#what does this achieve? no idea

[12pt-times-new-roman]

I thought Matt name-dropping Laerryn was a fun little easter egg because Aabria was at the table, but.... no. If the Great Tree of Atrophy really is the remnants of the Tree of Names, then Chetney could use grim psychometry on it, he could see Laerryn casting blight, hear her name being called, and connect her to the name in Ludinus' notes.

#critical role #note watches c3 #critical role spoilers #critical role campaign 3 #critical role c3 #critical role meta #what does this achieve? no idea #could be that the lattice around Ruidus isn't a divine gate at all but a spell woven by its own tree of names #flying around in that great big dust storm #or it could simply be that Ludinus is trying to open a big gate and Laerryn was a historical figure who once did that #but the fact that the Tree of Names was designed in part to release enough energy to keep two primordial titans locked away #seems pretty damn important to what's happening with Ashton and the Bells Hells' generally primordial leanings right now

[beannary]

have some doodles of Donnie from my little prince au which you can check out here!

Big Mama has Donnie do like the most extracurriculars alksdjhf she wants her kid to be the best at everything and win every competition so she can live vicariously through him so Donnie finds himself with a bunch of hobbies that he just doesn't care for

He also has a pet cat named Schrodinger! Donnie doesnt get the chance to socialize a whole lot, or at least socialize of his own free will, like anytime he gets to socialize its at high society functions that Big Mama has him attend which he does NOT like, so Schrodinger is very much Donnie's best friend

#my art #tmnt #tmnt 2018 #2018 tmnt #tmnt 2k18 #2k18 tmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello #tmnt donnie #tmnt donatello #tlp au #the little prince separated au #rottmnt seprated au #tmnt separated au #ive been trying so hard to figure out like what Donnie's life would have been but I have no idea what the mega rich do with their kids #apparently they dont value academic achievements as much since those can just be bought with money #so a lot more value is placed on the arts #so donnie does a lot of like rich people activities #which he hates! #hed much rather be cooped up in his lab inventing random stuff #but nooooo he has to go compete in a horse show because Big Mama wants him to

[tibtew]

*clutching head* rodya and meursault would have such a good dynamic actually

I wonder if rodya would initially see meursault's indifference as like. a simpler version of her own feigned carefreeness and as a deliberate attempt to place himself as an outsider... only to realise that No, he really Is just Like That. and then she gets annoyed because it turns out that people who don't care about anything don't seem to be any fun.

(ofc he does actually care about a lot of things, just not necessarily his grander place in the world lol)

idk. nihilism vs absurdism. fun duo 👍 rodya would find meursault's genuine comfort with being a speck of dust in the universe baffling, while he would probably find her desire to assert her own importance pointless, but they could probably bond over little things like their shared desire to live in the present and appreciation of/indulgence in earthly joys. and meursault would probably listen if rodya wants to rant about anything without asking any uncomfortable questions. I think they could appreciate each other's presence.

#slamming my conspiracy board #listen it's not my fault meursault vibes with literally the entire female cast #rodya enjoyers help me out here please I haven't read crime and punishment am I talking out of my ass #I just think it'd be kind of interesting if like. rodya kills someone for a very specific reason (to assert herself as special) #while meursault kills someone for seemingly no good reason #but because of time place circumstance etc #meursault is the one made out to be the outsider to society #while rodya goes unacknowledged and all her motives backfire #like I'm not saying that meursault has Exactly what rodya wants or anything #but I think he Does possess a level of guiltlessness that she was trying to achieve through her self-confidence #also I find it interesting how pride is like. a big thing for both of them #like they both have excessive belief in themselves and their own abilities. in rodya it manifests as self-confidence or I guess. an ego #while in meursault it's more about. a belief in his own interpretation of the world rather than himself as a person? I hope that makes sens #also they both reject collectivist ideas which is. fun #neither of them perform to what a society would expect from them but for rodya it's an active effort to assert her individuality #while meursault just Doesn't Get societal conventions from the get-go unless they're explained to him #I think they also both tend to project a lot 💀 meursault expects his own indifference from others while rodya projects her own #experiences onto others' and makes assumptions based on that before knowing the full details #txt #limbus company #I feel too embarrassed to add more specific tags ngl 💀 💀 💀 #lcb meursault #lcb rodion #lcb rodya #nvm. feelings of cringe are for Losers I am Strong

