rank) and he legit says he wants to talk to the girl that two of his friends fought over and i'm like sir WHAT the Actual ＦＵＣＫ. because in the begining they were good friends in class right? And they had some unknown falling out and im like bitch literally WHAT the FUCK. So he brings up proof and shut because i didnt believe him and fuck off he also broght in another classmate who knew and im here losing my mind because the actual fuck you motherfuckers. Anyways apparently since i didnt like 4 back, he had his heart broken so eh. It was literally a 4 year old thing which those idiots were fighting over even now like dude the hell???

So ye that happened and a whole gc was made and shit was solved and cleared out blah blah freindship rebuilt yadda yadda bullcrap i got so tired by now that i literally am still kinda ignoring everyone rn. (half the reason why i deleted ig was because its distracting and half bc i wanna ignore them all lmao)

Anyways number 5 was in my colony and also in my bus when he used to go to the same school (he shifted to a boarding school later bc some stuff happened w his dad which is a whole another wild thing) and ooh he was also my neighbor! We used to go and play badminton in the clubhouse (literally all the kids of our age group and older used to go there. And after badminton when it was like 7:30 or 8 we used to just sit around in a circle and play truth or dare or red hands or kabbadi or literally anything we could think of. Fun times ngl.) So ye he was on a trip home on a long weekend i think and we ended up cycling around the colony, just us two hanging out. And we were talking and this one girl who he told me was his crush when he was still in school came up and he then told me that that was actually a codename thing he and his friend created and that was their codename for me and he also said he was over it now and i was just there completely shook because i honestly thought he hated me in the middle somewhere lmao. And he said he was just annoyed because another mutual friend of ours in the colony told him that i had a crush on this other guy like one house away from mine (my best friends house was in the middle lmao) (anyways that mutual frined the traitorous mf i truStEd her (actually i'd already confessed to the dude and got turned down i legit wasnt even that invested so it wasnt a big deal. I just wanted to kinda get done with this crush thing once and for all. He turned me down politely. He's a sweet guy he used to be there i the club after i was done with my coaching stuff around 7:30 and then us two played till like 9. It was nice) so ye he told me about his crush on me which lasted a few months??? and that he was over it and i also told him that i'd gotten the rejection from my crush a loooong time ago and he's like huh cool. and ye we kept cycling and talking ab more random stuff till it was time to head home .

ｗｈｅｗ ANYWAYS THERE WAS A LOT TO UNPACK HERE. Anyways- sjdvskdb thanks for the ask this was a wild ride down memory lane. I didnt even remember half the shit till it came down to it.

#also this just reminds me how i used to be at around the top in my class and the coaching at the old place #but here im just #ehhhhhh below average #i kinda idk.... stopped trying??? #i legit dont know what hapoened to me i ised to be such a good student dude #i miss those smart big brain days. #i even had a ongoing fic with like above 100k readers on wattpad back then #i peaked in 8-9th grade ngl #lish.answers

[wheremytwinwatches]

[Where My Twin Watches]: Puella Magi Madoka Magica Episode 8

*comment shared a comic shipping Sayaka and Kyoko*

What. What is this. Is shipping the Blue-haired Paladin and the Red-Haired Warrior a thing? Because I'm suddenly seeing it as a thing. Seriously that is adorable. Damn it. I'm still holding the "Letting Familiars Go" thing against her, but between her Tragic Backstory and that comic I'm now shipping the two. ...given how short my last ship was I'm suddenly worried.

And we’re back! Watching bloodstained Silhouette-Sayaka hack wildly at the the downed witch while Silhouette-Madoka and Silhouette-Kyoko watch.

Jeebus.

The labyrinth breaks down as Sayaka laughs, staring ahead wide-eyed and muttering about how “It’s easy once you know how to do it. I’m sure I’ll never lose this way.”

Sayaka. Just because you can shut off pain and use magic to heal damage to your body, does not mean that you should!

Back in the real world construction site, Sayaka picks up her first Grief Seed. Well, while I’m not happy with her new fighting style, at least she got

What’s with that creepy head tilt and glance back? Have you been taking lessons from Homura?

Why did you just throw the Grief Seed

Why did you just throw the Grief Seed to Kyoko

Argh. No no no. Sayaka, you know that you only have so much magic, right? That you are not some special Magical Girl that doesn’t need Grief Seeds to recharge? I get that you think that you’re making a point, but you just fought a Witch and used up who knows how much magic, you need to recharge more than the bystander.

So what, you gave Kyoko the Grief Seed so that you wouldn’t be in her debt? Ok fine, that’s a slightly better reason. But still, you’d better find another Grief Seed soon, so you don’t run out of mana when you really need it.

Ok, see?! You just dismissed your outfit and then had to get caught by Madoka! That fight took a lot out of you, you cannot afford to give away Grief Seeds right now! Stop being Lawful Stupid!

“That idiot…” See, Kyoko agrees with me! This is not just someone with a “me first” philosophy scoffing at charity, this is a matter of keeping up your defensive ability!

Intro of Lies

Ep 8: I was Stupid… So Stupid

Later, as it’s raining…

As a mournful cello tells us that “This is a sad moment, u guys!”, Sayaka and Madoka are sitting at a bus stop, Sayaka leaning tiredly against Madoka. Madoka’s trying to tell Sayaka that going all Blood Knight is not a good way of fighting…

“Just because you don’t feel it, it doesn’t mean it’s ok to get hurt.” Yes, exactly!

But Sayaka’s just focused on winning. If she doesn’t fight like that, she can’t win, because she “doesn’t have any natural talent.” Um, you did just start as a MG a little while ago, right? It’s really not that much of a stretch to think you’d be less able than who-knows-how-old-they-are Magical Girls.

Madoka’s still trying to get it through Sayaka’s skull that even if it works, it doesn’t mean that it’s good.

“What’s ‘good for me’?”

Uh oh.

Yup, back to “I’m this shiny gem being held right in front of your face, not the meat puppet you were just talking at.”

Sayaka’s really getting fatalistic, isn’t she? Saying that the only worth she has left in the world is killing Witches. That’s she’s a walking, talking corpse, pretending it’s still alive.

Ok, personal note. Isn’t that what all people are, if we go with the idea that souls exist? Not that I want to make Kyubey sound like he was right, but the body is not the consciousness. Yes, you should take care of your soul-container, but the body itself is not ‘alive’ in that sense. You are not dead, Sayaka, you’re just… offset? Look I’m trying to talk Sayaka out of being Lawful Stupid, give me a break.

There is so much “good that others could do for you now, Sayaka! You can still have friends, you can still enjoy things like good food and music. Heck, there’s my newest ship thanks to that comic you lot posted!

I mean, that solves all your problems right there! Kyoko can teach you to stop being so self-sacrificing and enjoy your life again, you can teach her to care about other people besides herself, and together you act as a more moderate Magical Girl duo like redwulf said. And it even answers your concern about you being so different than Kamijo now, Kyoko’s just like you, an immortal magic user!

It’s not stupid, Sayaka, stop saying that it’s-

Wait.

Ep 8: I Was Stupid… So Stupid

Um, yes! Yes it is very stupid to think about how you could be happy again, Sayaka. Keep thinking that it’s stupid until you’re proven wrong. *fingers crossed*

See, Madoka just wants to make you happy again, Sayaka. So stop making her feel like she’s a bad friend.

“Then you fight them.”

What.

Why are you telling Madoka that Bunny-Cat said that she has Protagonist Powers? Why are you telling her that she could beat Witches easily?

“If you really want to do something for me, you should experience what I’ve experienced first.”

Sayaka, stahp.

“You can’t give up being human just out of a little pity, can you?!”

Ok, that’s just unfair, Sayaka.

“In place of you, who could accomplish anything but won’t-

So don’t talk like you care, when you’ve conveniently overlooked that!”

NO. BAD SAYAKA. TIME OUT FOR YOU, YOU MADE MADOKA CRY.

AND STOP DOING THE CREEPY STARES.

Jerk-Sayaka tells Madoka not to follow her, then runs off into the rain.

Wow. Ok. That was uncalled for, Sayaka. Yes, this situation sucks, but that does not give you grounds to blame Madoka for not getting her own soul torn out!

Madoka’s left standing dumbfounded in the rain, no doubt blaming herself. Argh.

And Jerk-Sayaka runs along- crying?

“I’m so stupid…! Why did I say all that to her?”

Ah, ok. Still a jerk thing to do, but Sayaka realizes that she let her emotions get out of hand. I’m still waiting for her to apologize to Madoka, but I can understand.

Aw, no. Sayaka, you are not beyond saving. Just go back and say you’re sorry for the outburst, I’m sure she’ll forgive you.

Homura? Or a sign that says Homura? Oh, do we get to see Homura’s place now?

Whut.

Well ok. This is appropriately arcane enough for the Mysterious Transfer Student, I suppose. Glaring white walls and floor, candles everywhere, floating scrolls and some huge pendulum…

Seems that Homura’s invited Kyoko over, to go over plans for Walpurgisnact. Oh yeah, the Giant Flying Thing that should drop a Super Grief Seed, I’d almost forgotten about that. Really speaks for the intensity of the “MGs are Lichs” thing that I stopped thingking about it. How much longer until she summons the Super Witch, again?

Kyoko asks how Homura knows where it will appear, the MST says ‘Statistics’.

...what Statistics?

Homura refuses to elaborate. I’m guessing she thinks that Kyoko wouldn’t approve of a plan to actually summon a Super Witch on purpose. Still, Kyoko wants more info. And so does

Kyubey

Ok, good on you for summoning your spear that quick, Kyoko. Go ahead and kick the uninvited guest out. But Bunny-Cat says it came with some important information…

“Sayaka Miki’s deterioration is happening far quicker than I expected.”

Uh oh. So her Soul Gem’s running out of juice faster than usual?

“It isn’t just all the magic she’s using. She, herself, has begun to curse the world.”

Oh crap. I’m remembering Mami’s lesson on Witches, how they are born from Curses.

Are we going to see the Anti-Kyubey soon? I’m actually not sure how much worse they could be than Jerk Bunny-Cat, but whatever actually creates Witches… could it see Sayaka as an opportunity for recruitment?

Going back to my theory that Homura got her powers from Anti-Kyubey (since Kyubey doesn’t know where she got them from), I’m thinking that she made a Ghost-Rider deal and then proceeded to renege on it, just focus on increasing her own power and protecting Muggles who don’t actively get in her way. But if some antagonist could convince Sayaka to be more active against the “selfish Magical Girls”... Oh dear.

(“I was stupid… so stupid… to think that Magical Girls could ever be good. They are only selfish, so I will destroy them all!”)

Kyoko snaps at Bunny-Cat, saying that it’s their fault in the first place. Kyubey ignores that, and says that at this rate Sayaka will be causing them some trouble before Walpurgisnacht arrives.

Kyubey: “So watch out! I don’t want to lose any more Magical Lunch Ladies than I have to.”

Kyoko’s still a bit confused, but Kyubey suggests that she talk to Sayaka about it. And Homura already knows what he’s talking about… although it’s curious where she learned “such interesting things”.

Homura has finally had enough of Kyubey and orders it out. Kyubey just turns around and walks through some shadow out of the room.

Wait, where did it walk out again? That room’s pretty bright, the only darkness is the sides of the seats- oh, wow. Ok, so Kyubey can apparently phase through solid objects or something. No wonder it keeps showing up indoors.

Kyoko asks why Homura’s letting it go, she says that there’s no point in killing it. I’d disagree, but whatever. As for Sayaka…

“Her Soul Gem has become too tainted. If it is not purified soon, there will be no coming back for her.”

So, it’s like a corroded battery? Her Gem’s not got enough full magic-packets in it, so it’s not going to last much longer? And if she want’s to keep fighting after that, she’ll need some new power.

And transition to the classroom. Jeez, in all this drama I almost forgot they’re still middle-schoolers.

Sayaka’s absent again… And Madoka’s blaming herself for not going after her.

Now it’s later in the day and… aw crap.

Hitomi’s deadline has passed. She’s going to confess to Kamijo.

The two are walking by a huge waterfall/dam at sunset, and Kamijo is cluelessly talking about he never realized that Hitomi’s house was that direction. To which she cheerfully admits that she lives in the exact opposite direction. But she went that way today because she has something to tell him.

Madoka is talking to someone, learning that Sayaka’s not home and she hasn’t been there since yesterday… wait, Sayaka has parents?! Or at least a guardian? We haven’t seen anyone, so I was honestly assuming that she was yet another orphan.

Well, Madoka’s not going to give up yet. Off she goes to find her!

Now we’re back at the dam, watching Hitomi and Kamijo talking about something but not hearing their words. As Sayaka watches from the shadows…

Damn it. Damn it damn it damn it. She’s falling, isn’t she. She’s going from Paladin to Blackguard.

Now Sayaka’s stumbling through a dark bubbly background as her theme music is playing

Nope, now she’s screaming as she slashes through a labyrinth. She’s still trying to keep her word, kill Witches…

Sayaka, your Soul Gem is looking kinda dark. Please tell me you’ve got some Grief Seeds to recharge it by now…

Footstep? Sayaka turns around to see Homura walking through the car park towards her. Sayaka is not pleased to see her blank head tilt stare.

“Why can’t you understand? You don’t have the luxury of killing familiars.”

So that wasn’t a Witch? She still doesn’t have any Grief Seeds? Good grief, Sayaka. This is a matter of having the power to fight Witches or running out and being helpless, you need to recharge!

