#we were best friends in high school

[rosicheeks]

🙄

#my friendship with my roommate is such a rollercoaster #I’m friends with her one second #and then she freaks out at me for no fucking reason #and now I’m like? #is it even worth being friends with her #like if I had a bunch of friends I feel like I would have left the friendship YEARS ago #but it’s so fucking hard to find friends #I think this is the time in my life I need to decide if it’s worth having shitty friends or if I’d rather just be alone #it’s just kinda ridiculous that I’ve been in this constant battle for YEARS now #we were best friends in high school #and I still remember talking to a few people back then #cause they knew my friendship with her was toxic #but I didn’t wanna see it cause I was in too deep #and now I’m stuck #do I keep a friend that has (kinda) been there for me #helping me with money cause she’s rich but not really being a good *friend* #like don’t get me wrong #I can’t thank her enough for all of the times she has helped me #but I need a friend who is going to BE THERE for me #who will listen to me when I want to bitch and complain about shit #who I’ll feel comfortable going to when I’m down #idk man I’m just rambling now #today just kinda really fucked our friendship #once we move idk how close we are going to be anymore #I just need to figure out how to make new friends #but how the fuck do you do that when you’re an adult #bahhhhhhhhhhhhh #shut up rosie

[voxmilia]

Oh Sklonda's righteous fury hits so hard, as a kid who WAS taken advantage of in many ways by her friends when she was in school, and whose mom tried to tell her they were being unkind and who didn't believe her until she got kinder friends

#christina liveblogs #for me it was middle school so i know we've all grown up #i wish those people nothing but the best in life #but absolutely time and again my generosity was taken advantage of #i got teased for my naivety #my mom loaned a friend $20 when she said she lost it as we were driven to the movies #she found her cash and instead of giving my mom her $20 back we went to the mall with $40 #i sat alone at a friend's house while they went to smoke weed in the garage bc i was Very much not the stoner i am now #and when we got to high school and i made friends with kids from my theater class #THEATER KIDS!!! #my middle school emo friends got upset bc i was being 'normal now' #they were not always good friends to me #and i was just like riz insisting it was fine i loved them they werent doing anything wrong #sklonda is right to be pissed and i love her for it #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #d20 spoilers #d20 #fantasy high #sklonda gukgak #riz gukgak

[yardsards]

also. amber gris as a character is really important to me as an appalachian.

not just her accent or the specific type of person justin based her off of but like

the feeling of losing someone to addiction/overdose while the government does nothing to help, just criminalizes and stigmatizes and makes things worse. which obviously happens in more places than just around here, but we have one of the highest rates of overdose death in the whole country and that whole set of scenes felt like they were really informed by growing up around that

#eliot posts #taz #taz ethersea #the adventure zone #amber gris #drugs cw #death mention #i've made posts like this and deleted them cuz i never feel like i'm wording it just right but just. god. #i'm lucky enough to have never been addicted or to have a best friend or immediate family member die from it #but i've lost or nearly lost extended family to it #and it's like. #my own accent isn't that thick and neither is my immediate family's or best friends' #but i've known ppl who talked like her. #specifically a man named larry who lived with us when we were real young #for some reason especially the way amber says ''come on'' just always reminds me so strongly of larry's voice. he said that phrase a lot #he was the one who taught me to tie my shoes even after my parents lost patience with me for being 'too old' to not understand #he drank excessively like my dad did but he never got mean with us kids #he came and went a few times over the years. the final time he left was when i was in late elementary #he died of an overdose when i was in high school. i didn't feel much of anything at the time. #it had been so long since i'd seen him but also i was at a point in my life where i'd've been numb to big emotions like that anyway #so my parents got drunk about it and i did nothing. just went to school and shit as usual. #i did not expect those feelings to get dredged up by a goddamned comedy dnd podcast #but they did it well i think #even though i had to pause it to take a breather multiple times. i enjoyed it overall. cathartic i guess?

