#we just do what we can itll be ok

[mystrothedefender]

You're in her dms I'm gentle parenting her at work we are not the same

#so interesting when grown adults can't deal with a little bit of stress at work #i gotta be like its ok its not the end of the world #we just do what we can itll be ok #your doing great sweetie

[tangledinink]

I can imagine the first cycle after moving. Probably Leo because Donnie likely has internal scarring, so leo goes through the process of laying his eggs, panics, his brother can't help, and finally, *finally* they ask for help. It's not willingly. It's not for fun. It's purely necessity. It's purely because there's *literally noone else* and the idea of telling anyone at all is so scary that the way they do so is in a note. Splinter sits them down and basically walks them through "You're safe, you're fine. We can handle this however you feel most comfortable, including getting you both on blockers if you prefer" and they just.... sigh. For the first time, there's *someone else* in their circle, and it's willing and it's warm, and it's *safe*. There will be tears.

Yes, except I'm not convinced that either of them could stand to tell anyone. Even if it was literally life or death (which it has been before,) I'm not sure if either of them could bear to give up that information. Donnie is finally, finally away from the people who hurt him when he got found out last time, and even though logically, he knows that it's different here, he's absolutely petrified of the thought that the same thing will happen again and it won't be over anymore. He's still horrified by the idea of anyone else knowing about Leo when he's gone to such lengths for so long to protect him, and Leo is likewise terrified in the same way. They've spent years with this being their more closely guarded secret, and that's going to be really difficult to give up.

But it's really not a secret they'll be able to keep for long.

They're in a completely different environment, with far less space and privacy. They're both stressed as hell and Donnie WAS on birth control and taking all sorts of vitamins and supplements to make sure he didn't eggbind again and now he's suddenly not and it's not only messing with his body, it's fucking scary. It literally keeps them both up at night. Neither of them know how to wash blood out of clothes or sheets. There's no private en suite bathroom they can sequester themselves away in. They're both literally making themselves sick with anxiety trying to deal with this, and they're used to handling this on their own, this is routine for them, but they're not used to all of this.

They'd probably metaphorically limp through a few cycles before their family puts it together and gently confronts them.

Venus probably figures it out first. She's pretty smart, and incredibly observant, and after all-- she quite literally experiences the exact same thing. April may not lay eggs, but I think she'd be able to get the idea after a bit as well. And while I think Splinter would realize something was wrong pretty quickly, Draxum would probably realize what was wrong first. Splinter has April, so he has a little bit of experience in this realm, but Draxum has Venus and so he has far more experience.

And so when they do sit them down and talk with them, it's going to be really scary at first. And then they get to, "you're safe, you're fine, we can handle this however you feel the most comfortable. It will be okay. No one will hurt you."

And then there's finally other people in the know, in the circle, people who will actually help them. And yes-- there will definitely be tears.

#leo in particular will probably panic at least a little when theyre confronted #because its been what? almost four years? #almost FOUR YEARS of him keeping this a secret at any cost #almost four years with no one else in the universe aside from his twin knowing #and now the spell is broken #but its okay #and they might panic and cry for a little but then they calm down and its... actually ok. things will actually be okay #april will take to big-sistering them so hard #and lowkey just? having venus exist in the household will be incredibly helpful #(she was honestly so baffled that everyone else didnt realize what was going on right away. it wasnt obvious????) #mikey tries to spoil them the same way he tries to spoil venus whenever she feels nasty #(but has to adjust a bit to respect boundaries because. donnie will bite him...) #likewise raph tries to take care of them the same way he'd take care of casey #(ie by leaving offerings at their doors and staying the fuck out of their way. just overall letting them do or have whatever they want) #their family will take care of them and keep them safe and things will get better #its honestly a huge relief when they get caught in some ways because leo can finally be like #and donnie got really sick one time and almost died and im scared itll happen again PLZ can we make sure it doesnt happen again #donnie in the background like >:0000 that leo just fucking OUTTED HIM LIKE THAT #but to leo 1000% worth it if it means donnie wont get sick and die #(as if donnie is actually realistically at any more significant risk of that than leo is) #(quite frankly theyre BOTH at risk of it at the time because of how stressed they are. lowkey a miracle neither of them eggbound yet smh) #also donnie def has internal scarring lmao;;;; poor bab. makes it a bit rough... #menstruation #tw menstruation #cw menstruation #gemini au #asks #anon #csa implied #cw csa implied

[bangcakes]

.