Sayaka rejects Homura’s advice, who only comments about how Sayaka’s Soul Gem must be at its limit and tosses a- Grief Seed! Thank you Homura, that’s just what is ne

Oh for fucks sake, Sayaka! Stop being so goddamn self-sacrificing and take it, don’t just kick it down the ramp! You will run out of magic, be unable to heal yourself from your reckless fighting, and die. Get it through your skull!

Yeah, Homura didn’t like that. Even scrunched up her mouth.

“Don’t be a fool. You’re in no position to be questioning anyone’s help right now. Or do you simply hate being rescued that much?”

Damn, Urobuchi really doesn’t like the self-sacrificing hero type, does he? Sayaka’s had nothing but bad stuff happen since she started, and now the character who’s going to basically summon a demon for more power is sounding pretty reasonable.

Now Sayaka’s saying her Heroic Creed from the after the last episode’s credits, about how she’ll be a different kind of Magical Girl. Good words, but you’ve got to take care of yourself to back them up.

To which Homura can only say “You are going to die.”

“So what if I die.” Aw. Aw Sayaka, no. “It just means I won’t be able to kill witches anymore.”

Ok, fine. If appealing to your own self-preservation isn’t working, how about these two points:

-You are completely neglecting all of the Witches you could kill in the future, all the lives that you would save, in order to go all out against the Witches and Familiars right now. If you really want to save as many Muggles as possible, to go to the extreme of “The Needs of the Many outweigh the Needs of the Few”, then you have to recognize that the lives you save now fighting recklessly cannot possibly measure up to all the lives you will save in the future if you just exercise a modicum of restraint

-If you die, Madoka will cry. Madoka will cry because of your foolishness. Don’t make Madoka cry.

If you define yourself as being “of use” or “not of use”, then recognize that you are loosing effectiveness as a Witch Hunter with this self-destructive behavior. Snap out of it!

So what if you “can’t” defeat Witches right now? You did pretty damn well against the one in the factory that almost killed Madoka and Hitomi, and you’re just starting out! Get some training under your belt and you’ll be a great successor to Mami. But not like this.

Homura can only ask “Why? All I want is to save you.” Aw, so she’s seeing Sayaka as someone to help again, after the whole “Competition for Grief Seeds” thing.

“Why can’t you trust me?” Um. Well, you kinda threatened Madoka’s family and knocked Sayaka out that one time, so…

Sayaka’s so out of it she can’t even come up with a reason that she can’t trust Homura. Other that that somehow, she knows she’s a liar?

“By looking at your eyes, I can tell you’ve given up on everything.” That she’s speaking hollow words, that even now she says she wants to help but it’s not what she’s really thinking. But she won’t fool Sayaka!... yup, Sayaka’s slipping. She needs Madoka-encouragement, stat.

Homura flips her hair and-

“You do realize that you’re just making Madoka suffer more and more?”

Hey, she’s using my second point! Lets see if it works at all.

Nope, Sayaka just says that it has nothing to do with her. Right, after your outburst at her, and the fact that she’s your best friend? Suuure it doesn’t.

“You’re wrong. Everything has to do with her.”

Bwuh? Where did this come from? Are you worried that Sayaka’s brooding will get Madoka to make a Contract, and pose a risk of getting the Super Grief Seed?

Um. Homura just transformed into Magical Girl Mode. Why did she do that?

Um. Homura just admitted that she has no desire at all to save Sayaka. She just doesn’t want Madoka to have to watch Sayaka destroy herself?

Is this Homura’s twisted “Non-Magical Girls are to be protected as best able, other Magical Girls are competition” logic?

“If you refuse my help here, there is no recourse for you but to

Oh no. no no no.

die.”

No no no NO. Sayaka. Transform. Fight back. Run away. DO SOMETHING.

“If you will make Madoka grieve more than she has…”

Running? Is Madoka showing up. Oh crap, Madoka’s going to see Homura kill Sayaka, isn’t she?

“...then I…”

Raised hand.

“...will kill you…”

Bright purple light.

“...here and now. Sayaka Miki.”

Run. Run run RUN!

Homura pulled back? What?

KYOKO!

I am so happy to see you! Character development, yes!

Kyoko the Hero yells at Sayaka to run, who… slowly gets up and shuffles off. Ok, at least she’s moving?

As for you, Homura, what the hell? Get out of that armchair, you can trade seats with Kyoko after that stunt you almost pulled.

Kyoko’s yelling at Homura now, who only says to let go of her. Oh? Oh! If Kyoko’s holding onto the MST, then she can’t use her teleportation!

But she can still do something with her shield?

Oh shit! Grenade! Kyoko quite reasonably leaps back. And that’s all Homura needs to vanish before sudden explosion.

Aw damn, it was just a flash-bang. I mean, still, ouch, but I could have sworn it looked like a classic frag grenade. I must be out of practice with shooters.

And she’s gone. Hopefully Sayaka got far enough away.

Ok good, looks like she got on a train. Although she’s having to listen to two dumbasses who are probably wearing fedoras. Strange art style, everything just black and white…

“You just can’t treat women like rational human beings.” Oh shut up.

Wait, when did Sayaka stand up?

“Hey, tell me more about her.”

Um, Sayaka?

Ok, um. Sayaka, they’re just idiots, there’s no need to go too far…

Listen, these two jerks are scum, they are not part of the world you’ve been protecting. Don’t let them spoil your view of the world.

Sayaka? Sayaka, what is happening? Why are you getting all squiggly?

Aw crap. Her magic’s finally going, isn’t it?

Madoka’s still looking for Sayaka, walking by the river.

Kyubey

. Who just appeared from the shadow of a lamppost. Was it there earlier, or is this confirmation Bunny-Cat can shadow travel?

It asks if Madoka is mad with him too. And instead of saying no, our All-Loving Heroine asks that if she was, if it would turn Sayaka back human. Damn, now you’re on even Madoka’s List, Kyubey.

Kyubey claims that it’s beyond its power to do that. Sure it is, I’m pretty sure it just doesn’t want to give up a Magical Lunch Lady any sooner than it has to.

But

Oh no

Madoka, NO.

Madoka is talking about how Kyubey once told her she could be an incredibly powerful Magical Girl.

No. No no no. Don’t do it, Madoka. We’ll talk her down, hook her up with Kyoko, anything other than that.

Kyubey is going on about how “incomprehensibly powerful” Madoka would be if she unlocked her Protagonist Powers, probably the strongest being in the show. I mean, world.

“If I had made the contract with you…”

Madoka, NO! Sayaka would have made the contract for her own Wish and to help others regardless, do not blame yourself for that!

What’s this? Kyubey doesn’t understand how Madoka’s potential could be so great? It’s on a scale that theoretically shouldn’t even be possible?

(Shades of Tephi’s “That’s not how charts work”)

Will we ever get an answer for this?

“I want someone to come explain it as much as you do.” Ergh. And now I’m torn between finding out and keeping the information away from Bunny-Cat.

So the power that Madoka could unleash could twist reality, or whatever? So her Wish could, I dunno, bring someone back from the dead? (Bring Mami back)

What, you’re saying that Madoka could “even become the god of this world”?

Wait. I’m seeing possibilities here.

If Madoka could really be that powerful, more so than any MG…

I’m picturing a world where Magical Girls are known to exist, where they don’t have to hide their powers. Maybe they could find a way to get Muggles to see Witches and stay away, recognize the threat. The Magical Girl Contract could be understood, and people who can actually give informed consent could make the choice to create Soul Gems and protect the people. (sudden mental image of cops in Magical Girl outfits, ha. Or can only women make the Contract?)

And over it all, Magical Girl Madoka Kaname, leading the growing Magical Girl movement as a team of modern-day superheroines.

Please tell me that’s where this story is going. And not that Urobuchi is going to stop all over my hopes and dreams.

Enough power to do things that Kyubey can’t or won’t do? Like grant Wishes and bring people back? (Bring Mami Back) Even turn Sayaka human again? Kyubey says that it would be child’s play for her (reinforcing my belief that he could turn her back, he just doesn’t want to).

Ergh. This is… if Madoka could really have that power…

Would it be worth trading her soul for? Or at the very least moving it outside her body?

Madoka says that it would. For Sayaka.

Well. Eight episodes into a twelve-episode show. I guess that it’s about time the main character came into her own power.

Madoka will do it. Make her into a mag

WHAT

WHAT

BUNNY-CAT IS SWISS CHEESE

WHAT

Kyubey is dead. Kyubey is dead and Madoka will never be a magical girl and Mami will stay dead and Sayaka will turn evil and

What

Homura?! What the hell?!

You just fucking killed Bunny-Cat! He was a jerk, but Madoka was about to get her powers! You just screwed Sayaka over, for what? Because you don’t want the competition?!

Oh for- this wasn’t about self-sacrifice, you psycho. Madoka was about to unlock enough power to make things better in this show. You of all people should understand that!

Ok, what the hell? I get that you consider Muggles like Madoka innocent, but you’re getting rather illogical about this. For the potential good that she could do, I think that knowingly putting her soul in a rock isn’t that bad.

What. Homura is crying. What. Why is the Vulcan showing emotion.

She’s babbling about how so many people would grieve if Madoka died.

Homura… are you…?

You’ve been trying to protect Madoka from the life of a Magical Girl. At first I saw it as wanting to prevent competition, then trying to guard the innocent little Muggle from the danger. But you were trying to protect Madoka specifically? Why would you do that, when it conflicts with your behavior?

“Have the two of us… met somewhere before…?”

Are we FINALLY going to get a damn explanation for the Vision? Like, Homura saved Madoka from a Labyrinth before and wiped her mind, or whatever?

Homura’s not saying. So Madoka’s leaving to find Sayaka.

...damn it. I almost got some damn answers here, but nope! Urobuchi is trolling me.

Instead of answers, we’re left with a bullet-riddled Kyubey, a crying Homura, and a running Madoka. And I wish I understood how we got here.

Whoa, what?!

“You knew there was no point in doing that.”

Kyubey?! You’re alive?

What the hell is that image, that silhouette balancing on the fence with red eyes.

“I have countless spares, of course, but making me use them up for no reason like this… It’s a waste.”

...what.

So Kyubey’s alive, and

OH GOD is it eating the corpse? Itself? What?

KANAYA: I Suddenly Dont Understand Anything And Am Currently Casting Sincere Doubt On The Laughable Insinuation That I Or Anyone Else Ever Actually Did For Even A Single Moment

Kyubey is a clone or whatever or what?

Homura’s gotten back to her feet and resumed her Mysterious Transfer Student attitude.

“That’s the second time you’ve killed me.”

Really? Was the first offscreen, or did I miss it?

“That was Time Magic, wasn’t it?”

Time Magic?

TIME MAGIC?!

“You’re not from this timeline, are you?”

YOU GUYS

HOMURA IS A TIME TRAVELER

THIS CHANGES EVERYTHING

-She knows Madoka from an alternate timeline that Madoka somehow got a glimpse of

-She’s seen all this happen before, knows where to show up and how to act to prevent things

-She could have gotten her powers from Kyubey, just not this Kyubey

-She’s fighting with the experience of two runs as as Magical Girl

-She’s acting so cold and detached because these are just counterparts of people she knew in her own timeline

-Her special ability isn’t teleporting, it’s pausing time and moving somewhere else before it resumes

That makes sense now! There’s still so much about this show that doesn’t make sense, but at least that does!

But it boils down to the fact that Homura knows what Kyubey was doing the whole time, coercing these girls into transferring their souls and becoming Magical Lunch Ladies.

...yeah, I guess that does sound pretty out there. No wonder she didn’t just outright say what it was up to.

Kyubey is being remarkable chill for recently learning his opponent has time-travel knowledge. I guess it’s pretty confident that it’s already succeeded, and even though Homura stopped him before Madoka could Contract, if it can replace bodies then it’s only a matter of time before it can catch up with Madoka and finish the deal.

But Homura is adamant that she won’t let things to according to Kyubey’s plan.

“Or should I say, ‘Incubator’?”

Incubator? What does…

Oh.

Oh shit.

Kyubey’s been storing the Grief Seeds.

Kybey’s always been around when a Witch shows up.

Son of a bitch. I kept on going on about some sort of Anti-Kyubey, who was creating Witches the same way that Kyubey was creating Magical Girls.

But if Kyubey was ‘incubating’ the Grief Seeds, planting the Grief Seeds…

Kyubey is Anti-Kyubey!

And if it’s been the one planting the Seeds…

Homura didn’t plant the hospital Seed, you did!!!

You son of a bitch! You killed Mami!

What, we’re just leaving it at that?! No way, we are going to get that thing to confess and

Oh wait, it’s Sayaka at a train station. Ok good, we found you. Let’s just get you home and talk this out. We need to discuss Operation ‘Kick Kyubey’s Butt’.

Oh hey, Kyoko found her! Guess Madoka’s still on the way. Kyoko takes a seat next to Sayaka and jokingly asks about how long she’s going to keep acting like Batman. Sayaka apologizes for making Kyoko look for her. Which confuses Kyoko. Where’s the brash Ally of Justice that she’s been fighting?

Sayaka says that she just can’t care about anything anymore, that she can’t remember what she thought was worth protecting… yup, this is classic Falling Paladin. Quick, somebody try to kick a puppy in front of her so she gets all “Justice Will Be Upheld” again.

Kyoko’s just chowing down on some potato chips during all this.