[ajdrawshq]

ok. going for round 2.5 of isat instead of doing anything else on the completely normal and uneventful days that are today and tomorrow + however long this takes to accomplish. objectives:

get epilogue part i missed

hit max level with everyone (is there a difference in the event dialogue depending on which act this happens in??)

spend wayyy more time doing things in act 2 bc its too easy to speed thru it and miss stuff that might be different. like im talking ALL of the side quests possible and interact w Everything. apologies in advance to siffrin for this we are hitting loop amounts that should be unthinkable

interact with the leaf while in the room w the globe specifically. not sure if it does anything but i wanna check

sus achievement. need

figure out how to unlock that one house in town w an openphrase?? if possible?? surely theres a way to do that. right

do that mini quest w the bonding earrings pair bc i couldnt find who the other person was for the life of me . need to check epilogue

get all loop conversations ?

keep save of every act for future reference

collect and keep ALL souveniers during the last bit until the end . ive seen what they all do beforehand but some get used up so thats very missable

find the last equipment ?? where could that even be

whatever the rest of the achievements are that i dont know how to unlock. hopefully along the way <3

#i think i know how to do most of this. i think. probably #no idea what most of the hidden game achievements are tho.. #maybe ill hit em by accident #isat #this is just me making sure i remember what im doing for this playthrough . but really does the dialogue for that event change at all #i would think so but do i really wanna get them to that level so early in the game without that one memory.... #either way thats definitely an act 4ish thing. i cant remember if getting that memory is when u enter act 4 or not #sure as hell would be funny to try it in act 2 tho .. #actually is there a way to open that one house. dont tell me how just tell me if there is bc im genuinely unsure #the current lack of guides makes this a bit rough but its fun to find things on my own :3

[fellhellion]

tbh after finishing reload and 5’s first arc, it rlly do feel like 4 doesn’t really. do a lot with souji’s characterisation in relation to that game’s central themes. “you can see through the fog a little” okay cool but like, why. can u give us a little more on what it means for Souji specifically that he doesn’t lie to himself unlike everyone else who has to face a shadow??

#like. u come off the heels of reload which has such a deeply moving story abt someone who not only harboured death but like. Is kinda #emblematic of apathy. and transitions over the course of the game to becoming someone who’s interconnected w the community and his friends #to such an extent that he achieves a miracle yknow #Akira is angry. so angry at a system that punished him for doing the right thing and it’s like #incredibly moving to see him refute any idea that he wasn’t wrong to make that choice even tho he suffered for it #and then it’s like. okay can we get something more on why souji walks past Yosuke twice without saying anything shdhfjfjf or doing anything #why does he specifically not lie to himself #what’s that meannnnn to the character yknow #and I understand these protagonists got the inherent tension of needing to be an audience surrogate to an extent #but like. genuinely souji feels lacking compared to the other two imo #even tho I still like him and his role in the story #tunes talks critical #tunes talks persona

[sevenines]

i wish steven universe went more into the watermelon stevens (said no one ever, but hear me out!) i wish they went more into how steven made a whole society and abandoned them, just like the diamonds do, just like rose did. and how it demonstrates that having such immense powers very easily leads to a disregard for life.

#steven universe #revisiting them in future would’ve been perfect! this is like #the most diamond thing he’s ever done #(though technically they did it with cactus steven but the watermelons are a whole group!!) #and now he’s left them behind and they absolutely idolize him #there’s so much wrapped up in the watermelon stevens you can go on forever #i wish more people would see escapism for the great episode it is because of this!! #but they are vessels for an infinite amount of topics #in escapism it’s how arguing about methodology (pacifism? violence?) truly does not matter to steven at this point #he’s about to face WHITE DIAMOND and he /could/ debate over whether he should ‘kill her’ or not (ugh) #but what matters most is getting the job done #and in change your mind’s case that was achieved through… changing your mind! #i also love the idea that the watermelon stevens tell the story of gemkind as a whole #steven banishes them to their own business and gives them one parting message #one goal to achieve #(to understand baby melon’s actions) #what if that’s what happened to the gems? they were made once but then abandoned with only one goal implanted in their minds #to carry out forever and ever? #(make more gems) #ohhh gems-as-robots framing how i love you so much #also just to toss that in here it’s fun to think abt the watermelons as an invasive species (which is steven’s va zach’s interpretation) #just like how the gems are invasive to earth!