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

i'm giving guadalajara too much shit but los pueblos negros (the black villages) are genuinely really freaking cool

also! my first experience with them was through an andrea compton video, cause she is from one of these villages!!! for those who don't know her, andrea compton is one of the most belovedests spanish youtubers, one of the ogs as well and i love her very much. anyways, she lived here until high school, where she went to live with her father in my hometown lol, in suburban madrid. so. pretty big change. i unfortunately cannot find her video, she might have just deleted it at this point - i watched it at least 10 years ago - but i found what her village is if you want to look it up, it's called roblelacasa, and as of 2016 it has 22 inhabitants. i remember she told in the video that she had to go to another village to go to school, and that in said school there were 6 kids in total, of course with different ages all together in the classroom.

#guadalajara #spain #also. and i feel obligated to say this every time i talk about andrea compton or inés hernand but it's the only good thing i can say #about my hometown #but not only did she live near me. the high school she went to is the one that's next to my house. like the park in front of the hs was #the park i went to when i was a kid #which most likely means i met andrea compton and inés hernand when they were teens and i was a kid #cause all the kids from that high school also go to that park #and for those who don't knw #inés hernand is like. one of the most important people in this country i would say??? at least among young people #she studied law but she's mostly a tv presenter nowadays and she is like. extremely political extremely leftist extremely funny #i love her #well they've talked thousands of times how andrea and her met on the first day of high school and became best friends and how tehy've been #inseparable since #to think that happened next to where i live while i was living there just blows my mind lmao #and we've met andrea compton cause she's my sister's favourite youtuber like she's been following her since she was like 10 #in fact my sister was the one who showed me the video about her village #anyways we've met her twice in anime cons and also we've also met her a couple times more in concerts and stuff cause she's fan of stuff #we also love sjdsj #and every time we talk about my hometown and we know ehere her dad lives (very close to us) and she's confirmed the high school was that on #and yeah. she's very dear to my heart and i'm extremely happy everytime she gets recognition cause it's only what she deserves <3

[chirpsythismorning]

best byler proof is rewatching 3x03 and 4x01 back to back!!!! Thank me later!!!

#stranger things #byler #to be clear #i'm not saying these are direct parallels literally #i'm saying that #in s3 mike went from refusing to play d&d with his best friend #to in s4 mike bumming in the halls asking absolute strangers to play d&d... #oh how the turntables #like dude is DESPERATE to have a semblance of what he didn't even realize was an option until he lost it #I know we all laugh at Mike's #I hate high school #quote because it's so unserious #but in the context of mike's arc over the seasons #specifically between s3-4... #it says a lot #mike went from: #I mean what did you think really? #that we were never gonna get gfs? #that we were just gonna sit in my basement all day and play games for the rest of our lives??? #to: #I HATE HIGH SCHOOL!?? #THAT SAYS IT ALL #ITS SO UNSERIOUS AND YET IT SAYS EVERYTHING #also #will's: WHERES DUSTIN RN? #answer currently: running around the hawkins middle school looking for erica to be their d&d sub #also dustin flicking off the phone aligned with the dub of the fight in mikes basement kind of slaps #ITS NOT MY FAULT YOU DONT LIKE GIRLS #'60 minutes begs to differ--' #WEAR A HELMET also killed me i had to

[villainanders]

birfday

#had SUCH a nice weekend my best friends from high school visited and we were all together in person for the first time since pre pandemic #:3 #and now I’m taking today off!! love 2 see it #me

[jfkisonthemoon]

honestly and legitimately i think one of the saddest things about me living at school is that 1. i no longer get to watch adam draw and 2. i can no longer pick up and tear off the scraps of his drawings to keep them

#going through my collection of all his old artwork and feeling 🥺🥺 #i genuinely used to keep almost every scrap he drew on..... i love having that record of his art #i am an archivist exclusively of my best friends art from when we were in middle school and high school #i bet he'll get all embarrassed if he sees this post tomorrow but whatever i miss getting his paper drawings #also i think its funny to watch his little caricature of himself develop and change over time #jessie speaks