Sayaka’s pulled out her Soul Gem, and geez that is looking pretty freaking dark. How much longer before it’s completely empty and she can’t use magic anymore? Now she’s talking about how hope and despair balance back out to zero, throwing Kyoko’s words back at her. Ouch.

Yes, you saved people, Sayaka! Never forget that! But… then you started feeling resentment and hatred. Um. And hurt your best friend.

“For as much happiness as we wish on one person, we can’t help but curse someone else.” Oh come on, that’s not true! There’s… ok, give me a minute, I’m sure I can think of an example where someone doing good didn’t backfire on them in this show…

Ah! Mami saving the person who fell off the building! That was a good act that didn’t hurt her!

Aw no. Don’t cry Sayaka. Look, I know that things seem bad, but we can get past this. You can…

“I was stupid… so stupid.”

Whoa what the hell?

WHAT THE HELL THERE ARE FLASHING LIGHTS AND KYOKO JUST WENT FLYING

Sayaka. Sayaka your Soul Gem is cracking. I am fairly certain that your Soul Gem should not be cracking something that contains a soul should never break

Your Soul Gem just broke

That

That is a Grief Seed

Your Soul Gem just turned into a Grief Seed

What

What

“Sayaka!”

I… what…

Construction site.

“In this country, half-grown women are called “girls”, right?”

No. No no no no NO NO NO

“In that case, it’s appropriate that you, who will one day grow into Witches, should be called ‘Magical Girls’.”

…

what.

...after credits chibi-ish picture of Mami, Homura, Madoka, Sayaka , and that red-eyed ALWAYS SMIRKING MANIPULATIVE LITTLE-

Homura: “Maybe I’m being a fool, but until I know for sure whether she can or can’t be saved, I don’t want to give up.”

Episode 9: I’d Never Allow That To Happen

#wmtw #where my twin watches #ranubis #pmmm #puella magi madoka magica #pmmm 8

[theashesyoucall]

You started a war????? In first grade????? Huh???????????

alright so here’s what happened: 

in first grade I was a really angry kid, my teacher would constantly get me in trouble for really minute things and made me feel stupid about shit that I didn’t need to know yet, I had two friends and one of which was just genuinely mean to me. so i was constantly finding ways to entertain myself and they weren’t always that great

anyway one morning as i was leaving my house to get on the bus, I see this skeleton key in this junk drawer we had. immediately i was like “oh thats cool ! i want it” so i took it and i spent the whole bus ride trying to figure out what to do with it.

and then i knew. 

there was this spot on the playground where the Big Kids would play kickball and football and other games and shit, and just recently we’d run out of balls so they’d just stand there during recess, doing nothing. 

immediately i had a plan. during recess i took this key to the crowd of bored elementary schoolers and handed it to one. very vaguely, i said “whoever has the key is winning.” because the thing with kids is, you don’t need to be specific. if theres competition, they figure the rules out. they paused for a moment. just a moment. and then everyone trampled the kid i gave the key to. 

in the middle of the almost immediate carnage, little 8 year old me slipped out and climbed to the top of the hill to sit and watch everything unfold. recess was almost over but i knew that wouldn’t matter because when you have kids, the games don’t stop until someone wins. the problem with my game was, nobody won forever. 

after recess the kid with the key pocketed it and was given the DIRTIEST looks by these kids, who menacingly tried to find ways to get into that kid’s pocket and take the key any second they could. 

over the course of the next few months, things got way more intense. kids found out that if you’re on a team then there’s a bigger chance you’ll win for longer. so teams came into play. except since this game never ended, the teams never split. these children grew to HATE everyone that wasnt on their teams, at first it was a soft bitterness, but eventually we grew into the winter months, and winter means ice and ice means weapons. 

eventually it turned into children brawling each other the instant recess happened and stealthily fucking with other kids during class. it was quickly getting out of hand, and 8 year old me was just watching. 

at some point it got so violent there were kids that had broken bones so the school had to hold an assembly banning the “key game” and the leaders of each team were talked to seriously, given a lesson on how to cooperate. 

that was the one thing in first grade i didn’t get in trouble for. because nobody remembered me start it and i was never involved.

#long post #asks #anonymous #im glad someone read the tags #this is an odd story to tel.

[feynavaley]

Tag Game

Rules: Answer 11 questions – Add 11 of your own – Tag 11 people I was tagged by @mandelene, thank you so much!

1) If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?  I would love to visit Canada, I’ve been told by basically everybody that it’s the most beautiful place they’ve ever seen. But, I would need somebody driving me around because the beauty is more in natural landscapes than a single city. If, instead, I were to stay in a single place for as long as I wanted I would love to visit Paris or Saint Petersburg, I can’t choose. (there are actually a lot of other places I haven’t seen and would love to visit... Japan, Ireland, London, Prague, Budapest, Vienna, New York... but the three above would be my priorities.)

2) What’s your favorite type of music to listen to?  I don’t truly have a favourite kind of music, it’s mostly random songs and the genre varies along with my mood. Looking at my playlist, however, I can see that the top places are occupied by Disney soundtracks...

3) What’s your favorite book of all time? Oh wow that’s a hard question... picking only one book is extremely hard. I’ll go with a book that holds a big sentimental value for me, L’ultimo elfo (The Last Elf) written by an Italian writer, Silvana De Mari. I read it when I was a child and I still re-read it every now and then. I’ve read Fantasy books with a far better plot (and writing, too), but that one carries a lot of positive feelings.

4) Mountain or beach? Mountain, I absolutely loathe the beach in summer. It’s way too hot for me. Mountains, instead, give the opportunity to see such gorgeous sceneries... (I’m particularly fond of the Dolomites). I’m talking about rocky mountains though, woods aren’t exactly the best for my asthmatic lungs. And if I can climb instead of hicking it’s even better.

5) What’s one thing about yourself that you really love?  There’s nothing I really love about myself, but it has been brought to my attention lately that I’m quite good at explaining school subjects (I’ve been volunteering in an association that help kids with their homework, and I usually stay with high-schoolers). I guess that this is positive, I mean, at least I’m useful at something.

6) If you could learn another language overnight, which language would you pick? Japanese, probably. It has always fascinated me, and belonging to a completely different family it would be harder to learn by traditional means than other languages I would like to know.

7) If you could give your past self a piece of advice, what would you tell them? Take some time to rest, you’re truly overdoing it. You won’t make it to the end this way. Better slow down a bit now than completely collapsing at one point later when you can’t afford even a day of rest but at that point you’ll need a month at least.

8) What’s something you’ve always wanted to do/learn? Drawing, traditionally and digitally alike. When I was in middle school, my art teacher told me that I had a bit of inclination towards that, but I never had enough time to pursue it properly and my skills never grew from that (basically, now I’ll say that I can’t draw, because what was acceptable for a middle-schooler is ridiculous at my age). I wish I could learn to do it properly, instead.

9) Who would you want to be stranded with on a deserted island? A friend of mine who’s great at practical things and has good survival skills, so she’ll know what to do. Plus, she’d be good company until we’re rescued :)

10) List two pet peeves.

I hate people smoking right outside of buildings, at the bus stop or in other places where I’m forced to inhale their poison. Them smoking while they walk around bothers me as well, because if I’m walking behind them I’ll have to breathe their smoke. (essentially, I’m of the opinion that smoking should be forbidden everywhere aside from some designed area)

I absolutely can’t stand people making noises when they could avoid it. (screaming when they could talk, watching a movie from the laptop without hear-buds when somebody else is in the room, listening to music without ear-buds on the train...)

11) How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?  If I’m taking it easy around 40 minutes, but I can easily bring it down to 15-20 at need. 10 only if I don’t have to put on contacts or wash my bangs.

I’m tagging: @verymemeingfulart, @tyto11, @shinysteph, @sandwich130, @meet-the-mun-spaz, @servuscallidus, @headphonemaiden, @katie-kayta , @scarlet--holmes , @missnimbus , @grace-grace-fox . There’s no obligation of course, only if you feel like doing this! And if anybody else wants to try, feel free to!

My questions:

What’s the last dream you remember?

Which colour would you paint your room if you could choose anything?

Would you rather live in an independent house or a flat?

What are your favourite names? (you can choose any language for this one)

At what age did you get your first mobile phone?

One thing that you would absolutely do if you didn’t have any monetary/time restraint.

Are you afraid of heights?

What is your earliest memory?

How many languages can you speak fluently (or semi-fluently)?

What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever been given?

As a child, what was your favourite game?

#tag chain #about feyna

[restlessmaknae]

Heartbreak Hotel; Young K

Take an aspiring song writer, a rebellious high schooler, a sassy English teacher, a passionate painter and an adventurous tour guide. What’s the same in all of them? They’ve all just had their heart broken.

Heartbreak Hotel is a DAY6 angst one-shot collection with 5 members & 5 songs & 5 stories.

Sungjin | Dowoon | Young K | Wonpil | Jae

III. Young K + Letting Go

Starting with a bit of fluff, then comes the angst and drama. 1751 words long piece with OC & tour guide!Young K. No triggers, just the usual warning for heart-break. ^^

Your broken English was the first that I fell in love with.

“Excuse me! You know… the tour guide… who?” you approached me nervously, your big doe eyes swimming in the sea of curiosity.

I vividly remember what you wore that day; a pair of black ballerinas, a peachy-coloured pencil skirt, an elegant white blouse and a heart-shaped necklace. Your almost golden-like curls were up in a high ponytail, contributing to the effortlessly stylish yet natural look. You were indeed a French lady; one who had her own style and didn’t compare herself to anyone. You definitely stood out from the other tourists, blooming like a lotus in the middle of the lake.

“Good morning!” I greeted you with a cheeky smile, already inwardly chuckling at how you managed to ask this question from the one whom you were looking for. “Actually, I’m the tour guide. My name is Kang Younghyun. Nice to meet you,” I reached my hand out to you but instead of shaking it, you respectfully started bowing. You seemed to adjust to the Korean culture quickly and it made me delighted yet undeniably curious.

“Good-mor-ning! I’m-Fleur-Du-pont!” you emphasised every single syllable and with every single one of them my smile got wider and wider. You were lucky because I was from Canada and I knew quite a bit of French, so I quickly changed the language and helped you out of that horrible English hole. You were prominently thankful, the sigh that you let out was one of the most relieved ones that I’ve ever heard in my life.

Yet, I didn’t hesitate to broach up our awkward first encounter when we got closer and when it didn’t fluster you anymore. Come to think of it… it always flustered you but you just didn’t seem care about the embarrassment that came with the lovely memory.

Your smile was the second that I fell in love with.

I’ve seen lots of different smiles from you during that two-week period while we were travelling around Korea, visiting one city after another.

I’ve seen the nervous one when you got up on the tour bus that transported us from place to place, just to realise that the only remaining seat was next to mine. There was also a German old man who was sleeping while taking up two seats, but you didn’t have the heart to wake him up, so you opted for the one beside me. You fidgeted like a little girl until I told you that you didn’t have to be embarrassed, I wouldn’t bite you. You let out yet another relieved sigh, accompanied by a smile that could bring light to the utter darkness.

I’ve seen the genuine one when we arrived in Jinhae for the annual spring cherry blossom festival and no one could wipe that smile off your face. Your heated cheeks fitted the pink cherry blossoms prominently well and you were just as unique and breath-taking as that mile-long stretch of trees. The sight got me thinking and I had to realise that your name fits you exceptionally well. Fleur - it was the French word for flower and you were literally one of them. Not just their light colour suited you but your bubble and tender personality also reminded me of the cherry blossoms as they were falling from the trees. There was something so reassuring about the sight; as you were twirling around in the rain of flowers, it was a cure for my latest heartbreak.

I’ve seen the childish one when we visited Everland which was the largest amusement park in Korea with not only a theme park but also a zoo area and a waterpark. The group headed out to different directions at first since everyone wanted to visit different attractions. We agreed on meeting at the entrance at 8 PM since it was our only destination for the day because we wanted to give the foreigners the chance to explore the amusement park to its fullest. You started the theme park fun on your own but when I found you pouting at the giant map of Everland and you admitted that you didn’t know where to start, I decided to accompany you. You were literally a scaredy cat but you wouldn’t admit it for the world, so after a thrilling ride on the rolling X-train and on the T-express – the steepest roller coaster in the world with 77 degrees −, you insisted on trying out the double rock spin. Ah, you are such an adventurous girl, really!

Your touch was the third that I fell in love with.

It first happened in the amusement park when we were in the Haunted House and my hand was the one you held onto when a man disguised in a ghost costume jumped out of nowhere. Your scream literally scared the hell out of me but when I realised that it was merely because of the scary-looking staff, my heart went back to its usual state. The only thing that mattered to me was that you were safe and I could be beside you.

Your pronunciation was the fourth that I fell in love with.

The way you formed French words was an art. Not only were you an art yourself but your pronunciation as well. As silly as it sounds, I fell in love with your nasal sounds, the pace of your speaking and the words you used. I didn’t have the opportunity to speak French lately, so you got me back on track and taught me some new expressions and idioms like the coup de foudre. I was the one who asked what it meant and it must have been fate since it was almost like our story. Le coup de foudre – it literally means thunderbolt but it’s also used for love at first sight. Small wonder why your cheeks heated up after hearing my question.

Your enthusiasm was the fifth that I fell in love with.