#personal #ok whatever. ive decided to go all in. like what?? am i just gonna sit around hoping he'll message me??? #someone has to make a move and CLEARLY it has to be me NDNNDJDJDJDJDJDJSJ #tho to be fair its like. holidays JJDJDJDJDJD #i also dont know if ive mentioned this detail. but im 2 years older. so idk if That also plays a factor. #like maybe thats intimidating. idk #i just !!!! dont want this chance to pass by. so im gonna like.... Make Moves even if !!!!! it means that he'll know i like him #like ...... ok assuming he doesnt already know NDJJDJDJDJD #im sure i get GooGoo eyes u know #but n e way...... literally i have nothing to lose #like i have more to lose if i do nothing JDJJDJDJDJDJND #hhhhh god. ive been thinking about this for days. weeks even maybe. hhhhhhhhhhhh..... #but also like i think itll just be good to hang iut as friends for a bit bc like ik him in a school setting and ive hung out with him #(along with others) outside of school twice #but like... ya idk id like to know him better b4 im like YA UR THE ONE. #tho like im already thinking he is NDJJDJDJFJFJ. god............ it could just be a culmination of different things making me think that #and like i think ppl can have multiple 'the ones' or whatever #and like idk b4 him i was actually settled on being single LMAO. so like my options are pretty stacked already #like ok 1. him. and 2. me. i mean......... thats 10/10.... #i'll be heartbroken if he doesnt feel the same or we dont work out but..... i mean.... whatever JDJXJXJDJZMZM #i was fine b4 i met him and i'll be fine after........

[valodia]

Talking about vidya games...

#my art #system tag #i just felt like drawing this conversation we had. #im having a weird day so im just doing whatever and posting this although i doubt anybody cares lol. #i hope the res is ok posting this. it crapped out while drafting so idk what itll do. #pannelled this too weirdly to break down into several different images. #i forgot to rate by score. fuck my baka life. ok so. #music rlly can enhance a vidya game. that being said i think its ok i didnt include it into the rating even though if i had thought about i #i wouldve. its because when i play some games i turn off the music which is the case in kenshi for example. #but in outer wilds the score is groundbreaking unparalleled never been done before etc so. #also some music have turned games into my fave. #hey i forgot to compare dark chronicle also to this. its my other fave game. #ok triad of fave games kenshi dark chronicle outer wilds. #bye.

[kwonhochi]

i am going to need. lots of luck and whatever else it takes to survive tomorrow pls hope i dont have to deal with any losers 🫶

#ive been working towards slowly being more visibly trans and tomorrow ig marks the #kinda official point ? that im fully going by leo and all that i dunno. itll probably be fine but from here on out im visible bc im soo done #hiding.! so from here on out everyone in my life is gonna know 👍 its taken almost year of me hyping myself up to get to this point kdjfhdj #scared but excited i think ^.^ #this past month ive been making a lot of big decisions abt what i want to keep doing and what i have to let go to let myself just be Me #its been a lot but im hoping im making the right decisions <3 im ready to move forward w whats best for me #ok rant(?)personal update(?) over we can all resume being silly now :3

[wall-e-gorl]

Adaptions need to know their chosen media and medium, their limits and strengths extremely well to pull off a good adaption. What can your medium do that the original couldn't, and is what you lose made worth losing by what you gain? What are you adding to this expirence that will make it stand up to (or taller than) the original?