[kay-elle-cee]

spending money i don't have on theater tickets like

#but look #my best friend is moving in the summer #and the cast album meant so much to us in high school #and we were going to go before covid but then uh #covid happened #so it didn't come around again until NOW #so fuck it

[loving-jack-kelly]

a boy who was best friends with one of my best friends in high school is now on facebook selling astrology readings and posting strange pseudoscience spiritual motivational speakers and every time I open facebook I'm like oh hello. not what I expected from you but whatever pays the bills I guess.

#he was like. super masculine football bro dude in high school #very nice and we got along fine when we were together which was pretty often #bc his best friend was one of my closest friends #but this is not the direction i expected him to take after high school lol

[banannabethchase]

I'm listening to the audiobook of "I Kissed Shara Wheeler", and oh boy the line where Georgia says they need Chloe because, as the bisexual, she's the only one in their gay friend group who can do math resonates way harder than it needed to.

#me and my spreadsheets approve of that message #iksw #in which Sara reads #I'm also like a little bit embarrassed at how easily they pinned who I was in high school #the only difference is I was nowhere near as smart as Chloe but equally as disliked #except for my group of best friends who as we're older now since we went to high school the late 00s did not find out we were queer until #after High School

[seagullcharmer]

sent this to my irl friends' groupchat bc we're called the katamari squad and. well. guess who's currently feelin' this rn

#libra.txt #just saw my friend's snapchat showing that they're all hanging out together. #this is like. the third or fourth time that i've seen stories where they're hanging out together #and. i've never been invited to any of them. #last time someone DID invite me was jaden. #jaden and i aren't actually friends. #so. aaaaaa cool. cool! this is fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #we were best friends in high school............. #why should i believe we'll ever hang out again!!!!!!! lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[femmesandhoney]

one of the number one homophobic interactions that affected me as a young child that taught me very early that showing even general affection to women was considered wrong in my conservative town was when this older daycare worker who i loved because i saw her every day yelled at me to stop holding my friend's hand and referring to her as my "girl friend". literally scolded me so harshly that i still remember it to this day and it was one of the first instances in my life where like little eight year old me had to monitor my interactions with the girls around me because without being explicitly told "lesbians are gross and sinful" it was easy to take away "women showing affection for other women is gross and sinful". interestingly, i grew up with my gay uncle and did see gay men get to express affection for one another when he brought his future husband around, but no one in my life every was like maybe we should also make it clear women can do this too and that's also okay? my family wasn't homophobic, but i don't think they realized how much i was taking away from the conservative town we lived in and feeling fucking horrible about myself for literal years. like at least until i was fourteen i had nerve-wracking guilt whenever i thought about my attraction or love for women romantically or platonically because i never wanted people around me to get mad at me, nor the girls to get grossed out or weird about it.

#i think i only really had one female friend who i was able to be openly affectionate with growing up throughout middle and high school #and i love her every day for being able to give me that fulfilling aspect of platonic friendship since i was so scared about it w everyone #i'm extremely touched starved now sadly thooooo uh yeah that tracks #literally kissed my best friend when we were like 10 or 11 and had terrible guilt over it every single time i thought about it #she didn't even react badly either lmao it was all just me!! feeling terrible for liking girls #like growing up a lesbian while knowing you're a lesbian and like convincing yourself to just ignore every single thought about it is like #very harmful definitely fucks you up

[babymorte]

True/false: you believe in platonic cuddles and/or sex

both true

make a true/false assumption about me 🫶🏻

#my best friend in high school and I would snug so much her mom though we were in a relationship 😂 #i am the snug queen #and as far as having sex with your friends so long as it doesn’t ruin your friendship I don’t see why it would be an issue 🤷🏻‍♀️😅