You were already a Korea-addict when you landed at the Incheon Airport and as slowly as I began to fall in love with you, you began to fall in love with the county more and more, its culture, its people and its food.

You were a fan of Korean dramas, so you couldn’t have been more flabbergasted when you learned that I only watched one or two of them per year. You couldn’t comprehend why I didn’t take advantage of the privilege that I was a Korean citizen and although I admitted that it wasn’t my cup of tea, it wasn’t enough for you. Though for all those nose crunches, lip nibbling and surprised exclamations, it was all worth it.

Just like you wanted to try every attraction at the amusement park, you wanted to try everything while you stayed in Korea. You joined a Korean cooking class while others were drinking soju somewhere down the streets; you took picture with the CUBE Entertainment’s building because your favourite idols were all from there – you even forced me to learn the name of all boys from the rookie group, Pentagon −; you tasted the worst and best foods according to my taste and even though I warned you that soy sauce wasn’t tasty on its own, you didn’t listen to me and ended up in the bathroom. You wore traditional Hanbok and walked all the way from the shop to the stone observatory at Gyeongju’s traditional village, stopping by at a little stand to have bean flour rice cake ice cream for the first time in your life. You even dig up calms from the mud flats at the island of Yeongheundong, went fishing and picked strawberries from the Sunkyung Farm.

Whenever you had a chance, you tried something new, something extraordinary. Little did I know that it was because all you did was listening to your parents’ commands all your life, so it was your first time living for yourself.

Your tears were the sixth that I fell in love with.

After breaking down your barriers, you weren’t afraid to tell me more about yourself. Actually, I found it difficult to understand you sometimes, so we talked in a weird Korean-English-French combination but we always understood each other after all. I learned that you were a heir of a famous French beauty company and considering that it was your parents’ dream, you wanted to live your life a bit before starting working at the company. So you decided to travel around the world and your last stop was Korea.

I didn’t only fall in love with your strength but your mind-set, patience, kindness and open-mindedness. I fell in love with the way you treated others and I fell in love when I saw you playing with kids. I fell in love when you were feeding pigeons, when you were looking for souvenirs for your parents, when you fed me food at a local restaurant, when you ruffled my hair or played with your own loose strands. I fell in love when you laughed as I was tickling you or when I was teasing you with your English.

I fell in love with all your little things but I didn’t mind any of them. Not at all.

Your goodbye kiss was the last that I fell in love with.

Unfortunately, everything comes to an end and that two-week holiday went by so quickly, you were already at the Incheon Airport when I realised that I must let you go. You had a life in France and I had one in Korea. We were two stars who happened to cross each other’s path. You warned me not to fall in love with you because the goodbye would hurt but I couldn’t control my heart. It decided on its own. Yours did, too.

It turned out that you had a fiancé waiting for you in France and you had to go back to him. You wanted to go back to him.

Your goodbye kiss was a quick peck on my cheeks but it still set my heart on fire. You didn’t know, you couldn’t know because I didn’t tell you.

I fell in love with every breath and maybe you did, maybe you didn’t. You didn’t tell me.

No matter what, one thing is for sure; falling in love with you was the best gift I’ve ever had. But I must let you go and letting go is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do.

#day6writersnet #theday6net #angstykpopnet #kkreationsnet #kpopwritingnet #day6 scenario #young k scenario #day6 fic #young k fic #day6 angst #young k angst #day6 drama #young k drama #brian kang fic #brian kang scenario #brian kang angst #brian kang drama #restless_maknae #my story #aff #asianfanfics

[smalltowngirlbigadventures]

Ensemble Memories: Jazz Band

The memories from this ensemble are a bit hazier, but this ensemble is something to be noted because it is the ensemble I was a part of the longest, second only to traditional band in high school. I believe I joined jazz band in 6th grade on piano. I want to say I was a better pianist back then, because these were the days when I also played piano to accompany church masses for a brief stint.

Jazz band met 1-2 times a week before school, from 7:30-8:00. When we were in 6th grade, we had to take a bus from the high school (where rehearsal occurred) back to the middle school in Mantorville. This really dates the time when I was in middle school (not that I’m supremely old), because we were of the last few classes to attend middle school in a separate building. (Side note: this was really cool. We had a building in the neighboring town, seven miles away, which was strictly for 5th and 6th grade. I thought it was especially cool back then because I could walk or bike to school easily, only living a few blocks away. Looking back on this now as an educator, its even cooler. I think its important for the middle-age students to have their own space. Its such a trying time, you’re really trying to figure out  what’s cool and who you are. It was also cool to have my mom work there for the years I was attending. Good to hit up for cash or a hug in the middle of the day ;) )

We did many class, jazz staples in this band. The director for the majority of my time in jazz band, the early years, was a true jazz musician and really enjoyed our band. I remember playing a combination of pop ballads, upbeat classics, and mostly songs I had never heard before. We did How High the Moon, Take Five, Unchained Melody, Sing Sing Sing, In the Mood, and Rock Around the Clock, just to name a few. I recognize now that not only are these jazz staples, but these are pretty difficult rhythms to comprehend as a middle schooler. I can’t remember if we had to audition to be in the jazz band, but I can’t imagine it was a free-for-all, because the younger crew really had to practice our parts.

I vaguely remember once high school was in full swing, that either jazz band had taken a short hiatus, or I was too enthralled in PSEO (post secondary enrollment options, where you can earn college credit for free during high school) to stay involved in jazz band. Once I declared my Music Education major, this jazz ensemble held a lot more weight for me. I was able to understand the key components of jazz pedagogy, and I knew many of the big names in jazz. While this seems kind of obvious, I am very grateful to have been a part of KM Jazz band in high school because it allowed me more flexibility in college. I didn’t feel the need to be a part of the jazz ensembles at MSU-- though I wanted to join at times, the literature was demanding, and on top of Wind Ensemble lit and my solo works, I really didn’t want to take on too much. I believe that jazz band was also important for understanding offbeat rhythms and syncopation. And now this is getting a little technical, but for my non-musicians reading this, basically I attribute the speed at which I was able to find success in music partially to jazz band. 

#music #teacher #reminisce #memoir #arizona #minnesota #STEAM #arts

[hopingfordawn]

Ask thing - 1-150 :*

Now I definitely know that you hate me Alex. :( *sniffles*You keep doing this, just because you know that I’ll do it.Whhhyyyy....

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?Probably my sister about 2 months ago? I can’t remember.2. Are you outgoing or shy?Depends. I am not really shy, but crowds make me extremely anxious. I feel paranoid very often and that prevents me from leaving my apartment. But when I first meet people, they probably think that I am the most outgoing person there is. I don’t know why, I act really happy and outgoing when I meet new people, but that diminishes over the weeks of knowing them. And “the real me” comes out. 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?My mom this New Years. I haven’t seen her in over half a year and I miss her like crazy. I worry about her.4. Are you easy to get along with?Depends who you ask. I would say yes. In a roommate sort of way, my sister probably hates me. Because she likes to bring people over every single day and I like my privacy and she makes so much noise. She get’s annoyed at me when I even suggest that she could possibly visit them instead sometimes. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?There is no one that I currently like romantically. So I can’t answer for that. But my best friend would. (Both of them). One of them already had the misfortune of having to do so. On my first ever time of being drunk (and high at the same time). Also he is smaller than me (at a very tiny 1,60m). I clearly remember him carrying me piggy back style back home. I am very happy to announce, that I do NOT remember throwing up though, that’s a very convenient part of the night to forget.And I will forever be indebted to him, love him with all my heart. He is such a sweetheart. 6. What kind of people are you attracted to?Nice ones. 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?No. I probably won’t be in a relationship 3 years from now, so 2 months? Naw. 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?Rami Malek. (I need help) 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?Not really, but I start giggling like a middle schooler, sooo. 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?Alex/ Eljot from Tumblr :)Who also is that asswipe who wanted me to answer the whole 150 questions. Thank you. (I love you anyway) 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?“What could >WE 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?Fallout Boy - Centuries Sia - I’m In HereMelanie Martinez - Mad HatterHalsey - Hold Me DownImagine Dragons - Believer 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?Never happened but probably not. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?Luck, yes. Miracles? I don’t think so. 15. What good thing happened this summer?Summer is just started for me here, so no update on this. 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Hell to the no. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets?It is mathematically impossible for this NOT to be the case. So, yes, I believe in life on other planets. 18. Do you still talk to your first crush?No, he is dead. 19. Do you like bubble baths?Who doesn’t? Give me one person who is honest when they say, they don’t like bubble bath’s. 20. Do you like your neighbors?Nohohohoooo. I have this one neighbor that complained about the way that my sister and I were putting up the curtains. Or that we should stop using the bathroom at night because it kept her from sleeping, we were apparently too loud. 21. What are you bad habits?- When I feel bad or just not up for human interaction I shut myself off from society and ignore messages, calls etc. - I can’t seem to keep down anything I eat. I always end up puking my guts out. 9 years of therapy and I still can’t lose this shit.- When I say I am going to sleep, I actually mean I am going to lie down and read fanfics for the next 3 hours and then go to sleep.- I procrastinate like a professional.- I can’t seem to finish any project that I start. The Jack Frost Staff I made when I was 16 still needs to be painted. That one corset still needs to be redone in the right fabrics. All the fanfics I started and never continued...- more more more more 22. Where would you like to travel?Russia, Japan, China, Iceland, Australia, The Caribbeans, Egypt, Korea, EVERYWHERE 23. Do you have trust issues?Yes. OH Yes. The Problem is, I trust too easy at the beginning, and then I start to mistrust my own judgement and therefore also the person I put my trust in. Because it is impossible for someone to actually want to be faithful to me, right? 24. Favorite part of your daily routine?When I lie back down on my bed and start reading fanfics in a sort of “going to sleep ritual”. 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?Everything. Really, I often feel like I am stuck in the wrong body. This is my prison. 26. What do you do when you wake up?Roll over, stretch and hope that it is weekend so that I can just stay right there. 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?Lighter. I guess this is something that stuck with me from my hardcore gothic phase when I was a teenager. I wanted to have white, white skin for the black of my clothes to pop out more, you know? I have this asian undertone in my skin, slightly yellow, and I am slightly darker (latina). and it bugged me as a teenager so badly. I was such an idiot. 28. Who are you most comfortable around?My best friends. Who are sadly not here. One (the guy from the drunk story) is in Chile. And the other in Germany. 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?I don’t really have ex’s. So I wouldn’t know. But when I was 15, there was this 1 guy that after 3 hours told me I was the love of his life and we kissed and it was horrible and I told him it wouldn’t work out. He made such a scene. I mean he ran away and threatened to jump off a bridge, for a girl that he knew less than a day...And I was so worried at first, but after 2 hours of running after him and searching and finding him on the bridge, I honestly was just mad and said outright that from this point on I didn’t care if he jumped. If he wanted to ruin his life for a girl he didn’t know at all, for an illusion, then be my guest, I am done running after him. Of course he didn’t. Years later I learned, that he still mourned me “leaving him” and wasn’t over me still. Ugh. 30. Do you ever want to get married?Couldn’t answer this yet. Probably? But I don’t want kids, so that might be a problem. 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?To my waist and I need to cut it. I want it really short. I can’t stand the long hair on myself. I only wear it in a bun anyway. 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?I don’t see MYSELF in any sexual situation. In every sexual fantasy I have I am always someone else. Sad but true. 33. Spell your name with your chin.sxiusdsdiu 34. Do you play sports? What sports?No. I used to play Baseball and Volleyball. But at the moment nothing. 35. Would you rather live without TV or music?Without TV. That’s what you have the internet for anyway. 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?My best friend? But I might have kind of indirectly told her? I mean I asked her if she would date me if I was a guy (she is sooo straight). She said no. I cried on the bus on my way home. 37. What do you say during awkward silences?Nothing. I am comfortable with silence. 38. Describe your dream girl/guy?Is also my best friend. When it happens, it happens, I don’t have a heist plan for this. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?Media Markt. Gamestop. Amazon. 40. What do you want to do after high school?I am currently studying 3D Animation and after this I would like to do my Masters in the US, and AFTER that my biggest dream would be to work for one of the great Firms: Disney, Dreamworks, Pixar, you get it. 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?Normally yes, but there are ALWAYS exceptions to that rule. I don’t give a child molester a second chance. I just want to burn them alive. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?The person you tried to reach is currently unavailable, please try again later or leave a message after the beep. BEEP. 43. Do you smile at strangers?Sometimes. Sometimes they scare me shitless and I try to avoid eye contact as much as possible, and walk passed them as fast as possible. 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?Outer space. Chance to see new worlds!