[fr0gg13b413]

[that feeling when you finally submit yourself wholly to academia…] there are no gods here to betray, only ourselves, only our futures.

#damn that line though #academia #i am fueled knowing Time is coming for me. She does not know mercy. #nothing is terminal. death is inevitable. #nothing will stop me. #no more destruction #if it is to persist then it'll be in my favour #chaotic academia #?? #i have no clue #<3 #ineptias loquor #in other news i just had a banger nap. those ones that upon waking you have no idea who you are; where you are; or what year it is. <3333 #procrastination #achiever #the little forest cryptid speaks #musings

[dutybcrne]

Smth smth Kae may worry abt any biological child if his getting afflicted with the Curse, whether they ought to be informed abt their Heritage or held secret up until a certain age, or worst case, them being hurt by Celestia or sb, but you can BET he’d jump his partner’s bones in a heartbeat if they so much as said they thought abt kids

#//Goes from ‘Hm there are so many issues that can come up; maybe I oughta rethink ever having kids’ #//To ‘by the stars; put a fucken baby in me; ASAP; I swear to the fucken Archons and Sovereigns alike-’ #//Particularly if his partner actually CAN knock him up hfhhf #//But he’d still react the same with a partner who can’t otherwise who’d be just as down to #//Se le bota la canica hdbfb #//But also bc ideally it’d make for a lighter mood when he does bring up the subject of kids afterwards; impulse aside #hc; kaeya #//Wants kids so gottdam bad; even if he is so worried abt possibilities and potential troubles #//But having a partner makes him all the more reassured; since it wouldn’t be just him looking after them #//still will have his moments of Fear and overprotectiveness but yeah #//Plus it’s a Bonus that his partner would be made happy by the idea of having kids too #//So it’s even MORE motivation #//He’s dreamed of having a happy lil family like what Crepus had given him; that’s his idea of him ‘making it’ #//Achieving a secure enough world or having gained enough strength to safely raise a fam with no fears of losing them #//Only love and warmth; as he’d been given

[thatscarletflycatcher]

If Percival and Nadine was to have a contemporary ya romance name (the typical of non-fantasy, non-myth retelling, non-spec novels, I mean), it would have to be something involving a metaphor of light.

That dark neo-noir radio drama starring David Morrissey (it IS really dark. The lengths I'll go to just hear the interpretative power of his voice. Anyways), called Don't Hold Back the Light keeps coming to mind again and again. The imagery of dawn and sunrise keeps coming to me, in part through the songs I feel fit the story in partial ways (Keane's Bend and Break, Rick Astley's Rise Up, James Blunt's Bonfire Heart, even the melody of Lionel Ritchie's Stuck on You), but also because it feels thematically pertinent.

Both find themselves in night, not only in the despair, and tiredness, and hurt and brokenness, but on the idea that they had their day in the Sun, as life is metaphorically a day, and that it is over, and yet they linger. BUT where they are at the beginning, the idea of a new day sounds scary. And exhausting. There's a sliver of hope deep, deep down, like a candle on a window in a faraway house in the middle of nowhere. But for the most part, they'd like to hold it back if they could. And yet that feels wrong to them.

#look I'm not saying the idea or the imagery aren't like... extremely common #but they feel fitting #have been thinking about this within the frame of It's a Beautiful Life #Nadine is a bit like Mary in the way that she had a dream and a goal and she was laser focused on achieving it #but in her case it all went wrong really fast so what now? #Unlike George Percival has no sense that he has done more damage than good #he was a good son! he made his parents happy! but they are dead #he was a good brother! but his sister is married well cared for and far away #as the heir of Avensley? well does that mean anything at this point? it was already a dying relic by the time his father inherited it #he thinks himself too broken in mind and body to be a good husband and father in the future #sure there's a death of his own professional dreams #but they aren't renunciations from his pov #the alternate good was such a clear direct personal duty that it isn't like there was an alternative for him #not to count the things prevented by things completely outside his control like war #he's passively suicidal because he thinks of himself as just having outlived his usefulness #so anyways it is all about new beginnings and therefore naturally about dawn and light #incidentally I have been obsessed ever since I watched The Lake House with the idea of Architecture being tied to light #and the concept of a LI that is an architect which is such an unexplored concept? #and I feel it is very interesting in terms of how precision and the mastery over force are crucial to i #but also the idea of the builder of home and shelter #unfortunately it has made me realize the unintended implication that James as an aviator destroys shelter #and Percival as an architect builds them #which cannot be helped at this point but is definitely not a sort of love triangle thing #James was essentially a good man in his time and place and not a bad husband for how long their marriage lasted