[aroacehanzawa]

lore drop

#that poll just now reminded me of my Toxic Homoerotic Codependent Female Friendship in high school #there was something obsessive going on between us because 1) i wasn't even in her friend group 2) everything she said or did was annoying #there was some stockholm syndrome situation going on. also a very succession tomgreg dynamic #you know how you invite a friend somewhere and they're like 'we're on our way' and you're like who's 'we' #and it's because they're a package deal with their partner apparently. yeah that was us but platonically. if you could even call it that #anyway her sense of humour was like that of a mean girl ie backhanded compliments and jokes at other people's expenses #always saying something that would subtly put others down. i got fed up with that at the beginning of our final year #and called her out on everything that Wasn't Good. which ultimately culminated in the Divorce #well there's more to it too but i could be here the whole day #i was so obsessed with her i misstook it for romantic feelings too and confessed to her in the middle of an argument LMAO #and then proceeded to ignore all her follow up questions. but in hindsight it clearly wasn't romantic anyway #except about a year after the Divorce she retrospectively confessed to me AND THEN REFUSED TO ELABORATE WHEN. as revenge i guess #actually the downfall started when we went to another city for an event and on the last day before the train back we were supposed to go #explore the city in what was essentially a (platonic) date except she ditched me for Some Guy she just met and claimed she had to go back #home early for a family situation and that he was giving her a ride because the train would arrive too late #that wasn't the only time she would just. abandon me like that. but it was the final straw for me #anyway. defining high school experience 👍 #the only good thing to come out of it was that she thoroughly insulted a classmate of ours that i stood up for and so i gained a new friend #who is still my best friend to this day

[torao-chan]

man idk what to tell yall

im just. exhausted atm

#i am working overtime weekly to try and make sure i have the time off i need to a) not have a stress seizure #and b) be able to have the Paid Time Off for the Forced Time Off around the xmas holidays #and i am. so fuckin tired #i dont work a full time schedule cause I Cannot Handle It and its never more apparent then when im forced to work overtime #maybe thats why mikotos videos hitting so hard atm for me idk man #im just #im tired man #did you know #my parent approached me. about 5 years after high school #everyday. after school. she'd ask us 'how are you' and everyday. without fail. the answer would be 'tired' #or if the question was 'how was today' for once. the answer was always 'long.' or 'tiring.' #but ye. about five years after. after we got our asd & adhd diagnosis. and before we got our DID diagnosis #she approached us and apologised. something along the lines of never realising that 'tired' was the best answer we could give #because we were Exhausted #and i always look back at that and go 'what. why. what did you think of us?' 'who did you think we were?' #you never accepted anything less than the answer that made the people around us the most comfortable #of course we were exhausted #Tired was Always the Best Answer we could give Without Lying #what about your child who refused to hang out with friends optionally. who refused out of school commitment options. who refused to do any #thing for their birthday. their celebrations. their anything and everything optional choice was Nothing #what on earth made you think We Weren't Exhausted #fuck man. we had Annual Seizures from Unknown causes (hint; it was Stress and Exhaustion. A N N U A L L Y) #idk #mikotos video has me Tired in a way We Already Were #and working overtime recently hasnt helped #im tired man. #im Tired #personal

[rosicheeks]

raspberry lavender sky sapphire rainbow rose burgundy? 💖💖💖

-🌸

#uhm hiiii 👀🥺🥺🥺🥺 #I’d consider you one of my friends 🥺 #I know I suck at talking a lot and showing it but the fact that I opened up to you that one time really speaks volumes #I don’t feel comfortable talking about personal stuff with a lot of people #you’re my bestie 🥺🥺🥺 #that I want to do unspeakable things with 🫣 #the funny part is high school was probably some of my best years #middle school was were I struggled A LOT #and then after high school it’s been a downward spiral #but high school??? I’d go back if I could haha #can we kiss??? CAN WE KISS?!?? #pls #pretty pretty please 👀👀👀 #and uhhhhhhhh yes to rainbow #yes yes yes #😘😘😘😘 #ask #🌸 anon