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?Sometimes I just cant get up. But when I do, I just think about what I want to accomplish, about what that day might bring for me. What I might miss if I don’t. 46. What are you paranoid about?When people look at me and I think they see a monster. Do I have something on my face? I don’t see anything irregular in the mirror, but they look at me strangely. Can they read my mind? Do they see right through me? Do they see how bad a person I am? Are they judging me? Can they hear me? 47. Have you ever been high?Yes. 48. Have you ever been drunk?Yes... 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?In the end it is always about, what I don’t want my family to find out. They think I am completely fine now, but actually I lost this whole week of classes because I was too scared to get out of the apartment. Paranoia and social anxiety made it impossible for me to make a step outside without getting the “fight or flight” sensation, and I am a “flight” person. When I had I had to pay the bills I had a staring contest with the creeper from the other end of the room, and when I was back home I realized hat I was the creeper and not him. Yeah. And my family believes that I have my eating disorder under control. Nope, it’s getting worse. Again. 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?Black. 51. Ever wished you were someone else?Every single second of my life. 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?My Gender for example. 53. Favourite makeup brand?Maybeline New York. 54. Favourite store?Didn’t we already have this question? Amazon.com 55. Favourite blog?You all are cuties, how can you put me in such a position? 56. Favourite colour?Purple, Blue, Blood Red, Green, Black (although it is not a colour) 57. Favourite food? I like almost anything... Lasagna maybe? 58. Last thing you ate?A sweet bread bun. 59. First thing you ate this morning?Haven’t eaten anything yet. Does the milk in my coffee count? Or the pills? 60. Ever won a competition? For what?Writing competition in High School. Wasn’t the first place but I won a prize? 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?Passing notes in middle school. Send home for 2 days. I was scared shitless to tell my mom. 62. Been arrested? For what?No. 63. Ever been in love? 2 times. First time he ended up dying. Second time she ended up not returning my affections. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?I was on a weekend leave from the psychiatric ward at the time (for trying to commit suicide) and my first love had basically just died and I felt unlovable and worthless and yeah well. This guy at the birthday party of my cousin fell in “love with me” after 3 hours. He kissed me. It sucked. I told him it wouldn’t work out.  The whole story is above. 65. Are you hungry right now?No. 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?I don’t have real friends where I live, so in that way, yes. More than my best friends, no? But I love my tumblr friends differently, in some ways more, yes. Because I am able to express myself more openly and talk about things I wouldn’t be able to talk to with my best friends who I know would be uncomfortable with it and would start treating me differently. 67. Facebook or Twitter?None. 68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr 69. Are you watching tv right now?No 70. Names of your bestfriends? Nicolas and Lisa. 71. Craving something? What?A hug. Cuddling while watching a TV show and talking at the TV screen together. 72. What colour are your towels?All have a different colour and variety. 72. How many pillows do you sleep with?2 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?Oh yes. 2 huge bears, one in each arm, and a small Bunny I had since I was born. 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?No idea. 75. Favourite animal?I love all animals equally. But at the moment I think Owls are especially neat, as are polar foxes. 76. What colour is your underwear?Not wearing any right now, still in my pajamas. 77. Chocolate or Vanilla?Chocolate. 78. Favourite ice cream flavour?Chocolate with chocolate chunks an caramel sauce. 79. What colour shirt are you wearing?Grey 80. What colour pants?Dark blue 81. Favourite tv show?Mr. Robot 82. Favourite movie?I couldn’t say, sorry. But I really like Spider-man Homecoming. 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?The first one of course. 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?I haven’t seen 21 Jump Street so I have to go with the former. 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?The Ditzy Girl with the Weather Prophecy Boobs. 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?Dory 87. First person you talked to today?No one 88. Last person you talked to today?No one, but it is only Noon 89. Name a person you hate?I don’t hate, I mean pure hate, I dislike. I strongly dislike my father and how he is acting, I very strongly dislike the new girlfriend he has who I believe is manipulating him while he is still married and making the life of my mother hell. And if this strong dislike can be counted as hate, then yes, I hate my father and this woman. But I also will always love my father at the same time. 90. Name a person you love?My mother. 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?My father. 92. In a fight with someone?Not that I am aware of. 93. How many sweatpants do you have?Only 1. I have to buy clothes but I don’t want to go shopping alone. 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?3. I repeat myself. I do the laundry very often. 95. Last movie you watched?Spider-Man: Homecoming. It was a blast. 96. Favourite actress?Jennifer Lawrence. 97. Favourite actor?Rami Malek 98. Do you tan a lot?I tan very easily but try to avoid it as much as possible. 99. Have any pets?2 very ungrateful but lovely cats. 100. How are you feeling?I don’t know. 101. Do you type fast?I think so. But I am not sure. 102. Do you regret anything from your past?Too much. But I guess everyone regrets something. 103. Can you spell well?I think so? I sure hope so! 104. Do you miss anyone from your past?My first love. My grandmother who was also my second mother. I called her mom, she raised me since I was born. She was probably more my mother, than my actual mother and that pains me to say. 105. Ever been to a bonfire party?No 106. Ever broken someone’s heart?Whoo, story from above 107. Have you ever been on a horse?Sadly, no 108. What should you be doing?I should be drawing a Story board, working on my 3D Model of the Iron Man Suit and clean the apartment. 109. Is something irritating you right now?My allergy. 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?Yes. 111. Do you have trust issues?This question already existed. 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?My Ethics Class Professor who is also a Psychologist. 113. What was your childhood nickname?I only had mean nicknames. Like Sissi-pissy 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?Yes. I was born in Germany (Baden Württemberg), I have been to Spain, France, Switzerland, The Czech Republic, Austria, Chile, Peru. I have had the chance to travel a bit in my life. 115. Do you play the Wii?I have played about 3 times on a Wii console. 116. Are you listening to music right now?No. I am concentrating. 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?Who doesn’t? 118. Do you like Chinese food?Again. Who doesn’t? 119. Favourite book?I love the Harry Potter Book Series. Still waiting for my letter to arrive. It just got lost, I know it. 120. Are you afraid of the dark?Not necessarily. I am afraid of what might be hiding in it. 121. Are you mean?I don’t think so. But I guess I can be mean sometimes, like everybody. But I try my best to be nice. Everyone deserve to be treated nicely. 122. Is cheating ever okay?No. NEVER. If someone were to cheat on me I would end the relationship. Because I wouldn’t trust them anymore, and a relationship doesn’t work without trust. And obviously I didn’t mean enough to them to be faithful to me. 123. Can you keep white shoes clean?No. 124. Do you believe in love at first sight?No. Attraction at first sight, yes. But love is more than just looks. 125. Do you believe in true love?I don’t know. It’s a nice thought. 126. Are you currently bored?Not at this moment, no. 127. What makes you happy?Hanging out with good friends and just being stupid together. 128. Would you change your name?Yes. If I could change my gender and body I would totally change my name. 129. What your zodiac sign?Gemini. 130. Do you like subway?I don’t dislike it, but I don’t go out of my way to eat there. I can get a sandwich everywhere? 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?I don’t return the sentiment I will let them know that I am flattered and that they mean a lot to me, but that I sadly do not return this type of emotions. That them telling me this did not change the way I think of them, but I would understand if they need some space for a while. 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?Alex, Eljot. From Tumblr. Didn’t we have this question already? 133. Favourite lyrics right now?Clipped wings, I was a broken thingHad a voice, had a voice but I could not singYou would wind me downI struggled on the groundSo lost, the line had been crossedHad a voice, had a voice but I could not talkYou held me downI struggle to fly now- Sia - Bird Set Free 134. Can you count to one million?I could, but do I want to? No 135. Dumbest lie you ever told?“It wasn’t me!” - While holding the evidence right in my tiny little hands (5 year old self) 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?Closed. Open Doors make me really uncomfortable. 137. How tall are you?1,64 m 138. Curly or Straight hair?Curly 139. Brunette or Blonde?Brunette 140. Summer or Winter?Winter 141. Night or Day?Night 142. Favourite month?December 143. Are you a vegetarian?No. But I was once a vegetarian for a year. 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?Dark 145. Tea or Coffee?Coffee 146. Was today a good day?The day just began! 147. Mars or Snickers?Snickers 148. What’s your favourite quote?“And if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into you.” - Friedrich Nietzsche 149. Do you believe in ghosts?Yes 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? (via catscuddlingandyou)    DerechoProcesal Penal 1“Quienes intervienen en la audience deben expresar a viva voz sus pensamientos.” - El Principio de Oralidad            

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How to study when you have ZERO Motivation

Happy Monday.... I am hardcore driving the struggle bus today. It's that point in the semester... the end is so near you can taste it and yet a few weeks of hellacious studying and exams stand between you and freedom. It's the time when procrastination is at an all time high, all you want to do is be outside in the sunshine and spending any more hours in a classroom than required sounds like torture. But, as much as it sucks, it is time to buckle down and study your little heart out and get the grades you want. Here are my tips for finding the motivation to study when it is the last thing I want to do.

1. Remove Distractions

The best way for me to do this is to 1) put my phone in another room, 2) let it die or 3) make my husband play keep away with it and not let me have it. As soon as I am no longer looking at it, hearing it vibrate, etc, it is much easier to put my mind to the task at hand and ignore the temptation that is my iPhone.

2. Schedule

I do best when I have my time organized and allotted. This means to-do lists and study schedules are my lifeline when my motivation wanes. This way, completely just one thing and crossing it off the list or studying for the full 30 allotted minutes, makes me feel like I have accomplished something and that makes me more motivated to keep going. It also keeps me from just puttering around knowing I have 101 things to do but unable to decide on what to start. I just consult my list or schedule and get going.

3. Change Up Locations

I may be the only one but I just cannot sit in the same place for hours and hours and remain motivated. Even if I just stay in my house, I move around- start at my desk, move to the couch, spend an hour on the porch and finish at the kitchen table. Changing my location and getting set back up seems to "reset" my mind and make me motivated to get back to work. Other options for study locations that are not your house is the school library, coffee shops, Panera or other quiet deli's, a local park on a nice day or public libraries. It is easy to get bored and stagnant when you are in the same place for too long so change it up and see if that helps you get back on track.

4. Pomodoro

I am obsessed with the Pomodoro study method. It makes me SO much more productive. Basically, you can download an app on your phone or use this website to track your time- 25 minutes of intensive studying followed by 5 minutes of relaxing. This cycle repeats several times and then you get a 30-minute break. I find that this regimen helps to keep me focused for the 25 minutes because I know if I just wait for the bell, I can have 5 guilt free minutes of Instagram or Pinterest. This helps me to avoid the write one sentence, take a 10-minute facebook break scenario that I can fall into without using Pomodoro. It is also scientifically proven that the brain is most active in 25 minute increments and that is the best time for intensive studying for optimum retention.

5. Balance/Rewards

If you just study all the time with no balance and never reward yourself, you will run out of motivation very quickly. It may sound good in theory but in the application, it sucks. I try to balance my time between study and relaxation to stay motivated and happy. I make little deals with myself- If I finish the essay by 5pm, I will stop and get a donut on the way home or if I have all my outlines updated by Sunday at 8, I will chill and watch my favorite show for the night. Also, I take a study break and cook dinner almost every night while watching reruns of The Office. It is a perfect mental break and I get in some laughs while doing something I enjoy. I try to make some time to spend with my husband each night and when I start to get really burnt out; I stop studying and do something to try to bring the balance back. Studying 24/7 may get you good grades but it will not help your mental wellbeing and you may end up miserable and less productive. Balance is key!

6. Peer Pressure

I know that's, not the best label but hear me out: I like to study in groups because being surrounded by academic studying makes me more apt to get on board and get my own stuff done. Also, the middle schooler in me doesn't want to be the person that people are thinking about like "wow she is being really lazy" or "she should really be studying". Even though it is all in my head and most people could care less what I am spending my time doing, putting myself in a group study environment helps to keep me accountable and on task... no matter how ridiculous my reasoning may be, it works for me.

7. Make it Fun

If you can put some fun into your study routine, it will make it a bit easier. I personally use colored pens and pretty materials because it makes it more fun to me. I also make ridiculous acronyms and sayings to remember stuff. Whatever little things you can do to stay smiling and maybe laugh a bit while studying will make it all that easier to stay motivated.

8. Be comfortable but not too comfortable

I like to dress comfy when I study but I try to not get so comfy that I am ready to just take a nap. This is why I avoid studying in bed or in my pajamas. I try to dress reasonably nice (leggings and a cute shirt and flip flops usually) and do my hair and makeup because then I feel put together and that helps me to be motivated. Also, make sure the environment isn't too comfy so you can't take a nap or want to just sit there scrolling through social media. There is a happy medium between comfort and laziness so find where that line is for you.

9. Environment

I have discussed bits and pieces but here is what I look for in a study environment: natural light, warm tones, a touch on the cool side and some soft noise. I need good light to see well, a warm toned environment makes me happy, when it's too warm I get sleepy and I can't study in pure silence. I love studying in coffee shops or libraries. If I don't like the noise around me, I turn on pandora with movie scores; it is uplifting and calming and the lack of lyrics keeps me from being distracted. Whatever environment makes you feel best and motivated is where you should do the bulk of your studying.

It can be SO hard to find motivation as the semester winds down but you just have to. Just grind through it and do what you have to do. Eventually, summer will arrive and be blissfully free of schoolwork for a few months. I hope this helps you find some motivation!

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[lucykate651]

Job Things That Happen

Edit: 6/29/17

I got a job at a camp/hotel resort place? Hard to describe... Not as nice as a resort, but better than a normal camp. We clean up after you all and stuff-- like a normal hotel. But, you are surrounded by nature and active stuff, like squirrels and lakes and all that good stuff.  If all that makes sense, cool.

The job is Guest services/House Keeping.

This post will get longer and longer as I update and clean up any mistakes or add to some stories. It will also involve some gross subjects and clean ups.

I’m gonna tell you some interesting things that have happened since I started to when Summer ends. BUT FIRST ground rules that I wanna let people know. So I can rant about some boundaries about this job.

What makes me frustrated(*) and what makes me relieved(~) and what might/does happen(-).

* PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON’T TRY TO DO THE PEE RING AROUND THE TOILET. THAT SHTICK IS NASTY *ahem*

Now that that’s out of the way. More serious notes.