[autumnfangirler]

caine and chen as acceptance through faith vs caine and ortega as acceptance through obedience

#caine lynzal #dont have the braincells to rant properly but #caine sees chen as an equal and would trust him with his life #trusts him to end things when everything is over. trusts him to understand that the only way to stop them is through death #they may disagree with eachother over what they choose to fight for #but they have faith that the other knows what theyre trying to achieve #meanwhile with ortega #hes an enigma #he has no idea why he does what he does #how could they? they have no way to read his mind #so they default. they assume that ortega knows best even when he really doesnt and will do whats asked even if he shouldnt #and as things go on theyre going to have to figure out the hard way that ortega isnt his handler #and that they cant defer to him all the time #being stuck as hark- where he actually sees and treats ortega as an equal- will prlly be the best thing for his relationship tbh #sorry did i say i couldnt rant properly #well. ig i lied

[daz4i]

ok. every story has at least one. esp when they have a really big cast of characters. so. who in bsd is the "oh no by marina" archetype

#like. ''i know exactly what i want and who i want to be'' is very kunikida. but he's not really after success so it's Not Quite him #maybe fyodor? 🤔 he does have a goal he will stop at nothing to achieve and mostly avoids bonds with others in the process #but we don't know enough abt his psyche to say if the Vibes fit i think. he's doesn't consider failure an option for example. #I'd say sigma's got the vibes nailed to a t but as soon as you dig deeper into his psyche it falls apart #bc again he's not really abt success he just wants a place to belong. so. he does do love and does do friends. #idk maybe akutagawa????.......actually that's an interesting idea #anyway if you have your own take or someone i overlooked. hit me. we will find an answer.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also a special shoutout for real like wendy epic ableism moments when she stops talking directly to winston and expresses this is b/c he communicates too incorrectly (here too literally or whatever, once again whether he misinterpreted her or she misinterpreted him, it's put on him) and thus he doesn't deserve that

#winston billions #and i mean handshake with how winston's basically not considered allowed to talk at all by anyone out here #but like. alright we're not showing that winston is in the room mostly for a joke but even randos are like ''hmm. bit impolite'' lol #but once we do see him b/c he's speaking....like actually it Is heinously rude / diminishing / infantilizing to be spoken to indirectly #and The Behavior Is Inherently Ableist Here like ofc it's probably rude no matter what outside some kind of rly specific contexts lol but #that here she Is just implying he doesn't get to be spoken to b/c of some shortcoming / assumed lack of capacity #whatever she Does mean by ''see the matrix'' which is nothing but convenient vagueness abt Ability anyways #he's only here b/c she thinks he's annoying or w/e or otherwise extrinsically showing lack of value (can't be ableism there....) #and like winston and any other character is like. it's not textual sure but it doesn't need to be Textually Labeled #and sometimes can't be when ppl absolutely write based of ppl they know / encounter but don't know are autistic or etc #and that's how it works irl too. someone being Officially(tm) Autistic or smthing shouldn't be some necessary disclosure #b/c it's about The Underlying Principles At Play vs making some approved ''exceptions.'' if he's supposedly allistic it's still sm shit. #like how trans ppl & transphobia could exist prior to those terms even existing to be used. ppl are affected by them w/o being Out.... #& btw like ppl still saying some shit like ''some autistic ppl will just be Bad At / Have No Social Skills & you have to be chill abt it'' #like what does [social skills] mean here. what's the underlying element of socializing that they may do differently but you say is a Worse #or Absent version of the ''normal'' way of going about things. even if you actually get specific enough abt what a ''skill'' is; which is #gonna be a non universal non rule probably inaccurate idea of a Normal(tm) pattern of behavior/approach; sure maybe some ppl will struggle #to do that or largely/entirely not be able to do it / be unwilling to do it; gasp; what's its goal/effect & do they pursue/achieve that #another way. e.g how much AAC could be considered inherently ''bad'' re socializing or a lack of w/e ''skills'' or etc. #then like ok so once again a begrudging exception for autistic ppl is made. what's ''being okay with'' that even look like then? is anyone #gonna be using their ''good social skills'' to more successfully interact w/them? is Not socially excluding / ostracizing / punishing an #autistic person an Exception / something Extra you heroically do? e.g. & so what if some theoretical person isn't socially engaging w/other #ppl in any way. what do & don't they ''deserve'' differently from others b/c of that. #& anyways meanwhile they're certainly talking abt winston's Capabilities. but mostly talking around it b/c the point is He Gets Results & #will keep getting those results b/c why wouldn't he. but they can just cite anything to argue why oh but he doesn't Really have the value #cue vague shit like matrix refs b/c if he was Reeally talented we'd think he acts right. b/c Any bs can be said b/c winston doesn't have #the insulation or backup or ability to independently wield/gain social status his way through this shit. is only allowed to talk to #coworkers abt it by making it abt taylor actually (which is also true). still only makes it b/c rian is correctly remaining in the #acceptable range of being offbeat. so she already has more power than him & can choose to keep him around as that fun punching bag ig yay #then nobody cares. also he can't say he controls an instrument but Others refer to ''genius'' but negatively. wendy rhoades Would do ABA fr