#thinking about tlovm and how its a adaption from long from ttrpg to animated tv show #and how theyre doing it perfectly #what does animation add? we can see the magic. what does a tv show do that a dnd game cant? show the villans to the audience +not the heros #lots of lackluster adaptations just tell the story and dont add anything to make up for the stuff they lose from changing mediums! #sometimes its ok. if its a strong enough story itll still stand on its own diminished but a lot of the times its not enough compared to og

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#it is truly so wild to go from feeling miserable and hopeless all the time for... lets look at my excel sheet #the last 23 days. then to suddenly rocket up to smiling to myself all day. the world is so fucking beautiful #for no rational reason aside from what i have to assume is a chemical shift in my body #like is this what happy ppl feel like all the time? its truely so crazy. have i always been like this? #did i not notice this was a thing? like ive definitely noticed it in the last year but like ??? #my suspicion is that it doesnt actually last long enough to b considered hypomania but like idk i should see a doctor probably lol #u would think being happy would make it easier to do things but i just keep forgetting to do them and just like spacing out lol bc rn i #feel chill. even tho i need to make a list of the shit i gotta do by Friday. bleh. but idk it makes being in thr lab so much nicer bc i #mean. i still dont give a fuck abt what im doing but im like fuck it this isnt gonna b my problem in like 2-3 months. even tho im sure ill #still have to write up everything. but idk. it also makes it easier to b like. ok so i kno what my problems r lets plan yo make things not #so horrible so u dont just live a miserable life and then like die having lived a life of fear. like its so crazy how much easier thst is #to do rn??? well see how long it lasts but yea v strange. wish i could control my fucking focus tho. like that would b great #its like the fucking painting of hypnose. my focus is like a lighthouse wildly swinging its light around until it sometimes blasts me in #the face. like not helpful. i need to b able to do things. #i guess the weird thing rn is thst while i feel happy. i also have this like simmering fear of irrational things. like when i used to live #in my parents basement and i was terrified of the dark rooms down there at night. like that kind of childish baseless fear #but like im in i tiny tiny apartment lol like bro what r u scared of??? silly silly silly #idk hopefully it holds out the whole rest of the week and then i can travel and see my parents like !!! yo !!! happy vibes :-D #that would b kinda unhinged lmao. i doubt itll last thst long. its already slipped from this morning so we shall see #unrelated

[ironmanstan]

the dichotomy of man (need to get out of this fuckin house but if i go then i can not see my cats)

#JUST realized this and now i want to kill and explode and throw up #WHAT THE HELL WILL I DO . WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO ABOUT MY FISH ok i can probably take the fish with me #but MAN #thats such a FUCKING HASSLE #ill just stay here this is fine <- tormented by the horrors. ball and chained to familiarity #the gamer speaks uwu #guy who is terminally stressed and sick about change but desperately needs it to live a life #oooo i need to be in a hamster ball everything new can just be out of arms reach and i will be safe and contained forever #no more new experiences and life changes ill cry we should all just die actually so i never have to break out of my shell #sometimes im like im therapized i dont need to go to therapy i am sooo normal and then i say shit like all that n im like nvm #the desperately averse to change braincell is funny like is it the autism. is it the ptsd. probably both #bc i sure did like have a moment of like i should just drop out of school all of this is too much i cant do it anymore #wired in juuust the right way where i can live so much better than i ever have but itll stress me out enough where i still feel the urge #to throw it all away bc it is strange and weird. and then i have to resist that urge constantly bc ill be fully like cidal again if i do th #its so weird actually. oh u have friends? u take meds? u have irls now? strange and unfamiliar and scary get rid of it all <- the insanity #anyway sucks how there isnt a word i can use in place of men/women when im like 'women will x' but for being nonbinary #nonbinary mfs doesnt hit the same . enbies doesnt hit the same either #nonbinaries b like i am free from the horrors and then go down a whole spiral at the very thought of moving out of their nightmare house #vent #i guess oops what did this turn into

[samwisefamgee]

also I spent all weekend watching my friends' apartments just to get into an argument the morning they got back and walk my ass home that was fun

#i feel loved i feel respected im thriving im thriving #im happy im good my relationships are crumbling im loved i have student loans to pay next month im happy i have to get a wage slave job joy #joy incarnate #i wont kill myself once i get one ill definitely live a happy and fulfilled live ill be able to move out of this moldy trailer ill get away #finally away from the family who wants me dead ill find a safe place to live with people i can love and be loved by in return and SURELY #Surely fate wont damn me in the same way it always has! surely!!! surely!!!!! it cant every time right?!?? itll work this time if i try #if i just try again itll work this time right #and even if everything goes right if i actually DO get what i want i definitely still wont want to kill myself once i have it itll go away #definitely #surely #please #at least its always worked out for everyone else with no recounted cases of people trying their whole lives for nothing. its never happened #so im good right. itll be worth it because surely nothing bad happened to folks who keep trying #gang its worth it to keep trying right #fellas is it gay to be damned by the reality that hope is something you give yourself; that finding inner strength doesnt mean youll be ok? #im so fucking sick of everyone who says itll be ok #hope is something we need without any doubt but spare me the fucking idealism