-If you leave stuff behind from your stay and don’t claim or put in a notice. Usually, someone will take it. Like me. I got a smiley star eraser, a full bag of apples, slightly bent slinky, and some other goodies. Others kept fidget spinners, money, and checker pieces, and Pokemon/Yu-Gi-Oh cards. So be wary. We might keep them.

~The people who leave us tips I solute you and thank you.

~People who makes their beds or clean up their rooms and keep it tidy.

*Clogged toilets and try flushing it to the point it over flows

* Why is it okay to leave underwear/bras/used tampons/condoms/etc etc everywhere? Especially when it obstructs our clean up

-Basic code words we use are over-turn, which is cleaning the whole room top to bottom. Servicing which is making the bed, taking out trash, restocking soap and toilet paper, and cleaning toilets. As well as a couple other words that I don’t remember.

~People who don’t leave hair everywhere

~People who don’t walk in the middle of the road in a long strip and move when we come down

~Common courtesy like “please” and “thank you”.

-We got through the trash can if we feel like there is something sketchy looking

Some interesting things I’ve taken note of, have done, have seen, or have heard stories of.

-First day on the job I see a squirrel carrying a regular biscuit up a tree. (Like Pillsbury sized). A few days later another/or same carrying a slice of bread up a tree

-I scared ducks and geese away just by staring at them

- Saw some person drive their car to the dumpster, but they put their trash on their windshield????

-Discovered they served breakfast

-Today on June 22nd a lot of my co-workers saw me with my first sugar high. Let’s say it was magical. Sugar high made me do some dumb shiz, like stick my leg out a moving van... And getting a bruise by putting my leg on the ground and it zoomed back into the door. (This van has the sliding doors)

-Have an interesting boss to say the least.

-Hair was cut more than 12 inches and it took 7 hours for someone to actually notice it was cut

-Made friends with caterpillar and a bee. Named the caterpillar Fuzzle and the bee Buzz Buzz or Buzz Lightyear. I’ll post pictures of them in a future update.

-We use golf carts as our main transportation. So a co-worker and I have had out golf carts “stolen” about 8 times in 2 weeks. And someone took my water bottle along with it. I was salty. My “I HATE RUNNING” water bottle is my life.

- My first major war with the overturning of the whole place happened a week ago (June 17th) and within the first hour of work we got 7 clogged toilets. (Doesn’t count the dozen and a half clogs from earlier in the week)

- The week of the 17th also had the yearly Horizon event with middle schoolers. Dang... It was super gross the whole time. Also found 2 rooms with some form of tobacco products in them. 

-Shoutout to that one/two high schooler(s) who brought and switched out for their own lamp here! Night design I must say. 

- All this junk food... And why we provide you food in the mess hall?

-Shoutout to that other room who had junk food sorted in rows from different brands! You got a lot of Grips...

-To that one kid who shouted out “GOOD MYTHICAL MORNING”  To a co-worker and I at 2 PM. I might not have responded but I know that reference. 

-Found out that a co-worker had my brother as a teacher. And they didn’t realize it since we aren’t blood related. So understandable they didn’t know.

-Most of the people I work with are taller than me. All the people around my age working there are taller. 

-The week for that one camp of high schoolers... Why are almost all of you taller than me?? Stop proving that I’m short!

-I can jump higher than some of the tallest co-workers...?

-Chair heck has befallen me before... *shudders* 400+ chairs in neat rows

-I forgot Shadow (my cat) clawed me the night before and when I went to sanitize my hands for work my hands stung for a good few minutes

- I’ve resorted to doodling crappy doodles on the white-board in the staff room.*might post pictures*

-One of my bosses have two REALLY FLUFFY and REALLY BIG cats. One is named Diesel (black fluff cat)

- 6/24 was war with the filth, high school edition!! The gym was bad... So REC staff had to help. Not so bad of toilets, but stinky shoe smell and humidity worse than outside made it really bad to clean the rooms. There was a lot of junk food to be expected and seemed like a lot of the girls had a bad week.

- 6/24 Was also the day that a few kids would come, but the bus broke down. But they were sure as heck lucky they didn’t break down on the highway! They broke down right before they had to be dropped off the bus. Like... 500 feet away? So good on them. Then I made a running of a bull reference since these kids were all running down a giant hill to the gym... Didn’t know that many kids could fit on a charter bus?

- Made a new friend. Named the little moth Marzipan. Marzipan has so far stay with me the longest... Also it wouldn’t get off my finger when I wanted it to. But it had a Mohawk, so it is forgiven. Marzipan will be missed... 

!-Been catching fish and I found and named a fish, a stick, and turtle. Fish is Jeramiah, Stick is Jefferey, and turtle is Sammy. Caught Sammy with my bare hands, Stick likes to poke people and has a naturally pointed tip, and Jeramiah was found on the edge of the lake’s shore almost dead. Jeramiah was still breathing but on their said. I tried feeding them worms, but they could barely swim. I relocated him to the nearby stream where they’ll have fresh water in a constant stream. Hopefully they’ll live. RIP Jeramiah if I can’t find them tomorrow. 

!- I caught a fish and named her Heath (like the heath bar you can buy). Only problem with Heath is when I fished her out she was too big for my hand and the hook was in a bad place. So I had to see help from the nearby REC people, one had a pocket knife to help slit a bigger tear to safely get the hook out, without having to tear off the jaw. I put the worm in her mouth so she has food for being a trooper and not dying on us. 

**All that’ll be added for now**

#lucykate651 #Life of me #Work #Gross stuff #This work is not for the feint off hearts. It's gross and can ruin your nose

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Patience is 🔑: 5 Reasons YOU WON’T get Better.

Major 🔑 Alert.  They don’t want us to have a bigger pool than Kanye. They don’t want us to have another anthem… so we went and got another anthem! Apologies - my inner DJ Khlaed came out… As a coach I have a hard time comprehending athletes who think that becoming the next Rich Froning or Mattie Rogers is somehow going to happen overnight. Go follow them on Instagram (@mattiecakesssss / @richfroning). You will see Mattie squat 300#+ for so many reps YOU will start crying because YOU feel the pain of her legs - or Rich doing more workouts in a day than me and 3 of my closest friends have done in a month. It’s insane - but they do it so effortlessly. I could care less if your goal is to be the fittest person in the world or the fittest mom you can be - there are some things that stay consistent. Before Mattie squatted a barbell with more weight than a loaded bus full of slightly overweight middle schoolers, she probably understood how to squat with just her body weight. Before Rich Froning learned to climb a rope to win the 2010 CrossFit Games… Oh wait… (CrossFit joke). You get the point - these things didn’t happen overnight, it took an enormous amount of disipline and consistency doing the right things day in and day out. Whatever your personal goal is, there are things that can keep you from growing as an athlete... Here are FIVE things that I believe will keep YOU from getting better:

1. “Yeah, but I RX’d?” Workout Stimulus -  This is the most common issue I see while coaching new and “experienced” athletes - and I stress it immensely. Each workout programmed has a specific reason and stimulus (or at least it should - if the programming has no true goal for athlete progression this is another issue in itself) that it is looking to achieve. For example let’s take the workout “Fran” (21-15-9 Thruster/Pull-ups). The quickest time I have found on the webs was posted by Henry Sailes in 1:48 - dumb fast - but the workout has an ideal time between 2:00 - 4:00 minutes. If you can’t move 95/65lbs (prescribed load for “Fran”) and Pull-ups are not happening, it is the job of you and your coach to find the appropriate scale to get you into that ideal time frame. Scale the load, scale the movements, and DO NOT be afraid to scale the reps in a way that allow you to move efficiently and safely through the workout. So maybe your “Fran” looked like: 21-15-9 Thrusters with the barbell / and Ring Rows 

Now, of course “Fran” is a benchmark workout and if you do it for the first time as prescribed in 6:37, that is completely okay! There are of course times and places where you should just see where you are at - but if you are doing this for EVERY workout that you are doing in the class, how can you expect your body to adapt correctly?

2. “That was ugly...” Weights over Technique - Yes... yes it was. Please don’t ever do that again.  But really this is how I feel sometimes. Crushing PR’s is awesome, but looking good while doing it is awesomER. And more importantly - looking good doing it usually means the PR’s will come more often. Pride yourself in moving better than anyone else in the gym. Going back to the Mattie Rogers thing - learn to do an air squat before you worry about squatting “all the plates”. Take the PVC pipe warm up seriously, and don’t feel obligated to make every day a “PR” day. I know this sounds crazy, but maybe on max clean and jerk day you just stay at 60-70% and learn to move better...  Yes, this might take some time - but everything worth while does.  3. “What am I doing wrong, why can’t I get this Muscle-up?” High Level Skills before Base Level Skills/Strength -  Probably because you can’t do a ring dip, or support yourself on-top of the rings. This example is a bit extreme, but it is so unbelievably common. Each movement has a specific movement pattern or “pre-requisite” that you need to have before attempting. Since we touched on the Muscle-up and since this is such a fancy movement I will just stay with this one. 

If you can’t support yourself on top of the rings, you have ZERO business attempting one. If you can’t do a ring dip for reps, you have ZERO business attempting one. If you can’t do strict pull-ups for reps, you have ZERO business attempting one. This isn’t being rude, this is just doing what is the best for you as an athlete to keep you safe and to keep you motivated. If you want a muscle-up work on perfecting the things that will get you there - gain the basic strength needs, learn the hollow/bow body positions, etc.  Each movement is like this - HSPU shouldn’t be attempted until you feel comfortable upside down - be comfortable doing overhead squats before you start trying to catch a snatch down there... etc. General Fitness is meant to be sustainable, it SHOULD take time to progress and improve. 

4. “These Overhead Squats are not going to feel good on my shoulder, it’s been bothering me.” Ego over Health -  I know that is what the workout says... but the workout isn’t more important than your health. This has been huge, recently more than ever, and we need to understand this: If you are doing workouts for overall general fitness - YOU SHOULD NOT BE INJURED FROM WORKING OUT. Sorry, had to get that one off my chest. Of course there are weird freak accidents that can happen (falling on a box jump, randomly tweaking muscle doing something, etc.), that is just part of life, I could walk to my mailbox right now, step off the sidewalk wrong and twist my ankle.  In the gym if something is bothering you - you don’t have the skill set developed - or you lack the mobility for a particular movement: DO SOMETHING ELSE. Example, for a lot of new athletes the front rack position is very uncomfortable and places a lot of stress on the wrists if you are not yet able to get the elbows up into a proper position that allows the bar to sit on the “rack” your shoulders have created. So if the workout calls for Front Squats - it is OKAY to back squat OR get this, just do air squats...  If the workout has pull-ups but your hands are hurting from toes to bar the other day... change the movement...  The workout is not a law - it is a outline of the ideal stimulus that is wanted to be created. If you are needing a movement changed because your shoulder is bugging you - ask your coach to help you in finding something that will give you a similar effect while taking all stress off the area you are nursing - and use your extra time to mobilize and gain the ability to achieve full range of motion in specific positions.  (This is even  true with the CrossFit Games Open. I know the open has rules and guidelines - but it is okay to scale the movements if you are doing it for fun. I know you paid $20... but that is substantially cheaper than rotator cuff surgery. Live to fight another day.) 

5. “I am following Comp Train - What is Rich doing - Brute - MisFit.” Overtraining -  Oh okay, do you also have the NormaTec Leg Recovery System, Compex, use the “cupping” technique, eat 6 meals a day, and get 8-10 hours of sleep? Oh, you don’t... okay maybe that is a little too much fitness for you... In all seriousness these are all great programs, that can definitely develop you into a better athlete. The issue with most of the programs is that they are created for high level athletes - high level athletes that train, recover, rest, and refuel like high level athletes. All of the programs have multiple parts usually consisting of some strength portion - devastating metcons (plural) - and an extremely high skill practice piece. To complete the entire daily program that includes a warm up / cool down you are looking at 2-4 hours daily. Another issue comes with the intensity that each portion is meant to have - just doing the work is not enough. Of course I could do 20 workouts a day slowly, but to get any better (going back to point one) you need to perform each workout with the upmost intensity you can. For most athletes this is just unnecessary. More is not better, better is better. For overall general fitness, you can get more than enough doing the daily WOD.

Remember this is just fitness, for most of you this is not your job. The goal should be to make you a healthier human. All of the five points have one thing in common - Patience - so I leave you with a quote from the King of Patience himself, 

“Patience is a talent.”  – DJ Khaled And with any good talent it takes practice.  Peace!

#CrossFit #fitness #gymlife

[evenstevensranked]

#48: Season 2, Episode 8 - “Head Games”

Twitty becomes the star pitcher of LJH’s baseball team! He’s loving it until Louis starts to put pressure on him to win all the time. Elsewhere, Ren tries to sit next to Bobby Deaver on the bus come hell or high water.

But, I’m pretty sure the one thing everyone remembers from this episode is:

(^ I cannot find the source of that gif for the life of me. So, if it’s yours... I’m sorry. Tell me and I’ll credit you!)

This one opens at the baseball field! Kinda refreshing. And guess who the announcer is?! It’s ARTIE RYAN!!! Played by Jerry Messing from Freaks and Geeks. This marks his first appearance in my countdown! He’s basically this overweight and sort of apathetic character, who dishes out some hilariously dry humor. He’s unfortunately only in five episodes over the course of the series. Then again, maybe that’s a good thing. It’s never fun when a character actor is overused and subsequently goes stale... (*cough* Beans *cough*) 

What a guy!