[fellhellion]

This part of the editorial from 2099 (pic sourced from this post) is so interesting to me because i don’t even think the idea of Miguel having these kinds of flaws is uninteresting or impossible, but I just personally would never have come to this conclusion just based on the text.

Like, when I personally look at how Miguel and Dana interact, I don’t see any indication that he emotionally condescends to having a relationship with her, when you’d think this strain of elitism should shine through in some part of their relationship at least initially in his arc.

I don’t look at Xina and Miguel’s interactions and interpret any sense him feeling threatened by her intelligence (even if we're just talking purely pre-spidermanning), when you’d think an element of that would be present, even in a flashback. He was a callous dickhead about the cheating explanation, but that alone without some corresponding behaviour to how he speaks to/treats Dana, even just as a flashback, just doesn’t offer the bridging piece to displaying what the authorial intent apparently was, at least for me.

Also, and by god we always come back to Dana’s writing being so damn lazy, but if Miguel - even if only at first - sought Dana out due to the emotional convenience she provided, what has prompted enough change that he is willing to bear and forgive actions like her seeking out the company of the man who drugged him when she wants to needle Miguel.

ALSO. PETER DAVID I AM SPEAKING DIRECTLY INTO YOUR EAR RN. ITS VERY SILLY TO ME TO POINT OUT THE MISOGYNISTIC STREAK INTENDED IN MIGUEL’S ACTIONS HERE BUT THEN LITERALLY JUST NOT BOTHER TO MAKE THE WOMAN THIS IS ABOUT MAKE LIKE. SENSE WHEN YOU WROTE HER. OFFER NO EXPLORATION INTO WHAT HER ACTIONS SPEAK TO IN HER PERSON AND DELVE INTO WHAT CONTRADICTORY ACTS MIGHT TELL US ABOUT HER.

#'a component to miguel's cheating is misogynistic thinking' AND IS THE MISOGYNISTIC THINKING IN THE ROOM WITH US NOW #idk idk...i genuinely have no issue with grappling w this as a character flaw of his i just would never have come to this conclusion on my #own PURELY from how he treated dana and xina. absolute asshole move w how he spoke of the cheating intially to xina #but that alone just makes him an asshole. not someone who felt threatened by her intelligence and THATS the piece that i dont personally se #in the text. #not to mention. the way dana and miguel's relationship is tonally depicted just. speaks of some lvl of sincerity to me. miguel isn't an #overly physically affectionate person and the times he does display that are really interesting (holding Gabriel when the abuse was going o #holding Xina when she blamed herself for Dana's death etc etc) #and then you have the way he holds Dana when he accidentally hits her while hallucinating from the rapture. he calls her lover and honey. #they cuddle in the bath that one time together. he recognises he hasnt been spending enough time w her and went to invite her out because o #it. and yeah. some of these we can absolutely chalk up to the character development hes having at the same time due to spidermanning but #even BEFORE that its like. it feels tonally dissonant to even try read Dana's actions at face value because the narrative doesnt CARE #about them making sense as part of a coherent whole person who thinks and rationalises actions to achieve a certain outcome or satisfy a #desire. it doesnt CARE enough to give her that sadly and so youre just left like. what does this relationship mean to these two characters? #for one party in particular i genuinely have no idea. and i dont know what to infer is the reason for a change from the mentality outlined #as authorial intent. because i didnt get that impression in the first place. #tunes talks 2099 #tunes talks critical #long post