[gibaraltar]

cw ai, suicidal ideation, negativity of all things to not regulate. why AI

#just saw some jpn AI regulatory news being shared in some of the ethical AI servers im in and like #“nah copyright just doesnt apply actually. lol have fun” okay ill kms then! #jpn already has an issue with creatives and workers overworking. this will only make the issue worse! #theres nothing people can do about having their entire identities stolen? ok #negative #ai bs #cw suicidal ideation #like what will there be left to live for lol #cant even create as a hobby because corps will feed anything I share digitally into a machine without my permission! #secret zine club where we physically meet and read each others works (you cant take home a copy) #its viscerally like. evil to me. to just steal someones voice and edit it freely. lol which is what this is about in this case #thats. one of the closest things to being part of their soul. what are you ursula? #why are we in the Bad timeline dude. i hope like hell this somehow comes out in the wash #like this is all some big overreaction on our parts and itll become normal and it isnt as bad as we think #but... idk

[frecht]

kind of annoyed at my friend :/

#ok so at the cafe at my school theyre having an event thats basically come play board games #and she texted the discord yesterday and said 'who wants to go to this?' and i said yes! i would! #and so i checked in with her bc its this afternoon like do you still want to go? what time should we go ? #bear in mind that she is the one who INVITED evwryone #and she said she has too much work #and i knoww i shouldnt like judge how much work she has but like she had only one class today. #couldnt she have done more of her work earlier considering that she MADE PLANS????? #and i really wanted to go to it i miss playing board games bc usually the only games i can play at school are. uno & cards against humanity #but im from a family who likes weird games my dad finds on Kickstarter (this is a lie only my dad and i play them. my sister and i refuse) #and i only get to play my weird kickstarter games at home! #not that i think theyll have weird kickstarter games :/ but at least itll be VARIETY!!! #SORRY i dont actually like uno and cards against humanity that much. but i need to play something else #i brought fluxx this semester but no one will play it bc they all wanted to play uno and cah first and by the end of those we were tired #they were done to death by like senior year of high school bc theyre the ONLY games anyone will play!!!! #and its honestly an effort to even laugh at any cah jokes at this point . sorry theyre so rarely funny. #and i feel bad bc i have one friend who laughs really easily and so they crack up and im just sitting there like . a corpse #talkin

[nomaishuttle]

AND im super excited to add rivers and stuff :]]

#i need to decide if i want it to be a fantasy world or a more realistic one #if its fantasy I keep typing fancy instead of fantasy ugh #anyways. if its fantasy itll be wayyy more world building #bc id have to decide what Kind of fantasy and all of the like #fantasy things would be ON TOP of normal worldbuilding stuff like the politics and the climates and stuff #roy not too much tho.. since either way id have different civilizations #just with each fantasy species id want to take care to make them all have different like. ykwim #my least favorite thing in fantasy is when theyre like And all elves like forests and all dwarves are miners when likee #irl #humans are all the same species but we all do all sorts of different things and have tons of different cultures.. so i hate it when they #just have humans have different cultures and every other race is a monolith like it makes no sense #or they have the humans have one culture ('normal' aka vaguely european) and everybody else gets 1 thats a poorly thought out stand in for #a real one... idt theres anything wrong abt getting inspiration from irl cultures at all as long as you do your research and are respectful #but i find it rly lazy to just be like. and the elves are like chinese people. like ok..? plus i think when you do that yr wayyyyy more #likely to be SO incredibly racist. yk ... its judt somrthing you have to be rly careful abt #but im excited for world build Is the basics of it ^-^ im always thinking Id be normal if i had a big big project so maybe this can be it..