LJH isn’t doing too hot with the current pitcher they have out on the mound. Louis is there with a radar gun, checking the pitcher’s speed and hanging around Coach Tugnut. When Tugnut asks where he got the radar gun Louis says: “Got it at a police auction. I would’ve got the jaws of life, it just didn’t fit on my bike.” He also rags on the pitcher saying “My grandma can throw a ball of yarn faster.” Idk why, but I kind of like these lines. They’re clearly pre-written and therefore feel a little cheesy as opposed to some gems we get from Shia improvising. But, there aren’t many other stand-out lines in this one. So, they’ll have to suffice. This pitcher really is doing a crap job though, so they switch him out for Twitty. Something that stands out to me is that Twitty is chilling in the dugout prior to this reading some giant book? Like? Is that supposed to be a joke? It just seems out of character. He should be sitting there — not paying attention, listening to music on his headphones and playing air-guitar or something. Not reading freaking War and Peace.

So... I looked closely. That is a fictional book called “The Brains of Men and Women.” What the heck.

Twitty gets up to pitch for the first time that season and rox everyone’s sox off. (Yeah, I said that.) His stellar performance helps lead LJH to a victory! Artie initially introduced him by saying “Alan throws right, bats left, and lives around the corner from Del’s Pizzeria” which is fantastic. Fun fact: Just because I’m weird, I decided to look up Del’s Pizzeria… and it’s a real family owned and operated restaurant that opened in 1973! AND it’s actually in California! Granted, it’s 4 hours outside of Sacramento… so, if we’re thinking within the shows universe - that’d be a bit of a commute every day for a middle schooler lol. BUT STILL!!! I bet one of the writers or someone involved actually lived around there. Little things like that make me happy.  

Ren and Bobby talk in the hallway and it’s extremely awkward. Ren brings up Canada and how their system of government is similar to America’s. I can’t. To be fair, they haven’t become “official” yet. That actually happens in the following episode! But, I honestly think Ren and Bobby are so uncomfortable to watch sometimes because they simply don’t belong togetherrrrr! (I think I’ve made it clear who I prefer for her.) Well.. that, and they’re in Junior High. Everything about middle school relationships is awkward and I gotta admit again that the Ren/Bobby stuff portrays that pretty accurately. Ruby tells Ren to not say a word the next time they talk and let Bobby take control. Kinda awful advice and gives me Poor Unfortunate Souls vibes… but ok. It works, though! Bobby invites Ren to sit next to him on the bus for their upcoming field trip. Something that bothered me: Ren’s so excited about the invitation that she moves a guy away from his locker to scream into it. The only issue is that it’s HER LOCKER. There’s a crapton of other lockers the extra could’ve used!!

Her locker seen in Season 1. 

The “random guy’s” locker she screamed into. 

Twitty’s super happy about pitching so well. He’s the new star player! Tawny asks “Twitty, how does it feel to be the new sports hero? I mean, not that I’m into sports or anything. I actually find it to be a waste of the human spirit.” I relate to that so much, tbh. But, yeah. It’s all fine and dandy until Louis starts telling Twitty that everything’s different now. That the entire school is counting on him to win all of their games. And here we get one of the most iconic lines of the whole series. Louis explains, “You’re the closer, the man! THE BIG POPPA WITH THE BIG MOPPA!!!!!” (the first gif.) I was so unsure of where to rank this episode, solely because of how memorable this line is. But, one great line doesn’t exactly save this episode from being a little flat otherwise. I had my mom watch it with me today for an outside opinion and she was like “Dang, this one is boring.” Sooo. Yeah.

Anyway, Louis really gets inside Twitty’s head and he starts freaking out during their next game. He’s sweating like a pig and can’t think straight. We see Twitty imagine Louis’ face on the baseball he’s holding, repeating the Big Poppa line. It’s honestly so hilarious seeing Shia’s face on a baseball like that I really cannot handle it. It’s something else that made me want to rank this higher.

Twitty took drugs before this game, right? 

Twitty pitches terribly and throws the ball pretty much everywhere but over the plate. He hits the peanut guy and Artie yells, “Oh! Right in the peanuts! That’s gotta hurt.” — A little cringy. But, Artie said it.. so, it’s ok. He also exclaims “Holy cow! Someone get me a hard hat!” when one of Twitty’s awful pitches knocks over the announcement speakers. I love it. LJH loses 29 to 2. Twitty blames Louis. After this, he starts choking at everyday things! Like pouring milk and putting on deodorant. Tawny and Louis go over to Twitty’s and try to snap him out of it. This is the one time ever in all 65 episodes that we get to see Twitty’s room! It’s on-point with his character, too. Kinda stoner-y, sporty, music-y, but also messy like a slightly neater version of Louis’ room. I like that they actually put thought into how it should look. When Tawny and Louis walk in, Twitty is lying on his bed all depressed. Louis tries to motivate him by screaming and clapping “Ya gotta get up! You got a game this afternoon. UP AND AT ‘EM! Up, up, up! Come on! Let’s get UP!” As if that’s gonna help someone who’s depressed. I love Shia so much.

The two try to help Twitty by giving him jellybeans when he thinks positively about pitching, and forcing him to smell Louis’ dirty socks when he has negative thoughts. At one point Tawny refers to the mound as “that stupid hill thingy.” I relate to her so much this episode. Their plan doesn’t work, so they call in Donnie for help. I really like Donnie. They bring him to Twitty’s room blindfolded and when they take it off he asks “…..where’s the surprise party?!” He’s so innocently dumb. It’s great. Once they fill him in on the situation, he recommends that Twitty relaxes at Big Al’s Spa — a place that once helped relieve him of sport-related stress.

Twitty’s room! (Guitars and surfboards not pictured, lol.)

There’s a 5 second bit I always liked where Louis grabs and eats a jellybean from Tawny and she just gives him this side eye. They’re so cute.

Nelson once again starts screwing things up for Ren. He sits next to her on the bus because according to his mother (and his hypochondria) that seat is the safest and he wants to live. He refuses to move. Wow. But, Ruby ain’t having it. She rearranges the ENTIRE BUS SEAT SCHEDULE in an elaborate plan just to ensure that Ren and Bobby sit together. 

What an inconvenience. 

The first time, something goes wrong and Ruby ends up next to Ren. This pisses me off. WHY COULDN’T SHE JUST SWITCH SEATS WITH BOBBY AFTER THAT?! It’s a very obvious and simple solution. But, no.. they just sit there looking at each other across the bus like “ugh, this is so difficult!1! This is like an impossible algebra problem… how will we ever solve it?! We’re worlds apart! :(“ 

So, instead of switching with Bobby.. She makes the entire bus swap seats again. Oh my god. This time Nelson ends up next to Ren, and Ruby ends up next to Bobby! SHE COULD EASILY JUST SWITCH SEATS WITH REN THIS TIME! But, they just helplessly stare at each other again. Seriously, how difficult is this?! Why couldn’t Ruby get it correct?! 

Thankfully, Nelson actually does something right and gets the brilliant idea to switch seats with Bobby! Wow! Genius! You could’ve done that the first time and saved everyone all the trouble. Jesus. So, yeah. Bobby and Ren get to sit together and they both admit that they get nervous around each other. Which is kind of cute I guess. Then Bobby says he “feels like a little kid again” because he used to get carsick when he was young. He proceeds to throw up into a backpack, lol. This guy is seriously not ~all that.~ Idk what Ren sees in him. He is literally so strange. Classically good looking, maybe. But there’s something off about his character. That’s the end of the subplot.

Twitty, Louis, Tawny and Donnie roll up to Big Al’s Spa and discover that it’s run down now and literally just a mud pit. You’re supposed to relax in the mud as if it’s a hot tub. No, thanks. Twitty really does not want to bathe in dirt either. But Louis says “Twitty, Donnie drove 50 miles… I’m spending $15… YOU’RE GETTIN’ IN THE STINKIN’ MUD!” I just love Shia’s shouty voice. Twitty gets in and they leave him there for an hour. He ends up taking a nap and wakes up super relaxed and refreshed… unfortunately, the mud hardened and he’s stuck.

I love Tawny’s outfit. I would wear that, honestly. I live in my Docs. Tawny is just me today. 

When Louis, Tawny and Donnie come back for him.. Twitty freaks out. He starts screaming “I’m trapped! I’m gonna be trapped here forever! And then I’m never gonna get to see my grandchildren!” Uh, Twitty… I’d be worried about not having your own kids first. It’s pretty funny, though. Twitty takes his anger and frustration out at Louis and yells “I swear to Bob, when I get out of here I’m gonna beat you up for a week!” …Excuse me? “I swear to Bob?!” Who is Bob??? Bob Marley? Bob the Builder? Bob Saget?!?! I mean really, “SWEAR TO BOB”?!?!?! Clearly, I’m assuming Disney can’t say “swear to god.” But, wow. They should’ve had him say something else in that case, because “swear to Bob” just sounds stupid.

Obviously, they’re able to dig Twitty out! As soon as he’s free, he starts throwing mud balls at Louis who hides behind a barrel that just so happens to have a target on it. Without noticing, Twitty hits the bullseye every time. In order to focus that anger during games, they put a picture of Louis inside the Catcher’s glove, haha. Hey, it works though! And according to Artie Ryan, “The Twitty-meister is back.”

It ends with Coach Tugnut relaxing at Big Al’s Spa, per Louis’ recommendation… Except he’s stuck in the hardened mud with no one to dig him out. Oops.

The end!

Like I said last week.. Season 2 is just kinda there. Episodes like this and the other Season 2 episodes that I’ve ranked already are examples of what I mean. There’s just a strange amount of slower, more forgettable episodes imo. Although “The big poppa with the big moppa” definitely helps this one stand out in people’s memories, I think. This one is also a Twitty plot basically! Which is kinda cool! But, ya know.. The show is called Even Stevens and he’s not a Stevens. So the episode as a whole feels a little off because of that. And Ren’s subplot is okay here. I definitely relate to wanting to sit next to your crush on the bus. Again, a very realistic Junior High situation. But, I swear to Bob… (whoever he is) the unnecessary seat rearranging gets on my last nerve!!!

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[[ T H E  B A S I C S ]]

Name: Kinsley Rose Ross Age & Date of Birth: 20 -- June 23 Gender: Cis Female, She/Her Astrological sign: Cancer Place of Birth: Helena, Montana Parents: Richard and Rachel Ross Job: N/A

[[ A P P E A R A N C E ]]

Height: 5′2 Build: Slim Skin tone: Tanned Eye color: Crystal Blue  Hair color: Caramel Body modifications: Ear Piercing, Rib Tattoo, Forearm Tattoo Scars & how they got them:

Probably the most predominate scarring on her is from when she was shot and tortured by a gang of men. She was shot in both of her calves and sliced between her breasts on the bone and a few slashes going down her back. 

Typical style of dress:

On a typical day Kinsley can be seen sporting a high ponytail, in a braid, or down, and minimal make up (that she makes last well past the expiration date). In the summer, she wears boots, shorts or jeans, and a tshirt, and in the winter she normally just throws on a jacket or two, a scarf, hat and gloves. Hiking boots are her typical shoe choice, but she also wears sneakers.

[[ B O D Y  L A N G U A G E  & P H Y S I C A L I T Y ]]

How does your character walk: Average, Long Strides, Soft Steps What does your character’s voice sound like: Sweet as Honey, Flowy, Thick and Slightly Seductive Do they have any tics or unique mannerisms: Playing with her hair, rolling her eyes, double blinks, pulls her hair into a pony tail and then lets it back down, touches her neck when nervous How do they smell: Tries her best to smell as florally as she can. What’s their posture like: Tired Are they able-bodied, or differently abled. Describe: Able Bodied, but due to her muscle damage sometimes she walks with a limp.

[[ P S Y C H O L O G Y ]]

Is your character neurotypical or neuroatypical. Describe: Pretty neurotypical. She’s lonely and depressed, though.

How do they respond to stress: She tenses up and becomes defensive. 

What makes them anxious or uncomfortable: Being around someone and not speaking to them, being watched, Men.

What makes them happiest: Attention

Are they an introvert or an extrovert: Extroverted Introvert

Do they find it easy to make friends, why/why not: No -- she assumes everyone is going to leave her eventually so she has a hard time getting close to people.

Do they have any triggers: She doesn’t like to talk about it.

What is their worst fear: Being Shot and Abandoned Churches

Do they sleep well, or have trouble sleeping: She’s usually out pretty quickly but frequently wakes up during the night.

Are they most active during the day or at night: She stays up late and wakes up early, sometimes she takes cat naps during the day. Unfortunately, she’s not on a very good sleep schedule.

How intelligent are they: Average-Above Average in survival, but Below Average-Average in intelligence.

Do they lie often, and how good at lying are they: She lies when she needs to.

[[ R E L A T I O N S H I P S ]]

What’s their sexuality: Homosexual / Homoromantic Are they currently in a romantic relationship: Nope. Are they currently in a sexual relationship: No. How important is romantic love to them: Incredibly How important is sex to them: Incredibly How important is friendship to them: Incredibly How important is family to them:  What kind of people do they get along best with: Easy Going What kind of people can’t they stand: Abrasive and Rude What attracts them most: Compliments! What is a huge turn off: Meekness. Are they close with their family, why/why not: No, she assumes their dead, but she still wasn’t close before that. She resented her mother. What’s their most significant relationship: She doesn’t have one.