[quintsmachete]

what in the goddamn

#sorry i don’t usually post dumb takes i see but this one left me speechless #if you knew that you could never die you would not appreciate the things in life the same way #‘i’ll never get tired of having only good times 🤪’ and how would you know you’re having good times if you’ve never had bad? #what frame of reference is there? how would you know the meaning of non-suffering if you don’t have suffering to compare it to? #light does not exist without dark and vice versa #infinite good times do not exist you would just be existing neutral. the addition of a ‘good’ signifier implies that you have something - #to compare it to #another scenario: let’s say you’ve suffered before and magically are only able to have ‘good times’ for the rest of ur life #you would go insane. #and is it only you in this scenario? because then you wouldn’t feel grief or sadness when your loved ones die #the hurting of others would not enrage you #you would lose everyone around you because you could sympathize with no one and then not feel anything when you lose them #i genuinely can’t wrap my head around the idea that thinking death gives life meaning is ‘cope’ #coping with what exactly. #the fact that everything dies at some point? #op kept arguing in the notes about how immortals would have a different perspective and frame of morals #which is just like. why are you arguing and trying to bring yourself to an immortal person’s state of mind when you know being immortal - #will literally never be achievable? this is not putting yourself in the shoes of the first person to walk on mars someday. this is - #putting yourself in the shoes of idk. a god or something #immortality will never happen why are you trying to reach the hypothetical immortality mindset #sounds like you’re the one coping with the fact that you’ll die someday #beep beep ritchie

[ozymoron]

in a beautiful world, i would be drawing rn. but alas. i am too afraid of fucking it up to even try

#⚠️ #like girl you will never know till you try #you need to practice to get better girl #girl no ones going to make the art for you #draw your ideas girl or they will just disappear and you will be disappointed you never drew them #girl only you know that the drawings fucked up. even if the drawing is perfect in your own eyes to someone else it may still be flawed #what you may see as a flaw in your art other people may not even notice or may even enjoy girl #girl beauty is in the eye of the beholder perfection does exist and to try to achieve it is a fruitless endeavour #girl draw that thang.

[carcinized]

feeling of growing into my body is so nice too. god puberty sucked

#i mean i had other stuff too. and so do probably most of my followers bc Trans Things. i never had dysphoria from being trans tho #it was all from discomfort during puberty + depersonalization #so now that both of those have lessened + ive gotten better at managing them. HOLY SHIT ITS NICE #i dont feel ashamed of my body!!! ive achieved complete body neutrality its so fucking awesome #i dont even feel like i need to dress up anymore. nor am i uncomfortable with the idea that someone could find me attractive #bc i understand its not my job to be or not be attractive its just my job to EXIST. other ppl can think whatever they want about me #its SO NICE. i am growing into my life its so lovely. #just a bit of positivity for you guys :] this site (and online spaces in general) can be so negative bc it’s a safe place to ent #so heres a break from that. from someone who struggled heavily w mental illness for multiple years #i don’t want to disclose what or why but it wasnt just quirky depression anxiety etc it was like from real scary shit + near death experienc #<- not to say anxiety & depression don’t suck. what i mean is that it wasn’t quirky ‘omg i have anxiety im so scared of everyone 🥺👉👈’ #type shit that every white girl highschooler insists they have. it wasnt just beingn sad cus of high school LMAO #NOT TO DOWNPLAY THAT BUT LIKE. U KNOW THE PPL I MEAN. u dont have anxiety/ocd/depression dude youre just Sad. fairly so but itsnot Disorder #but. from someone who went thru all that. IT GETS BETTER. also if ur like 13-15 ur brain hormones suck and it gets better 100% #like everything feels So Bad but its just uour brain chemicals and i am so sorry uour brain does that. BUT IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE. <3 #it doesnt make your struggles easier but you should know that it DOES get better. <3 love u #ok <3 take care guys #tobin talks