[toastsnaffler]

istg one of these days.......

#ya know that post thats like texting lesbians: its throw bowling balls down the stairs day u better be game #one of my fave posts ever in the world #anyway my lesbian flatmate texts like the straight female friend part of that post and i love her but its killing me #its endearing but its so hard not to read it as flirty stoppitttt im already dedicating so much work to repressing this little crush 😭 #ALSO THAT POST THATS LIKE FLIRTING W GIRLS WILL HAVE U ADDING :3 TO UR TEXTS literally so true but I dont think she means it like that 😭😭 #like she talks to everyone that way I remember when I first met her me + my ex spent ages trying to work out if she was gay #bc we were so sure she had a gay vibe but every text felt like it was pointing the other way..... the vindication when I found out she WAS #anyway my resolve weakens with every 😘 emoji like im already thinking abt it dont give me any more ideas !!!! #its not even embarrassing anymore like how am i supposed to exist near someone like her WITHOUT ever having a gay thought #so im not sorry if she sees this. i take rejection like a champ dont be shy #but genuinely tho i dont think shes interested shes just cute like that. and idw make things weird cuz we're still living together next yr #itd be suchh a pain if i made things awkward right when we need to find a place. and anyway my best case is our 3rd flatmates WORST #i wouldnt do that to him god forbid #buuuut...... nope ok enough of that im going back to bed its almost 1am #this is what HAPPENS when u have insomnia tuning into the crazy radio every night #need to get onto dating apps and find smth new to distract me before this gets out of hand....... buttttt i dont want to >:| #its ok my patience is infinite i like playing the long game. i was into my ex for 2 and a half years before i made any moves #i can wait this one out too either itll happen eventually or itll pass. we're good #ok thats GOODNIGHT from me if u read this far wow ur nosy arent u...... jk ily sleep well everyone #muah all round #.diaries

[gibbearish]

vent

#had an issue a while ago where my bf was leaving his dirty clothes in piles on the floor which is fine except when the piles #are kept in the same room as the litterbox and the cat takes that as a cue to start pissing in piles of clothes #so i told him he couldnt do it anymore he said ok and then a bit later i caught the cat right as he was abt to piss in said clothes again #and when i was like 'hey i said you cant do this it can ruin your clothes if it gets left there' and he was like 'oh yeah i know but it's #my clothes so that's a risk i just decided to take' which uhhhh No????? no in so many ways????????? #but i didnt process how wack that is at the time so i just moved on and was like 'no but for real you cant do this anymore like not #a suggestion like legit This Cannot Continur Happening bc the end of this road is that the cat learns pissing in clothes piles is #ok whenever he wants' which did actually get him to stop but that was apparently enough learning time for mr carrot #we've had a few issues with it not toooo bad but its definitely been getting steadily more frequent #anyways guess whose electric blanket got pissed in today bc he left it in a pile on the floor and taught the cat its ok to piss in those #im having trouble giving a shit about it in the ways i should #like. idc that the blanket is maybe ruined #when he bought it he said it was for both of us but its just his so like idc but what i AM feeling is mad at him #cause like. i told him not to #and i shouldn't have HAD to tell him not to‚ 'the cat is pissing in my clothes so i will make it no longer possible for that to happen' #should be a no brainer i cannot imagine going 'welp i guess if it happens it happens' ITS PISS IN YOUR CLOTHES SITTING STALE FOR #WHO KNOWS HOW LONG and now we have to be hypervigilant abt Any Fabric Ever and who knows if itll escalate even further #hes already escalated from exclusively floor fabric to pissing in MY clothes that i was keeping on a table #like. the next stop is obviously couches/beds but like once they learn something its real hard to train them not to #and im just. frustrated that this is just gonna be yet another thing i have to deal with all the time when he shouldve just #Not Decided It Was Fine For The Cat To Piss In His Clothes In The First Place Hello?????!!! #but i also feel bad bc i feel like im holding a grudge about something small but i also Cant Let It Go #usually when the thing im mad abt is something insignificant its annoying for a bit then i let go but im just like !!!!!! what the fuck!!!! #idk. whatever #its his problem now idk how to get the heating psrt separate from the blanket part so i just sprayed some urine enzyme #on it and he can figure out wtf to do with in once he gets home in like two hours #and if thats too long and the smell gets baked in. oh well i guess #he hasnt been able to smell since we got covid anyways so like. its whatever i guess he can stew in a cat piss blanket if he wants #but i also cant tell if this is just a side effect of my General Irritability over the last few months and i really am mad abt nothing #ESPECIALLY because i keep saying it doesnt really directly effect me at this point then its like ok why are you so mad abt it then