[[ H I S T O R Y ]]

What’s the worst thing your character has ever done: To her, she doesn’t think she’s ever done anything bad, but her instinct tells her that it was abandoning her half sister even though she knew that she would die on her own.

What’s their happiest memory: Her happiest memory was when she went to Disney world with her family -- including her biological father and her big brother. It was while her dad was trying to work through things with her mom and they visited Magic Kingdom for two days, Animal Kingdom, Epcot and Universal Studios! She was only 8, but she still says that week was the best week of her life.

What’s the most traumatic thing that’s ever happened to them: When she was tortured... it gives her a lot of anxiety when she sees a group of men.

Describe a childhood memory that is important to your character: In Kindergarten, Kinsley’s mom made her join girl scouts against her will. Her dad took her every other-week, and instead of going every week he took her bowling, or to the movies, or to the gym so they could spend some quality time together

Describe a memory involving their family: Her dad leaving and taking her brother with him. She was ten, and it broke her heart. Her mom couldn’t get her to go to school and could barely get her to eat. All she could do was cry, she wanted to go with her dad, and even told the judge that. But she was still given to her mother instead. That day broke her heart.

Describe a memory involving school: She skipped school a lot in middle school. She’d met some high schoolers in her neighborhood and they came over to the middle school for an event. They sneaked Kinsley out of the school with them and they all skipped the bus and went to Dave and Busters.

Describe a memory involving an animal: Her brother got a golden lab for his birthday one year! Granted yes, it was his birthday present, but she remembered holding the puppy the whole way home from the pet store. Kinsley, as a small child, thought the dog was for her even though she was giving to to her brother for his birthday. The child strolled through the hall of glass windows, eyeing over each and every puppy before she finally landed on Sadie.

Describe a memory involving a friendship: Kinsley never had many friends, but when she was little, there was one girl at the camp site they frequently visited as a family that every summer she took a liking to. Once, six year old Kinsley got carried away with packing and brought her entire dress up wardrobe. One day after swimming, the girls put dress up gowns on themselves, their dogs, and anyone else they could find and proceeded to put of a “Parade of Princesses.” There’s pictures.

Describe a memory involving a romantic relationship: She was sixteen, the only relationship she’d ever been in has been this one. Her Dylann was her soul, her light, her life... they were together for about six months before they became romantic. They lived in a tree house and Kinsley had gone out on a mission while Dylann stayed home. Tuesday and Thursday were here day, where as Monday and Friday were the others, Wednesday and Saturday they went out together, they worked together like clockwork. But, this time, when Kinsley came back, Dylann acted by placing a strong kiss on her lips instead of the normal hug. Instead of pushing it away, she embraced it.. and Dylann knew exactly what she was doing.

Describe the first time they experienced loss: The first time she felt true loss was when she found out that her mother loved another man. There wasn’t anything she could’ve done to change the outcome, but suddenly she felt so low. As a child she remembered her family being happy and being together -- now that was broken. Her father was crying, her mother was mad at her Dad, her brother was angry at her mom... it was a big chaos of emotions. Eight year old Kinsley wasn’t quite sure what she felt besides all of those things rolled up into one. While everyone screamed she sat on the couch in utter silence. That day she lost respect and love for her mother.

Describe the first time they got jealous: It was over a bike. She was five and her brother was ten and he was getting a new bike for his birthday and she wanted one, too. But, her birthday wasn’t for a few more months. He got a big, shiny, black and silver two-wheeler. Granted yes, last year for her birthday she’d gotten her first set of training wheels but she wanted a big girl bike. It was the first time her parents had really told her no and stuck to it, but watching him ride it around beside her dirty set of training wheels struck the brunette with envy every time.

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[hillariekoenig15]

Just Some Last Minute Adventures!

Well a lot has happened since my last blog with many trips with great company! The time is flying by! Let me tell you all I’ve been up to since my last blog in May!

On May 20th, the girls and I decided to head to Fuji-Q Highland, a popular amusement park in Yamanashi! We had a lot of fun! We 1st did this new rollercoaster that strapped you in 3 ways. It was a crazy ride that we waited 2 hours to get on. I did not enjoy it all that much. Lol It whipped my head around a lot. Then we went on something similar to the Space Shot. Now that I liked! :) Then we had lunch. I had a Fujiyama pizza that looked like Mt. Fuji. Lol Then we went on the FujiYama roller coaster. This ride wasn’t as bad. I enjoyed it. Then Ashley and Madi rode the final rollercoaster that I opted out of because it seemed to have too many turns for my liking. And I think I made a good choice because when they came out they both looked like they were a little nauseous and in shock. Lol Then the park was about to close so Ashley and I decided to go on a ride similar to the log ride. LOVE WATER RIDES. It was funny though because the ride provided rain ponchos for $1 so that you wouldn’t get as wet… Where’s the fun in that?! So Ashley and I were the only one’s to not wear ponchos and we got drenched! It was great. Lol

Afterwards, Giseli had invited us to The Vault and we couldn’t pass that up so we went for a while. We had a fun filled day! :D

The next day, March 21st, we had plans to hike Shosenkyo with Natsuko! The hike was fun! I rode my bike to Natsuko’s then we picked up Madi and Ashley. We parked and walked the trail up to the waterfall. Such a beautiful sight! Then we took the ropeway to the top and hiked a little farther while Ashley rested. Probably one of my favorite places so far! Absolutely beautiful scenery! Then we went back down, had a quick snack, then left for home.

On May 27th, we headed to Tokyo for the weekend and had a very busy day planned. We first took a 2 hour train to Hakone to visit the Open Air Museum. That was pretty neat. I think we would’ve been able to enjoy it better if we weren't on a timetable but still cool! We left around 1:30pm to head back to Tokyo.

We got to Odaiba around 4:30pm. There were so many people! We got a spot along the beach and just hung out until the show started at 7:30pm.

The show was amazing! You didn’t know where to look! There were dancing entertainers, people on Flyboards, and then fireworks all at the same time! We were also given these bracelets that lit up to the songs that were playing! It was so cool!

Afterwards, we left to go get ready for our bar’s anniversary party. So. Much. Fun. At one point, I was talking with Tabatha and I said something in Japanese and these group of guys then kind of looked at me like “What?” And so I started talking to them forgetting I was still on the phone with Tabatha. Lol I eventually remember and quickly was like “Sorry. Sayounara!” I guess one of the guys thought I was talking to him and looked so sad. I had to explain that I was on the phone and was saying goodbye to my cousin. Lol We then decided to go to a Karaoke bar! It was a lot of fun!

Since Madi had her family in town Ashley and I decided to hang out! On June 3rd, we got together for some lunch, watched a movie, and then headed out to the The Vault. Madi had decided to take her family there too! So we got to all hang out for a little bit. It was a fun night!

On Sunday, June 4th, I got ready for the Welcoming Ceremony for the Des Moines students and teachers.

It was nice. I got to meet with two of my Japanese students who are hosting some of the American students…

Afterwards both Kazumi and Natsuko were like let’s have a party! Lol So I went home to change and then met Ashley at our Cafe downtown. Kazumi said to be there around 4pm so Ashley and I just waited at the Cafe until about that time but we should’ve came sooner because everyone was taking naps when we arrived and we definitely could have used the nap! Lol Kazumi did let us take a little power nap which was nice. Then we ate and talked and it was fun!

Then we went to Natsuko’s and played games with Joe and Ke. Those boys are adorable!

On June 6th, after school, we went to dinner with Greg and the other teachers. I think we overwhelmed our Indian restaurant owner… Lol Oops. It was nice though. We then went to The Vault for drinks but I quickly left for Hot Yoga. Boy was that an experience… lol

On June 9th, I went to go meet Hannah in Yokohama. When we both got to Yokohama Station it took us forever to find each other! But we did and we had dinner and made it to the bus station on time to head to Hiroshima!

On June 10th, we arrived in Hiroshima around 9am. We first stopped at the A-Dome and then slowly made our way toward the Airbnb to drop off our luggage.

Then we went and had lunch and went shopping down a famous shopping street in Hiroshima.

Then we went into the museum. It has changed so much just since Madi and I were there in March! Looks nice. I’m excited to someday see the final product.

On June 11th, we got up early and had breakfast and made our way to Miyajima. We got there about 10:30am. It was a very gloomy day so I decided the ropeway wasn’t worth it.

So we took your typical pictures at the floating shrine, did some shopping, and toured the island a little.

Then we left to go back to our Airbnb and grab our luggage and to catch our bus back to Tokyo. This bus was much nicer. Not as nice as the one Madi and I went on but still nice.

We landed in Shinjuku around 8:30am, Monday, June 12th. We stopped and got some breakfast and then went to Harajuku to drop off our luggage at a storage locker. Then we went shopping and walked around. I also took her to Shibuya station where the famous scramble crosswalk is. All around I think we had a good weekend!

I had to get back to Kofu since I had to work the next day.

Finally, Hannah arrived, Wednesday night after volleyball! That was another fun experience trying to find her. She had taken a taxi but the taxi driver didn’t understand where I lived and so I told him Kokubo Onsen and still couldn’t figure it out! But I found them so it all worked out. LOL

The next day, Thursday, June 15th, we decided to head to Kawaguchiko Lake to tour around there and to go to 5th Station on Mt. Fuji.  The weather in Kofu said 85 but in Kawaguchiko it said 75 so I said to bring a jacket. Thank gosh because by the time we got up the mountain it had dropped to 45 degrees and we were not dressed for that weather. Lol I had to buy a long sleeve shirt. Also, it was super cloudy so we couldn’t even see Mt. Fuji. :(

I hope she had fun. We also took a rope way up a different mountain but you still couldn’t see Fuji.

On Friday, June 16th, Hannah left for the Airport. I had to go to work as it was sports day and a beautiful day for it too! 90 degrees!

So I went to Midorigaoka to watch my kiddos play!

I started off watching softball. Minami is so good! Then I went to watch Track for a bit. Then Madi went to watch her softball girls while I stayed and mingled with my kids and watched Tennis.

Then we went to Denny’s for lunch and headed back for one last event that I didn’t want to miss. Shot put. :) And I’m so glad I didn’t! Now, I’m not completely sure what happened or how far he threw (Kinari) but he either beat a school record or he made a personal record. Either way I’m glad I got to see it. :)

Then I went to Haneda to pick up Tab!

On Saturday, June 17th, we went and got the baseball tickets from the Voyagins office. Then we made our way to Yokohama Stadium.

It was pretty hot but not terrible. The worst part was fitting my huge American size self into a Japanese sized chair… Lol very squished. But the game was fun! Yokohama won!

Tab and I ended the night at my favorite bar and it was so much fun!

Friday, June 23rd, Tab and I headed off to Kyoto! So we made it to all of our trains on time and were in Kyoto by 2:15pm!

We went to Kinkaku-ji Temple first as we had time before our hotel check-in.

Then we went and got checked into our hotel. We were very confused as to where the lobby was located because it was connected to a huge mall and what we later learned was the entrance to the lobby we thought was the entrance to a restaurant. Lol

We then just relaxed for a while and then headed out to an area called Pontocho We found a place along the river. It was super expensive for small portions but the view was really cool!

We decided to go to a bar that we saw from across the river. It was actually pretty fun! We thought for a while that it was like an old man’s club lol but we were welcomed and really enjoyed ourselves. Lol They even performed for us it was so cool. :)

On Saturday, June 24th, we went to Arashiyama which was really fun. We saw monkeys, cats, owls, and then headed to Nara to the deer park. :) It was a fun animal filled day.

The next day, June 25th, we got up and headed out to Kiyomizu-dera only to learn that it is under construction for the next year or so. So that was a bummer. While there though some middle schooler’s were on a school trip and came up to Tab and I and asked us questions in English for an assignment. :) 

Then we went to Osaka to see the famous Aquarium located there. The aquarium was pretty neat although it was very crowded but still cool!

Then we got on a pirate looking boat and took a 45 minute tour around the bay.

Then we decided to just head back to Kyoto for dinner and our last night out. It was fun! Met a girl who had done an exchange program in High School to Iowa! Her and her friends all speak English! I think it was a well spent last night in Kyoto.

I took Tab to my Japanese class on Wednesday, June 27th, and it was a lot of fun! During class she gave some of her home-made plum wine. We all first took it like a shot because it was just a little and then Natsuko was like “This is for sipping not for taking shots”. Lol It was very funny.

On Wednesday, June 28th, I took Tab after school to Minami where my teacher and principal waited for us to give us a tour and to mingle a little bit. It was cool. I think Tab enjoyed seeing where I work and how different the schools are here compared to America.

Well that’s all for now! Tomorrow I get ready for my last day at Nansei, Tab leave to go back to the States on Sunday, and Monday I start my last month at Minami and in Japan. Should be a whirlwind of emotions and adventures!

Only 30 more days until I am back in the States!!!

School Stories:

-So all teachers have to get physicals but in Japan the doctors come to you. It was quite interesting! They had stations set up with eye check ups, blood tests, height/weight, heart monitoring, etc. It was very odd for me having all that be done at the school. Lol Afterwards I learned that we will get a “report card” with a grade and everything about our health. Bring on the “F”! Lol

-Then in one  of my 2nd grade classes one of my kids was helping another student spell “SEAT” but spelled it “SHIT” Lol I had to correct him and inform him that the other word was bad… hopefully he doesn’t use it. Lol