[oasisofgalaxies]

worldbuilding is hard, kids

#ive been staring at dozens of articles for the past two hours #a lot of them are like 'IF YOU DONT HAVE THIS YOUR STORY WILL BE BAD/FEEL OFF' like ok girl chill #also #im just some guy with zero knowledge on politics or interplanetary politics #dont even get me started on star system economics #magic systems? sure thats up my alley. sci fi tech? ok i can do that #combination of both? sure lets do it #speculative biology? ok ill be doing some research but itll be fine #the list goes on #its just a tall order really #because a lot of the stuff i can do ! itll just take me a while #making planet maps/religions and cultures/foods/trade/etc #its just. a lot #the one thing im really struggling with tho is fucking. space governments and space ecomomies #governments are hehhghhsgks to understand and every time i try to research how to build an economy my brain shuts off at the first words #theres other stuff too that i struggle with that im forgetting to list because my brain is liquefying as we speak #im putting. so much work into this and. #sometimes i step back and look at what im talking about #this is for a hermitcraft au #well. as they say. #ive dug this pit myself and no one else is gonna dig it for me #shovels up lads we have a long way to go #nebula rambles

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@raiden-metal-gear-rising kising u ON THE LIPS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i made this meme :] #not my image (obviously. u know thats not my cat KSJDKLG) but i added the silly text heehoo #BUT HEEGHJGHJNJGKE THIS IS ME RN! !!!!!!!! showering u in hugs kisses snugles cuddles etc etc and so on and So Fucking Forth!!!!! #OH i love u so much u are so shaped methinks............. #we shoul!!!!!!!!! video chat aagain maybe!!!!!!!!!!!! ahgh i wish i had my webcam so i didnt have to use my laptop buti dont HAVE it anymor #and i am SOSAD but i wanna video chat again with u bc hrhrgrgrghgr ur prettyyyyyyy ur so preyrtyyyyyyy #either that ooorrrrrrrrrrr u could send me selfies more oftnen that workse too heehoo................................ #LITSTEN i jus like seeign ur face oke. u are very veyr very cute!!!!!! and prebby!!!!!! #and ur face? is kisable. and i am going to kis it #literally like a coupl hours ago i was jus layin down n i was just like Wow I Really Fuckign Wana Kis My Gf Rn lke i just #i do not mean jus typing u *mwah* or somethign i mean just like!!!!!!! actulally kissing u in Real Life!!!!!!! #i want to so bad i canot wait to meet u in person in a coupl months and jus!!!!!!!!!!! ghive u the biggest fucgiking kiss ever!!!!!!!!! #cause!!!!!!!! im gonna kis u so sofly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! an so happily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #an im gona wake up in ur bed and if i wake up before u do im gonna roll over ontop of u an give u liiiiiitol kises on ur face 2 wake u up.. #an i wil kissy u on da n ose an cheek an forhead an when u wake up i wil kis u on da lips!!!!!!!! #an if u wake up before me bro u can do thtate too........... gib me kiseys............. idk if itll wake me up or not bc am a heavy seeper #BUT stil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jus kis me rn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awajhwgahjw #i just love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! verey verey much #i kno the first coupl hours of today werent very Ebic but........ its oke...... things ar gona b oke i Prommy #Emotions Ar Jus Hard 2 Control but i wil work on it an ill b here if u neede anythimbg... i lub u lots no matter what....... #u my wife!!!!!!!!! u my gf!!!!!!! my she my she my she!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i just love u lots lots lst :) :) :) :) #im kisy u goodnite!!!!!!!!!!!!! goodnite seepyhead!!!!!!!! get gloopy ooupy sneepys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lubvs u :] :] <3333333